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#why has nobody drawn silver or sebek in the Newly Dropped briar valley soldier outfits huh??? why. theyre literally training for the role#having to do EVERYTHING myself frantically shitting this out in my last 3 hrs of free time tn#sry sebek i didnt have time to draw u both </3 maybee eventually. maybe someone else will carry that torch on my behalf#the briar valley soldier fits are...so fuckign cool. like obv lilia's looks cooler than the mob guys but im assuming his gets General Perks#gestures vaguely. u know what im like. okay i cant draw for like 4 days now at LEAST and im abt to have 60hr workweeks again so uhhhhhh :)#twst#twisted wonderland#twst spoilers#book 7 spoilers#twst silver#silver vanrouge#suntails
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im curious what does your minecraft hotbar look like usually. put in the tags below :)
mine goes: 1. axe (i dont use swords). 2. pickaxe. 3. shovel. 4. bow/crossbow. 5 and 6. usually empty. 7. water bucket. 8 and 9. some sort of food.
#tagging game#tag game#minecraft#mineblr#chris noises#i keep my minecraft inventory super super organized its very important to me.#btw in slot 5. if i have Something there its usually a fishing rod. i love fishing so much :)#im anti sword tho. no swords only axes and our f i s t s.#my go to foods are usually cooked potatoes and fish that i caught myself#okay now you go heehee#right i forgot! usually in my off hand i have torches.#torches are very important#and i dont use shields. i dont care for them.#which explains why i suck at pvp btw <3
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I do enjoy being bad intersex rep. Like it is a bad thing that intersex people are so often viewed as half-boy half-girl and a gross freak, and it's bad that cis women can't grow beards without it being assumed that they're a man. That is me tho
#like im doing my mam NO favours for thinking my intersex is related to my nonbinary#and tbh im fine w that. like id still be nonbinary without pcos and theyre barely linked at all in my mind#but i can let the torch pass to someone else for that#i do to some degree still see myself as a cis woman but in a bigender way#idk im not explaining myself. gender fun and silly
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i am so goddamn desperate and down bad for spn/pjo crossover fics. i NEED dean and percy to bitch about incompetent, pain in the ass immortals desperately. i NEED sam and annabeth to give each other the bitch face when dean and percy are being dumbasses. i NEED them bonding over going to hell. i NEED dean and sam to try and adopt percy and annabeth and try to protect them from this cruel, harsh world and then watch as they completely annihilate their enemies without breaking a sweat. nico catholic guilt activated. castiel looking at the winchesters like "wtf why are they here, what did u do???"
#theres like a handful of these types of fics on ao3 and they're rarely extensive/serious#theyre mostly crack fics which is like cool and all#but wheres my 300k word fic. angst. hurt/comfort. sort of found family. dumbasses meet dumbasses.#damn give me angst with the winchesters trying to kill them relentlessly in a way that parallels the way pagans have been persecuted by#christians for like ever. give me the winchesters trying to exterminate their “nest” which is just camp and them eventually realizing that#theyre attempting to torch a bunch of innocent children#i need it desperately#i would write it myself but i have commitment issues#actually im trying but i can guarantee you this fic will never see the light of day#LMAO#spn#supernatural#dean winchester#sam winchester#castiel#team free will#percy jackson and the olympians#pjo#hoo#percy jackson#annabeth chase#give me the winchesters trying to help the demigods get out of the hunting life and the demigods being like. “dude. there is no out for us.#“i was born into this life and ill die in this life. you cant help me.”#FUCK#crossover
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#boreas 🖤#the oh hellos#oh hellos#see I’d say lapis lazuli is the easy choice for myself#but then after a second of actually thinking#I’m like wait this is hard#BC HEAR ME OUT OK#boreas is not my fav album BUT there are some underappreciated bangers on here#ROSE?? i could write a whole essay on rose and I have#boreas??? SUCH a beautiful song omg#cold and glowing i don’t listen to enough but they’re v good too#and then the instrumentals are GREAT#dare i say i do not like a kindling of sorts that much#i don’t hate it heck I don’t even dislike it but i don’t go outta my way to listen to it or anything#i do love the torches musical motif tho that’s so clever and it’s an effective intro#kinda like prelude but i prefer prelude#and smoke rising is just the rose instrumental extended which i love bc it’s SOO pretty ☺️#ANYWAYS we got off topic#u all know this by now im just reiterating what i said before this choice is HARD ASF#dear wormwood#ttddv#through the deep dark valley#the oh hellos ep#notos#eurus#boreas#zephyrus#music stuff#folk music#indie music
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hey so your notes on the internet safety post made me realize that we watched the exact same internet safety video as kids. and i found it! its a mcgruff the crime dog animation called faux paw the techno cat, and its on youtube
Yeah!!! Faux Paw! I remembered all the cat stuff so clearly with the cursor helper and the horrible cgi that I completely forgot that it was a Mcgruff the crime dog animation.
I looked into it, and it turns out that some reposts of the animation online cut out the McGruff part, so I probably watched a version without it and just forgot about it.
(Version from 14 years ago with the Mcgruff into:
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And version from 3 years ago with the Mcgruff opening cut out, reposted by the channel behind Faux Paw: )
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Also, it turns out that Faux Paw has multiple shorts made as recent as 3 years ago... but the animation quality has gone down a LOT.
And just quality in general.
Here's, for example, a really bad short, also uploaded 14 years ago, with completely different animation, tone, and just general... everything.
Also, it's kinda racist. It takes place in China, and it handles it about as well as you think it will.
https://youtu.be/hGfjyDALM2Q
I think a detail that stuck out in this is probably the fact that whoever animates or draws this keeps giving Faux Paw 6 fingers. Like. When she points to say something, you can see a pointer, 4 folded fingers, and a thumb. This is jarring in normal contexts, but I think it's even weirder when a character was previously shown with 4 fingers (which is just the 4 digits on a cat's paw and no dewclaw)
Turns out! This is on purpose! Sometime between the original short and now, they decided to make Faux Paw a polydactyl cat! Which is kinda interesting, and I was gonna list it as an animation mistake above before I went on the official website to read about her.
Another fun fact! I googled Faux Paw to see if there was a former collaboration with McGruff and if there was more information on the production of the series. The first result I got was Faux Paw trippy/drug/high shirts that were likely a stolen design.
Which like, if it wasn't for my dislike of general "trippy" art and the fact that it's likely a stolen design being sold by a random quick cash t-shirt business, I would consider it. (The website itself is super iffy and relies on a lot of "buy now before it's gone!!" Tactics. It does have a lot of artists that work for the site and is not just a t-shirt printing machine like some sites... but the specific artist behind this trippy Faux Paw shirt has a lot of designs I've seen before. Since there's no dates on the designs, I can't confirm if this artist team is simply the mastermind behind every Spencer's shirt, if they're just taking designs, or some third thing. But that's a whole separate rabbithole.)
I also saw a listing involving her that was 2,000 dollars and was from a company called "Robotronics". I thought with a name and price tag like that, it was going to be a little Faux Paw robot or animatronic...
It was not.
You can see the extra fingers in the suit costume. Apparently, this is a website dedicated to making costumes, robots, and (for lack of a better term) merch about safety for children.
In the end, I couldn't find much information on the development of Faux Paw, her relation to Mcgruff the Crime dog, or the weird fall from grace (well. Whatever grace the original short had). If you simply google Faux Paw, you're gonna end up with a LOT of pdfs from teachers. But it seems like some form of internet safety is still being taught by some teachers. Yippee!
Basically: I did remember the name Faux Paw, but if you didn't mention McGruff the crime dog, I probably wouldn't have gone down this rabbithole. And I thank you for that.
#sorry this was gonna be a quick answer where i just say I remember it but then I fucking saw there were MORE shorts and I had to watch it#i had to watch the gamer one when it popped up#also I was not prepared for the racism#racism tw#every time i go back to edit it i end up adding more info as i research#i am just gonna post it now. if it's incoherent im sorry i just needed to stop myself from adding another paragraph about this french cat#anyways if you want to do more research be my guest#i can only hope some youtube essayist will pick up the torch from here and go on a Faux Paw rabbithole
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5.5 miles with Torch and Kit 💚🌕
#wish id brought his harness bc i finally had energy to RUN tonight#been hardcore processing and working through some shit lately and its left me very mentally tired#after a streak of pretty bad mental health so wasnt starting with great energy reserves lol#its good though#im figuring things out and realizing shit about myself and my patterns and contextualizing a lot of stuff#the past few days have actually been all good days#just tiring lol#anyways#yes i consider this a walk with Kit#idk sometimes i just. feel her there. tonight was one of those nights#its different to *wishing* she was there#i spent the entire walk smiling though and torch did amazing and i came home happy and fullfilled#and tomorrow im gonna dress up all edgy for work bc theyre doing some costume contest#that im not partaking in but i am using as an excuse to be emo lol#aNYWHO#idle rambling#Torch#west siberian laika
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Sorry to keep throwing Miscellaneous Asks your way, but I finally had a moment to get my thoughts in order on one of the points on your Venn diagram I wanted to talk about! I always kind of debate whether or not to send other, semi-unrelated long asks like this when we've already got a chain going, but oh well. I'll try and address anything brought up in response here in the main one and hopefully it doesn't get confusing lol.
So I was thinking about the extent of Jo and Arakawa's relationship. It is completely true there's not much you can say that's concrete, especially since most of what we see is from Jo's perspective. Although his perspective is crucial to forming an understanding of their relationship, it's not sufficient. This is particularly the case because, coming back to giri-ninjo for a moment, Jo is largely bound by giri; it's clear his loyalty runs deep, but it's not a choice for him.
Arakawa, on the other hand, can choose who he places his trust in, especially early on. And I think it's incredibly important that, despite having men who've already been with him from day 1, men who've already been helping him with his son, Arakawa chooses to "place every confidence" in Jo (per an old Famitsu profile, one of the first official ones) and chooses to make Jo his captain.
Similarly, he kind of chooses Jo "over" Ichi in sending Ichi to prison "instead of" Jo. Perhaps the family really would collapse without Jo's talents, but… does it have to collapse entirely? Didn't Arakawa make it pretty far on his own? I guess it's neither here nor there, but I've always wondered if things would've really played out as feared if Jo went to prison instead. Not to understate Jo's role in the family, of course.
Anyway, I think that trust shows not only in overt gestures such as entrusting Masato and the family's finances to Jo, but also in more subtle behind-the-scenes ways, such as what we were talking about before with regard to New Year's 2001. There's also the fact that leaking information to Aoki was Jo's idea; for that to be the case, Arakawa would have to discuss Aoki's threats at length with Jo. (Unrelated, but come to think of it, "complying with him [to] make him see value in keeping us around" is very often the strategy of victims of abuse and neglect…)
And this one's an underrated detail many people miss, but after Arakawa shot Ichi, while he was able to come up to Ichi to tell him he's counting on him and sneak in the fake bill, if the goal was to not arouse suspicion, I don't think he would exactly have been able to excuse himself from the dinner to drive Ichi to Yokohama. Time was of the essence in terms of Ichi's survival, so that leaves Jo, who was conveniently already at the scene and who was certainly in on the "secret rule" that constitutes part of the Arakawa Family's agreement with the homeless camp. Overall, there is a pattern of Arakawa approaching Jo before anyone else, isn't there?
Sort of branching off of that, I would personally feel comfortable saying that Jo knows Arakawa better than anyone else. He seems to know details about Akane and New Year's 1976 no one else does, details Arakawa would have had to volunteer himself, and that plus his own experiences are what allow him alone to have the most complete picture of that night.
I also get the impression Jo understands Arakawa better as a person than anyone else--certainly better than Aoki, but perhaps even better than Ichi in some cases. There are multiple instances where he defends Arakawa and challenges their perceptions of him--that he's "betrayed" the Tojo Clan, that he's betrayed Aoki, that he's the type to scheme and make power-plays behind Aoki's back. He hasn't. And, despite how little Jo's "allowed" to say, he turns out to be right every time. Also worth noting Arakawa does something similar in asking Ichi to try and understand Jo's frustrations, though he's more or less enabling Jo's abuse in doing so.
Lastly, The Smallest Detail that drives me kind of insane. Them arriving at the office in the back seat of the same car in one of Ichi's flashbacks. I wouldn't think too much of it if it were any other time of day, but the first-thing-in-the-morning quality and the fact Jo isn't driving (thus it's not as an act of service but as an equal) is like… Okay. You're carpooling to work. And if you're not carpooling, you're honest-to-god living together. What the hell.
So a lot of it is this web of inferences--it has to be, at least currently--but I really do think there's a lot to chew on. More than meets the eye, anyway. I've also been stewing in all of this for years, especially since drafting Jo's relationships section, so I might just have inhaled the fumes for too long lol
Thank you for coming to me about the nature of their relationship! Although I did put it down as being more-or-less 'uncertain' on my chart, I do agree that their relationship isn't as cut-and-dry as other relationships might be (it's going back to appreciating the complexities of RGG relationships, especially in the case of the Arakawa's where for every party involved it really IS complicated)
I wanted to exclude making any definitive statements on things that couldn't be verified without making a detour on the original post (I know I already mentioned frequently that Arakawa is able to joke about Jo being 'softer' on Masato, but I do think about their relationship often and the implied depth of Jo's loyalty if- as you said- he was able to climb through the ranks of the Arakawa family much quicker than preexisting members), but there are clear points in the game that due allude to a great trust between the two (and I also note that carpooling detail during Ichi's flashback- or at the very least I know I'd find myself noticing Jo sitting in the back opposed to the front/driving). It's definitely not hard to assert that Jo knows Arakawa well either, it's hard not to come to that conclusion when we have evidence from the game to infer that.
#long post#fave#i should prob come up with an actual tag for these asks so i can easily find them and not sift through my other fave'd posts#ill do it in the morning im right about to go to bed but i just saw this pop up on my notifications#and well. we know me i've been presented an itch i have to scratch LMAO#snap chats#i feel a bit silly now- i know that their relationship isn't exactly. 'uncertain' but i didnt want to put that so i didn't appear#hmm.. i dont know the word for it.#i guess because it's not AS blatant as daigo and mine's relationship was#i didnt want to make it appear as though i was saying theres more when there isnt?? tho there definitely is..#its a little evident i Am interested in the depths of their relationship so i promise ive thought about it#maybe i just wasnt sure how to exactly word it.. though in review the way i worded it on my chart#wasn't HORRIBLE. to most standards anyway i think however it definitely undermines the bond they have and for that#'ashamed' is hyperbolic i feel like someone would say so we'll go with 'embarrassed' to meet in the middle#but thats the benefit of peer review isnt it- just to help catch your mistakes or to help reaffirm ideas so im grateful!#but x2 again in review im a silly coward for doubting my gut on that#tho i sort of do want to torch that post- i wont tho. it's not supposed to be SUPER deep just very quick notes#so i guess i'll save the Deep Dive on jo and masumi's relationship for a future post. is what ill tell myself to keep myself sane#thank you for compiling- i suppose i'll call- their moments together !#it's a great way to keep track of every important note on their relationship that i hope people will take note of if they havent
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4 miles tonight! A very pleasant 26F as well. Still taking it easy since yesterday I felt like garbage and today I had a funky spell at work, but this was nice :3
#west siberian laika#Torch#my routes look dumb lately bc im sticking close enough that if i start feeling shitty#i know i can get home or to a bench to sit at quickly#its annoying but w/ev#taking care of myself blah blah blah
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Are there actually other people out there who have no friends at all? How do you deal with it?
I don't mean like "yeah no one ever invites me," I mean like no one to call, no one to text, no one to share anything with, no one you can really call on for help, no one who you can just sit with and not feel so empty and alone.
I used to think I needed alone time. And I do. I like my independence, but it's difference when it's a choice vs oh wait, yeah, I have no one.
#ive gone and done so many things by myself#things to bring myself joy#and as nice as those have been#it leaves this empty space because there is no one to share it with#no one to tell about it#show about it#laugh with#and it gets old doing it yourself#i just want the comfort of a companion#whats worse is i have a person and im still forced to be alone because they dont even know if they want to be with me#and the spot i hold for them goes vacant every day while i feel pain for the torch im holding#heartbreak#depression#tw depressing thoughts#alone#delete later#therapy stuff
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i got minecraft on mobile and look at meeeeee im literally so hamsome
#disclaimer i am veryy bad at video games#im on peaceful and so far i have built a house ! it has no roof. bc it gets dark when i build a roof. ive been told i can have windows and#torches but idk how to make those yet. so rlly ive just fenced myself in#i do have a door tho! and floors and walls. im very proud
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“are you a decent builder?” my only survival world is called “build good” to serve as a constant reminder to Please stop making oak plank box houses, take a guess
#minecraft#murky mumbles#People who call themselves 'bad builders' and then create decent looking homes make me want to strangle them#'im a bad builder' and then they utilize lanterns#I consider myself fancy if I place torches above a door instead of randomly#The fanciest I get is MAYBE logs on the corners and glass windows#my other type of build is 'hole in ground where not even the walls are replaced It's Literally Just Stone And Dirt'#+a million torches on any build#thats a given with me#Other people have knowledge about Redstone or PvP or game mechanics or are just Good At Something Specifically#I literally have spent over half a decade just making shitty non automatic wheat farms and picking flowers#and I don't even know how to place flowers in non ugly ways#Maybe my talent is being incredibly Bad at this all
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Charles wearing pink to his friends’ gender reveal gives girl dad in the most excellent way don’t you think?
it's like you people WANT me dead.
anyway oh my god. oh my god. yeah
#you beat wy to messaging me abt this by like 15 seconds im#anyway. yeah he is such girldad material im going to kill myself !#if i speak im going to say something insane that will make the piarlies pitchfork-and-torch me#ask reply#Anonymous
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#so i was doing a dab right#&i dripped some wax on my leg right; it dripped off my dabber so it also happened immediately after i started taking the dab#&this happens. frequently. right. lmao. so it doesnt really hurt or anything but it does still make me jump#&i jumped my fucking thumb directly into the bottom of the fucking banger that i had just goddamn heated to red hot LMAO.#i did have to give it a second to chill out to the right temp tho. so. it couldve been worse. in fact im positive i have done worse#in this exact situation lmao usually its the torch falling into my leg or something similarily stupid; see dunce scar LMAO.#so ive got that going for me.#... i wouldve jumped less if i had been less annoyed at myself for wasting the wax in the first place by pulling back before it was all#off my dabber. 😭#well. now i have another stupid scar LMAO. at least the stupid scars i get now are funny stories instead of like. Bad Ones lmaooooo#i'll take it.
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crying and screaming and throwing up in the deep roads i cant do this HELP WHY ARE THERE EYEBALLS PLEASE LET ME LIGHT THE TORCH
#genuinely sobbing rn WHY DID I START THE DESCENT#im not a dwarf please i love the sky where is my mother the sun#z.play#'light a torch!' 'so they can see us coming? just stay close' RENN PLEASE IM GONNA PEE MYSELF FROM FEAR#i had to pause to post this just to collect myself lmfao
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Midnight is a silly time to choose to go for a 3.5 mile walk but the weather is delightfully chilly and windy again so I had ENERGY, and Torch never complains about a longer walk. Would've done our 5.5ish mile loop (or more lol) but I wake up for work in. Less than four hours. Assuming I do sleep tonight xD
#i dont usually get this HYPED unless its a thunderstorm so idk if there was a like. pressure change or something#but i was and am ENERGIZED#im either gonna be hyped or grumpy from lack of sleep tomorrow LOL#anyways i came home to the power out so gonna fix that then try to force myself to sleep for at least a few hours#Torch#west siberian laika
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