Nada esta bien.....

Vas a encontrar a esa persona que te vea con ojos de amor, que se quede a tu lado a conversar cuando tengan problemas, que sepa todo de tí y aún así quiera estudiarte cada vez más, que decida estar a tu lado en las buenas y en las malas, que calme tus demonios y que te sostenga siempre y no sólo de la mano. Vas a encontrar ese amor!

missing you

I wish I could run

Into the grip of your arms

Once over again

But that night was my last chance

Of ever seeing you

And those wonderful eyes

Ever again

But there’s a star in the sky

On this hopeless night

And I’d like to think it’s you

Watching over me

While my eyes fill with tears

I guess I can still feel your love

In places it wouldn’t normally be

- Grey Augustus

and the butterflies and bees.

We can wander through the forest,

and do so as we pleeasseee.

took a moment to admire the stars on this cold night and also wish my mama a happy heavenly birthday up there 🕊️🖤

I MISS YOU

I still can't believe you're gone babygirl. It's some horrible nightmare I can't seem to wake from. 2 weeks ago today that stupid fucking fentanyl took you from me and everyone else who loved you.. I love you, and I miss you beyond words, but im angry at you. I begged u for months so whatever drug u want but stop with the fentanyl before I have to watch u overdose on video chat 3000 miles away and there's nothing I can do... Usually I enjoy being right as most do but this is the time I wish I was wrong..maybe I jinxed it, maybe one small tiny insignificant thing i could have said, or done would have changed your course. Maybe had I been nicer that day you wouldn't have been upset and resorted to using fent again....you remember? That time on the farm in Langley? We were on video chat..you got fent for the first time? Two tiny hits outta that bowl you overdosed and I watched you turn grey? All.i remember is bawling, begging u not to leave me ...and by some ...I dunno something , u woke up and u pulled thru it without narcan..I'm angry you took the risk again and now you're gone..I'm im so fucking angry but....I miss you and I love you far beyond any amount of anger..I will forgive you. I hope you're peaceful and happy whereever you are ...I know you prolly won't see this ....I'm sure the afterlife doesn't have Tumblr. I love you cori

@envymourn @luvbog @june--cancer

I'd say I'm in the midst of moving phase. Teardrops of sadness and joy were so usual for me nowadays- in my apartment, at work (which I usually have to learn on my own), eating, and having fun on my own. I'm in a phase where I go to the supermarket alone, eat alone, go to laundry alone, and buy everything I want by myself. Lonely yet flourishing.

Being an engineer in my field is a huge accomplishment for me. Most of the time, I need to be smart and knowledgeable, which is thrilling. More to the point where my co-engineers really have a kind of life where they go to the bar (which I refer to them as bar boys and bar girls cuz they were from i think an elite class). I’m having fun here tho and most of the time I’m going with them.

Again, i’m moving forward towards growth but I miss you.

Book: grayscale by Samira Vivette

why’d you have to go

All I wanted

Was to feel at home

And you gave me that

With your strong words

And helpful hands

I wish I could see you

Just one more time

Hug you tight so you can’t leave

Just like you did

When I was eighteen

- Grey Augustus

if you were ever a girl with me, you’ll always be with me.

even when i forget how to get to your house without Google Maps

or when I donate the shirt you last saw me in

or the phone number I have saved for you is no longer yours

or when i’ve cut off the hair you once braided.

thank you for shaping my girlhood, even when I’m not a girl anymore.

I miss you - Blink 182

Hope is keeping me alive and killing me at the same time

how perfect we were.. 💔

i want to wake up from this nightmare