#i still dont like. know how to do tags. is that it. am i done
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this is a rant, vent, jumble of words im feeling and need to get it out of my system because im a little done
please scroll along if you dont wanna read, or dont, i dont control you
it never ceases to amaze me just how cruel people in fandoms can be. cruel, mean, hyprocritical, straight up dumb.
dont get me wrong, these people are a minority. i have found myself amongst the best sort of people in fandoms i am a part of and couldnt be happier for the friendships i have made from them.
but this incredibly loud minority piss me off to no end. i stay away from any sort of discourse, silently watching from the background and watch thing blow up over trivial matters, and then learn who to avoid in those circles and move on with my life
but when i see, what i consider to be blatant bullying, to someone i hold dear, i dont want to be quiet anymore. im not a loud figure, im a tiny blog that loves to simp over 2d characters, a tiny stream channel that i interact with like minded people. and i mean i am TINY, im barely a blip on this wide web. so anything i say, it doesnt go anywhere, so still, i stay silent until i cant anymore.
so lets get to the crux of the matter.
if you dont like a character, you dont get to make others feel bad about liking them. i dont care if you think they are problematic, if you dont like their story, their look, or simply the fact that they exist
you dont get to make someone feel bad for finding a connection with them and loving them
you dont get to attack them about liking the character, passively or aggressively, you dont get to make fun of them and any of the work they do around them. you have no right to take it upon yourself and make someone feel like they dont belong just because they like a character that you dont
if you dont like the character, dont fucking interact, its that bloody simple. scroll away. mute the tag, mute the channel, whatever. just walk away
interacting with someones content for the pure purpose to make fun of it is cruel. you are making it public that you want to demean the person for what they enjoy. and the worst thing is, if you catch the attention of the younger audience, they learn that they get to act that way, and this kind of online activity only gets worse
it already has gotten worse. man, im a millenial and i thought keyboard warriors when i was in highschool and older where bad. these days the younger generation feel justified to think that they can say whatever they want and suffer no consequences of those actions. i see it in so many fandom discourses. its horrible
but they learn from the worst of us on the internet. the more they see the cruel interactions, the more they think its okay to act that way. and without a doubt, fandoms will end up being incredibly toxic environments that people wont feel comfortable to exist in anymore.
every fandom has a toxic space, its unfortunate but it is true. i wish it wasnt
and the smaller the fandom, the louder this toxic group is
it just fucking sucks. and watching people i care about be treated so badly hurts because all i can do is be their support. an ear, a shoulder, just someone they can vent to. but it doesnt stop the fact that they got hurt and i cant do anything about it
god i dont even know what this even turned into. im tired, im upset, im just so frustrated.
why cant people just be nice?
if you managed to read all the way down here, man i applaud you. that was a great mess of thoughts, i still have many more but at this point i feel like i would be repeating myself
please, just. be kind guys. its not that hard, i swear it
to all my moots, honestly, i love you guys. seeing all your work and love you put into your creations gives me life and brightens my day. dont ever stop loving your craft and your fav characters just because someone decided to be a prick.
#meow rants!#honestly if you read this you are a champion lol#do good#be nice#this really is just a jumble of thoughts i needed to get out and what better place than a tiny blog#i wish i could do more but alas this is all im good for#to all my moots i love you all
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i know that maruki is the one that like brings akechi back to life in the third semester but this was way funnier to me conceptually
^ sketch bc i dont think i really captured his face as well in the render as i did in the raw doodle
#my art#p5#goro akechi#p5 crow#p5 lavenza#i still dont like. know how to do tags. is that it. am i done
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What if I straight up didn't explain myself? What if I just said trust me on this? Would you?
#fe warriors three hopes#mercedes von martritz#miklan anschutz gautier#we really only need to clarify this is STRICTLY warriors miklan and i think ive already condemned myself but i accept it#i am very sorry but the person i usually would talk to about rare pairs has been a bit busy so i couldnt go to them to get it out that way#so art is the only way i have you have to understand its not my fault (its my fault)#did you guys know i reset the azure gleam map three times before googling the chapter where he dies to try and save him#no i dont think he deserves to be pardoned for what hes done but i liked that w3h gave him a small chance to be better FOR HIMSELF#no i dont think he should simply be forgiven for everything he did but i do like that he was given humanity and how#he was still not a good guy but damn you guys i think about that npc sometimes#who says that they admired him becoming something despite being a criminal bc if miklan can do it whats stopping them from being better ?#like that npc stuck with me a while ok#just ......... there are a lot of thoughts here that i dont think many of you care to read even in tags so ill stop now#i will say the canvas is saved as speed run to cancellation lesgo
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Like OK so I've been reading a fic with trans wolfwood in it that is so. HONEST. About how it affected him and still affects him. In a way that's very much not an average cis writer portrayal of a trans character.
Like. Either this writer is trans or did plenty of research, but it just feels REAL to me. And it has me thinking about my own way of writing trans Wolfwood.
I'm not there yet. But I've been thinking about it. The ways that what the EOM did fucked him up... but it also acted as HRT that affirmed his gender. So what do you do when you're in a body you don't recognize, but looks much more like a man than ever before? There's some gender euphoria in a way, but dysphoria at the same time bc you didn't grow into this. You didn't watch yourself transition. Suddenly you just Were this, and it's not you, but also it's nice to finally be seen as a man, but it also feels wrong to feel grateful for any part of what they did to you...
On and on and on
You see? This is what I want to think about with him. This is why trans Wolfwood is so compelling to me. It's just so Complicated, he'd have such Complicated feelings about his body and the way he lives with it. He learns this new body, it starts to feel more like his, but he also mourns the fact that he didn't get to watch it grow into this like he should've.
That kind of thing.
#speculation nation#itnl shit#tagging it bc these r things relevant to itnl ww. because. he is trans☺️#TRANS WOLFWOOD MY BELOVED!!!!!!!!!!#i wanna do more research into trans things. ive already done a lot. but like#into the actual physical side of it all. the effects of HRT. all those messy little details that people dont often focus on.#some months ago i skimmed thru this writing guide on how to write trans men. and i think i wanna revisit it#read it more slowly and thoroughly.#bc im confident in my ability to write trans characters. considering the fact that im not cis myself.#but im not a trans man. so there r some Things that i just dont know about by virtue of not having experience with HRT#so. research! supplementing my existing knowledge with the perspectives of the actual people im writing about.#and so it goes when ur writing about an experience that is not entirely your own.#it matters to me to make my writing of trans men as realistic as possible.#even with the messy details that people normally shy away from. Especially them.#i pride myself on my realism as much as is within my means of capturing it.#realistic emotions. realistic reactions. realistic bodies.#i am Going to write a trans wolfwood that is So realistic. as much as possible.#(i keep specifying ww with this even tho vash is trans also just bc vash is a bit more uhhhh not human lol#so the definition of what makes him trans is a bit more loose. still inferred by real life experiences#but he wouldnt have the same sorts of experiences with HRT. or gender expression in general#so i feel less of a pressure to capture it as fully accurate to the real life human experience as possible. if that makes sense.)
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No one talk to me I just came back from a family vacation to find out my favorite youtuber ever is leaving the platform.
I am devastated.
(I am actually happy for him, he has given me so much happiness for like 8 years. He deserves to let the channel go an enjoy his life. It just hurts, but I'll get over it
I'm so thankful for MatPat and Steph. I Hope every future endeavour or project they take on is successful and that over all they have a happy and fulfilling life with Ollie.💚❤️💛💙)
#I leave to a place with no cellphone signal and come back to this?#may be the lord was protecting me idk#What do I call this? a personal rant? Im not really ranting more like letting my feelings out#venting if you#never done this on my blog before but I feel like I have to#I've been a Fan of game theory since I was like 13 or 14#He was like the first youtuber I ever suscribed to#that spoke english cause my first language is spanish lol#His videos and overall community meant a lot to me. I dont know how could I possibly express that#Of course Im going to still watch the videos after he is gone with the new hosts but still it wont be the same#Hope this doesnt sound too like sad. I dont mean to be negative. I am legitemetly so proud and happy for him#I mean He had one of the classiest goodbyes of YouTube at least I can say my favorite youtuber was never cancelled thats a win haha#But seriously he has achieved so much and has over all been such a positive influencer how could I not be proud to call myself a Fan#so truly I am not sad He ended on the highest note you could ask for. I cannot ask for anything more from him.#I am not sad However I did cry like a Baby during the Video. Man I just. Im tearing up even thinking about it#but anyway#You bet I am going to watch every single one of his videos the second they upload until march 9.#And then I am going to dedicate the day to the celebration he supposedly plans for then#I will probably vent some more in a bigger post then too. like I did in this tags lol.#Right now... I just cant. I need to process a little more heh#MatPat#Matthew Patrick#The game Theorists#game theory#goodbye matpat
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OK so i live in the US and let's say that i hypothetically work for a certain four letter german grocery chain that likes to value efficiency. now i get a lot of customers who like to tell me about how they don't understand why nobody wants to work these days, and why is everywhere understaffed, people are so lazy and don't want to work. while i stand there doing 3 jobs for the pay of one and slowly having my humanity melted away
so we recently put in self checkouts and now i have a whole new set of complaints (from exactly the same crowd) who tell me they hate the self checkout and wish it wasn't there and how its making the service worse etc etc. and incredibly, multiple people have complained to me after going through self checkout "why would i want to use this machine i have to do so much more work, i should be getting paid to check out my own groceries. it's like why are you making me do it i don't want to work at the grocery store"
#:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))#sorry for venting in the tags but |:) i am having such a brilliant time#im not kidding when i say that this job is actually ruining my sense of humanity#its like i know it isnt the worst job you can possibly have or anything and the pay is decent#but they run the store so barebones to save money and 'keep prices down' that it is incredibly physically exhausting#and you geniunely end up doing the workload of two people#and then i get vitriol from customers all day that the prices have gone up#as if i can do a fucking thing about it#but they dont treat me like im a fucking human being im just a service to be rendered to them#dont get me wrong a few people every day will be nice enough#but i s2g most of the customers#i could be sucking them silly all while checking out their groceries and giving them a discount and they'd still be mad at me#vent#it is hard not to be fucked up in the head after receiving that kind of attitude for 20+ hours a week for 10 months#i mean i've done customer service for years but this store is on another level of how much is expected of employees
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Today I encountered The Horrors.
(had to make a phone call and send an email I’d been putting off.)
(There are still more Horrors to come)
(whyyyyyyyyyyyy?????)
#really dont like the way being an Adult and getting my shit together involves The Horror#and how tumblr only sometimes lets me edit my tags#still more things ive got to do#what is this actual responsibilites nonsense#isnt it enough for me to simply stuff around?#i know i need to do the things#and on some level i want to do the things because they will benefit me#and i know there are consequenses for not doing the things#but i have not done all the things#why am i like this#oh yeah adhd#and i forgot to take my damn meds#even though id literally left them in the most obvious spot possible on my desk#maybe i should leave them on top of my laptop thats an idea#where was i#ah yes complaining to the void about the Horrors#at least i did do two things#but i did not study and there are deadlines approaching but i dont know when becasue i dont remember#and i just need to do it#but its painfully boring and anxiety inducing and i hardly know where to start#and it would involve sitting at my desk and Concentrating#so im on tumblr#hello friends welcome to my mess#AstraStuff#and now i have to go to the dentist becasue i have teeth which is just another responsibility#so yeah
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i feel like i should probably just wtch boruto. biggest issue is just that im pretty sure the central conflict is fucking dumb. in addition to the fact that the story's existence depends on the worlds biggest He Would Not Fucking Do That
#txt157#was bound to happen. i still dont think its real ever like they owuldnt do all that. well to be real nrto might but thats a different post#but the fact that theres more content of these charas that exists and im just choosing not to see it is a little painful to me. i have to#know it all#not until im done w this installment of kuwtu though#but i need to actually watch it for the sake of my 3 canons (brto (embellished); brto 2 (no brto); kuwtu)#nrto#i talked already abt how sakuras crush being validated is a disservice to her character i think. but i talked abt it w a friend today for a#while and it is really so very true. im so sorry#<- fully unrelated. make a new post idiot. the beauty of me still posting at 2:52 am is stream of consciousness tags. no pony cares rival!
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mm...
#i think maybe i should take a break from tumblr...#idk... i feel like im becoming a little bit too obsessive#like with everything... with everyones image of me and with everyone and with .... idk im starting to ...#im starting to obsess over every little interaction with everyone i desire to be closer to#and thats... not healthy... ive spend so much time recently worried about if the people i want to be friends with even really like me#and i know they do theyve said as much but ... even with that im still feeling left out and i dont want to feel like that#not that i AM being left out but my brain making me feel as if i am ... and im not sure how to change it other than maybe taking a step bac#im sorry if theres anyone ive made uncomfortable with my interactions#i tend to be very.... forward once someone is nice to me and i dont realize im being too annoying or overbearing so im really sorry if ive#done that to you im really really sorry#so if you dont see me around for a few days this might be why#im still... not sure if ill fully leave but....#idk if you read this and i HAVENT been overbearing and annoying id really like some reassurance that i havent been ... because somtimes...#its hard to hear all the genuine nice voices over my own mind telling me no one wants me around#sorry if u read this tho....#spice.txt#spice.vent#i guess its a vent??? tagging in case....
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it’s very funny to me that no matter how angry i get at a character or if i act like im holding a grudge, the second they make any effort to be better i immediately give them a second chance and become way too trusting
#although i am thinking about it... would i have done that to gristol?#in canon he is making 0 effort to be better he's still a little bitch and im gonna kick him down some stairs#but WOULD i have given him a second chance? my first thought is ''no way'' because of how INSUFFERABLE he is#but i dont know#i do know the reason why i have such a forgiving nature but i am not about to psychoanalyze myself in the tumblr tags#i guess some of my standards have to do with how theyre making an effort to be better. or why they did what they did before#like dusknoir for example. he just wanted to live#and it really did seem like he didnt want to kill hero and partner- the reason why he was acting so cold was because he didnt want to-#-acknowledge partner being devastated about the betrayal#because he did feel awful about it#but. he wanted to live. and for that to happen#they had to be executed#AND THEN THERES THE ENTIRETY OF SPECIAL EPISODE 5 OF COURSE#anyway#you dont even wanna hear what i have to say about magolor dkjf#i have a whole explination about WHY he did what he did#so yeah i guess it depends on reasons why a person acted like that#and if they genuinly want to change and be better#totally unrelated but i think lukas is like this too and NOT just because im projecting#but that he'll make big threats (like what he said in s1e5) but he's still really trusting and forgiving#might delete this later idk im just rambling in the tags about characters djfgd#usually this sticks to discord but not today i suppose
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#teresa.txt#dont read the tags lol im just going insane in here it has been. it has been at day so far lmfao#listen i am going thru it right now. im gonna take a shower im gonna lie down im gonna pass out while i watch a show on my phone or somethin#that lady at the tattoo parlor was. ive never wanted to punch someone in the teeth so bad than i do right now#culmination of all the events of this morning#walking to the closest doctor 30min away and feeling like rambo in the fucking jungle cus theres no sIDEWALK IN THIS FUCKING PLACE#walking back to this fucking shop thats fINALLY OPEN AFTER CLOSING WITHOUT ANY INFO OR UPDATE#THIS LADY TELLING ME I SHOULDVE CALLED AND TEXTED WHEN I IN FACT /VERY MUCH DID THAT/!!!!!!#being all short and condescending with me about iNFORMATION SHE DIDNT GIVE ME IN THE FIRST FUCKING PLACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#talking to me like im dumb for going to see a dr instead of her whEN I FUCKING TRIED BUT THEY WERE CLOSED AND WOULDNT ANSWER THE PHONE!!!!!!#LIKE BITCH WTF DID YOU WANT ME TO DOOOOOO#YOU NEVER TOLD ME HOW LONG I WAS SUPPOSED TO KEEP THEM IN FFS LMFAO#so now i gotta wait at least a month to go back and get these piercings done all over again#but i dont know that i wanna go to that place again LMFAO i think is rather just. find someplace else#even if its a bit more pricey like. i dont wanna see her face again LMFAO#i have Not slept i am still pmsing my period is incredibly late so i know#oh i know. that its gonna kick my fucking ass#i am gross i had to walk right next to the crops under the burning sun for close to an hour total i am sweaty i am Murderous#the fucking i ternet people are assholes we have been here almost three months and they still manage to fuck us over we sTILL DONT HAVE WIFI#literally just. teresa and the no good terrible very bad week. its wednesday lmfaogjfjkshfkdjf#incredible. almost impressive#what a fucking waste of time#yeah no i cant go back to that girl i will crumble to dust
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also heres the full picture the cartoony t'surots is from feel free to ask about any of them because im going a little insane in this school
#dragon's end [ocs]#dyke doodlez#idk if yall rb this or not itd be nice but honestly#i am a little tired of asking for people to at least try and keep an even ratio#bc this site has gotten worse and worse at supporting artists in the way they want to be supported#and i feel 'bigger' artists have definitely fucked it over for smaller ones by like. insisting that reblogs dont matter etc etc#like yeah ok easy for you to say people actually pay attention to your art and engage with you about it .#bla bla make art for yourself yeah i AM but i would also like for people to be nice to me about it ykwim#it feels nice when people support my art and leave little tags and it stings when people like it and do nothing else. is that so bad#like it sucks to work on something just for people to just like. give a nod of acknowledgement and move on#itd suck in real life and it sucks with the online equivalent too#but anyways idk im tired so many of yall suck at doing like a basic feature of this site and its exhausting to keep asking#and with something thats just was just a destreseor doodle to get their designs down idc that much anyways#id still like some engagement though#theres nearly 1000 of yall following me no way only like 5 of you know know how to interact with ppl who arent your friends yeah#anyways im done ranting now. support artists if you reblog art i hope you have the best day of your life every single day#t'surots and i'llfrekilf are siblings from the end cities; smokebomb was born in the overworld; sunny in the nether; n eerie is a farlander
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not me slowly relapsing again, fucking suck my dick brain don't do this
#kyle.txt#tw mental health#or smth idfk what ti tag this#anyway irl lit what is social engagement? idk how to talk to people and be nice and normal and mask normally fucking piss off#and me eating a full meal i dont fucking think ive done that in like 3 weeks so thats fuckinf shit#and now im noticing it here to where i feel to tired to like talk to my friends and be active on here and like that in combo#w this feeling of like 'eh they can do it w out me' fucking SUCKS bro i dont wanna ugh#also mostly with gcs like the pmgc thingy is like fine i mean i am still kinda tired but like i dont feel a pressure to be someone there#while in both gcs i do and theres this feeling of they dont care anyway so who cares ya know#anyway thats my brain relapsing into stupid shit from YEARS ago which i dunno why but ok#it fucking sucks#im fine bte just wanted to rant for a sec#tell me what to tag this if i tagged it wrong but its a#delete later#anyway so#tw ed#eating disorder tw#just to be safe bc i mention it in the tags
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hello! my sense of time somehow has gotten even worse and it is bc in the time that ive been barely active, i have acquired Dragon Ball Hyperfixation in the year of our lord 2022. i watched all of the original show right at the end of last year and im now 30 episodes into z and i have had Many thoughts but ive been basically bombarding one of my friends with them. i would like to talk to more people about it bc as much fun as we're having i also feel incomprehensible. if you are queer, neurodivergent, and/or a person of color (or an ally for all three) who is also a fan of dragon ball and down to discuss with someone whose brain cells are being shaken around in a soda can by this series as we speak, please interact 🥺 i would like to be friends
#thoughts on#ive actually never done a. whatever these are called. 'mutual call'? sorry if its a little obstructive. i only plan to do this once#dragon ball#dbz#in the body of the post i pointed out three specific traits bc they are minority groups that i fall into that i struggle to find and that#ive found some people can be hostile toward. like im black and i have some. Opinions on parts of dragon ball.#you probably get it#also i am an artist! i draw! i havent posted anything db yet but if in the coming days i do (i may) then... this sentence doesnt make sense#if i posted dragon ball art on my art blog. i dont post it bc i did. no i didnt ❤️#well if youre here in these tags this is how my brain works so if you dislike these vibes no worries we dont have to talk at all#but i may still want to follow#you know how it is
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#ive done gone and been silly goofy with the autism burn out again lads#need to reduce my hours at work NEED TO GET A FUCKING DIAGNOSIS need to learn to live with this fucking capitalist hellscape#i really really did genuinely want to make it in tomorrow (today (in 7 hours))#but i have so much Fucking Anxiety is cant Fucking Sleep which is gonna make me Not Able To Go In#ahshshjajajaaAAAAAAAA#i want to HOWL in the WOODS like a WOLF#anyway i dont have a solution for this#reducing my hours might help#but only temporarily while i dont have to pay rent#and it is looking like i am never going to be able to work more than part time without Constantly having breakdowns and panic attacks#so uhhhh lol how the fuck am i meant to live#i worked so fUcking hard for this fucking independence and to Not have to go back to my parents#i was couch surfing for FOUR MONTHS and nearly lost my mind and i still didnt go back there#but i have no idea what im gonna do when fox wants to move in with matt#and i wanted to go back to uni part time to do a masters in a subject id Actually fucking enjoy but that was only a feasible plan if#if i could work part time alongside it and I Dont Think I Can Do That#ive gotten better at knowing my limits and it sucks bc omg turns out i sure do have them!#turns out autism is actually a disability and not just a fun personality trait boooo#anyway uhhh okay google play heaven knows im miserable now by the smiths. whatever.#tag ramblings
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All i can think about is spinach and cheese ravioli
#Idk how to tag this post#Mmmmm ravioli#My thoughts are consumed by ravioli#And that one line from spongebob ????#Ravioli ravioli give me the formulioli#Except i dont want the formula because i am too lazy to make ravioli from scratch#I love this ravioli bc it takes 4 minutes of microwaving and then .... its done#Ready to eat#And also spinach ravioli is much better for me than bagel bites#Yum yum#this is entirely too many tags#What is a normal amount of tags anyway?????#Its been like 3 months and i still do not know how to use this site lmbo#Anyway#ravioli yum yum no thought head empty except for ravioli#And i think there should be a ravioli musical#Combine my (only) two interests#im gonna stop adding tags#Before this becomes like my diary lmbo
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