m going to die during my harp class omg omg someone save me.... i'm so so scared rn and my teacher is not even mean or bad wtf

I am so scared and so intrigued by everything. It is past 3am and I am happy. I think that I get scared in case u will hate me in real life. That terrifies me bc I've waited years to meet u. I think I just want u to love me bc I've never felt this sort of emotion for anyone. This feeling, connection, nature, whatever it is . It is other worldly. It is beautiful and I think that I'm going to keep hold of it as long as I can. I never believed in soul mates or any of that lovey dovey cliche shit. But I cant just be your friend. I'm trying so hard but I long for smth and I'm not too sure what it is. I think that I have been waiting all my life for smth this pure. Idk how u like me I sm still a mess but please please please love me bc I csnt Express this to u only through the means of this dumb app and u might never read it again. You are a very very very special human being. Theres smth about u that I cant pinpoint. You're effervescent. You're the most you person I have ever met and I csnt Express how much I do truly appreciate u. I think I'll have this feeling inside my heart forever. I hope you can too. But I fuck everything up and I'm sorry I hurt you you shouldnt forgive me for that idk how u talk to me and I expect u to feel at least a scrap of what I feel. You are a gift to this planet and to me and I hope you realise how excited I get when I talk to you. I never show it bc I scare everyone off. But you're so special to me and u always have and always will be.