So I was feeling kinda depressed since my blog kinda dies when I’m focusing on my health and irl life, and character development, writing and art takes a lot of time to create something impressive and coherent.

so since I need notes for my blog to stay alive while I work on stuff i thought I’d make a cool sans au to show everyone on tumblr so I get thousands of notes and really cool fanart and get featured in tiktoks and stuff with my character.

Since this is all it takes to become famous in the undertale fandom I thought I’d just throw away all the research I’m doing and just go with what works yanno?

😳 maybe I’ll draw horny art of him next, that’ll reel in the notes.

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Why can’t it be me? Why didn’t you choose me?

taste me drink my soul show me all the things that i shouldn’t know

If I were gone tomorrow would you miss me? Probably not.

I didn’t get the job. The fact that I made it to the second round of interviews makes the rejection hurt even more. I have no hope.

I’m not anybody’s first choice, hell I’m not even anybody’s last choice. I’m a placeholder, a stand in option only, a time to be there while they heal or get over some type of heartbreak or struggle. I’m the one you meet while you’re at a crossroads overcoming some shit. I’m the one left after all that madness has passed, holding the pain while you move on. So yeah I’m not anybody’s choice.

I found this from someone else.

i think about how i’ll never be her and then realize that i should probably just prevent myself from existing any longer

these feelings are my fault for falling in love and getting into a relationship. it’s not that i don’t love my boyfriend, it’s just that i know i don’t feel this way when i’m not attached to someone

i’m not enough for him anyway so what’s the point in existing

I guess I forgot big subs aren’t allowed to be subs

If they wanted to they would. Remember that.

Fuuuuck that late night dysphoric depression be hitting hard and i really wanna cry but goddamn bottling up for years won’t let me

There has to be someone out there that can love me completely. This can’t be it. This can’t be what I deserve. You don’t touch me, can’t remember the last time you gave me any words of affirmation, you don’t say I love you first. Im here for convenience, so you don’t feel alone. We shouldn’t have got back together. I can’t keep doing this. Im giving every single piece of me and you can’t give me a sliver.

It’s not your fault I ruin everything

And it’s not your fault I can’t be what you need

got denied on another job interview