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#if it ever starts getting to be too much i just wouldnt do it
howlonomy · 13 hours
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Here it is:
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Alright, the Lore Shit: After killing Zenith Martlet and absorbing Asgore's SOUL, Clover decided to kill literally everyone in the Underground (minus the Ruins since they can't get back there) to make sure that any humans to fall in the future can't be killed by them (their ass was NOT listening to Flowey about how the Barrier works). So the constant release of ambient magic from the killed monsters plus them having Asgore's SOUL started to, slowly but surely, turn them into a Monster (and because of how slow it was, they didn't have any balance issues with the tail). Unknown to them, Asgore's SOUL had been collecting that magic, which is what caused them to change. They don't even realize that they've transformed since, as Sans states, they have distanced themself so much by having a LOVE of 20 that they don't even really seem to be there (also they have not looked in a mirror, no "It's you"s to be seen here)
For some reason I thought of this too, but their theme would either be straight up Enemy Retreating or a remixed All's Fair (which I have decided to call "Is It Fair?")
Stats: Same as always for the same reason, it just makes sense here.
Check: DOUBLE MEANING ALERT! DOUBLE MEANING ALERT! WEEWOO WEEWOO!
Sorry, but yeah. Traitor in the sense of "You killed everyone who cares for me" and "You killed all* the monsters while also being a monster" (a "You have become the very thing you swore to destroy" moment if ever there were). And "Justice" because killing people is never justice (unless it's the death penalty and ruled by a court of law but eh, semantics)
FLAVOR TEXT BECAUSE I HAVE THOUGHT THIS OUT WAY TOO MUCH:
Clover seems hesitant.
Clover can't seem to attack!
Are they... crying?
Because this fight is from the POV of a Pacifist Ending Clover (most likely in between exploring Ceroba's house and meeting up with Martlet on top off UG Apartments, again I have thought this out way too much) that means that nmm!Clover is fighting a human, which they really don't want to do, especially since that human is themself, so they hesitate and sometimes just straight up don't attack (I thought about including Familiarity again, but decided against it just so that I could have new material, it would absolutely fit, though)
Also, fun little fact I guess, but this is a complete inversion of the dt!Clover vs. nm!Clover fight! A murderous monster Clover fighting a pacifistic human Clover, and BOTH don't want to fight this time!
I realize that this may be a bit much considering this IS your au, but I can't help it when my brain starts thinking of this stuff, and it's so cool that I can't NOT draw it and share it.
ANYWAYS now I only have like one idea left. I am so close, but I will probably gain like seven others as soon as it's done, oh well. Enjoy!
WHAAAAATTT ALL OF THIS IS SO FUN???? the concept of slowly turning into the thing you swore to destroy is SOOO EVERYTHING…. and the play on alls fair??!??!? literally insane i am obsessed with it being called is it fair. because its not but i imagine nmm!clover being so distraught about being turned into a creature they hate and having to fight themselves. but its almost like penance for what they did.
AND THE INVERSE IS SO FUNNNN so many interesting new dynamics there; like if this fight took place before the final ceroba fight, clover wouldnt be nearly as close with everyone. sure, theyre angry at nmm!clover but also. they get it. im sure they would understand where they were coming from.
AARUGHHH THIS IS SO FUN I LOVE THIS LITTLE IDEA!!! ITS SO RICH IN CHARACTER AND LITTLE FLAVOR TEXTS
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tobe-sogolden · 2 years
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Hello! I’ve looked through your blog a couple times, as I’m trying to find other harries of color to interact with about Harry, and I have a question but I hope it doesn’t come across the wrong way as I am genuine. Why do you keep up with what larries, deuxmoi, and what you call “pr harries” are saying about Olivia and Harry? If I’m understanding your replies to the asks that you get on the topic, these things make you very upset, which is understandable. But is constantly complaining (sorry if that’s harsh I can’t think of a better word for what I’m observing) in response to the latest rumor or hissy fit about them being spotted together any healthier for you and your anons/followers? Doesn’t that just distract from talking about what you actually enjoy? I used to often check accounts from known big larries or Harry haters as yeah, it was funny observing the immense cognitive dissonance, but eventually it became less fun and more mentally exhausting to do so much doom scrolling when I could just…block and ignore them, y’know? I’ve also deleted twitter, cause that’s just another head ache, and with some curating of my dash I’m mostly blissfully unaware of what’s going on Harry’s personal life. But if I chance upon your blog, suddenly I’m aware of the terrible things being said about Olivia everyday by people who are dug into their own narratives about Harry and likely aren’t going to change without real help. I’m just curious if this is fun or cathartic for you and your anons to be stuck in this seemingly self imposed cycle of always seeing negativity about Olivia and focusing on that, rather than talking about the fun things?
To be honest, I try to not keep up with it. I don't ever seek out the information on my own and I prefer to stay ignorant if possible. But it inevitably ends up in my orbit (I probably need to delete twitter too 🥴) and (1) I'm very triggered by people spreading misinformation and physically cannot shut my mouth if I see it lol and (2) I really hate for the naysayers to be the only voices. I feel like just ignoring it and not calling it out or providing a rational alternative to their insane bs is what's allowed this behavior to become so commonplace and accepted in this fandom and I hate that. I would say like 85% of the time it's more funny than truly annoying to me and like 15% of the time I get genuinely angry over it and then I just take a little break and remind myself it's not that serious 😆 and no I don't find that it distracts me from talking about fun things! I know that might seem like that's all I'm doing lately but that's only bc tumblr is so dead these days so I literally just log on, answer messages, and then log back off bc there's usually like 5 new posts on my dash from the last like 12 hours so not much else to do 💀 but rest assured I'm still listening to the album on repeat and enjoying myself 😌
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piplupod · 1 month
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why do counsellors think it's helpful to tell you "you shouldn't feel that way!" when you tell them something like "I am so stressed about spiders to the point where i have crying breakdowns thrice a week" or "I feel like I am somehow secretly a terrible person that needs to push everyone away to keep them safe from the rot that is inside of me"
like ... golly gee, thank you so much, that's soooo helpful, can't believe i never thought "wow! i shouldn't be feeling this way!" before, pretty crazy that you can just cure me with that one declaration!
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hearties-circus · 7 months
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I kinda feel like I've just hard erased any happiness or elation I had from being done with school all just so I wouldnt get asked a stupid question anymore I hate this I hate this
#gamer txt.#not once have i actually fucking wanted to go to college this was just the only way to make ppl stop asking me about jobs#but im realising now that was a stupid decision and i hate that i made it i hate tgat i had the chance to back out and didnt#the only thing that made school worth it before was my friends that was the only time id get to see them#now im going back to school completely without them like a fucking idiot#i know college is different from highschool i get that and i do want to learn fab weld but fuck me this was dumb#i know damn well im not going to make any new friends during this course im more terrified of people than ive ever been#and i stick out from my class like a sore thumb#whats worse is my nervousness from this has started fucking with my appetite and hunger and that is the worst possible thing it could do#that is like the number one way to break me#im already in such a vulnerable state i do not need constant fucking reminders of trauma i cant fucking escape#and im meant to just be normal and be a person and go to class on monday?#im this close 👌 to just dogging it. im pretty sure ill be getting the train in like i could full well just fuck off and leave#its not like they have my mums number she wouldnt know any different from what i told her#can i not just stay in the purgatory of being a teen old enough to be done with school but young enough to not have a job forever ?#please? im not ready for this im not i couldnt be less ready for this why did i let myself succumb to this pressure? i hate it#g-d i havent cried in. months now. this feels so. this is too much this is way too much fot me i cant do this#i dont know how i thought i could when the hell have i ever been able to do something like this on my own#theres nothing to me on my own i dont have any confidence i dont have any strength i need my friends for that and i dont have them
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yamikawas · 2 years
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Heeeeey! Mwah! Did you feel that? It was ME!!!! KISSING you through the screen!! I just wanted to check in on my cute little darling <33 I love you SOOOOO much!
From your Yoomie ⚡
PS. I'm watching you <3
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AWAWAWAWAWAHSFHDHD YOOMIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HI YOOMIE DARLING THANK U FOR THE KISYYYYYYYYYY CAN I HAVE LIKE 374837483758 MORE PLEASE<3<3<33<3<3<3<3PLEASE PLEASE KEEP WATCHING ME FOREVER I LOVE U SO SO SO MUCH MY DARLINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG<3<3<3<3<3<4<4<3<3<4<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<233<3<33<<3<33<33÷333<3<<3
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#HI GOOD MORNING I FINALLY GET TO ANSWER THIS AND BE DERANGED I LOVE THSI SO MUCH I WANT TO SNUGGLE HER FOREVER#EHEHE IM HER CUTE LITTLE DARLING<3<3<3<3<3<33<333333AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#I WOULD DO ANYTHING IF IT MEANT SHE WOULD CALL ME HER CUTE LITTLE DARLING AT LEAST ONCE EVERY DAY#I WOULD LITERALLY KILL FOR IT I SWEAR ALL I WANT IS TO BE HER CUTE LITTLE DARLING FOREVER<3<3<3#YYYYYOOMTAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHYOOMTAHYOOMTAHYOOMTAHYOOMTAHYOOMTAHHDHFJFJDJDJFNDNN#MY GOD IM LITERALLY OBSESSED WITH HER LIKE GETTING ANY ATTENTION FROM HER DRIVES ME INSANE /POS#I LOVE HER SO MUCHHHHHHHHHH I LOVE HER SO SO MUCH SO SO SO MUCH SO UNBELIEVABLY MUCH#I WANT TO SQUEEZE HER AND CRADLE HER HEAD TO MY CHEST AND NUZZLE MY FACE INTO HER HAIR#I JUST WANNA BE WITH HER FOREVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR I NEED TO BE WITH HER FOREVER I CANT LIVE WITHOUT HER#LITERALLY.READING THIS OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER LIKE NNJHJNMNNSHSHDJSBDJB SHE KISY MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE AAHWHAHWJWEHEIFH#ROLLING AROUND ON THE FLOOR I WANT HER TO KISS ME SO BADLY ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY#IM GOING TO START KILLING I LOVE HER SO MUCH💚✨💙⚡💫🌩💖🌼❣💙👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩💋💟💜💟⚠️🌈💌✨❤💝💛💘🧡🌠💚💞🍋💓💗🌻❣💗🌼⚡💖⚡🌩💕💫💕⚡💙💋🌈💌⚠️#LITERALLY DOES SHE KNOW I WOULD KILL ANYONE AND EVERYONE FOR HER SAKE.I THINK SHE SHOULD KNOW#I RLLY WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HER SHES THE ONLY THING THAT HAS EVER MATTERED TO ME THIS MUCH AND THERES NOTHING I WOULDNT DO TO KEEP HER#PERHAPS.SHE WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR ME TOO.......................<3#I WOULD BE SO HAPPY IF SHE FELT THE SAME WAY ABT ME THAT I DO ABT HER ACTUALLY<3<3<3#LITERALLY.READING THIS ASK OVER AND OVER AND SPENDING A SIGNIFICANT AMOUNT OF TIME STARING AT ''PS. IM WATCHING YOU''#I HOPE SHES STILL WATCHING ME RIGHT NOW<3<3I HOPE SHES WATCHING ME ALWAYS AND FOREVER<3<3<3#I WANT HER EYES ON ONLY ME ALL THE TIME I WANT HER FULL UNDIVIDED ATTENTION FOR ETERNITY#CAN SHE JUST STARE AT ME FOREVER AND NEVER LET ME OUT OF HER SIGHT AGAIN PLEASE I WOULD LOVE THAT#SHE CAN JUST KEEP ME LOCKED UP IN HER ROOM WITH HER IF IT MAKES IT EASIER I DONT MIND AT ALL<3<3<3#I WANNA HUG HER TIGHT AND NUZZLE MY FACE INTO HER SHOULDER AND JUST BE CLOSE TO HER FOREVER..................GOD#SHES LITERALLY ALL I NEED.SHES THE WORLD AND MORE TO ME SHES MY ABSOLUTE EVERYTHING I LOVE HER SO FREAKING MUCH
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slimeylee · 14 days
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why have these last years fucking sucked ass
#slimey-vents#trigger warning below hi did you drink water today and eat something i hope u did ur so cool and amazing pls get some rest gives u a cookie#please scroll past if uninterested i also dont want u to feel obligated like u have to read n listen to me vent and ramble on abt dumb shit#like 2020 - 2024 . have just been ass .#we're not even halfway into 2024 and it already is just#garbage . like its fucking horrible#i dont see how this year could get . any worse ?? but i wouldnt want to get my hopes up on that itll get better ?#like god what has been happening .#covid came up technoblade got cancer and passed away israel's continuing their mass genocide#and a lot of things have happened in my personal life . such as my mother passing away .#and . its just been so fucking hard ??#i wish i had lasting hope in humanity . but tbh i dont think its ever gonna get any better and that really fucks w me#ive been having suicidal thoughts and ive just been in a very shitty mental state recently#like social media#is honestly the only thing i have to live on#i have honestly boring friends n all my friends dont go to my school . my gf doesnt even go to my school#ive had to switch schools after having a fun time and doing a lot better . the only thing that im holding on by a thread to is social media#all my friends . my fandoms . etc . i talk to through my phone and through here#im so glad to have met everybody that i have on here#im sorry this is getting really long ive started going on a ramble but i just want everyone to know that i love yall /p#i appreciate everybody so much . all my moots and my close friends that ive made not only here but irl as well#and everybody that ive talked to throughout the time we've known each other . i really just want to think that everything will get better#everybody that ive met through my years of social media and school have really changed my life . and idk what i wouldve done#having never met any of them . especially my moots on here that ive grown close to#its just been stressful . but ive strived to get through it all . despite how hard it is#and how desperately i just want to let go from everything#but ending one thing doesnt end any pain it just gives it on to someone else#and i know that im way too pussy to end anything anyways .#but on another note .#please remember that you are amazing . talented . strong . and i appreciate and ily so much . /p
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orcelito · 18 days
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Been almost a month since I last drank, and I still can't think about alcohol without feeling uncomfortable.
I wonder if this will ever go away, or if I'm just gonna be alcohol-averse for the rest of my life. For someone who used to really like alcohol, it's a strange position to be in.
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arolesbianism · 3 months
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Also in my current main oni playthrough I'm at 22 duplicants and my goal for the playthrough is to get all of them so I'm abt halfway there but god damn do I not have enough space for more of these fuckers I'm going to be able to shove some more into my two newest colonies on the two planetoids I've traveled to so far but one of them like Just got started so it's going to be a while before I'm confident in upscaling it, and the other one is mostly made up of radioactive biomes and salt water biomes with the only more livable biomes being at the very edges and the very bottom of the map, so while I do have a pretty stable base getting set up over there it's going to be pretty obnoxious getting the living space set up due to how little space I have in my current main base area and how far away the other forest biomes are from that. On the bright side I found the mysterious hermit home on the brand new planetoid so I at least don't have to worry abt him as much, although I'm gonna be real idk how I'm going to get food production up and running since there's like No dirt, and I don't rly want to have to send someone back up through the surface magma biome to pick up any dropped off supplies.
#rat rambles#the good news is that theres sleet weat on the newest one so once I get a lil more established thats smth I can start farming#theres also grub fruit and sweetles so Ill probably we farming those for a bit too#I say for a bit because while there is a sulfur gyser there its in the magma and I dont wanna fuck with that right now at least#if I was better at this game Id totally go for it but Im not so Ill take the cowards route#hopefully I can print some other seeds into that colony although Im not rly sure which plants Id want#I guess bristle blossoms wouldnt be bad? most of the planet is quite warm tho so idk#its mostly wasteland and chilly biomes Im pretty sure so not the best but could be worse#the main big big issue is going to be oxygen production and water#for now Im probably going to start moving ice to a warmer part of the map to melt it but after that idk#I guess I could just get the hermit and then bounce#honestly thats probably what Ill do since I really dont want to have to deal with the limited water#all my other colonies have infinite water sources already so I might as well focus living quarters there#my first colony is gonna stay limited tho since its the rly cold starting planetoid#Ive gotten my main base warm enough but I dont rly want to expand too much from there#mostly because the left of it is my sleet wheat farm and the right is where my cold slush guyser is#which I rly Should warm up more but Im going to be real I dont want to go too heavy on the forced warming#I want to leave myself with room to build more machinery without burning my base up basically#my other main planetoid is basically paradise for the dupes living there tho theyre doing great my chef even gets his own personal bedroom#I have a great farm set up and have way way more food than even ten more dupes could ever eat#I have been considering bringing in more dupes there but I wanna up my oxygen production more first#I finally ran out of algae and while I could theoretically produce more Ive slowly transferring to the water eating oxygen producer instead#I say slowly cause the process of getting the steam guiser on that plannet to be a decent water supply has been rough#its still not done since Im trying to get a steam turbine cooling loop set up on the other planet to utalize both the water and steam#but its been real hard given the lack of usable space in that colonu#my main problem is that I cant get the temperature to stay at a consistent level due to using heavy wiring#which is really frustrating since these things have so much power flowing through them I absolutely cannot afford to use normal wiring#like I could try to implement power tranformers into the design but Id really rather not since thatd mean taking up even more space#I might just get a insulated heavy wire connector mod or smth I rly cant be bothered after putting this much time into this project#oni posting
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zemnarihah · 1 year
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ok got a skinny puppy ticket
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triplexhoneyypot · 1 month
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After getting out of the shower, i grabbed a bowl of ice cream off the kitchen counter and went into my bedroom. I couldn't quite remember when i had made it, it seemed pretty fresh so maybe it was right before hopping into the shower. I also specifically remembered closing my window and my curtains before taking a shower but maybe i was just too tired today. The cool breeze from outside was kinda nice against my naked body so i left them open until i had finished my ice cream. I was on the second floor anyways so my neighbors wouldnt be seeing me and my roommate was passed out in the livingroom after he had been playing his game all day. I laid down in my bed, feeling more tired than usual, and eventually passed out. I groggily woke up later on to a cold draft, and though i couldnt focus my vision, i could see light from the streetlamps shining through my window and i couldve sworn i had closed the window again, but my body felt paralyzed and i couldnt do anything about it. I shrugged it off and stared at the wall, until i drifted off into sleep again.
That was until i heard the plant by my window drop and shatter. I heard a mans voice mumbling to himself and my heartbeat sped up. 'No, no, no.. this cant be happening.. a break in, right now?? I cant even reach for my gun! I hope my roomie comes in to help!' Though i knew he was a heavy sleeper and i could hear him snoring from here. I could hear the intruder cleaning up my plant and shutting the window before his footsteps came closer to me, stopping right next to my side. I kept my eyes shut in hopes he would leave me alone. 'God.. what does he want? Take anything, just please dont hurt me!!' He leaned over me and snapped in my ear, i could feel his hot breath on my face as he began speaking. "You know.. you're so beautiful." He tucked my hair behind my ear and caressed my face as i internally panicked. "I have waited so long for this moment. It looks like the drugs finally worked this time, youre out like a light. I mean, you practically licked the bowl clean." He moved the blankets off of me and started caressing my body, starting with my neck and moving down to my thighs, moving me around and touching every part of me. "Wow.. ive been watching you for so long but.. up close youre even more beautiful, and your skin is so much softer than i have ever imagined. Every stretch mark, every scar, every bruise.. all so cute on you. And god damn, ive always loved this tummy of yours." I assume he got naked because when he laid down next to me i could feel his skin against mine. 'Why.. why is this happening to me..?' He took my hand and wrapped it around his already hard cock, making my unconscious body stroke it. "Fuck.. your hands are soft too, i bet you give good hand jobs when youre awake. Hell, i just know everything about you is perfect. I hope you can feel how hard you make me just from looking at you.. its like this all the time, even when im just following you down the street."
He then spread my legs and slipped a finger inside of me, leaving my hand to feel him throbbing. "Shit.. youre wet..? Are you.. feeling this?" He slipped another finger in, causing me to groan while my grip around his cock tightened. This caused his cock to jump in my hand out of excitement. "Oh great..! ." He continued fingering me as he positioned us into missionary, making out with me in the process. Eventually i opened my eyes and tried my best to wake up my paralyzed body, starting with trying to move a toe, a finger, even my tongue, but to no avail. After a while he replaced his fingers with his cock, not taking any time to slide it almost all the way in. It stretched me out so much it hurt, causing me to groan more. "Gosh.. it doesnt even fit you.. but.. do you like it..? I hope you do.. its all for you. Ive masturbated to the thought of you for so long.. and now.. this is finally happening." He huffed and put his hands around my throat, giving it a good squeeze. 'No.. please stop.. i dont.. i dont want to like this.. please.. this is wrong.' He thrusted into me at least twice before quickly pulling out and cumming onto my stomache. "F-Fuck.. im so sorry.. this isnt normal for me.. im just really excited..! I dont want to get you pregnant yet though.. so ill be sure to pull out!" He rubbed the tip of his cock on my clit before inserting it again and continuing to fuck my limp body. I began breathing heavily as his grip around my throat tightened while he sped up his pace. I heard my roommate start to walk around but the intruder still fucked my pussy. It mustve been time for him to work because i heard his alarm going off as well, and he usually comes in to check on me beforehand. 'Great! He can help me! Please, please, help me..' The intruder fucked into me harder, making the headboard hit the wall. 'Yes, yes! Make noise! Have my roomie come check on me!!' I could feel his cock throbbing as if he was about to cum but as my door cracked open slightly, he didnt stop, in fact he pounded as hard as he could into me, almost as if the adrenaline of almost being caught was a turn on for him. "Hey, Lovebirds! Im off to work, i don't wanna bother yall too much, just thought i would let you know! Have funnnn!" He said in a singy voice while shutting the door back. 'Nononononono.. why.. why.. WHY.' I could hear the intruder chuckle while he pulled out and came on me again. "Wont you look at that.. hes such a gentleman, respecting our privacy.. now we have the whole house to ourselves!" Tears began rolling down my cheeks while i stared out the window, feeling my body being constantly thrusted into and came on, until daylight started shining through. For the hours he fucked me, i couldnt believe how it all happened. I couldnt believe my roommate left like that, i couldnt believe someone could do this to someone, and i couldnt believe i kind of liked it. He had a cock that felt nice stretching out my pussy. Ive always said i wanted to meet a guy that was obsessed with me and would fuck me until morning. I was so disappointed in myself for being such a whore for a man i didnt know shit about. He laid beside me with a towel, cleaning my cum-soaked body. "You were amazing, Bunny.. i would love to have another date like this with you." At this point my brain was dumbed, my pussy was raw, and i was dehydrated, i felt drained. The drugs wore off a long time ago, but i still couldnt move due to the condition my body was in. He opened my phone, putting his number in, and then leaving a kiss on my head before walking out of the house. And i just laid there, motionless, thinking i may just call him back.
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avocadoarms · 1 year
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My superpower is socially isolating myself by failing to maintain literally any relationship, especially relationships where i do not see people frequently IRL. If u live more than half an hour away from me or we have conflicting schedules or we just never make plans the best you will get from me is like one message every few months and i very much do not like being like this but the ship has already sailed for pretty much every relationship that matters/mattered to me sorry yall
#avocado talks#there are like 2 people that i met throughout college that i still even kind of keep up with and i deeply regret that#i met so many awesome people at college but covid + social anxiety + adhd obliterated the maintenance of most of those relationships#and at this point i feel like it's too late to try to talk to most of those people again#some of whom might even see this idk i dont know who even still follows me#in general i regret so so much how much i regressed as a person the last couple years#i wouldnt even want to be my own friend now#anyway hi if u are someone that i met between the years of 2019 and 2022 and u arent my ex please know u did nothing wrong#i just cannot fucking maintain relationships that mostly exist virtually/digitally#and im good enough at occupying my time that i can go days at a time before realizing i havent talked to anyone except myself & my gf#hmmm maybe this is one of the reasons why i liked living with other people and i would personally be so down with having roommates again#as long as we can respect each other's needs#bc living with other people is the only way to make sure i dont just become a hermit and accidentally drop all contact with other humans#and like okay if im going to talk about how im bad at maintaining relationships i might as well talk about how im usually more enthusiastic#at the start of new relationships/friendships/whatever and so i usually initiate stuff#but i actually fucking hate initiating plans i have never once not felt like a burden i feel like i am holding someone hostage i hate it#so much#but i always accidentally set the dynamic of the friendship as that i am the one to initiate plans more#so then once i stop doing that bc the hyperfixation on the friendship has ended and its now just a part of my life#nothing ever gets done and i just dont see people#like i need friends who will invite me to do things#between literally never seeing another human being and having to initiate plans ever i would willingly accept social isolation#like it is legitimately so distressing to have to initiate anything because i feel like such an unlikeable freak#anyway hi i dont expect anyone to have read all of this and if u did then idk man heres a cookie 🍪#this bitch needs to go to therapy (cant afford it)#this bitch needs to be medicated (can maybe afford it but that requires so much work)
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diordeer · 2 months
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౨ৎ DELICATE
“sometimes i wonder, when you sleep are you ever dreaming of me? sometimes when I look into your eyes, i pretend you're mine all the damn time” - taylor swift (smau)
contains: charlie bushnell x fem!reader who is best friends with taylor swift and stars in the music video of getaway car (taylor’s version)
description: how are we feeling about the tortured poets department??!?!!!??? have i already ordered the vinyl and cd? yes. btw, the link to join my taglist is in my pinned post
requested by: it wont let me tag who requested arggh!
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yn.ln my reputations never been worse so, u must like me for me 😉
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user1 i know gal did not just say a reputation reference in the prime of reputation tv speculations as a friend of taylor swift
iamcharliebushnell a delicate reference i see
↳ yn.ln i’ve taught u well
user2 GUYS I CANT THE FIRST PIC WHERE DO I FIND A MAN LIKE THIS
↳ yn.ln idk i found him in the streets, guess it was a lucky pick 🤷‍♀️
user3 taylor swift liked!!!!! I think we r getting rep tv
↳ user4 no i dont think so bc i reckon it would be super secretive like they wouldnt just have her friend say it for her you know what i mean
↳ user3 let a girl dream 💔
dior.n.goodjohn u guys are so cute it makes me sick to my stomach and want to vomit
↳ leahsavajeffries i second that
↳ iamcharliebushnell so is this a compliment..? orr
user5 i LOVE how wherever one percy jackson cast member goes EVERYONE else follows
↳ dior.n.goodjohn u assume im here for charlie? yn is my bae 😘
↳ yn.ln love ya 😘
↳ iamcharliebushnell 🧍
user6 THE SHOES OMG?!
user7 can we talk ab charlie in the last pic omg
↳ yn.ln ikr 🤭
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taylorswift its been a long time coming…
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user1 WHAT OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD
selenagomez so proud of u girl 🐍
user2 SET OFF THE ALARMS OMGOMGOMG
yn.ln TAYLOR ILY
haimtheband OH YES
user3 WHY IS YN TAGGED IN THIS OH MY GOD WHATS HAPPENING
user4 READY FOR IT TV IS REAL
blakelively 🖤🖤🖤
user5 THE PHOTOS OMG THIS IS INSANE
sabrinacarpenter YOU GO TAYLOR
↳ user2 i love the swiftverse
user6 do u guys reckon yn will be in a delicate mv??
↳ user7 babe theres already a delicate mv
teddysphotos cant wait!!
user8 the hole for kanye west has just dug so much deeper
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user1 nothing good starts in a getaway car!!
user2 this is everything i imagined and more
user3 YN IN IT?!!
↳ user4 OMG AND THE BRIDGE SCENE
user5 this is too iconic i fear
user6 yn winning at life
↳ user3 PLS i want whatever manifestation method shes got
user7 SNAKES
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yn.ln im sure you’ve seen getaway car by now, and if you haven’t what are you doing?
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user1 taylor swift and yn ln in a reputation music video together is my roman empire
iamcharliebushnell did u, did u just happen to forget to tell me u were in this mv? 😊😊
↳ yn.ln it was a secreeeettt!
↳ iamcharliebushnell even from me? 😥
↳ user2 👀
↳ yn.ln charlie u r the biggest talker ever if i told i this would be out in a second
↳ aryansimhadri she has a great point
↳ iamcharliebushnell what?!
↳ yn.ln see! Totally justified!
↳ iamcharliebushnell ur not getting away with this one yn 😡
yn.ln guys if i dont post this week charlies killed me, call the police
↳ leahsavajeffries LMAO
taylorswift love you!
↳ yn.ln ugh impossible i love you more
user3 gal took the memo and embodied it
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well todays the day gamers it would be me and elis 4th anniversary so im gonna have to just spend the day trying not to think abt it
#things were going okay we hung out as just friends and it was nice and we agreed that we could do that every once in awhile#and then later he started getting shitty and passive aggressive and when i told him i just didnt have the energy for it he said fine#and we havent talked since then and he kicked me off the discord servers we were in together#and idk like#if i wanna say something or if hes gonna say something or if he like wont say anything but wants me to say something#its just so fucking rough bc we planned so much of our lives around eachother and I spent so much time just waiting for him#and for like 2 years we talked about moving out together and nothing ever happened#then when he started trucking i was gonna go on the road w him after he was done training but he kept pushing it back more and more#sayin he still was scared to drive without mark as a safety net like first it was winter and then spring and then summer and#the way he asked for an open relationship but as soon as i started seeing other people and he didnt even though he definitely coulda#started getting insecure and refused to try to understand that im polyam and me havin feelings didnt mean i loved him any less#he never wanted to go anywhere or do anything and i was so sick of just sitting around watchin tv#or doing nothin while he played games with his friends even tho thats all he did when we werent at eachothers houses#how i would be scared to tell him when i was with certain friends just because he knew they had an interest in me#as if they wouldnt respect me saying no#the last few months i kept thinkin abt breaking up w him but not wantin to bc even tho we werent rlly happy we still had love for eachother#the straw that broke the camels back was my mom just tellin me that it was time and i knew she was right#that all my thoughts werent just me being mentally ill that someone else could see it too#and how he didnt cry or ask me to stay if he just asked me to stay i know i would have even if it was for the best#how a few nights later when i said i think after some time and couples therapy we could actually work he got so incredibly shitty and mean#how i realized that thats something he did a lot and i somehow never see it coming#idk i just wanna get all that shit out so maybe i dont think abt it all day at work#vent
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PLUTO NOTES
MOON NOTES VENUS NOTES MARS NOTES NEPTUNE NOTES
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Plutonians and 8th housers can have a hard time with people being behind them. Also in the classroom, the bus or wherever they are they want to be in the back. They need their face facing the door so that they can see who walks in.
People with Pluto/Moon see stuff that other people just dont get to see. This is both good and bad. They get to experience intense and wonderful sexual relationships with others because they merge with others on a completely different level but they also recieve intense hatred from others too.
Dont ever mess with a Sun Square Pluto persons image or disrespect them infront of others, just dont.
Ive never met a person with Sun or Mercury Square Pluto who wasnt extremely strategic and calculating. They know when its time to leave the party.
If you have Venus/Pluto or Venus 8th house dont ever share to others who you are in love with. Just dont.
If you have Venus/Pluto or Venus 8th house and you notice people being completely taken by you, complimenting you bla bla for your beauty dont get all friendly and start trusting these people. Just wait and you will see that admiration turn to bitterness. A friend in my old class in High School got Venus Square Pluto and we had to watch another girl in our class try to BECOME her. Like she would buy the same clothes as her, talk like her, freaking SIT like her, cut her hair like her. We laughed at this bc the copycat was a nice and funny girl in general but it was creepy.
Most people with harsh Pluto aspects went through a time in their life where they shut down their feelings completely and became cold. These peoples minds can take them to dark places when they have been through trauma. Their first response to trauma might be to get cold. And this can make them very problematic until they heal. But when they heal they are the kindest, because they know pain.
When I hear the quote ”I didnt want to be strong I wanted to be happy.” I think of Pluto dominant people. Yes plutonians are strong but they were forced to, there was no other choice. Telling Plutonians ”But it made you stronger in the end” does not help because being strong was not their goal.
Ive seen Ceres(1) Square Pluto in a lot of charts of people who are obsessed with fitness and nutrition. Like people who weight their food, only eat a specific amount of calories etc.
Pluto/Moon people go through periods of extreme emotional turmoil. Especially the Square and Conjunction.
People with Sun or Moon Square Pluto always get what they want but they also get what they fear. Their feelings and thoughts are so strong. These people have experienced their worst fears happen to them. The kind of people to think for themselves ”I wouldnt be able to handle losing my bestfriend” and the next day their bestie leaves them for no reason. Its almost like there is some kind of test from life like ”Hmmm lets see how much this person can take😈”
Pluto conjunct a planet can in some cases make you suppress that placement or be afraid of that energy. I know a lot of people with Pluto Square Mars whos seriously afraid of conflict. Some people respond to trauma by becoming passive instead of being angered by it.
Pluto conjunct Ascendant in the Solar Return Chart makes you come across as more dominant and powerful. You wont think before you act because you are not as afraid this year.
Mars conjunct Pluto people are much more goal oriented than they even realize themselves. Constantly pushing themselves to become better and better. The kind of person to have the whole package like good job, fit, the best hair stylist, the latest clothes, the latest everything etc. Being the best is something they just do because they dont know anything else. They need structure and perfection. Nobody better look down on them. And Mars conjunct Pluto makes them driven enough to become ”perfect”. Others stare in awe because they could never have that drive. Others might be like ”You doing too much”. They dont realize this is what Mars/Pluto likes and needs.
Pluto in the 10th house makes someone have A LOT of haters and secret admirers. These people are constantly under intense scrutiny. Every word they say is made to be something bad or manipulative. The kind of person to say ”Oh what a beautiful dress!” And people will think they are being sarcastic when they are not. They got Regina George energy no matter how nice they are inside.
Pluto in the 3rd house really know what to say to make you hate yourself. If afflicted they can have a horrible mouth.
People with Mercury conjunct Pluto read into everything. Constantly finding flaws. Might see the worst in you because they project their own fears and insecurities onto others. The kind of person to hate people who snitch and gossip because they do it themselves.
People with a Plutonian Moon will recognize eachother at first sight.
Pluto conjunct Lust(4386) can make someone VERY sexual.
Pluto/Moon can mean your mom went to prison and Pluto/Sun can mean your dad went to prison.
With strong Pluto energy always remember this quote: ”Be nice to the people you meet on your way up, because you will need them on your way down.” Life can go from heaven to hell in a night for these people.
If you got Mercury Square Pluto please shut that cakehole when angry bc that mouth freaky as hell.
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Deuce in my One Piece Modern AU :)
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Now ive never read the Ace Novels,
HOWEVER! ☝️
I just read the Wiki on this guy.
Honestly this is more of a soul read than anything else, sorry if i mischaracterize him :)
Additional headcanons 👇
Deuce’s father was in the military and their family often had to move around when he was young. During his 12 grade year, that landed deuce in the same high-school that Ace went to. They met eachother in the school’s Jazz band, He played Sax, Ace played Bass.
On their very first day of meeting eachother though, they accidentally found themselves locked out of the school building, which lead them to have to walk around the campus banging on doors until someone opened one.
During their little adventure, Ace kept trying to get Deuce to tell him his name, in which he was withholding from his classmate. At this point in moving around so much, he got tired of introducing himself, but that just lead to Ace making up the name ‘Deuce’ for him, and the name just stuck!
They started to have some banter between eachother because of their escapade and quickly became friends. Deuce wasnt really interested in making friends, but Ace pulled him into his friend groups and gave him a social life that made him happy :)
During their school year, Deuce started growing a crush on his new friend. He never thought that getting locked out of the school one day would lead to being head over heels, but here he is… shhhit.
Eventually, he plucks up the courage to tell Ace how he feels, and Ace responded by placing a big ol’ kiss on Deuce’s lips, much to his surprise.
They start dating, but onward, it felt like something was missing. Deuce had never dated anyone before, but this isn't what he thought it would be like. They did all the normal couply physical stuff, but it still felt like he was just a friend to Ace.
One day, he voiced his concerns to Ace who just looked sad. Ace bows the deepest bow Deuce had ever seen and apologized.
He expresses that he doesn't know how to love like deuce does. Everytime he tries, he fails, and he winds up hurting the ones that he cares for. He thought that he was doing better with deuce, but obviously not, and now Ace has hurt him, too.
They wind up breaking up, but remaining friends. deuce understands that Ace has some self development that he has to go through, and that a romantic relationship between them wouldnt work out.
Ace was his first heartbreak, but he's glad they can still be friends.
and sometimes they fuck idk
thanks for reading :) i hope you enjoyed my Aromantic vent piece
heres some ship art for them on my ship art account
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