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tsundozer · 5 years

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Prompt #2: Dear Dad

FFxivWrite2018 Prompt #2: Silenced

Character: Ihjia’a Yhundo

Dear Dad,

Things have been pretty tough over here. I’m actually living on my own right now. In pearl lane, mostly. Though I was recently given the offer to stay at a clinic. Do you remember Oko? Oko Kaprei? She said you and her had worked out an arrangement, wherein I’d stay with her. Well, she’s gone, now. I understand why it had to happen.

No I don’t.

That’s a lie.

I don’t understand it.

I don’t understand anything at all.

I don’t understand why I was born to die. I don’t understand, why I’ve been saved, given a second chance, only to feel like--like it doesn’t really matter in the end. I feel like I drowned, that day. I feel like the waters chewed me up, swallowed me whole, and this is just some long and protracted dying dream. Some, morbid, riotous nightmare from which I’m unable to awake.

And I can’t help but wonder.

Was part of her glad to leave? Is that why I didn’t go with her? Is that why she didn’t take me? Because I’m a problem?

And, what about you?

Do you love that man more than me? Do you love the wood more than me? Your new life, the things you’ve achieved, the life you’ve built for yourself? Is the real reason you sent me away to Oko, because. You didn’t want me to be a part of it?

Did you get rid of me too? Maybe you did. I’m sorry. That was cruel of me. I shouldn’t think those things. I shouldn’t feel those things. I know they’re not true. Or at least. I tell myself over and over, they’re not true, hoping I eventually believe them.

I guess I’m just. Broken.

I wish I wasn’t.

I wish I could die, and come back instead as the flowers which bloom nearby the home you raised me in. Or as a tree, to guard wherever you live. When my leaves rustled, it’d be my songs lulling you to sleep. When the winds howled, it would be my voice whispering that I loved you. Or as your child. Really your child. To be borne from your lineage and cradled against you, safe and secure. To be small enough to be held, and rocked, and have sweet nothings and promises of security whispered into my ears. To curl up against your side as thunder pealed and lightning casts threatening figures upon the walls. To never have to know that the world was the kind of world, that I had to grow up in before. Ul’dah is every bit the monster you said it was, and then some. The jewel of the desert has been no kinder to the wood. At least the wood had you.

Dad.

I want to go home.

Jia crumpled the paper, and tossed it carelessly amidst the rest of the garbage in Pearl Lane. They wiped at their eyes, banged aggressively upon barrels and crates frenetically with no rhythm or pace, until they felt. Just a bit better.

He tried again.

Dear Dad,

Things are going great in Ul’dah! I’ve been practicing my music still (’Drums’ mostly, I don’t have a piano where I’m living right now). I still visit the museum often. I’ve given up on being a Gladiator, but I’ve started pursuing a career in music. Memma had to go to school, but K’velkha is currently staying there. Did I tell you that I’m dating, now? Me. In a relationship. Wild, right? Who woulda thought.

I miss you a lot, but I guess that’s just how it is, huh? I’m doing well. I hope you’re happy.

Please come visit soon?

Love,

Azucena Yhundo

Jia!

#FFxivWrite2018 #Ihjia'a Yhundo

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wheresyourhope · 5 years

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Am I allowed to ask but what do you headcanon your muses Sexuality as?

Curious Anons || Accepting

ooc: I’d been holding onto this ask for awhile since I hadn’t thought about it for all of my muses, but I’ve had time to mull it over.

Under the cut, I’ll elaborate on everyone’s sexualities as I see them at this moment. They’re subject to change of course. Interactions can always influence them either way, and they can discover more about themselves.

As of right now, though, these are my headcanons.

Makoto is mostly interested in girls, but I do have a verse where he and Hajime are a thing. I guess that makes him bisexual with a clear preference. He’s mostly interested in Kyoko, but he branches out. He’s full of love, and he wants to give it even though he’s a shy boy.

Hina is more into girls, too, but I can see her also having an attraction to guys if given the opportunity. She just has…big girl loving energy. So far, I just have stuff with her and Sakura, but again, things can change.

Given her fantasies, Celeste is probably into guys but open to experimentation or just doing things to get what she wants. When it comes to these things, it’d be hard for her to actually love someone given her history.

I imagine Chihiro probably doesn’t have a preference of gender. He has all these insecurities, so he assumes no one will like him. He’s no stranger to guys approaching him, but it’d really surprise him if a girl wanted to date.

Toko and Jill will tell you they both like men, but post-Ultra Despair Girls, they’ll probably question that a bit. Toko hadn’t entertained the possibility before, so it’s a whole new romantic world to explore. Jill is just surprised someone likes her.

Mukuro doesn’t really focus on sexuality, but she definitely has the biggest crush on Makoto. It would take a lot to get her to be invested in a relationship. It’s also hard for me to see her doing anything sexual willy-nilly if at all.

Chiaki definitely doesn’t care about gender. She’s a big ol’ pan girl. As long as you have a good heart and don’t mind if she plays a lot of video games, you’re set. You can be her Player 2. Maybe even add a Player 3 if you want. She doesn’t mind at all.

Mahiru definitely likes girls and maybe certain guys who can actually meet her high standards. Her really high standards. Like Hajime.

I can really only see Peko with Fuyuhiko, but that could change. She mostly focuses on her duties and swordsmanship. It’d be hard to attract her attention since so far only one person has been able to do that.

Sonia is open to anything, but I imagine she likely would prefer to be with a guy because of her position. She wouldn’t mind being with anyone regardless as long as she liked them enough. I don’t think she’d mind having more than one person either as long as everyone was happy.

Mikan also has no preferences. Anyone giving her attention makes her happy. Not a healthy mindset, no, but that’s how she sees it. I personally like the idea of her having a girlfriend, though.

Nagito is a big disaster gay, but he does have love feelings for all embodiments of hope. He hasn’t attached to anyone other than Hajime and Izuru. It’s hard for me to see him with anyone else right now, but he hasn’t interacted enough with other people or developed any other relationships.

Izuru doesn’t care. At all. If you ask him, he’ll just say “do whatever you want” or something like that.

And Gundham is the Overlord of Cuddling His Boyfriend Ultimate Lucky Student Hajime Hinata. That’s about it.

#[ big ol' sexuality post i guess #i had to sit on it for awhile but #damn here we are ]#x Black or White || Anonymous Ask #x Rebuttal Showdown || Asks #x Perfectly Average || Makoto Headcanons #x Change of Place || Hina Headcanons #x Mind for Strategy || Celeste Headcanons #x How Weak I Am || Chihiro Headcanons #x Perfectly Envisioned || Toko Headcanons #x Make You Happy || Mukuro Headcanons #x Do Our Best || Chiaki Headcanons #x So We Won't Forget || Mahiru Headcanons #x Suited for Battle || Peko Headcanons #x Trouble Here and There || Sonia Headcanons #x It's Much Better || Mikan Headcanons #x Cursed with Luck || Nagito Headcanons #x A Certain Degree of Selection || Izuru Headcanons #x Of Devil and Angel || Gundham Headcanons

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oveliagirlhaditright · 4 years

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Even though I like Rokushi and Namiku, I'm hesitant to say that Nomura regrets Rokunami or that he's dropped it. Mostly because a lot of people used to say that about Sokai, especially after Coded and KH3D, but of course that wasn't the case at all.

I mean... there are days I definitely feel that, that I’m being a bit of a hypocrite for saying that R*okuNami is dead when I never felt that way about my beloved S*oKai. But at the same time... I’m going to sound like a bitch here and like I don’t ship R*okuNami or sympathize with any R*okuNami fans’ pain at all (I do like R*okuNami and feel for their fans, as I’m partly one of them), but some days I think R*okuNami fans are reaching in still believing it. And I’m just saying that so people don’t get their points up again and are disappointed (but, hey. Maybe the reverse will happen. Maybe I’ll convince myself R*okuNami is dead--and R*okuShi and N*amiku are canon--and I’ll be the one to lose out when the reverse happens).

Like, with S*oKai... K*airi was referenced in every single game--usually by S*ora thinking of her in some way, even if it was moreso friendship-esque than romantic--you can’t say the same about R*okuNami.

The closest they got in D*ays, was R*oxas saying that the person who told him the truth would be the person he trusts--probably eluding to N*aminé, yes--but this still isn’t a lot? Better than stuff we’ve gotten since, sure (this actually made me ship R*okuNami more than the whole of K*HII did). But just because R*oxas says he’ll trust her, it doesn’t necessarily mean that he’s going to fall in love with her forever and marry her. I know people says D*ays was limited by K*HII having N*aminé say she “wanted to meet R*oxas just once”--indicating that that was their first time meeting--and that since D*ays was a prequel, they couldn’t have done much with them. But IDK. If he’d wanted, N*omura could have had N*aminé meet R*oxas in D*ays and later wipe his memory of it and lie to keep up the illusion when she “met him for the first time” in K*HII, but I know that would have opened a whole other can of worms. He also could have had N*aminé mean her “I wanted to meet you at least once” line loosely, like she wanted to meet him/see him in the Digital version of T*wilight Town--or that version of him--at least once, but had met him before. That’s what people used to do in their fanfics.

And then in the metaphorical, B*bS secret ending--where everyone is wishing for S*ora to save them--R*oxas and N*aminé aren’t together, but rather N*aminé is by herself and R*oxas is with A*xel and X*ion... Which seems pretty telling to me after their whole “wanting to be together everyday” thing (telling of R*oxas’ heart to me, not necessarily N*aminé’s, because she never wanted to be alone). I know it’s metaphorical, but still.

Everyone says that Data R*oxas was protecting D*ata N*aminé in R*e:Coded, but that’s just a headcanon (one that I think I was the first to come up with, in trying to still find some R*okuNami for their fans in these games). Nothing came out and said that, though. You could just as easily argue that D*ata N*aminé had D*ata R*iku as part of her plan, but neither is canon as far as we know. I also don’t think it shows R*oxas and N*aminé together, when D*ata S*ora is seeing everyone he needs to save? Not that that would necessarily matter, though.

There was no R*okuNami in D*DD, even when S*ora’s seeing visions of R*oxas, X*ion, and N*aminé... R*oxas and N*aminé are not together there, and R*oxas doesn’t react from within S*ora to seeing N*aminé. But R*oxas, through S*ora, cries when he sees X*ion. I know it’s a different situation... because X*ion was someone he cared about deeply, who died and who he forgot, and that was him first starting to remember her. But IDK.

Chi and 0.2 had no R*okuNami, but that’s understandable because neither of them are in these games. But interestingly, during this time, we were getting things like “K*airi” being able to get girl versions of S*ora’s clothes in KH Chi, and “N*aminé” being able to get girl versions of R*iku’s.

Before I*I.8 showed R*okuNami in their shipping credits, I thought it was dead for sure. But when it was there, I assumed K*HIII was going to do stuff with them and make them fully canon, after all... but it didn’t. The most we get of R*okuNami in K*HIII is S*ora turning into R*oxas when he looks at N*aminé (that isn’t necessarily romantic). And R*oxas seeing R*iku pick N*aminé up in the Gummi Ship, but he doesn’t pick her up himself (and yes, S*ora tells N*aminé that R*oxas misses her... but he says that with other people who miss her platonically, and R*oxas isn’t the “special certain someone that S*ora knows won’t let her down”). R*iku being the one to pick her up may have been him fulfilling R*epliku’s dying wish... but if R*oxas was in love with her, or whatever, you’d think he would have been there, too. You could argue that R*iku didn’t tell R*oxas he was going to get her, but I feel like that’s reaching (...and I’m even the one who started this next idea--as a way to say R*okuNami might not be dead--but I think the idea that R*oxas and N*aminé sharing the paopus when S*ora and K*airi did is also reaching, because literally nothing once hints at this). They also don’t interact at all in the happy K*HIII ending. And I know that ending is moreso people interacting who we really hadn’t seen do so before (but not even entirely), but meh.

People want to believe that R*okuNami might come back in the next games... because N*omura said he wanted to do more with N*aminé in III and just couldn’t fit her into the plot, but will probably try to get whatever his plans were for her into the next games--and now that it seems like N*aminé is living with the gang in T*wilight Town, too (but it’s also interesting that we don’t see that in the games yet)--but I just don’t buy it. That’s just me. And if you want to, that’s fine... but I think if N*omura really still cared about R*okuNami, he would show them interacting or talking or really seeming to care about each other... especially after K*HII acted like they were already in love with each other and had them saying they want to be together every day... but he hasn’t. But meanwhile, R*okuShi gets all the content and N*amiku is starting to get a lot of it, too.

Like, after K*HIII, I think Square Enix gave Y*oko S*himomura flowers after one of her concert performances... and it had a picture of R*iku and N*aminé holding hands on it, not something R*oxas and N*aminé related. And... N*aminé is on R*iku’s heart station, but not R*oxas’. X*ion is on his, though... I know they recycled assets, but I feel like if Nomura cared about R*okuNami at all he’d make some kind of effort with them... but he doesn’t. Re:Mind also added at least one R*okuShi and N*amiku scene, but no new R*okuNami anything.

The novels--that people argue aren’t canon (I see them as third-tier canon, as N*omura gets the final say in everything there, but whatever)--also strongly hints at R*okuShi and N*amiku over R*okuNami. There may be some bias here, since the novel writer helped come up with X*ion and that whole story, but it is what it is.

I also feel like the manga favors R*okuShi more... and that isn’t canon at all. But I still feel A*mano clearly got his ideas from somewhere.

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owosa · 4 years

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Alma & Oko: Height differences

Because I was really curious about it, did a sketch...and then the whole thing.

>Alma is from Mika ( @angisam ), a spanish girl with a giant love for the Earth, ecologist and most of the time a pacifist. Has no interest on the paranormal and only discovered the irken by accident.

>Oko is my irken, a Ranker, wich I explained better on her sheet. Basically a sensor that walks, ended up on Earth with a false mission, met the human and fell in love with dogs. Her first human disguise literally have a ballet skirt because “is what normal young female human use”. Her robot assistant is DEL, a security sistem in a tiny violent package.

While the girls are doing their thing on Spain, the bois are doing theirs on the other side of the globe. This is when both humans first met, post Florpus, mostly because Dib got to travel there with his father and Oko was using a very clear irken symbol on her shirt.

It wasn’t planned, but Mika ended up controling both humans and I control both irkens. We don’t rp this story, we mostly talk it out and I draw random scenes in no chronogical order. All I have to say about that is after seeing all these wonderful Aus where the characters have beautiful arcs of redemption and development ...our Dib and Zim are still two jerks fighting each others to death xD

If you are curious, all my drawing so far are tagged under oko.

#oko #alma #irkensona #iz #invader zim #dib membrane #dib #zim #irken oc #other oc #love our girls to death #make me happy to draw them <3

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