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It’s Superhero Time !

Hey, Hey favorite people in the whole wide world and my amazing lil Spicers It’s been a whole week since we last talked and it kinda a sad day as this is my last blog of this season. But, don't you worry my little nutmegs and cinnonmoms, I will be back after a short break. Sit back and relax, cozy by the fire with a cup of hot cocoa while I am away for me! I decided that for this week's blog and to leave all you guys off with an amazing ending till i'm back. I’m going to be creating my very own superhero for you guys and gals and bring back some joy to this crazy year. Now we all know or have an idea what a superhero looks, sounds, and acts like right? Today I plan on switching things up a bit and showing you all something different. Adding my own bit of spice into the mix! Well hopefully this will be like no other hero you've ever seen before and will enjoy what i'm about to bring to life. 

Now my lovelies let's take a full dive right in, like when the Joker and Harley Quinn did into the water while Batman was chasing them in Sucide Squad. This is no regular superhero, this is WolfGirl. WolfGirl is a different kind of story as she is a Marvel Superhero and is not quite an Avenger yet as she didn't start out as the best person or even a hero. It all started back in 1943 at this mansion like home in Wallkill NY, a small town where everyone knows each other and being different is frowned upon especially since she was on the weather side of society. That’s when everything started to change for this 5 year old hero. Amanda Zale was the child of Colleen and Lance Zale. Life was not easy for her as she was the youngest of five with a very abusive mom who was so concerned about what society thought of her and a hard working, wealthy dad that was hardly around. Which is why she only got along with her older brother as he was the only one too seem to care about or for her. It was supposed to be them against the world for life no matter what. Unless it was to give her parents or siblings something they wanted as their intentions were to use her to get them ahead in life. She was a shy, cute,  strong, and independent child. Who sometimes gets in trouble for her curiosity. She had learned that she is not like all the other children in the world. Especially when it came to her four siblings Victoria, Edward, Elizabeth, and James who is the oldest and the many children in her town. She noticed she was different because her nails would grow when thought about, her eyes could change colors even helping her see at night , she could shift into any animal but her favorite was a wolf, and was able to look into people's minds showing them a different reality. She even learned how to show them their worst nightmare. You see Amanda abbitlies came not only from natural ability from a special gene inside of her but were enhanced after she was sold to a scientist called Dr. Flint. A very evil man that was working for Hydra and some to this day says he still does because of the chemicals he used. He discovered that the cells that are rare and doubled  in certain children react differently and poor little Amanda discovered that at a young age. After she was sold to this horrible man by her parents. They had no problem in making the decision since she was a burden to them. It was then, without warning, when she was taken out of Wallkill and taken to this weird base or abandoned homes in the middle of nowhere with children running around. Only a few and even then they were not like her. She met a young boy named Jacob which happened to be the doctor's son in this awful and scary place. They thought they were inseparable as he was really her first and only friend. Quickly they became best friends, but she grew up faster than other children that have bought here before. Her maturity stemmed from everything she was put through, growing up dealing with so much, she had no other option rather than to grow up and face reality. This pleased the doctor and she quickly became his favorite and eventually the only child as she was forced to stay away from everyone else. She even had to sleep in a different building in this concrete room like a prisoner. Being alone caused her to stick to her studies learning how to fight, run fast, control people's minds, and getting chemicals pumped through her body to enhance her abilities the way the doctor wanted. This caused her to have a few scars on her back, arms, and chest as some of the experiments backfired. She did all of this till she hit the age of 16 at only five and  half years later being brought to this horrible place. This was possible because she froze at this age due to the fact her genes and cells would regenerate everyday to help her heal and become the strongest. She then continued these studies and tests for the next few years becoming one the best killer in her generation. She then became a secret weapon for Hydra. She then was sent on many missions for most of her life to try to kill many members of Shield and was very successful killing many agents and leaving many others in mental trauma. She even killed one of the original leaders of Shield in hopes of finding the original serum that made Captain America who he is. Slowly after a decade of doing this for Hydra she started getting pretty well known for her work and was hunted especially by shield and many government officials. Which led Hydra to leave her on her own and abandoned the project she was involved in tossing her into the streets.

After being on the run for so long and being alone for so many decades thinking of her family, mistakes, and wishing she could see her brother again. She started using her powers for common crimes like stealing, cheating, and fighting to survive the harsh streets of New York City. It was these city streets that made her who she really was. It was this environment that made her want to be a part of it all. Seeing all of the corruption and madness tear her society apart, she figured why try and fight it all when I can just join them and be a part of all the madness. Taking action, she told herself was the only way to survive. One day though she ended up picking the wrong person's pocket. That person was no other than Tony Stark himself and she ended up stealing one of his bands that has his next prototype for his big suit and also some secret files showing many heroes around the world. Not knowing she started to walk away and Tony saw her with it and started chasing her. She quickly thought on her feet and used her powers to show Tony a reality that the bracelet was still in his hand. While she slipped away going back to her home, a beat up old warehouse. Slowly after that she is found by not only Tony but also Steve Rogers aka Captain America and they were not happy. She tried using her many tricks and she was almost successful in escaping but they caught up to her and asked where her parents were, where she lived, and did she know what she stole. Naturally she lied as she was trained to. However they caught onto her lies as she looked beat up and lost. They decided to take her back to the Avengers building and give her food, clothes, and shower. When she came out she looked around in amazement but with her guard up. As she was used to everything being so dark, scary and she didn't trust them. This is the part of her story that she has a change of heart, but it's not the reason you think. As she walked those halls she stumbled upon a picture she knew. One familiar face she knew from her days in Hydra. Someone she looked up to as he became like a brother to her when she was training for missions. That person was Bucky Barnes, a soldier brought in after falling off a train. She stood there frozen starting at this picture and this is when Tony and Cap realized why she was able to do what she could. They asked her to stay with them and not wanting to go back to that warehouse she decided to stay and overtime she started to really trust them especially Cap. He told her all the stories about Bucky and she told him what Hydra did to them. She started to really trust again and even would go on missions with them. Wearing her brand new suit that Steve helped her design because her old ripped up clothes didn't keep her safe. It was all black with red lines going through to help her control her transformations. She also wears a necklace with a shape like a bullet charm at the end holding a piece of rock in it. Her brother James gave it to her before she was taken away. She also has these gloves with special made nails to fit over her anytime they grow. All of this helped her realise that life can be rough but if you keep on fighting everything will eventually be ok. This is why she always makes sure all the kids around the world know this message and that they will always have someone to protect them. That is why to this day she has taken Morgan Stark and Peter Parker under her watch after Tony gave himself to save the world. She feels responsible to make sure they are always protected since the two men that gave her a better life are now gone. They become the siblings she never had. Knowing that if she ever would die that she would leave behind a legacy of it is your choice whether to be good or bad in the end. So don't let others push you to the wrong decision, always listen to your gut,  Even if it means leaving all that you know behind. 

With that being said this is where I end this story about my superhero and pick up another one somewhere else after my break or even in my life. As life is really an open book and we can only take it one chapter at a time so be your own hero. I hope this gives you guys and gals the entertainment, joy, and we'll need distraction as it has for me to write it for you lovies. As I also hope that maybe this blog post or the few others I have written help you discover your own talents or maybe even help you write your story. In real life or imagination and remember you can do anything if you put your mind too. Nothing is impossible and like Stan lee said “ If you are interested in what you do, that keeps you going.” Also please my lil Spicers don't forget to take care of yourself. You can't be a hero for others if you are a hero for yourself first. Always eat, drink, sleep, stay safe and smile. These are important things especially this time of year and in this year that we all sadly call 2020. So please mask up because even heroes wear them. Better safe than sorry! I love you all and will see you when I get back. 

Congratulations, Tyler! You’ve been accepted for the role of Jae-Sung Park. Please make sure to check our checklist, and you have twenty-four hours to send us your character’s blog. We’re really happy to have you in our family!

We could tell by your headcanons and the reasons why you chose Jae-Sung that you’d do a great job with him. You understand that there's a balance inside of himself about his human times and the struggles of being a vampire for so long to the point he doesn't want to life, he just survives. For us, this is the defining reasons for who he is and how he looks at everything in the world. It's deep, dark, and we love it!

Introduction

Tyler, 23, She/Her, and from the PST

Activity level:

I should be able to come online at least once a day for an hour or two depending on my work and school schedule. I am currently doing a teaching program online, so I should be able to come online/stalk the dash when I am procrastinating. Otherwise, I will most likely be online in the evenings and then hours throughout the day during the weekend.

Further contact:

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How did you find the roleplay?

I saw promos about it on the dash!

Roleplay experience:

I have been in group rps on and off since 2010 (which makes me feel like I’ve been on Tumblr for way too long lol). I have been 1x1 rping since 2013. Some links to example blogs can be found here and here.

Triggers:

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IC INFORMATION

Desired character:

Jae-Sung Park

Faceclaim:

N/A

Why did you choose this character?

What initially drew me to Jae-Sung is the fact that his humanity is turned off and the life he had lived through since being turned into a vampire. There is definitely two different sides to Jae-Sung, but he’s kept one side of himself locked away after shutting off his humanity. What made me interested about his character through that aspect was the different subtleties that could be portrayed to show off his character. He isn’t a full person and while he seems kind and reserved, there’s just something off about him. Through the century that he has been alive, he has learned how to hide the extreme emotions that make you human, preferring to stay in a neutral state, a simple and safe state. Emotions of happiness, anger, sadness, or anything more than necessary to survive is too much of a reminder of everything he has lost and everything he questions and doubts about himself. I think for him to want to turn back on his humanity, he would need to find something or someone worth living for again, because right now he’s simply surviving day by day rather than experiencing life anymore. But now with a war looming in the future, it would be interesting to see how he would react to seeing that in a place he’s considered home for the past decade.

Para sample:

Jae-Sung woke with a start. Bolting up, he clutched his chest, the rapid beat of his heart reverberating in his rib cage.

“So-Young!” The words fell from his lips as he whipped his gaze around in search of her, but she was long gone. Memories of last night sprung to mind in waves. Memories that were too difficult to process, but were all he could think about. He continued to look around him in the hopes of catching a glimpse of her coming back to him. A pang echoed through him. So much had gone wrong and he hadn’t been able to do anything about it.

It was then his gaze landed on the note beside him, and a bowl of red liquid. The moment his eyes landed on the bowl, something shifted inside of him. His breath became shallow, the quick beating of his heart seemingly slowing down to a loud, single echo, and everything in his vision seemed to blur and focus all at once to the bowl of red liquid. Blood. The smell of metallic filled the air. Somewhere in his head was screaming What is happening to me? but it was pushed aside for the blood that was calling out to him.

He swallowed hard, too afraid to reach out for the bowl, but unable to look away from it. It took all his strength to pull his gaze from it and look at the letter beside it. Something in him went still as he glimpsed the handwriting on it.

So-Young.

The blood was momentarily forgotten as his attention fell to the letter. Jae-Sung tore through it, his eyes scanning for an explanation, a reason, a location to find her, but he wasn’t given any of those things.  

Dear Jae-Sung,

I think you know what I have done to you. I can’t apologize because I’m not sorry. I was given a chance to have a better life and now you do too. You can either die the son of a fisherman or live like me.

So-Young

Jae-Sung’s eyes stung with the appearance of tears and he crumbled the note in his hand. A choice? His sister had not given him a choice, but a death sentence. Choose to die or live as something not human. It wasn’t a choice at all.

Anger swelled in him all over again. His last interaction with his sister playing through his head on loop. The betrayal. The rage. The disgust. The fear. The pinch of pain before it all went dark. Every emotion hit him tenfold, and all he could do was bury his face in his hands. So-Young… So-Young, how could you have done this to me? To our family?

The thought of his family made him realize what he’d be giving up he decided to die. He imagined his father and mother finding him dead, and then finding So-Young gone without a trace. His parents would be losing two children that day if he chose to die. But if he decided to live… No. If he lived, what would he be living as? Was that a life worth living? His gaze slid back to the blood…

Yes. No. Yes. No. Yes.

Yes.

His hands reached out to the bowl. The liquid sloshed in the bowl as he lifted it towards him, a tremble forming in his hands as he made his decision. Forgive me, he said, saying a silent prayer to no one in particular.

And then he drank.

EXTRA

Personality traits:

Positive: Protective, Curious, Sentimental

Negative: Reserved, Melancholic, Strong-willed

Headcanons:

1.  He isn’t close to people for a reason. After a century of wars and death and loss, it is too hard for him to want to make genuine connections with others. When he had his humanity turned on, Jae-Sung had such a huge heart and wanted to give the best to people, especially those he cared about, but after losing so much he has shied away from opening his heart up like that. Even with his humanity turned off, he still can’t help but take an interest in certain people, but he is more subtle in his ways of checking up on others. In fact, unless you knew what to look for in his mannerisms, you wouldn’t realize he cares about anyone at all.

2. He has a box of keepsakes from his former life as a human. He has a comb his mother had, a few fishing hooks from his father, and a ribbon that once belonged to his sister. To anyone who saw it, it would look like nothing more than garbage, but it’s all he has left to remember his family by, so he keeps it hidden and safe so nothing bad could happen to it.

3. There is a deep sadness to Jae-Sung that he keeps hidden and locked away. Whenever he gets that distant look in his eyes, it tends to be because he’s looking at the past. With his humanity turned off, thinking about the past doesn’t bring up as many negative feelings as it does now. He can look back at his past now with objectivity and instead plays back all the moments he wishes he could have changed.

4. For a long time he used to see his sister and every girl he saw. After he first turned into a vampire, Jae-Sung spent the better half of the century searching for her, and hoping to find traces of her in every place he went. It wasn’t until he settled on the island that he paused his search for her, but it still hasn’t stopped him from seeing traces of her in certain people around the island.

5. On his first full moon ever as a vampire, he wasn’t prepared and ended up killing a small neighboring village. He doesn’t have concrete memories of the night, but he can remember the screams, and that has haunted him ever since. Every since that night, he really tried to learn to control his thirst, but it took him more than a few decades to really control it without it getting the best of him. He has prided himself for not shedding anymore blood since then.

6. Jae-Sung has tried to keep up with the times, but he’s sometimes very nonchalant about the modern world. He doesn’t have a cellphone, but does have a laptop at home. He enjoys reading up on the news of the world today, and will sometimes partakes in learning about the new slang and trends. Most of the time he find it ridiculous (emoticons, dating apps), but a few things are amusing (today’s fashion, technological advances).

7. For a long time, Jae-Sung felt anger towards So-Young and the choices she made and forced him into making. He chose to live as a monster because of her, to see her again, but anger had consumed him so much that it wasn’t until much later that he realized that if he had ever found So-Young, he wasn’t sure what he would’ve done to her if he had. There is relief and sadness in him now that he hasn’t found So-Young.