when my mom was a teenager, she used to listen to cyndi lauper's time after time with her sister. she played it for my dad on their first date, put the CD in his shitty car and sang along. she accidentally left it there, but she bought a new one so he could keep it. years after their divorce, my mom sings time after time as a lullaby to help me sleep. i still hear it in her voice easier than i can remember the actual recording. and when my relationship with her was at its worst, my dad played the CD she gave him all those years ago on his little stereo. sometimes people stop loving each other. but i don't think the love ever really leaves.

I haven't finished Kotor games yet but something I appreciate about them is that they feel so bleak. Maybe it's the old visuals or the music or the way they make my computer cry despite being old as balls. But they feel like the end, like the final gasping, heaves after a crying spell, like sweeping up the glass you knocked by accident while having a breakdown. The dust has settled and you are so much fucking worse for it.

i'm thinking abt if/once shane becomes more involved in jas's life (trying to do better by her & stuff) that at events her & vincent will tire themselves out & shane will pick jas up (she's sleeping or almost asleep) & make eye contact with jodi or kent holding a sleepy vincent & it's just. silent understanding.

does j x uzi have a ship name like how n x uzi is biscuitbites and how v x uzi is violetviolence or is it just juzi

we need to talk more about the blue eyed epidemic among aphmau characters. there are too many characters that absolutely should not have had blue eyes

idc what anyone says when a kid reveals an interest to me that i have any knowledge of at all, i act like i love that fuckin thing, like i’ve never loved anything more even if i hate that thing and maybe that’s dishonest of me but the point isn’t to fake interest it’s to model exuberance and joy for the things ur into. i want to give kids permission to be their authentic selves and to show them that it feels good to show your love of something, and that people will still like them—hell, maybe even like them more—if they just embrace who they are and what they like. that even adults like the things they like, and there’s nothing cringey or wrong about it. idk. i just feel like this is so important, for teenagers especially. they’re starting to be who they are and most of the time they’re scared of it and don’t know how to just Be and if there’s anything i’m good at, it’s Being, and i want to show them the joy of what it means to Be and to be so comfortable in ur identity that u genuinely don’t care if others mock u bc the Joy of Being is so complete.

i hate how when they make girl characters “the smart ones” and make the male and snobby female characters dumb, people completely misdirect their social justice in saying that “this is harmful to men!!” when it’s ACTUALLY pushing a narrative that women need to be smart to actually be worth something to the show.

that intelligence is the measure to how useful a female character is, and male characters can be at any intellect and be just as, if not more useful.

when are we gonna talk abt him. let us discuss please i need to speak about him

kingohger wasnt my thing at times but im gonna miss it...... while im looking forward to a sentai thats a bit more focused (and not filmed in toei's LED prison) i hope that sentai can still try to tell broader stories and incorporate more experiences for its characters

Is it bad if I ask you question and your opinion? I really like your blog and the way you write all the 18+ stories of different characters from different anime’s but recently a friend pointed it out to me that I’m in my 20s reading 18+ stories of characters that are technically younger than me. At first, I tried to say that they are fictional but yet I can’t help but find myself overthinking this.

You don’t have to answer this if it makes you feel uncomfortable.

other people have answered the better and more concisely than i am about to do but here is my take

in the case of tokyo revengers and haikyuu you could make the argument that both have canon timeskips in which the characters are all in their 20's. you could take the argument that technically the characters are born earlier than you were (assuming you're in your early/mid 20's) – if they were real, they'd be older than you. you could say that they're fictional characters and imagining them aged up is not only a pretty normal thing but ultimately harmless and bothering no one.

and while i do have the occasional older fic where the characters are third years, the majority of my fics are written with the characters as adults of unspecified ages - meaning if you're 21 you can read them as 21 year olds or if you're in your mid 30's same thing

or ig if you like an age gap you can pretend they're 35 and the reader's 22, whatever floats your boat.

but again, they're fake, they don't exist, imaging them as adults or yakuza or love sick serial killers and terrible people all round has absolutely no impact on anyone but you and ur brain :))

and if your friend's trying to make you feel shitty over smt you enjoy, screw em.

i like that you guys call me (mr) o(')whora its funny like back in my old acc you called me mr. pjcb or something like that lmao like hell yeah just slap mister onto my name

ashe could not have known any of the lions prior to the academy with the way his story progressed

the rest of them - except dedue - all came from relatively privileged backgrounds. not easy, necessarily, but privileged. ashe absolutely did not, which already separates him. now add in his life experiences. that’s another layer of separation. his story is about him overcoming that separation and growing into his dream of becoming a knight and dealing with privileged people. if he had known any of them prior to that, the story wouldn’t have been able to progress in the same way. ashe was not prepared to be a noble, he was not trained to handle nobles, and as such he treated dimitri like the king but the nobles almost like how freshmen treat upperclassmen.

also, if he had known the lions, lonatos chapter wouldn’t have hit him that hard because he would have had a support system in place. part of why he suffered as much as he did was because that last bit of familiarity in such an unfamiliar situation was ripped away from him so quickly. he would not have grown from it in the same way if he had support from people who had known them for more than like 2 months

Gonna be real with you it’s definitely not enough for folks who aren’t content with just a taste. Since we see mostly negatives of their past, I’m starting to see more takes that their relationship was toxic in a way that would be difficult to fix in modern day. To the point where it’d probably be better if they just stay friends who need to keep their distance. And it’s hard to dispute that with the content that we’ve got so far.

takes like that have been coming out of the woodworks since before s4 so....and i dont think any of the content in s4 we got suggests their relationship was toxic ?? if you arent content with just a taste (even if its technically more than a taste, s4 is FULL of shadowpeach) then im not sure what to tell you.

they have a big argument as all relationships have, but they still care for each other and a relationship between the two is repairable in the modern day. the negatives we see in terms of the whole show are from macaques unreliable narrating and that big argument, all other negatives of their past werent centered around their relationship. (i.e. the havoc in heaven) much of their past flashbacks and wukongs memories of macaque are positive so im not sure...where people would get that theyre toxic from.

idk man, lmk isnt meant to be about shadowpeach so i feel like if we get another season focused on their past, it would feel like too much. the whole point was for them to get out of the past and move forward, create something like what they had before but in a different form.

i fell for eddie different. it wasn't a flash, it wasn't a strike of lightning, it wasn't an immediate gut feeling telling me that he was the one as soon as i saw him. he was just there. like he had always been there. and in the beginning i wondered if that meant he wasn't the one. i thought it had to be a flash or a strike of lightning in order for it to be something important. but i don't feel that way anymore. coming home isn't flashy, it's just coming home. and that's what falling for eddie was. just coming home. like i knew the layout without turning the lights on.