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phe-purple-parade · 2 years

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Just remembered when my hs lit studies class read Hamlet (that class was so fun, always had a laugh with those guys) and we chose roles 'cause we wanted to like act it out during readings (resulting in some hilarious moments, like when I had to drag my classmate 'off stage' after mime-stabbing him through a blanket another classmate held up)

Anyway I read for Hamlet because that's so gender (and no one else really wanted to lol) and I lowkey liked the girl who happened to be reading for Horatio (it wasn't a crush but I uhhh yk thought she looked good n was cool like she read Jane Austen and did her research project on how Audrey Hepburn influenced fashion n stuff and just,, I think if she had ever asked me out I wouldn't've declined but ultimately it was aesthetic attraction more than anything else. And she was v likely straight)

And so I couldn't really suggest that like,, Hamlet and Horatio are perhaps gay for eo or anything 'cause I wouldn't've wanted to make her uncomfortable or anything

Earlier that year almost our entire class agreed that Dorian and Basil from The Picture of Dorian Gray were gay and she was legit like 'oh, I didn't think of that' like this girl was surprised?? We're all here either outright saying 'they're gay harold' or generally agreeing but she just,, did not consider the gay subtext afjahdkfkl (our teacher was trying to palm it off with an alternative interpretation and like yeah screw amatonormativity and all but,, the context, man. Oscar 'The Homosexual' Wilde was definitely queercoding his characters during the repressed as hell Victorian era ok?? But this was a Christian school so.. but like. Legit one of the classmates I sat with wrote a Dorian x Basil fixitfic I can't). And I basically ended up saying to her 'your interpretation is totally valid.. but you're wrong' nOT THAT I MEANT TO SAY IT LIKE THAT BUT IT KINDA CAME OUT THAT WAY AND EVERYONE REACTED LIKE I'D SPAT A SICK BURN OOF NO GUYS I'M JUST NEURODIVERGENT

So yeah while I wished I was cool n confident enough, there was no way I could've made a flirty joke about Hamlet and Horatio with this girl (even tho I generally wanted to point it out)

#this girl read tsoa but didn't realise Basil and Dorian or Hamlet and Horatio might be a bit queer like girl what??#anyway #in an alternate universe i would've talked to her more. probs still wouldn't've flirted but I would've tried to make friends w her or smth #i think most of the class understood that h&h were a lil fruity tho like we all saw what we saw #it's not like we even read most of the scenes w hamlet and horatio #hh idk what I'm doing here i gotta do stuff #also disclaimer im not saying they MUST be gay again i would like to punch amatonormativity in the gut. but like also I don't wanna be #insisting that they're straight 'cause i would also like to kick heteronormativity in the teeth #they can be both. they can be both queer and platonic best buds. both interpretations can coexist. but when ppl are trying to tell u it's #completely straight and trying to push ur queer interpretation aside?? no i'm allowed to assert an interpretation differing from yours #i wasn't out in hs tho so it's not like i had the backing of 'im queer and i want to interpret these characters as queer so let me do that'#although ppl did ask friends of mine if im gay which is weird like just ask me?? the answers still no (and it's true - I'm not gay) but if #if u don't already know whether im queer or not. perhaps u weren't supposed to know #high school was an interesting time oof #anyway oh my gosh i need to get off tumblr and do things and then go to bed!

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