#im making this more for myself and my own reference than anything (fic writing) but i thought it'd be interesting to share as well
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canon things we know about the umbrella academy
luther used to marry viktor’s action figures at the age of eight
reginald used to watch the kids sleep and monitor their brainwaves
at some point, grace became ‘mom’ instead of ‘grace, the new nanny’ to all of the children
five was thirteen years old when he found his siblings’ bodies
klaus is the only umbrella native to the usa, coming from an amish community in pennsylvania; luther is from sweden, diego from mexico, allison from south africa, five from ireland, ben from south korea and viktor from russia
viktor cried when his siblings stepped on ants when they were children
the same kid hated oatmeal so much he killed minimum three nannies at the age of four
klaus broke his jaw when they were twelve after falling down the stairs wearing grace’s heels, and had to have it wired shut for eight weeks
grace helped the children pick out their own names
viktor realised he was trans after falling in love with sissy in the sixties
diego boxes under his comic book superhero name, the kraken, and in claire’s bedtime stories, allison calls luther his, spaceboy
diego’s preferred form of conflict resolution is a dance battle
hargreeves considered ben ‘easily manipulated’
both klaus and luther got kidnapped without any other members of their family noticing
after ben died, his family remembered him as the best of them who could do no wrong; klaus, who spent everyday with him, more accurately described him as a ‘loveable asshole’. all of them remember him as loving his family fiercely, and being the glue that kept them together
allison starred in a movie with sandra bullock
with viktor speaking russian, diego speaking spanish and ben speaking korean, it’s highly likely that hargreeves made a point to have them learn the languages their birth mothers spoke
reginald forced all the kids to read shakespeare, the odyssey in ancient greek and insisted on ballroom dancing lessons
sometime between season 1 and season 2, klaus learned how to drive
allison speaks seven languages, and five knows both ancient greek and italian
grace helped diego with his stutter
before he travelled back in time and met dave, klaus’ longest relationship was two-weeks long and primarily because he was tired of sleeping rough
ben and diego made allison’s teddy say ‘luther smells dad’s underwear’ as kids
diego told klaus that licking a battery would give him pubes when they were eight, and klaus believed him
klaus’ special training in the mausoleum was meant to make him too afraid of the ghosts to function, so reginald could control him better; reginald also killed him there at age thirteen, and possibly earlier
viktor’s violin once belonged to reginald’s late wife
diego’s ‘vigilante shit’ was a trauma response
allison was the first of the umbrellas to become a parent, and diego will be the second
ben almost certainly knew that klaus was dying and reanimating, as they spent sixteen years together after his death, and apparently never mentioned it
ben died at sixteen, and stuck around as a ghost for a further sixteen years before going into the light
it was a rule that nobody could speak at mealtimes, and they had to listen to various lectures on the radio
the children got half an hour on sundays for fun and games
the kids used to sneak out of the academy to go and get donuts at griddy’s
five used to get five stars in all of his performance reviews, although luther, hargreeves’ apparent favourite, did not
diego considered viktor’s book unforgiveable, but forgave him for ending the world in 1963 after he apologised
klaus has died fifty-six times by the age of thirty-two
ben died in something called ‘the jennifer incident’, although we still don’t know what it was or exactly how he died
luther spent four years alone on the moon; solitary confinement is considered torture by the united nations after fifteen days
luther wrote poetry on the moon, and self-harmed
diego has a fear of needles
klaus is now physically the oldest sibling, whilst five is mentally the oldest
allison rumoured either luther or patrick to love her
reginald told the kids at ben’s funeral that it was their fault he was dead
diego and klaus used to huff paint as teenagers
five spent somewhere between forty and forty-four years in the apocalypse; his contract with the commission was for five years, and we know he broke it before it was complete
as an old man, five had a moustache
luther, five and klaus all have problems with substance abuse
five and viktor were best friends growing up, as were allison and luther
luther got allison a locket with ‘A + L’ engraved on it when they were teenagers
allison rumoured herself onto a soccer team at one point, despite being homeschooled
luther wanted to go to summer camp, but reginald told him he would never go
none of his siblings know that diego shut grace down in season 1
five singlehandedly invented the formula for time travel
luther fell for the nigerian prince scam
#tua#tua spoilers#im making this more for myself and my own reference than anything (fic writing) but i thought it'd be interesting to share as well#luther hargreeves#diego hargreeves#allison hargreeves#klaus hargreeves#number five#ben hargreeves#viktor hargreeves#reginald hargreeves#grace hargreeves#i know these are all out of order but im writing them as i remember them#ref
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ATTENTION CREEPYPASTA FANS
hiiiiii i kinda wanna write some hcs/self insert stuff but im kinda stumped on who and what to write; especially since its been a while since ive written for these characters (a while = about a month?? give or take)
so! i'll be opening requests for creepypasta characters, a 'short' run down of my rules below + characters i write for + some info regarding how i write certain characters that may or may not be important
i apologize for any typos and mistakes for this post, im back to writing on my silly computer!! formatting may be a little whack as well, but that parts more so because idk how i wanna structure these side posts
it should be said right now that the way i write these characters leans very heavy on my own personal interpretation/au rather than ideas that the bulk of the fandom has (although, to be fair, i havent interacted much with the current state of the fandom, im kinda stuck in 2016 </3) so personalities or worldbuilding/common ideas may be different or totally absent in my writing
will not write;
this blog does not allow explicit nsfw material, at most there will be suggestive jokes or themes but it will likely never ever be the main theme of the post!
basic nono criteria, no gross stuff
personally i dont like writing prompts surrounded by cheating so most likely i wont write it
anything overly graphic (gorey), yes i understand that this is creepypasta but there are some things that i just simply wont write; however implied/minor gore is allowed to an extent
really asides from that im mostly chill with anything, but on the off chance you send in something that makes me uncomfy/a request i feel i cant fulfill, i will do my best to communicate that
ohoh also! unfortunately i do not take oc requests :(! no hate to oc x canon, esp since im part of that community, but i just dont trust myself to be able to do justice or your oc TToTT
if i turn down a request it is nothing against you or your wants, please do not take it personally ^^;
will write;
fluff and angst, along with specific scenarios! im fine with most angst but as said above, if a prompt cannot be done i will communicate that!
the reader by default is GN/is not referred to with pronouns outside of like. they/you/your, the POV i write in is kinda inconsistent tbh ,, but i am comfy with writing for specific genders + trans readers, although i admit im not sure how much pronouns or gendered things will come into play unless gender is the main point of the request
im fine with poly! though ive yet to actually. write poly
i dont just write romantic hcs! im down with platonic/familial ones as well!
again im not at all picky with things, and once again, i will communicate if something cant be done
added thing since im not sure where else to put it! by default i write short hcs and scenarios, short fics being very rare on this acc since im not confident in my writing; so !! yeah!! there isnt a real limit to how many characters you can ask for per request but it should be noted that the more characters there are, the shorter each section will likely be
list of characters i will write for!
if a character has a * by their name there will be added notes on how i write for them/special rules stated after the list
Slenderman
Trenderman
Splendorman
Masky/Tim*
Hoodie/Brian*
Laughing Jack
Eyeless Jack
Ticci Toby**
Jeff*
Jane*
Ben*
Nina*
Puppeteer*
Bloody Painter*
Zalgo*(?)
added character notes:
for characters that are minors in their source (jeff, jane, ben, and toby and nina) i will not be writing any romantic hcs; thats just a personal boundary of mine and while i dont think its particually gross or problematic depending on context, its not something i myself feel comfortable writing for! however i am more than willing to write platonic or family hcs for the characters stated above!
onto the proxies! im still figuring out how i wanna write them but i wanted to blend together the creepypasta take and the og marble hornets version into something new (mostly for my au) however due to my brain forgetting most the stuff that happens in MH (i gotta rewatch it, bad) it more so leans into the creepypasta take of these characters! i also by default write tim and masky as different characters, and the same for brian !!
main reason for puppeteer and bloody painter having the star is because im not too well versed in their lore but im willing to write them! though i am struggling to find a consistent source on helens age so ill be going off the fandom wiki (with a grain of salt) that hes in his 20s-
zalgo is a weird case because in my au he does indeed exist but also isnt?? okay so hes more so this untouchable being/mostly nontangible; like the dude is more so like a sentient force of nature bordering on something incomprehensible rather than being a person; more of a concept if anything... but because i want a challenge, and because i need to flesh him out in general im making him an available character!
but yeah i think thats mostly it! this post ended up being longer than i intended but i fully blame that on me being totally incapable of shortening things down 😭😭
#creepypasta headcanon#creepypasta#creepypasta x reader#creepypasta x you#creepypasta imagines#laughing jack x reader#eyeless jack x reader#slenderman x reader#splendorman x reader#trenderman x reader#puppeteer x reader#bloody painter x reader#zalgo x reader#crp#masky x reader#hoodie x reader
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Okay, I've sent a lot of asks talking about my stuff, but I need to take a moment to say thank you.
I've only recently got into making art, and up until now it was slow going. Sometimes I just wouldn't have the energy to draw, or I straight up couldn't think of anything that I wanted to draw. But then I stumbled onto "Taking Life As Is" and it energized something in me.
I've been pumping out new art of completely original creatures at a ridiculous rate, taking the time to actually research real life animals for reference, something I've rarely had the patience to do before.
I can't believe it's only been 3 days since that ask where I came up with One Thousand Silent Eyes, the first OC to ever leave my brain. In 3 days, I've filled eleven whole pages of my journal. That blows my mind.
So thank you. Thank you for the wonderful story in a fandom that is desperately short on those, but more than that, thank you for inspiring me. For the first time in years, I'm creating things for myself, instead of consuming things made by others.
Without your wonderful story and constant shared excitement for not just my ideas, but everybody's awesome ideas, I don't know how long I would have gone without that drive to create. Thank you. <3
(Sorry if this is too serious or self-important, I tend to ramble when I need to express what I'm thinking. Dont feel any pressure to answer this if you dont want to!)
HI HELLO. UH. I needed to go lay down for a min after this so I didn't just outright start bawling my ACTUAL eyes out in a /srs way. And I just can't say enough how little my expressions of gratitude will not live up to the feelings I got. I can type abt screaming and sobbing all I want but AUGH that does NOT live up to it. So all I can do is say thank you thank you THANK YOU.
Like I've stated before, I started TLAI as just. A silly little fix it fic that, I am going to tell you now, I thought I would barely get over 100 kudos in like. A month or two. My writing experience is basically sequestered to fandoms that have zero members other than myself and my dear friends, making small drabbles for said friends. AND UH. YEAH. AS YOU CAN SEE IT HAS GONE A LITTLE OUT OF THAT RANGE BY NOW.
It is ABSOLUTELY guys like u that keep me motivated and confident in my own work. It is beyond the highest honor for me to ever hear that I have actively inspired ANYONE, honestly. Especially to this degree. It is BEYOND wild. Especially because your stuff is so GENUINELY massively awesome. It is so cool. I would have never guessed that you haven't just been doing this forever.
SO UH YEAH. MUTUAL SAP. IM TAKING YOU BY THE SHOULDERS AND SHAKING YOU. THANK U SO MUCH. I NEED TO GO AND CRY NOW.
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20 Questions for Fic Writers
Tagged by da bestie @a-problematic-writer for this !!!!!
How many works do you have on ao3?
There's 14 atm!!!
What's your total AO3 word count?
Sitting at 569,356 rn :] thank u Answers LMAO 😭
What fandoms do you write for?
MCSM, Sonic, Kingdom Hearts, and anything that catches my fancy and eye in the meantime! Basically whatever! Also got some FF and Danganronpa peeking in :]
What are your top five fics by kudos?
Answers, Would You Like To Dance, MCSM Prompts/Drabbles, Demyx Drabbles oop-- 😳, Sonic and the Black Knight? More likeSonic and a Lot of Trauma
Do you respond to comments?
Yes all the time and all of them!!! I love interacting with readers and having conversations!!!
What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
Probably the SatBK one LMAO sorry my beloved. Maybe I LIED HOW COULD I FORGET. ALVI. IT'S THIS ONE.
What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
Im honestly not sure??? They all, despite having their angst, tend to end on some hopeful notes or some kinda resolution 🤔it's also kinda hard to judge tho bc a lot are just drabbles and little thought experiments for me :]
Do you get hate on fics?
I've had the pleasure of not yet encountering any!
Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
Not my thing! I can barely write two characters holding hands without feeling like a whore LMFAOOOOO
Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?
Not typically where I specialize!
Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Not that I know of 😭👍
What's the longest you've spent working on one fic? And the shortest?
ANSWERS. MY GOD. I've been working on Answers since December of 2018 and she's still going and gonna be 5 years old soon which is CRAZYYYYYY 😭😭😭 That said, I wouldn't have it any other way and I'm still very excited for it and the future of it as I'm FINALLY getting into some of the meat of it that's been on the docket since 2018 :]
As for shortest, I'm pretty capable of getting a fairly long drabble out in just a few hours, so that'd probably be the shortest time I have.
Have you ever co-written a fic before?
Not on Ao3!
What's your all-time favorite ship? From all fandoms?
I can't easily pick one but I do feel like Sonic and Shadow's dynamic has like. rewired my brain LMAO
What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
the Demyx Drabbles mentioned earlier. Mainly because they were a set of character explorations and a lot of my own ideas and thoughts have changed pretty drastically from when I started writing those, so I've lost the idea spark on that line of thinking. Im still COMPLETELY unwell about that little weirdo, but in a different flavor now
What are your writing strengths?
Character relationships, motives, and dialogue and maybe a bit of ilke??? Atmosphere????? I do my best to write it well at the very least!
What are your writing weaknesses?
Action sequences are always a fucking bitch bro 😭 same with like physical descriptions and scenery--I don't know if it comes across like that but I always put in extra effort and time to refine these aspects before putting something out because I want them to be the best I can make them at the time 👍
Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?
I'm open to it but personally would like to have a little familiarity with the language and its nuances myself before attempting too much lest I fall into the trap of like. Google translate ruining shit 😭
First fandom you wrote for?
Sonic!
Favorite fic you've written?
Answers is VERY much my pride and joy rn :] to me it's more than just an MCSM fic/continuation, it is 100% a love letter to MC as a whole which was just huge to me growing up. I've completely thrown myself into all corners of it's world and lore as well as throw in fun little references from things I loved over the years and done my best to stir them all together in a way that feels naturally cohesive, fun, and semi-realistic in a way that doesn't like snap a reader out of their suspension of disbelief! I want it to be engaging and natural and overall just a fun experience :] 💖
I can't think of anyone to tag rn (brain so so empty) so if anyone wants to take a stab at this go ahead!!! :]
#zone chats#tag game#ask prompt#<- so i can find it in my haystack of a blog later LMAO#idk what to tag these things ass teehee <3
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im late but ASK GAME TIME!! 1, 9, 21, 28, 36
Hey Mo I love you!! And that's a lot of numbers!!! Fine I'll answer them
Which of your fics would you keep the basic plot of but rewrite completely?
Wouldn't mind rewriting and bettering Tragedy Farce if only I have THE GODDAMN TIME
You also have to kill the perfectionist in you sometimes. I'd rather move on and make some other funky stuff
Thoughts on cliffhangers.
What about cliffhangers. I can be tricked into thinking bad stories are good if they have a good cliffhangers in every chapter or something....... So I'd say they're pretty important. You gotta make people keep reading somehow! I'm pretty bad at it myself though.
Can you accurately predict how long your fics are going to be? If you can, what's your secret?
I can't really. There is some intuition in shorter ones though. Usually those one shots with only one scene that I like writing will end up around 2k words. Somehow that's just how long all of them would be without me even checking the word count. And it would be enough, too. Crazy
As for my longer fics, they always end up double the amount of what I predicted lol
Any writing advice that works for you and you feel like sharing?
I think to write often you have to be amongst writers. Have some writer friends like this, who tags you in.. Asks games.
Seriously though, it seems to work best. Reading all your friends works and throwing your own out there to be read. It's a rhythmic cycle. There's nothing else more motivating. As for writing longer fics, I have a habit of not talking/sharing wips about it to anyone until it's finished. I probably should! You probably should. You can probably get better ideas from other people. You might also catch mistakes early. Either way, Use People.
What else... Mmmmmoh I usually continue reading a book first before I start writing because then the words flows out easier. But that might just be because I'm not a native english speaker. Get the english brain going. I think it'll work for everyone though.
When I'm so lazy and stubborn to write anything, I'll use an alarm to do those 25 min writing sprints. This I rarely do. It's only for my long fics that I procrastinate on horribly. It sort of works tho and after some days I'd start writing on my own without needing the alarm.
One other thing too maybe: draft on phone and edit on computer! Especially porn!! Cannot for the love of me ever do that on computer
How do you come up with fic titles? What's the one you're most proud of?
I like to reference things in titles basically. I'm not creative. If I'm stumped then I'll just steal some other people's titles. The Tragedy Farce one, for example, is a title of a philosophy book written by Slavoj Zizek, which is also referencing Marx's quote about Napoleon that says: "history repeats, first as tragedy then as Farce" or something like that (I think he was specifically talking about Napoleon III). 'Less than Nothing' is also a zizek book title, while also being something Leon himself said once. It's great.
Some other titles that reference things:
Sleipnir is a horse in nordic mythology who is ridden by Odin, who has eight legs, like the,,, eight princes of Rhodolite. So "Sleipnir's Second Limb" just means Chevalier. Through the pov character's view, he is seen as some sort of a God.
I know Nothing about norse mythology. I believe I was searching for just about any horse god out there to reference. I think this one is perfect.
"If the mountain won't come to Mochammad," and "God Between Us and All Harm" are both people sayings that I found by googling. I'm most proud of the Muhammad one. It fits PERFECTLY with Adam's dumb predicament there. As for the second one, it just sounds visceral with the content of the fic.
'Symptoms of Rosette Disease' is just some words. Honestly thinking of changing it. Rosette disease itself is a fascinating plant disease, that's why I used it. And it's supposed to mean the underlying prejudice and inequality that exists in Rhodolite, the kingdom of roses, or something. I'm Trying to be profound here
'The Skies Have Been Empty' is also a good one... It's just Wellington noticing that over the centuries the stars have been less visible (because of light pollution babyyyyyyyyyyyy) and since stars was how people find their way in the past, he now has lost his way in life, Something Something
That's all I have to say about titles. I just woke up.
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Hey. Ive been following you for a while and yk just friendly neighborhood kid trying to get a following
I try and write, but i was wondering how to start bringing up my account as to how to get my writing up and about, as well as like what formatting i should try out first in the begining (like blurbs, 1 para descriptives, one shots) (i dont do x yn it unnerves me)
... Honestly im a bit confused and lost and ur a huge deal to me so some advice to the fan if you will :>
hey hey! keep in mind that i'm just one person out there who writes, so take everything i say with a grain of salt, but i will do my best to give advice :]
i think the absolute main thing when it comes to writing is that you HAVE to write things that you yourself enjoy writing. a while ago, there was a fic i started for a fandom, and it got the attention of a pretty popular person in the fandom space, who was super super excited for me to continue it. it ended up never getting a second chapter, because while that external support was nice, i was never truly in love with the concept of the fic and honestly found myself more and more stressed at the prospect of working on something i didn't care about.
getting support for the things you create is amazing-- everyone loves validation and getting to have a community of readers is so so nice-- but you have to love what you're creating, not just go after what you think people might want. and it took me personally a while to learn that but once i did, i started enjoying the things i wrote way way more, and i think people who read the works i made could tell that.
in terms of the /kind/ of writing you put out there, i haven't noticed one type of piece getting more attention than another. i recommend that if you post a piece, you give some kind of header with the title of it, if it involves characters list the main characters involved (if it involves OCs you could describe them briefly but i am not experienced in posting original works on tumblr so i can't really speak to that), list off any major content warnings (i.e. death, core, etc.), and give an approximate word count. that way, especially with one shots, people know the length of what they're about to read and can set aside time accordingly for it.
when you do that, also, you can then tag for those things! I'm not the best at tagging my writing in all honesty, so I'm not sure of all the tips and tricks there, but I think you can get a lot out of tagging the main characters involved (if a character only shows up as a brief reference in 1 line, i don't recommend tagging them). past that, you can always look in the tumblr writing tag and see how other people tag their things; that might give you a better idea than i can.
also, if you do start to get people reading and enjoying your writing, you can make a tag list! i'm ... also notoriously bad at using mine, but basically if you get a few works up you can ask if people want to be tagged any time you post a new piece of writing. that's a good way to have people consistently look at things!
last tip i'll give is that you should absolutely reblog the FUCK out of your own writing, because that seriously does help. a lot of people also tag on "reblogs are appreciated" or "reblogs > likes" to encourage other people to share their writing. don't go up to someone directly and ask them to reblog something/why they haven't, since that is a pretty uncomfortable experience, but on the actual post itself i think it's fine to say that you would appreciate people who like the post to also reblog it! just a gentle nudge y'know.
also this is super minor but one of the good things about reblogging your own writing is that you can queue things (albeit i have never used tumblr's queue system so again, grain of salt), and hit different timezones! 4-6 PM EST is the time range i usually shot for with posting anything i wanted people to see, but i have no idea if that's actually the best time, so you can use self reblogs to experiment
i don't know if this is what you wanted me to answer for you; truth be told i was a little confused at your intiial question haha, but i hope that this is somewhat helpful! best of luck with writing :]
#nightmare.ask#again i have not posted my writing in forever and i never really went after maximizing notes so i can't rly speak#the biggest thing i'll advocate for is to WRITE WHAT YOU ENJOY#because Jesus Christ i lost a lot of time trying to appeal to people with my writing#that it almost ruined the craft for me before i started CS#and rediscovered that ppl can genuinely love your writing but also respect you#and that you need to love your writing and respect yourself
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hi ris, feel free to not answer this or even block me because this is rude but im asking you this because you're the only demisexual in this fandom who actively writes/reads fanfics (other than myself of course) how do you feel about non established relationship pwp? i myself read some but i have my moments where i don't want to read strangers having sex or something like that, at first i thought it's just my fic preference but yeah. sorry this got too long :o have a nice day
hi, i don't think you're being rude, necessarily, especially because i don't mind discussing this sort of thing. i'm assuming when you ask how i feel about them, you're referring to my own personal feelings to them and not on the trope/idea in general (to which i'd say that it's just as valid as any other trope regardless of my own tastes/preferences!) i've definitely read non-established-relationship pwps before (in that: hl were not in a relationship prior to having sex with one another) but none that i can think of that ended in a way that it wasn't clear that a relationship was in the cards for them in the end... tbh in general i don't normally gravitate towards pwps anyway because i personally prefer more plot-based stories and also i just don't really get anything out of reading smut in the same way other people do. like, i can appreciate a well-written smut scene and also objectively find it hot but it's just different i guess for the majority of readers. also i don't really write pwps either...
it's funny because i've tagged multiple fics as pwp but looking back on it, pretty much none of them actually are shjskls i'm not ashamed to say that i enjoy writing smut scenes most times and i also like to write stuff that i personally can't always relate to (i've written about hl having "casual" or "no-strings" sex before but obviously always with the intent of them being in a relationship later on), but along with that, i tend to find the scenes (the ones i write or the ones i read) that are more about intimacy, emotion, and connection most satisfying for obvious reasons haha.
there'll also just be times where i'm in a sex-repulsed mood and cannot read/write smut or engage with any sort of sexual content at all. obviously not every demisexual person experiences that – many are completely neutral or ambivalent towards it all the time while others may even be favorable to it all the time. some demi people may really enjoy reading non-established relationship pwps and actively seek them out!! not to use a word that everyone's using lately, but being demi is not a monolith!
what i'm trying to say is that your feelings are completely valid and you definitely shouldn't read pwps or anything else that makes you personally and specifically feel uncomfortable! i'm not sure if i've addressed / answered what you're looking for but feel free to message me if you want to talk about it any further!
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hi im lace. i go by she/her only. i tried other pronouns for a while and hated them. also im omni/pansexual with a preference towards feminine body types and a hate for any facial hair that is more than a stubble
im a sexual protector alter in a system (you dont get to know which one). im also a non-human alter (succubus) so if i refer to myself as such remember its not an rp or anything. i wont refer to my headmates by name for the sake of my own privacy
i like weeb garbage like vtubers (specifically hololive), vocaloid, and touhou. i mainly just write fics about vocaloid related shit and i will never write anything vtuber related but marine is still my oshi remember that
oh yeah did i mention i write fanfiction. my ao3 is average_redacted_enjoyer (NSFW) and i am nowhere else except for discord (i will only give away my discord user in dms).
(q&a/faq under the cut (includes discussions of NSFW topics but thats basically this entire blog))
Q&A
q: can you do a fic for (insert fandom/ship/etc. here)?
a: probably not unless its something i'm familiar and comfortable with writing about
q: why do you focus on ghost and pals fanfiction? you do know that ghost does not allow NSFW of their characters, right?
a: yes i know and i do not care because ghost has stated that they dont look at fanfics + i can write what i want + your anger fuels me + this is what im most comfortable with writing about + ghost has had weird guidelines in the past that change very often and i do not feel like dealing with that
q: do you have a pregnancy fetish?
a: yes dont kinkshame me
q: your fanfiction makes me uncomfortable. can you take it down?
a: no but you can exclude tags that ick you on ao3. if i forgot to tag anything though let me know and i will add it to the list
q: why won't you write fanfiction about vtubers?
a: it borders on rpf and writing anything close to rpf is outside of my personal comfort zone considering how i primarily write smut (its fine if you enjoy it tho we all have our own preferences)
q: when is the next fic/update coming out?
a: i try to post at least once a month but remember that i cant always update as much as i want to due to not being the host of my system so be patient. btw if i say i will maybe do something chances are i probably wont lmao
q: why do you say "lmao" so much?
a: it helps me set myself apart from my headmates
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OHH MY GOD THE "BEYOND..." OPTION I FORGOT AB THAT ONE!!! sksw link is such a rascal i love him so...
and donot fucking worry i know EXACTLY what ur talking abt with how it permeates the tags and ao3. finding good ao3 fics is impossible and ESPECIALLY for sksw and oot. im surprised ive found what good ones i can man. also i could talk for hours alone about how L/U has impacted malons character bc i adore her to the point of devoting a major part of my post-oot aus to what happens to her and seeing how shes interpreted nowadays is so. hhhhh !!!!!!! :((( stop making her a scolding mother figure stop making her Links Wife and nothing else she can be so much more than just that!!!!!!!!!!!! aauauausbaa. actually i could talk forever and ever abt how fanon link and malon and zelda tends to make them the worst possible versions of themselves and how l/u kinda perpetuates that but its 1 am and i have a fic to write so fffff
and the names man the names. its such a small thing (and im no stranger to sometimes using those abbreviations in some of my posts when i get especially verbose or have to talk abt multiple links all at once) but i try to go outta my way to refer to the chars as [game] [name] just to make it as clear as possible that im not talking abt the l/u counterparts. theyre practically their own chars to me at this point which sucks when im looking for content of my favs sksw link or oot link and i get Sleepy Soft Boy and Responsible Serious Soldier like no! no!!!!! thats my purse i dont know you /ref!!!!!!!
anyways. maybe i am just old and not with it since ive been a loz fan almost my entire life but it is nice to see someone who feels the same 👍 ty for lettin me complain for a moment there.
on a lighter note tell me about the "sksw link is not actually sleepy" thing bc im curious. its a thing thats mentioned abt pre-destiny link but after zelda falls it does kinda go away aside from the eyebags in his character model and i wanna kno what u hafta say ab it.........
You and I, we can be haters together
The one SMALL mercy I've found while looking up loz fics is that there's no lu fics in the ghiralink tag. For obvious reasons I think. Everywhere else seems to be a fucking HELLHOLE (the first thing I search when I first start looking for fics in a fandom is time travel and uh-- you can imagine what I found (BARELY FUCKING ANYTHING (and also lu)))
Also I haven't gotten around to watching an oot playthrough yet-- is it really that bad with Malon? (For the record I much prefer zelink and like-- I don't even really like zelink all that much beyond ss. And also I hc oot as siblings sometimes. So yeah.)
Honestly I would love to play oot but I can't :( and alas, watching playthroughs is just dreadfully dull (I got a decent way through an mm one though but gave up eventually). Regarding oot link's character though-- I admit I myself have not yet written a fic where it's not lu (or adjacent) so I don't really get the intricacies of his character (see also aforementioned playthrough dullness) so like. If you ever want to talk to someone about it all I would be interested
I also do the name thing, with game then character (on one hand the "hero titles" is just lazy and i really hate how it's become common and they would never give each other names like that but on the other the reason I haven't written much for MY links meet au is because I can't come up with 12 names that don't sound stupid and are also names they would give each other, so. And also apparently those names aren't official to lu (in comic jojo will use things like the old man (time) the smithy (four) the rancher (twilight) and full hero titles on posts (hero of the skies, hero of the four sword, etc)). So as you can see all bad things come from fandom, in this essay I will,
Ok so. It's been a while since I've fully played ss (like two months but my memory is just shit). So I might be wrong. But Link simply does not seem very sleepy to me? Especially not to the extent he is in lu.
For one-- our first introduction to him is him sleeping, yes, and we get told by many npcs and Zelda herself that he oversleeps, but there's a VAST difference between oversleeping and being sleepy. I myself am bad at alarms and such and beyond Premium Loftwing Mail (letter spat in your face) there's really nothing to wake him up, so he'd probably just sleep too long
Also he's been having dreams about the Imprisoned for who knows how long. Dude probably ain't sleeping that well (fi I love you but I think that might have been a mistake)
(Side note he's still in school and there's an open book on his desk-- he COULD be staying up late studying. Unlikely but I think that would be interesting)
Honestly it all just seems like teasing to me-- there's no indication that he's ACTUALLY constantly sleeping too long, just that it's happened enough times that some people have noticed (and it's not like everyone says it). Honestly the only thing pointing to a constant sleepiness is his "sit too long on a stool and start nodding off" animation (which is still like, really funny imo. how are you even DOING that you are SITTING STRAIGHT UP)
Now, delving into my own hcs and such-- he did not sleep. After Impa calls him lazy and too late at the earth temple, something I think would distinctly Fuck Him Up (he SAW the chains Zelda was held by), he would simply-- forgo sleep until it was necessary. I've seen estimates that sksw took place over about 11 months, and that's what I generally use in my fics, so-- my dude really said "I wont rest until I find Zelda" and then took a knife to his sleep schedule
(Side note-- do you think they held a funeral (or Skyloft equivalent) for Zelda? Like it seems that after a week or so of searching, the reasonable conclusion of her being dead would be reached (especially if her bird came back, which-- what's up with that? There must be some nesting area for loftwings, so either it would be seen there or it would also be presumed alongside Zelda if it got sucked down to the surface))
So anyway. His tiredness is self imposed, not something he's always had. (One of my febuwhump fics was that he was literally so exhausted he got hurt and passed out midfight. It was fun.)
Also like I don't know if it's just me but sleepy and tired have different meanings-- sleepy is, idk, cuter? Softer? And tired is. I haven't slept in 17 hours and before that I slept for three hours. (Maybe THAT'S just why it bugs me so much)
And also! Like you said! Beyond the eyebags (which are always there, lending credit to my theory of oversleeping because he simply didn't sleep well/enough) he's really... not tired OR sleepy for the majority of the game
Anyway moving onto lu :) SKY BEING THE LAZY ONE REALLY BUGS ME BECAUSE SIR HAVE YOU EVEN PLAYED THE GAME. YOU'RE GOING TO ASSIGN HIM THE ATTRIBUTE OF LAZINESS WHEN HE ALMOST CERTAINLY PUSHED HIMSELF HARDER TO RESCUE ZELDA AFTER BEING CALLED SUCH? AND THAT'S ALL YOU'RE GOING TO REDUCE HIM TO? YOU COULD'VE AT LEAST PICKED SOMETHING COOL LIKE "GOD KILLER" OR SOMETHING ACCURATE LIKE "LITTLE SHIT"
Ha. He's the one who bugs me the most because ss is my favorite game (not just Zelda game, favorite out of anything) and I've put literal hundred of hours into it. There's honestly more I could say but i fear I've already descended into "wildly incomprehensible"
#sorry if i was talking weird in some bits i get like that when its late#mb and strawberryrosewood scream about hats
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Your thoughts about people that read REALLY twisted, taboo and depraved fiction? Like stuff I’d never engage in IRL but it’s kind of freeing to know I can let go of my trauma in these fucked up stories.
But I feel so immor after every story I finish, yet I always go back to reading more. God I feel so fucked up.
Hii dear Anon! Here goes my extense response because I can't do it in any other way.
Let me say really quickly based on your words alone that if you know you would not engage in them IRL you are probably not as fucked up as you feel.
If reading them is helping you go through a trauma, reading them has its purpose. Even if they are not so morally acceptable (probably basing yourself im social moral, not your own. Otherwise, I doubt you would be reading them or even less going back to them). But if it's solving something yet creating a guilty conscience that later can have negative consequences on your peace of mind, I would consider reading other stuff.
When it comes to my opinion, I'll start by pointing out, it all depends on what you are referring to. Those are very wide subjects and my range for REALLY might not be the same as yours.
Now, I don't think I read anything extreme (compared to the things I'm aware are out there) based on the fact that I have vivid imagination, a really good awareness of everything forming a body, high-empathy and so I know some subjects might come to a cost to my mental health. Still, I read dark fics and sometimes even empathise with the bad/dark/evil character... (Trauma reaction, we suppose.)
I'm aware some things I write myself can be creepy/dark/f-up for others, which brings us to the conclusion that this is a really subjective matter and has a lot to do with personal comfort.
I must also add that in order to know what I wouldn't want to even look at I had to see some things I wasn't nearly comfortable with. But that's helped me know where I draw the lines and what I know I'll just discard. In your case, you must already know your range is larger than average and that's why you worded your question this way.
To my point of view, anything that cheers or encourages the harm of others will always have a rather violent response on my side. Since it goes against my moral compass, I won't engage with and I'll report without hesitation if I don’t take other mesures...
Romantissism and gloryfication of twisted, taboo or depraved actions and psychology are also a big NO. I think it's wrong and harmful. Mainly, because this scenarios can influence someone with a more vulnerable mind.
I'll mention the difference between thoughts and actions: thoughts can be left as that, while actions will ALWAYS have consequences. While we have that clear, I think there's some safety to whatever you read.
There's a few subjects that would make me worry about a person and recommend them to seek professional help. If you are aware in any case that anything you read could lead to others giving this recommendation, it's totally your choice, but sometimes one might need that help.
To end, that one specific subject we all know involves minors, p________, it's unforgivable for me. I won't even say what I would do if I found out anyone around me with that content.
So, I could summarise it as: "I don’t judge often what others read, unless it's swaying to harm others. At the end of the day, it's a matter of preferences and if there is writers for it there will be those who read it." So I'm pretty... Neutral? Unless it's harmful.
I hope this answers your question. 🤔
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Hello! It's me again, the one from the last ask who ran out of positive adjectives to describe your masterpieces.
I have since then devoured and thoroughly enjoyed your notes on the ncta, and I'm so excited about all of that wonderful worldbuilding!
I also found your introduction, and I didn't know you're autistic! I am, too. I am also very shy, and in my case that has severely limited my life experience.
That made me kind of self-conscious about my writing — thoughts like "if I can't read people well, how can I write them?" or "would this thought process even make sense to anyone else?"
Would you say absorbing those things from movies and written work is enough? Additionally, how can I have my hyperfixations work for my writing not against it?
I'm so sorry for rambling, I hope you have a nice day! 🌷🤍
first and foremost thank you so much you really are such a good soul to come in with all of the adjectives i really feel like crying right now at how kind and real that is when I feel so undeserving of them.
thank you thank you thank you over and over again (and also sorry if i include both asks in one i want to make sure i answer you well and don't miss anything) but also apologies for not being able to make this brief
not to be narcissistic but i'm really grateful you read my lore and notes. it's one of the few things that i go back to ground myself knowing that i don't always have the energy to write but getting it out there has been meaningful. i wrote my fic over 8 months so i had a lot of time to think about things and edit and go back to ideas but the gist is i'm not a super good writer with a lot of references, i just let things carry me when i'm lucky enough to find them and pick and edit when i can.
not sure if you are familiar with the baader-meinhof phenomenon but there were a lot of weird moments writing out that first draft where i was wondering if the universe might be smiling on my absolutely weird delusional self-insert fantasy. knowing people have enjoyed reading it has been helpful, so again thank you so much
i'm going to answer your questions as honestly as i can as someone who realized they were autistic after i turned 30-something and am still struggling with my own internal questions about what that means, as well as how i approach the rest of my life. like i knew when i was a kid but they didn't really have the language for it then for afab persons, they just put you in special classes and testing and thought it was funny you could memorize full books you read. for a long time i desperately wanted to be "normal" and there might still be a space in my heart that does regardless of how angry it makes me to think it's necessary
so, that said, i was able to have a lot of life experiences. pretending to be normal, and sometimes not. but it felt like, and still feels like, they were at a great cost.
one of the pivotal experiences for me back in 201x when i reached my burnout mode as an afab adult was learning from other f-presenting asd persons about how socialization constructs our experiences. we learn how to wear masks and we learn how to read people and we learn how to say things separate from our own, personal sense of self. i really thought that was the way the world worked for a long time and was maybe lucky enough or maybe cursed enough to be called out on it multiple times as an adult. it made me more cognizant of the fact that when other people are present, my only desire is to disappear
this kind of mentality is also pretty common from people who have been through abuse and trauma (which unfortunately i have also been through) but when you're a self-actualized adult as a child/teen because your brain is working more than people expect it to, it's normal to feel lost. and it does get worse when you try to be "normal".
im luckily older so i don't feel compelled to fit in and have made friends with a lot of other neurodivergent individuals. but what ive also found though is what is "normal" doesn't really exist and questioning it is really more of a gift than anything. it's why a lot of autistic individuals don't feel bound by concretization of gender or sexuality or societal constructs in general, or feel bound to them from some ethical or moral framework that doesn't actually exist. so when i think about the correct way to apply what ive observed i dont always feel bound to it, i guess?
that's how i write, and how i will imagine people is sort of existing outside of those boxes
i think i may have already answered your question in terms of "how can my hyperfixations work for my writing not against it?" but just to belabor the point a little more
fiction exists as a liminal space where we can experience things without being personally affected by them. and if you have difficulty, like i do, reacting to anything as it happens when you do find the courage to participate, oftentimes you will find yourself in a place where a performance makes the most sense.
ive always really enjoyed theater and media for that reason as well as transformative writing because it does have a level of self-actualization. i honestly think imitation is the highest form of flattery as well so that’s why i pull a lot of other work in but on an introspective level i think it makes sense why i hyperfixated on kpop for the last few years because it's the unreality that makes it special.
when you know what it takes to be something you are not, you understand that there is a person underneath--acting or writing or performing--that you cannot and do not need to involve, and you are free to take the skin off of it or a surface level reading and make it your own. but it’s also something to relate to and even if i don’t always have the words to describe how i feel i think those emotions are still there and can be invoked by studying the way others present them
and not to be too forward with my advice but the best i've received in the past for writing is to be authentic to yourself without fear of judgment. because even if you believe you don't have an audience, there are always people out there who will have a similar experience. don't be afraid to idealize situations you have not been in and walk yourself through with a hand held internally through it. no one is going to give you a quiz or a test at the end, they'll just be grateful you helped them through it, too if you share it with them
i legitimately am rambling now but it's so nice to meet you and i hope i gave you a little bit of courage to continue creating, as you do me
bless, and thank you
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Hi!! I have another request because your last one was sooo good! My request now is about Mr Leclerc 🤍 I don’t have much of an idea but I was thinking out of the woods song as some sort of inspiration? Maybe like a reunion after years or a fighting for our love type of thing? Go crazy I’d love to see how you interpret the song & fic! 💓💓
out of the woods / charles leclerc
(gif is not mine! creds to the owner)
warnings: angsty. this made me kinda sad. also a lil swearing
a/n: im semi back (??!!) hit a huge writing block but i've been able to write this kinda short one because i was just super in love with the prompt and i love myself a taylor swift reference!!!!! i wrote this thinking about how grey and colorless life sometimes feels when you lose someone who made everything feel a bit more brighter. not sure if i'm very happy with this one but i tried <//3 happy holidays to everyone! enjoy x
It is another day, but it has been the same picture for a month. You wake up in your own apartment and greet the morning with a sigh. You don’t want to be waking up here — you want to be wrapped in thick blankets and tangled in sheets with a certain someone who has memorized the curves of your body and knows you like the back of his hand, just as you know him. You check your phone for notifications that had popped up from the night before but you’re honestly only looking for his name in the sea of texts and emails. Still nothing from Charles Leclerc.
You force yourself out of bed and into the bathroom, getting ready for the day that is to come. Breakfast is quiet, too. You sit alone at your kitchen counter, gripping your coffee mug while surveying the state of your apartment. You unconsciously play with the necklace hanging on your neck, one of the few things you still had of his. He had given it to you one day, saying that the paper plane represented him always being with you, regardless of where he was in the world. He is not here, but everything in this damn apartment seems to remind you of him.
“I’m tired.” You say, tossing aside an empty cardboard box you’ve just unpacked. You are currently in the apartment you’ve just moved into and what should’ve been a quick unpacking of things turned into a long one with all of the fooling around you and Charles had been doing. You don’t know how it’s possible but it seems as though the unpacking the two of you had done had made what should’ve been your living room (by now) just an even bigger mess than from when you’d found it. “Okay. Up! We are in need of a break!” Charles says, bending down to grab hold of your hands and tugging you up in the process. “Do we even deserve a break?” You ask, laughing at the lack of progress the two of you had made in the last two hours. Charles smiles brightly at you in return. “There’s that smile.” He starts moving your arms up and down in an attempt to move to the rhythm of the music playing in the background.
You laugh even harder at his attempt to get you energized and the poor attempt you both have at dancing in the middle of an extremely messy apartment. Charles is kicking things aside as you dance around the untidy apartment to make space for the two of you. You both can’t stop laughing and you can only imagine how silly you look to neighbors who happen to glance into your window but you don’t care. You love him even more for the innocence of the moment — just you and him lighting up a boring and dreary task like this one. The two of you, perfectly happy doing such simple things because you are together. You would gladly live in this messy apartment if it meant putting it together with Charles.
It is a clear contrast to this dull morning. What used to be such a colorful apartment filled with precious moments between the two of you is now something so lackluster and monotone. Everything just seems to be grey right now. You want to curse the world for allowing you to know Charles Leclerc because now everything seems to be tainted with traces of him. Anything you do reminds you of him. Why did everything have to go wrong?
“You’re being so selfish right now. I don’t know who you even are anymore!” You scream at the person in front of you. He is still the person you fell in love with all those months ago, but this is a new side to him that you had never known existed. It feels as though you are desperately trying to grasp at the last few strings of the love you two shared. “Well, this is who I am, Y/N! This is my life and it isn’t easy and I want you part of it but there isn’t more that I can do!” The gala night you two had attended earlier started off perfectly but as the night progressed, you had noticed Charles visibly neglecting you — he had started to act as if you weren’t even there. He would push you aside every time you tried to talk to him. He wouldn’t return the nervous smiles you would give him when you were left standing alone as he attended to business partners. He would shrug off the subtle hand you’d put on his arm when you were close to him. You were used to these events and you respected his need to always put his best foot forward at times like this, but the only indication he gave to acknowledge your presence was to ask you to hold his phone in passing while he went off to talk to who knows who. Even his fellow drivers had given you more attention than he did. This was not fair. You knew it wasn’t.
“And I know that, Charles! I know that. I want to be part of it. I love you and I want you to reach your dreams and I know that means prioritizing your career and doing all the things needed to be done but you have not looked at me at all tonight! Even when I was trying not to cry, you shrugged me off and that felt like shit. It feels like shit knowing the one that means the most to you does not give a shit about how you are feeling in the moment… or doesn’t even try to understand.” You are trying not to cry but your chest is heaving up and down. You are blinking back the tears that desperately wanted to fall during the dinner where you felt so incredibly alone and out of place. Like you shouldn’t have been there. “You’re being so dramatic! I love you and you know that. You are who I want. I’m sorry if you felt like that a while ago — I was doing everything I was for our future. Is that not enough? Is sorry not enough anymore?” You didn’t know if it was enough anymore. “I don’t know, Charles. I wish I did. Fuck. I’m going home. I don’t want to hold you back anymore - I’m not going to make you choose.” That was the last time you had seen him.
Right now, you believe it was enough. You just want him back beside you, making things feel better and showing you colors you had never seen before. The doorbell rings.
“Before you say anything, I want to say a couple of things first.” You didn’t have words to say anyway. Standing right outside your door is Charles, looking like shit, if you could be honest. You probably looked the same too. “I’ve spent the past couple of weeks thinking about what happened and how everything just turned out the way it did. I know words don’t mean much at this point but I’d like to get them out because you deserve to hear them. I’m sorry for treating you like shit during the gala. I’m sorry for expecting you to keep rolling with the punches you shouldn’t need to be thrown. I’m sorry for not seeing you or hearing you—I’m sorry for not trying to understand how you were feeling. I’m sorry I didn’t run after you.” He pauses, trying to gather his thoughts and catch his breath. His chest is heaving up and down from blurting all of his apologies out. You are still trying to process everything that is happening: the love of your life standing at your door, the tears that are threatening to fall from the both of you, and the immense and overwhelming urge to just hug him.
“I know apologies are overrated and this doesn’t make up for what has happened, but I want you to know that I want to fight for this. I want to fight for us. I will fight for us. I need you in my life — I want you for my whole life.”
He finally looks at you and this is the first after a long time that you’ve looked into the eyes that remind you of home. The eyes of the person who makes you feel like you could conquer the world because he will always be on your side, cheering you on. You both remain standing by your door for a couple of seconds before you step aside to make some space. “You want to come in?” You ask, a weak smile sent his way. Charles’ face visibly relaxes and he couldn’t have moved quicker if it was possible. He crosses the threshold, enveloping you into the tightest hug you could imagine. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.” He whispers into your hair. You begin crying, the weight of how heavy the whole situation was finally hitting you. “It hurt so much, Charles. It hurt so much. I was so tired.” You get out. You are hugging him back with just as much force, finally in the arms of the one you would only ever want to be in. “I know. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry.” You hear the pain in his voice, he is most likely close to tears as well. “You are all I want. All of you. I just needed you to show up.” You say.
You both stay in this position, the both of you getting out how terrible everything had been for the both of you. This is not perfect — it is far from it — but it is the beginning of something new. There will be more struggles to face in the future, you are sure of it, but right now it feels as though you are finally out of that dark and bleary forest. And if the world is to trap you in a maze in the future again, this time, you will have someone to explore it with.
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ok hi hey i want to write a spidey thing. i want to write peter and i want it to be authentic to his character. and i know he is jewish and i am currently looking up and educating myself on jewish customs and also experiences but i want as many perspectives as i can get. absolutely feel free to ignore this if u want u dont owe me anything but!! how would i go about writing a real jewish character as a nonjewish person? i want to portray him not as a stereotype but as like. a real person u know. also specific questions i cant find an answer to curently is goy/im a word only jewish people use or can goyim call themselves a goy? are there specific ceremonies outside of the easily googleable widely known ones such as shiva/shabbat/yom kippur etc. that are common for current day jewish practices? how orthodox/strict do u think someone in his position would be? thank u so much!!!! i adore ur writing SO much ive only ever read starwars fic by u💓💓
sorry hey jewish peter anon here again. another question is do u have any reputabke sources on information about how to write jewish characters? additionally disabled characters? again i am doing my own research but im anxious i might believe misinformation or use outdated/malicious sources rip 🥲 thank u
Hi Anon!
So I’ve written a post about how I write Jewish Peter here.
For more in-depth questions, I would refer you to to Writing with Color.
When it comes to writing folks with disabilities, I look for sources created by folks with disabilities. The way that I write Matt Murdock has come from a mix of those sources and my experiences with friends/family/students/clients who have disabilities in my professional and personal life.
As for goy/goyim, I have literally never heard a gentile call themselves that in real life before.
I’ve seen people on tumblr do it (which is weird to me). But like, in actual, non-online spaces, I have only ever heard Jews or folks really close to Jews (like best friends or partners or academics or sometimes even folks who are considering converting) call others/themselves goyim/goy.
Idk why others using that phrase feels weird to me, maybe it doesn’t feel weird to other people (other Jewish folks please do weigh in), but if one of my colleagues or not-so-close friends came up and called themselves a goy to me I would be like, dude, just say you’re a gentile or not Jewish and move on.
When it comes to what Peter celebrates and has knowledge of, it’s hard because people are different levels of devout all over, and cultural and ethnic Judaism are things.
My Peters are a spectrum of Jewish, which I’ve talked about here.
I think if you are going to have your Peter be Jewish, you really need to pull back and think about the story you are writing and what role his religion/culture will play in it.
Example: my Peter in Pigeon and Crow is much more Jewish than others because he is caught in cycles of confusion, grief, and seeking community and closure, so religion is important for him in that context because it gives him a way of making meaning.
That is different from how my Peters in Into the Multiverse are most religious around holidays and when they are giving each other advice, because it is a common language for them.
These are both different from DFV Peter who feels disconnected from his religion and family because Ben, the Jewish person in his life, died without teaching him much about it. He connects to Judaism through cultural productions, specifically art.
But yeah. Honestly, if you’re anxious about researching, you might just want to enter that space with listening ears.
Anxiety comes sometimes from fear that you will be told you are doing something wrong.
Anxiety can be mediated by listening to the voices of people of certain identities and embracing their complexity alongside the fraught parts of their stories and struggles.
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Hi! Same anon from earlier today. Thank you so much for the warm welcome! As for a drabble request, let me think here… To me Spamton Neo makes such a good switch. 😳 Despite his intimidating appearance and size, it’s so cute to see him be the lee but as soon as the tables turn, oh boy… 😳💦
I haven’t really seen any tickle fics of Spamton Neo with the Addisons yet. 🤔 What if for whatever reason Spamton Neo is caught up in those strings and he’s found by one of the Addisons. At first the Addison tries to help free Sneo but accidentally discovers a little weakness. So they have a bit of fun at Sneo’s expense until he can’t take it anymore and rips himself from the strings. Now Spamton Neo is free and has some spare ropes he could use… That would then be a good time for that Addison to RUN! 😆 (Not so sure they can outrun a vengeful robot with way longer legs than them though…) I dunno, just an idea… 😳👉👈 😆
BESTIE THIS TOOK AGES BC IDK HOW TO CONTROL MYSELF. Drabble Requests more like "Catt can't write less than 1k words" Challenge smhhh.
Also for reference Del is a blue Addison and Surv is an orange one. Idk man my brain gave them names and I haven’t been able to change them?
Hate myself for starting this like a real fic and then making it Cursed. /j (im kidding this was fun!!)
When whispers spread through the city about a certain washed up sleazy salesman finally getting the “big break he deserved”, Del tried his best to ignore them. That lasted all of five minutes before he abandoned his station to go and find Surv, the only other individual he figured he could convince to scope things out with him. Luckily Surv agreed, having heard the rumors himself, and was en route to find Del to ask him the same question.
The pair tried to convince themselves that it was just gossip, that there was no way he actually was able to scam some poor soul into going through with his outlandish plan, right? As they charmed their way past mansion security, there was no ignoring the anxious hushed whispers from the various mansion workers.
They’re saying he finally made it, I don’t know how he would’ve managed to sneak by us.
He’s not exactly a quiet or subtle man, it’s probably a false alarm.
Still, Swatch did seem a little extra…reserved when I asked them about it. They denied it, of course…
I didn’t even think we had a basement! This is probably someone’s bad idea of a joke.
Although…what if it’s not?
The “what if’s” were all but suffocating Surv as he tried desperately to swallow his own guilt. Wordlessly the pair descended the stairs to a basement they never hoped existed, neither one wanting to admit their hand in the series of events that led them to this moment. If this moment was anything; they still had yet to find evidence to support the rumors.
Their answer came in the form of a deep rumbling sound accompanied by two different colored spotlights flooding the hallway, casting long shadows of themselves behind them. Del felt his heart shatter and turned to look at Surv for guidance, who had an unsettling grimace tightly drawn on his face. Before either had a chance to speak up, an all too familiar voice rattled out of the massive figure dangling at the end of the hall.
“GOD [&@$%*^!] DAMN IT.” There was no denying that, even if bass boosted and reverberated to hell and back, this voice belonged to none other than Spamton G. Spamton. Del found the strength to take a couple steps closer, wincing at every industrial whirr and hiss that came from the massive robot in front of him. It appeared to be tangled in a mess of thick, green cords, desperately twisting and turning in attempts to free itself. He nearly faints when the robot turns to face him head on, its face confirming that the rumors were definitely true.
“COME TO [Laugh Track] AT YOUR [Old Pal-] SPAMTON G-G-G S-SPAMTON?” A thick puff of steam hisses out of the corner of his mouth as he fitfully tugs at an arm, only managing to ensnare himself in his own wires even more so than before.
“No…no.” Del clears his throat, struggling to find his voice as he turns his head back to a frozen Surv. He nods his head to signal Surv to join him, who reluctantly makes his way closer. “We came to see the rumors were true. Which…” He swallows thickly as Spamton twists his neck at unnatural angles to look him in the eyes. “I-it seems like they are.”
Spamton’s expression lights up at the mention of rumors and he cries out in delight, the sound piercing and shrill as it reverberates off the walls.
“YOU DOUBTED ME, DIDN’T BELIEVE I’D ONCE AGAIN BE A [BIG SHOT].” Spamton continues to contort his body, most likely in an attempt to free himself, and it’s becoming too much for Del to stand.
“No, I never doubted you.” Del gingerly takes a step forward, trying to steal his nerves as best he can. He doesn’t necessarily have a plan outside of “try to cut him loose”, but he figures he’ll think of something in the moment. Addisons are nothing if quick witted, he reasons with himself as he continues to shuffle closer to his former friend. Spamton manages to free an arm and uses it to scoop Del up in his hand. Del nearly faints from the whiplash alone, never mind out of basal fear, as he is held right in front of an uncanny valley rendering of his friend’s face.
“DON’T LIE T0 M3, DEL.” Spamton shakes the man in his hands a little. “YOU ALWAYS D0UBTED ME. NEVER WANTED TO SEE ME [Make It Big], YOU WERE [Make Your Friends Green With Envy] JEALOUS.”
“He’s not lying, Spamton.” Surv calls from the ground, hoping to mask the nervousness in his own voice. “We might’ve been jealous, but we never doubted you. We always just wanted what was best for you…and right now, this doesn’t seem like a best case scenario.” Surv gestures towards the numerous green cables tangled around Spamton’s limbs.
Spamton grunts and tugs at the restraints. “I AM NOT [Case Closed] TANGLED.” He does not prove his point as another cable ensnares itself around his ankle.
Del attempts to wriggle out of Spamton’s grasp, surprised when he’s able to do so. Balancing himself on Spamton’s closed fist, he leans against his head for support. “Let us help you, please. Big Shots deserve to be free of their strings, don’t you think?”
Spamton considers this for a moment, the only sound in the hallway that of the oversized cooling fans inside his new body working overtime. The implication of ridding himself from the one thing standing between him and his freedom was all too tempting an offer.
“D34L.” He chirps, and Del scrambles onto his head to assess the situation. He stares up at the ceiling only to find it missing, the thick green cables seeming to descend from an impossible height. The only way would be to cut them, and he hoped that would be enough. Del crouches on Spamton’s back, grabbing a string in one hand and giving an experimental tug while he steadies himself by holding onto a massive wing with the other. As soon as his fingers curl around the inner corner, Spamton shudders with a shriek.
“Does this hurt?” Del releases his grip on the cable, worried that Spamton can feel the force he exerted on it. Spamton shudders again when Del tightens his grip on his wing, and for a moment Del thinks that it looks like he’s laughing.
“He isn’t hurt, he’s just the same old sensitive Spammy he’s always been.” Surv snickers, squeezing the soft plastic that made up Spamton’s knee. He attempts to jerk his leg away, but finds it more or less stuck in place with the unnatural angle the string suspends him at.
“NO, [Wait There’s More!], LET’S CONSIDER THIS!” Spamton rattles his body, attempting in vain to free himself before the Addisons can continue down this train of thought. He can’t stop himself from flinching when he feels Del hook his hands under each wing’s inner corner, nor can he stop the static-filled giggles from rumbling out of his voice box when Del’s fingers start to scratch.
“You’re right, Surv, he is the same old Spamton, even in this garish form.” Del teases, laughing a little himself at the absurdity of the situation.
“How lucky for him that we came to his rescue. Look how happy he is to see us!” Surv continues to press into the soft part of the back of Spamton’s knee, as Spamton tries to twist his leg out of Surv’s reach.
“NO, W-WAIT, [Ceasefire Requested]!” Spamton laughs as he tries to shake off the two prodding figures, not quite finding the humor in this discovery the way they did. He feels Del scratch the spot directly in between his wings and he shrieks, twisting himself in a way that his sharp sheet metal wings slice through several of his suspensions. Thrown off balance, he somehow manages to catch himself (albeit by lying on the floor) while also managing to secure Del in his hand so as to not accidentally crush him. The three are quiet for a moment, Del and Surv in a horrified silence as they wait with baited breath to see the consequence of their actions. Spamton shuffles himself, horrible noises of metal scraping metal filling the air, until he is kneeling with Del still trapped in his hand. He shakes and stretches his wings, genuinely surprised that he can move after severing the strings. He turns his spotlight eyes to Surv, who exhales when he sees Spamton is more or less alright.
“Rescue him we did, wouldn’t you say, Surv?” Del calls out as he feels Spamton’s grasp slightly tighten around him.
“I’d say so.” Surv swallows as Spamton keeps an unwavering gaze on him, slowly bringing his body to a standing position as he adjusts to the feeling of being 30ft tall and drunk on freedom.
“IF TH<AT’S WHAT YOU [Call For You!] IT.” He cracks a wicked grin that sends shivers down both Addison’s spines. Surv briefly debates turning to run, but Spamton was quicker on the draw and scooped him up in his other hand. “GRANT ME [FREEDOM] YOU DID, BUT IF YOU [Asking the Big Questions] ME, I’D SAY WE HAVE A [Overstock] LOT TO CATCH UP ON. A LOT OF LOST [Time is Money] TO MAKE UP FOR.”
Surv and Del exchange nervous glances, for once in their lives neither of them can think of anything to say. Luckily, Spamton helps them out, and they find their voices in the form of laughter as he digs an oversized thumb into each of their midsections.
Lots of lost time to make up for, indeed.
#drabble requests#I FORGOT HOW TO WRITE NEO IM SORRY ANON#i got diseased by big shot brain and forgot how to write literally every other version of spam#ANYWAYS you are so so incredibly patient and i love you so much#two more and then im ready to reopen requests!!
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hellooo! love your writing :D got a few questions about it (i'm not going to ask about plot because you are too slick at avoiding them :'') )
how do you… exactly portray angst? I say because the way you write tommys is more grittier than I have read anywhere else. (like in For You, The World) keeping away from overusing metaphors is the hardest thing, I swear. writing trauma in stories might not be the most realistic thing mainly because you cannot really have reference unless you would have actually experienced, so how do you manage it? (im a very beginner writer haha)
also, do you have any songs for hush, or any other of your fics? like is there a specific song you have for any of the characters? :D
have a good day!
I am, indeed, very slick at avoiding them (as in, I’m forcefully yanking myself from responding at all because I don’t trust myself to not say anything, lmao).
This is a curious question, and admittedly not something I’ve thought too much about in regards to my own writing.
I don’t really know how to go about answering how exactly I go about writing angst but-
I’ve always been drawn to the more gritty and realistic aspects of humanity and I suppose my writing kind of reflects that, in explorations of complicated relationships, the selfish desires that aren’t always good, the wants that burns hard and harsh and desperate and ultimately just human.
We aren’t perfect and I like that.
For You, The World is, if you break it down, about the loss of a home and Tommy’s journey to finding it again. It’s about getting up when life is dragging you down, leaving you hollow and empty and so very tired, desperately searching for meaning when you have nothing/have lost everything, and ultimately finding hope again.
Home and love. Even when it isn’t perfect it’s there. Always. Even if it’s a bit broken.
I think most of us crave and desire that kind of reassurance, to want the people we have to stay by us. It’s human to want that kind of love, even if it isn’t necessarily realistic, because people come and go in life even when we’d once thought nothing could separate us.
No matter the setting of my stories I try to keep them grounded, in a sense. The world and the people in it aren’t perfect and I don’t want them to be. I like the imperfections in humans, that’s the core of my writing, what I want it to reflect. It’s not about making excuses for them but rather understanding, I suppose, in a way. Even if I throw them out into space or send them on a spiralling journey into a land of mythical creatures and impossible feats that stays to the best of my ability.
Humans are capable of being cruel and kind, soft and harsh, broken and strong. There’s no one side to it.
I think that’s kinda why my writing feels gritty - I want it to reflect those bits and allow them to be messy and achingly human.
About writing without reference - even if you feel like you don’t have a frame of reference for what you want to portray there’s likely something that you can understand in it at its core and work outwards from. I’m honestly not the best at giving advice on this because it ultimately depends a bit on the subject matter.
In regards to the writing itself it’s hard to offer any advice because I honestly can’t say how much metaphors I use and don’t use in the first place and there’s no right of wrong way to do things either - it’s a style choice at the end of the day and you have to kinda trial and error it to your satisfaction.
You want to use a lot of metaphors? Go for it. Exhaust them. Cram that chapter with them. Go wild. See what it looks like, see if you like it, pick out the parts you don’t.
Some people like my writing, some don’t. That’s quite fine. Let it be fine.
The one solid advice I can give is just - keep writing, find what you vibe with. The more you write the more you’re going to think about how to best reflect what you want to portray and you’ll surprise yourself as you settle into your own voice.
What about my writing in For You, The World is it that hits hard for you? I often save little quotes and bits that hits especially hard from other writers to revisit and consider just what it was about them that resonated.
(Sometimes I save bits and quotes from myself because I’m like, bruh, I wrote that??)
About songs... yeah, I’ve uh, got a ton tbh. Nothing character specific though? I’ll put eleven of my faves I’ve looped during the writing process of Hush since we’re eleven chapters in :)
Creature by half•alive
Honeywell by Clem Turner
You Belong To Me by Cat Pierce
Playing In The Sand by Bule
Impostor by Henri Werner
Favorite Colour Is Blue by Robert DeLong
Oceans by Seafret
Happy Face by Jagwar Twin
Mermaid by Skott
It’s Alright by Mother Mother
Cringe by Matt Maeson
#is this helpful?#i have no idea#i relaxed a fair bit about my writing when i hit my twenties and was like#you know what#this is for me#i'm gonna be self-indulgent as fuck#it's been a bit of a chaotic journey but very freeing in that aspect#pls don't think too hard about my music taste#i have alright stuff#and i have banned from using the aux cord in my sister's car stuff#jemmaphobe#corpse answers stuff#no but see#i just write#i don't think about how i write anymore#so feel free to pick it apart
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Keeping Up A-fear-ance's Thoughts
I finished writing this shortly after 3 am after watching the new episode like three times because I simply had too much energy about it and I have so many thoughts because I simply live for clawthornes and also I tried to break it up with more photos this time sorry not sorry if it's a lot ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
YOUNG EDA!! let me just say I am quite a fan of opening with a flashback like we've done here and the last episode
"we have never seen a curse like this before" Lilith you had shit luck picking out curses huh
"cut it out if we have to" goddamn Gwen let'a calm the fuck down a bit.
anyways we've only really seen young Eda as a wild and confident and happy little child so I appreciate seeing this side of her with the anxiety and fear she's feeling here. I love seeing what the curse stuff was like for her as a kid
Gwen: I raised a perfectly fine kid
Me: no you didn't look at her she's got anxiety
I'm guessing this is their backyard or just some woods behind their house?? wonder if the portal was placed there by another elder family member.
lmao I can't even begin to imagine what small Eda experiencing the human realm was like for the first time
Gwens giving me "I can't accept that my child is disabled/chronically ill/etc." here. y’know the kinda parent that'll put their kid through hell over something they probably will find a way to learn to live with (which Eda did do)
ok that's it I humbly request to know the story behind the fang now (also the noise she made when she put it in was freaking cute)
new dress! new boots! new dress! new boots!
..yikes that fridge is empty
"calm down the curse acts stronger when you're stressed" Eda do you know who you're talking to here
confirmation losing limbs is in fact a side effect of the curse!! (y'know since Eda originally said it just happens when you get older)
please I love these sisters they're so sweet and make me wanna go 🥺
"suddenly curious about my past" "always. always curious" Luz says exactly what we all think
witchlet?? sweet flea?? she's got pet names for them 🥺 (although idk how much I'd like to be referred to as any kind of flea sorry Lilith)
ok Gwen is very much not close to what I expected and I'm kinda grateful for that
she's more like super caring but still managed to royally fuck up which was my original head canon for clawthorne parents so uh that's cool. but literally, look at their body language, Eda's pissed, Lilith's sad and making herself small. she's clearly messed up with her parenting on both of them along the way.
"who knows what they put in those nasty concoctions?" mama clawthorne would be a fucking anti-vaxxer wouldn't she
ok I side with Eda here more than Luz and Lilith. just because Luz misses her mother, or Lilith hasn’t seen their mom in so long doesn’t mean Eda has to feel all grateful for the presence of Gwen, especially if the woman has caused her a lot of trouble over the years
I feel like the fact that its actually both Lilith and Gwendolyn have spent their whole lives dedicated to trying to find a cure could probably have held some kind of weight on Eda at some point. Even though she shouldn't feel guilty or responsible for that, I still feel like it's gotta suck knowing these people have spent so much time on something you know is likely never gonna happen, all for you.
Lilith 😞 her mother really just didn't pay attention to her all these years
hey if this guy does some next level healing magic then why isn't he more well-known, huh? why’d it take so long to come across him?? Gwen do you know what the fuck you're doing cause I think you don't
Lilith just because you're depressed about your mom doesn't mean you have to bring king down too 😠
SUPER irrelevant but is anyone else just bothered by the way Lilith is holding her spoon?? that doesn't seem like a comfortable way to hold a spoon. also is she left handed??
"knife season came early" EDA WHAT DOES THAT MEAN. is this a boiling isles things or is this a it’s common for people to throw knives at you thing
also I want to be surprised Eda fell for the apple blood signs but I am not 😔
Luz please trust you're gut on this one and not mama clawthorne
ok now I need to know why the fridge was empty but they had 18 cartons of ice cream this is why you guys don't have food you're wasting it all on ice cream.
wow never thought I'd see the day hooty became the voice of reason
also, night market ice cream?? are they implying this ice cream is like, edibles of some sort?? Lilith does seem kinda high here ngl. idk man but at least she wants to stand up for herself so good for her.
PLEASE kings just offering her ice cream while she transforms
"first in a series" Gwen honey oh no. you've been duped. I think we can see where Lilith got her naïveté from huh.
Also, nice snatch Luz 😊
anyways love how this show is basically making fun of moms who refuse to give their kids proper medical treatment or listen to medical professionals here
EXCUSE ME why do we know Gwen's palisman's name before we know Lilith's?????
"I am a mother who'll do anything for her daughter" you're mom who's suffocating obsession with one daughter has left the other neglected and is currently causing her to turn into a full on beast ya dummy
Eda DOES have a right to be upset. it sucks that her own valid emotions that she should get to feel will cause her while body to betray her.
PLEASE I’M SO GLAD LILITH’S BEAST DESIGN LOOKS LIKE HER AND IS NOT THE THING FROM THE TRAILER THAT IS ACTUALLY IN EDA"S HEAD WHEN SHE’S TRANSFORMED
but also why is she SO massive?? also anyone concerned that this is her first transformation and the light glyph trick wouldn't even work??
Gwen look at what you've done, you've fostered feelings of inferiority in one daughter causing her to feel the need for sibling rivalry that the pure instincts of the raven beast cannot suppress no matter how much their sisterly relationship had improved.
HOW COULD YOUR OTHER DAUGHTER ALSO BEING CURSED BE A PART OF THE PROCESS GWEN??
"after Eda was cursed, I joined the beast keeping coven" woah woah WOAH. you're telling me you only joined because of trying to help Eda. that covens existed, before Eda got cursed, and you very much weren't a part of one. combine that with "some words for belos" she has and do I smell wild witch theory still plausible???
anyways at least mama clawthorne is getting some sense into her head here
Morton c'mon help a girl out, that's some dang good art too what the heck dude
ok fine mama clawthorne to the rescue
no pls not raven beast Lilith crying im crying now
Gwen: I raised a fine and self-sufficient child
Me: no you didn't look at her. she's got, SO MUCH.
GODDAMN THATS SOME POWER. ngl this only adds fuel to the fire in my head that there was some kinda reasoning these sisters were torn apart, that someone felt they'd be too powerful together (and they were probably right)
"I heard you but I couldn't stop myself, I couldn't do anything" may be just because she's not used to the curse but again part of me is concerned that because she couldn't pull herself out of it even a little bit like Eda did that there's something wrong there. but she also could've been stressed beyond reasonably calming herself down too.
ok but this is sweet
NOOO im so sad Lilith's leaving :( I literally cried ok
"you lived here?" fine OKAY king that was hilarious even if im sad about this
"reconnect with dad" excuse me where the fuck has this man been in the middle of all of this. curse shit is going DOWN and he's just chilling at home.
I am curious about people's thoughts regarding the whole Lilith regression thing and the fact that she's literally going to be living with her parents again. I feel like it could help nurture that inner child she's been reverting back to and help her out a LOT. but I could also be concerned about it feeding into the regression and making it worse?? idk and this show probably ain't getting that actually deep into psych anyways
"some day my hair is gonna be big enough to do that too" Luz I cannot wait for the day. also mood, I wish I could do that too.
alright who's holding the fucking pen for hooty we need a volunteer RIGHT NOW so we can remain in contact with Lulu
NOT THE ONLY HUMAN? my bets on the real azura rip never mind she said he
Titan’s Blood?? interesting. If the blood of the titan is around I wonder what that means regarding the titans existence, and how long its been since the titan fell.
AHH BABY LUZ PHOTO
ALSO WHO THE FUCK IS THAT?? They're really gonna spring that on us like this??? Camila's gotta notice somethings wrong right??? Unless any differences she just chalks up to the camp?? oh god :(
well, anyways lumity shippers come get yo juice next weekend
anyways im gonna need to add a NOT canon compliant tag on that one Gwendolyn fic I wrote because it definitely do not comply anymore
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