#i will redeem myself when this is all over D:
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Guess what! I got food stamps back!
Literally the only way we were able to make this happen is by finding out that one of Tyrell’s friends works for job and family services– so she was able to arrange some phone calls for us and got me through! So food for Remy is now covered for a while :’) 🥳
But we could really use some help with a bag of Arlo food ($15-$40ish size depending), and I’m 6 days late on my $80 monthly doctor bill. Arlo’s held over for now but it’s running low.
It’ll still be a couple of weeks before this litter of rats is ready to be homed. Tyrell’s been out of work herself this week healing from an injury so it’s a little harder for her to help this month.
If you can spare any, ... 🙏🏼
Venmo: @remywolfe
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#apologies for lack of rat content recently --#i've developed a fear of them (long story) so tyrell has been doing most of their caretaking while i work back up to it#i've been really wanting to keep you guys updated on what is going on with the disability appeal and why it's so garbage and not coming..#through yet but my brain spends like all of its computing power on Not Thinking About That so when i try to open up my thoughts enough for#typing out words i get panicky or infuriated#anger is such an uncomfortable emotion for me#esp when helplessness is involved#but i recently switched from vyvanse to ritalin and seem to be having an easier time making words happen as a result#so i may try#i miss being a regular on here#i know it must seem so shitty that i often only resurface when i need to reach out for help#that is not how i want things to be it is just that my brain is in major shut down mode from all of the hashtag Bullshit#i will redeem myself when this is all over D:#also i can send you the link to arlos food and give you my address so you can place the order yourself rather than sending $$ if preferred:)
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"im going to fuck you senseless" "let me fill you up" for tsukishima x f! reader please? tysm ♡
hii :D sure!
NOTES: tsukishima x fem!reader, cussing, slight breeding
“I’m gonna fuck you senseless.” he breathes, a counterintuitive groan bouncing off the walls as he doubles over into your ‘painted’ torso.
You tried to form a sentence, even just a word maybe, but nothing formed. He had you far away in a galaxy, and euphoria had taken over.
“p-please!” is all you could blab out as you clawed at his wrists, your tits bouncing up and down as he drilled on. He grinned at the gesture and held your hand, bring his other large one to cup your breast as he used it as a prop.
He took your drunken state as a free-ticket, tilting your hips upwards to reach impossibly deeper. You threw your head back instantly, your mouth handing wide open as you bounced up and down.
Broken moans came from both of you, filling the thin walls with sounds that no other should hear. There would be at least one complaint in the morning, but who cared at this point?
“heh. Let me fill you up, yeah? Make you a pretty mama, just for me.” he teases, setting your hips down as he slows his thrusts, twitching inside of you as he pulls out again, painting your torso even whiter, and also giving you the dissatisfaction of not coming to your high stuffed to the brim.
You whines as you came down from your high as well, frowning when he layed down next to you with a teasing laugh.
“What, want me to do that again or something to ‘redeem myself’?” he mocks, getting up as you quickly pull him back down.
“no more, 3 hours is already enough. I can’t even move now..” you whine as you roll over.
#tsukishima fluff#tsukishima scenarios#tsukishima smut#tsukishima x y/n#smutty#haikyu smut#haikyu x reader#haikyuu!!#haikyuu#haikyuu tsukishima#haikyuu tsukki#haikyuu x reader#haikyū!!#haikyuu x you#haikyuu smut#event request
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Avengers x Male Reader
(he/Him reader)
You sat in a cell at the Avengers tower, your knees to your chest as you hummed to yourself.
You were going to die of boredom soon. Suddenly you heard a commotion and recognised a voice.
"Fuck..." You whispered as Natasha stormed in.
"I've been looking for you for years, you piece of shit." She growled as you looked at her in shock.
"N-Nat, you're all grown up." You muttered standing up and smiling awkwardly.
"Don't fucking talk to me like you know me." She growled you noticed tears in her eyes.
Steve rushed out to make sure Natasha wasn't killing you.
"How the hell do you two know each other?" He asked as you groaned softly.
"I was one of her trainers in the red room... Kind of." You muttered as Nat glared at you.
"You were a fucking monster, as much as you say there's two sides of you, I know it's just an excuse to trying to get away from everything you did." She growled as you groaned and rubbed your head.
"D-Don't fucking mention him, you know more than anyone what happens." You grumbled as she chuckled dryly.
"Cut the bullshit, Y/N. We all know what you're capable of." She whispered before walking away, you sighed and sat back down against the wall of the cell.
"It's a bit similar to Bucky..." Steve muttered as you nodded a little.
"Yeah... I met Bucky a few times. I think we had sex at one point." You said nonchalantly as Steve looked at you in shock.
"Are you just trying to get under my skin?" He asked cautiously as you rolled your eyes.
"No, I would get nothing from that. I'm actually trying to redeem myself, Steve. I know I did some awful things... But, I want to try and make up for them." You muttered, Steve nodded a little.
He was a good judge of character and he good see you were being genuine.
"What were you and Nat talking about? You have an alter kind of like Bucky?" He asked as you nodded again.
"Yeah, but he's been with me since I was a kid. Hydra didn't cause it." You replied, Steve still listening.
"Do you have control over him?" He asked as you closed your eyes and shook your head.
"No... I don't. He's ruined a lot for me, that's why you need to keep me in this cell until we figure something out. He's dangerous." You said as Steve nodded.
"I'll keep that in mind, I'll be back later." He said before leaving as you groaned and rested your head against the glass and closed your eyes.
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You still sat in the cell, feeling that familiar feeling of the other side of you taking over.
"Please, don't do this. We're finally safe and you'll fuck it up! Just for once fucking behave!" You shouted as you suddenly saw someone in front of your cell.
"Its been a while, hasn't it?" Bucky said as you smiled, you were kind of relieved to see someone familiar...and maybe someone else that was a monster just like you.
"You cut your hair, shame I liked it long. Something to grip onto." You said as he chuckled and shook his head.
"I missed that attitude of yours, I won't lie. How are you holding up?" He asked as you sighed and leant your head against the wall.
"Not great... The other guys is wanting to come out and you know more than anyone that never ends well." You muttered in shame.
Bucky opened the door and stepped inside before sitting beside you, you rested your head on his shoulder and sighed.
"I missed you, Buck..." You whispered as he smiled a little.
"I missed you too, Y/N. But... I have to tell you, I'm with Steve now." He muttered as you nodded a little.
"I assumed as much, he got pretty jealous when I said we'd had sex before." You replied as Bucky chuckled a little.
"We went through a lot, didn't we?" He muttered as you smiled, closing your eyes as you rested on his shoulder.
"We really did..."
(if you'd like a part 2 lemme know!)
#Avengers#Avengers x Reader#Bucky Barnes x reader#Bucky x reader#Bucky Barnes#Steve Rogers#Stucky#Natasha romanoff
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How To Write Good by Corentine
THE DRAFTING PROCESS, PART 1/2
Hello, people were interested in some writing tips by me so I, uh, sort of kind of cranked out a writing guide in a few hours. I’m not sure if this will be a very comprehensive or helpful guide but let’s give it a try!
⭐ Starting disclaimers: Please remember as with all things that my method is not necessarily the best method, everyone is different and over time you’ll find your own process.
I write romance, so my advice is skewed towards writing that and I’m not sure how helpful it will be for gen fic. I publish fanfic chapter by chapter to AO3 so it’s also skewed to someone doing the same, not someone writing a full novel they want to get published.
I’m going to be using GOL HAH DOV (GHD) for writing examples because, well, it’s a (almost-)finished longfic so it’s as good a reference as any, but obviously GHD is not everyone’s cup of tea. I’ll also occasionally reference Tooth for a Tooth (T4T) which apologies is very far from finished, but the Baldur’s Gate 3 fandom is vastly different to the Skyrim one, so it’s useful to cross-compare them.
Also worth bearing in mind: I have been writing fanfiction since I was about 13, and I’m now 33. That’s 20 years of experience. Do you know what I wrote when I was 13? Hot garbage. Writing is a learned skill that, much like playing a musical instrument or learning literally any other craft, you must put time and effort into to improve.
However although ‘practice makes perfect’ is fundamentally true, that’s also kind of lame advice. So here is what I personally do, which may be helpful in figuring out what you want to do.
STEP ONE: YOU NEED AN IDEA FIRST DUMMY
Think of a fic idea. Probably you have lots of vague ideas. As I’m trying to turn something from a daydream into an actual writing project, I tend to ask myself these questions:
⭐Who is it about?⭐
Pick your pairing, romantic or otherwise. Think about what you like about the character and what traits you want to emphasise in your writing. If you’re writing about fan character x fan character, what makes them go well together? What causes tension between them?
If you’re writing fan character x original character, do remember that your readers are here for the fan character, not for your OC. There is no getting around this, your OC is not what brings people to the fic. GHD’s Chrysanthe was largely intended as a blank slate, quite literally, I made him an amnesiac because the point of the story was Miraak not Chrysanthe.
Over time I was able to shape him into something more distinctive (softly-spoken, stoic, paladin-like, secret tricksy side only Miraak brings out, gets more dragon-like as the story progresses) but that was a gradual thing. Your readers will hopefully come to love your OC as you do, but it takes time for them to get invested. I’m very grateful that people did come to root for Chrysanthe – but make no mistake, if the story had no Miraak in it, people wouldn’t be reading it. Your OC is always a vehicle for the fan character.
⭐What are the overarching themes of the story?⭐
A cohesive story has a theme that repeats throughout, and picking one early on will let you write with that theme in mind. As an example, the themes of GHD are:
Soulmates / we were destined to meet each other
There’s no-one else like me / you and I are the only real ones here
One’s a hero one’s a villain
Zero to hero / hero becomes progressively more badass
Redemption arc but the villain is never fully redeemed – for GHD this turned into the repetition of Miraak’s theme he’ll never be pure but for you he’ll try and later Chrysanthe’s I love you exactly as you are
Your own themes might be something like best friends who don’t realise they’ve been in love this whole time or can’t live with you can’t live without you. Tropes count towards this too, so something like soulmates, Modern Coffee Shop AU, hanahaki, all of that stuff is a story theme.
⭐What does this fic do that other fics like it don’t?⭐
GOL HAH DOV was sort of easy mode in this regard because there aren’t many fics featuring Miraak at all, so writing anything was already doing something different. Of those existing fics, I wanted to see more where Miraak was evil and scary, and you should be the change you want to see in the world (of fanfic), so I decided to write it myself. I get a lot of comments on Miraak’s personality, so I assume this is mostly what makes GHD stand out!
I’ll use T4T as a contrasting example, because Skyrim is old and Miraak is niche, but Baldur’s Gate 3 is new/popular and Astarion is a fan favourite. That means there’s a veritable sea of fic about him, so what can you write that will stand out from the many, many other fics out there? It doesn’t have to be the only one of its kind or anything, but it does need to have some special about it.
You’ll want to either go for a strong theme or trope (i.e. soulmates, magical spell curse, we’re both monsters), or change the setting (canon divergence, ‘what if X happened instead?’, or even outright alternate universe and a brand new plot). Personally, I choose to follow the source material but go off-script. I gotta say, nothing makes me sadder than seeing plot and dialogue lifted straight from a game with zero changes made to it. That’s a personal preference obviously, but I think if you write a fic it should strive to do something different to the rest.
⭐Do I have enough enthusiasm to finish it?⭐
This is more applicable to longfic, but you really need to be in love with a story to see it through to the end. Be realistic with yourself, how much free time and energy you have – if you start it, do you think you can finish it?
I have a whole planning process (detailed later) and sometimes I start planning out an idea just to realise I don’t really have the enthusiasm to actually write the whole thing. This is fine! Even just planning is still a writing exercise, and it might spark some different ideas.
Once you have your idea, and you’re confident you’re going to actually write it… then for the love of all that is holy, do not share it in detail with anyone. You can pitch an idea to see if people will be interested but if you go into specifics about story events or certain scenes? You basically get the endorphins from having ‘created’ it, only you haven’t actually created it, and now you’ve had the chemical pay-off you probably never will. Keep your ideas to yourself until you’ve actually written them.
STEP TWO: WRITE THAT DOWN
In terms of writing software, I use Scrivener, which is a paid-for software but is not subscription based (I wouldn’t pay continually for software unless I was reliably writing every day, and sometimes I go ages without being in the mood to write). Scriv’s word processor isn’t the most intuitive thing, but I like its organisation features. This is what a work in progress looks like for me:
That’s essentially a folder (the story) containing a bunch of word documents (the chapters). You could break it down even further and have a chapter folder with each document being individual scenes, then stitch it together later - if writing is a daunting process for you, it’s useful to break it down into small, manageable chunks. You can do this in other software obviously, I just find Scrivener the most visually pleasing.
Set up your writing document, and let’s get to planning what we’re actually going to write!
...Apparently tumblr has a word limit I've exceeded, so I'll write the next bit separately. Here's PART TWO.
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Even though Luke doesn’t cheat on Trouble, I listen to Burn from Hamilton and imagine these two post tlt bc yes i like the pain,, no i don’t need therapy, officer 😀
girl the way this is probably canon anyway bc in the trouble!verse luke is a Hamilton Hater ™ and trouble was known to be singing songs from the musical with her ex-bf
im DYINGGGG but damn if you go to therapy hop in we can carpool
sidenote there's still a lot that can relate in the lyrics and im bored rn so lets feed into the delusion for a bit (guys I'm a fic writer who peaked in the 2010s in the age of bad youtube fan recreations of songs to fit their otps... i know how to work with scraps)
She said, "Be careful with that one, love , "He will do what it takes to survive" // You and your words flooded my senses, Your sentences left me defenseless, You built me palaces out of paragraphs, You built cathedrals // I'm re-reading the letters you wrote me, I'm searching and scanning for answers in every line, For some kind of sign, And when you were mine // The world seemed to burn, Burn
Mr. D warned her from the beginning about Luke, even silently in 'play pretend' because she was becoming more like her old self (reckless and crazy, just like him) when she was falling in love with Luke, and it isn't a bad thing but definitely takes away fro what her and Luke have been working at as THE counselors of CHB. Luke's always been good with words as a son of Hermes to the point that it even fools Trouble to some extent, there comes a point where her as an amazing actress can't tell when he's lying---and he learned that from her...
You published the letters she wrote you, You told the whole world, How you brought this girl into our bed, In clearing your name, You have ruined our lives //
Do you know what Angelica said, When she read what you'd done?, She said, "You've married an Icarus, "He has flown too close to the sun" // You and your words obsessed with your legacy, Your sentences border on senseless, And you are paranoid in every paragraph, How they perceive you, You, you, you!
this made me giggle OKAY HEAR ME OUT LMFAOOOO ever since they got together (in the span of a little over a year before his betrayal), they always sleep in the same bed when they can as mentioned in 'now that we're older' because they barely have time to themselves in the day....when 'when the chaos is through' is posted, that's when Luke agrees to side with Kronos in his ultimate belief to protect Trouble from impending war and eventually give her a better life outside of CHB. (imagine kronos dressed as eliza schuyler and we're set because luke essentially brings him to bed with them for half of their relationship and she doesn't know LMFAOOOOO) and well yeah yall know his decline after TLT but he's in too deep to fall back
I'm erasing myself from the narrative, Let future historians wonder how Eliza reacted, When you broke her heart, You have torn it all apart // I'm watching it burn, Watching it burn, The world has no right to my heart, The world has no place in our bed, They don't get to know what I said, I'm burning the memories, Burning the letters that might have redeemed you // You forfeit all rights to my heart, You forfeit the place in our bed, You'll sleep in your office instead, With only the memories of when you were mine //I hope that you burn
The beginning part reminds me of the confrontation scene in 'love is a blister' where the counselors put Trouble on trial for loving Luke---the reality of it is they and everyone at camp only know what Luke & Trouble have shown them, but everything between them is private and their own. They didn't expect him to leave her behind. There are a lot of references throughout the series and especially in 'solipsism' where his last time alive as his waning sense of self he goes to visit Trouble who's fresh from visiting Annie in 'love is a blister' and he literally is burning through his old self as kronos overtakes his body. He couldn't imagine not being able to say goodbye before becoming true vessel and well in TLO, teeeechnically what happens and what i plan to write i--[GUNSHOTS]
me saying scraps and then copy pasting almost the whole damn song... ive said too much. this was entertaining, how'd I do?
#trouble!verse#pls yap to me more about trouble!verse#જ⁀➴ jo answers !#mooties: laeserath ! (˶ ˘ ³˘)ˆᵕ ˆ˶)
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your top 15 favourite tv shows can say a lot about your personality
Tagged by the epically fab @lolahardy
this genuinely kept me awake a bit last night until I realised what was happening and stopped trying to recall every show that ever struck me right in the feels or shaped me lol and yes, I know no one asked for any reasoning behind it but when you've mulled it over all bloody day long, you feel like sharing :P
M*A*S*H - used to be on everyday at 7 and my mum had adored it when she was younger so brought me and my sister up on it, still makes me laugh and cry to this day.
Star Trek TNG (& Picard which might be cheating but really is just an extension all told) - loved all the Trek's, Honourable Mention goes to ToS because kid!me loved it so much, only to have TNG blow the roof off my head. Lt Cmdr Data was my first love and I am unashamed ;)
Red Dwarf - for many reasons but mainly Arnold Rimmer (more reliable than a garden Strimmer, he's never been mistaken for Yul Brynner - he's not bald and his head doesn't glimmer...) who my teenage self was certain could be redeemed with the power of love, or a very determined snogging if nowt else.
The Good Place - because I (and many of us) needed it as a concept, whether for personal growth, coping with grief or just cos 'forking shirtballs' never gets any less funnier for me.
Firefly - the best show to ever be cancelled before it's writer could ruin it. I adored the show and the ensuing film, mourned its early cancellation for YEARS until I heard about Whedon's general twattishness and what had been his intentions for the series and characters, now am happy it exists as it is, still problematic but so worthy in so many ways, and on that awkward note...
Buffy the Vampire Slayer - problematic on 800 gazillion levels in this day and age but still a forerunner of many awesome things to follow and I'd be lying if I said I hadnt been glued to it, obsessed with it, shipping folks, dling the soundtrack, buying the jewelry etc and even now if I see a reaction vid on YT for S5 I can't help myself but watch and weep along with them.
Merlin (BBC) - Umm'd and Ahh'd over this for bloody ages lol but it was my happy place (literally, had a run of bad years as have we all, so I'd watch an ep before bed every night to make me smile) and it got me through the difficulties I had right up to the finale where they took me and my happy place out back and shot it in the face in front of me lol. Despite my escapism route being put down in those heinous raw weeks immediately following a parents funeral, I'm still listing it here for being wonderful, silly, heartening and heartbreaking, whilst giving every last Fuck You to the writers for their surprise, abruptly canon-compliant ending.
Stargate SG1 - daft sci fi with it's heart trying hard to be in the right place plus eminently shippable characters in almost every combo going? Yes, please.
Heroes - because I was OBSESSED. It picked me up out of my OTP in a diff fandom (sorry drarry, I still love you honest) drained me of any and all urge to write for anything but them ever again until it got shat on by its own writers, breaking the spell.
Brooklyn 99 - NINE-NINE. *sadly doffs cap to Captain Holt*
King of the Hill - from a show I used to avoid when I was younger to one I ration myself viewswise so it won't lose it's impact. Superb.
Schitts Creek - only watched due to encountering a clip on tumblr of Moira's stonefaced manaical laughter and ended up crying with happiness over the finale, am an easy crier sure, but not normally because something is just so lovely.
Cheers - was only a kid when it finished but I bawled my face off when Sam said 'sorry, we're closed' (was too young to know it'd be repeated ad infinitum lol) and the opening theme still feels like coming home.
Golden Girls - sole reason D+ gets any money from me, the bastards, it was my only access for a bit there but it was worth it, lightyears ahead of it's time and just wonderful to boot.
Parks & Rec - somewhere my sister is elated with no clue why. Took her years to talk me into it, but having watched it on repeat a few times, I now can't live without Leslie, Ben & Ron.
Other honourable mentions (sorry I know, longpost, my bad) go to Quantum Leap for being a daily delight growing up, What We Do in the Shadows which would have made the list but I've only just got around to watching it and am only on S3 so have yet to find out if it's going to rip my heart out, Eerie Indiana for getting me started hyperfixationwise, Caroline in the City (S1-S3... S4? I don't know her - no seriously, I didnt realise for YEARS it didnt end at S3 and as this purported S4 fucked that up [supposedly] yeah I don't know her), The XFiles for my first actual foray into fandom & fanfic, and I know am missing another gazillion shows I'll remember later that seem much more worldshaping than these and I'll gnash my teeth lol so yeah *waves hand vaguely towards future me's frustrated rememberings* them too ;)
Tagging a) anyone who fancies a go should they feel like it, and b) [no pressure natch] @theangrykimchi @amazinmango @thesaltofcarthage @buckydunpun @kalika999 @gracerene @helaheim @dls-ao3 @emorgan5061 @bananaempanada
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Me while watching Last Twilight Ep. 7:
I am sooooo ready for the real flirting and courtship between P'Mhok and Nong Day to commence 😁
1. So yeah, I have read so many meta writing concerning August and what motivated him to do what he did (shoutout to Mark Pakin for unknowingly being the root cause of all my angst against August 😅). Those who tried to understand August are a lot better persons than I am. My petty ass would still like August's head on a platter 😅😅😅😅
2. Okay, the starting scene feels like Bad Buddy Episode 6 all over again - the awkward tension after a rooftop kiss 😭😭😭 P'Aof, why do you do this?
3. That's it, if we are not getting GeePorjai in this series, I am more than willing to marry Porjai myself 😂😂😂
4. No, Gee. Day does not have to patch things up with that d*ckhead August. <after 2 minutes> I am still amazed of how selfless Mhok can be that he is still willing to let Day meet August despite of everything because it will make Day happy. I guess as Porjai said, when Mhok loves, he loves deeply and passionately - and it shows 🥺🥺🥺
5. Hmmm, I guess they are trying to somehow redeem August? Ngl, the speech was good. But I'm still putting that "pity kiss" on my list of unforgiveable things along with Non's stalker behaviour (Dark Blue Kiss) and Wai's curtain drop (Bad Buddy).
6. Gee knows Day so well 😂😂😂 Also, wtf did you mean Mhok is not your type, Day??? What exactly is your type anyway? After August, one might have thought you would re-calibrate your standards. <after 5 seconds> Oh, no. 😰 That's just selfish, Day. It will be torturous for Mhok to stay and care for you, knowing how he feels about you. It's like leading him on. You should have followed Gee's suggestion, if this is the case 😔
7. Mhok is taking what he can get, I see. I just hope this does not end in heartbreak - mine. I am so tired of crying with every episode 😂😂😂
8. Porjai is just trying as Mhok's wingwoman 😂😂😂 Good thing she does not have to try that hard since it seems like Day is slowly accepting his feelings for Mhok.
9. Day sniffing Mhok's blanket - how Pat-coded you are 😂😂😂 Yes, I still have a Bad Buddy brain rot. 😅😅😅 Also, dang, Mhok's neighbours. Let other people sleep 😆
10. (Sigh) I guess what we'll get is a NightPorjai agenda (goodbye, my GeePorja ship)? Night really seems to care about Day despite the latter's animosity against him.
11. Oh, Day. 😔 You should never have put boundaries on something that you wanted to cross yourself. <after five seconds> OKAY!!! Finally boyfriends!!!! For a second, I thought I'll be hating Day in the next episodes.
12. Mhok is just gonna get cheesier, isn't he? He is going to be insufferable, won't he? Ngl, I'm a bit scared for Day 😂😂😂😂
OH, NO. DAY IS GOING FULL BLIND 😱😱😱
I guess the next episodes will focus on what happened between Night and Day. Ongoing theory in socmed is that Night is the reason for Day's condition. I'm not convinced because P'Aof has that reputation of subverting the 'obvious' in what motivates his characters' actions - i.e., Mes' uncle's financial woes led him to watch Mes die from a heart attack in He's Coming to Me, Tian's illegal race bet causing Torfun's death in ATOTS, and Ming betraying his bff, Dissaya, by stealing her scholarship grant as the root cause of the family rivalry in BBS.
I really am curious to see what P'Aof has cooked up this time. Plus, it's a beach episode next week 😊
#last twilight the series#last twilight ep 7#mhokday#mhok x day#jimmysea#jimmy jitaraphol#sea tawinan
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What’s Love Lock about??
This, like too many of my H/D stories, is an amalgamation of several stories I wanted to tell. I couldn't really figure out how they fit together, which is why I stalled on it.
One aspect isn't really a narrative story; the premise is that Harry is the nicest guy you will ever meet. I am tired--so tired--of people saying that Harry is thick, and stupid, and clueless, and cruel, for not loving Draco back. So tired. By the Grace was an attempt to write a story that shows why Harry might not immediately fall in love with Draco, in case you forgot that Draco bullied Harry and Harry's friends, not to mention tried to kill them; in case you forgot that Draco was classist and bigoted and awful. Anyway, that story still had people saying that Harry was a dick, so the petty part of me wanted to see what happened if Harry was even kinder and more supportive but still happened to not love Draco.
In the story Harry's in love with Ginny, who broke up with him a long time ago. Harry has accepted that she doesn't love him the way he loves her, but he believes he will never move on from her. She was The One for him, and he hasn't ever had feelings or even been attracted to anyone else since, so he just assumes that he's not really made to love more than one person in his life.
The next element of the story is teaching at Hogwarts. I often make Harry an Auror, because I really think that even though he would not be happy being an Auror, he thinks that's what he wants to do, and Harry is stubborn, and also not super emotionally intelligent. Like I think it would take a long time for him to realize that he doesn't love it. Meanwhile I really struggle to make Draco an Auror, because I just think that he would be so bad at it, and that he wouldn't want to, except to get into Harry's pants. I can believe that Draco would try to be an Auror in order to redeem himself, but that requires a lot of backstory, when all I really want is coworkers-to-lovers stories over and over (I think that's probably my favorite kind of love story).
So anyway, it's hard to think of scenarios over and over where Harry is an Auror and Draco is not, but they still cross paths all the time, and I had never written a professors-at-Hogwarts story, so I thought I'd give it a try. And with Harry being Mr. Nice, I realized that you could tell some really interesting stories that show how Harry has grown, become aware of his own abuse, and is able to really connect with some children as a result of that. He's really good with children who are outcasts and have anger issues, and Draco goes melty every time he sees Harry Potter talking gently to some grumpy third year.
After writing Away Childish Things I got very into the idea that Draco has always had a mortifying crush on Harry, and I'm not clear why that's not a staple in H/D fics. For some inexplicable reason, it's way more often Harry who has always been in love, an idea which I find somewhat repellent. I find myself really frustrated at what fandom has done with the "Harry was rapidly becoming obsessed with Draco Malfoy" line; Harry was obsessed because he thought Draco was a Death Eater and would maybe kill someone, which by the way, Draco tried to do--several times!!! Like yeah, definitely, read gay into things all you want, but next to Draco's behavior, Harry has no more interest in Draco than a rock in his shoe. Draco, meanwhile, seems to only think of Harry in years 1-5, seems to shape his whole existence around getting a rise out of Harry Potter. This is someone who is obsessed, who rapidly became obsessed years ago that day on the train.
Anyway, I wanted to write a story that explored that kind of obsession, which is not necessarily love but is perhaps a little more than lust. I wanted to show how Draco hated it in himself and was ashamed of it, and kept trying to destroy it, and yet there Potter was, always being strong and brave and hot, and Draco could just never stop himself.
Anyway, I wanted to show that this obsession had a lot to do with Harry's image and how Harry comes across, and that once Draco comes to know Harry when they both teach at Hogwarts, Draco understands that Harry is not only strong and hot and brave, but also sincerely kind and just and good. That's when the real trouble begins, because Draco falls so hard in love that he knows he'll never recover, but here Potter is still holding a torch for Ginny. Still, Harry and Draco become quite good friends; they confide in each other; they do things for the students together; they all around enjoy each other. Harry knows that Draco is gay, and Draco knows all about Harry's feelings for Ginny.
The problem is that this story--Draco falling for Harry while teaching at Hogwarts and the two of them becoming friends--has a lot of little plots involving Draco and Harry helping and caring for the students, getting involved in their little woes and victories. So while the only big, overarching plot is Draco falling in love, there are many many little narratives within.
The reason this is a problem is that was all supposed to be backstory.
The present day story is a love potion accident + bonding; it not only makes Harry fall in love with Draco but makes it so that Harry has to be in Draco's proximity or else he falls dangerously ill. Harry also feels much better when being touched by Draco. Hopefully you can imagine Draco's torture, being so in love with Harry but knowing that it's not real; not only is it not real but Harry loves someone else; not only does Harry love someone else, but Harry is his friend, and taking advantage of him in this state would ruin that friendship. Harry, meanwhile, has trouble understanding that loving Draco is a spell at all; he confesses that he really admires Draco and likes him and that he believes he's fallen in love. Draco refuses to believe this and furthermore states he has zero interest in Harry so there is no possibility of physical romance.
The cure takes a really long time to invent.
Then when Harry does get the cure, it becomes obvious that loving Draco really was just part of the potion. However, some weeks later, Harry confesses that he's never really thought about his sexuality and that the potions accident made him realize that perhaps there were aspects of himself he hasn't explored; he confesses that since the cure, he's been thinking about Draco in a new way. He knows that Draco isn't into him in that way, given how Draco acted when Harry was under the influence, but Harry tells Draco how he feels and asks if he could become interested; he asks if they could try something like dating and see how it goes.
Draco says no. He's convinced that the potion, though it is cured, addled Harry's brain and made him think he's things he's not; Draco's so terrified of taking advantage of Harry that he refuses to even consider it.
Time goes on. Harry decides to try dating other people. He dates a man. Draco has a nervous breakdown. Then Draco and Harry get together; the end.
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A True Believer and an Atheist Walk into a (Bar)
It goes something like this, you see; every joke goes a little something like this.
There used to be a mighty King who ruled over a great kingdom. He was the greatest king there ever was or ever will be, because, he said, all things bow to him. Even those who had never heard his name before. His name was not important.
This King so loved the world that he turned his heart outwards to it, and said, behold! I shall never rest until this world is perfect, until all sickness has been purged from it. And if I should die first, then I do it gladly, for the joy of having participated in what is good.
He was adored by all, especially those who hated him.
Now, many tributes came to this king from all over the world. He spurned none of them, from the faintest curse, lost in the wind, to the mightiest army raised by the finest warlord. He had but one criterion; that all of them be Go(o)d and partake in the Go(o)d.
(This is the funny part.)
Though all of the King's subjects had raised their voices to say, I want to live, and I will prove why I deserve it, only one voice ever troubled the perfect untroubled happiness of the Kingdom.
There was an old alchemist, older even than the King, who made it his business to transform lies into truths and truths into lies. This art was blasphemous to the King, but he allowed it to persist because the alchemist was protected by the Church. (Here the metaphor becomes a little fuzzy.)
One day, though, the alchemist told the King's sister a funny thing, and the King's sister shared it with him. What he said was this: there is no such thing as Go(o)d. It was made up, a concept that existed only in the minds of its practitioners, neither precise nor explanatory, and it was, ultimately, violable.
Well, the King could tolerate it no longer. He took up his Sword, left his throne in the hands of his daughters, and journeyed to meet the alchemist and prove him wrong.
The alchemist lived in a big black Pyramid and did his conversions there, entombed beyond sight. This was another reason for the King to dislike him, for the King himself had thrown down the walls of his palace long ago so that the beauty of his argument could be seen by all. To the King, this could only mean that the alchemist feared being wrong, which was proof enough that he was. (But in truth, the alchemist feared something else.)
As I have said, all things bowed to the King. He commanded the doors to open, and they shrank away from him as he approached. He commanded the halls to deliver him the straightest path to their master, and they fearfully erased all of their variance, which was a bother to the alchemist for years to come. And when the alchemist's loyal dog leapt to his defense, the King commanded it to heel, and it shrank away to the corner.
The alchemist could no longer ignore the King. He looked up, from where he was busy cutting open the flesh of a dragon, and said, “King of Only One Outcome. Why have you come here?”
“Is that any way to speak to your sovereign?” the King rumbled.
“I and my Pyramid do not fall under your authority.”
The King brandished his Sword. “Here is my authority,” he said, “the length and breadth of it. You tell me whether you fall under it currently.”
“You would not dare.”
“I am the Taken King, the First Navigator, Redeemer of Akka and Synonymous with Death. All I do is dare.”
The alchemist was quiet, and oh, was he angry; but he swallowed it. “Then, Navigator,” he said. “To what do I owe the honor of your visit?”
“You have spoken falsehoods, alchemist,” he said. “You have said there is no such thing as Go(o)d, and have made my philosophy a mere political position. Renounce this, and we will part on amicable terms.”
“You are a fool,” the alchemist said. “Long did I endeavor to hide myself from you and your kin, because we feared that if you saw my hand in your powers, you would rebel. And now you have seen my hand, and my history, and still you obey. Explain to me how this does not make you weak, according to your own philosophy, and I will relent.”
The King merely laughed. “It is no weakness to obey what is right,” he said. “But I do not obey you, Wizard, nor your master. I obey no earthly thing but Go(o)d.”
“You speak dangerous words.”
“I do! Everything is dangerous. To you, to me. To it.”
Now the alchemist could be pushed very far, but not forever. He, too, had loyalties. He had something he was willing to die for.
They fought, then, the two of them. The alchemist used every trick he possessed, every book in his storied halls, every thing of magic and science. These things he pitted against the simple edge of Oryx's blade. For the King had taken no other weapon. If he had, so he believed, he would no longer be King.
It was almost enough. There, in the secluded darkness of the old alchemist's one-day tomb, the future of everything was tested and very nearly decided. For all of us.
Of course, the alchemist lost. The King's boot came down on his chest, and he spat up blood. Then, he smiled.
For the alchemist did not believe in Go(o)d. He did not care to win, or to lose. And the King, for the first time since his youth, became angry.
“I have seen many who have smiled at their deaths,” he said, “but it did not save them.”
“It does not need to. I am saved already. You would not strike me down, dog. Not so long as you would invoke the wrath of my master.”
The King sharpened his blade, and became so angry that a terrible storm began. For now he beheld the true measure of the alchemist, and the trap that had been laid for him. To kill him now would be to bring wrath unending onto his people. But to spare him would undo everything his Kingdom had worked for.
It was a test he feared the Hive would not survive, in his heart of hearts. For there was nothing in that awful hand that would mantle him when the wrath had passed. Nothing that would take him into himself. Nothing Go(o)d. Only coldness and despair and fury.
When does doubt take root in the hearts of the faithful? Can you pinpoint it? Is it when they look at the universe, and see nothing staring back at them? Is it when they weep, and wail, and feel the cold touch of fear? Is it when they cry out, My Go(o)d, why have you forsaken me?
Some would surrender their faith. Some would break and fold. Some would live the rest of their lives in terror, never deciding what they believed in.
But not the King. Not our King. Our King was devoted, and brave, willing to sacrifice, willing to…
Oh, it is so funny. I wish you could see it too. Why do I weep? Because I'm laughing so hard.
The King's blade was stayed at the very last second. Not by the alchemist, not by his master, not by his own doubt.
His cunning sister, who loved him dearly, had given him the proof of her love, and rigged his Sword to blow up/his ship to be eaten by dragons/his corporeal form to be dissolved by fission warheads/his heart to break. And the King, howling in love and admiration, went back out into the night.
There was no reason for the trap to be sprung when it was. It just did. Right? That makes a kind of sense, doesn't it? It makes for a good story. It asks less of the listener.
The alchemist hid himself. The King never met him again. The Hive were spared the all-consuming wrath, the King was spared his choice between life and death.
(Do you think he ever thought about it? Did he blame himself? Did he wonder what would have happened, if he had been allowed to bring down the Hive’s real test upon them? Did he imagine justifying himself after the Voice in the Darkness broke his children’s bodies like dolls? After it swallowed up his siblings and kept them, screaming, in amber? Did he always wonder if he could have done it? Did he blame me, for taking away the very question? Did he…?)
There. That's the joke. Funny, isn't it? I still laugh when I think about it.
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I get what you are trying to say but Darkling did not love Alina. He loved her power. He saw not value in her as her own person. Yes, the Darkling and Alina’s dynamic is complicated but it’s not supposed to be seem as a “romantic undertone” is abuse, is gaslighting, is a man using his power on a vulnerable teenager. The OP was asking the right questions. That phase should NOT be romanticized because it’s pure evil and disgusting. It should not be interpreted as “grey”. Abuse is abuse. There’s not layers to consider, especially coming from the darkling. This is a years old being that has mastered the arts of manipulation, not a teenager or a simple person.
** TW ABUSE**
Hi nonny. Not gonna lie, the first thing I did when I read this ask was laugh because I spend every day trashing the darkling as a person, and suddenly I’m defending him? What is happening? It’s much more complicated then that though. I’m gonna link you to this post if you’re interested because I think it’s very relevant.
I want to start this off by saying that if I say something that comes across as controversial, I am speaking from my own personal experience with abuse in real life, and not because I think the darkling is an innocent baby.
I mentioned liking the romantic undertone of d/arklina in the books BECAUSE it was very problematic. One of my favorite themes in Shadow and Bone is power and corruption. If Mal represents Alina’s old life, and her tether to humanity, then the Darkling is the opposite. He is immortality and unlimited power no matter the cost. It’s a complete disconnect from the average human population, from little poor orphan girls. I like that the darkling manipulates her, and attempts to seduce her because that’s what power does. Absolute power corrupts absolutely. It tricks you into wanting more and more until you’ve crossed a line that you weren’t even aware was there.
I personally don’t believe in the idea of “pure evil” in real life, and by extension realistic characters. I think ideals can be evil. Behaviors can be evil. I do not believe humans are born evil, and whatever behaviors they are exhibiting are likely something they have learnt from the world around them. Does that make the behavior okay? Of course not. They are still a person though.
In real life I completely understand why it would be comforting to view something like abuse as very black and white, and it’s really not my business how someone deals with something that traumatized them. For myself though, one of the hardest lessons I’ve had to learn in my life is that abusers aren’t evil, they’re just people. If there are no layers, and the abuser is just inherently a bad person, I am not holding them accountable for all of the choices they have repeatedly made.
I have to disagree, I think the Darkling did love Alina. I believe he yearned for nothing more than an equal and a companion. The hero to his monster, without which neither could be complete. But what he was yearning for was a lie.
I like Baghra’s quote on this being “Know that I loved you, know that it wasn’t enough.” She learned how to love from a toxic family, and a toxic environment towards all people like her. Aleksander learned to love from Baghra. You can love someone and still abuse them. You can love someone and try an control them. You can love someone and choose power over them.
It’s all very ironic. Love can be toxic and all consuming to an unhealthy degree, and that’s the very thing that lead to the Darkling’s downfall. I don’t see this as romanticizing abuse (again from someone who’s been through it). Real people are grey. He should have wants and goals and feelings as a character, that doesn’t mean he’s even redeemable. It’s tragic.
The darkling wasn’t able to stop the cycle of generational trauma and violence. He was once a young boy who wanted love and equality. He grew into a centuries old man who abused those around him to meet his goals. He perpetuated violence.
But who does succeed in breaking that cycle? Alina. Like it or not, the entire point is that she could eventually grow into the mirror image of the Darkling. It’s all about individual choices. She does not have to return the darkling’s love and team up with him just to make herself look brighter. She does not have to risk it all for power. She does not have to throw every part of that little orphan girl away until she’s unrecognizable. But she so easily could. And that’s terrifying.
Mercy is at the end of the day, Alina’s true super power. She does see that scared little boy inside of Aleksander, and that’s a good thing!!! Not so she can be in love with him and live behind some white picket fence, but so she won’t repeat his mistakes. She sees the darkling as a human just like everyone else. If she didn’t, I think that might be very bad for everyone.
#tw abuse#i love literary analysis#and I managed not to get too personal so I’m proud of myself#thanks nonny!#shadow and bone#anti darkling#anti darklina#sab#alina starkov#Aly answers#anonymous
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Hi!! For the ask game (if you're doing it) what about 1, 6, 23 and 26? :D
Snape for the character ask game I assume!
1. Why do you like or dislike this character?
Severus Snape is such an asshole and I think he’s hilarious—
Really the range between his revealed heroic virtues and his observable petty vices/actions makes him so interesting to me when he’s on the page; he isn’t a nice person, he’s mean and tries to get into verbal sparring matches with children (…and he can and will lose that fight even if he scores more points overall (even if only because he got himself into that fight in the first place)…) but he does the right thing (in the shadows) and plays a vital role in the triumph of the narrative good over evil, he was the catalyst for the events that led to Harry Potter becoming “The Boy Who Lived” and the protagonist of the narrative, he fucked up and, while people may quibble over whether he was redeemed or not, he dedicated himself to atoning (redemption and atonement aren’t quite the same, are they?).
He’s talented and brilliant and competent and powerful and skilled etc. etc. but he’s not “Cool TM”, and I love that (…if a character is not at least partially responsible for their own disasters and a little bit unhinged then what is the point of seeing what they’ll do next?)
6. What's something you have in common with this character?
Um… maybe not a great deal?
I suppose I was bullied a bit as a kid for being an intense weirdo with a dramatic flair (…I mean, I still am very much am…) but I was usually able to walk/wander away and I liked walking more than waiting for a bus and no one was that invested in making me suffer and I had a sufficient support network, so, yeah, I was lucky and don’t really have much in common with Severus Snape.
23. Favorite picture of this character?
This is a very tough question! There are so many excellent Snape-artists and pictures…
I am going to make this easier on myself and say that my favorite picture(s) of Severus Snape that I have personally drawn is the three panel sequence in “It’s not easy being green” when Sirius and James make him realize the flaw in his plan to photosynthesize rather than waste time eating food— I’m still very happy with how those expressions turned out.
26. FREEBIE QUESTION!!
What is the Freebie question? Um… how about a random headcanon?
Severus Snape knows all sorts of fun facts about different parasites and at least one of his jars is full of specimens of fish with Cymothoa exigua, and he has a box of arthropod victims of assorted parasitic fungi; he speaks wistfully of wanting a tank of Candiru for study purposes and either proving or disproving the semi-legendary traits of that little fish. This has not made him a popular dining companion (and he knows it)
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“clear out, I’ll take care of these guys.”
spinner and compress sent you quick, timid looks before nodding and running away, leaving you alone with the army of d-list heroes and sidekicks.
almost alone.
“the fuck are you talkin’ about?” a raspy voice said, their presence appearing behind you as soon as your other two teammates vanished. “you can’t take out all these guys.”
your gaze remained fixated on the heroes in front of you. “losing one of us is better than losing three, dabi.”
“yeah, no shit.” dabi growled. “but it’s ideal to lose none. and the only way we’re doing that is if you got backup.”
“just go.” you said. “i can take them.”
“are you deaf?” he asked. “i just said you can’t.”
“well, i think you’re being pessimistic.”
“yeah?” you nodded. “well, I think you’re being a fucking masochist.”
“don’t remember you ever having a problem with that before.” you quipped.
you didn’t have to turn around to be able to tell dabi was glaring at you. “clear out, t’ll take them.” he said.
“no, i-”
“as lieutenant of the meta liberation army, i’m ordering you to clear out. understand?” he interrupted.
it was hard to argue with that, but you turned around to meet his cold glare and tried anyways.
“spinner and compress are valuable. spinner’s got all for one’s gift and compress is the only one of us besides that creep-fuck of a doctor who actually has medical knowledge.” you said. “they’re important, so i have to keep them safe.”
“are you really trying to play martyr right now? jesus fucking christ.”
“i’m not playing anything, i’m being logical. the logical thing to do is sacrifice myself to keep the rest of you safe so you guys can win this war.”
“sounds a lot like a martyr to me? what’s next, you expect us to build you a shrine?”
“i’m not gonna fucking die, dabi.” you snarled. “the heroes aren’t gonna kill me.”
“tell that to twice.”
you rolled your eyes. “you see hawks anywhere? ‘cause I don’t. just a bunch of sidekicks and wannabes. they couldn’t kill me if they wanted to.”
“so you’re gonna rot the rest of your life in tartarus?”
you shrugged. “you’ll break me out when you win.”
dabi kissed his teeth. “i’m not here for the long haul, either.”
“‘s exactly why i gotta do it. you’ve got a fight to win. a dad to kill or whatever. shigaraki’s gonna take the little all might kid, toga’s gonna avenge twice, and i’ve already gone over spinner and compress...”
“i can incinerate this entire field in a fuckin’ second.”
“please, you’re withering away by the minute.” you poked his scarred chest. “don’t waste your power on these nobodies.”
he said nothing, but you continued.
“you’ve gotta reason to stay, dabi. i don’t. so fuck off and save my ass when your deadbeat dad’s in hell, ‘kay?”
“fuckin’ fine.” he huffed. “don’t let ‘em fuck up your face. it’s your only redeeming quality.”
you smiled. “got it, lieutenant.”
he covered his obvious discontent with your deal with his staple monotonous glare and walked away, leaving you defenseless in the heart of the war.
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it didn’t take long for you to get overwhelmed by the of heroes and succumb to their power. as you laid face-down in the dirt, a pair of quirk-canceling cuffs being locked on your sore wrists, you met a pair of blue eyes in the distance.
you prayed he didn’t see the blood on your face.
#might do a part two if y'all are interested#dabi x reader#todoroki touya x reader#dabi blurb#dabi fanfic#wc:585#dabi#my fics
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HELLO !! IM THE JAMIL ANON AND I LOVE WHAT U WROTE !! if u don’t mind … what if likw . jamil and s/o started dating and they had dinner w jafar . i think it would be a little funny maybe .
HI!! hehe so glad you loved it! :D<3
also headcanon: all of the boys based off the great seven (jamil w jafar, etc.) are fanboys.
*＊✿❀【Ｊａｍｉｌ ａｔ Ｊａｆａｒｓ Ｆａｍｉｌｙ Ｄｉｎｎｅｒ】❀✿＊*
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that i realize i accidentally did lunch instead of dinner, oops:’)
Warnings; Jamil’s suffering, otherwise N/A
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When you first tell Jamil about the invite, he doesn’t think much of it til he see’s the black letter with golden lettering in your hand and suddenly he really really wants to crawl in a hole and hide
but he can’t, because even though it’s Jafar, he’s also your family and if this was theory then he’d be quaking at the thought but it’s reality and he’s dying
you thought he was internally screaming at the Study Sesh? You can hear the muffled screaming because this isn’t some 3-on-1 study session as two students concerned about grades
THIS is going to a family dinner as your boyfriend and oh god Jafars probably been laughing about the way he accidentally misspelled that one word-
If Kalim is there then he’s choosing the fanciest crap he can and lays it before Jamil explaining how they’re all backups for backups
You’re in the back picking between 2 outfits and Jamil is panicking because he doesn’t know how he should dress, important man + party = probably super formal, and then you come out with some sort of outfit that’s anything but formal and he’s frozen
ON to the part with the actual lunch
It’s really just Jafar(ofc), you, Jamil, and some cousins that were visiting from somewhere for dinner to catch up
Jamil is stiff most of the time and picks at his food, eating in small portions at a time
He doesn’t say anything other than introducing himself, he knows he doesn’t look like anything’s wrong but on the inside he’s a wet cat shivering in confusion and fear
Jafar stares at him at some point before pulling you aside and asking about him, and you’re forced to explain that your boyfriends still in the cold shock of realizing he’s in the presence of his idol and s/o
Your cousins try to include him but his answers are short and.. awkward
When it’s all over you’re beaming “That went well” and Jamil is on his hands and knees “Oh my god that went horrible the only way to redeem myself is death-“
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Hi! In light of the Gressil-is-alive theory that i saw you post a while back, i was wondering if you had any theories or hcs on his return, backstory, or just his personality in general?
OH BOY! Do I got ideas for this dude…! Why thank you lovely anon for asking me such a fun question. I don’t get to ramble about this topic very much due to the fandom being so small hahahah
Big ass wall of text warning, and warning of spoilers of late fast pass chapters, you’ve been warned!
Honestly there’s a lotta options based on the knowledge we have right now as a fandom. And it also depends solely on if Ms freaky wants to prolong his stay in the series or not, and if she wants to mildly redeem(I use the word lightly lol) him or not as well.
On one side I could see a return being along the lines of he is acting how he has before, and has a hatred for Rayne and wants revenge. Though I feel like at this point that’s so bland it would be sad to see a story arc used like that.
Another possibility could be he comes back and has almost a bit of a worshipping mentality to Rayne. After all she did basically let him live(without her knowing of course) and gave him the ability to heal wounds completely over time. For a sadomasochist like him that is a wish come true surely lol
You have a middle ground where he is angry at her, but reluctant to want to kill her or hunt her down but utterly hates Raynes guts as well. The most likely of the options I feel based on Ms Freaky’s writing style. It lets him be dropped off as a character when not needed, without a need to flesh his character out anymore.
The more fun idea that I myself personally love is that he has amnesia. Though perhaps not the same as Rayne herself. But he DID get shot in the head, point blank nearly at that. Even if he does heal slowly, they could cause severe memory loss without the ability to even get it back. It could be a semi clean slate to begin actually writing about Gressil. And it would force Rayne to once again face the facts that not everyone stays how they were. She’s facing that with Raven slowly, and seeing Gressil be wiped clean nearly could force her to face the facts again and re-evaluate things. Even people she did know(mystery woman in her past!)if she gets memories back to realize some people also won’t ever change.
Ms freaky has a insane reluctance to want to even admit Gressil existed as a character 90% of the time. Only when she wants him for a joke does she typically talk about to bring him back in any way. Though the reluctance could easily be her avoidance to talk about Gressil due to spoilers she doesn’t want to say. But even then she did talk about Rayne, Raven, Kenny and others openly before they had story beats dropped on us and she managed to avoid spoilers. I can’t quite say if ms freaky just begrudgingly realizes the fact fans like Gressil or she’s simply avoiding talking about him due to spoilers.
Let’s see… back story wise, it could go anywhere for Gressil. He has so very little for backstory that it’s insane. Everyone in that arc BUT Gressil has at least hints of back story and are now being fleshed out much more. Or died and were given backstories with a decent amount of depth(Navin and Mateo), and here is Gressil with like. Nothing. I think personally at the time he was made, he was made to be an antagonist to Rayne and easy to hate and not much else. He was just a hurdle to jump over writing wise.
At this point if he does come back it’s likely his backstory is being added in to forward some other sort of plot. Whether that be making Rayne question her beliefs, adding a new member to the party(unlikely), having him join a group she is up against, or anything of the like. Whatever can push his character towards a direction that’s favoring to the overall story. Nothing to relevant much to my dismay surely.
Though if you want to delve into things, ms Freaky has described Gressil in ways that could add to how he acted before the apocalypse. She has described him as easily bored and rash(in relevance to her being asked about relatable traits in her OCs) he could easily have been a person during normal times that kept doing things outta boredom and enjoyed the idea of the world ending basically cause of the lack of rules.
A rule breaker at his core could mean he was a bully perhaps. Or at least picked on people in school. That is if he even went to school. He could have a shitty household life that made him take out his emotions in others as well. Or have a twisted view on things even. Mimicking behavior is likely, and Mateo could have been filling in a gap of whomever he mimicked from back in the day so it felt ‘normal’ to him. The thrill excites him so he could have done a lot in his normal times to try and get that adrenaline kick. Seemingly he lives off of it. But again it goes back to me thinking he had a shitty household life. Usually people who want those sort of high adrenaline kicks and risky things in life are ones who are always on high alert so you have to top it to feel anything and feel control. He’s a control junky as well, and utterly HATES being told he is wrong or being scolded. Especially by people he deems below him. Again it leads into the idea that he definitely has some sort of attachment to Mateo that is far from healthy. Mateo is the only one who seemingly can tell Gressil off and he is compliant and fine with it, and obviously enjoys it as well. Many kinks can also be gained from taking control of things around you that are less then favorable. Taking control of verbal and physical abuse both to one self and to others as a kink is… super big signs that he could have lived with and spring really cruddy people.
And a lot of this plays into his personality as well. Before the apocalypse he could have been much more inwardly aggressive. He doesn’t have the ability to take control of things around him so he could self compartmentalize much of this. Leading to him going all out when there aren’t any rules in line for him to keep on the narrow path he had to be on.
And if he comes back, especially in the case of amnesia, it could change his whole personality. Think of someone like him losing all of the mental struggles in one click of the fingers? It could easily change his whole personality. Even if he lost only chunks of his memories, it’s enough to lessen the damage he received from his past. He would still be Gressil, sadomasochist and power imbalance lover with a interest in blood. But it wouldn’t be to the extremes it is now. It’s a intriguing idea.
Overall there’s so many routes Ms freaky could take with him. And I’ll be damned if she doesn’t actually use this plot relevant snippet of him licking Raynes blood to bring him back and use him for interesting reasons. If she doesn’t, you best bet I will. It’s a waste of a story beat to me that was never dealt with properly at this point and leaves a string hanging out there in the wind.
Though, I think you’ve perhaps read enough ramblings of a madman at this point, right?
If you(or anyone who reads this, thanks if you do as well!)have anymore Gressil related questions or art ideas or anything, pleaaaaase send them in. I love to dissect or draw or do anything with this crunchy little man and his ways. It’s always fun to me, even if I’m always reluctant to admit it, I love this character and any chance to talk about, draw, or even include my insert in these things makes me veeeeeery happy.
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😳 Hottest Sonic Take?
ok definitely not my hottest sonic take but some things are best left unsaid. regardless uhhh one of them . at least in the realm of scourge fans specifically is that m*ghtourge as a ship SUCKS it SUCKS its HORRIBLE and i cant even begin to bring myself to apologize for it. like i dont feel sorry at all like you take away scourge's tacky sunglasses and you take away the tacky flame and then you make him into a smol uwu bean housewife for some godforsaken reason (namely because you dont understand the character even a little bit like this is top ten fundamental misunderstandings ever of all time) for your bad yaoi. im not even going to call it m/m its YAOI. then you ship him with .... mighty ? mighty, a guy who has 1) Standards 2) absolutely no relation to scourge even a little bit 3) NO DYNAMIC THERE TO EXPLORE. THERES NOTHING INTERESTING HERE. its literally. ok sonourge is onecest (its not like . problematic i guess its just really weird) and i am notably not a fan but at least theres something to EXPLORE. the amount of character assassination you would have to do to get that to work is truly incredible but with m*ghtourge its literally character assassination but for the worlds most boring cardboard box bland instant gratification fanon crappy yaoi GARBAGE. theres NOTHING interesting here and none of these people even want to write a scourge redemption arc anyways they literally just want to make everything he ever did not his fault because a) moebius lead poisoning or something, which weirdly enough does not apply to any of the other moebians except for scourge b) his daddy issues c) his trauma or d) some combination of the above. so basically "he was never evil to begin with he was just really sad and lonely 😌✨" which is literal trash like i dont even know where to begin on this one. look. im a huge fan of redemption arcs but this is neither a redemption nor an arc this is an EXCUSE HEEL-FACE TURN. ITS TRASH. ITS TRASH. OHHHHH ITS JUST GARBAGE i actually have way more i could say on this but i will spare you the rest . this got a little out of hand. oh well
🫡 Coldest Sonic Take?
i dont like surge and kit all that much im SORRYYYYYYYYYY im sorry but its TRUEEEEEEEE. literally they have been redeemed so much in my eyes by the passion for them of my dear mutuals bunnymajo and cartoonrival so we're back to "decidedly neutral" but like . im sorry its not even their fault theyre just .... okay because the thing with me is that when characters who i feel decidedly neutral on get super popular and nobody will ever shut up about how amazing and perfect and poor uwu bean they are ... this is the quickest path to get me to dislike them.
added on top of the fact that they were literally like the entire idw focus for a year AND people (non-archie fans, specifically,) kept . bafflingly. beyond all reason and comprehension. comparing surge to scourge (which i have already ummmm written about my opinions on) it just. im sorry guys 💔 theyre okay. theyre Fine. they just never really clicked with me and then people were super annoying about them and particularly annoying in the direction of archie sonic, a series which i am aggressively defensive over in the face of idw fans 😭
#ask game answers#authorleaandres#THANK YOUUUU also sorry for uh . getting on my soapbox a bit there. well its all true but still
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umm jr² loreposting by episodes. if u care.
so, my s/i is besties with mona-lisa. so me and jean have def met before (i mean how can u be besties with someone and just Not meet their sibling wGDH), but we probably haven't talked a ton. we've prob just said like.. hey in passing lol. We Know Of each other.
2x23 the master plan - we'd have like a proper meeting at april's party lol. i'd go to tell april happy birthday and i'm like "heyy happy birthday april :D!... and ?.. jean-ralphio's here... That's a surprise" wFKHSN but we'd chat a bit. <- i'd probably pick up on andy/april liking e/o so for her to be w jean is so jarring to see wGHNJS. ermm we might interact more in this ep? i kinda wanna rewrite this ep so andy and april get together -> me and jean interact more but idk. ummmm also i probably realize that Oh. now that i see him for more than a minute he's kinda cute wGJHN
3x9 andy & april's wedding - btwn eps we'd chat some more :o maybe not total friend status but close. i can't think of anything rly specific for this ep we prob just talk n hang in the kitchen when he's not in kahoots w tom wgskdhnk?
3x13 the fight (my fav ep wooo) - at this point we're friends. i'm sitting w tom at a table and jean comes over to chat. during this ep jean constantly makes raps with ppl's names but just can't end them on a rhyme, so. Obviously. he tries to make one out of my name. he fails miserably and i'm like "....well i do have two first names, so you can try one with 'reyes'. ykno, maybe you can redeem yourself" and he does and fails again and me and tom are like "that's worse... How is that Worse" WKEHSJG. i feel like at some point i'd just be vibing by myself at a booth and he comes over n talks to me. everyone in this ep is so Out There (mainly cus they're drunk lol) and i'm just very To Myself and he tries to get me to have fun/be outgoing. wait he'd absolutely try to get me to dance or wtvr wHNJGSN. also i just realized i would have to not only deal w everyone being drunk (i'm the only sober one along w chris and donna) but i'd have to deal w jean being drunk.. and he's a sad drunk (or at least with snakejuice he is)... g-dwjgsdhj. i'm just sitting at the bar on my phone and he comes up like heyyy *insert stupid nickname he makes up for me here* my man hows it going and we chat which quickly turns into him just randomly discussing abt his parents unhappy marriageKWGNSJD (<- i have so much lore for their family) and i'm just like 🧍♂️..oh. sorry about that?? wHSKDNH
3x16 li'l sebastian - so during this ep jean tries to convince tom to join him and create entertainment 720 (multimedia conglomerate... they literally do the same stuff as waystar, but they don't Actually do it cus they're so bad at their jobs lmao), while also working on the memorial for li'l sebastian together. i would be helping them w the video presentation that happens later that night (i'd also help with smaller stuff for preparing the memorial). tom is off discussing plans with someone else and while jean and i work he talks abt entertainment 720, and how they'd need video editors and suggests i could work w them. i say i'm totally down for it and that it sounds fun and at the end of the episode when they create the company i work there with/for them :3
e720 era is very short lived but i have sm thoughts..... but i don't feel like typing them all out rn wsHN basically during e720 we become real good/best friends and also mutual pining era begins hehe
ok. time to skip to
4x6 end of the world - (my 2nd fav ep) this is the ep where Unfortunately e720 dies wHKSNG, bUT on the bright side it is also the ep where we become canon <3 at some point during the party jean texts lucy (tom's ex) to come to the party and they both reconcile/it's implied they get back together. i feel like after he sort of sets them up he decides he wants to confess to me. edit!: i believe the marching band bit is after the tomlucy stuff.....and during the marching band bit jean wears a pink/black uniform ..which are my favorite colors (and literally my hair color) 🤨🤨he could not be any less subtle (but i'm so oblivious i don't even think twice abt it.. i'm just like oh haha what a coincidence :D).....ok anyways. i'm hiding away in the pirate ship bouncy castle, just like.. in a corner on my phone. vibing. (<- one thing about me is i will be in a corner at a party) he eventually finds me and we just sit together talking. i go on a tangent about thanking him and tom for this opportunity and how fun it was to work w them (even tho they barely worked lmao) and get closer w them and blah blah blah. he's quiet during this but it's not like a bad quiet. like he's just rly listening. when i finally shut up he agrees w like. everything i said and just adds onto it. he says he really enjoyed my company and i'm like yeah :> same here and there's just a silence (tension? 🤔) for a min while we just sit together skhDNG i start to talk abt smth and he just. kisses me. and i'm frozen wsDKH he thinks my reaction is negative so he starts to apologize so i'm like ??!?!?! i'm trying to talk but i can't get the words out (i am v awkward lol) but eventually i do and i'm like "!???! NO NEEd to apologizE!! i mean i uhh i like you. too. so. yeah. There..?!? i mean.. If that kiss meant you like me?? which i hope it does? i mean it'd be kinda weird to do that if you Didn't like me??? do you?-" (bAsically i'm a mess) and he's like ! Yes! and we talk it out and we. start dating. Yeah. (ermmmmmm just had a thought . he asks if he can kiss me again bc that first kiss wasn't a ~real~ kiss and i'm like 'um. i mean Yeah. but like. i don't really know How? to kiss?? well i mean i know How, like i watch movies..but i don't know Howww to kiss?' and he just teaches me how to kiss lmaowgsjhhkn ALL WHILE? IN A BOUNCY CASLTE THAT ANYONE CAN WALK IN ON LMAOSGJNHok anyways. um. he teaches me and we're laughing and giddy . and we kiss. like for reals. ummm and he's like i wanted to do that for a whilewrkhnjhlICNAT ICANT DO THISim done goodbye oh my g-d)
ummmm during the rest of s4 we're secretly dating
i don't know Where but somewhere in season 5 we become public. no one is surprised wKHDNS except like.. ann and leslie. they're surprised for sure. esp leslie like it takes a whileeee for them to warm up to us together wlgdjhn
UHHH that's it. goodbye *runs back to my cave*
#.txt#lore tag#tweeted this earlier but figured i may as well. putthis here wHSNH i mean that's what this blog is for#ok technichally i just posted short desc's for the eps like i did not go into as much detail as i did here. for reasons.#<- i just feel embarrassed wHrhN#also Apologies for infodumping on some eps . idk how many ppl actually watch this show i just want every1 to knw the Context#also typing the eps out made me realize thisseems to happen faster than i thought .#i forgot how much time canonically passes.#queuing this bc i'm too embarrassed to post .#jean
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