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#ik she’s only saying this stuff bc she thinks i have a lot or give and doesn’t want to see me waste it on something she thinks ive outgrown
fairycosmos · 3 days
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I'm sorry to do this bc I know you get so many ppl venting and you have your own shit to deal with and yet ppl on here constantly implicitly ask you to console them which is incredibly emotionally labour intensive. However all that being said. I found out my cat who is 9 but is very young looking and active and shows no sign of pain or suffering has large cell lymphoma (general prognosis 6-9 months) and I'm literally broken. She's my best friend. I've been through years where I've had no friends but I've always had her and she's everything to me and I've known a lot of cats who live to late teens so I had expected that for her and this has come out of nowhere and is just so soul destroying because she is my whole world and I love her so so much. she's literally saved my life (have been at the point of kms so many times but didn't for her) and now she probably wont be here next year and I don't know how to keep existing without her and I didn't know who else to tell. I really appreciate your kind and honest presence on this site it's very cleansing and healing and ik this is a parasocial thing to say/feel but you are like a friend to so many. so thanks. even just having a space to say this stuff is invaluable. You have helped and comforted and offered love and insight to so many people despite your own suffering. Much love to you, I hope the universe treats you with lots of kindness going forward.
i am so so sorry to hear this - sometimes i honestly can't believe how cruel life can be. i wish there was something tangible i could say that would make a change to what you're feeling but my experience with grief (all types of grief esp preemptive grief like what you're dealing with) has proven to me that words often ring hollow when you're going through it. i do want to offer some understanding and some comfort despite that, i just know it may be hard for you to register right now and that's alright. losing a pet is so so deeply painful and it's completely normal to be devastated and taken aback by this news - anyone would be. at the same time it sounds like your cat is deeply lucky to have you and to be loved so completely by someone. while what you're both going through is horrific, i am so glad she has you to take care of her and that she ended up having a wonderful life with you - the gift you have given her and continue to give her every day just by being her owner is huge and i hope you continue to remind yourself that as you confront there next few months. she is warm and fed and taken care of and she has the best chance of living longer with her condition bc of the care and love you continue to show her. i know this is much much easier said than done but please try to take it one day at a time and make every moment count with her - it's easy to get lost in the idea of losing her but she is still here and you still have time together, albeit not as much time as you both deserve. i can't stand how much of a gamble of luck everything seems to be and how horrible things happen to ppl and animals who truly deserve so much more - that anger, despair and incredulity still hits me day after day and i feel it very hard on your behalf rn. you have every right in the world to process that sense of feeling like your soul has been destroyed on whatever timeline works for you. as long as you continue to move forward, hour to hour or minute to minute despite it all.
are you able to talk to any friends/family about this? i only ask bc pet loss is one of the hardest things in the world to go through and i think having some sort of super system could make the days feel a little more manageable. if not, please feel free to message me and share updates, stories, vents etc about your cat and how you're doing - i lost my childhood dog a few yrs back and i do understand. it's such a heavy feeling to carry around with you all the time. i would also recommend joining a pet loss support group as another option too, bc so so many people sadly completely get what youre going through. i hope your little girl is doing OK today and that you are taking care of yourself as much as you feel able to as you process this news. if you need to break down, go to sleep, scream, punch pillows, be numb - that's alright. there's no wrong way to react to this. i just hope you give yourself some grace as you do. sending so so much love to you both - and thank you so much for the insanely kind words by the way. you didn't have to say that and it really made my night better that you did. so sorry you're in this position. X
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birdricks · 4 months
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honestly beth and jerry have maybe my second favourite relationship in the entire show just for how interesting and tragic it is. like its brushed aside a lot in favour of other stuff but they were really both just kids... and the saddest part about them is that they maybe do love each other but its always in some way artificial
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shadowedvales-a · 1 year
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breath expels in softly graced exhale, contentment solid within wingchair she's allowed herself to drift off against, lashes fluttering by warming heat of fire's blaze. comfortable and remarkably safe. it'd been a lengthy day, challenges and questions alike, various nosebleeds concocting successfully run tests. ( you don't mind, truly. the master of the establishment isn't frightening like papa— tad strict, but easier tenfold. how you hope you'll never need return to ceramic lined horror you've originated. ) limbs yawned before lips could part, as pogo plated a mug of hot chocolate upon the side table. wintery weather deemed destination on favourite position in the great main room. eyes merely closed sooner than realisation dawned. alas, churning open, blinking reality once more as softness coats curled up frame, mother's feathery touch tenderly assuring safety. " oh— " you're told to call her mother, to call them brother's and sister's. it doesn't seem right to you, not yet at least.
rubs eyelids a little harsh, opening and closing multiple times for the haze to disperse. marshmallow inside liquid completely dissolved; she was looking forward to that drink, too. smiles gently at caretaker, graciousness practically bleeding from pores. " thank you miss hargreeves. it is very cold today. " stretches tingling spine, tugging quilt underneath chin. household stills a quietude elle liked best, where flickering flames ignite, footsteps of pacing mysterious man on the floor above echoing. strain closer, and one can hear the pages turning of pogo's current book. " i didn't mean to fall asleep. i just felt really tired. ( ... ) will you like to sit with me? " neck twists, beckoning wordlessly towards wingchair only a few feet leftwards, gaze glimmering encouragement " this blanket is big enough for us both. "
@flovraelies : for the sender's muse to place a blanket on top of the receiver's muse after they've fallen asleep somewhere, from grace hargreeves.
#IV. THE UMBRELLA ACADEMY.#IC. FLOVRAELIES.#okay okay ik i dont have my tua verse up yet NOR have i even told u about it but#longgg story short. when luther is alone after everyone has left.#reggie sends him on a mission. the mission is eleven.#saying hawkins lab exists in tua timeline.#reggie knows what's going on there.#he and brenner have been in communication for a longggg time.#(thinking brenner might be from reggie's planet).#so they make a deal and reggie gives brenner some stuff he needs (no idea what yet rip) in exchange for elle.#andddd elle becomes part of the academy.#but it's when everyone but luther has already left so.#it's kinda only her and him in training.#BUT YEAH#i have a lot more ideas for it but gotta actually write em down.#and then luther is sent to the moon so it's just elle.#she stays as 'eleven' and trusts reggie bc although it's the same kinda vibe as the lab. she's also goes by 'elle' at times#it's still different in a good way.#and i think reggie would treat her well at first when she first arrives. to gain trust and all#like she's still being tested on but she also has way more freedom.#and is actually educated and treated like a human being#and she would just ADORE grace okay.#OR same story but with the sparrow academy.#this starter doesn't specifically state which one.#cause im conflicted if i want her to be an umbrella or a sparrow :/#so it'd either be luther getting her. or marcus#and she's raised w the sparrows. but trains on her own / doesnt really go on missions just yet. works her way up to it all#a little isolated bc of her age gap but#YEAH#if u have any questions ask me!! 97% sure im going with the sparrows but. i will let u know
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pepprs · 2 years
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lol i hit tag limit but i have more to say so im saying it. im just afraid that if / when i get this job and then we like get existentially threatened or whatever (bc we are at the forefront of a movement that is not widely embraced yet and our entire purpose is to get people to embrace it (except… not as domineering as it sounds) but they don’t and of course are gonna push against it and threaten us) my mom is gonna be like i told you so which is only gonna make me spiral about it even more. lol
#purrs#and im gonna be living at home until the end of this year at least bc i am fucking broke rn and so coming home and having to deal with that#is going to be an actual nightmare. i just want her to be supportive and instead of’s all about how i won’t take her advice like she litera#rally texted me ‘it doesn’t matter what i think’ which is like.. true but also yes it does bc you’re my mom and also you saying that is a#TOTAL guilt trip. everything she says that’s like in my favor is a guilt trip. she will never ever ever see my side and i just have to be#able to cope with that and build my support systems outside of my family so strong to make up for what my family can’t give me but it just#hurts. like i get it you think im replacing you bc theyre like a second set of parents but have you ever considered that maybe that is#happening (and maybe this kind of thing has been a pattern since i was 6) bc there are defiencies in YOUR parenting that you have never#fully done something abt even though the signs have been CRYSTAL fucking clear my whole life. lol. like why do you think i am the way i am#maybe it’s bc every time i have an emotion you shut me down or walk out of the room or say (in effect) that im being selfish or delusional!#maybe the reason i am so happy here is bc the people ive met here have taught me that my emotions are PRECIOUS and my experiences are#PRECIOUS and *I* choose my life and *YOU* don’t and no one can ever fucking take any of this away from me!!!!!! maybe if you listened to me#for like 2 seconds instead of perceiving everything i say to you as an attack (and feeling attacked if i don’t take your advice and follow i#in your exact footsteps or want to) you would understand and the world would burst into rainbows and sunshine and birdsong!!!!! but instead#im fucking doomed bc im hurtling towards coming home to you again and again and again and you forever and ever and ever seeing me as someone#im not when i am trying to change the world and ive already started changing it. lol#delete later#idk what i just even typed im so mad im dizzy from pacing back and forth but i do like actually. have to delete this#ik she’s only saying this stuff bc she thinks i have a lot or give and doesn’t want to see me waste it on something she thinks ive outgrown#and will be unhappy in but like… i am growing and have room to grow and i am happy (except for when im not but me getting this job will fix#so fucking much of it) and she doesn’t believe me bc im just a pischer 😍#when she whips out the ‘Ok Tess’ and you know she’s abt to not talk to you until friday night at the earliest 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
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padfootswhiskers · 7 days
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With all respect, I think u guys give jkr's writing skill too much credit . Ik she said she planned everything abt hp books from the beginning( I don't believeit tbh), but she wrote some of the weirdest dumb stuff ever for the sake of the plot that don't make any sense ... Remus's life and even his name, for example.The fact that Remus hasn't visited Harry for almost 12yrs is ridiculous . "He thought Harry was safe - he felt worthless. He was a coward. " wtf?! No he didn't do it bc Harry shouldn't know abt his parents and wizarding world the End. srslyWheree were lily's friends? Oh they all passed away...Harry's grandparents THEY ALL PASSED AWAY ...problem solved (jkr is so good at this) and plus imo that also happened simply bc if Remus checked on Harry, he would be a father figure to him 100% (the role given to Sirius), and jkr didn't want Harry to have the same close connection with Remus as he did with Sirius. It would make harry -Sirius's relationship unimportant... Take Sirius's other relationships, for example. When he escaped Azkaban, he had no family, no lover, no one. Initially, I was like, "Yeah, okay," and that seemed fine. But later, it occurred to me that maybe he was written that way because he had to be solely for Harry. Like, he shouldn't care about anyone but Harry. Sirius isn't allowed to prioritize anyone over his godson.
to be fair, anon, i think two things can be true at the same time. a lot of stuff does happen in the hp universe for plot reasons---this doesn't necessarily mean it's always bad writing.
the plot required harry to be unaware of the wizarding world, alright. i don't see how this means remus would've taken, like, custody of harry or something if it hadn't! remus IS a coward. he IS extremely self flagellating. it IS completely plausible that he knew petunia wasn't a great person and left harry there anyway!
(take DH for example. he says tonks will be safe with her parents right after he tells them that her parents have been tortured for information. he isn't a stupid man, he's being deliberately cowardly.)
i understand that you probably really like remus, or at least the good bits of him, but character traits you dislike do not equal bad writing. remus consistently shows himself to be extremely passive-aggressive, conflict avoidant and unable to actually follow through on his conscience. i don't know about you, anon, but i can definitely see a man who convinced himself that withholding information about a wanted murderer was OK, convincing himself that harry is safe and better off without him.
jkr didn't have to use plot reasons to thwart remus and harry's budding relationship so that sirius could step in because...there isn't a scenario that exists wherein canon remus would step in to be an orphaned harry's father figure. i'm genuinely curious as to why you think he might. THAT, if anything, is what seems ooc to me.
as for lily, that seems to be pattern with jkr's 'popular girls'. i can't name five of ginny's friends if my life depended on it. it was also obviously done so that the snape reveal would have a greater effect. but lily isn't an established character the same way remus is.
as for sirius? i don't think it's unrealistic that he didn't have a lover/anyone waiting for him. i think people tend to forget he was only barely 22 when he got locked up; plenty of people haven't begun sorting out their lives at that age. lest we forget, he was also fighting a war pretty much the second he left hogwarts. not great for the dating scene, that. i don't think it's unrealistic at all that he hadn't thought about girls (or boys) or settling down at that time in his life.
but even if he had, i can't fathom a world in which he wouldn't transfer the love and devotion he had for james to james' son.
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queenofallimagines · 8 months
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oh good gods pls your luciferian hcs made me YELL they’re so good lmao i was side eyeing my altar and space for lucifer the WHOLE TIME
do you think you could do a part two? and if possible, nsfw? if not thats more than okay!! thank you and i hope you’re doing so good!!!
🕷️anon
Absolutely 🕷anon! AND LMAO YEAH I COULD FEEL HIM SIDE EYEING ME ACROSS THE ROOM AS I WROTE THESESGSHSJS asking the old man “why are you like this” whenever lucifer in game does something corny😭 ik he’s sick of me
Lucifer:
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- Okay so since part 1 was when you arrived this will be more about day to day life in the next term
- Right off the bat I’m imagining minor petty spats that the other brothers are like…. Wtf is going on here
- Like y’all have been glaring across the table at one another for 30 mins and haven’t spoken a word
- WAY more picky w offerings lmao
- Is literally going to be super extra about it for no reason other than to bother you
- For example! When you give an offering to oshun( African orisha they’re like the HR in the heaven department just above the angel hierarchy) you have to eat a little first bc she was poisoned once so it’s like to show you’re in good faith
- Lucifer will ask you to do that w food you don’t like
- “Eat some”
- “I got this for you-“
- “And I want you to taste some😌”
- “….. do I really I have to???”
- “Are you telling me what to do w MY offering🤨”
- MAKE FUN OF HIM PLEASE ITS SO FUNNY!!
- A lot of people ( white peoples I fear😔) be talking about he only accepts blood offerings and you have to sell your soul or whatever and stuff but literally this man will be giddy over a red candle w gold glitter
- Write all your assignments in sparky pen so when he looks at them he can’t hold back a smile
- As a joke you leave crystals associated with him in his coat pockets but he will never take them out
- Congratulations you played ya self
- You doing the stuff you do for him out of habit will fluster him if you say it
- “Why are you waking up so early to get ready?”
- “Hm? For Lucifer”
- “No im not gunna drink this tea it’s an offering🙄”
- Please don’t tell his brothers he will lock himself in his office💀
- Whenever you google “what can I do for Lucifer” 9/10 the first thing will be taking care of yourself
- So when your self caring w asmo and you go “oh I do this bc Lucifer likes it”
- The house will expose in chaos
- Mammon demanding you tell him your card numbers “for him” LMAO
- They’re all super jealous
- Gotta tell em its nothing personal he’s just always been there for you
- Whew if he reached out to YOU?
- The silence in the house REAL LOUD😭
- Belphegor waking up and going “ik you fucking lying!!!”
- You’re all confused like???
- “…..you said Lucifer… reached out to YOU?”
- “??????yeah????”
- “As in… he ASKED you to work with him?”
- “Yeah, I couldn’t stop thinking about his name and he showed up on my door one day”
- Lmao belphie and mammon are the LOUDEST FR
- “YOU CHOSE A HUMAN?? MR I HATE HUMANS BECAUSE THEYRE WEAK??📸”
- OH SO THERES MORE THAN ONE FAKE BITCH IN THIS HOUSE HUH?”
- lmao he’s sitting there red faced clenching his fist like
- “Listen I can explain”
- He cannot explain😭
- Can’t even say he did it on a whim
- “He really picked me up like a wet cat lmao”
- “Mc I am literally begging you to shut the FUCK up”
- Oh maaaaan diavolo will get a Kick out of this!!
- Solomon is very salty
- “But I can’t get a pact😒😒”
- He’s literally going to double down and bother him more
- “Lucifer you never told me you were taking on disciples🥺”
- “I didn’t think it was that important lord diavolo simply to pass the time”
- Simeon is laughing but internally having the feels bc he’s like 🥹 “even after all this time you still choose to be a guardian angel”
- Will tell you embarrassing stories about him he is now super close to you
- “Lucifer being the lords favorite was also the best one at singing👀 he loved music”
- That’s tru btw lmao Lucifer was like one of the angels who liked singing the most thats what makes humans and angels so alike- love for music and dancing-
- Call him your morning star and he MELTS
- Back to why were really here😌
- Call him that during sex or when you first wake up and he’s on cloud nine
- FUCK HIM DURING GOLDEN HOUR🗣🗣
- He’s literally he rises in the morning for a reason!!
- He will deadass purpose bc imagine riding him as the sun stars peaking over the horizon
- He’s under you moaning looking up at you w the most glazed over love struck eyes
- The sun filtering through the window and hitting him juuuuuuuust right
- That it looks like he has a halo again
- Breathlessly calling your name as you grind down on him
- He barely manages to get out that he’s close before you caress some of his hair out of his face
- “Cum for me then my Morningstar”
- Time freezes for like 16 seconds and his eyes are getting teary
- He hugs you close as he starts rutting his hips into you harder
- Will cum and keep going until he’s about to pass out
- Holding you like a lifeline
- When you can finally breathe and think straight he pulls you in for a kiss
- Literally stealing your breath away
- Will say I love you in the most honest voice ever while smiling at you with teary eyes
- probably won’t stop touching you all day might as well just spend it in bed
-is embarrassed by body worship calling it now
- be HE can do that but if YOU sink to your knees behind his desk and hold eye contact he’s getting nervous
-“just showing my devout gratitude💕”
- embarrassed how fast he finishes
- if you keep doing to overstimulate him he’s putty in your hands
- this man is very soft he will crack at the slightest sign of domestic romance
- bring him coffee when he wakes up?
- he’s already selected a wedding venue
- I always thought it would be cute if he gave you his ring
- HILARIOUS IF HE DOSENT TELL YOU LMAO
- You swing by the celestial realm and it’s crickets and you’re like ??? Fuck is y’all starring at??🤨
- Simeon hums and says that nobody expected lucifer to get married much less to a human. How he was never one to put anything above his responsibilities
- Excuse me?
- “You’re wearing the right of light,yes? He doesn’t just give that to anyone dear. You two are bonded for life now🥰”
- “HELLO????”
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lyrakanefanatic · 7 months
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I just realised that literally everybody in the inheritance games series is traumatized in some way ☹️☹️
nash: had to watch his mother neglect him and then continue giving away his brothers while he couldn’t do anything about it
jameson: his mother neglected him, he was manipulated by his grandfather to make him think that he was nothing, and the whole Emily situation
grayson: neglected by his mother, had to carry the weight of the heir apparent, was forced to be perfect and not show any emotion, the whole Emily situation and just so much more
Xander: again, his mom neglected him, and he was lied to about his father from Tobias
Avery: her mother died when she was 15, she was nearly killed like 3 times, she had to carry the weight of being the heiress, was used as a target by Tobias, and a lot more
Libby: was in a mentally and physically abusive situation, was stressed out a lot when Avery was written in the will but didn’t wanna worry her, was constantly at the blame of all her relationships, and gets used because she’s “too nice”
Max: was disowned by her parents and not even allowed to talk to her own brother, had no one to talk to about it because Avery was written in the will so she was completely alone, and didn’t want to burden Avery with all the stress she had because she was already in the will and everything, and since Avery was maxs only friend she had no one else to talk to about it. (I kind of repeated some stuff but whatever u know what I mean 🙄)
Rebecca: Was living in her sisters shadow, never really felt like she had her mothers love, was constantly overlooked by her mother, was never allowed to date the one person she loved because she was afraid Emily would find out, and was blamed for Emily death by her mother (🙁)
Thea: Her best friend died, was forced to fake date a guy because she thought Emily would disapprove of her real relationship, and all her concerns about the Hawthorne family were overlooked as she was forced to spend time with them when they were the only ones with her best friend the night she died (ik Grayson and Jameson didnt kill Emily, but she literally told everybody how much she hated the hawthornes bc of “what they did” and was completely overlooked)
Eve: Okay I know everybody hates eve, but you can’t say she wasn’t traumatized. She was forced to have ugly haircuts and was forgotten just because she looked like the guy her mom had an affair with. Her existence ruined her family as her mom and dad fell apart because of the affair that her mom had, and she was ignored by her entire family but the second that Avery gets written in the will, THEN her half siblings decide that they want to contact her. She was used, just like Avery. Yes, she was a bad person, but she was alone her whole life and so when Vincent Blake was introduced, ofc she wanted to work for him, he was the only one who had ever shown her praise or even acknowledged her her whole life, and since she didn’t have any attention as a kid, of course she wants it now. She wanted to constantly be the best and do as he says because he didn’t want to let him down like she let down her family (just for existing, by the way.) so she did all these horrible things because she was afraid if she messed up, every ounce of attention she had gotten from Vincent would have been wiped away, and she would be alone again. Eve is actually a very layered character, but I feel like people dismiss that bc she hurt Grayson. And yeah what she did to him was horrible but nobody tries to see both sides bc people fangirl for him too much 🙄 (not hating, I do the same thing 🤭)
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luxiem x reader || as fathers
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a/n : YALL LIKE MY LUXIEM HCS MORE THAN MY OTHER ONES SO HERE U GO LMAO 😭 ill feed u guys some more luxiem content before mysta graduates [sobs louder]
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SHU YAMINO
TYPICAL ASIAN DAD
but minus the yelling and stuff
hes just pretty damn strict but like he loves you all the same
if you get an A+ in maths, GOOD JOB, HE'LL TREAT YOU TO ICE CREAM [and maybe a magic show WWWW]
if you get a D-, he'll probably say something along the lines of : " try harder kiddo! you can get a higher mark next time! do you want me to help you study? "
he will definitely show up at all of your events and stuff like that to cheer you on
b a n a n a
omg he would accidentally get banned from ur school games bc he keeps helping you with his witchcraft stuff
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LUCA KANESHIRO
OMG HES THE DAD THAT ALL YOUR CLASSMATES LOVE
hes the type to bring like the BEST FOOD during those potlucks ur school has
will panic if you bring math homework to him for help AJSHD
if he cant go to ur school events, HE WILL SO FIND A WAY TO GO, EVEN IF IT WAS JUST FOR A MOMENT
ur little sibling would deadass be a dog.
like no shit, this man would want a dog
and that dog is ur sibling
he and his mafia men would be the ones to raise you [FUCKING BONUS POINTS IF ONE OF HIS MEN IS A WOMAN AND SHE IS UR MOTHER FIGURE]
" oh, don't worry kid, you'll get it next time!! if you're ever feeling down, just know your dad thinks that you're pog! "
you dont know how to tell him that saying pog as a [however old he is] man is a little cringe, but you love him for it (IN A FAMILIAL WAY)
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IKE EVELAND
a very chill dad when it comes to homework and grades
unless it was english
if you get a low score in english
THIS MANS IS RUTHLESS. HE WILL GET YOU TO READ. A LOT.
but if you get tired of it, he'll let it go
i feel like he'd be the parent who IS your teacher at school
oh boy, you should dread first day if he's your english teacher
" class, i'd like you all to know, im only fucking one of your mothers. " [all jokes LMAO he wouldnt embarrass you like that..... or would he?]
if you get a low score in any subjects or like if you flunk a test, he'll hug you and say:
" don't cry, you've made me proud already. i love you kiddo, and none of those test marks will change that. just tell me if you ever need help okay? i'm always happy to help you with those. "
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MYSTA RIAS
BRO OMG HES THAT ONE DAD WITH INSANE SOCIAL MEDIA PRESENCE
SOMEHOW ALL YOUR FRIENDS FOLLOW HIM ON TWITTER??
the most laidback out of all the luxiem guys about homework
doesn't mind if you flunk it, as long as you did your hardest, it's a pass in his book
he cant physically help you with homework
its a british debuff /j
like he would stare at the pythagorean theorem and go 'uhm....'
HE WOULD HELP YOU WITH ALL YOUR FASHION DILEMMAS
there to listen to all the GODDAMN TEA!! like how dare jessica cheat on james like that with ryan??
dude is like the communal dad if any of ur friends dont have a father figure, he'll be there for them too
" oh you flunked your math test? it's alright!! you'll get it next time. they give you too much tests nowadays you guys are all probably burnt out... how about we watch a movie? your mind needs to destress. "
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VOX AKUMA
SHAWTY HAS FLIRTED WITH YOUR TEACHERS MORE THAN ONCE
LIKE YOU GOTTA STOP HIM, HIS RIZZ IS TOO MUCH
also that one dad for some reason everyone likes
hes like pretty strict, but its because he wants the best for you
WOULD GET BANNED FROM TRYING TO GO TO UR SCHOOL GAMES BC HE GETS SO PISSED LMAO
" WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN THEY GET A FOUL?? THEY DIDNT EVEN HIT THE OTHER KID??? "
hes the demon you and ur friends would try to summon at sleepovers
" kid, please, i love you and all, but dad needs to fucking rest. please stop summoning me. "
AND YOUR FRIENDS WOULD SCREAM WWWW
anyways, hes pretty damn smart so hes gotchu covered when it comes to homework help
unless it was history.
history pisses the fuck out of this ancient man.
he will rant about how incorrect the history books are and you'll get nowhere with homework
" oh, darling, it's alright. i'm not disappointed in you and i won't be when it comes to homework. i get it, sometimes it's hard and you don't understand it, but that's when you ask for help, alright? i won't ever shame you for asking me for help. "
a/n : i hope yall r fed this took me 30 minutes to shit out and clean up also i think its obvious whos my favourite in luxiem LMAOO
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utopians · 9 months
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I mean s1 was deffo better than s2 but why do you say that it wasn't good? /gen
mannn honestly it would take ages to enumerate all my problems with it but these are the main ones
just a massive, massive tone problem. this show just has no clue what it wants to be and it's bad as hell as a result. the wilderness scenes in this season had some of the darkest stuff of anything in the show (eating jackie + shauna miscarriage + shauna beating lottie) and having all that next to like... misty's quirky reddit boyfriend just absolutely defanged it. the show doesn't want to commit to being either a quirky mystery/comedy or a gritty survival horror and because of that it fails to effectively be anything at all
misty's reddit boyfriend in general just sucked so bad. like what was that
the escalation from 'we're hungry' to 'let's draw cards and murder whoever gets the wrong one' occurred over the span of ONE EPISODE. one SINGLE episode without ANY NEGOTIATION. literally not one single scene of the characters even TALKING about it before it happened. what a joke. what an absolute joke. they had an entire season to build to it how'd they fuck it up this bad
this is a problem I had with the first season as well but the survival threat feels so told and not shown. like we're told all these characters are Soooo Hungry but none of them are ever actually like. fatigued. or ill. or Dying. like how the fuck is coach ben still alive man. it just makes the escalation to killing people that much more abrupt and the whole situation seem so contrived when it doesn't actually feel like they're in danger
just in general the show like. refuses to let any of its characters feel anything at all. shauna straight up killed an innocent man that she was having an affair with last season and the extent of the emotional fallout of that act is her making quirky Oh Whoopsie comments about it. like that would be an insane traumatic thing to go through and you'd think it would be the kind of thing the show would want to explore. but no. not on amc's yellowjackets
on that same topic. shauna beating lottie had weirdly little emotional fallout. like ik they didn't like each other but shauna almost beat lottie to death with her hands and seemed just like. kind of sad and apologetic afterwards. like you'd think that such an act would have some sort of extreme ramifications for her relationship with the group and her own emotional state but nah
in the same vein: this season did adult taissa SO dirty. all the little plot threads that made her story difficult and compelling last season have completely been dropped -- her wife and son were literally written out like 4 episodes in and we don't see any of the emotional complexity of her leaving behind those relationships. additionally the last season ended with her being elected senator (sth that could cause a lot of conflict and drama bc of the increased responsibility on her shoulders + surveillance and scrutiny of her life) and it literally just. never comes up again? like her wife is in a coma and her son is just left fully parentless and she walks away from her job as a US STATE SENATOR and not only are there no consequences she also just literally does not seem to care. I feel like the writers just had no clue what they wanted to do with her and so they just gave her... nothing. no conflict no emotions just nothinggggg
okay they did give her one thing. they gave her an evil alter ego. which is mad corny imo. last season it was weird and ambiguous enough that I enjoyed it but this season it was just so literal and on the nose and I did not enjoy it One Bit
similar to the cards thing lottie deciding that they needed to kill one of them at the end was so damn abrupt and stupid. like literally so pointless and out of nowhere
natalie's death was so silly and contrived that it actually made me laugh
adult van is not butch enough ‼️‼️‼️‼️
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bingoboingobongo · 1 year
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task force 141 + holiday traditions
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Characters: Simon "Ghost" Riley, John "Soap" MacTavish, Kyle "Gaz" Garrick, John Price, Alejandro Vargas, Rodolfo "Rudy" Parra
Warnings: none
A/N: buhruh the hardest thing abt this series is finding gifs istg
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john price:
okay so i feel like price's favorite holiday tradition is watching the nutcracker
fhhdhshs ok this is like a super duper random headcanon that's gonna go off on a tangent here and if ur a possessive price girly maybe u won't like it but oh well
but i can see price like at one point having a small little relationship with some other lady whatever she's kinda irrelevant ngl
what matters is her child
omg that sounds bad wait lemme finish
what im trying to say is that the ex's child danced in the nutcracker and his ex brought him to see it
but this was like quite a few years ago
either that or he just dated a dancer that was in the nutcracker
idk man all that matters is that the tradition of watching the nutcracker was started
he likes going to a different theatre/company every year so it sorta switches it up
so sometimes he'll go watch the royal ballet or sometimes he'll watch some amateur recital thing
he just enjoys watching people dance and listening to the music
he thinks it's so cool how effortless they make it look
especially since he knows it's anything but
he really likes the mouse king vs nutcracker part in the beginning
and he thinks the dance of the sugar plum fairy is overrated
lives for the snow queen tho
kyle "gaz" garrick:
man kyle just likes to hang out with his family
mainly because his family has like twenty different traditions they do together
making gingerbread houses, making christmas sweaters, making ornaments
i mean it's like an advent calendar of christmas festivities at the garrick household
honestly gaz is a family man but he's not ready to have his own family yet ykwim?
like he loves his family
but he want to wait until he's older to have his own family
absolutely loves hanging out with his younger brother and sister tho
and we've already established this before but they're like little kids
so he likes sorta bringing the magic of the holiday traditions to them
one of his favorite traditions is to take his younger siblings on a drive to watch christmas lights
and then he drives until they fall asleep
it's so sweet
guys im becoming a gaz girlie ngl and it's criminal how little fics there r of him
anyways
simon "ghost" riley:
ok so idek if this counts as a tradition im ngl my family is not very festive but whatever
but simon really enjoys (and is really good at) making popcorn and cranberry garland
i mean guys let's be real
simon is a seamstress at heart and on the surface
i mean it's not like he has the time to stop by the store and get someone else to sew his mask on for him
there's just something so therapeutic about sewing
and he really likes the sweet and tart smell of cranberries mixed with the buttery smell of popcorn
it sounds weird on paper but irl it's really good (i assume)
he also eats a lot more cranberries than he probably should but tbh who can blame him
on another note he also really likes making sugared cranberries and just keeping them in a bowl so he can snack on them
and i can't even blame him bc i tried them for the first time during thanksgiving and oml they slap
so yeah he honestly just lives for cranberry stuff
but ofc like everything else about his life this is a secret that can never come to life
but he will decorate his house with strings of popcorn and cranberry garland
also every year he always eats some by the end
kinda gross ik but like same
he doesn't eat the popcorn tho only the cranberries
and even then he pulls them all off and washes them
but he doesn't always eat much because they taste sorta weird by then
but yeah ghost is an ocean spray cranberry juice kinda guy
john "soap" mactavish:
soap absolutely loves gift exchanges
white elephant, secret santa, or just general gift giving
it doesn't matter soap loves them all
he loves to see who he gets and to buy presents for them
and ofc he loves getting presents in return
plus he really likes seeing just how much thought and effort everyone puts into their gifts
and he always keeps a camera on hand during gift opening so he can try and get that perfect moment of surprise
he's gotten a few good shots but a lot of them are really blurry
he's not the best photographer okay
but yeah he just loves seeing everyone so happy
his favorite one is probably white elephant though
because the randomness adds to the fun
and he likes to be able to look back at some weird object and be reminded of the good memories
rodolfo "rudy" parra:
okay so call it corny call it cheesy call it lame
actually don't call it lame i will fight you
but whatever
anyways rudy really likes taking christmas family photos
his family does one every year on christmas day and he lives for it
one of his uncles is a photographer so it works out anyways
and they always get the family matching pjs or outfits or costumes or something
and his family has a whole album of them
so he literally has like a christmas picture every year since he was a baby
his favorite one was a few years back where his grandpa was santa, his grandma was mrs. claus, his parents, siblings, and him were elves, and then his nieces and nephews were reindeer
he keeps that one on a frame in his desk
and it's cool to see how every year the crowd gets bigger and bigger as people get married and have kids
and guys it's been happening for a while but i am a rudy girl at my core
i can't help it im sorry
alejandro vargas:
honestly i feel like alejandro really likes advent calenders
he doesn't even really know why it just gives him something to look forward to everyday
before his break starts he always brings rudy over to open the day's gift with him too
he usually gets different calenders every year
some years he gets ones that have candy or chocolate
and other years he gets some with pocket knives or tools
is that a thing?
tactical advent calenders?
idk they should be
sometimes when he's feeling especially festive he'll get himself a few different ones that way he can have multiple things to look forward to
his favorite one is the neuhaus chocolate ones
he really has to fight the urge to sneak one in a day early
idk alejandro's just a fan of chocolate in general
but like fancy chocolate not just like hershey's
he needs truffles or cadbury or specialty chocolate
is cadbury even fancy?
idk i've never had one
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cheemken · 8 months
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They are gonna beat you to death
Anyways have more stuff abt them
•Iris' outfit is based loosely off of Lance's Let's Go outfit and Silver's outfit
•Hau's outfit is based off of his Sygna Suit outfit w Tapu Koko, but yknow I used it's shiny colours instead
-also Diantha's colours w his white and yellow shirt, and Dia's EX colours in pokemas for his pants
•i also used Dia's EX Key Stone colour for Hau's Key Stone bc why not
•Hau's eyes glow now bc I say so and bc Villain Dia's eyes glow too so it's only right
•my initial thought for Iris' cape was Lance's cape in Let's Go, but like,, idk this one kinda fits her better ig hahah
•Iris also has a DMax band hidden under her sleeve the same way Lance does
-Hau also still has his Z Ring
•was gonna give Iris a mega stone too but like,,, idk it's fun to think that even w/o Mega Evolution she's already strong as it is
•i didn't get to add her lil crown thing na I'm sorry but idt it'd fit this design of her imo
•also pls spare me don't mind Hau's feet I spent a lot of time drawing those bc idk how and ik it looks like shit but I tried okay chdmndmd
•anyways yeah hahaha
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adaricruz · 6 months
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Well...since you said you like asks, I'd love to hear any Hunter/Kevin headcanons you wanna share??
(Also I love love LOVE your art of them so much fr, I love how you draw Hunter sm & despite personally not being into DEH, I still think your Conner drawings are fucking awesome too)
^-^ 🤘
HELLOOO i love seeing you in my notis sm !! im so glad you like my metal lords fanart fr i swear there’s only like 3 ppl in the fandom & 2 of those 3 are US 😭😭 & omg i have so many hc’s for em 🏃🏽‍♂️🏃🏽‍♂️
- ok SO . i genuinely think the one that would develop feelings would def be hunter . & prob has had a big ass crush on kevin for YEARS . & he’s a dumbass so he’ll continue to crush on him for as long as they know each other . once kevin meets emily & get together , hunter has to see kev be happy with someone else & suffer in silence but ofc wont do NOTHING about it . so Yeah , it prob would be unrequited :((( i’ve read some fics where kevin is doing the crushing over on hunter thing , which i also think is super cute & makes sense , but mans is way too busy being a dumbass too , hunter IS definitely the one in love with his best friend .
- hunter definitely uses he / they pronouns . & prob wears skirts bc they are comfy ( i have to draw that sometime 🏃🏽‍♂️🏃🏽‍♂️ ) im a metalhead so i kinda go ‘ would hunter wear this ‘ while im wearing a band shirt & a black maxi skirt with demonias & if i go ‘ yea ‘ i kinda imagine him wearing it JDJDJ specially bc ik adrian greensmith wears skirts too .
- I DO SEE kevin & emily being together for a good while ( & again , meanwhile hunter is suffering in silence watching his crush be with someone else , hunter loves emily ofc because she’s a badass & is also his friend , & if kevin is happy with her , hunter is ) & hunter prob dates some guys along the way ( ppl he meets at gigs or concerts etc )
- after rehab ( bc hunter Goes back for his anger management issues ok im forcing him back there ) , hunter is less aggressive & violent & doesnt hold a grudge on emily ( the old hunter would tho , & would be so damn jealous she gets to kiss kevin & he doesnt bruh ) & she prob does his makeup or paints his nails 🫶🫶
- kevin does enjoy playing d&d ok he has a face that says ‘ i make sick ass campaigns ‘ i just KNOW IT
- hunter bought them tickets for their first concert in middle school ( probably motörhead or slipknot ) & kevin had to sneak out to be able to go 😭😭 i do think all of hunter’s shirts come from concerts !!! & once kevin gets more into metal he even gives him some to wear ( ik his nasty ass has a whole closet filled with band shirts & they REEK )
- hunter tries to teach kevin to play guitar 🫶 it doesn’t go well kevin fucking sucks
THESE ARE SO SILLY i just love that movie & these charas sm because they are so Normal & fun compared to my other fandoms ( where it’s just Blood & killing & Suffering ) so with kevin & hunter is lighthearted stuff 🖤 tysm for the ask !! & im also so so glad you enjoy my connor stuff <3 ik it’s a lot between the metal lords stuff so tysm for still being here ! 🤘
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somescenecatholic · 10 months
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ALL TUMBLR PPL PLEASE REPOST THIS ANYWHERE U CAN! THERE NEEDS TO BE MORE PROTESTS ABT THIS BC IT'S PRIDE! This can't go on for any longer. TW: p0l1c3, h0m0ph0b14, tr4nsph0b14
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Qween Jean, a Black and Trans community leader was arrested at a PEACEFUL march for Trans Liberation on May 31st, 2023. AS SOON AS THEY GOT THERE there was lots of police and they arrested Qween Jean. I'm not sure if she's out yet as I can't find info on tht. On instagram it says to bail support at 7th precinct 191/2 Pitt St, New York, NY, 10002
This can't keep happening, there needs to be nationwide peaceful protests abt this!! Demonstrations need to be everywhere!!!! IT HAS BEEN 53 YEARS SINCE THE FIRST PRIDE PROTEST! I say protest bc PRIDE STARTED AS A PROTEST! It can ONLY be a parade when we truly get our rights. We can't celebrate until we see our victory. Like, our victory is in the bag bc good ALWAYS wins but we need to take ACTION!
ALSO, ANOTHER THING! NOTE HOW WHEN THE NYPD GOT KICKED OUTTA PRIDE, THEY STARTED ARRESTING AND STUFF! If they actually cared they would let this go on. They would actually do smth and hold their own protests for police brutality and etc to stop. Ik there are good police out there who are actually helping out the communities but lets be honest, the system is screwed up. There is far too much corruption. You KNOW it's bad when even little kids are scared of the police! No, not bc they may look intimidating. But because they are literally scared for their life. Same thing with guns. I was walking home from the bus stop when I was in like 6th or 7th (i forgot) and I thought I saw a gun in someone's car tht was parked in front of me and I was scared to the bone. Thankfully it wasn't a gun, it was smth else.
Anyways I'm getting kinda off topic. But yk what I mean right? (if u got any questions, do ask, my dm's and comments are always open! ^w^)
I'm just so sick tht the stuff tht should be in HISTORY BOOKS is happening right in front of my eyes. Like there have been sm protests and stuff against this for FAR, FAR longer than I have been alive!!! (Ik im only 16 but still this is a srs outrage)
It srsly sucks that this is the world I gotta grow up in.
SO THAT'S WHY WE GOTTA CHANGE IT!
Any action u do can help the world change fod the better. Never miss an opportunity to do good! (big or "small")
SOOO! If u can, go to a local protest! Try to put ur community first, yk? Also, reblog this post and spread awareness about these kinda issues. I'd love to go to a protest buttt I do not have supportive parents and I don't have a car. ALSO, remember tht every act of kindness counts. And dont just keep it to ur friends. Support good local businesses, give compliments to everyone u meet, cheer ppl up, listen to others, donate to GOOD, TRUSTWORTHY charities, do NOT give canned food to food banks bc they need actual food, so give them money, and give homeless ppl money too yk? Ppl are like "WHAT IF THEY SPEND IT ON DRUGS AND STUFF?" Well ofc yea tht's a possibility but who says they won't spend it on what they need? Yk? Basically be a good person, support queer ppl and poc ppl, etc. The world needs sm more kindness. People say "HAH friendship, love, and kindness is such a simple concept tht's not needed". The fact tht it's simple says everything. If we had more of tht, all these issues would cease to exist.
Also, another thing:
PROTEST SAFETY RULES!!
Take water and stay hydrated! If someone doesn't have water and u have some to spare, waterfall it.
Keep face masks and switch your phone to airplane mode. This is a surveillance country. They know how to find you. And if u take pics, make sure tht ur location is extremely hard to pinpoint.
If a police officer arrests u, know ur miranda rights and STAY SILENT AND BE CALM! They will use what they can to take it against u. You have to think a stairway ahead of them. They can't say anything if u don't say anything! And justice will be served so dw, God's with you. Also, yes u can say ur manners like thank you and excuse me.
Again, please repost this everywhere u can.
Remember,God loves u ALL, no ifs ands or buts. ACAB and love is love. Trans rights are HUMAN RIGHTS!!!!!
You matter and the right to speak and protest is a human right. This is our world and we have the power to change it!
(also please tell me if I got anything wrong in this post)
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husbono · 1 year
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it is a lil sad that im excited about people asking me how my xmas was so i can tell them that i rly, rly enjoyed it because itll probably be the first time ive ever said that and it wasnt a lie to cover up the absolute mess of my family issues.
ik im weird about talking about personal stuff and i think i forever will be. but god the end of this year has been hard. a warning that this is quite heavy, but just to quickly dump it all in a way that doesnt make me emotional: my dad had a mini stroke whilst he was driving with my mum in the car. he seized up and my mum had to grab the steering wheel to get them off the wrong side of the road. i actually still cant rly talk about this but there is a man i have a personal hit out for bc he saw my screaming terrified mother on the side of the road asking where they were so she could tell the responders on the phone and he told her to use google maps and drove away. after id dropped everything to drive up north to try and help where i could, the thought of what could've happened to my parents if they were on the motorway or if dad had accelerated or if my mum couldn't pull the steering wheel hit me so hard i had a panic attack that sent me to hospital too. i was signed off work for a bit because my anxiety was so bad that i couldnt even talk and spent that time in the dark in bed. mum kept calling me because i am her support system and my mental health got worse as i had her issues piling up on top of mine. dads driving license got suspended for the best. but that also meant he couldnt work anymore as he's a courier. despite being discharged and told everything looked fine, dads health got worse. he also couldnt get out of bed. he was supporting my mum and my family in thailand without a job. ive sent money to thailand to help my family since i started working but now i had to send more. we all know what the world is like atm and well. i dont have a lot of spare funds. so i was just very stressed. one of the only things keeping me going was an annual weekend away with my friends so i could just have fun. and then i got covid for the first time. ofc i did. whilst i was dealing with that making me feel motion sick 24/7, my mums still calling me, crying and stressed. dads still not getting out of bed. one night dad physically couldnt stand up. he was telling my mum that she didn't need to worry about money. that she would be okay if he died. because he thought that was it for him. so the ambulance comes. and dad refuses to go to hospital. he still doesnt get better. the next day his uncle shows up and drags him there.
and then everything changes from that point. my dad's an alcoholic. he has been since i can remember. it wasnt terrible when i was younger. just inconvenient. embarrassing. but it got worse. he lost jobs. he was incoherent in the evenings when he came back from work. i could barely spend time with him because he was so hard to be around. i just want to say that the time i did spend with him was so fun. he is a beautiful person. loving and silly and funny and annoyingly passionate about the things he loves. he had awful things happen in his childhood. i think drinking is how he coped with it. but alcohol made him irritating and tetchy and rude. nasty at times. and it started to make him really sick. he was still drinking the entire time he was sick. but doctors never told him to stop. god i did, my mum did. my brother too. but he's had several mini strokes and seizures and memory loss issues. he'll wake up and have lost a year of his life until it slowly comes back in snippets. he was forced to detox a couple years ago and it was horrifying. it was like seeing a zombie. gurgling and moaning. awful. but they never told him he'd reached the point where he had to stop. so he kept going.
but this time someone finally told him he'd reached the limit. his liver couldnt take it anymore. and he gave in. said he'd give it up completely. ive never heard him say he'd stop. cut down, sure. but teetotal? never. they detoxed him and pumped him full of nutrients. within a day i could see him getting some life back in him. i didn't want to get too hopeful. i have been scorned so many times.
i usually hate christmas. i feel trapped with him. watching him have entire days to drink away. wondering whether he'll just be sleepy and sloppy or irritable and snappy and horrible. wondering how he'll embarrass or hurt me or upset my mum or even make my bf angry who is the calmest, most forgiving soul in the world.
but i just spent five entire days with my completely sober dad for the first time since i was... i dont even know? a kid? im not even sure if it happened back then. and. it was so nice. he was so calm and gentle and kind. we stayed up until midnight listening to jimmy eat world and green day and thin lizzy, playing cards with my mum and my bf. midnight!!! hes never made it that late. we watched so many films together. my mum said she feels like she has her old husband back, the guy that she met in london 33 years ago. i helped him with his crosswords although im shit. we talked for hours and hours. we had chinese takeaway on the 23rd and he opened up a fortune cookie that said 'you are on the right path' and i could've cried. i did cry a lot tbh. but happy tears! i got annoyed at the normal things people get annoyed at their parents about. moving things around in your house. asking soooo many questions when youre trying to watch a film. nothing major. and that felt like a blessing.
i hated him for a long, long, long time but i gave up that grudge before he showed any signs of redemption because it was so harmful to me to always be angry at him. and despite all of his flaws he has always shown me love. he has always been open with his affection for me and my mum and my brother. hes always told me hes proud of me. he has worked so so hard to give us what we needed its hard to balance this view of him with how much he has hurt me and my family with his addiction but. there isnt rly a balance. they just coexist.
this is massively more than i am ever comfortable with sharing but i... dont really talk about this ever especially with anyone irl (excluding bf) and i just. wanted to spill. im just sitting here in bed so calm and happy for the first time in a long time. i teared up saying goodbye to them today. i know its a long, long, long road and i dont expect it to be perfect. but he was so happy these past few days and kept telling me he had such a fantastic time and i hope that sticks. i hope he wants to keep fighting so we can spend more time staying up late listening to music together and playing cards and making up for lost time.
:')
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okay, listen:
i always go for inexperienced/oblivious!reader bc that’s literally me bUT! steve slowly working his way from friend to lover with an inexperienced reader exactly because she’s inexperienced, right? he’s not blind or dumb enough to not see how obvious she is in her affections for him, she doesn’t have that little voice in her head that urges her to hide how she feels, so i imagine her clutching a book against her chest and kinda rocking back and forth slightly while smiling this really big and really lovestruck smile at steve when he’s giving her his undecided attention which he does often and he just knows she returns his feelings. she oblivious tho! no boy has ever been interested in her! and stevie is just being nice, right?… she doesn’t try to hide how she feels but she can’t comprehend the hints he gives her and it’s all very sweet and robin is their number one fan and the lunch club always roll their eyes because steve being a romantic? ew. steve in boyfriend mode? ew. them looking at each other like they’re in love? ew. and how aren’t they together already??? lots of exasperated max for sure!— and she’s giggly and blushy and gets excited about dumb things and has a bit of a luna lovegood vibe going on, y’know? she’s relatively new in town, so she naturally gravitated towards steve because he made her feel safe and comfortable since he noticed straight away that she had anxiety when he first met her ( a tried to flirt but went over her head and she was very shy and nervous ) and so she’s friends with the whole gang by now and the gang only. and they love her! the kids are crazy about her because she’s a huge nerd and it makes steve’s heart all warm 🥺 ! she’s never been very social, always too anxious to put herself out there, but she’s very bubbly and unintentionally funny to and with her new friends friends! she’s had friends!,but it makes it so she gets flustered by steve very easily and he adores it, adores her, so he’s more than happy to go with the slow burn of things, he’s fine with it being a long haul type thing, he’s in it for the long haul tbh, but when they get together he fucking breaks— every touch and kiss drives him insane, he’s her first kiss and it ruins him, he gets needy and whiny and desperate and he needs her close, he’s touch starved but only for her, and she feels the same okay? but she’s inexperienced !!! so she gets overwhelmed and maybe she tears up while they kiss? and steve is concerned at first and tries to pull away which is almost fucking painful for him but his need to care for her is huge so “you okay? did i hurt you, i’m sorry i-“ and his mind immediately goes to his angel is upset! fix it!, he pulls back but she whines and grips his shirt and pouts and tries to cling to him “nonono, no, please” and it makes him hot all over but then steve understands “just overwhelmed then, huh?” and he goes full soft dom!steve and wipes her tears or kisses them off and they keep kissing and kissing and kissing and he’s so soft and gentle with her and maybe she nervously asks if this means he’s hers now and it drives him insane because that’s all he wants to be “say you want me and i’m yours forever” 🤯
this is waaay too specific so feel free to ignore ily bye
OMG OMG THIS IS SO CUTE
he would notice you right away thinking, why haven’t i ever seen her before???, and flirts with you so fast and gets all soft when you’re too shy to reciprocate AHHH i feel like you’d just say random stuff like whatever’s on your mind and he thinks that’s the cutest thing ever and he indulges you EVERY TIME!!!
once they’re together the gang is all like “mom and dad!!” and “we knew it” and all that they would not shut up about those two ik it and they would tease them but secretly be the happiest ever to see steve get the love he deserves and they all love u for him and him for u YUP
i feel like u wrote a whole fic there and i loved it ily too 🫶
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bunnychargebolt · 16 days
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Im going to give my parents shaken baby syndroms Im- hhhhhhhh vent :3 (gonna put any warning stuffs in tags)
I am so just- am eepy. I want to sleep. It is fucking 2:30 in the morning. But I cannot! Because I am hungry! And my body is fucking not doing good! And I can not do anything about it because I do not have food.
But for whatever reason!! My mother!! Who eats the least in this household!! Continually has her stuff stocked!! She fucking- eats like two of the jif to go cups of peanut butter for lunch. And that is like- her lunch. And that just fucking works for her. Which is because she got fucking weight loss surgery.
Im
Hhhhhhhhhhhh
I do not have enough food. And honestly I probably havent had enough food in months. Because instead of eating i sleep. Because my body shuts down. And I am trying *so hard* to get across to my parents that I need food. I am- hhhhh honestly prolly qualifying as anorexic speaking strictly on eating patterns. Which ik for sure my mom is.
And also my irl friend keeps talking about hes gonna starve himself. And im- hhhhh. Theres so many fucking tjings going on with him and theyre bad and I havent talked about them and im going to fucking lose my mind. But thats not even what im focused on right now.
I dont know if i can continue physical therapy. Because it is not guaranteed that i have food. And my parents say that money is tight. But my mother is constantly getting a bunch of stuff. And we have so much shit. And im- i camt handle all of this.
I cant ask for anything without being told that im asking for a lot. My mom ordered in dinner for me and my brother the other night bc she got a thing through work and i asked for what I know would be enough for me and I got told that thats too expensive. Which i understand. The cost of shit is fucking insane. But there is so much fucking focus on cost and portion size and “oh tjat costs too much” “oh youre asking for a lot” “dont forget that this is what a portion size” and even fucking talk of like calories and checking even though i ask for that to not happen.
People tell me to take some of their food because they have plenty and I get it but Im fucking terrified. My mom had locked up a shit ton of food when i was a kid including freezers. Which to this day still have the locks by them. And if im caught she wont hesitate to do it again. I cant go through that again.
I know I cant really get out. Im genuinely scared of my parents. I- cant. I cant get out. I cant leave stuff. Im terrified. Fuck i don’t remember ever not being scared of my mom in some capacity. And my dads way more passive but sometimes he yells and I just- cant do it. And i hate that what they do works. I get shoved into being this fucking doormat of a person.
Honestly I dont think I ever really got to be a person. I still dont super feel like one. I dont have complete control over myself. I dont feel like i have free will. Which sucks. I wanma be my own person. I wanna learn what itd feel like to be able to be myself for even a day. Im- just lost a lot of the time.
The only good thing I know for sure is coming out of this is that I know my depression medication works. Im pretty sure most of my issues with functioning are from malnutrition issues. And im def not suicidal or having thoughts of sh which is really nice!! Plus I know I have a very supportive group of friends online that I love very much
Wuheiwhe speaking of friends- angy about irl friend. He fucking- complained to me that he gets upset when i vent about shit at home cause hes gonna get kicked out when he turns 18. Which likw- i get it. The threat of being homeless is horrible. But if your thought process while you have fucking unwatched access to a credit card and can essentially have whatever the fuck you want while im saying i dont fucking have food at home is “well at least you have a home” IS FUCKING INSANE. Especially because you have already gathered almost $1000 in cash amd still have like 11 months to figure shit out. Your future situation sucks but that should not take away empathy for my current situation??? Where i am??? Not getting fed enough???
I understand that your homelife is shit and your family is fucked. However, you almost never get told no. Which is really fucking obvious!!! Because you wont take any of my nos for an answer!!! And tbh youre kinda financially abusive!!! I hear how you talk to your bf which is fucking insane and i hate it. And when you talk about how you pay for gas when im using my parents cars and they need to be filled and i say were driving around too much and using a lot of gas you go “well its my gas” No!! It isnt!! That is not how that works!! And just because you pay for the fucking gas WHEN YOU HAVE ME DRIVING FUCKING ALL OVER THE PLACE BECAUSE I LITERALLY CANNOT GWT YOU TO UNDERSTAND IM SAYING NO does not kean you pay for the rest of the fucking car!!! You also!! Make jokes about taking back gifts!! Because you paid for them!! Which is shitty as fuck!! And its not even your fucking koney its your grandmas money and you got fucking pissed and bitchy when Ive mentioned that when talking about it being different when one of our friends took advantage of us for money because you are just handed it and the stuff i had i workwd for, in a job that started the decline of my physical wellbeing. Its not the same fucking thing.
Im
Shaking. I want to scream. I cant. Handle everything. I dont want to have to be here and dealing with all of this.
And anothwr fucking tjing about ky friend- he gets pissy when me or his boyfriend accidentally leave garbage in his room. Which i get a little but then he doesnt take care of it either!! And then he has shit there all the time!! Including multiple unfinished starbucks drinks that have grown mold!!! Why do you keep getting the biggest fucking size when you know damn well you wont drink it.
And you keep fucking- i cant play therapist for you. You cannot constantly come crying to le about your bf and talking about how you should break up with him AND THEN GET KAD AT ME FOR SUGGESTING YOU BREAK UP WITH HIM
Im not- i cant. Im
Im violently angry. And i want to sleep. Amd i wamt to be able to have food. And i want my oarents to love me and understand me. Or even fucking- to try. At all. I want my physical wellbeing to matter. But it doesnt. In multiple different ways. And its all just so bad all the time and i try and tune it out but it slips through.
Im having trouble remember things. Its bad. Im- i cant use my brain as well as i know i should be able to. Im- idk. I just cant fucking deal with this. Except im still going to. Im complaining but theres mot kuch i can change.
I hate feeling like im breaking all the time. I want to be able to be loved and be a person and have a home!!! I have a roof over my head. And i appreciate that so much. But this is absolutely not a home. And its very much not welcoming for me. And I just- I perpetually have the feeling of “i want to go home” with no home to go to. And its been like that for most of my life. And I just- really want to have a home.
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