hi, i love your webweaves so much ! if it's not too much trouble, could you please webweave something based on recovering from the hurtful actions of someone you used to love, and struggling with how to feel afterwards about that person and how they truly felt about you (whether they loved/cared for you or not) ? thank you so much !

i hope you're doing okay <33

Sylvia Plath from a letter to Ann Davidow-Goodman written 1951 Letters of Sylvia Plath, Volume I: 1940-1956 / Normal People (2020) dir. Lenny Abrahamson & Hettie Macdonald / Anne Carson Autobiography of Red / Richard Siken Litany in Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out / Paramore Interlude: I'm Not Angry Anymore

Interlude: I'm not angry anymore by Paramore should be longer it's literally a masterpiece what is this absolute CRIME

Hulk said:

Incredible Hulk #109

marcy & andrias - i'm not angry anymore

Стараюсь перевести эту прелесть на русский, потому что она застряла в моей голове на добрую неделю:

Это очень трудно( теперь я понимаю, почему неадекваты так долго переводят серии аццкого босса, учитывая, что они делают полный дубляж диалогов, песен и фоновых текстов

P.s. на случай если вдруг! Я делаю переводы чисто для себя, а не для коммерции!

In the living room with my Cocteau twins t-shirt 🖤

I'm Not Angry Anymore

-Harry's Pov-

I was completely bored out of my mind. I had no interest in playing FIFA and I had filmed all the needed videos that week. Looking around my room, I found a ukulele discarded, collecting dust as my hobbies changed from moment to moment. I could be invested in something for weeks on end and then never pick it up again. But I figured it'd be good to see how much I remembered. Plus it could fulfill the boredom.

Slowly strumming a few chords, feeling like I was relearning how to ride a bike. Finally going through the chords C, D, G, and E minor. Pulling up the tabs for a random Paramore song, the band appearing a lot in my playlists lately.

Getting into it, Harry softly started singing, 'I'm not angry anymore. Well, sometimes I am.' Thinking of the annoyance whenever I'd tried a joke and it wouldn't work. Or when I'd attempt to add an idea for the Sidemen channels. 'I don't think badly of you. It depends on the day.' Then there was that time last week when I accidentally broke a bowl, Lux scolding me for it. I know he meant well, but I still feel bad for it; not anger but rather guilt? 'The extent of all my worthless rage, and, I'm not angry anymore.'

-Cal's Pov-

Apparently it was my turn to do the dishes. Simply a menial task that needed to be done regularly, not that I minded. It gave me time to think, not having to worry about a project's deadline or ideas for videos. Just some time to myself. Usually Lux or Bogs would join me but I assumed they were both busy. Lux being out with some friends and Harry somewhere in the flat. Once wiping my hand and drying them, I heard music playing from upstairs. Not loud enough to where I'd have to tell the person off but a comfortable, faint level. 

Walking up the stairs, I was able to hear the music more clearly. Is, is that Harold singing? The instrumental bit sounded happy but the lyrics were quite the opposite. 'I'm not bitter anymore. I'm syrupy sweet.'  Not wanting to bother him, I sat down by his door. Leaning only my head against the frame so it didn't creak. As to not give me away. I wonder what made him feel so...defeated. 'I'm syrupy sweet. I'll rot you teeth down to the core if I'm really happy.'

I didn't realize how exhausted I was until I almost let a yawn escape. Didn't know dishes could tire a person out that quickly. That and I hadn't really gotten a good night sleep, staying up until 4am to edit. Without realizing, his eyes slowly fluttered shut.

-Harry's Pov-

'Well I'm not angry. I'm not totally angry. I'm not all that angry anymore.' Letting out a soft chuckle when I heard my stomach growl. Realizing I'd forgotten to eat, I decided I should go downstairs and see if either of the Cals' were around as well as feed myself. Opening my door, I was startled when I spotted Freezy asleep on the floor. I didn't want to wake him but I didn't really have the strength to carry him to bed. Instead, I grabbed a pillow and blanket. Gently lifting his head, trying to maneuver him to a position that wouldn't hurt his neck or spine as bad. And laid the blanket across his lap. Hopefully, he wouldn't end up sleeping through the night. 

-Cal's Pov-

That bastard. 

why would i let you dictate how i feel about anything?

how dare you?

you think its okay to blame my emotions on hormones

god.

don't get me started.

you think that if i have a bad day my traumas should be weighed in accordance to yours

as if the heaviness of someone's else's burden

somehow lightens mine.

i am not interchangeable.

you are not in control.

how i feel is something i decide.

and i will not allow your words,

to ruin this.

-lily

I'm not angry these are just my eyes

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"I'm not angry anymore Well, sometimes I am I don't think badly of you Well, sometimes I do"

Paramore, Interlude: I'm Not Angry Anymore

also just so you know when i die spiritually i am killing you and stabbing you and chaining you to the pillory and taking your appendages off one by one and feeding them to Cerberus hope this helps!

Listen, actually, so I'm reading through Incredible Hulk from the 60s, and the number of times, Hulk dreams about escaping to space, and maybe finding a world that will accept him .... I wish the *starship Hulk" concept had been handled differently. Because that little dream -- the part in the free comic book day issue where Bruce says he always wanted to be an astronaut? Hulk having wanted to fly away from earth so often?

If they'd been in it together, and Hulk had been able to experience the whole planet of Hulks with Bruce? If the alliance and understanding they'd formed in Immortal Hulk hadn't been destroyed? That could've been really interesting!! Really sweet and fun!

I'm upset we didn't get that.

END the copaganda that not giving your DNA to your cops makes you more suspicious.

END the copaganda that if you don't tell your side of the story to a cop you're going to be arrested.

END the copaganda that not allowing the cops into your home without a warrant is criminal behavior.

END the copaganda that not allowing cops to interrogate you without an attorney present is inherently more suspicious.

END the copaganda that if you don't speak to a cop that stops you on the street, you are breaking a law.

this is all bullshit and it is framed in a way that destroys your constitutional right to be protected from unreasonable intrusions into your life and into your home. it is a way for cops and the law enforcement system to intrude on your privacy in ways they are legally not allowed to, by making YOU feel like YOU will be seen as a bad guy for standing up for your rights.*

demand to see a warrant. if they stop you on the street, ask if you're being detained and if so, why. do not speak to cops without your attorney present. that is WHY miranda rights exist. you are ALLOWED to keep your mouth shut.

*ALL of this is stuff that will be more dangerous to do if you are black or brown or visibly trans or queer or disabled. if at ANY POINT you feel that you are going to be at risk of harm for doing these things, you are NOT at fault for complying. your rights are important but they are not more important than preserving your life. stay safe out there y'all.

I love your art soooo much-it gives me life!! 🥰🥰🥰

I have a question about Milek and Jaskier! Milek says they fought before Jask went missing-what did they fight about? Did Milek say something he shouldn’t have? 👀😢 is there ANGST?

Also does Geralt know Mileks plush friend is called Roach? Because surely that’s a clue that Milek is his…(I love this universe so much)!!🥹❤️❤️❤️

[MASTERPOST] That was the last conversation they had before Milek stormed out - and when he came back, Jaskier was. gone. The thing is, Jaskier knows what Milek is interested in (and he is not even wrong about that, Milek has an interest in medicine, and helping people, and I think when they met he was Shanis biggest fan) and I think Jaskier is aware that some of the conflict does have its roots in Milek not wanting to leave him, even if they get really heated and ugly in their arguments. Milek shouldn't feel like he has to care for him, or have to protect him and at times I think Jaskier feels quite ashamed, which leads him to being way too unrelenting at times - especially if he thinks he's doing something to protect Milek.

I have a lot of complicated feelings when it comes to what Neflix has done with the Witcher, but my probably least favourite is the line of argumentation that originated during shitstorms related to the first and second season that I was unlucky to witness.

It boils down to "Netflix's reinterpretation and vision is valid, because the Witcher books are not written to be slavic. The overwhelming Slavic aestetic is CDPR's interpretation, and the setting in the original books is universally European, as there are references to Arthurian mythos and celtic languages" And I'm not sure where this argument originated and whether it's parroting Sapkowski's own words or a common stance of people who haven't considered the underlying themes of the books series. Because while it's true that there are a lot of western european influences in the Witcher, it's still Central/Eastern European to the bone, and at its core, the lack of understanding of this topic is what makes the Netflix series inauthentic in my eyes.

The slavicness of the Witcher goes deeper than the aestetics, mannerisms, vodka and sour cucumbers. Deeper than Zoltan wrapping his sword with leopard pelt, like he was a hussar. Deeper than the Redanian queen Hedvig and her white eagle on the red field.

What Witcher is actually about? It's a story about destiny, sure. It's a sword-and-sorcery style, antiheroic deconstruction of a fairy tale, too, and it's a weird mix of many culture's influences.

But it's also a story about mundane evil and mundane good. If You think about most dark, gritty problems the world of Witcher faces, it's xenophobia and discrimination, insularism and superstition. Deep-seated fear of the unknown, the powerlessness of common people in the face of danger, war, poverty and hunger. It's what makes people spit over their left shoulder when they see a witcher, it's what makes them distrust their neighbor, clinging to anything they deem safe and known. It's their misfortune and pent-up anger that make them seek scapegoats and be mindlessly, mundanely cruel to the ones weaker than themselves.

There are of course evil wizards, complicated conspiracies and crowned heads, yes. But much of the destruction and depravity is rooted in everyday mundane cycle of violence and misery. The worst monsters in the series are not those killed with a silver sword, but with steel. it's hard to explain but it's the same sort of motiveless, mundane evil that still persist in our poorer regions, born out of generations-long poverty and misery. The behaviour of peasants in Witcher, and the distrust towards authority including kings and monarchs didn't come from nowhere.

On the other hand, among those same, desperately poor people, there is always someone who will share their meal with a traveller, who will risk their safety pulling a wounded stranger off the road into safety. Inconditional kindness among inconditional hate. Most of Geralt's friends try to be decent people in the horrible world. This sort of contrasting mentalities in the recently war-ridden world is intimately familiar to Eastern and Cetral Europe.

But it doesn't end here. Nilfgaard is also a uniquely Central/Eastern European threat. It's a combination of the Third Reich in its aestetics and its sense of superiority and the Stalinist USSR with its personality cult, vast territory and huge army, and as such it's instantly recognisable by anybody whose country was unlucky enough to be caught in-between those two forces. Nilfgaard implements total war and looks upon the northerners with contempt, conscripts the conquered people forcibly, denying them the right of their own identity. It may seem familiar and relevant to many opressed people, but it's in its essence the processing of the trauma of the WW2 and subsequent occupation.

My favourite case are the nonhumans, because their treatment is in a sense a reminder of our worst traits and the worst sins in our history - the regional antisemitism and/or xenophobia, violence, local pogroms. But at the very same time, the dilemma of Scoia'Tael, their impossible choice between maintaining their identity, a small semblance of freedom and their survival, them hiding in the forests, even the fact that they are generally deemed bandits, it all touches the very traumatic parts of specifically Polish history, such as January Uprising, Warsaw Uprising, Ghetto Uprising, the underground resistance in WW2 and the subsequent complicated problem of the Cursed Soldiers all at once. They are the 'other' to the general population, but their underlying struggle is also intimately known to us.

The slavic monsters are an aestetic choice, yes, but I think they are also a reflection of our local, private sins. These are our own, insular boogeymen, fears made flesh. They reproduce due to horrors of the war or they are an unprovoked misfortune that descends from nowhere and whose appearance amplifies the local injustices.

I'm not talking about many, many tiny references that exist in the books, these are just the most blatant examples that come to mind. Anyway, the thing is, whether Sapkowski has intended it or not, Witcher is slavic and it's Polish because it contains social commentary. Many aspects of its worldbuilding reflect our traumas and our national sins. It's not exclusively Polish in its influences and philosophical motifs of course, but it's obvious it doesn't exist in a vacuum.

And it seems to me that the inherently Eastern European aspects of Witcher are what was immediately rewritten in the series. It seems to me that the subtler underlying conflicts were reshaped to be centered around servitude, class and gender disparity, and Nilfgaard is more of a fanatic terrorist state than an imposing, totalitarian empire. A lot of complexity seems to be abandoned in lieu of usual high-fantasy wordbuilding. It's especially weird to me because it was completely unnecessary. The Witcher books didn't need to be adjusted to speak about relevant problems - they already did it! The problem of acceptance and discrimination is a very prevalent theme throughout the story! They are many strong female characters too, and they are well written. Honestly I don't know if I should find it insulting towards their viewers that they thought it won't be understood as it was and has to be somehow reshaped to fit the american perpective, because the current problems are very much discussed in there and Sapkowski is not subtle in showing that genocide and discrimination is evil. Heck, anyone who has read the ending knows how tragic it makes the whole story.

It also seems quite disrespectful, because they've basically taken a well-established piece of our domestic literature and popular culture and decided that the social commentary in it is not relevant. It is as if all it referenced was just not important enough and they decided to use it as an opportunity to talk about the problems they consider important. And don't get me wrong, I'm not forcing anyone to write about Central European problems and traumas, I'm just confused that they've taken the piece of art already containing such a perspective on the popular and relevant problem and they just... disregarded it, because it wasn't their exact perspective on said problem.

And I think this homogenisation, maybe even from a certain point of view you could say it's worldview sanitisation is a problem, because it's really ironic, isn't it? To talk about inclusivity in a story which among other problems is about being different, and in the same time to get rid of motifs, themes and references because they are foreign? Because if something presents a different perspective it suddenly is less desirable?

There was a lot of talking about the showrunners travelling to Poland to understand the Witcher's slavic spirit and how to convey it. I don't think they really meant it beyond the most superficial, paper-thin facade.