what are your thoughts on the ministrife situation? imo literally the worst fate for eridan to be damned to tbh

i think he will eventually (after <5 minutes) just shoot cronus and leave. (CW for mentions of abuse and cronus's romantic grossness and stuff under the cut).

Ignoring the extremely creepy and gross fact that Hussie doesn't seem to have a problem with the age gap (it's There, we've acknowledged that it's creepy and weird, i personally think it highlights how immature the dancestors are despite their physical age, and it actually serves to hint at how trash they are, but it's still really uncomfortable in the moment and never gets properly called out. In any case we've talked about it critically, we can move on and talk about characterization now), he and cronus are actually kind of polar opposites. Given that Cronus, along with many of the dancestors, are riffing on what the fandom interpretation of their Alternian counterparts are, it's kind of a fascinating look at all the things Eridan ISN'T.

The fandom (especially at the time) had flattened Eridan down to "overdramatic Nice Guy hipster who won't stop hitting on people," with varying degrees of sympathy. In other words, they took all of Eridan's outward presentation - the narration calling his genuine anxiety and distress "overblown emotional theatrics," the fact that his being rejected was a running gag - entirely at face value, while also missing what sort of archetype he was actually supposed to represent.

At no point does Eridan ever actually mention a hipster interest, like vintage clothes or indie media. It's all entirely in his design and Karkat calling him a hipster (it's not even in his character introduction), so presumably, it IS a part of his character (Karkat knows him really well), but it's probably a part he keeps to himself, like his love of wizards.

Moreover, he isn't really a Nice Guy. The closest he gets is thinking Nepeta owes him a chance for saving her life, but as far as we can tell, he only ever asked her once, got rejected, accepted that rejection, and has never taken out that rejection on her. When he complains about it, he frames it as a bitter "I guess what I did wasn't enough," not "she's an unreasonable witch withholding romance from me even though I'm so nice to her." All other romance attempts are crimes of... just being way too forward.

He bursts into Kanaya's DMs demanding she auspicetisize with Vriska because... that's what she likes to do, right? The same happens to Terezi in [S] Karkat: Wake Up. He comes on strong in Rose's DMs and after getting a little annoyance back, goes "wow, we kinda have something," and does not realize her blowing up his computer is a rejection because she didn't explicitly tell him no and he's a dumbass. And even though he's nasty at Sollux because emotionally, he's still bitter about Sollux "stealing" Feferi from him, at least CONSCIOUSLY he's recognized the rejection on both fronts and has repeatedly told Feferi that he has no more interest in getting back together with her, in spite of her recognizing that he's emotionally not over her. And speaking of Feferi, his confession to her is entirely genuine and respectful toward her feelings. At no point does he indicate that he feels like she owes him a date.

These aren't Nice Guy actions, they're "I have 0 social skills or self-awareness" actions. And also a little bit "due to my trauma and anxiety and desensitization to murder, I struggle to care about other people" actions. He's not even actually casteist or genocidal - I spent an entire essay arguing that.

But regardless, that's what the fandom ran with, in large part because they didn't bother reading between the lines. Ironically, like Eridan, they just believed what he told them. I don't even necessarily blame the fandom - at least part of this obfuscation was intentional, and a clever trick on the part of the writing. By highlighting Eridan at his worst, and having the narration be complicit in his self-delusion and mockery, the story is able to put the audience in the same mindset as his in-universe bullies - Eridan is dumb weirdo whose emotional problems are worthy of ridicule, not sympathy. Let's all point and laugh!

This sets up his meltdown to be more of a twist - even though his literal introduction is him killing something and talking about genocide, the very real danger he poses is forgotten both by the audience and the other characters because they've gotten so used to dismissing his feelings that they ignore his cries for help and the warning signals he gives off. And it makes his character more relevant and meaningful, because this happens in real life all the time - I'm sure we either all either knew, or were, the friendless weirdo at school who, upon reflection, definitely had either some bad shit going on at home or severe and untreated mental illness (or both).

The reason I'm bringing up this fandom misinterpretation is because, like a couple other dancestors, Cronus is very much a riff on the fanon version of his Alternian counterpart. Unlike Eridan, who's not actually casteist, but desperately trying to act the part, Cronus IS a casteist sea dweller who thinks he's better than lowbloods and land dwellers. Unlike Eridan, who seeks emotional connections with others, and accepts rejections, Cronus is only looking for some action, and keeps trying even well after he knows he's been rejected. Unlike Eridan, who's so consumed by anxiety and trauma that he's pretty much unable to function properly, Cronus DOES exaggerate his problems and explicitly leverage them for attention and sympathy. And unlike Eridan, who feels crushed under the weight of duty and responsibility, and tends to blame himself when things go wrong, Cronus refuses to take responsibility for anything, immediately blaming anybody BUT himself.

They're practically exact opposites, and this is, again, a clever trick on the part of the writing. It's an excellent usage of a foil: though superficially similar, the differences between these two really serves to highlight just how much Eridan is NOT the things that Cronus IS.

And it's especially interesting given that Eridan spent his entire life trying to emulate Dualscar, to the point of modeling his outfit after the guy. To him, it was not only his duty, but his inevitable fate, to wind up as Dualscar's successor. And when he finally meets the guy in person, his opinion is "even I think you're trash."

If that isn't a form of rejecting the values his society has told him repeatedly that he has to uphold, maybe in the service of perhaps setting up some sort of redemption arc or something, I don't know what is.

I've seen people point to this moment as kind of a hee haw funny one-off joke, look at how little Hussie cares about Eridan, but that's not what it is to me. You don't really need to say anything more about their relationship to each other. Eridan thinks Cronus (and by extension, everything Cronus stands for - and everything Eridan has tried to be) is garbage, but is lonely and friendless and desperate enough that he feels pushed into accepting it anyway. It's extremely consistent with his characterization and character arc.

So uh, yeah. Join me next time for more deep dives on how this funny innocuous thing in Homestuck actually Means Something.

i genuinely wonder how many other people have this kind of experience - like, doing Internal Family Systems work established pretty well for me that probably everyone is a bit of a intra-brain collective of sorts.

but i definitely start to think, as with so many other things with neurodiversity and trauma, the DSM has created a weird-ass binary. there's a threshold to cross before the thing you're experiencing has a name, but leaves this gutter where you are still experiencing the thing but not enough to 'count'.

what if you only have little a dissociative fracturing, as a treat? if all your self-bits are still mainly you but disagree on things that make you feel like a single walking contradiction? we've all been 'in two minds' about stuff, but what about when those minds respond to the disagreement by deciding this town isn't big enough for the two of them? where it just feels like you don't know what you want, all the time, because no part of you is aware that there's a need for arbitration and on an absurd unconscious level your mind only knows one solution to a stalemate, which is Attempt To Forcibly Put The Other Part In Brain Jail And Declare It Not A Part Of You Any More?

(it was a hideously painful experience at the time, but i can laugh now at past me changing their name back and forth about three times, and constantly switching between being Loudly Genderweird and walking it back entirely and declaring myself A Girl Apathetic About Gender, Everyone Disregard, False Alarm. in retrospect, it all seems so silly - but both of the parts fighting had really valid needs and a straight argument between them was unwinnable.)

i bet way more people have this going on than anyone talks about. this thing where internal conflict is conducted through power struggles and parts trying to smother one another, creating layers of exile-guarding, internal heirarchies of command, the brain's way of going "good luck, i'm behind 7 proxies"

because let's be real, nobody who doesn't already describe themselves in terms of alters and systems wants to talk about it, it's so stigmatised. how many people are going to want to give people the impression they have one of the most misrepresented trauma responses of all time? how do you talk about it without claiming to be a system, unless you're familiar with IFS?

16., 1., and indie for Riddler!

@askthelovenest

1 - I say this way too much but that panel where he's in college and he has like the stereotypical Guy Who Thinks He's in the Matrix trench coat oh my gossdudususjsjsjzjj it's so cute to me. I love his little dress shirts too. like omg hello little office man lets kiss! his riddler getup is cute to me which makes me sound deranged but I love weird masks (<- grew up loving slashers. help) and I regularly think of how nice it feels 2 hug someone who's got a bunch of layers on, sensory wise? he needs to let me borrow a mask too so we can matchy though >:3€

16 - OK SO LIKE, thog don't caare that I'm shorter than him etc he is still sitting in my lap and letting me hold him because we both like that.... also I regularly get insecure that I'm not nice to hug or lay on but he does not mind and there is nowhere he'd rather be than resting his head on my chest... which makes me happy! he lets me put my head in his lap or on his tummy too when im scared or anxious. I like petting his hair and he also likes it (u know how cats like when u scratch their chins/heads with long nails... yeas)

indie - OH I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY ABOUT THIS ACTUALLY. ry1 has made me like insanely in love w him... we both grew up catholic and have a weird relationship w it, neither of us spoke much or at all as children and were treated poorly cuz of it, we both struggle w understanding social situations and try very hard to be nice to people and take it very hard / beat ourselves up when we mess up... also idk if it's confirmed or not (it is to Me ^_^) but we r both neurodivergent and it's genuinely helped me so much shipping w him I'm more compassionate to myself when i deal w stuff... aahh aaah horses hjh horses. his fixation on batman reminds me a lot of how I can be with others sometimes and I think I could help him recover from feeling super rejected... and he could help me too.. since we've both latched onto ppl to our own detriment before... ive placed a lot of importance and self worth on my own academic success and he does the same and I think unlearning that together brings us closer together... & we both are the type of ppl to notice the small things about others and to romanticize them when we love them ...

THE NEW DAILY BRAINROT: TAROT

Okay this is kind of a big one, and I'm not sure how to break it down. It's also 12:36 AM as I'm starting this (go figure). I'll likely only do two cards per day maximum, we'll see how it goes.

I think we'll go from major arcana to minor arcana, based both on details and character presence, discussing the meaning of the cards and picking apart the associated illustrations/guidebook entries. Each card gets its own post, but they'll all get linked into this masterpost. After that, we'll start piecing together what it all means.

We've had this talk before, tarot was actually the first chat I had on byler tumblr. So...some of this is repeat info, but there's some funky stuff going on based on who and what is included where.

MAJOR ARCANA

The Fool: As I discussed with a mutual back in July (?) or August, having Will be The Fool is a fitting choice. Generally, from what I've read, The Fool (upright) is characterized with new beginnings and leaps of faith, as well as innocence and indulging ones inner child. The guidebook says much of the same, choosing to focus on the beginning of a new adventure. That makes sense, the whole show started with Will.

Reversed, The Fool represents two distinct possibilities. One, the reader is stalling due to lack of confidence or ability. Two, the reader is behaving too recklessly without considering the way their actions might affect others. The guidebook chooses to focus on the former, and talks about fearing the unknown and fearing loss of control.

That is all...very Will Byers. Like...painfully Will Byers.

What I find interesting, though, is the illustration.

On the face of the card, Will is turned away from us, holding a walkie. He's in the woods in the darkness of the UD, but there's a single source of light shining from in front of him at face height.

The Weird Parts: he's in his season 2 plaid outfit. Will is never in the woods in that outfit, let alone with a walkie. Also, the light has no discernible source. It's just...directly at face height. It's not a street lamp or anything. It just...is.

On top of that: The Fool has no number. THE FOOL HAS NO NUMBER.

That means he has the ability to be the beginning and the ending of the deck. The Fool can occur anywhere at any time, because he is the main character of the story that is the Major Arcana.

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THE HIGH PRIESTESS

El is The High Priestess, because of course she is. The High Priestess acts as a go-between for the material and mystical realms.

Upright, The High Priestess is all about divine intuition, looking within yourself for understanding, and finding compassion and empathy within yourself. The High Priestess is meant to reveal truths that might not be apparent, and provide insight that tells you things aren't always as they seem. The guidebook says about the same.

Reversed, she tells you that you are struggling with this kind of self-perception and intuition. A reversed High Priestess is telling you to "pull back the curtain", if you will. This could be in regards to something about yourself that you haven't fully realized yet, or about something you refuse to acknowledge. In essence, a reversed High Priestess is the universe telling you: Be fucking fr. Deep down, you already know the truth. You just have to perceive and acknowledge it.

The guidebook focuses more on how that relates you to other people. It talks about focusing more on others' opinions of you than on what's really best for you. It tells you to trust your instincts. For our purposes...close enough!

The illustration is fairly straightforward. El looks very mystical in her pink dress from season 1 with a blue blanket cape (likely a blanket from Mike) slung over one shoulder, but not the other. She has her hand raised, clearly using her powers.

The Weird Part: The light source on her face seems to be...coming from her hand? That is, her hand is lit significantly brighter than the rest of her, and it highlights her face on that side. In conjunction with the light coming from Will's face...it might worth thinking about in the future (I'm not sure yet).

(It's also fun to note that the numbers are in roman numerals, so 2 ends up as II, which looks like an eleven)

Parts:

1, 2, 3, 4, 5.../(At least 15?)

Teen Mom star Tyler Baltierra has sobbed as he confronted his sexual abuse trauma and his decision to place his daughter for adoption.

The MTV dad brought cameras along as he underwent an emotional Ketamine therapy treatment session.

During Wednesday's Teen Mom: The Next Chapter, Tyler, 31, was guided by a therapist during the session, facing his inner child and confronting his dark past.

The reality star confessed early in the session: "The sexual identity got robbed out of me. I didn’t get to develop it myself. I didn’t get to do any of it on my own. I felt like that, I don’t know, it kind of mutated into this hypersexuality."

He later claimed: "I literally had a child that I had to place for adoption pretty much, I think, because of it."

Tyler and Catelynn Lowell got pregnant with their eldest daughter Carly in high school and placed her for adoption.

The father of four was asked during the session if he could forgive himself, saying: "I don't know if I can," as tears streamed down his cheeks.

Asked what he would tell his younger self, Tyler said: "It’s not your fault that these people failed you. I really feel that I was failed.

"My mom, like she tried her hardest but it wasn’t good. I was so little."

He again got emotional as he confessed: "I never talked about the details of that abuse but it was very, very aggressive."

After he was injected with the drug by a doctor, he laid back with an eyemask over his eyes.

He was able to visit his eight-year-old self, helping him to face his "fear" and overcome the trauma.

Tyler, who has been open with fans about the fact that he once considered suicide, told the therapist the session gave him "confirmation that I'm supposed to be here."

He then credited his children, claiming they're his reason for living.

Earlier this season, Tyler and his wife Catelynn Lowell were shown seeking help amid concerns for their oldest daughter Nova.

Catelynn revealed on the MTV reality show that the eight-year-old was struggling with body image.

At cheer practice, Nova expressed concern about wearing a tiny tank top.

Catelynn was immediately concerned and brought it up to Tyler.

It quickly became clear that this was triggering something in him.

He questioned: "Is that just part of her wanting her own privacy or is it because something happened?"

He noted it was "weird" to hear her struggling at such a young age.

Later in the episode, Nova again expressed similar concerns about a tank top.

At that point, Catelynn shared with viewers why Tyler was having such a hard time with the situation as a whole.

In addition to being a concerned dad, Tyler himself was sexually abused in second grade – the same age as Nova in the episode.

The couple reached out to a therapist, who provided them with some tips about talking to their daughter.

Catelynn revealed during their session: "For both of us growing up, we've had sexual abuse things happen to us. Both of us as kids."

Tyler then jumped in, saying: "I did notice our eight-year-old recently she's like saying stuff recently about wearing tank tops and what people might think and I tried to ask her, like, 'where is this coming form?'"

The therapist armed the couple with helpful tools for talking to Nova.

Catelynn and Tyler were quick to put those tips into practice, chatting with Nova about body autonomy and the difference between safe and unsafe secrets.

Tyler first went in-depth about his abuse during a November 2022 episode of Teen Mom.

He sobbed during a solo therapy session, as he attempted to heal his past wounds.

Tyler said on the show that the abuse he suffered as a child continues to affect him as an adult and a parent.

He said on Teen Mom: "I definitely feel a hyper-vigilance with my kids and I think the closer my oldest daughter Nova gets to the age that stuff happened to me, I feel like paranoia of, like, everything from her teachers and where and who."

The doctor encouraged Tyler to close his eyes and key into where in his body his anxiety was coming up.

He said: "I get kind of scared. I need help. Get me out of here."

The doctor then suggested: "Go back to that eight-year-old Tyler who felt really scared."

Tyler cried as he admitted: "Yeah, I don't think I can do that. Sorry."

He went on, saying: "I get angry. I feel very betrayed by adults and, like, I think the message that no one's gonna help me so I gotta figure out a way to get through this without if affecting me forever."

He said on the show that he felt "ashamed" looking at all the good in his life after all that he's been through.

Viewers empathized with him, with one writing: "Thank you, @TylerBaltierra, for sharing your story, not being afraid to share, and seeking help."

Me: hon?

Gf: hm?

Me: We are like. Kind of incredible, actually. Aren't we

Gf: it's fucked up, right?

When I first met my husband, Neal, I thought he was gay. Maybe that's because he told me he was gay. So while I was attracted to him, I figured he would just be my gay best friend. Then, one night, we wound up in bed together, and let's just say that he did not act like a gay best friend usually acts. In fact, he seemed more comfortable with my body than plenty of straight men I'd dated had been. And after a hot-and-heavy weekend, I knew a lot more about Neal than "gay" had hinted at: He'd been married before (to a woman), and he was (still is) attracted to both sexes. Since his divorce he'd mostly dated men, so he'd gone with "gay" over "bi" when we met, but deep down that's what he is: bisexual. I was not entirely surprised, and I was definitely not disappointed.

However, I did have some concerns. Early in our relationship, which got super serious, super fast, I was anxious: I worried Neal would change his mind, say that he was actually truly 100 percent gay after all, and leave me for a man. (Maybe you've heard the joke? A man who says he's bisexual is gay, straight, or lying.) Another part of me worried whether a bisexual guy could ever really be monogamous. Also, didn't being with a man who was interested in men and women mean that I was competing against everyone in the world for his attention?

I just wasn't that familiar with bi guys. Bi women are practically mainstream: Megan Fox, Lady Gaga, Anna Paquin, Jessie J, and Evan Rachel Wood, to name only a few, have all spoken openly about being bisexual. When a woman says she's bi, it makes her more desirable to men. But few celeb men are out as bi—and you never see two guys making out in a bar to get women to pay attention.

Plus, I must admit I wondered whether all the stuff people say about bisexuals might actually turn out to be true—that they're untrustworthy, just going through a phase, or slutty; that they'll break your heart or give you STDs and probably cooties too.

Dating a bi guy, even one as great and as honest as Neal, was daunting to think about.

The sliding scale of sexuality explained

Understanding the basic science of bisexuality helped me a lot. Ritch Savin-Williams, professor of developmental psychology at Cornell University, who has done extensive research into arousal patterns of gay and bisexual individuals, puts it simply: "Bisexual men are attracted to both sexes. They have variations in how much they lean toward women or men." It's important to note that Savin-Williams, like most social scientists, differentiates between sexual orientation and sexual behavior. "So a guy could be attracted to 70 percent men and 30 percent women," he says, "but still meet a woman he wants to spend the rest of his life with and be monogamous. His orientation is bi, but his sexual behavior is straight." Conversely, if someone is having sex with both women and men, then he is behaviorally bisexual, regardless of what he says his orientation is.

What many women struggle with is not the fear that a guy is bi but the fear that he's temporarily bi and will eventually identify as gay. It's not a weird thing to worry about (I worried about it!), since many men have done exactly that. "Before homosexuality was as accepted as it is now," says Allen Rosenthal, a researcher at Northwestern University, "homosexual men often identified as bi in the process of coming out, like getting their feet wet. But it was a disservice to genuinely bisexual men because it left a lot of people with the impression that bi is a transitional orientation." The good news is that the reasons the bi-to-gay move used to be so prevalent—societal and family pressures, fears of being openly gay—are lessening. These days, it's more OK to be gay, and that's making it more OK to be bi. Progress!

So Could You, Should You? We asked glamour.com readers if they'd date a bi guy. The results:

__I'd have a lot of questions,

but maybe.……………………………16%

No way.………………………………..36%

Totally, why not?…………………….48%

In other words, two out of three of you would consider it. Explained one commenter: "If he's into me, he's into me. If he happens to be into guys too, well…we only have more in common!"__

Our little nonsecret

Neal assuaged my anxieties by being so enthusiastic about me that I had no reason to doubt his attraction. I was impressed by his self-awareness too. He realized he was bisexual when he was 20, and he still considers himself attracted to both sexes, at a ratio of about 80:20, women to men. My friends said he was an improvement over more macho guys I'd brought home in the past, and no one really made a big deal about the bi thing. They'd already seen him with men and with women, and we run with a pretty arty crowd. Bottom line: I was in love. As the years passed, I saw that Neal had more integrity and self-knowledge than anyone I'd ever known. And so, reader, I married him. We've been together and monogamous for 12 years, married for eight.

Neal is comfortable with his sexuality. He's "straightish," in the terminology of a gay friend of ours. But he is kind of "gayish" too. He is a performance artist, eccentric, and has—true to stereotype—better style than I do. And if I'm like, "Wow, Mike is superhot," he doesn't stare blankly but says, "Totally. Because of the way he plays guitar, right?"

Generally, we don't tell the world about Neal's orientation (well, until now!). Not everyone is as supportive as our circle, and to be honest, I have zero interest in talking with someone who thinks I'm in a sham marriage just because my guy doesn't go, "Ewww!" when Channing Tatum takes off his shirt.

There have been a few bumps along the road. Early on, Neal confessed that he had a crush on someone else. In the moment before he told me who it was, as my heart sank, I thought: Oh God, it's a man. He's gay. He's going to leave me for a man. I am a fool. How did I not see it coming? How stupid could I be?

Then he told me who it was: a woman. And we worked through it. In retrospect, I think we would have been OK even if it had been a man. In the years since, we've weathered crushes I've developed too, and a million other surprising and not-so-surprising things. I don't think we're any more open-minded than most couples—but the amount of honesty required at the beginning of our relationship has served us well.

Talk, then talk some more

So how do you make it work with a bi guy? "If I were a woman involved with a bisexual man," says Savin-Williams, "I would have very honest communication with him about what he means when he uses the term." Trust me, I asked Neal a lot of questions about what he was into and what to expect as our relationship deepened. Would he commit to monogamy? What kind of boundaries did we need to set up? Be clear about what you're asking, warns Lisa Diamond, professor of developmental psychology at the University of Utah. "The question Are you attracted to men?' is different from Would you want to have a sexual relationship with a man?'" she points out. "Many men might say, It's a hot fantasy, but not one I would act on.'" At that point the question becomes whether or not you're OK with the fantasy. On the other hand, if he says he wants more than a fantasy when it comes to men…then he might not be the guy for you.

No matter whom you're dating, part of love is taking that leap into the unknown. "The only way to be truly sure," says Barbara Hernandez, a family and marriage therapist, "is over time. It depends on the values of the person, and the strength of commitment, and whether both partners work hard at it." Good advice for any couple, even a straight-as-an-arrow one.

At some point, if you're still freaking out about whether your bi guy is really bi, you might need to acknowledge that what you're worried about is whether he's really yours. "We all need to be honest with ourselves," says Diamond. "I wonder if the underlying concern isn't the same one we always have: Does he really want me? Is he going to leave me? That's a concern as old as the hills." With Neal, I came to look at it this way: If he was choosing to be with me, then he was choosing me over all men and women everywhere. And that felt kind of awesome.

Believe it or not, Neal's sexuality doesn't come up that often in our daily lives. My failure to close drawers, his inability to throw anything away, and an ongoing disagreement on who is the more lenient parent are all topics that cause more strife than his sometimes thinking men are hot. Really, who can blame him? Men are hot, especially ones who are honest and confident. Especially ones who, even though they may be attracted to lots of people, pick you.

Hey, It's Niyah I just wanted to do a little update on how we've been doing lately and like just life things. My system and I haven't been doing the best lately.. Hence the sort of break we took from this account. The holidays especially New Years are sort of a difficult time of year for us as it is for many other systems. Us personally we don't really have to spend time with our family (my mom's side that is) on Christmas. (That doesn't stop her family from being toxic towards us though.🙃) New Years however and a period of time following it are an especially triggering for a few of our alters, one of them being Anna. Mostly because we've struggled in the past and even now with eating and like weight and all that. Then there's sometimes the expectations surrounding the holiday to start to lose the weight gained during winter. Or start working on your "summer body" I know this isn't like all that New Years is about its obviously mostly just a time where people like to have a fresh start hence the like healthy eating and working out and stuff. But idk it's just a bit triggering for us personally. Anyways more recently we've had a lot of stuff going on in our system. We've gotten a few new alters. One of our alters who went dormant back in like Mid April/Early May has recently come back. Her name is Lola btw shes a fictive. Also Luka our caretaker went dormant for like 2 and a half weeks. He just disappeared nobody knew where he was and no one could reach him. Which was incredibly stressful because he's a caretaker and takes care of the littles and helps us manage a lot of our stress and anxiety. Then like a few days ago they both just popped up in the headspace maybe like an hour after one another. Lola's disappeared before and like when she came back it was with Luka and I found out from Gigi that she was just staying in a house in the woods with him and like just casually moved in with him. So idrk what that was about. It's possible that maybe he just went to go find her. But I'm not entirely sure. I hope to be doing an updated more in depth meet the Alters post including some of our faceclaims sometime soon because the one we did when we first started this account wasn't really that great. Honestly there just wasn't much effort put into it and not all of our alters have faceclaims so it felt sort of weird including them and some I just don't have the greatest communication with. But hopefully I will be able to get Gigi's help with that. She's like an internal self helper sort of she just knows a lot about the things going on in the system and usually when there's a split or new alter that's just been created for some reason she's the first to know. So hopefully that will be coming soon. That's pretty much all that has been going on for us recently. I know that the winter is a difficult time for most systems so I hope everyone stays safe and warm. Have a New Years if your celebrating and if you're having to spend time with a toxic family stay strong. You've got this and we believe in you!❤

~ Niyah (Host of the Astara System)