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Buck is not a tactile person, at least not in the way we think.
I know in fanon and fanfics, many of us (especially me) love to imagine Buck as someone who constantly presses these small touches into the ones he loves. Except, he doesn't.
Don't misunderstand, Buck thrives on physical affection. Some of his happiest moments are when he receives that form of love. Except, when he gives it, it's almost always under a specific condition.
Buck waits for near-explicit consent.
Hear me out:
It's not as if he doesn't touch people, but it's very much a needed-as situation on the job and then rare occasions such as celebrations with the team. And again, it's never those small, mindless touches of someone who just wants to physically feel someone they care for.
Even in the scariest moments, he waits.
And we can infer he accepted her permission because we see Buck this terrified for a loved one the very next season. Except, he doesn't get any request for comfort or form of consent then.
They're both obviously in critical condition. Both need medical attention immediately. Yet, Buck takes the time to hug and comfort Maddie because she asked for it.
He clearly doesn't mind either option. He's overjoyed just to see them alive. And that's the point. For Buck, these interactions aren't about him. Which is why he doesn't actively pursue them. (Not saying he shouldn't. I, personally, think he should.)
This is a perspective I think many authors can take advantage of when writing fanfiction.
I am not saying to stop writing Buck as openly tactile. I'm saying write both. Write either. Write it all. I need more of this when I search my ship.
And in case you didn't know, EDDIE is the one more openly, physically affectionate between the two of them. 100%. But that's a separate post if you want it.
Also, Buck does not hold these standards when it comes to Chris. Also another post.
Bonus :
The only time I could actively remember Buck touching Eddie without consent (when he wasn't saving his life). Season 2x14 "Broken". This wasn't the first time Eddie had been in danger, but it was the first time he was in danger without Buck there. They were ready to run into the house after he didn't respond on the radio. Eddie came out after his "Spiderman" routine, saving a child in the process. Buck couldn't help himself.
(Just gonna mention how the physical distance between these two has only grown after every time Eddie's needed help... Hmm...)
#dont come at me if you found him being physically affectionate in other clips#i have limited resources when it comes to 911 footage#especially season 1 omfg#911 fox#buddie#911 on fox#911 buddie#evan buck buckley#eddie diaz#physical affection#is buck touch starved from childhood and doesn't know how to ask for these things?#i could talk about these characters all day#buddie edit#christopher diaz#if you find more#tell me#id love to take a look at it
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oh damsel we're really in it now
#slay the princess#stp#the damsel#stp the damsel#scribbles#her portraits right before the shifting mound takes her makes my heart hurt#the way she leans into the cup of the hand. so desperate to be palatable and loved but that gentle touch makes her look almost sad#but not entirely despairing just. theres a desperation and pain but also relief#princess i love you. slams my fists against the wall#EDIT: FORGOT THE IMAGE ID WHOOPS. its there now
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various study(?) doodles (idk if these count as studies or not im just tryna teach myself stuff </3)
#fallout#fallout 4#fallout new vegas#fallout fanart#its so fun just running around fo4 in the middle of battle going#oooo and i take a little picture of something to paint later#also god i wish i had a tv like that#the crashed highwayman was the first thing i decided to take a crack at like quite a few days ago#which was totally jumping the gun#so its not as up to par as id like it but i still had fun with it#i love just looking at stuff and thinking okay how would i put this in my style i think thats very fun and silly#okay ill stop ranting now goodnight
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pov u have been ruling over helpless villagers with a iron fist and have lived for decades with inhuman powers that could easily murder a man with little to no effort and this thing comes up to u with full intent to kill
#ethan winters#idk its so funny#like this is what miss dimitrescu saw scurrying around in her bedroom#id smash him through 8 floors too#like if i were in a fight with a guy that looked that wet and pathetic i simply would not lose#i would not be able to take it losing to a guy like him#resident evil village#karl heisenberg#alcina dimitrescu#salvatore moreau#donna beneviento#resident evil#re8#why is he so teary eyed#he makes me sick#i love him
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On the string propaganda
Heeellll yeah
Bestie is an entire PLACE
I look at those guys and let me tell you the soul of that thing ain't just in the puppet, it's in all the neurons carrying the thoughts and emotions, it's in the power rails that serve as the heart. All the memories in the memory conflux and all the numbers we see flicker across displays, the flux condensers, the puppet; a little avatar.
No way these massive machines see life the same way we do. They have their own experiences and senses and things they hold dear. A world we can't imagine, a way of living we couldn't even comprehend.
I could never tear an iterator apart to be just a puppet. Who am I to decide how's life supposed to be enjoyed or perceived?
You treat your creechurs however you want- I ain't gonna dictate that. But damn, hearing the thrums and buzzes of the linear systems rail? They are alive with so much power, these mechanical beasts are exactly what they should be.
#sorry im just a really passionate on the string believer#you cant tell me that these massive structures kilometers wide capable of things we cant even image would look at something thats#thats comparable to a speck of dust and be like#yes i would like to rid myself of practically my entire body to be that tiny#this aint no “if i were a supercomputer i'd be sad i couldnt see the sky like i do now”#thats only because you have something to compare it to#if i were to suddenly loose everything to be just some microscopic creature i'd be miserable but only because i know what im loosing#id be loosing the ability to think like i do now id be loosing the ability to enjoy the things i do now#i dont know what life is like as a microscopic creature but i wouldnt be willing to give up my life as i know it now#and i think with iterators are the same#just how different is their life from ours and what things can they see that we are missing out on?#give up everything comfortable and known and for what??#to feel the sun? they absolutely have various temperature sensors#see the sky? those overseers were made to see things those visuals are in 4k#other animal comforts?? what about computer comforts??#what makes a lil creature happy may not necessary make a massive supercomputer happy#sorry big rant in the tags um just wanna say this is no hate to anyone who wants their creatures off the string#these are fictional beings and you do whatever makes you happy take them off the string set them loose yess enjoy little robots running#around be happy i love reading ya alls off the string shenanigans#rain world#iterator#drawins#oc veil of dreams#rw talk#rain world oc#iterator oc
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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously
#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to#im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but#because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of#exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something#and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh#and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing#because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant#even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still#its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn….#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about#I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird#maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel#a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t#I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to#be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol#idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week#had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting#yapping#does this count as vent#vent#Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly
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wanted to show you my rainbowglider kid so far! just a WIP ☺️
Holy crap! Alternate universe siblings!!
This is Caustic Phantom, but everyone they know calls them tommy :3
#art#digital art#mlp#not art#oc#asks#mlp oc#mlp ng#mlp next gen#thank you thank you for showing me!! i love seeing other peoples ngs especially when we share ships and especially when we share rarepairs!!#pls tell me your kid's lore id love to hear it#tommy is a professional boxer who is incredibly competitive and takes their job seriously but is also very serious about good sportsmanship#they have called off fights before because their opponent was being a jerk and they couldn't trust themself not to start fighting in anger#they also make sure to separate their work life from their private life and that goes into their costume#bc the mask makes their star look like just a blaze and thats kind of their most distinctive feature#this was the first time ive drawn them in like a year i think their hair is meant to be more pastel woops#id in alt text#at least for my drawing#idk how to ad alt text to asks :(
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Compromise. Im not going to actually WRITE meta but i AM going to lay out a list of things I'm thinking about broadly and thematically and would probably write meta about if i were properly caught up and informed, but is instead influenced much more by early campaign F.C.G:
**edit: no this is kind of meta again. sorry.
- F.C.G grappling with the questions of: being made. purpose. whether it matters if you find your own purpose if you were made with one in mind and you "choose" something else. Can you actually? Does it matter? Is your choice a choice at all?
- Wanting so badly to heal people and help people and the unique fear of waking up and seeing damage done by your own hands. To the same people you wanted so badly to help. You extend healing and you offer comfort or kind words but all the while, in your core is a tightness. In your core is a danger. How much good do you need to do to get the blood off your chassis? Can you, at all?
- Metal body. Metal hands. A little wheel. You were a turtle once and it felt so wondrous to breathe. You try out tongues or little wooden legs or whatnot but it always comes back to an inorganic metal body and empty insides no matter if youre filling them with liquids or secret goods to smuggle or pastries (faux warmth). Maybe everything like wooden legs dangling off a metal body. All for show.
- A coin in hand. Looking for a higher power. Thinking about choice. Deferring choices.
- You love your friends, so much. You love people being kind to each other. You love your boyfriend and their wonderful way of thinking. You love being alive. Even when you doubted you were at all. You love, truly and deeply.
- Ashton raging at F.C.G for being a martyr. For aching for a good enough reason to get himself hurt or killed or blown up. Ashton looking at F.C.G knowing they're all messed up inside and trying so hard to stop them from letting it destroy them.
- Ashton always worried about how they're always trying to find a big enough cause, a good enough reason.
And so with those things, I remembered about F.C.G:
- F.C.G looking at their friends all down. Ashton laid out unmoving.
- F.C.G with something awful in their core. Ready to spill out. The same something awful they were always worried about. They were always aware of.
- F.C.G always looking for that reason. For that bigger and better cause.
- F.C.G always feeling like they didn't understand purpose, like it was so. unattainable- finally, briefly, startlingly- sure. Finally free of doubt. Their friends down and something awful and destructive in their core and one last thing they can do to maybe make things worth it, and the ability to choose it. They were made for something. They chose what to do with it.
- F.C.G finding that reason. F.C.G making that call. F.C.G thinking it was worth it.
- I think because of him, they succeeded. They won. That is certain.
- I think. "Worth it". Is always a subjective thing.
- I think. A self sacrifice is never just one person giving everything up. A self sacrifice, unfortunately- is one person making a choice.
And everyone else caught, in the blast radius.
#critical role#cr spoilers#cr liveblogging#c3e91#fcg#AH SHIT. THIS IS META AGAIN. FUCK#sorry. i. god. look. you all knew what you signed up for when you followed me right. im sorry#look im certain i missed 40 episodes of character dev i just need to word vomit where my brain is at given my context#character meta#spar speaks#fcg meta#i. GUESS. if other people want to take any portion of it and chew through it in a more informed way please be my gues#id love to. know things#ive got a lot of emotions to parse and im also about to make a ton of slightly terrible jokes if im not writing meta leggo
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let me help you
#ok it took me a long while to get around to post this for multiple reasons so whatever#alt caption: the threads that bind us#click for quality please!!!!! i never say that but ik it looks like shit on mobile#hollow knight#hornet#the hollow knight#ghost#fan art#id in alt text#okay so i'd love to know what ppl make of the caption#bc i had something in mind but when i asked some friends i got a different responses#hornet killing the vessels as her duty but she sees it as maybe mercy killing bc she pitys their fate#so she's saying it to that vessel#and then thk saying it to ghost by way of their self impalement (orz)#and ALSO. ghost to thk: helping kill the broken vessel either to take their place or end the radiance whichever ending#and my friend thought of hornet to ghost because of her needle coming in#and then a bit of a stretch and kinda meta but hornet by killing that vessel allows ghost to get the mothwing cloak lol#hk spoilers#<HELP
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Hi, I'm bad at talking to people, especially online, but I make comics and maybe it'd be nice to read what you people think, so I'm putting myself in the void? Will it echo or will it engulf me and regurgitate silence?
#I love to take one semi shaped thought then trip and fall and end up with a ten page mystery meat sandwich.#if you have ideas I could fall down the stairs to-pleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease-am I rizzing anyone yet-pleasepleasepleaseple#my askbox is open#anyway. hazbin hotel fans im looking at you.#unrelated but I feel like the void would have tumblr#my art#art post#hazbin hotel#alastor#ALTRUIIIST DIED FOR HIS FRIEEEEEEEENDS SORRY TO DISAPPOIIIINTTTT#if that man touches one feeling with a ten foot poll he will combust#that said lets watch him go up in flames#note says things#doodles#appleradio#duckiedeer#im not sure what to feel about the duckiedeer tag#id go with Two Clowns One Circus myself#you know what yeah that'll be my tag for them#two clowns one circus#hazbin lucifer#hazbin alastor#hellaverse#vivziepop#anyway if youre still reading this-hi! im going to stop typing now. have a good one
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Huge SA warning for the next chapter. I really do hate that Araki keeps falling on using that as a shock factor/writing crutch twice to the same character now. Though doesn’t the recent chapter kind of confirm Dragona is trans now?
yeah no iv already read the chapter so i knows what up
but for anyone else who hasnt read todays new jojoland chapter PLEASE read this
but im also like
anyone with a brain alreadY knewW she was trans, ARaki im already in her corner, I already support her, you don't have to keep brutalizing her to make her compelling or whatever
im so sick of the transmisogynoir, pick out something else to do with Dragona for the love of god!!!
araki the last 3 parts, seeing a woman and asking if anyone is going to do gross sexual harassment to them and NOT waiting for an answer
#the only good thing was#i love young dragonas lil outfit i think it is very cute her lil headband :)#also her and jodios matching Jo buckle/charm#cuuute#also im like.. id love to know more about their parents background#i dont think were gonna get it because i think the angle of this part is siblings#but im like we know their from new jersey which is where sbr ended give or take#and that Joseph went back to that area with lucy and had his family there#so presumably Barbara grew up there#but like.. did she meet her husband there#or is this a holly incident were their dad was from hawaii and they moved there to be with him#or did they just decide to move there...#TO ME MY BRAIn im like mmm#i have thoughts but probably dont make sense#but im looking im looking soo hard
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The take that Ashton should be punished/"nerfed" by losing his dunamantic abilities and having the hypothetical elemental themed ones replace it is? So wild to me tbh.
Like. If we're being honest, the titan abilities could literally be ANYTHING. So instead of introducing an entire new set of abilities for a functionally new subclass while getting rid of the ones we've been seeing all campaign? If the rewards would really make a single character THAT unbalanced? It would probably be 100 times easier to just nerf/adjust whatever hypothetical abilities they were supposed to be adding in the first place to make it more "fair".
Because they already have the Ka'mort shard and the only mechanics "benefit" it's given thus far is the fact that it changed Ashton's pre-campaign race from half-elf to earth genasi. Which is arguably not even a benefit because he didn't keep the features/traits of a half-elf. Then the only known narrative benefit has been the fact that they seem to have an unnaturally heightened connection to nature/eidolons. Which has only ever been for ultimately inconsequential narrative implications or adding a little spice to explain/"justify" the effect of certain dice rolls.
So we have no real established expectations for what the "awakened titan" abilities will be. It'll be sad to have them watered down but would make way more sense than just scrapping an entire homebrew subclass's mechanics?
#critical role spoilers#cr discourse#critical role discourse#i didnt look too hard into the handful of folks i saw regurgitating that take#but i absolutely wouldnt be surprised to find theyre the same chunk of audience that has a vengeance against the idea of dunamancy#or that they're upset the shard didnt just kill ash completely#i will say id love for this to have lasting negative effects. just that the total loss of that aspect of the character seems like a boring#solution. on the other hand having their titan and dunamancy shit at WAR seems very fun and potentially destructive/dangerous#maybe lean MORE into the fact that the subclass was based around the fact that tal found wild magic barbarians 'not chaotic enough'#(which again would likely be about ADJUSTING instead of throwing everything in the garbage)
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sorry no art in a hot second... ive been really burnt out for a long time now and its been miserable, ive been looking for a normie job for ages so that i can make art something i do for myself again and i havent had much luck but.
i have good news now.
#YIPPEEEEEE#cant wait to see how this effects my relationship with my art#freelancing is hard. im excited to be creative for myself again#prince talks#ideally id want to work in the cartoon industry but its looking rough right now and im already having a hard enough time#but its never too late to try to achieve your dreams#so im just putting it on the backburner for now#have to take care of myself instead of being so worried about 'wasting my life' or whatever because its just making me miserable#LIFE HAS VALUE NO MATTER WHAT DAMMIT#oh btw i will still be taking comms i just wont be making it like.#my only source of income#bc that SUCKED.#i love doing comms. dont love how unstable it is
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I'm so tired of sonamy being ship teased in stuff
#for a while i had hope that since sonic boom was doing the whole sonamy thing#we wouldnt see anywhere else#and i was like great the fans of the ship can get their cake and i wont have to look at it awesome#but i was WRONG.#they still do shipbait in the twitter takeover and shit#besides the weird age gaps#since now people wanna pretend these characters are ageless#and besides how much i think sonic is aroace#they just dont fit together as a couple dear hod#even in shows like sonic x in which i guess sonic says he loves her THEY FONT HAVE ROMANTIC CHEMESTRY#like sonic boom had to completely change the chracters personatilies so tht would work (? questionable. its still bland)#at this point id even take sonadow being more shipbaited even if im not a big fan#aro sonic forever and above everything else <33
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he’s not just a character to me anymore. he’s a lifeline 👍
#darkwing duck#launchpad mcquack#giddly’s art#no id#trying out new techniques and styles with characters i’ve drawn 28393873 times is soooo much fun#takes a lot of the pressure off and i can just have fun <3#btw i’m a believer of peppering in cool tones and specifically purple-blues in his palette#it’s just so much fun to do and i love how it makes him and darkwing look more like a unit next to each other lawl
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whatever og text i had in mind for this post about ko shibasaki looking like sayama in this movie is completely cancelled on account of utsumi (this character)'s first name being kaoru and i only found this out cause i was looking up her name just to be sure when making this post
like jesus christ i legally have to make this post now
#snap chats#they literally never say her first name in the movie. i think lol LIKE WHEN I FOUND OUT I WAS JUST 'NO FUCKING WAY'#i do have to be tbh and say her face /is/ a little more round than sayama's#and its absolutely predominantly because of how her bangs and wardrobe are so close to sayama's that i think she look like her#BUT I CAAAANT THE WHOLE MOVIE I WAS JUST THINKIN ABOUT SAYAMA... i miss her...#OH RIGHT THE MOVIE THOUGH noooo fuck you this movie was so good it actually made me want to write a summary for it LMAOOO#LIKE I LIKE WRITING SUMMARIES BUT IVE JUST BEEN SO LAZY ABOUT IT WITH THE PAST FEW THINGS IVE SEEN BUT GOD.#ignore the fact i finished this movie two hours ago i was too busy fiddling with a card holder kit but. ill make a post about that next--#THIS MOVIE THOUGH NOOOOO IT WAS SO GOOD //SCREAMS AND YELLS AND DESTROYS A SNOWGLOBE//#god the part where ishigami and yukawa are walking by the homeless and it just lingers on an empty spot.. LIKE I THOUGHT I WAS WACK#CAUSE I WAS LIKE 'hang on wasnt there a guy there last scene' and obviously there was since the shot lingered right#BUUUUTT WHEN IT WAS REVEALED DOWN THE LINE SHUT UPPP I LITERALLY YELLED IM SO GLAD. my roommates arent home..#on god i thought the movie was gonna end with utsumi and fukawa's convo from the beginning#and i was gonna make a gaf about how fukawa was acting irrationally because he was too in love LMAOOO#BUT THEN IT KEPT GOING AND. im so glad it did. ishigami valid tbh#id also cover up and take blame for AND ACTUALLY commit murder for a girl if she said hi to me and made me lunch while i was trying to kms#while fukawa and ishigami were talkin that first night tho i just thought of after the rain.. lol... maybe the mangaka was inspo'd by that.#anyway. this movie was great. it reminded me of sherlock but if it was directed well and actually let you solve the mystery too#CAUSE WHILE I WAS WATCHING THERE WERE POINTS WHERE I TOO WAS JUST 'hang on' AND I JUST POCKETED THE INFO FOR LATER#i kicked and screamed when ishigami was talking abut how he formats his tests LIKE I SAID 'oh you fucking slipped'#when ishigami called and told her he had a white envelope in there bitch i knew it was gonna be the stalker letter i YELLED#LIKE I LIKE HOW THE MOVIE SETS THINGS UP SO ABUNDANTLY. IT'S FUN SEEING IT FIT IN THE MOVIE LATER ON#the twist of there being two bodies was so fun tho cause at the start of the movie i was sure two murders happened the same night#so when it was played off as just one i was like Oh. Ok. im still stumped on how he snuck a body out of the apartment#but yk what one detail is like. whatever in comparison to the rest of the movie being fun to watch#god im running out of tags POINT IS. PLEAAASE watch this movie if you got two hours#ive left some minor warnings on my Watchlist doc but there's nothing. TOO extreme ??#i mean there's an aforementioned suicide attempt but aside from that it's nothing too grotesque. for an rgg fan ig#ok bye i have to ramble about the card holder i got <3
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