have i returned from my long slumber to be active for another week and then promptly disappear again? perhaps

okay actual gentle wishlist LKJASKLF

allan lb3′ing and faceplanting LMAO

rps in sharlayan when allan was more Allan :pleading:

idk i think allan getting stabbed and not having his globe would be p neat JFKLASJFSALKjf (any form of angst & hurt/comfort where he’s just fked ig LKJKLASJF)

antagonist allan................................ he can be... v bad .... ;;;;

a scion/someone of high standing in sharlayan spiderman pointing at allan bc They Recognize Him

allan being forced to go to sharlayan at some point bc he will Hate That LKJAFLKASJf

n/sfw context one but. make allan cry LKAJSLKFj

actually someone make allan cry from Emotions bc he’s stopped himself from doing that a long time ago LKAJKLSFj

fjaklsfj smth that kinda deals with/calls out allan’s self-esteem and avoidant issues... its such a big thing with him KLJASKFj

allan actually... coming into his power as an astrologian waaahhh. and exploring the lore of how astromancy works! its so interesting to me kljalskfj time magic and all like... thats so fkn wild and could be so loreb endy but taken to such good heights lkajlskfj

asclepius’ ascian shard having company.... pls.... he’s so depressed... LKJFKALSJF

asclepius maybe... meeting wols in elpis... :eyes: esp if allan ships with them LKJASLKFj (also valid for rush & kratos tbh)

this is hella my own thing but naila almost eating allan im KLAJFLKASJFKlj 

this is a given but exploring how shitty allan feels later in sb/shbs (esp if he’s dragged to the first he’s so fucked then KLJAKSFJ)

also smth that deals with his shitty appetite... idk if i make it obvs (i probably do im not sure LKJKLASJF) but he Barely Eats wheezes 

ill probably add more as i think of them but LKJALSKFJ,,,, sorry these are v selfish weHEZES 

okay darker wishlist ideas pls be warned:

hghjsh anything where allan is captured and tortured and the recovery after that....... wheezes...

there would unfortunately be ppl who’d do that

its even more dangerous if they knew about his secret ability bc it can p terrifyingly easy for allan to become a different person/become essentially brainwashed through abusing/manipulating that secret ability lkajslkjf and then... just... huge conflict between his lost memory and the person that rescues him im cry klajslkfj but its possible to also use his ability to regain himself through that person... god does this make sense... but yeah im Emo

these are the hoes that would like to fuck allan up tho

honestly anything exploring his darker, criminal activities. like say hostages, blackmail, torture, anything goes... :eyes: with allan as the antagonist of course lkJKLASJF

Still have a lot of starters rolling out over the next few days and am super excited about the replies I've gotten to the ones that have already posted!! So many new threads and partners!! But I'm going to be enjoying New Year's Eve and New Year's Day with my husband (as with his work we don't get to spend holidays together all the time, so we gotta enjoy it when we have it). I'll be online on the 2nd for sure!

Okay lemme just

I have jjk brainrot and lemme just try to categorise my thoughts instead of letting them go !!!!!!!!

GOJO:

-Special grade teaser, this man will have you begging and edging you till you're crying

-def into letting you wear his blindfold, bonus if you're tied up

GETO

Pet play, corruption kink, need i go on- also if going with bottom Geto, def whimpers if you tug on his hair

MEGUMI

Purely basing this on an rp i had with a friend- lactation kink. Absolutely down for 3 somes with his SO + Yuji, we stan a bi king

SUKUNA

Blood kink, marking, anyway he can show off that you're his. Prolly bites you on the darn daily

MAHITO (making this extra long for you <3)

Hear me out- virgin but freaky AF

Watersports, spit, blood, cum, he's down for anything

Def has fantasies about carving his name into his fav human toy (you <3) preferably on the chest for all to see

Wil push you to your limits, prolly sucks at aftercare but can be bribed ibto beibg the best with it jn return for some new games and toys *nudge nudge wink wink*

Bonus-

Geeting double penetrated by Mahito and Foul Legacy Taru <3

IM LISTENING IM HEARING U OUT IM BRAINROTTING WITH U!! i’m crafting up a silly au where everyone lives and no one suffers and everyone gets to be happy and go to uni together and and and… so given that, i’m writing gumi n junpei as over 18!! crazy to think about but in canon time im younger than all of them… fucked up how time works huh… ANYWAYS…

includes: this is just general headcanons building off what you said my dearest + adding a couple of my own thoughts!! has Gojo, Geto, Megumi, Sukuna, Mahito, and Junpei bc he is so special to me <3 i am one of 3 Junpei kinnies on this planet i swear…

i’m not a major Gojo fucker, if anything we have hate sex that is fuelled by pent up arousal and being big time touch starved… but the idea of him using his blindfold on you?? oh dear oh my… it’s both a big step in trust and vulnerability. given that he finds not having his eyes covered to be immensely overwhelming, i imagine there’d be a strong bond between him and his partner to do this. he’s used to seeing you through the way he detects energy, it’s second nature to him, but he’ll never quite get over what it’s like to actually see you with his real eyes. his fingertips are shaking and he can’t seem to look at anything other than your face twisted in pleasure as he denies you your nth release of the day; it’s a carnal satisfaction. he tends to be very mouthy and loud whenever you’re going at it but with you splayed out in front of him like this, your body shielded by absolutely nothing, he’s rather quiet as he takes in every inch of you. it’s a form of depraved worship, in a way, that he feels so compelled to hardly even breathe to appreciate you and only you as much as he possibly can.

i’d be a liar if i said i wasn’t terribly down bad for Geto. long-haired men get me good and he’s no exception… he’s 100% into pet play and corruption you hit the nail on the head!! it’s half a control thing and half a desire to please, he doesn’t feel a lot of power over his life and being able to get some of that from what you two do together his cathartic. he’s partial to cat girls, having a little kitty for him to play with and to kneel at his feet brings him satisfaction like nothing else. Geto is also the best at aftercare!! he’s very tender in how he treats you, already having a nice warm bath and a glass of water ready… anything you need, just ask, he’d give the world to stay by your side as long as he possibly can.

prior to this ask, i’d never actually thought of Megumi before… but, hear me out, going off of his thing of sharing you with Yuji, i think he’s into being cucked. i’m sorry to be the one to say it but to my core i believe this is true and canon… when it’s just the two of you, Gumi has the tendency to get a bit nervous and lost at times so seeing someone he trusts so deeply take the reigns and really work to make you feel good without hesitation gets him going. sometimes he does get a bit jealous of the way Yuji palms at your tits or the way he gets you to squeal so loud but ultimately he knows you’re his. even if Yuji offered to snag you away, you wouldn’t accept because Gumi is the one you want (reassure him from time to time though). plus, after watching so many times, he gains a better grasp on what to do!! i think he also likes letting Yuji instruct him on just how to fuck you proper. <3

Sukuna… you are a man of many wonders and arms. he is absolutely the biggest biter of them all!! will use his normal mouth most of the time but really enjoys using his stomach mouth to nip at your ass when he’s plowing you from behind as the way you yelp in surprise never fails to get him going. he loves that having four arms means he can keep your hips still, choke you, and grope at whatever skin he wants all at the same time; there’s never a part of your body that goes missed. despite his claims of not caring about humans, there’s nothing that he loves more than having you dangle off his arm and getting to touch you in a way nobody else ever could. also, two cocks absolutely. prepare yourself to be stuffed full, he’s partial to having them both balls deep in your pussy.

FREAKY VIRGIN MAHITO IS REAL!! he’s all about experimenting so there’s really nothing he wouldn’t try honestly, it’s more of a challenge to convince him to not do certain things *shivers*… but that does come with a lot of bonuses seeing that he won’t write off anything so it’s free game for you!! odds are he’ll enjoy anything so long as he learns something from it, if it gets him off then even better. he’s naturally most interested in anything that’ll induce pain, emotional or physical, and things that allow him to be in complete control (submitting to a human? fat chance). Depending on how exactly he sees you, and how ooc you’re willing to take, you’re either going to be a good ol fashion pump n dump that he brutally slaughters OR you’ll end up being his forever pet that he won’t let out of his sight for more than fifteen seconds… both are a unique form of suffering but it’s Mahito, so there’s really no white picket fence ending option… regardless, prepare yourself to be used in the grossest ways. he’s got a particular fondness for watersports and anything that results in blood, with a preference for knife play and good ol aggressive biting, simply because he likes seeing you become a filthy depraved mess even when he’s being so cruel. i have a vague concept for a human au but even then he’s a nasty freak with no boundaries!!

adding Junpei onto this because he’s so dear to my heart and also the biggest incel. affection doesn’t come easy to him especially when it’s sexual, he finds being on the receiving end to feel as though it’s only because you pity him. try as you might, convincing him otherwise is going to take some time but he has no problem understanding his own feelings to be true although he’s shy… major panty sniffer alert, he’s too scared to actually try anything with you but he’s got his needs!! stealing a cute white cotton pair from your hamper is the next best thing to him and he’ll spend the next week with them pressed to his face whenever he’s alone, dick rutting into his hand messily. it’s subconscious but he also has a habit of stalking you around a little bit when he’s too nervous to actually talk to you but he swears it’s an accident!! he didn’t mean to learn your whole schedule it’s just that he sees you doing certain things more often!! he’s supposed to be on the other side of the city at that time for work?? you’re delusional, he was just… sent there for some sort of project, nothing weird at all he’d never!! huge whiner btw, babbles a lot when he’s finally fucking you.

By all accounts the lupin fandom has always prided itself as a drama free ship war free open to polyamory and wildly different headcanons fandom. And I can name a few people that have worked hard to keep this place very friendly. And I really started in this fandom in a friendly place. I even managed to make friends that Liked Luzeni maybe even just as much as me. I was ecstasic. I really loved those people so much, I talked to them daily. Some of them I respected so much for their craft. Great.

Id always been upfront and very clear that they were befriending someone who was fucked in the head. And i dont mean seasonal depression type I mean Bipolar and Bpd and all the symptoms it entails. Im not even going to mention the upbringing and the life ive had. All of it was a complete and violently abusive catastrophy.

Last year I exhibited symptoms that were intense. TOXIC. It didnt mean that I was toxic to my friend, because I was rational enough to know about boundaries. I was at the end of my rope. For undisclosed reasons I had to be interned. Great. During the ultimate time that lead me to become crazy, not a single person i thought was my friend gave me a hand. I received a message from one friend while I was litteraly perched on the windowsill about to jump telling me about their life. Not asking abt me. I sent some Hey thats cool but im about to kill myself and they didnt reply. Days after I was interned they told me that my message triggered them so they had to have an emergency meeting with their psychiatrist. Cool. Nothing abt me still. Sorry ? Fallout 1

During yhat whole shitstorm and despite everything a friend became my like. favorite person in bpd terms. Just really fucking embarassing shit really. I tried to prevent it, i tried to pull out not to make it worse, which not only was making it worse but was making it toxic. I aparently blew out, which of course my memory conveniently forgot. I said something ahout their partner. They never explained what. Again, after internment I apologized. They told me they needed time. They bsolutely deserved it. I was probably horrible to warrant that reaction. I might even have been toxic. Again, I do not remember what I even said. Im not a demonic entity it couldnt have been like I desacrated them and insulted them beyond repair. Even in my anger I have always been limited. But all i can do is speculate. They never explained, just took my apology. And then They never came back. That friend I liked so much that despite everything I did to control myself became a person i liked beyond wat was normal. We have had so much fun. Not enough to mend bridges or explained anything. Fallout 2

During that blow out one friend meddled, asking that other friend for information ? I asked to pass along a message to friend B. which friend A refused. Like it was not their business, even tho they were clearly invested in the business enough to talk to both of us about it lol. No problem. 4 days ago thou i confronted a group of friends that were friends As friend, for kicking them out of an rp group for no reason, even bordering on racism. My friend feels hurt about that event, has always hinted at it. it even stopped them from rping, something they did for 12 years. They had no closure and so I tried to bring it to them. Asshole move or empathic ? Thinking back i may have been taking the situation personnaly because i was already on my way out menrally. I dont know. All i know is that four days later, after i talked for hours to that group and the reason why they treated my friend so poorly that they still had scars over it, i was experiencing a mental crisis and that friend refused a request. Great. Fallout 3

The last friend litteraly stood by and said nothing. Not before the fallout and not after. I dont even know'if that counts as a fallout. This girl was so cute, so fun, so talented, so FUNNY. And when it came to a heed she said nothing. No side taking. Neutrality. Okay

At this point I no longer had anyone to talk to I think. I was documenting my attempt and the horrible conditions of the psych ward on twitter for everyone of my "friends" to see. One i particularly loved so much because they genuinely were on the same level of insanity related to luzeni made a tweet about the late hystix, a person i did not know but a lot of the lupin fandom did. A beautiful soul that was always supportive and kind. Everyone was mourning her. It was truly heartbreaking. I hope she is in peace. Our attempts matched in timing, it was actually mindblowing. Mine just fucking failed because of nosy neighbors. I feel so close to her in spirit still. That we both struggled so much that we came to the conclusion that nothing could save us. She did not have the nosy neighbors. That friend mourned her publicly.. on twitter. Ok. Logical, its a depressing, horrible and sad situation all around. All we can do is mourn. Still, it was a friend I was genuinely close to. That never showed the empathy they did to me. Hey dude so im kind of facing the exact same issues but you never reached out ? While my torment was there and documented on twitter because again. I did not fucking know wat was going on. I was in a strict mental ward under a lot of dosage from nurses who refused to give me insulin even thou i was type 1. Friend said that they tweeted at me. No mention of the years and years of discussions we had on discord and me checking up on them everytime they pulled out for severe family matters and i was genuinely concerned. Nope they aparently tweeted something at me. Okay. Thank you for the concern. Your investment really shows. Fallout 4

after that I stopped friends all together. The fact that friends I was talking nigh on everyday to each revealed their lack of concern for me during an extreme mental health crisis was abyssmal to say the least.

Fallout 5 came with Sheen. I was managing a charity zine for Palestine, and the lack of investment from so many artists brought me to the edge. I took it out on Sheen in the softest way possible. I told them I was disapointed in their piece and that it looked low effory. Sheen, a person I had knwon for the entirety of my investment in the lupin fandom, decided that an offense was enough to block me and never speak again. Once again i was on the verge of yet another blow out. And it happened. Lol. Its just so funny in retrospect that everytime I start acting weird alluding to a breakdown people shun me out despite, you know. me being clear abt my medical record. I realized that I was rude to Sheen and it was uncalled for. Apologized publicly not in the attempt that Sheen sees it but just so that everyone knows that if they hear abt the story, at least they know its all been my fault. Online friendships are so cool because it just takes the block button to burn bridges without coming back. With no chance of mending or at least a genuine apology. so Fallout 5

Is there a reason that all of these issues happened within one fandom ? I do think so. Unless i am incredibly unlucky. Or an abusive piece of shit unbeknownst to me. I think that the lupin fandom is surface level niceties. If they dont like you you will know. It will be passive but you will be muted and eventually just ostracized. You will not be invited in fandom events, or group discussions. It did not help that my mental health was constantly deteriorating and I started developping a persecution complex, thinking that people were making secret discords where they were telling others to avoid me or something. Ive endured all of this for one thing. One Humiliating thing : i love luzeni. I love it so much I want a tatto of it. I love it so much that after years before sleep I pick a random fic and then imagine their discussions. I love their dynamic so much. I love their romance I love how fucking inhinged they are i love that they hurt and love each other the same, i love that they cant live without the other, that they genuinely complete each other in a really ugly but complete patchwork of mental illness and really elaborate kinks.

I gave up thou. Another depression, I blew out, attempted again with the window, got caught and sent to the hospital. It pulled me back from the fandom. I realized i was allocating so much of my thoughts to it and how I could be better perceived, how I could make friends again to talk about the fictional thing i loved the most in the world. And I realized that in giving up and keeping to myself, that I could be more stable. That the damage was done and I cant really enjoy this fandom anymore, but Im still attached to the hip to luzeni and so in the words of a really brilliant man... Nah... Ill do my own thing.

U might be wondering why the hell is this bitch airing their laundry publicly. Its therapeutic. You dont have to read or care. If those friends see it, and make a comment of their own about how the events did NOT happen like I told, I would love to hear how they perceived it. I do not give my friendship freely and easily and these people have done profound damage to my abilty to trust. And most of all, I never had any closure. I kept rethinking, blaming them, then myself, then miscommunication, then them and then myself again. To this day I dont know why all of this happend. Did I act like an unfathomable monster, or did my friend simply not give a shit enough to help me through this. I dont fucking know and I cant deny either options. Maybe I am talking through a completely selfish wrapped sens of perception that is not to be trusted. I wouldnt be surprised. I have a very hard time relying on my own brain lately. My health is deteriorating very fast, and shit is getting worse.

The second reason is that I am going to be interned for psychiatric issues for the next 3 months. For the first time in my life I think Ill finally get all the professional support i need, available and close. Im not going to be investing any time in the fandom, if simply talking to the psychiatrist abt this catastrophic strings of fallouts. I might be posting some luzenis, but frankly i doubt it. I only make fanart when I am happy, or sad enough but still capable. Im neither right now. You are not entitled to any of these informations, but I just wanted to write them out of my mind because I have a LOT of baggage to go on through and this is an extra bag I dont need so im throwing it out.

You cannot gauge an entire fandom from your perspective, the same way you cannot gauge an entire userbase. No, tiktokers are not the worst people in humanity. Neither are reddit users. Being on tumblr is cool, but it doesnt make u better than being on twitter. And so this is only my opinion of the lupin fandom. I met some amazing persons that i wish the best for, for ever and ever, but in all the niceties and welcoming you might see, I dont think that extends to a person with mental illnesses that are villified, or out of their control. I can fairly say that my experience was disapointing, and I dont intend to rekindle anything. Ill just be on the fringe maintaining the spirit of luzeni alive because fuck you monkey punch these are my characters now by law.

If you read until this bro get a life. Also im joking, youv given me more consideration than most people i met have. If your take after this is that I am deranged, then youv read right.

Thank you for reading. This blog has always been a pleasure to post on, even my most cringe and embarassing shippy stuff. Ive been met with nothint but support, and I truly enjoy being here because of you. I hope this isnt a 3+ month long goodbye. I hope I draw my lovers again. But I cant guarantee anything. I wish you all health most of all, and love and compassion.

MASTERPOST TIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

HIIIIIIIIIIII <3

my name is clovia, i respond to that, or clo, or vee, or cloves, or clover/clovers lmao, i have a lotta nicknames <333

i use they/them pronouns, i am biromantic and asexual, and i am 15!

i have diagnosed adhd and bipolar, and i am self diagnosed autistic (which IS valid.)

currently, i am super into: marvel (specifically: spider-man and iron man), the x files, and euphoria

i write fanfic on ao3, here is my profile and my works

here are some of my favourite characters!!: peter parker, tony stark, pepper potts, stephen strange, bucky barnes, yelena belova, dana scully, fox mulder, rue bennett, jules vaughn, anddd steve harrington

besties for the resties:

@neptuneballs - literally the best gf anyone could ask for, love you tunes!!!

@jaytheaceenby - literal platonic partner (might be one sided but eh) i love them so much and i live for them

@a-huge-bi-nerd - this my best friend they a real bad bitch >:)

@m00nagedreamin - dont even know that much abt him fr but he's pretty cool, he listened to my playlists and we've got some common interests, so WE'RE VIBIN'

@pixyletime - met on insta and now we're like besties!! :)

and i have more moots but i literally dont know which bitch is which so i cant like- give them a spot. sorry y'all.

i am an atheist, pls don't talk to me abt converting to any religion, i get enough of that from my mother and the fact that i go to a catholic school doesnt help at all ;-;

and please im begging you, interact with me. send me asks, tag me in shit, reblog my posts with quirky comments I THRIVE ON THEM!!

also @thatspiderguyfromyt is my cute little peter parker rp blog, so, don't hesitate to check that out <333

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this blog is a safe space, but not for the following:

terfs, homophobes, transphobes, racists, antisemitists, nazis, KKK members, ableists, pedos, bots, or any other type of poo-head.

fight me i DARE you i could literally dismantle an entire empire whilst in a manic episode and im not afraid to shut some stank-ass bitches down for talkin' schmack :D

tw, i do occasionally make vent posts which can include topics like drug addiction, cravings, dissociation, derealisation, depersonalisation, bipolar, mania, and depression

overview cont. i guess lmao. no one asked but its been something in the back of my mind for a while now & i got an anon tonight telling me i come off intimidating and i feel the need to just. make note of some things so that hopefully if anyone feels a certain way with how i run this blog then like. know and understand both my side as well as that my dms / disc is open for anyone to pop into -- just obv depends on the headspace at the time.

i know this is long & am sorry if it doesnt make sense but. just setting it gently out there.

but, again, my disc ( same as my url ) is open for any mutual. its open to shoot the shit. open for plotting. open for memes. what have you. i may not always get to every message. i may not be in the headspace for certain things or certain energies. but its open for anyone as long as we are mutuals & if handles are different between here & disc then i just get a heads-up abt who you are so i know lmao

likewise, i am fairly fucking slow writing-wise and alot of that is because of offsite issues chipping into me but also because most, if not all, of the things i DO have in the inbox or drafts are from my affiliates at this time ( tho i do have some more from the archive i need to move over from a couple people ). alot of my spoons and drive to write and post is because of the dynamics and plotting built between our muses. im not a blog centered on plotting but, it does help to have a better idea on how to navigate between muses c: esp for those technically outside of my kiddos' texas canon obviously. that being said, anyone is welcome to like any inbox calls i put out there. and my inbox is always open and accepting, even if i havent reblogged prompts in a while -- i have my tag linked on my pinned and its available always & for whomever. it just comes with the understanding that i may take a while to respond to them & they may not get as expansive as some of my posts can get with my affiliates; which again, is just simply from how much we've been building together that helps with that!

on that note. my connections with my texas pals are very dear to me. both ic & ooc. as i noted in my overview post, i talk about the dynamics we've built openly and freely here because theyre so integral to my portrayals. they & their kiddos have my entire heart and i unapologetically love having fun with them and going on tangents with them and bouncing thoughts off of each others posts on the dash.

my experiences in other corners of tumby rp have not been particularly kind. and its been a long time since ive felt comfortable especially ooc with writing partners. and i understand if i may come across closed off or intimidating or unapproachable. i understand if i also come across partial to them / play favorites because frankly... i am. i do. thats because they've built bonds not just between characters but also with me. ill be very transparent and say that i am very particular in who i get close with and that translates into here too. but thats also just something that easily can also happen with literally anyone. again i do understand if i come across closed off in any sense but genuinely? im not scary and i have options open for continuing to grow more connections with people c: theyre open always. what im not going to do, however, purely out of personal experience is chase after interactions. the last fandoms i wrote in i did so and it wore me down into my last hiatus. i will show equal enthusiasm to whats given. but i wont fish for it, either. its just not my cup of tea.

i like to think im fairly patient and understanding in a lot, probably moreso than i should in some cases -- sincerely though if theres issues know that im fine with it being brought up. but im also not going to be welcoming nor tolerate my boundaries being disregarded or disrespected, im already dealing with that with an offsite friend. not dealing with it here. i do not like feeling so uncomfortable existing on my own blog or in my own disc. and i get that already with my personal disc & this offsite friend in particular. im not dealing with it here too.

which on that note, i also wont be receptive with issues regarding what i post, what i talk about, who i write with, who i choose as affiliates or mains or w/e. my blog & my dash are my safe & comfort zones and these muses often help me alot with navigating when my headspace is at a fucked up level. if any of that is a concern yes youre welcome to come to me and talk it over but end of the day? my comfort & mental state is a priority to me. if thats ever an issue i truly would just recommend you do what you feel is best for you. everyone existing on this hell-plane are entitled on curating their space in whatever manner they see fit.

again. i promise im not scary. im not an ass. but i do curate my space to be in my best interest and at my age & experience across the 10+ yrs ive been rping on and off here, ive seen alot, heard alot, experienced alot. i do apologize however if i do come across unapproachable or intimidating. i do apologize if i seem closed off to only a select few. i dont mind if you follow / we're mutuals solely just to keep up with what i write! thats completely okay too and i thank those who are <3 but if i seem unapproachable i literally just gently gesture again to my disc or prompts tag etc! i welcome any to get to know myself or my muses. regardless of how much time has passed since following one another. just again, comes with the understanding that my social battery & headspace often does work against me. and thats not personal against anyone, ever.

ᶻ 𝘇 𐰁 hello !! 16m [he/they] [turning 17 in a couple months :D] , looking for some friendly rp partners as well as friends if possible !!

[sorry this is a bit extensive ;;]

𖦹 🌱 ˓ ,, my preferred writing platform is discord and i reply at least once a day unless i’m busy. i always make sure to notify my partner if i’m unable to reply though, and would appreciate if my partner is able to do the same

𖦹 🌱 ˓ ,, i think i’m semi-lit to literate, with varying lengths of replies, but it all depends on what my partner prefers. as a basis, i write about one to two paragraphs [about ten to fifteen sentences or so] and would prefer if my partner has a similar length as well :D

𖦹 🌱 ˓ ,, when it comes to ships, i do any genders and sorts of relationships as long as youre willing to do the same for me. i also prefer ocxcanon the most and encourage doubling up! unless stated otherwise, i can play any character my partner likes as long as my partner does the same <3

𖦹 🌱 ˓ ,, rp partners are preferred to be around fifteen to seventeen [not much wiggle room for that]. as a general rule, i also like being able to talk ooc and become friends with any rp partners i have! being able to communicate and talk with each other is important too!!

🧃⋆˙ᝰ.ᐟ FANDOMS INCLUDE [though aren’t limited to]

animanga: ONE PIECE, jujutsu kaisen, chainsaw man, DR STONE, demon slayer, vanitas no carte, haikyuu!!, buddy daddies, BLACK BUTLER, INUYASHA

video games: fnaf, TWISTED WONDERLAND, OMORI, persona 5, ACE ATTORNEY

misc: vocaloid, MISS PEREGRINES HOME FOR PECULIAR CHILDREN, six: the musical, WELCOME HOME, the amazing digital circus

just like this post or reach out to me if interested!! im just curious to see how many people are into the stuff i’m into OO:

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its me again, i think im on here a bit too often. im cam, 21, they/them looking for partners preferably 20+ and who are literate to novella. i've been watching downton abbey and various other period pieces recently; 2005's pride and prejudice will always stay so very close to my heart.

id like to start a rp with someone who likes pinterest boards, who doesn't mind getting the occasional drawing from me from time to time, and who doesn't mind crafted playlists. anything painfully romantic and yearning sign me up.

im looking for a plot inspired by those shows (1800-1900s english isles), and if the want for fantasy arises id prefer very light fantasy. i just have one plot in mind at the moment, but feel free to come to the table with anything you'd like. complex family dynamics? court affairs? weirdly developed side-characters? yes please.

for pairings i'm generally fine with any. i would like to play the masculine role regardless. for mxf ones this is my basic plot but we can switch it up easily for different pairings to fit the circumstances of the time: - y/c is married and has been for 5 or so years. (pretty much just a long while. if she has kids its up to you.) it isn't a loveless marriage, but it is one that has been arranged. m/c is fellow nobility, footman, perhaps a personal guard (depending on y/c's station) who then strikes up a relationship with her. perhaps it is with passing notes and hiding them within their favorite romance book in the library, or sneaking out into the gardens or the edges of a river under moonlight to be with one another, that sort of stuff. however complex you want your side of the story to be, that's all up to you! that's what makes these types of things exciting. rest assured that i will match whatever is put out. sorry, this is a very rushed sort of ask, but i wanted to get it out there before tomorrow! don't forget to read my carrd in my bio. thanks!

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just watched all the films and i’m

PLEADINGGG for a drarry rp

i’m not picky, assuming this’ll get any reach..? be at **least** eighteen if you’re going to dm!! i won’t pry for an age if it’s not public, but i am trusting you and would appreciate that you do not take advantage of that.

i don’t really wanna do any ships outside of drarry atm.. but i’m open to any mxm ship, usually.

haven’t made a partner-search post in a longgg time, so i’m definitely rusty. i’m an adult, though i don’t feel comfortable disclosing my age, and a student (PST), which means i’m free a lot of the time, but i can get pretty slow whenever i get backed up, sorry! in writing, i will always use proper grammar & capitalization, (this post is meant to be casual so i did not care to include it) and expect the same of any partner :] i write anywhere from semi-lit to novella, just depends on your energy (i mirror)

i am very familiar with all themes in the film, however my knowledge on the books is lacking atm.. currently rereading :]

once again, i’m not picky!! u don’t have to be in the same time zone or be any sort of professional. i don’t have any plot ideas and am open to literally anything right now. i’d love to hear your thoughts!

ALSO

i use discord as my primary rp platform, so it’d be soo great if we could more there.

all else fails, i hope i find someone i can talk to about the franchise since im getting so into it again </3

this tagging is so weak umm yeah thank you for reading !!!!!!!!

KNOWING YOUR PARTNER WELL CAN POTENTIALLY MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER! Repost, don't reblog!

NAME: olive PRONOUNS : she/they PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION : discord, tumblr im's hate me personally NAME OF MUSE(s) : oops it's all rocket BEST EXPERIENCE : so so many things, all the funny unexpected dynamics, everything with bf on discord RP PET PEEVES / DEALBREAKERS : aside from obvious nastiness, ignoring my lore, infomodding, treating my muses in a way that i can tell is personal dislike and not just ic, using my muses as tools for another muse's tragic background and nothing else, antagonizing my muses for no reason (ik they're villains ik that is going to happen and i love it, but just automatically when they haven't done anything or even better, the other muse doesn't even know they're villains. so part of the infomodding again). sorry that's a lot it's long-suffering sometimes. MUSE PREFERENCES: stoic villains, deranged villains, charming villains, irredeemable villains, mentally unstable villains, stoic and deranged villains, villains in organized crime, villains that hide their true self behind a mask, villains who can only become worse, villains that see themselves as a weapon first and a person second, villains wh- PLOTS OR MEMES : both!! LONG OR SHORT REPLIES : both!! BEST TIME TO WRITE : at 3am when the inspiration strikes probably ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S) : i always write muses that are the exact opposite of me, like they're often charming and suave in social situations where i would curl into fetal position and cry, plus they're all deranged and violent in some way, so yeah I HOPE NOT

Hi there! 🔥🐈

Im 20FTM, and I go by he/it, looking to do some My hero Academia/BNHA rp! Ive been feeling my old BNHA phase coming back, so I’m really hoping to rp it with somebody who’s 18+. Im hoping to do a MxM, CCxCC or OCxCC, as I like to play canon characters most. I don’t do doubles, since it confuses me too much, sorry.

I rp only on discord but we can discuss plot here on tumblr. I tend to enjoy making a server to keep track of everything. I tend to write about 4-5 paragraphs or the discord message limit, but I try to copy my rp partner in response length.

I’d like to be able to talk outside of RPs, lets share all our different headcanons and ideas. I welcome darker themes like dead dove, some 🍪, gore, stalking, corruption, etc, if that’s what you’d like to do. Id like for the rp to have smut, but Id like to have at least a little plot we can fall back on. All ships are welcome.

I prefer to play bottom characters, either dom or sub, though I have some characters I have preferences for. I don’t typically just play top since I like to see my fave characters getting railed 🤭. I also play both Cis or FTM characters, and welcome you playing either, as long as we have fun. I do have a weakness for rough and muscular guys being submissive though 🤭.

I also welcome most AUs, except for non-quirk AUs, as id like to keep that part of the story. I like to use some of canon, but since I’m not fully caught up to the manga its mainly just the setting, everything else is up to us! Most AUs are welcome, from Omegaverse to dom/sub dynamics to time travel or dimension travel, just let me know if there’s anything specific you want to do.

I don’t have any specific plot in mind, so throw anything you have at me. The only thing I have is preferences for characters I play, when it comes to if they’re sub or dom, and a bit of an idea of what they’d be like, hehe.

Just interacting with this post and ill get back to you!

Heres the characters id like to try playing, and ill put in brackets if I have any preferences, as well as darken the ones I wanna play the most.

Enji Todoroki (Cis or FTM. pre or post redemption, prefer him as a sub bottom. Pre as a bratty guy who needs to be put in his place, post as him being more quiet and guilty who needs to be taken care of)

All for One (Cis or FTM. Id like to play him as a Bottom, can be both dom or sub bottom, I’d like the thought of him being put in his place by somebody)

Natsuo Todoroki (Cis or FTM. No preferences, though I like to rp him scarred and angsty with daddy issues and a powerful ice quirk he keeps hidden out of spite)

Toya Todoroki/Dabi (Cis or FTM. Id like to play him as a bratty Bottom. Can be both your character as the dom, or Dabi as a dom bottom)

Hiroshi Tameda (Cis or FTM. Sub Bottom. Would be cute to see this endeavor fanboy with his hero or other characters. Had the thought of maybe some corruption, or making him “get a new favorite hero” even if it’s a villain)

Jin Bubaigawara (Cis or FTM. No other preferences. Though it would be kinda fun for him to be a little pervy and touch starved)

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hey im sorry if this is a weird ask, but like i was about 11 when i found a roblox rp server ran by you, now long discontinued but in that server i met my first ever internet friend roleplaying. we were friends on skype until eventually they made me move to discord. being on discord lead me to meet other people, and after a long time and joining a couple communities, i met my girlfriend, and a few years later, right now i'm moving into a new house and we're going to be moved in together. none of that would be a thing if i never made a discord account to talk to my friend that i met on your roblox server. so like. thank you. i still follow what you do to this day out of a sort of respect and the knowledge i would be entirely different without that domino effect. i mightve left a youtube comment or some kind about this before? but to my knowledge ive never really told you about this. idk how to end this but like. thank you.

thank you so, so much for the kind words! they made my day today and left me with a huge grin on my face that refuses to go away

i've been told many times about how the roblox rp game, the epic crossover (aka TEC) has affected people. i've been told it's affected people in a good way, and in a bad way. in my experience, it's been a mixed bag-- i've gotten a lot of harassment when i ran the discord server for TEC. it even got dragged to twitter, years later when i talked about my experiences running it publicly, and how i was chased out of my own discord because i got pissed off that nobody said anything to the mods when someone dropped their suicide letter in a vent channel, spearheaded by someone i'd like to keep anonymous (but will call them A for sake of simplicity). there was a callout post that got deleted based off of those events. person A allegedly has/had DID, giving me anxiety around people with DID for a few years. years later after those events, based off of what i was told, allegedly A was faking it. i don't know how true this is, but if this was the case it would make sense. they used their alters in the server in order to shame me and gang up on me, or at least that's how it felt. other admins on the discord and in the roblox game itself have told me that helping me run it all was also immensely stressful, even after i left, and i feel an incredible amount of guilt surround it.

however, those same friends told me a lot of good. they've met their best friends, partners, and realized who they were because of what i made. in a sense, i found out who i was because of TEC. sometimes, though, i doubt that the positive impacts outweigh the negatives. i get really worried about how my actions impact others. and being told this, it really means a lot. i'm really happy i've been able to have that kind of impact on you, even if we don't know each other. it feels nice to bring something positive into somebody's life.

roundabout way of saying: thank you. i'm hanging this on my mental fridge forever

You can ignore this. But since seeing the callout post I've been nothing but pissed at Spork. So here's my two cents. We used to RP a lot, they told me constantly that they loved me (platonically, of course). They gave me the impression that we were close, despite us not having many deep conversations outside of RP. I don't want to say lovebombing, but looking back... It kinda was. All because I RPed a character they simped for. The Penguin, from Batman's rogues gallery. Overtime, I watched Spork RP with so many other people, eventually I felt like leftovers to them. Conversations were less and less, and finally, interaction stopped almost altogether when I stopped RPing the Penguin. So whatever was of our 'friendship' was, it was long gone. I was sad, but had moved on. I unfollowed, and blocked for a time. Just so I had space to focus on the mutuals that did RP with me. This was a year ago. In December I had unblocked a few of Spork's accounts. Not ready to go back to RPing with them, but simply that I longer cared about seeing their shit on my dash through mutuals now. Obviously they eventually reached out to me. Though I found the timing fishy, as it was the Thursday just before the wedding event. On top of that, their message was nothing but bitter. Not wanting to ruin the Wedding event, because I knew how much Spork and Slurk seemed to be close, I decided to wait until after the event to respond. I was going to tell them how it was, that in the end some RP partners just go and to not get so hooked up over it. That Spork RPed with many great RPers and they should focus on that. But I'm glad I waited, because I was not aware of all of this happening in the background. Without the context I now have, I had saw their (now deleted) vague post and immediately blocked them. Spork clearly does not care. Because any little fault they'll act like you backstabbed them in the most cruel way. Over a simple thing! That's not how adults behave, that's not how you treat other fellow RPers. Talking shit behind their back like that. It's just disrespectful and such a low blow. I am so sorry what you, your boyfriend, and girlfriend went through. Again, that's not how you treat your online and/or offline friends. Or RP mutuals. I wish you all the best. And some peace and quiet. <3

-From a non mutual.

// i lied this is the last one. You are the 7th person in 48 hours to tell me you had a similar experience with spork. They hyper fixate on muns. Leave you to find a new fixation. Then get upset if you move on to. Then they'll about their experience to those around them to always be the good guy. For eaxmple, everyone they told about void going up to talk about them. Spork said void was the rudest man (misgendering) they've ever spoken to in her life and he ghosted he. When we clearly see. they went up to them respectful about the fact that spork was ghosting them and the ship first. Im sorry you've had this experience but you're not alone.

Hi there! ⛩️🏮

19 FTM, looking for someone to rp Jujutsu Kaisen with! please be 18+, as Id like to involve darker themes and smut. I’m looking to do a MxM rp, and I’m multiship. 🍪 and 🕊️ welcome. I’m not expecting the rp to be fully smut, but id like to have it involved. I do love worldbuilding, so that’s welcome too.

I’m still reading JJK, and I’m at chapter 150 when I’m sending this in, meaning ill be further when it gets posted. I love spoilers, please spoil everything to me.

I welcome most aus, except for no curses aus, as Id like to involve the whole sorcerer society aspect to it. Omegaverse and aus like it are fine though. I tend to like darker themes, and incest ships are welcomed. (Naoya x Toji and Choso x Yuuji have a special place in my soul… not the same but Sukuna x Itadori is like a drug too)

By darker themes, it means I welcome yandere, stalker stuff, manipulation, dub-con, corruption (dark Itadori, for example), etc. I can play both top and bottom, I don’t mind. I do enjoy me a power bottom though.

Im not smart enough to fully understand how everyone’s abilities work, but I try my best.

I tend to write anywhere from 2 to 6 paragraph responses, depending on length of my rp partners reply, as I try to match it in length. I write in third person, and I only rp on discord, but we can plot here on tumblr. My timezone is CET, and I have classes during the day, so please keep that in mind when interacting with this, just so we both will have free time to rp together.

Here ill state all the characters I could play, but ill thicken the ones I wanna play the most. Like I said, I’m multiship, if you have any specific ship in mind just mention it, and ill probably be interested. (as long as it’s not Mahito, I just cant stand him,,, I’m sorry,,,,).

Naoya Zenin (the one i wanna play the most. his obsession with Toji leaves me weak… so him being a possessive obsessive fool is amazing)

Yuuji Itadori (the one i wanna play second most. especially post Shibuya, make my boy miserable)

Toji Fushiguro (I have a preference for Bottom or power bottom Toji, but we can do whatever)

Sukuna Ryomen (I have a preference for true form Sukuna, would love to do smth with his domain)

Ranta Zenin (minor character, but hes cute, and so little is known about him we can do whatever we want to do)

Jin Itadori (I became interested in the headcanon of him having the heavenly restriction, to like the extreme degree, give me op dilf Jin…)

Saturo Gojo (I’m not sure if id be able to nail his personality right, but it’s worth a try)

Kento Nanami (like Gojo, I’m not sure I could nail his personality right, but I can try)

give a like and anon will get back to you

A leche hobbies update:

Update on knitting adventures: almost done with a scarf I started 🤔 dropped stitches everywhere but it really helps with my adhd to have something in my hands to play with while feeling like I’m working towards something! Don’t think I’ll show it off though LMAO, it’s ugly as a scarf but I like it as a “baby’s first scarf” to look back on when I get better. And it’s warm :)!

Other thing: picked up a sewing machine from the good will and still in really great shape and working! Its old and has character and I love it HAH. I’m learning from my abuelita on her own machine. It’d be great to combine this and knitting to make essentials and to repair clothes that really need it.

Drawing/not really a hobby it’s my “Jobby”: sorry for being a lil slow on updates! I got a little bit of burnout and I really want to finish summers commissions so I can clear my schedule more. I’m just about done so I’m no longer chipping on three projects at a time between my full time job oof-but do know they are being worked on. I’ve got adoptables on the way and sketching the next ask-n update! I’ve also been keeping an eye on other places to post like insta and bluesky but I feel like I need to like…observe? Some more? Before committing and learning whole new platforms and posting schedules bleh.

I got other projects in the pipeline, one including a pmd thing, more Paldea headcanons and what not and some certain purple psychic cat things returning. But all in due time! Can’t overwhelm myself : 0

And a little bit of a rant or ramble about perhaps dropping a longtime hobby I’ve had and feeling sad about it beneath the cut ;( but if you’ve read this far thanks! Love ya’ll for supporting me!

I think a handful of you? Know I roleplay on this platform and have for a good seven? Eight? Years. It’s fun, a lot of my ideas and headcanons and art I’m known for were actually jump started by some random thread or idea from between my rp partners and what not. The Mewtwo blog, ask-n, scarlet turo and etc etc were old muses or ideas that turned into their own thing. It’s always been so easy to write and collaborate your ideas with the rp community you’re in and it becomes it’s whole big thing!

But I know it hasn’t always been the healthiest hobby for me after awhile but esp when I want to focus on content creation as a job that I’m really into. I no longer have the time to maintain plots and characters despite being so determined to stick to it. It’s becoming more of a distraction of just scrolling down the rp dashboard out of FOMO more then anything and heck I can’t even see most of it as a lot of events and verses and etc I blacklist to attempt to curb anxiety and distractions which haven’t been working lately 🤔 I still get lots of anxiety.

That and the community’s changed really. I know every old rper has typed their piece on “back in the good old days-“, leaves their blog and doesn’t give any useful advice or attempt to change the narrative lol. I don’t want to do that.

And it’s not the communities fault either. It’s natural for spaces to change to help new ideas and new people come in. It just means maybe it’s no longer meant for me and that’s okay. If anything it’s more how my friends I’ve been with for all my time there have left or are leaving. There’s a disconnect I can’t seem to get over no matter what new muse or idea I promote esp when I’m no longer comfortable in the space I enjoyed for so long. I never had to block so many things before and again not the communities fault and none of the things I’m blocking are unsavory, it’s more like my tastes and likes and dislikes and what I have spoons for have just become different over so long. It’s totally a me thing.

It’s in my mind that maybe it’s okay to let it go since I’m getting so hyped for my newer hobbies and the ideas I have for my art/comics. I don’t have the time anymore to dedicate so much energy on it like I use to esp when even over all my work Im still figuring out my adhd after getting diagnosed officially, new meds, the other mental diagnosis that makes the mental soup in my head alongside other life stuff.

I owe rp in general for helping me get that creative spark and through a lot of tough, long dark times. It’s provided me with the escapism and outlet since like, forever. I started rping in ye old Neopet neomail days and haven’t stopped since besides the occasional period that didn’t last long. Who knows maybe this is just a rut and I’ll feel better tomorrow or next week or something. Could be the change of seasons where my seasonal depression kicks in but I’m not quitting yet but it’s somewhere in the funky mind palace as I navigate this weird patch.

Thanks if you’ve read my ramblings this far! I wish there was a way to reward peeps who read through my long jargon? It just feels good to know I can scream into the void and sometimes I’ll have one or two people nod at me in understanding. Idk, I’ll think of something—