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Hi Dear Me!

What a year! Last post done in the end of 2022. Let's summarise!

Moving abroad.

Well, I knew that it wouldn't happen. I didn't even want that. I guess I was trying to convince myself that it is a good solution and time to run from Poland, but deep in my hear I just knew. In the end the main reason was that we did not find a proper flat due to be expats. Also we couldn't take our cats. Everything with that idea was a mess and I completely forgot about it a little later.

Job change!

New opprtunity to develop in a strong worldwide company and great salary (60% rise). Am I dreaming?

Mess in my head.

In the beginning of May, I am not sure, I started therapy. I could not bare anymore panic attacks and feeling just like a trash. I felt responsible for every fucking misfortune. May long weekend we spent in Greece, Corfu. Only because I had a really high pressure that I need to go somewhere. It's been 6 months of staying at home, it is unacceptable! But the weather was bad - half of the stay heavy rain, and if not - almost all the time fully cloudy. It affected the whole experience. And I was utterly sure that it is my fault. Also we spent sooo much money for that trip only because it was in a desirable date. We were arguing, I was depressed and annoying, everything went awful. At least in my head.

During the therapy I learnt to think and see myself and the world differently. My therapist made me aware that the wather is not under my control and that I forgot about everything good - like the fact that I am a great planner when it comes to the sightseeing or renting a car.

New job is going worse and worse...

New dream job turned out to be a disaster I hate. I realised that it is not me. It a imagined me, extravert, confident and proud. I had to go on a official trip to Germany, I felt there lost, I did not understand a thing, everyting was so confusing. I did not receive any onboarding, any explanation, any introduction. Only more and more calls and upcoming requirements. I started stressing me and I felt so stupid. A job that I couldn't tell a word about. But my holiday were soon I stopped caring at leat in the summer.

I am a fiancee!

The 10 days in Zakynthos, Greece, were my best holidays ever. Everything finally went perfect. PERFECT. The hotel, food, sea, beach, trips, views. It overcome my expectations. Best holiday ever! And the main point was that my partner gave me a ring, so I finally after almost 8 years changed my status from girlfriend to fiancee.

Come back to the old job.

After holiday I realised I need to run from my "dream new job". Quickly. Somewhow my previous company took me back. Of course not too easily - I went great during the interviews, but to punish me for leaving they lowered my salary in comparison to the other people in the team. And there is nothing I can do about it. And it is really fucking annoying. I am not progressing with my salary due to the high inflantion for the past 2-3 years.

After job change I started again to have panic attacks and issues with myself. Unfortunately my therapy had to end in July because the owner of the medical center decided to close it... But I learnt back then a lot. I just need to remember to follow the rules.

2023.

Some points about 2023.

I got engaged. It means that I am important in this big world.

I had a short adventure in another company that allowed me to pay off the car, go to therapy, buy a computer, and benefit fully from the holiday. I quitt because it was the best choice for my mental health and money wasn't worth it.

I realised I do not need social media to live. I feel better without the knowledge what everyone is doing! If it is something interesting, they will tell you.

I realised that life is not about building it the same as other people. You choose. You have your own, special priorities. You have your own plan.

Me is the most important (of course besides my fiance). I live only for myself, I do not have to fit in, drink alcohol or enjoy the same stuff. Big NO.

Health is the biggest value. Doing overtime, skipping lunch breaks, trying be always the best IS NOT WORTH YOUR HEALTH. Both, physical and mental!

Life is about living, so close this virtual blog for today. :)

Evening to all :)

Time for the next part :)

Have a nice evening :)

CALL OF THE RAVEN

PART 10

I woke up with a terrible taste in my mouth. I had no clue what time was it, but the sun was out already, making me squint my eyes. I got in sitting position slowly, banging in my head intensifing with every move i made. Ugh, i'm never drinking again, i scolded myself. Squinting, I focused on the little alarm clock that was on the night stand. 10.34. Whoa, i cant remember the last time i slept this long. I got up from the bed and went to the bathroom. I filled the glass with wather, rinsing my mouth a few times before gulping down two glasses. My stomach growled at it, i just hoped not to throw up .Taking a shower would be a wise thing to do, so i just threw the clothes i had off and entered the shower. The warm water felt good, i just let it pour over me for a while. I wrapped myself in the towel taking some painkillers for the headache. Getting back to the room, i dressed up, and sat on the bed. I felt a bit better, but still not enough. Coffee, i tought, thats what i need now. I got up, going for the purse i threw on the floor when i got in, searching for my phone. Shit, i cursed, it wsnt there. I checked every pocket, even Jake's hoodie, but my phone was nowhere to be found. Crap, i probably left it at a the Aurora last night, when Jessy and me wer taking pictures. Or at lest i hoped so. Well, i was going for coffee, so i could stop at the Aurora eitherway. I grabbed my backpack with drawing stuff. Who knows, i might be up for some drawing, no matter I still felt woozy from last night drinking. I putted my sneakers on, grabed my stuff and car keys. Walking wasnt an option this time, i wasnt feeling well enough for it.

When i parked my car infront of the Aurora, I saw Dan's car was still there. I smiled as i left the car, guess i wasnt the only one sleeping late today. I hoped Phil was there already, and my phone too. I entered the Aurora, relieved at the sight of Phil behind the bar. I was washed with the smell of coffee, and as i neared the bar, I pleadingly said to him, sitting on the stool „Please, please, please, tell me i'm not wrong and that is coffee i can smell.“ Phil turned arround , not noticing me when i entered. He grinned at me „You are most definitly right! Would you like some?“ „Yes, pretty please.“ I said, as i putted my hand on the bar, and leaned my head on it as on a pillow. Phil chuckled at me „Want any sugar with it? Or milk?“ „Yes, please.“ I replied, and he vanished through the storage doors. He returned with a big cup of coffe putting it infront of me. I rised my head, took the cup, taking a deep breath of its smell, before taking a big sip of it. „Thanks, Phill, you're my saviour:“ i smiled at him as i settled it back on the bar. „Here to help.“ He said, winking. „Rough night?“ he asked teasingly. „Oh, i dont know how you can be so cheerful.“ I started „I feel like a truck hit me lastnight.“ He laughed „Practice to perfection.“ „I think i would need years of practice to be even close to that kind of perfection!“ i said, making a skeptical face. He smiled at me „So, to what do i owe the pleasure?“ he asked. „Dont get me wrong, im glad to see you“ he said, that devilish spark in his eyes again „But i doubt you came just to see me.“ „You caught me.“ I said, even tho it was nice seeing him. „I was hoping that i might have left my phone here yesterday.“ He shook his head at me, crouching down searchin for a few seconds under the bar, giving me my phone as he got up. „Better be carefull next time, good thing i noticed it as you left.“ „Yay, thanks Phil, again.“ I told him, giving him a big smile. „I owe you big time! Both for the phone, and coffee.“ His phone rang then „Sorry business calling. Be right back“ he said, answering his phone and going through the storage door. I checked my phone with him gone, finding out few missed calls and messages from Jessy. She was worried i havent answered her jet, so i decided to call her while waiting for Phil. The tone barely sugested it rang when Jessy's voice boomed from the other side. „Finaly! Do you know how worried i have been? Are you allright? Where wer you? Why didnt you answer me before?“ It made me smile a bit, her worrying for me like that was so sweet. „Im sooooo sorry Jessy“ i said pleadingly „I left my phone at Aurora last night, i just got here to get it.“ Phil returned at that point, and i mouthed to him 'Jessy's' name, indicating who i was talking to. Her voice boomed again, and i moved my phone a bit from my ear, wich made Phil laugh. „Ofcourse you did! Its no wonder after all the whiskey you had! Dan is still sleeping like a log! You two really had it last night!“ „Aww, Dont be cross, Jessy.“ I started pleadingly again „I promise next time we wont over do it.“ Phil was grining at me now, and i stuck my toung at him, trying to calm Jessy down. „C'mon, you cant tell me you didnt have some fun yesterday.“ I started „I have some pictures on my phone as a proof of it.“ Phil threw his thumb up, showing me i said a good thing, and i grined at him. „Alright, i admit last night wasnt all that bad.“ Jessy started, sounding calmer now „But you're still not off the hook completly.“ „Thanks, Jessy“ i started, grining as a sign of victory to Phil. „You can scold me some more at lunch, if the deal for it still stands.“  „Ofcourse!“ Jessy cined cheerfuly from the other side „Dan will be a sleep for God knows how long, and im already bored here.“ I quickly moved my phone from the ear checking the time. „Its 12.20 now, when do you want us to meet?“. „I'll meet you around 14 at the Aurora. I doubt Phil will mind you hanging there with him till then.“ She replied, teasing me. „Somehow i think you're right.“ I said, looking at Phil with a devilysh smile. „Cya later, Jessy.“ I sadi, lovering my phone. Phil looked at me,a bit confused „Wat was that about?“ „Oh, just Jessy being Jessy.“ I told him, grining. „Fine, fine, be all mysterious.“ He teased me. „Awww, c'mon, you wouldnt find me so interesting if i was an open book.“ I told him, smiling sheepeshly. He looked at me, with that intensifing look again, making me feel heat spreading through my body „You're not wrong about that.“ Crap, what are you doing again, Maya, i scolded myself. Phil was definatly into me, and i was toying with him like this. It really wasnt my intention, i didnt want him to get the wrong impression about anything. But it felt so easy for me, talking to Phil, compared to Jake. Why does all have to be so tough and complicated with him? It feels like walking on egg shells every time im with him: dont do this, dont say that. Shit, it shouldnt be that way, should it? Was i really that much into Jake? Blah, i dont know anything anymore. I wish he would be more open with me, it would make things so much easier. I was lost in my toughts when Phil finaly snaped me back to reality „Maya? You allright?“ I looked at him, shaking my head,  to clear it from all the 'Jake' toughts. „Yeah, sorry.“ I started „Guess the coffee didnt kick in properly yet.“ Phil looked at me, and i could see he didnt really belive what i told him, but decided not to take the matter any further „If you say so.“ Was all he said. I smiled shyly at him. „Do you mind if i just hang here for an hour or so, before metting with Jessy? I dont feel up to driving back to motel, and the coffee isnt bad here either.“ I tried, smiling, waving my empty cup at him. Phil looked at me, rising one of his eyebrows, and smiled devilishly „How could i say no to a beautifull woman?“ He took my cup, winked at me vanishing through the storage doors. I could feel my cheeks flushing again, and my heart beating faster. Shit, shit, shit..

When Phil came back with another full cup of coffee i asked if its ok if I sit at one of the booths, to wich he said  fine, since he did have some work to be done. I took my stuff and coffee setteling at the booth. I had a bit over an hour before metting with Jessy, i hoped some inspiration for work might come to me. I took my stuff out of the backpack, took my sneakers off, sitting with my feet up on the booths perch. I liked drawing like that. Leaning my drawing pad on my knees i tried to focus on my work, but my toughts just kept wondering off.  I tought about Phil, sneaking glances towards the bar. He was good looking, always nice to me, even tho everyone warned me that he was a 'no good' considering women. He never showed any sign of it towards me. He was easygoing, i enjoyed his company, we definatly clicked. Then there is Jake. I was definatly drawn to him, cant deny that. When im near him, it feels like when a moth is drawn towards fire. Cant fight it, its driving me crazy. But nothing with him is easy. Its like taking one step forward, then not one, or even two, but ten steps back. Its so frustrating. And with all that had happened, i feel like all the progres we had was completly gone. My head was still too woozy for thinking of stuff like this. I setteled my drawing stuff down, taking my coffee, leaning back in the booth. Maybe Jessy would have some advice fore me. Two heads are smarter then one, or so they say. But i should definatly talk to Phil, at least try to explain things to him. I dont want him thinking im giving him some false hope here. As if he could sense my toughts, he turned around, took his coffee and walked towards me. „Mind if i join you?“ he asked, and i smiled „Ofcourse i dont. I guess my inspiration is still sleeping, so no work to be done at the moment.“ He grined „Thats good for me. I can have the pleasure of your company for some more then.“ I chuckled at that, siping some more of the coffee. But i tought again about talking with him about everything.  My face must have gotten some serious expression, 'couse Phil looked at me a bit serious, before asking „Whats bothering you, Maya? I have a feeling you want to talk to me about something.“ I looked at him, those deep eyes of his gazing intensly at me, trying to dig up my toughts. „I do.“ I admitted after a moment „But to be hones, i dont know how to start .“ „Well, just do your best.“ He said, and i started to get the feeling of a knot at my stomach again. „Allright.“ I said, but the words didnt come easy after that. „I like you, Phill.“ I said finaly after a moment of silence. He chuckled „Ok, thats a good start.“ „Ah, but that was the easy part.“ I started „Now comes the tricky one.“ I could notice him tensing a bit, like he knew where this might lead to. „Ok, go on then.“ He said. „I enjoy your company, talking to you, its so easygoing. I feel we clicked, that theres some 'spark' between us, and i know you noticed the same.“  „You're right about that.“ He replied. „But..“ i started, and Phil interupted me, sighing „Ahh, there it is, the famous 'but' part.“ „Please, Phil, just let me say what i have, then you can hate me.“ He looked at me, his face getting a soft touch „I couldnt hate you, Maya.“ „Dont say it untill im not done talking.“ I said, a bit sadness creeping to my voice. „Alright. Please, continue.“ „Ok. As i started earlier,i like you, but i dont want to get your hopes up.“ I settled my coffe on the table, my hands fidgeting with the cup. Why was this so hard? „Shit, Phil, im a complete mess at the moment.“ I started „I myself dont know what i want, and its tearing me up inside. There is someone, and i dont know where I stand with him. And i dont want to start something new, if im not a 100% sure that its the right thing, that its something i really want. With no loose ends catching up on me.“ I looked up at Phil, him still not taking his eyes off me. „Am i making any sense to you here?“ i asked, lovering my head. I really didnt want to have this conversation, but that was me being honest. All of a sudden, i could feel Phil's hand covering mine, and i looked back up at him. He still had that softness written all over his face. „I appriciate your honesty, Maya.“ He started „Now let me be honest also.“ „Ofcourse“ i said „I expect nothing less.“ „Good.“ He looked at me more serious now. „You know i like you, you said it yourself. I dont know why, but i felt drawn to you the moment i saw you. Theres something in you that makes a man bedazled by you, i cant explain it differently.“ He paused for a moment before continuing. „And i get it, you dont want to get into something half hearted. And i applaud you for that. Because, if anything was to happen between us, i wouldnt want it that way either.“ He looked at me now, his gaze intensifing again, and i started to feel that heat again. „If it was to happen“ he continued „I would prefere if you wer in it with every inch of your body and soul.“ I was mesmerized by his words. He was so open with me, the words came so easy to him. Why cant it be like this with Jake. „Allrighty, that was pretty honest there.“ I said finaly, making an aqward smile. „You wanted me to be honest.“ He said, adding „And just so you know, im not going to make it easy for you.“ He looked at me now, with that devilish spark in his eyes again. I looked at him puzzled „What do you mean by it?“ He grined at me „Its like this: i will continue to act like i did so far, and you can do the same, cause, lets face it, we both like it.“ His grin widened, and i smiled back at him. „Good, you get me. But, until i get a confirmation from you about freely taking it a step further, i will do whatever i can to maybe, just maybe, help you feel a bit less messy and steer thigs in my favore.“ „And what if it wont end as you hope it would? Can you be ok with just being my friend?“ i asked him. He looked at me for a moment, before answering. „Honestly“ he started“i cant say i wouldnt be dissapointed, a little hearth broken probably, but i would respect your choice. And yes, Maya, if that would be so, i would gladly be just your friend.“ “Thanks, Phil, i appriciate all you said.“ I told him „I was kinda affraid of having this conversation with you.“ „You, affraid? I cant belive that“ he said, teasingly „Belive me, i was scared as hell.“ I said, adding to it „But im glad we had it. I didnt want it to become aqward between us at some point.“ „Not gonna happen.“ He said, winking at me. I smiled „Shit, you know, even thou i had enough yesterday, i could actualy use a drink right now.“ Phil lughed so hard „Awww, you really did get scared. We are in a bar afterall, you just say the words and ill bring you that drink.“ He said, looking at me with one raised eyebrow. „Only if you join me“ i said, grining at him „ And if you dont tell Jessy about it.“ He got up from the booth, smiling and winking before he left for the bar „Deal!“

How do you stay fresh and clean in the desert?

I do live near Rimmen. Which has its own aqueduct. Water gets transported from there to the surrounding settlements. If you pay for the transport. Otherwise you must head to the city yourself to get it.

I know that - depending on where exactly you chose to settle - groundwater is also an option. The further south west from Rimmen you live, the deeper your well has to go to reach it.

But if you mean staying clean in the actual desert... Elsweyr is more of a rocky badlands type of desert. Its dry because it rains seldom and the ground either lets the wather through without holding onto much moisture or its so dense water flows over it and away rather than soaking. But there are pools of water in the canyons, caves that hide underground streams and shaded oasis wherever soil allows for it. It is less the huge stretch of sand that you might know from the Alik'r. So most places allow you to access enough water to wash up and even cool down.

Elsweyr has its sandy parts too though. And you would not head out into them without packing water reserves. You'll need to drink and cook after all. And with these water reserves you will wash your food before you prepare it... And you will wash yourself with that packed up water... And rinse your mouth with it too. Regularly. Really. The sand and dust will just go everywhere and nothing ruins a meal as much as sand grinding your teeth with every bite.

Of course you'll not take a full bath out in the middle of the desert. But a washcloth and soap are plenty to go about. If you forgot your toothbrush you can use a few of the twigs of the hardy plants here for the same purpose. Though be sure you are familiar with them first.

Legend of the White Snake - Episode 25

Yay. Agaaaaiiiin. Of course, for the one post I forget to save drafts, my computer won’t let me have my ways! And I had to be almost at the end of the episode. However, maybe that’s a good thing that I have to rewrite this recap, because it was extremely... hm short compared to what I use to write. We’ll see how it turns out this time. Just maybe my reactions will be a little different than in the original post. Which is annoying because I really try to be extremely genuine with those reactions.

So staged. Ruyi runs towards the cliff, but she doesn’t even jump. She stops right at the edge and then Daoling disguised into an immortal pulls her back to Jiaorong’s side. That fake tells her that a snake demon is hiding next to his little brother and that he attracts demon.

Xiao Qing tries to spy on them, but they are too far away and can’t hear anything they say. But as she believes that that man is trying to dupe Jiaorong when he hands her a plate, she gets really and rushes to go fight that liar, but then she ate too much shaved ice earlier and she feels unwell so Yutang gives her a piggy back ride back to Baohe tang.

On their way back home they bump into an old man getting kicked out of a practice because he’s too poor to pay for medicine and treatments. His illness is very serious and he needs to be treated quickly. Suzhen offers to pay for his medical treatment so the clinic won’t have any reasons to refuse him. Since even so they don’t want to take him in, Xu Xian and Suzhen brings the uncle back to Baohe tang.

That ill person is really suspicious. He always keeps his eyes half closed half open and his disease is really strange, Xu Xian never saw something like that. Suzhen brings some rice porridge and he complains that she doesn’t give her anything good to eat and she explains to him that porridge is actually really good for health. When he’s better he can eat what he likes, she will even cook it for her.

Ruyi is really mad at Daoling for not saying that Suzhen is the white snake, that then she did everything for nothing. But he tells her that the plate he gave her is real, he took it from when he was an immortal. And I just realized, while watching a second time, why his face when he was younger looked so similar. If I am not wrong, it’s the guy that was playing the son of the second prince in Eternal Love, the poor little boy that was framed by Su Jin. Poor him. Anyways, that has nothing to do with the story here. He fell in love with an immortal looking like Ruyi and because of that neglected his duty, which resulted in him losing his status and becoming a demon. He believes Ruyi is that same girl and that she followed him in the mortal realm. For what I have seen, she’s probably forced to be there as a punishment, she seemed to have the same bad character, too spoiled.

The sick old man is going through Xu Xian’s notebook and even corrects mistakes here and there, adds more notes. Seems like he’s an immortal actually. When he hears footstep, he lies down again. Suzhen and Xu Xian prepared a special medicine for him, but he says it smells so bad, medicine doesn’t need to be so ill tasting, they could add dattes and and a few more things to make it less bitter. He accepts to take his medicine after Suzhen talks to him and when he’s complaining because it’s too bitter, she hands him some deserts she prepared to forget the taste. They even get him a bath with herbs ready. Since they treated him well, he gives to Xu Xian a medicine book.

Jiaorong’s prayers to the plate (which is kind of a token of authority or something like that) invokes a big storm which hurts Xiao Qing and she goes off Yutang’s back. Then lightning breaks a tree and Yutang uses his body to protect Xiao Qing. I ship. Very had.

When she sees that wather, Suzhen gets worried. I believe she knows it’s no good for her kind and the uncle pushes them back inside. He thinks it’s actually coming for him and he leaves. Seems like he’s  the Lü immortal, the real one this time. He wonders who dares use this plate without having the right to and it breaks down, making Jiaorong unconscious.

While Xiao Qing is taking care of Yutang’s injury, she’s crying, but she tries to hide it from him. How cute.

Suzhen and Xu Xian burn incense for Lü immortal, since they notice it was him. He seems happy with their thank, so he makes things appear on the altar they made for him.

Back home, Jiaorong wakes up screaming, she had nightmares in which she saw the real immortal Lü telling her not to believe again in demons, otherwise she’s going to pay the price. Xu Xian tells her that the first one must have been a fake, which is why the last one told her not to believe in demons again. Gongfu was very worried about her. Jiaorong then tells them that it was Ruyi who introduced her to that immortal, he really could use magic. Then Jiaorong is worried that Ruyi is also tricked by that fake, but right Xiao Qing comes in and says that Ruyi and that fake were together, that she’s trying to harm them. Suzhen asks Xiao Qing to stop saying that nonsense. She knows that Jiaorong still likes Ruyi and she doesn’t want the confrontation. Jiaorong still actually asks for forgiveness and then Xiao Qing is starting to feel unwell again.

While watching on her, Suzhen tells Xiao Qing that there is no medicine for her poisoning. Xiao Qing begs Suzhen then to take care of her four underlings and.... of Zhang Yutang. Who’s really worried about her. Then... Hahahaha! Okay, I love it. Actually, she’s just getting her first period. I love have how Suzhen teased her.

Awww. Yutang is so worried about Xiao Qing. He asks Xu Xian to tell him the truth, no matter what she has, he’s willing to take care of her. Cute <3 No matter how expensive the medicine, he’s willing to pay. Xiao Qing hears that and she yells that she’s not sick and leaves. Xu Xian then tells Yutang to make sure Xiao Qing drinks a lot of hot water, nothing too cold and that he doesn’t fight with her. Four or five days later, she should be completely healed. Hahaha.

Omg. Jiaorong and Gongfu looking for a husband for Xiao Qing and asking Suzhen’s opinin. Suzhen’s like... oh sorry, I want to keep Xiao Qing for myself a few years still, I will take care of that when the times come. But that worries her a lot and Xu Xian notices that she’s worried and they discuss that matter. Actually, Xu Xian is shipping too, but Suzhen isn’t so sure about that. Xiao Qing can’t be compared to her. It’s different. Feels like she doesn’t dare to tell him that her core is inside him so he wouldn’t die.

Moh. Xiao Qing tries to flirt with Yutang, but he’s completely oblivious to it and all dedicated to work haha.

Worried Suzhen makes it that Xiao Qing tells her what she really thinks of Yutang which is... like!

An EnKaze story where Endou didn't catch Kazemaru on time and Kazemaru hit his head on the metal of the goal post.

Be careful... Kaze!

Another tough morning for Endou. He turned off his alarm and got up idly from his bed, with his eyes still closed. Sunlight was radiating him, his eyes were heavy and he was barely moving, but he had no choice and went to the bathroom to refresh himself. As he was about to fall asleep on the toilet, he heard the melody of his phone and rushed to see what is happening, it was Kazemaru who was calling him.

- Good morning, Endou-kun! Are you ready for our practice?

His voice was so energetic that it irritated the goalkeeper. He groaned and went inside the bathroom again, with his phone.

- Yes, I am. I envy you, Kazemaru-kun. You are always so energetic and productive in the morning and it's almost annoying... how are you doing it?

- I just adore mornings! They are fresh, bright and are the start of a new better-

- Yeah, Yeah... I know you are a morning person. I will close now, I have to do my morning routine.

- Sure. But don't be late!

Endou closed the phone and continued his business. It was 9:28 am in the morning and he had almost no will to move, but he and Kazemaru agreed to have a morning practice together at 10. He had some time to dress up and eat, without rushing. He completed his bathroom rituals and went in the kitchen to have something for breakfast. His mother had already left some sandwiches and fruits, in addition, his favourite peach juice. His eyes sparkled and he began to eat, finishing everything in only two bites, and he decided it is going to be a great idea to drink his juice in his room. He laid on the bed and scrolled down on a random sports site that he found last night. It had some really persuasive content and Endou decided to begin with a regime he had found, because he has lost a lot of muscle and has to regain it back. A few minutes passed and it was time for him to go. He dressed up and went out, taking his small bag in which he had drinks, a towel and gums, because he again forgot to wash his teeth, tying his shoes. He held the soccer ball under his armpit and he went out. He began jogging to the place where he and Kazemaru were supposed to meet, which was of course, the Riverbank. By the time he was there, Kazemaru was already warming up for the practice.

- You are on time. I am surprised.

- I forgot to put my alarm on snooze. You better be glad.

- I am glad. Now, let us first start with the warm up.

Endou's soul broke down when he said that. Kazemaru's warming up required some flexibility, but Endou was not flexible at all. The torture began when Kazemaru was pushing him to go lower and touch his toes. It was an abject view. The whole warm up was only for flexibility and Endou got exhausted even before the true practice.

- Is this all you can do? We really need to work more...

- How do you expect me to do it from the first try?????

Kazemaru giggled at his expression and helped him to get up from the grass. Finally, both of them agreed to go to the football pitch and start the real practice. Kazemaru put the bags on the bench and took out the beverages he had taken for after the practice. The weather was chilly and it was impossible for them to get warmer. Endou was eagerly waiting in front of the goal and stretching his legs. His enthusiasm was boosted once he stepped on the pitch, and he was boiling with energy and wish for practice. He shouted at Kazemaru to hurry up and come. He waited a bit more and finally, it was the time to start. Kazemaru without any warning kicked the ball with everything he had, creating a wind trail. Endou's eyes widened and he managed to catch the ball, but the shot was way too strong and it made him cough a bit. Kazemaru smirked and Endou raised an eyebrow and kicked the ball back to him, giving a sign to kick it again. Both of them were attempting to come up with and refine their own new technique, but of course, it was not possible from the first time. They decided to take a rest, but Kazemaru kicked the ball too far away and it got out of the pitch. Just as he was about to go and take it, he didn't notice that his shoelaces were untied and he tripped on them. Endou reacted quickly, but he was too close to the metal of the goal post and he didn't catch him on time. Kazemaru hit his head and groaned in pain. Endou lifted him up and went to the bench with him. Kazemaru was feeling dizzy and his head was hurting as well. Endou took one of the beverages that had ice in it and placed it on his head. He told him to lay down with it, while he goes to take the ball. Kazemaru felt immense pain in his whole head, he was not able to endure a lot and he soon aimed to fall asleep. He hit his head really bad, and the metal parts were thick as hell. Endou returned with the ball and he saw the almost sleeping boy. He pushed him and helped him to get up. He gave him water with lemon to refresh himself and washed his face with clear wather. Then both of them headed to Endou's home, since Kazemaru lived further away and it would take hours to get to his home in this tempo. Endou lifted him up on his shoulder.

- We are almost home. Stay strong, Kazemaru!

He only gulped in response and somehow they managed to reach Endou's house faster than anticipated. The brunette threw the bags on the floor and focused on Kazemaru, who was probably already asleep. He put him on his messy bed and left him to sleep, falling to the ground from exhaustion. He breathed heavily and wiped his sweat off with his palm, groaning in despair.

- Why today? Uh... at least he is not badly hurt... I should go and take some ice.

Hours were spent in watching Kazemaru sleep and changing ice packs. Endou could feel muscles forming on his whole legs, as he was obligated to climb and go down the stairs thousands of times. Kazemaru was way more important and he didn't even pay attention to the exhaustion he felt. He changed the last pack and changed his own clothes. Finally, Kazemaru woke up and sat on the bed, looking confused as hell.

- E-endou-kun? What are we doing here? Was I sleeping? Did we even practise?

- Well... uh... yes we did practice! But you hit your head and um, I decided to take you home to rest. You have a lump, but you only need ice packs for it.

Kazemaru buried his face in his hands from embarrassment. He sighed and stood up from the bed, bowing to Endou.

- Thank you for taking care for me. But I think its time to leave, it is probably late, considering how much I usually sleep.

- You are wrong. It is 3pm, we still have some free time for practice.

Endou blinked and smiled, while Kazemaru smiled back at him and hugged him.

- Then what are we waiting? Let's go!

- Kazemaru-kun, I think you need some food. Come down and let's have a lunch, at least to boost our energy. I will prepare more drinks meanwhile.

- You are right. Okay then!

Endou introduced him to his whole house and they were walking around while eating. Somehow he lured Kazemaru to eat two bowls of rice to regain his energy, and he received a slap behind the neck. As soon as they finished, they went back to the Riverbank and resumed their 'rigorous and diligent' practice, which was more of a circus performance.

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Hey. In addition to eating healthier and loosing some weight I searched the web for some useful tips. I came across this famous drink for weight loss called ” sassy wather ” named after its inventor Cynthia Sass. All recipes found online are basically the same.

You will need this:

The Sassy Water Recipe

2 liters water (about 8 cups) – I use more than 2 liters – my jar is bigger and I fill it fully bit of freshly grated ginger – I use 1/4 of ginger in the photo above, and I don’t grate it just cut to really small pieces 1 medium cucumber, peeled and thinly sliced – Half of the one in photo 1 medium lemon, thinly sliced – I remove the end parts and throw them away 12 small spearmint leaves – Every recipe I found states 12 leaves, but I just grab a handful of leaves and don’t count them

Instructions are very simple – You just mix every ingredients together.

Here is my final product:

Leave it in fridge ower night and drink the whole jar next day.

You could stir it all at once, but I stir it regularly over day to my glass and keep the rest in fridge:

It tastes great and weight loss effect is great bonus. I’ve been drinking it for over a week now and I noticed few cm disappear from my stomach. 100% recommending this drink.

  I also started eating this cute fruit bowls:

You coud use whatever fruit you like and mix it in smoothie mixer with small amount of wather to make thick consistency of your fruits.

In first photo I used berries and two apples. In second i used banana, berries and maple sirup.

Decoration is the greatest part. I use coconut, chia seeds, banana, cranberries but you can use anything you like and get creative with it.

Tastes just as good as it looks like.

Have fun

Thank you for your attention

xo Natalia

  Sassy wather and fruit bowls Hey. In addition to eating healthier and loosing some weight I searched the web for some useful tips.

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