#idk what their situationship is but girl figure it OUT
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am I the asshole for sort of accidentally ruining someone's wedding and kind of dooming their marriage?
I know that sounds really really bad but please bear with me because I really didn't mean for this to happen and I still just feel really confused about the part I played in all this and don't know if I'm an asshole for it.
I (23f) used to date this guy in college on and off, over the course of several months. He dropped me out of the blue one day and I saw later on social media he was engaged to a girl we both knew. I'm still unclear if she was aware that he and I were in a situationship deal while he was also, I guess, dating her and playing serious. I just figured okay icky but whatever, we won't be speaking again.
Then I get a wedding invitation. I figured it had to be a mistake, no way she'd want me there so I called her (she'd been my RA at one point so I still had her number saved). She said no, no mistake I was legitimately invited because we'd sorta been close during that year she was my RA and she was so nice over the phone idk I felt bad for wanting to say no so I said yes, I'd be there and also sent the rsvp back. I know I should've said something like hey I used to mess around with your soon to be husband I don't think I should be there especially if you didn't know about that but I just didn't say anything about it.
I continued to feel weird about it up until the day of the wedding. The reception was lovely if a little awkward mostly because I felt so awkward, but nearly two hours went by and I started hearing in chatter that they couldn't find the groom. People in the wedding party were really starting to freak out thinking he just straight up left.
They eventually found him, he locked himself in a room at the hotel where the reception was being held. Eventually someone comes to me saying I need to go talk to him because he only wants to speak to me. I just truly wanted to die and get swallowed up by the ground but I said fine I'll go talk to him and see if I can convince him to come out.
We talk, he says he can't go through with it because he's been staring at me the entire time and not even thinking about the bride to be literally on the other side of the door listening to us. I got a little heated telling him that he's really hurting her and it's extra shitty because that wasn't just about him it's about her too, hes the one who proposed to her, planned a wedding with her, ect. I said call it off if you want but you and I aren't getting back together and you need to go out there either way and talk to her.
After that he came out, idk what was discussed exactly with her or the wedding party but eventually they said the ceremony will go through as planned. I couldn't get out of there fast enough, I felt so horrible that I'd probably ruined this girl's dream day and I should've turned down the invitation and been straight up with her.
I tried to forget about it then three months later he hits me up on a blank burner account on facebook explaining it was him and asking me for nude pictures. I screenshot the messages, did not respond, and sent them to his wife. They both blocked me on everything after that but I heard from a mutual friend that she'd filed for divorce, they hadn't even been married for three full months.
It's not solely because of me that they got divorced, apparently there was a whole slew of girls he'd been messaging and he never really stopped messing around behind her back but I feel like if I'd just said something right away during that initial call maybe she wouldn't have gone through with it and wouldn't have been put in that position as the wife who got cheated on.
What are these acronyms?
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mastermind, part three
oh my goshhh im so sorry this one took me like ten years (i had exams🤡🙏) i wrote part four as well as an apology🤞🤞
anyways heres part three, getting into that situationship situation rn we love to see it
but no fr idk how i feel abt this part so please lmk ur thoughts and that, hopefully the next parts will be better idk ily guys sm omg-
warnings: none i think, probably some swearing, mostly fluff
mastermind, masterlist
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I walk over to Theo, passing by drunken teenagers either making out or snorting cocaine. The strobe lights hit his face, bringing his bright eyes out every now and again as he looks up at me.
“Hey,” he says as I come to sit next to him on the sofa in the dark corner.
“Hey.” I reply back looking towards his book, “What are you reading?”
“Bukawoski,” he responded plainly, dog-earing the book and putting it aside to direct his full attention to me.
“Bukawoski? A muggle writer?” I ask in surprise “What possessed your pureblood mind to read that?”
He shrugs and answers, “I heard you and that curly-haired girl over there talking about it one time at dinner and I thought I’d see what all the nonsense was about.”
“Oh yeah? And how are you finding it?” I ask, a grin creeping up to my lips.
“Love is a dog from hell is pretty good. Bloody questionable, no doubt but good.” He says staring down at my lips from time to time.
We sit in silence for a moment, observing each other as the music played in the background until his strong unwavering gaze becomes too much for me and I break away and try to talk about something.
“So how was the match? Had fun losing?” I smirk at him and see his soft smile becoming a frown but I could see the tiniest sliver of a smile under it.
“Shut the fuck up, we didn’t have enough time for warm-ups and it was bloody freezing.” he complains whiningly which sends me into a burst of creasing laughter.
With a smile on his face, Theo asks me, “What’s so funny?”
I barely manage to get any words out from the laughter that has taken over my body, spreading to Theo’s too.
Our little moment is interrupted by a figure in front of us.
“Hi, care to join the others for a game?”, Cormac grins down at us, making Theo cease his laughter almost immediately and glare up at him.
Before he has the chance to say anything rude I take mine, “Yeah sure, we’d love to.” I smile up at Cormac and grab Theo by the arm dragging him towards the group settled on the carpet with an empty beer bottle in the middle of the circle.
“Ah welcome! Nott, Lestrange, joining us for seven minutes in heaven?” Ron asks from his place on the carpet.
“I don’t think I have much of a choice Weasley.” Theo jokes with Ron. Or at least I think it’s a joke. Whatever, at least they’re not bruising each other right now.
Though if Theo’s looks could kill, Cormac would’ve been six feet under by now…
“Okay, I’m going first!” Ginny Weasley says and spins the bottle making it turn a few times before landing on…Harry.
“No. Absolutely not. Ginny go back to your dorm, I’m not having this.” Ron says strictly before passing the bottle to me.
I spin it as Ginny grumbles and goes to another corner of the room being closely followed by Harry, away from Ron’s sights for once. Theo seems to catch my gaze and smiles softly.
“Oh now won’t you look at that, it was almost Gryffindor and Slytherin but I guess the choosing hat’s powers radiate all the way here.” Ron jokes as the bottle nearly lands on Theo, erupting butterflies in my tummy until they all fall down again when the bottle finally lands on Cormac.
Lord please no.
I stay in my position on the carpet, refusing to look at Cormac’s disturbingly growing grin and reach for Theo’s hand instead.
“Oh, Y/N I completely forgot about our detention with Flitwick from the other day, we’d better be going now.” Theo says as he pretends to check his watch, pulls me up and sarcastically smiles at Cormac before saying, “Sorry mate.”
We make it out of the common room easily, thank God, and I have a million thanks for Theo but a question still remains.
“Why did you do that?” I say plainly as we start walking and Theo pulls out a cigarette, putting it between his pink lips and reaching for a lighter in his pocket.
“No reason,” he mumbles through his teeth as the cold autumn air hits our faces.
“You sure? You’d normally just walk out. No explanation.”
“Well,” he begins, looking at me for a second before taking a drag of his cigarette and breathing it out, “I would. But you wouldn’t, and if I just pulled you up with no explanation then the others might think something else. And anyway I can’t stand seeing you with that bastard.” he says frowning to himself.
“Oh yeah?” I smirk at him, “Why’s that?”
“Not good enough for you.”
“Then what is good enough for me Theo?” I say as we enter the castle again and walk into a deserted, dark hallway.
He says nothing but brushes his hand with mine before pausing and offering me a drag from his cigarette.
“Mm, no, I like my lungs, thanks.”
“Suit yourself.” he shrugs and as he puts the cigarette back in his mouth the sleeve of his shirt lifts a bit showing his soft skin tainted with something…black?
“What’s that?” I ask, taking my hands out of my pockets and point to his arm quickly.
He pulls his sleeve back down as quickly as he can and mumbles a quick ‘nothing’, looking panicked and anxious all of a sudden.
“Theo? Are you okay? I’m sorry I shouldn’t have asked.” I apologise and regardless of his “No don’t worry lovie you don’t need to apologise"s, I still feel unsure and try to reach out for him but he flinches away before I can say anything.
“M’sorry I just- I have to go. I’ll um, I’ll see you tomorrow.” he says quickly and strides off to the Slytherin common room. As he was mumbling this, I had a chance to asses his behaviour. Rather than the cool, calm and nonchalant Theo that I’m used to, I saw the glassy-eyed, apprehensive and slightly vulnerable Theo.
What was that?
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theo’s pov
“Well, good morning to you too,” Draco says to me, smiling as I harshly drop my bag down on the breakfast table.
“What’s wrong with you?” Pansy asks, before putting a spoonful of cereal in her mouth.
I sigh before answering, “I’ve got potions first period.”
“...And that��s bad because…?” Blaise drags out, looking at me in curiosity.
“Because she’s there and the Yule Ball’s coming up, and I should’ve asked her earlier but I didn’t, and now that that bloody git Cormac’s probably going to go with her.”
My short rant left the table in silence for a moment before Pansy replied,
“Don’t worry about it Theo, even if she is going with Cormac I’m pretty sure she’s not going to have much fun with him.”
“Yeah no for real, guy’s a fucking pussy.” Blaise agrees, having had many classes with him before.
We get into our nonsensical chatter until the bell rings and everyone starts clearing off to lessons and I hold Draco back by his elbow before he moves off and whisper nervously to him, “What if she sees it?”
“Sees what?” he says with furrowed brows, making me roll my eyes and point to my forearm saying, “What if she sees it.”
Draco looks down at my covered arm and looks at his and says, “Don’t worry mate, we’ll be fine.”, smiles and moves off.
“Thanks for the reassurance mate,” I say after him as we walk together with Blaise to our classes, them to dark arts and me to potions.
“Trust me I know, she’s my cousin after all.” Draco smiles before Blaise nods to my class door, “Make sure you ask her.”
I enter the room and looking up towards my seat I can see Y/N smiling and waving excitedly at me, as I get closer I wave back reciprocating her enthusiasm.
“How come you’re so happy on a Monday morning?” I ask as I place my books down and take my seat.
“Look what I made for you,” she says as she pulls out a silver ring with stars engraved on the sides with both our initials, “I always see you wearing that one ring on your hand so I thought I’d make you another for the other hand. And you like astrology a lot so I thought I’d put some stars on it or something I don’t know. Do you like it?”
My heart skips a beat and blood rushes to my ears and cheeks as I sit there stunned as she looks back at me expectantly.
“No ones given me a present before.” I say quietly and meet her eyes getting softer by my words.
“What? Like ever?” she asks as she tilts her head slightly to the right in question.
God this girl’s gonna be the death of me.
“No uhm,” I clear my throat before continuing, “My mother used to give me loads, you know for my birthday or Christmas or whatever but after she uhm…” I take a pause, trying to collect my emotions and reach out for the ring in her soft hands, “I don’t really get that many any more, my dad’s not really big on presents or anything.” I try to block out the thought of him and look up at the gorgeous girl in front of me but the look in her eyes breaks me more than my father ever could.
“Don’t worry Teddy, we’re friends now so you’re getting showered in presents starting with this one.
Now show me your homework, I need to copy it before he comes around to check.” she says as she takes my books and starts copying out my work, leaving me stunned by her words.
Friends.
I look down at the small piece of jewellery between my fingers and slip it on with a small smile on my face.
I’m so fucked.
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ok omg that was part three, kinda shitty ik but dw i did part four too and its probably already up rn so go read that too, part five is currently in progress😋🤞
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you know those pranks where girls will call their bfs friends and ask if the boyfriend is with them, to see if they’d lie and cover for them…
would ethan lie for peter? if she sounded fr serious like “is he with you? he told me he was hanging out with you today but he’s not replying to my calls”
I CANT FIGURE OUT HOW HED RESPOND
ok so i do think the answer varies depending on their relationship, so...
situationship wise: i think he'd cover for him under the guise of spider-man things. ethan does that a lot, so if you called and asked he would probably say his phone died and he's with him.
but, since you said boyfriend here:
'ethan keznek, speaking.'
'ethan- is peter with you? he told me you guys had plans at like, ten, but i haven't heard from him all day and he's not answering any of my fucking texts so if he's there i need you to pass the phone to him.'
'oh, um... yeah, he told you we had plans?'
'is he lying? where the fuck is he ethan? i swear to god if you're covering-'
'no! we're... at, um.. you know what? i gotta go, i'm up next to order.'
this would follow up ethan spam texting peter.
'oh your girlfriend is pissed and he's asking me if im with you and i kind of panicked and you need to fucking text her.'
-also how would peter respond if taylor did the same thing with him?
I feel like he’d lie for ethan but that’s a red flag😭 he’s our peter and I like to believe he wouldn’t help him lie to his girl, but he’s still a frat boy at the end of the day so … idk. maybe he’d cover for him
hehe
'hello?'
'peter, hi, it's me, taylor.'
'why are you calling me?'
'do you know where ethan is?'
'...'
'do i know where ethan is? do you know where ethan is?'
'not really. he said he was with you but he's not picking up, i just wanted to make sure he was okay.'
(this is where peter wishes you were here so he could look at you for help because he's not sure what to say, but if he defends him and you find out, you'll be pissed. he's pretty sure of it.)
'we were hanging out earlier.' it's not a lie.
'earlier? where is he now?'
'i don't know, i think he's taking a nap or something.' this could be true.
'can you tell him to call me when he gets up, please?'
'uh huh, yeah, sure. bye.'
this would also lead peter into texting ethan.
'your girlfriend is looking for you.'
'also, tell her not to call me anymore.'
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Fun Peanuts character facts #2
Marcie
I think Snoopy’s in love with her (or just her French lass persona) https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1991/04/11
She loves fucking with a jealous Pep; she called pep from camp and would pretend Charles was holding her hand or nibbling her ears- she’s such an ass lmao https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1989/06/15 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1990/06/22 - Charles joins in on the fun, although it’s hard to tell if he’s also fucking with Pep (I think he is) https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1989/06/13
Bro Marcie be pullin’ - she got the attention of Floyd, flirted with a random flautist https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1986/12/03, charmed a dog, got hit on by Joe Richkid’s caddy https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1981/07/02 , was called beautiful by Cormac https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1992/07/22 and may’ve charmed Charles too https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1987/07/13
She and Peppermint Patty have physically brawled for Chuck’s affections; there’s little resentment though https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1987/09/11
Low key enjoys causing trouble, she’d done so a few times besides this: https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1997/02/07
Uhh, maybe she wants to cause more than just trouble… https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1997/10/09
Kisses Charle’s cheek and admits she’s fond of him, “I hate to see you suffer all the time,” but she doesn’t believe she’s good enough 😭😭😭; https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1982/08/18
Feels pressure to perform well academically; seeks Charles for comfort;;; my hearttt https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1990/10/18
She doesn’t want to hurt footballs by kicking it so maybe she’s not low key a psycho
She’s also kinda stupid (literal-minded?) like the other characters outside of academics, and is now a bit worse at sports due to said stupidity https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1993/09/17
https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1993/10/23 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1995/09/16 She wants to be a cheerleader for the team, and she’d cheered on her golfer as a caddy quite loudly before back when she and Peppermint Patty worked as caddies
Frequently depicted wearing white in the strips
Peppermint Patty
Likes to change up her hairstyle: https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1979/12/12 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1981/08/27 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1997/09/08
Still likes Chuck; idk what happened to her situationship with Pigpen
A while ago, mentioned something about Charlie Brown and having to teach him something - she brings out a leash and he does not agree
There was a whole arc about how a butterfly landed on her, it was both cute and stupid; https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1981/07/16
Early in her appearance, Snoopy guesses prolly correctly that she’s starved for affection lmao
Goes to dinner and classical concerts (maybe been mostly field trips) with Marcie frequently
Horrible Petscop lookin ass; https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1993/06/04
Frequently depicted wearing orange in the strip
Charlie Brown
He gets a girlfriend named Peggy Jean (a new character entirely but she does resemble Heather from the movie) https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1990/08/10
He couldn’t say his name properly so she calls him “Brownie Charles”
He falls for a possible hallucination named Emily
Never mind, she’s not a hallucination
A girl named Roy starts crushing on him https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1993/08/17 - he too be pullin’ but this was already known to some extent
Became popular and a respected figure in camp when he puts a paper sack on his head (Mr. Sack)
Sally ships Marcie with him; “Kiss [Marcie] you blockhead!” (Multiple times) https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1982/08/17 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1983/03/26
Starts getting real sentimental over caring for Snoopy in the later comics which I found to have a sad undertone
He’s actually quite witty, especially whenever Sally says something stupid https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1993/08/07
Every time there’s a younger character, Charlie Brown tends to be there for them - from Schroeder, to Lucy, Linus, Sally, and now Rerun: https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1995/04/05 bro this guy’s nurturing
He mostly wears red in the colored strips (not the colored reruns- and I’m not referring to the character Rerun) https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1996/10/20 - https://schulzmuseum.org/wp-content/uploads/2020/05/PeanutsByNumbers.pdf
Linus
Has a weird hate-love thing with a girl named Lydia (who started off changing her name a lot for the fun of it) https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1993/10/06
Has a fairly nice thing with a girl named Truffles but I can’t ;;; she looks like the fuckin Momo challenge creature, absolute no go
Look, based on his reactions to losing his blanket, and the way he threatens Snoopy for stalking his blanket, I’m sayin’ Linus has yandere tendencies.
Loses his temper when Charlie repeatedly fails to speak to the little red-haired girl before she moved away
He keeps trying to play fetch with Snoopy but it never works
He keeps trying to get back at Lucy but it never works
Called Charlie a few times because he gets lonely and scared at night; https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1992/08/26 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1963/04/21 - (there were two more times where they spent the night at Charle’s)
Supports Snoopy’s career as an attorney and doctor (or at least plays along)
More and more Linus enjoys Snoopy’s company when the dog’s not being a nuisance: https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1995/03/16 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1996/10/08 idk it’s cute
Schroeder
Kissed Lucy on the cheek after she gave him a cupcake for Beethoven’s B-day https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1984/12/16 - I legitimately cannot explain this one as it is so supremely out of character; the best I can do is say he just went insane from Lucy’s delusional ramblings and general abuse or he just felt particularly generous during his beloved holiday
According to himself, is a bit serious : https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1983/01/01
Disapproves of Charlie being in love… I’m taking that out of context and will be interpreting it as jealousy; https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1990/09/12
Has cute interactions with Snoopy and Woodstock more frequently w/o much dialogue; https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1987/09/29 (this one is the wordiest)
https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1992/03/07 but unironically
They spend time together besides baseball still; https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1988/01/03 https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1988/04/18
Continues to support Charlie Brown https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1990/05/18, by calling him “low-key,” https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1988/03/29, and also doing this: https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1987/08/11 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1996/07/10 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1996/07/16 (I think he checked on Charlie before some time ago when Charlie was hurt too but I’m unsure) - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1996/10/03 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1996/10/04 [so sweet] - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1994/08/05 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1997/06/21
Is sarcastic to Charlie Brown still but hey, pretty nice considering things: https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1990/08/24 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1993/04/18
He starts becoming more blunt in the later comics and pulling the piano from under Lucy
https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1993/08/08 there’s something Schroelie here but I can’t quite figure it out - context wise, Charlie is still “dating” Peggy Jean at this time and is also pushing his luck with the red haired girl
Schroelie: https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1993/03/21
He likes to walk up and say random shit to Charlie Brown: https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1993/04/06 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1995/09/25 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1996/04/28 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1990/07/12 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1997/05/03
Bruh he has tinnitus 😭😭😭 https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1995/06/17 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1995/05/14 -
Breaks the 4th wall the most; see the comments https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1997/03/16
Lucy
Still an ass but is somewhat warmer to Charlie now; they kinda sit around and talk sometimes or she offers to help; https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1996/03/10 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1997/04/13 - https://www.gocomics.com/peanuts/1984/08/19
Did the occasional marriage-imagines with Charlie back in the day
I think she enjoys reading Snoopy’s fictional work despite always criticizing it
She’s starting to hang around Snoopy more
I’m now on Jan 1, 1998. What the fuck am I doing.
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sorry i wont shut up about this but i feel so conflicted right now!!D; and maybe typing it all out will help???
and I highly suggest to not read this unless you want to be here for an hour reading nonsense LOL
im seeing my bestie friday so im gonna tell her everythinggg and get her opinion on all of this before i see him again in a few days.
i just started to hang out with a "new" friend but it makes my bf uncomfortable and idk what to do about it... and tbh im not going to stop being friends with them:/ ik that sounds kinda shitty on the surface but its like asking me to cut someone off right after getting to know them.
im gonna explain almost all of the context....
okay, so... 2020 was a ruff year. it was covid and quarantine. my mom was super super strict about it. once people began to hang out in small circles bc cdc said it was okay to, while still being careful, i was still not allowed to leave my house. i felt soso isolated and alone and it was def one of my lowest moments. me & my bf were basically in a long distance relationship.. or thats what it felt like. all we had was facetime. he started to hang out with his friend from school more often (i had stuff to say to him about that & its in another post). after a couple of months, my mom finally let us see each other.. but it had to be in my backyard only and we couldn't be close. it was okay at first but after a while we got bored and wanted more. he got impatient and petty about it. i understood where he was coming from but i was trying to be as optimistic as i could, even tho it was hard. its bc even for like the 1-2 hrs i got to see him, it made my day. (my friends were also starting to hangout in their backyards but i never told my mom bc i figured she wouldnt let me go.. but when i told her afterwards, she said she would have..??)
it was getting colder outside which made it harder for us to see each other. it was also just a sucky situation and it was creating some resentment. he wanted to talk with me on ft about it and i knew it would be serious. AND IT WAS. he did most of the talking and it was leading to a breakup. BUT (this is important) he couldnt for the life of him break up with me, let alone say the words.. SO.. he suggested that we do a break. neither of us have done that before but its obvious that it means its temporary and you use that time to figure things out and get some space (we DEFINITELY shouldve been clearer about it). he got emotional and i held mine in. he was saying all these good things about me and how he still wants me in his life and that we can get together again; that we would still talk everyday and be friends. at the time, weve been dating for about a year and a half. right after we hung up i bawled my eyes out and immediately facetimed my best friend in FL.
days go by and me and him are still talking everyday, only in a more friendly, platonic manner. eventually, he starts replying later and later, he turns off his location, and its like i feel forgotten about. im so used to knowing what hes doing that now it feels weird to not know and its hard to adapt to these changes.
I download tinder to find some FRIENDS to talk to (only for girls). he was barely talking to me and i was questioning our friendship relationship (situationship i guess). although i dont remember the details of my profile, i DEF made it clear that i was on there for making friends only. i had no intention of pursuing anyone for a relationship... bc i had my "bf" still. HE clearly went a diff route during our break....too much to unpack there but in the end, it just made him want to come back to me.
So.... Snow (that is their nickname ive given them for tumblr) was one of those people who i chatted with on tinder. theyre female but identify as they/them (i dont think they used those pronouns when we first started talking tho). they msgd first and our convo was actually really long-lasting so we followed each other on IG. (theyre also not the only one i've exchanged IG with so its not like i only gave it to them). Yes, I thought they were pretty when i swiped. sue me. i think many people are pretty. its just me acknowledging when someones aesthetically pleasing. eventually, we talked less and i also went on tinder less. After about a month into me and my bfs break, he begins to talk to me more like he used to. Then he asks if he can see me bc he missed me. Still cant leave my house with him but we hang out and its nice. HE ASKS ME IF I MET ANYONE NEW. i say no and hes like ...really?you sure? I ask him the same and he says no (while breaking eye contact,, literal red flag but i was blindsided). he tells me the truth over FT and that ruined me way more than i let on. (i think he's feeling a similar way now but for diff reasons)
we got back together after and the rest of the year (2021) was super fun. weve now been together for almost 4 1/2 years! since our BREAK NOT BREAKUP (not me @ ing him when he wont even see this) me and snow comment on each others IG posts now and again. for ex, ive said they looked so prettyyy & i would compliment their makeup skills. they would reply in a cute/flattery way. thats how they reply to comments. theyre also very embellished, like with emojis. theyve commented on my pics saying i look cute and hyping me up with compliments as well. it just turned into a natural, mutual thing; idk how else to describe it. its like having an online friend where you only interact thru the comments to show kindness. LOL IDK that sounds corny but yeah. girly things i guess. & then irl its so subdued.
so aside from the comments, we would react to each others stories like once in a blue moon. they posted about watching demon slayer so i said its a good anime. i posted me and my bfs halloween costumes and they said we looked so cute. fast fwd to the end of last yr... we said happy bday to each other and i brought up the idea of possibly hanging out one day if theyre down. so yes, i asked first. they said they would love to and that they were glad i asked bc they were too anxious to ask themselves (mood). im surprised at myself that i even asked but i guess i felt comfortable enough.
(i feel like im writing my own biography omg..) anyways, we get each others numbers and talk about our schedules. we were both very busy so nothing happened. we sporadically made small talk, as one does with their internet friend, over a couple of months. we talked on IG more & also thought about the plans for when we hang out. its now like almost summer and they text me asking if i was free last minute to hang out bc they were gonna be in my town but i was busy.
its now like a month later and i see them at the mall with their friend when i was with my bf. (i already spoke about this so i wont repeat it). after that day, we finally made a day to hang out. bf wasnt happy about it; i tried to reassure him; he saw and still sees them as someone to worry about; he thinks im gonna do something stupid and act out on any fantasies i may have. he knows im bi; he sees snow as someone who looks queer. he thinks that our intentions are to get closer to each other in a way that crosses a friendship.
he saw me listening to a playlist titled sapphic energy. it just consists of songs i enjoy by female artists and ive had that playlist for a long time now. i only edited the title.. but just now i switched it back to what it was before so thats ONE thing "fixed" to make him at ease.
he doesnt believe me when i tell him that my only intention and motive here is to make a good, new friendship. THATS ALL I WANT. AND THATS ALL SNOW WANTS. i can see how it can look like its more from an outside perspective bc of our IG comments but it was not like that in person at all!! it just felt like hanging out with a friend and introducing new things to each other like shows and foods. snow even made it clear that once someone is their friend, they cant see them any other way and that formed to protect their feelings. when we hung out there were literally no signs of feelings or anything that would cross boundaries. i didnt get that feeling i get when i have a crush and lose all my brain cells. by our second hang out we were past any awkwardness and it felt like a regular day out with a friend.
I did look cute that day but i always dress up!!! i dress up like every time i see my bf. i dress up for work. i dress up when im going out with friends. i enjoy fashion and makeup and looking pretty,,
last yr he was using bumble friends and he met up with a guy but they havent hung out since. ive helped him swipe on people before and i was okay with it, except when it was like an attractive girl.. would that be hypocritical of me tho?...idk. we def both get kinda jealous over these things. i can get territorial, like he is mine lol i am his. we would never be open or add a third and the thought of him befriending new females made me nervous. especially after what happened during our break. like idk, that still sticks with me and makes me think of bad feelings..and even more especially now after finding out about what he and his friend did.. but me feeling nervous about that is like what HE is feeling (T-T) I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT I CAN DO TO HELP AND IT SUCKS. i dont think i catch feelings easily. i dont get butterflies over people easily. im not an openly sexual person.
like. am i being unfair by continuing this friendship? snow doesnt know how he feels about us. idek if its worth telling but im gonna wait till more time passes and see how things go. would him hanging out with us make him feel better?? would it be too weird? he already doesnt like the idea of snow so how would he be in a room with them.
i wanna fast fwd to friday so i can tell my bestie about it and then fast fwd to sunday so i can see him. he is still not back to his usual self when we talk on snap. he tries to save serious confrontations for in person bc he sounds angry thru text so even tho itll make me nervous, i still wanna work this out so it doesnt ruin our relationship.
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Have you had any experience of love bombing before? I’m trying to figure out if I’m experiencing it or it’s just me thinking too much into it haha.
Atm it’s kind of like I’ve only been on one date but im constantly told how amazing I am, how I’m the most ‘beautiful’ and also planning for me to come everywhere even way into the future and for friends weddings + 1 etc but again we have literally been on one date and it all feels a little much?
OKAY - thank you so much for your patience, anon.
1. You're definitely not overacting 😊😊
I researched "love bombing" and everything in between and OMG 😰 I feel like I might have love bomb a few times this year/recently and I'm totally stopping now 😞 — last thing I want to be is too much for someone by showing my affection or love to them, especially if it's unwanted. oof.
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As for me being love bombed? Recently, yes 😮💨😮💨 and it's not that I don't want that, there's nothing more attractive to me than someone showing me they want me EXCEPT THAT situationship was super complicated and I had to.. sigh, cut myself off. :/
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That being said, let's start with the Twitter thing: are you both following each other on Twitter? You might want to mute them? I think it hides both them and you from the feed? I'm not entirely sure though. I just muted someone to check and they disappeared but idk if they'll still be able to see me? Blocking would be the obvious answer but then again, your date will know? Idk if it's stalking because they just probably have your notifications on so they can see your tweets and would like to follow up with your tweet? However, it clearly bothers you so maybe respectfully address it or ignore their messages? It all depends. I really can see how it might be stalking but at the same time, they're probably acknowledging your presence or importance in their life?
I think maybe they're just excited or happy to be dating you? However, it's obvious that you don't quiet feel the same about them? Or maybe it's something you've never experienced before so you're a little thrown off? OR maybe you're also not one of those mushy people?? So maybe it just feels like too much? I really don't know what it could be? I think it could be love bombing but with good intentions? I would definitely address with them, especially since it's been just one date? Maybe try letting them know that although you appreciate their enthusiasm or affection, you feel a little overwhelmed by it? Perhaps, ask them to please temper themselves with that at least for now? Boundaries are good, anon 😊😊😊
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I will add this, there's only one person whom I call "the most beautiful girl out there" but now I'm worried that maybe I spoke of it without asking if it was okay to see them that way so I should refrain myself from doing so? this ask is a little eye opening to me because I got to see the perspective of a woman? 😮💨 I feel rude now.
UPDATE: they said it was OKAY - thank goodness because damn, they're the most beautiful out there 🥰😍🥰😍🥰🥴🥰🥰
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Point is, there's nothing more hot or attractive then when the affection or interest in each other is mutual so I think that's something you need to self reflect on and then address with your date. Either way, I'm sure you'll figure it out and things will be okay 😊😊
thank you so much the ask, anon. This was such an interesting topic to answer?? I hope I helped in any small way 😊😊😊
Best of luck!!
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I have a lengthy rant (sorry lol) and really need some advice. Theres this guy who I was close with that I liked. He didn’t know I did and I use to pretend i didn’t… I wasn’t sure if he liked me too but he use to show all the signs that he did. We both agreed to a friends with benefits dynamic and I told him how I didn’t want any feelings or commitment involved which he said ok to. But he ended up admitting to me later on that he liked me wayyy before we started our situationship (which I kinda figured) I never told him that I liked him too but instead told him that I didn’t like him in that way and maybe we should just go back to being strictly friends. We never went to the extent of having sex but did everything else under it. And he was my first for it all which he knows because before our situationship I told him that I was a virgin. Never dated, never gave/receive oral, never had sex. And so our first time was making out and me getting off on his lap and each time it gradually increased to us giving/receiving oral. (sorry for the details lol) And each time he would teach/guide me through it. I know he has a lot of past experience and I know he doesn’t have the best track record in relationships (always cheating) but I didn’t really mind cause in my head, I wasn’t gonna want to actually date the man. Anyways, we also work together and go to college together. So I’ll see him occasionally at school but always at work. And he started to call out more to avoid me and take different routes to not me on campus. I confronted him and he said he just wanted to respect my feelings and how he thinks he’s getting too attached to me and likes me more than before so he thought giving me some space would help since I didn’t want that. Then about a week later he ends up moving to another state for school. We were talking/texting the whole time until he landed. He ignored my text so I never bothered reaching out after (it’s been almost 2wks now) and I just found out from a friend of his that the entire time this happened HE WAS DATING ANOTHER GIRL!! So now idk how to feel. I can’t be mad because I said I didn’t want a relationship even tho I liked him but I can’t help but feel like he used me… Even though we both consensually made that choice, knowing he had a gf the entire time makes me feel like I was being used for sex but it’s so hypocritical for me to think that way since I told him that’s all I wanted… Am I wrong for what I did? And do I really have a good enough reason to be upset/hurt? I talked with my friends about it and they all keep saying how he shouldn’t have lied but he technically didn’t “use me” and maybe they’re right but it’s kinda how it feels. Like just shitty. And why pretend to like me?? yk
Oh my god :( :(
Baby, I'm so sorry this happened. I think this sort of thing is just SO TRICKY. Because even tho he had a girlfriend it doesn't mean he didn't like you. He lied to you, though, and that just makes him a super shitty person for doing that to you. I'm glad you didn't have sex with him, though!
I've been in a situation where I was the "other woman" too. Only I slept with the guy and we started getting serious (well I thought we were getting serious lol). I had no idea he was seeing a chick he was ENGAGED TO and wound up marrying after ghosting me. I dated the guy for MONTHS. I slept at his house and his roommate never said a damn thing to me (stupid guy code bullshit probably). I would wake up early and start coffee and walk his dog, have conversations with his roommate... And he acted like he was falling in love with me. He was super romantic and would say super cheesy shit to make me laugh but he'd be like "i'm serious. that's how i feel about you." and of course that ish worked on me at the time... anyway one day he just stopped calling, texting and totally ghosted me. A year later I learned he was seeing a woman the whole time he was with me and I only found out because a mutual friend was invited to their wedding 😂
SO... I'm telling you all this to say I know how it feels. You dodged a bullet that he left the state and now you can move on. He probably did like you but it's not worth it to dwell on that because he's a cheater - he even had that reputation so... yeah. You dodged a huge bullet there.
You didn't do anything wrong hon. You had no idea! That's how I felt about the guy who lied to me for months at first but then I realized that I was enjoying a relationship with someone and that's the end of that. What he was doing was his issue. Not mine. I had fun with him while it lasted but now I know the warning signs to look out for and you do too. Don't feel bad and don't worry about what his intentions were. He's a loser and you get to sigh a huge breath of relief knowing he's gone for good and that you didn't sleep with him.
Just give it some time, my love. You'll feel better soon. xoxo
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elle!! hi! can i ask some advice? i have been in what i dont know how to describe other than a "committed situation-ship" for a little over a year now (#embarrassing). like we are exclusive and together and say "i love you" and do everything together, hang out 5-6x a week, and go on dates and kiss (ew), etc etc we just have chosen rn not to put labels on it or define it or admit we are in a relationship basically bc we are coworkers and this will probably all fall apart the second we leave our shitty job and i guess we figure this will hurt less, if we don't have to "break up"?? (i asked for us to not define it for like 10 months but now i feel stupid about it and want to define it and he doesn't but that's a different story). we kind of just planned to have a fun little fling and then unfortunately realized we really care for each other for real and that was not the plan and what to do now!! my mom thinks im delusional for believing him when he says he loves me. and i guess typing it out now it does seem delusional, to ever believe he'll want to commit in the future. ........ok sorry i am getting WAY off track, because i literally just wanted to ask what you thought about valentine's day?? and would it be bad to hope for and want him to buy me flowers? he has never bought me flowers before and i know it's maybe an outdated thing and maybe it's not his style but sometimes a girl just wants to feel romanced you know???? but i guess because he is technically not my boyfriend, i often feel out of line asking for "more" or asking for relationship stuff. like pls buy me flowers, pls call me more, pls be more affectionate rn etc etc. idk why im so stressed about valentine's day when i truly never thought i would be that girl!!! but im worried if he doesn't even think about it then we are doomed or something idk idk!!! sorry this is so long!!!!!!! ily!!!! 💛
hey!! i’m so so sorry i didn’t respond to this until now!!
so there’s a lot of layers in this- but i think if it comes down to the fact that you love each other it’s all about communication. my best friend was in a situationship like this for a while where he wouldn’t say they she was his girlfriend (i’ll send you the list of alt names we came up with it’s hilarious honestly,) and when they finally talked about it and she expressed what she truly thought between the two of them so many lines were unblurred and it all came together. they ended up moving cross country together when her fear of moving without him was what was holding them back.
i don’t think there’s ANYTHING wrong with wanting more. even if neither of you want to label it, it’s what you expect and how you would like to be treated so it’s in no way out of line to ask for more. i would tell him you want to do something for valentine’s day- maybe sprinkle in the flowers and see how he responds.
the worst that can happen is he says no. and yes, that’s awful and it would suck and it would hurt but you would also know!! it wouldn’t be haunting you or looming in the future you’d know! and then you can respond however your heart desires!!
if he loves you i don’t think there’s anything to worry about- i’d try my hardest to put the work part aside bc it’s a bside issue in the long run!!
if you feel that strongly about it it’s worth it- your feelings in this are totally valid and deserve to be felt and paid attention to!!
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ok I wasn’t gonna say anything but I can’t stop thinking about it now. last night my coworker, who I also consider a friend, his gf came in and I’ve been trying to befriend her cause I want her to like me. we’re all 3 aries 🥴 anyway, I’m usually painfully awkward with her no matter how hard I try cause I can get bad social anxiety with people I don’t know well and I’ve realized I lean heavily on people pleasing tendencies so I can feel crushed if someone doesn’t like me even if I don’t know them or like them 🙄 anyway, I thought for once we were having a good conversation and it was flowing. I complimented her nails and then we talked about nails for a long time. I sent her a picture of these vitamins I use. we’ve given each other book recommendations. it had been really slow for the last couple of hours with just her and another regular in there. all I had left to do was clean. it was bout 30 minutes til close and I was sure no one else would come in. I went in the back to sweep real quick and she ordered some food. just a little snack, which I had no problem making. I even went to slice fresh cucumbers for her. then when I came back out this annoying girl that’s a regular came in and everyone started squealing. and I was thinking oh great. I sat her food down in front of her and she acknowledged it but didn’t thank me. so I was like oh. that just told me A LOT. ok so she’s being fake nice to me for my coworker’s sake. cool. got it. will no longer bother her with my chit chat when she comes to visit him. I really thought she seemed nice but things got awkward when she realized I’m older than her and not younger????? lmfao. anyway, her and this annoying girl started talking like besties and then that girl ordered 4 dishes. 30 minutes before close. she also brought two trashy ass behaving men in with her. so now I’m pissed. I had my music playing loudly in kitchen cause that’s how I usually passive aggressively signal to customers that kitchen is about to close. I brought all the food out to annoying girl and she was polite & thanked me. then an order for like 3 big dishes rang in but they were all spelled wrong & I was like wtf and walked back out to the coworker I’ve been having a weird situationship with and both his brothers and another guy who works with us all hanging out at the bar. so now there’s like 10 people in the dining room being rambunctious af bout 10-15 minutes before close and the shelf we’ve been asking to be fixed for months just collapsed for the 100th time so I started getting pissed off and didn’t even talk to him. all I said was hi & bye and you could tell I was upset. after I was off I went to the dive bar behind us to play pool with some of the girls I work with and that coworker’s gf was at the bar the moment I walked in and I said hi :) really nicely and then later when he got there they were being weird in a corner by themselves. I was going to say bye as we were walking out but he just looked at me then looked away. I was like damn. is she mad I went to grab him extra sour cream for his lunch earlier or? I do little favors like that for everyone I work with. idk I was just trying to figure out what it is I did but maybe she’s just one of those girls that sees competition in every other woman idk. but anyway I’ll know not to waste my efforts anymore bc I really don’t respect people who can’t at least thank their server when they drop them food. that’s a huge red flag to me especially considering she also works in a restaurant.
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Last week my bf and I found out that one of our friends has been talking "seriously" to another friend's ex crush and it kinda shattered my faith in him like not only is this girl barely 18 (?? I think) but she was also the root of some huge drama that happened last year. She started secretly texting our friend and he told our other friend who then stopped talking to her and moved on. He was super broken and disappointed though. And a few months ago she apparently texted him again, this time he didn't tell our other friend, and now they have like a Thing?? And he already said he's been thinking about how to tell friend number 2 about what's been going on, but he still hasn't done it, and their Thingationship is just naturally progressing, like he's been tentatively telling me and my bf about some of their inside jokes or things they tell each other, and I'm like ?? Bruh what the hell are you doing lol. My bf apparently told him that his secret situationship is a bad idea and really unfair to our friend as well who suffered terribly after his friendship breakup last year. And he just agreed and that was it. But nothing changed, so we just figured he's enjoying the attention and connection with a girl which has been so rare for him, but I'm like... does the world end and begin with this one girl who's too young for pretty much everyone in our friend group?Just cause she made the silly decision to text you again doesn't mean you have to disregard any feelings you have for one of your best friends... Not to mention this wouldn't even be the first time he has a Thing with a close friend's ex girlfriend or crush 🙄 Like idk I know they're both single and there never really was anything beyond a simple friendship between this girl and friend number 2, but what do you even get out of a potentially failed talking stage that you have to hide from your close friend...? Idk this thing really shifted my perception of him, I noticed he was still following this girl on insta but I thought it was just a coincidence that they still follow each other after the failed attempt at integrating her into our friend group last year.
#later update: it turns out that my bf had actually had a serious talk with our friend about this and the friend said he would handle it#THEN nothing happened again. and he was still talking to her just not telling us/my bf about it LMAO#like he definitely became more lowkey when he saw that we didn't react well to the news he'd broken to us; he probably expected us to congr#tulate him or something lol. and then later he texted my bf to tell him 'she broke up with me hope ur happy' like bro... once again u were#investing ur energy and emotions into the wrong thingationship and now when it inevitably goes badly ur pouring ur frustration#into ur closest friend? who literally told u it was a bad idea from the start? 😩#so my bf patiently explained to him all the hurt that could have potentially been caused by this bizarre talking stage evolving into#something more serious and that he was just wasting his time and emotions AGAIN. and maybe putting his friendship w our other friend#in danger. but he was still frustrated and freshly hurt so his moodiness persisted but then eventually he recovered#and then in the same week he also quit his job and got sick so he was still a bit under the weather#anyway we've been spending time with him and stuff#just updating cuz i didn't even know my bf had talked to him at length abt it and he showed me screenshots. and my friend was apparently#mad that my bf was bringing up our other friend and his old crush on his girlie as if that was not even the entire point?#like ur only chance at having a meaningful relationship is by being a rebound for your friend's failed relationships? plus you KNEW this#wasn't meant to be and that it was gonna deteriorate. and she ended up being the one who broke it off.
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lol sorry ANOTHER VENT because the COMEDIC timing men have like i swear sometimes men have this knack of just coming in and fucking shit up at the worst time possible. please ignore me LMAO i just need to scream into the void because i'm so mad!!!!
like you have got to be KIDDING ME. i have a tellonym because it's what the cool kids on ffxiv twitter are doing. i made it with the intention of people sending me questions about cherry, but no one does that so i just gave up and stopped posting about having it. i don't publicly post my answers anymore, but i still answer them in the app when i'm bored, as long as they're not too personal, because most of the questions are from bots. i didn't even realize the ex-situationship knew i had one, because he's barely on his main twitter anymore lmao and i just never followed his gpose twitter bc idk i didn't wanna overstep bc i noticed he made it during a time he wasn't... clueing me into his life anymore even tho we were still... a thing. so out of respect for him, i just left it alone and muted the account so that i wouldn't see it pop up on my feed, because i found out about it to begin with bc a mutual of mine had retweeted a collab gpose they'd done with him.
ANYWAYS. i haven't spoken to him since the 17th bc he stopped answering me and i just felt so annoying and he's been going through it so i figured he'd talk when he was ready, but then the days kept going by, and i wanted to reach out again, but then i stopped myself and said, no, you've done enough of that. all you do is reach out. all you do is give and give and give and you never get. cut that shit out.
so, i haven't.
but i'm so pissed off because you went the MOST roundabout way possible to contact me when you could 1) message me on discord (most convenient) 2) message me on snapchat 3) or even TEXT me because you have my number.
how dare you "even if we can't be together" you are the only thing standing in between that, because i've expressed to you over and over my willingness and my desire to be with you and move forward and be happy with you, and that i'd be willing to wait for you no matter how long it took, and that i'd be happy to move at your pace, but i started to change my feelings on that when i realized how torn up you were over some other girl you barely knew compared to me, how you lied to me, how you went and ruined yourself over someone who treated you like garbage, when i've sat here even after all this time like a stupid idiot pining over your ass and still loving you and just, being so stupidly faithful to someone who's chasing any other girl but the one he said he was in love with for over a year.
you were the one who said i love you first. you asked me for permission to say it first. you were the one who brought up living together all the time. you were the one who started asking about pets and just one child. all of this was your idea, not mine, because i never wanted to overstep and make you feel uncomfortable when i knew you weren't rushing or ready for something official. but you discarded me so quickly for some literal flavor of the month who even your friends think is crazy manipulative. like.
don't you dare say "i will do anything for you if it makes you happy" because i've asked for just a few things: just to spend time with you and chat with you, and the one thing i really want from you, i'll never ask for because i'm not going to make you feel cornered or rope you into a relationship that you don't want. i just. how DARE you come swooping in the moment i decided that i didn't want to keep doing this anymore and keep hurting myself and being sad over you. it's been over three months of this and i cannot keep doing this to myself. i'm so miserable all the time. i have sat here and cried and cried so much and so hard over you for so long, and it hurt so badly that i felt like i could die because it was just so excruciating to feel that hurt. like a normal person's emotions are at a 10 and i'm at 1000 like it hurt. so. much. i cried every day for almost 2 months straight like i was not. okay. and finally, one day i stopped. i was trying to go on, while still holding out hope, but i'm tired of it now. i can't do that again. i can't put myself through that again.
the timing of this is just so. funny to me. it's just. laughable. seriously. the second i tell myself that i give up, that i'm not going to try anymore, that if we never speak again, "oh well." i cannot believe this lol. why is it always when you're drunk too. people say that people are the most honest when they're drunk, but. if you can't say this shit to me when you're sober, then. what's the point. i'm not. putting myself through this anymore. i'm done.
you have shut me out for so long. you don't let me in. why should i lean on you and let you in when you've shown me i can't even rely on that, because when i've asked you if i could talk to you and vent to you about things, you just. leave me hanging and i don't feel better, ever. which makes me feel even more annoying and like i'm too much, and i don't want to put that burden on ppl and u say i'm not one, but i just. feel like one, especially when you just. don't say anything at all. like im not asking for u to process my feelings and like talk in depth about it but like. a little acknowledgement goes a long way for someone like me. idk. it's so stupid. it's so so so stupid and i'm just done. i've spent the past 2 weeks trying to get over myself and move on and then you just come in like this. on TELLONYM of all things. and then just. god.
#IM SO SORRY LOL.#i thought i was gonna shut up with that last post but something literally JUST came up and it's insane to me#vent -#negative -#long post#just ignore me lmfao#i just needed to YELL#ooc.#tbd.
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what happened between you and your ex?
Idk you just seemed obsessed (/pos, /nsrs) over him and would constantly gush about him (assuming this is your former best friend)?
again totally /nf because it’s totally none of my business but I found it kinda jarring how you went from all loving to saying he manipulated you! mwah take care of yourself
yea yea feel free to ask. i dont mind sharing
to start, i was obsessed and i loved him and i would gush over him because i was blissfuly unaware. at the time i did not know he was homophobic, transphobic and anti-furry and he wasn't about to reveal himself as such cause he obviously knew where my views were on those topics (and didnt care) and was having a great time manipulating me. he only started saying stuff after he had lost interest in me and that's what made me lose interest in him. /gen /srs
we used to formerly be best friends and he used to talk to me every day and all i knew about him basically was that he was a really fun guy who was rlly into art (like we would both talk about how we hated nfts and i assumed he was ok with furries. i think he knew i drew furries too so we were okay)
though i wasnt aware at the time he would manipulate me for his own benefit in ways i rlly didnt realize; he would do something flirty with me and brag about it to his friends (in front of me) and i didnt know how to process and understand it and i assumed that he liked me, because he was very flirty around me and he did things that would make me assume that he really liked me. we were basically in a situationship so i consider him my ex even though i never announced it (my homophobic parents dont believe in relationships before college! shocker. so that would have gotten me in massive trouble.)
he figured me out easy. he would do really sweet and flirty things and a lot of physical touch, he would text me and ask how i was doing, i could vent to him and he would vent to me and he would take the time to sit down with me and help me or talk with me. since forever nobody really cared about because i was the social outcast and since there were only 3 girls, everybody flocked around my 2 friends because they were pretty and they were overtly "girly" (and remember this is a christian community. though most of my friends are very respectful, i'm an alt tomboy so you can see how this goes) and my ex gravitated towards talking with me instead of them. and i don't get social cues and i couldn't figure out he was manipulating me the entire time
so we were in the same fandoms, talked about lotr and art and animation a lot. i thought we shared the same views on lgbtq and furries and everything cause there were times he would talk about his lgbtq+ friends and defend them and he was planning to be apart of the twitter art community when he could get a tablet
well he entered his last year of middle school (1 year younger than me) and more and more stuff started to happen. he would ignore me, he would kind of push me out of his life, then he said stuff that really made me raise an eyebrow and i completely lost feelings for him. basically i found out over time he was a bigoted manipulator who played a part to kind of befriend me and use me and make me happy until he got bored of me. literally after i started to finally process this, we had a fight cause he said something nasty about me and that fight basically announced i was done with him.
and to top it off, he started going to my cousin and doing the same thing he did to me. talking about her favorite topics, finding common ground, acting all flirty with her. he lost interest quick when he found out she didn't feel that way about him and now he's just kind of dormant. i still see him every week and i'm good friends with his brother (and his entire family). he basically ignores me
my parents know about this to an extent. i told them we liked each other and he would text me but nothing about flirting or physical touch or any of that. i also told them he manipulated me but they refuse to believe me and instead they believe him! shocker
so yeah. thats what happened
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week sixty-four
this week. woah. it was......... a lot.
well, to start off... i have a crush on v. i figured this out on monday and since then its gotten so severe lol. monday to friday was spent thinking ab him and also apparently not hiding it very well from l. ill come back to this later but this entire chapter will for sure be ab him and also in sm detail.
ive kind of talked a lot ab him and just my “new friends” in general a lot w l and my mom. i think my mom even has suspicions that i like either d or v (bc i talk ab them the most prob).
i started spamming n, s and t and also i, m and t ab him. i wont be able to cover what i told them all individually but n def received the most detailed info yet only one pic (WHICH WAS A HORRIBLY EMBARRASSING ONE I TOOK ON BEREAL WHEN IT CUT EVERYONE OUT AND THEIR POSES SO IT WAS JUST HIM NOT POSING AAAAA I FEEL LIKE A MOM WHO TAKES PICS OF HER KIDS WO CONSENT TT). i talked A LOT w s ab him too and w t i just spammed quickly on monday/tuesday i think, i cant bother checking. when i told i, m and t they immediately asked for a pic and i was scared theyd bully me lol but they said hes solid WOO! s approved of him too, saying the nail polish and his guitar made him seem very much like my type.
ill give u all who might be reading this a lil description of his pros. i would say a reminder to future me as well but yk maybe we end up together so :* heres what weve got so far:
- hes taller than me.
- has a niiiiiice voice.
- nice sense of style. its like basic as in plain colors (pretty much only black, hell wear white sweaters or super dark colors). it looks so good.
- hes a metalhead (+ we have two bands in common, ghost and polyphia).
- piercingssss!
- hes so talented, like he can play guitar, drums AND piano flawlessly.
- hes funny.
now to his cons: he’s not fully single. so. um. idk if theyre dating or in a situationship or just talking but its something for sureeee.
i dont ever want to like, break them up on purpose or like make moves on him while theyre talking bc im not a fucking douchebag. it is quite sad seeing them together though. i cant help but dislike the girl hes w a bit even though i dont want to, shes really cool and gorgeous and nice im just so O_o
on wednesday we had band class and i was MESMERIZED. he had a concert that same day so he was dressed up in a navy button-up, black jeans cuffed over a black pair of chelsea boots. i had to leave a couple times during practice bc i had to practice harmonies w the singers and i remember literally feeling sad ab not being able to stare at him playing the piano so perfectly.
in the evening i went out to the bar for the weekly music quiz they do. i went w a, c and v at first but later on d and p joined (not dan and phil sadly). i was super awkward lol but it was my first time hanging out w just them and it felt so,,,, new to me. im glad i did it though, ig? i got to see him even if it was awkward. also, i think d has my old backpack that i left to a thrift shop. its a floral pattern w black faux leather details and gold buttons. its quite cute and it fits him really well.
i did eventually warm up a bit but nothing crazy.
i was already comfy around c but after wednesday, i was also comfy around d. he was so nice that i even questioned if i liked him as well but turns out i was probably really desperate TT i tend to never be interested in ANYONE when i like someone and thats really obvious now. even though my chances w v r low, i still deleted all my dating apps and stuff bc i dont have the desire to go on them as of rn.
on friday i had been CRAVING a party to go to all day. i was just waiting for someone to send a message saying “yo, party at vs place!”. we usually party at his place. i literally ranted to my mom ab how bad i was hoping for someone to throw a party and this wasnt even just bc of getting to see v but i was genuinely so socially starved. finally, around 19:30 id say, someone sends a message in the class gc telling everyone ab a party at his place. i immediately message l begging for them to come w me and even saying if they dont, ill go either way bc i want to go so bad. they end up declining and i go to the party myself. i get ready in a few minutes, just fixing my day-old makeup and eating and drinking water and stuff so i wont throw up the second i drink alcohol. i was so quick and i was walking w such speed around the house so i think my mom has probably started to connect the dots now that theres someone i like bc im never that excited ever. i leave along w my mom who took the dog out for a walk. since v lives so nearby she walked w me pretty much the entire way.
id never usually be this confident but i had been talking w s the entire day and she hyped me up SO much. i actually love her sm for that. i arrive there, v throws down his keys from the balcony, i catch them and go up to his apartment. i was a tad bit quiet in the beginning but i really tried to force myself to just relax and look cool and i did after a little while. we blasted metal and one of the first things they did was that everyone of them, c, d and v, went out for a smoke so i joined in even though i dont smoke but i enjoyed the lil passive smoking sesh on the tiny balcony, stuck behind d and v.
(bereal just went off, vs so cute).
anyways, i quite quickly felt more relaxed, i kinda forced myself to sit more,, relaxed and stop fidgeting and i got more included in the convo by queueing songs to play. i first asked v to queue kingslayer by bmth and babymetal and he was super excited ab it so i was so glad he liked it. we listened to it on a party a whileeee ago and i remember being so excited ab the fact that he liked that song too. a had arrived by now and hes v good to have there in that sense that he will make me join in the convo somehow if i havent talked in a while. he made me queue another song and i queued drowning lessons by mcr. i was so caught by surprise and i always get so shit at using tech shit and the internet in front of ppl, idk why, so v started guiding me on what buttons to press TT i hadnt thought of drowning lessons in the first place actually but i just kind of naturally went w mcr for some reason and then ended up choosing my fav song by them. we listened to it and v was like “DID HE JUST VOICE BREAK???” and i was like “oh, maybe? i mean its their first album so the mixing and recording might be a bit shit” and he replayed the part and was like “THERE IS A VOICE BREAK!” and c started explaining to him in distress that its just how u sing punk TT after a while v was like “its still going? how long is it?” and checked and it was right before the outro and i was like “waittt, we havent gotten to the best part yet!” and he leaves it and the breakdown comes and he does a stankface and just looks at me like “oh, a breakdown ending, hell yeah!” and i was so happy haha
last song i queue is taking you out by passcode. as i was typing it v read out what i was typing and kept guessing songs, heh, it was so cute. he asked me ab the band and stuff and then said like “oh, she growls really well for a woman” and the proceeds to elaborate in distress that he didnt mean it in a misogynistic women-cant-growl type of way but in a its-genuinely-harder-for-a-woman-to-do-metal-growls. it was quite cute, he tends to do that a lot, like overexplaining things so ppl dont think hes being a dickhead even though he says very normal things TT its so cute and it really shows that he cares.
i mentioned that i was ab to start learning growling w my vocal teacher and how she also said she wants to get the singer of finntroll to come and teach growling to me (WHICH IS SO COOL???). v was like “oh my god, im also ab to practice growling w my vocal teacher” and then when i told him ab the singer of finntroll thing he got so excited and just “what??? for real??? thats so cool???” and proceeds to be like “omg, when ur w him tell him uve got a friend who wants to have a lesson w him too” and c joins in and says the same. i felt so cool in that moment haha
me, c and d went out to go meet the ppl from school who had been touring all week. before we left i went to pee and literally on the toilet i was smiling sm bc i felt so comfy and happy and all that in that moment like, i was talking to him??? and he was talking back???? and he smiled???? he wanted to talk to me????? i did a lil happy jump sesh after i washed my hands. then otw to school, me, c and d were jumping around and running and yelling. them bc they were drunk, me bc i was so excited abt finally feeling comfy w them + obviously getting to talk to v successfully after crushing so hard on him the past week. i was so happy too bc i finally felt like i kind of belong. i felt for the first time true that like “oh my god, they dont hate me!”. so while meeting the ppl at school i was sooooo happy and like greeting everyone and just smiling and feeling so cool and included and aaaaaaa i was so happy i cant even explain it. c and d r the coolest ppl ever!!!
we went back w s + we left d behind for a bit, sorry d!! now this was when i was truly connecting the dots between s and v. partypooper. i did tag along to the bar w all of them afterwards though. i just went by my place to eat something and get my id.
i arrived to the bar and i sat down next to c at first but later moved next to d so i could sit on the couch. me and c went to buy drinks and then d left to go smoke. there was an awkward space between me and v so i tried to subtly move closer to him and later when d came back he just sat in the spot i sat earlier so i sat between him and v.
more ppl arrived and i ended up becoming squished between d and v. NOW THIS. this changed me as a whole human being. i have been terrified of men all my life and w not specific reason bc the thing is that its not rooted in like, being scared that theyll do something, i just genuinely get more tense around men than women. this moment was so, special to me and not just bc i was squished next to v and our arms and legs were in constant touch but like, i got this kind of realization that, maybe i dont need to be nervous. like, theres nothing to worry ab. i trust d and v. theyre really nice. d i was already comfy w since wednesday and v i just that evening got comfy w. although i am touch deprived i really just,,, felt so happy, safe and relaxed in a group if people, in the middle of two men. i didnt feel the need to fidget out of nervousness and stuff. i was just, calm.
v looks over at me and asks me how drunk im planning to get. he himself says he wants to be so drunk he throws up. i jokingly reply saying i dont want to throw up. he starts showing me a scale w his hands, going down from ten and giving each level its own name so like “this is throw up drunk, this is like this and this is that...” and i end up saying i wanna get slighty above drunk and hes just like “so like a six?” and i nod. he says something along the lines of “thats cool, thats solid”.
later a girl sits next to d and begins talking w her. he starts whispering w v over my lap and i just sit there laughing awkwardly, hoping someone would notice and laugh w me as well. they dont talk for too long but they do this again later and talk for like two minutes straight over my lap and i just use this time to admire vs back and his ear piercings. d apologises and i chuckle and tell him its fine and that i didnt mind (i really did not bc i am truly so touch-starved). d later tells me ab this girl and bc of the music he has to really be close to my ear and talk w me. we talk like that for a while and he says hes glad i understand his situation. long story short, this girl had apparently been trying to flirt w him even though he has a girlfriend. i think he handled the situation really well.
v once again looks over at me, this time as were both kind of resting against the booth, bodies facing each other. he just asked how i was feeling today but it felt so intimate and i was savoring the conversation and eye contact as much as i could. i told him that i was really craving social interaction today so i was really glad i could tag along w them. he acted a bit funnily so i asked him how drunk he was. he said he feels a bit sick. idk why but that convo was so :’) i am TREASURING it.
him and s decided to leave, making almost everyone else leave. i stayed for a bit w a and c and some other unknown ppl but decided to leave after a bit. while me, a and c went out when they went to smoke i saw a bunch of ppl from both elementary and middle school. d, l, n and t. i was kind of hoping one of them wouldve noticed me earlier while i was w v and all the others so they could be like “omg shes sitting next to two guys, i wonder if shes dating anyone of them” or like “omg she has such cool friends now”.
okay, thats all on friday. saturday however, i met up w l for a bit, i tell them ab my crush on v. i sit them down, hold their hands and keep eye contact.
“so on wednesday we had a conversation on tiktok and i talked ab how boy obsessed i am feeling these days, right?”
they continue looking at me, asking me if this is ab e. i dont tell them yet.
“so after i said that, u said ‘well as long as its not d or v bc ik theyre the only friends we have but i assure u there r better alternatives’”
they begin staring at me in shock and yell:
“l! not them, omg! which one is it- no, wait. let me guess... d?”
i look at them for a bit before replying: “its not d.”
“ITS V? L, NO U CANT!” and they kick me as im laughing so hard im falling of the bed.
“IT IS! i have a fucking crush on v!”
we talk ab this for a while and i tell them ab friday and all that and it was sm fun lol
after me and l ahd hung out i went out to a proper party held at school. like dancing-beer-pong-bar kind of party. i met d and some others outside of the enterance and say hi. i then go inside and immediately meet c and c. they bring me to the dance floor and shows me where all the drinks r and everything. i see v playing beer pong. i dont like dancing at all so i join for a bit but leave soon enough. i sit and talk w a for a while. when v sat down on the same couch i was in i told a who was sitting on the other side that she could sit down on the couch properly instead of just sitting on the armrest and so she did and my evil plan worked, i got to move even closer to v. after a while it was finally our turn to play beer pong, we played w just water though. it was my first time playing and i was in the same team as a. she was so good? we played again v and two others. it was so humilating to play against v but my team won thanks to a. she was really awesome. during our last cup, v tried distracting me by hovering his hands over the cup but it literallyt made me aim better bc i could look at his hands TT he only distracted me w his hands and never a.
i left after s arrived to the party bc i got so sad seeing her w v lol but i was overwhelmed by the party anyways lol
sotw: bring me the horizon - alligator blood
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kinda have feelings for him after he I wasnt weird about me being in little space but I'm not even sure he knew I was, we jut cuddled. but that might just have been trauma bonding.
Also he can't kiss, like boy close your mouth and stop using tongue if you dont know how. Also his beard stubble hurt my upper lip and chin like he'll and I'm glad I didn't get a rash from that.
He doesn't know shit about shit I mean what do you expect from a 17 year old with zero experience and friends that are just as childish.
anyways, I cant afford a relationship right now. my grades have to be my utmost priority at the moment and a relationship would distract me too much. almost mad at myself for starting this thing in the first place, because my grades really already have started to drop since this thing started. like how fucking stupid am I.
now I just have to figure out how to let him down easy without destroying every social connection I made in the past two months. like my one of my classes even started to be fun, because now I get along with two of the boys there bc one of them happens to be his friend with whom I also had a few interactions unrelated to the whole situationship drama because of the class trip and resulting hiking trips. but because of the fact that they are close friends im worried he won't wanna work with me in class anymore, which would be problematic. on the other hand, there are only a few months left and I'd still have my girls but that one class...
idk I'm making this way more complicated that it would have to be because of my emotional mess and unavailability because I'm still not over getting hurt in my last relationship.
but also until like two days ago, which was the last time I stayed at his place (for the fourth time already fuuuuuucc), I didn't think I could ever have feelings for him, like the spark just wasn't there despite two months of talking and meeting up, cuddling and said bad kisses that are a huge turn off at that.
anyways, I dont really get along with his personality either and there's just so much about him that I don't vibe with. like first of the cringe hormonal teenage boy blabber and screaming and drinking and what not. then also his incredibly bad posture. the fact that I've never noticed him brush his teeth before bed unless he's like really fast which would also not be a good thing. his music taste? ew. that I sleeps in sweat pants when I'm there but a pair that looks horrible on him and has a weird fabric, like the fake silk looking sporty one yk? because he doesn't wanna sleep in boxers and tshirt while I'm staying over like I'm not doing exactly that, laying there in my underwear and an oversized shirt lol. His way of talking/texting is weird too, lol. And additionally I don't really get along with his mom. she's so awkward and introverted and sorta judgy towards me, idk how to describe it, but comfortable with her is something that I am not.
in conclusion... there is a reason why I don't date younger. Its simply trash.
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The Perfect Girl
You were Frank's perfect girl, he hated how close you and Matt were, he needed to remind you who you belonged to.
Word Count: 2,060
Warnings: Minors DNI!! Smut, oral (male receiving), possessiveness, jealousy, teasing, unprotected sex (pls be safe), praising, and maybe more idk.
Likes and reblogging appreciated! Pls enjoy<3
Tonight you were blowing off some steam from the hard week you had just had. You were ready to let loose and just do what you want. Today you had decided that you were going out with your best friend Karen. As soon as you got home you started to get ready, you start blasting your playlist and you get your shower ready. You start your entire transformation, you shaved every inch of your body, you did your hair, and you put your robe on and went on the hunt to find the perfect dress. You scan your closet and that's when you found the perfect tight mini dress. You quickly put it on and admired your figure and how the dress perfectly hugged your curves. You did your makeup perfectly and you looked stunning, you were absolutely ready to have fun with your best friend tonight.
When you got to the club, your eyes start scanning for him your stomach was all over the place. You and Frank never actually ended up being anything, he was your situationship, you two were complicated and it was all because he couldn't stand to think about the fact that you could be targeted due to his line of work. So you and Frank never made it official for that reason, but that doesn't stop you from feeling nervous around him and getting butterflies every time you think about the time you did spend together. To your relief, he wasn't there but you did see Karen, you two acknowledged each other and ran to each other. You hugged her and started chatting but Karen cut you off "Come on let's take a shot!" you laughed when she said that and she passed you a shot glass, both of you cheered and drank it. You felt as the tequila started burning down your throat and you loved it. You and Karen did two or three more shots and you started feeling looser and getting tipsy. You and Karen were at the dance floor having a great time when you feel someone tap your shoulder. Your heart was beating as you turn around when you were met with a warm smile, thankfully it was just Matt. You give him a light punch and say "Omg Matt you scared me!". You could see that he chuckled and he replied "Sorry beautiful didn't mean to scare you." You liked it when he called you beautiful but it's not the same as when Frank says it, you were going to turn around to keep on dancing with Karen but you see that Foggy came with Matt and Karen and Foggy were dancing together. You turn to Matt and enjoy the fact that you would be dancing with him. You and Matt were dancing intimately, the dark lights, the music, it was making you feel things you hadn't before. Before you could even acknowledge your feelings Karen pulls you and says "Let's take another shot!!" Before you could even say anything she's already dragged you by the bar and ordered three more shots. These didn't even feel like anything anymore, no burning, nothing, you and Karen made your way back to the dance floor. You were eyeing Matt and you could tell he was waiting for you again. When your bodies met you started to feel those feelings again, it was as if you were with Frank all over again. Your eyes got momentarily distracted from Matt and that's when you saw him. Your stomach started to churn and you started to get really nervous. You excused yourself from Matt and went to the bathroom, once you got there you found a stall and started vomiting. You couldn't believe he was there, then thoughts started rushing to your head, how long had he been there? Did he see you and Matt dancing? Why does he make you this nervous? You collected yourself and you were ready to leave the club as a whole, you couldn't handle seeing Frank today.
When you were calm and collected you went outside and you were going to tell Matt that you feel sick which wasn't a complete lie. When you make your way out of the bathroom you hear a low raspy voice coming from the shadows "Where you going in such a rush sweetheart?" Your heart sunk and you knew he was right there, you turn around and bitterly reply "Why do you care?" he chuckles and says "I see you want to get back to Matt that bad huh?" you scoff at his reply and say "Maybe I do" he seems a little shocked by your answer and you weren't nervous anymore you were just annoyed at him, you turn around and started to leave but as you're turned around he quickly grabs your arm and says "W-wait" you turn back around to face him and you tell him "Weren't you the one that didn't wanna be with me?" He was taken aback by your remark and you went back to the dance floor, you grabbed Matt and started dancing even more intimately knowing that Frank was watching you two. You saw a clear view of his jealousy, the way he's gripping his drink, the way his jaw is tight from him trying to suppress his anger and just his overall energy, and you were enjoying every last bit of it. After a while of dancing you excused yourself once more but this time it was to talk to Frank. You trailed your eyes on him and he followed you shortly after. You met him at the same spot as before and said "Are you gonna keep on staring at me the entire night or what Frankie?" You saw he didn't like what you said and he got closer to you, you locked eyes with him, he pushed you against the wall and he finally said "I don't like seeing another guy with my perfect girl." You got really flustered, and said "Your perfect girl?" you two were so close you started rubbing noses with him, you couldn't hold it anymore and neither could he. Your lips crashed into a soft but passionate kiss, you were melting at his warmth, your hands started to feel all of Frank and he pulled you closer to him and into his groin. You felt how hard he was already and that turned you on. You two started full-on making out at this point, and you were still a bit tipsy, the music and the ambiance were adding to how you felt. You feel Frank pull away and whisper into your ear "Let's take this somewhere else sweetheart" He takes your hand and leads you out of the bar and into his car. He opens the door for you and as you got in you realized how desperate you were and how you just wanted all of him at that moment, but you knew it would be better if you waited, you didn't want Frank to know how much you actually missed him. Once he got to the driver's seat, he leaned in and kissed you softly, you had missed Frank's gentle touch so much. He basically broke all of the laws of driving to get to his apartment quickly but you were glad he did, while he drove he kept a tight grip on your inner thigh and your panties were soaked with your arousal. Once you two arrived you rushed out of the car and you ran up to his apartment. Frank desperately jingled the keys until he finally opened the door. The both of you made it in and your desperate bodies shut the door as you two were back to making out. He started taking your dress off as you started to unbutton his shirt. You two, while still in a hot mess, made it to his bedroom, Frank's shirt completely unbuttoned, his belt lose, and you were just in your panties, and it just so happens that tonight you decided to wear your nice black lace panties. You knew this drove Frank insane and while admiring you he says "Were you ready for me baby?" you giggle softly and say "I was hoping I would see you." He makes you sit on top of him and you could feel his length, how hard he was pushing against his jeans. He was touching your waist and went all the way to your breasts placing his big hands on them, and then back down to your waist. You loved how big his hands were, and how warm they felt when touching all over your body. Then he flipped you on your back so now he's on top of you, you were aching for him, all of him, you didn't know how long you could wait. He got
off of you and took everything off,
you saw his cock spring up from his underwear, and you just wanted to suck on it. As he got closer you saw his swollen tip and the precum he had, he saw your begging eyes and you moved closer to him as he allowed you to suck on it. He was so big in your mouth you were struggling to take him all in, you felt his firm hand at the back of your neck and he was following your rhythm. After a while of pure enjoyment you felt Frank moan and move your head back softly, "Sweetheart if you keep going at this pace I'm going to cum." You got back into the bed and he got on top of you once again and finally took off your panties, he saw just how wet you were, he ran one of his thick fingers through your folds and said "You're so wet for me baby fuck" and stuck his finger in you, you weren't expecting this and moaned "Frank.." He pumped his finger in you for a little before he finally put his cock in you, you loved feeling stuffed with all of his cock. He let you get adjusted for a bit before he thrusted into you again, you were moaning softly and grabbing his arms lightly, you used them to stabilize yourself to handle him. He kept on thrusting into you and each time he did you moaned louder and louder. In a raspy tone, he said "Mm baby you take me so well" you felt the burning sensation growing in your stomach. You were clenching around his cock and he loved how tight you felt around him. He started thrusting faster into you and he freed one of his hands and used it to put pressure on your lower stomach. You felt how deep he was in you and felt how hard his thrusting was and the pressure he was putting only further emphasized it. You were feeling overwhelmed by the pleasure, only Frank could make you feel this way, and he could see how close you were to your orgasm. He started thrusting faster and with the hand that he was using to put pressure he was now using his thick thumb to start rubbing circles over your clit, You were moaning his name loudly and you heard him say "You think Matt could've made you feel like this? Huh?" and you struggled to reply "No.." the burning sensation was getting stronger and stronger bringing you to the edge. Frank then says "You're mine you know that right? Right sweet girl?" you were about to burst with how close you were but you still answered him "Yes I'm all yours baby", and as soon as you said that you hit your orgasm you heard him say "Attagirl." You were feeling so much pleasure, your cunt was soaking and throbbing and Frank kept on pounding you until you felt him moan and felt his warm seed in you. You felt Frank get sloppier with every thrust, he stopped until you felt him slide out of you and lay down next to you. Both of you were feeling euphoric and satisfied with what had just happened, you both stared at each other, and Frank gives you a soft smile, he pulls you in closer to him and you wrap an arm around his broad chest.
He kisses your forehead and says "Ready for round two?"
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