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juletheghoul · 3 years

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Oblivius Chapter 9

It hurt to write this but it needed to be said. I love these dummies and I'm glad you all love them too. Love hearing from all of you - dms/asks are always open!

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Frankie Morales x F!Reader

Pairing: Frankie x F!Reader

Word Count: 2k

Warnings: angst, language (let me know if I missed anything)

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Can your brain be at war with itself? When he considered his feelings he found that it could. Her declaration was a balm, the missing piece of the puzzle. A cavern within his soul that had been empty for far too long and desperately needed filling. The other side was pure rage. A hurt so deep and intertwined with the anger that it burned him.

It swam through him with an ardour that was palpable, sweating out of his pores and puffing out with every exhale.

Maybe that same cruel, hurt part of him wanted to make her wait, see if there was truth in her honeyed words.

I’ve waited for you half my life, Spills; let’s see how long you can wait for me.

The thought would always shame him in its cruelty. A spiteful little dig at her that he imagined would sooth the hurt he felt but it never did. Just made him feel worse. It was strange to him that the one thing he’d wanted for as long as he’d known her would be to hear those words. I love you too Francis, and the first time they’d almost knocked him over. Even seeing them written out in her message had taken the breath from his lungs for a second, but it wasn’t enough. There were so many things he needed to get off his chest.

One week turned into three, and after a month he’d had enough.

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His nerves were shot as he made his way over to her place, his guts twisting up with anticipation and when she opened the door his heart was racing. He had so much to say, so much to get off his chest and when he saw her his first instinct was to kiss her. He wanted to wrap her up in his arms and take her to bed, bury all his frustrations into her body but he couldn’t go down that road. It took every ounce of self control to deny her embrace.

“Please Spills, don’t - please don’t, if I hug you now I won’t stop there and I’ll lose my resolve. Please - we need to talk first.” He held his hands up to forestall her advances and the hurt look on her face almost broke him. There was too much to say.

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Seeing him at your door, deep frown on his face and unwilling to even come close was like a punch to the gut. He was here, finally, after everything that had happened and his absence he was finally within reach. Or at least that’s what you thought at first, seeing him now it was clear that although he was here physically, he was somewhere far away emotionally.

The euphoria you’d felt at finally hearing from him, the text he’d sent asking if he could come over was now replaced with a nervous fear. Was he here to tell you he didn’t want you?

No, this is Francis, my Francis and things will work out. Please let things work out.

He made his way through awkwardly, a far cry from the confident Francis who brought you food for your hangover. It made you uncomfortable, made you nauseous - a swarm of flies buzzing in your stomach.

“Did you want something to drink?” It felt so foreign coming out of your mouth, you’d never had to ask him before. If he wanted something he’d usually just help himself.

“No thanks.” He sat on your couch and you came to sit beside him, careful to keep your distance and when you were both facing each other he sighed loudly. His eyes were focused on you but they were sadder than you’d ever seen.

“I was supposed to be married.” He came right out with it.

“I know.” It was all you could say. It was hard not to wring your hands, the anxiety was running rampant.

“Right now, I’m guessing Claudia and I would be arguing over where to live - on our way home from our honeymoon.” He sighed loudly. “She ended up going anyway.”

He was staring at you and you couldn’t really describe the expression. It wasn’t anger, it wasn’t fear or distrust. “Spills, what am I supposed to think? I know that you’ve always known how I felt about you.” He was trying not to get too agitated, trying so hard to reign in his feelings and you couldn’t argue, all you could do was sit and let him get it off his chest.

“It’s so hard for me not to think that this is all a ploy you concocted to keep me for yourself. Never actually wanting me, but not letting anyone else have me. Please - tell me I’m wrong.”

You chewed over his words, as much as they hurt - you couldn’t blame him for thinking these things. Your timing had been abysmal.

“I know Francis. I know why you’d think that and if the roles had been reversed I’d probably be thinking the same thing but you have to know it’s not like that. You have to know how I feel about you, how I’ve always felt about you.” You wanted to reach over and touch him, maybe if you could just hold his hand, run your fingers through his hair - he’d be able to feel what you felt. Transfer it onto his skin somehow but you couldn’t yet. He was still too raw and it would make him angry. Would see it as another ploy to entrap him.

“How? How would I know that? How could I possibly see this as anything other than manipulation? Your timing is bullshit.” You saw it then, the look on his face was anguish.

“Do you have any idea how much I worked to convince myself that this would never happen?” He was gesturing to the two of you. “How hard it was to be so far away from you, and hear that you were just happy to be with someone else? How fucking hurtful it was for you to suggest that I be your last resort in case you were single at thirty? What am I supposed to think?”

His emotions were getting the best of him now and you saw his eyes shining. He was so angry, and you deserved this. “Claudia was there when you didn’t want me Spills. We may have fought, and disagreed on things but she wanted me from the get-go. It didn’t take her fifteen years to admit that she might feel the same way about me that I felt about her.”

“Francis I-”

“No. Let me finish- please. Let me say everything I need to say because it’s eating me up inside and I won’t be able to look at you if I keep it in another second. I need you to understand that although I love you - with everything that I am, I was ready to let you go for someone else. I had a life planned with that someone and that just a whisper of you possibly feeling even a fraction of what I’ve felt for you all this time, fucked me up. I threw it all away, I ruined my wedding. I did something I never thought I’d ever do - I betrayed her.” The tears were rolling down his face, he couldn’t stop them and your body burned to console him. Your hands itched to wipe them away and you had to take a deep breath to steady yourself.

“I am so angry, Spills.” His voice was cracking and he couldn’t look at you, he was hunched over, elbows braced on his knees as he held his face in his hands. “I’m so angry and I want to forgive you and just ignore all these feelings and love you, take you to bed and show you how much I’ve wanted you but I can’t right now.” Your eyes were burning, a painful lump burning in the back of your throat.

Am I too late? Please Francis, please look at me.

“Francis, please - I know you’re angry, and I know I hurt you, but you know in your heart that I love you. Please look at me, please - we can fix this.” You tentatively scooted closer and he looked up at you. Big brown eyes sparkling with tears over the hurt you’d caused.

For a moment you saw him much younger. You saw the sweet, beautiful boy you rejected staring back at you and you couldn’t help but touch him. Softly putting your hand on his shoulder, feeling it tremble beneath your palm and he slowly shifted towards you. That was all you needed. You pulled him to you, letting him crush you in his embrace.

“I’m sorry Francis, I love you and I’ll wait as long as you need me to wait. Please don’t push me away.” His face was pressed into the crook of your neck and you could feel his anger and his sadness as he held you close. You were rubbing his back and scratching at his scalp, trying to soothe him as best you could while whispering your feelings. Everything - anything that would convince him that you were on his level.

“Let’s start slow, and figure this out together. I shouldn’t have waited so long and I shouldn’t have denied my feelings for you. You’ve always been the one for me and I should never have made that stupid pact with you. I should have kissed you back. I’m sorry, I love you, believe me - please.” You were holding onto him tightly, pulling him to lay on you on your couch; he was wrapped up in the space you made for him.

“I want to, god I really want to Spills, you’re the love of my fucking life and I need you.” He was squeezing you tightly and you couldn’t help but pepper his face with kisses, little kisses between I love yous, your lips stained with the salt from his tears and you saw the deep breaths he took with every declaration.

“Keep telling me, please just keep telling me.” His eyes were closed, his words were whisper soft.

“I love you Francis, I love you.” You must have told him half a hundred times and you’d keep going until he believed you.

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You both lay there for a long time, quietly soaking in each other's warmth, he’d kicked off his shoes and made himself comfortable with you underneath him. His weight was reassuring and you pulled his shirt up slightly to rub the warm skin of his back.

All of the time wasted apart was devastating, you could almost see it then. The alternate timeline of your lives together. Maybe you’d have gotten married before he left. Maybe you’d have a couple of kids by now. A house. A dog.

“I don’t want to be, but I’m still hurt and upset." He sighed.

"I believe you, and I love you, but I think we should take things slow.” He pulled you out of your reverie, lifting up off you as he spoke. You missed his warmth instantly but he pulled you up with him and sat back on your sofa, tucking you into his side.

“I’m okay with that. Slow is good.” You kissed his cheek as he rubbed your back.

“I should go.” He was reluctantly getting up and for half a heart-beat you held onto him, he gave you a little smile. “If I stay, I’ll never leave. Slow, right?” He was putting his shoes back on and walking towards your door and everything in you wanted to beg him to stay but you knew he was right. If you’d jumped into something right now without giving him a chance to heal and come to terms with his choices he would hate you.

“Francis?” He turned towards you. “Will you take me out on a date?” You wiggled your eyebrows in the way you knew had always made him laugh, and he couldn’t help but smile.

“I’d like that.” He kissed your cheek, just barely grazing the side of your mouth and he was gone. Leaving you with your heart, and skin burning for him.

We can go as slow as you like.

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cathyparrlyn · 4 years

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A warning to Tumblr and Discord users in the Six and WATT fandoms

Tw for stalking, guilt tripping, deception, suicide, death threats, and hate anons.

In the beginning of summer, there was an incident that showed the true colors of some of my former friends, especially one who has proven themself to be hostile and dangerous multiple times. I stayed quiet about this for a while as I wanted to forget the drama and the pain they caused me and my friends, but recently I’ve found out that they have continued to hurt many of my friends, claim a minor who was a victim of the situation had attacked them, and more. Because of such dangers, and because these people are present in both the Six and WATT fandoms, my friends and I found it necessary that we share this story as a warning to others.

On May 11, the Parrlyn Discord server was created. I, being an acquaintance of the server owner, was one of the server’s mods who would talk to everyone and work with the owner to make it a safer place. This server ended up being how I first became close with the person who caused so much drama: @Chess-exists (Chess).

Chess and I would talk on both the Parrlyn server and dms, and I soon joined other servers at their request. We considered each other friends, but they also set off many red flags. Some of the major of these being Chess lying about hacking into the Sixcord and deleting the server because “all the mods hated them”, claiming they can cry when ready and wanting to pretend someone on the Parrlyn server was dead to prank another person on the server.

In mid-June the Parrlyn Discord faced the 3rd big incident that has happened on the server. Someone jokingly entered under Moan-Jeutas’s (Lizzie’s) username, said “I’m 12, don’t attack me !!” and left when they noticed people were beginning to panic.

I was offline whilst this happened, and when I came online shortly afterward I found a few people panicked. Instantly, I was asked by multiple people to call them. I texted some of them while going on call with a friend of mine who is a young minor, @lakes-other-sixes (aka Lake), who was crying. I was then informed by Lake that they knew who had entered the server with Lizzie’s username. At the same time, a friend outside of the server had confessed to me through DM about being behind the Lizzie account along with one other person. They profusely apologized and explained what had happened.

Although my friend had made a mistake, I would like to give context of why they ever thought of the joke in the first place. When they were temporarily on the Parrlyn Discord, it was just starting out, with about ten people including us and nobody who had admitted to being triggered by Lizzie’s writing.

This friend and I constantly talked about Parrlyn fics together, and one of the things we mentioned was Lizzie’s Carrie AU and how I would have liked to talk to her about it but didn’t want to bother her as she disliked the ship. The friend and I had both been going through personal issues at the time, I will openly state that mine was how my uncle died not even two weeks before this happened, and they thought a small joke could cheer us both up.

So this friend and another person thought it would only be an innocent inside joke between friends to pop on the server and mess with me and some other friends. They had no idea how big the server was or that people were triggered by Lizzie and left immediately.

The joke was wrong, and we all have acknowledged that. They both deeply apologized for it to me and some others. They wanted to fix things with the server, but there was one problem; our friend Lake knew who they were.

Lake is an extremely sweet kid. They were never a part of the joke, but were extremely scared that if the people’s names were released then everyone on the server would hate them. It was to the point that they were crying on the phone to me for about half an hour because of the situation. Because of this, me and the friends figured it would be best to apologize anonymously; not for their sake, but for the others who were scared. So I talked with the server owner and made an announcement sending an apology from them through me.

This is just our side, and I know some will disagree with the decision we made, but I was informed that someone had talked to Lizzie about it and that she knew about the situation and the anonymous apology. We kept it anonymous because we would never want to put any kid into the panicked state that Lake was in, and I will take any responsibility if it means I kept a kid from anymore serious panic. I have also apologized to Lizzie formally, as well as getting consent from her to use her name in this post and offering to answer any questions she had, including giving her the names of the people behind the account if she wanted them.

This mistake from my friends, which they had apologised for, was what led to Chess showing their true colours.

A few minutes after I posted the apology announcement, I was instantly added to a separate group chat titled “Smack a bitch” where Chess and their friend, Aine, had requested the name of my friend behind the account. This chat was highly inappropriate and hinted they would possibly send them hate and I didn’t approve of that, so I said no and left. I then later got a message from Lake that Chess was now interrogating them to spill who was behind the account.

Not only had this bothered me since Lake was young and was open about their anxiety, but also nobody but me and Lake’s former partner had known that they knew who was behind the fake account. They were extremely nervous and asked for help and I said I would talk to Chess for them since it made them uncomfortable.

When I went to talk to Chess, I told them to stop interrogating Lake because this was giving people more stress and I wouldn’t talk to them if they continued. They refused and asked me to “back the fuck up”.

After this conversation, I thought it was over. That was until 3 days later when one of my friends behind the account got hateful anons and death threats over the situation.

These anons were alarming, so I went to talk to the server owner about them. After a long discussion, the server owner confessed to Chess telling them everything they had done to find my friend.

This next part might be triggering for some, just a warning about stalking. (Ends after the screenshot)

Chess had confessed to stalking both my Instagram and Tumblr by going through them and making a suspect list of mutuals I interacted with so that they could interrogate Lake, a 14 year old, into saying who was behind the account.

(Note, none of the people mentioned here were either of the people behind the account)

After I sent the message telling them to stop the interrogation, Chess made Lake swear not to tell me anything else, got them and Aine on voice call, and guilt tripped them into feeling forced to agree to be interrogated on who the person was.

After Chess had successfully got the name of one of the people behind the fake account from Lake, they told the server owner and a few others the name of the person. One of whom was @herequeerandreadytokickass (Lex). Chess had also confessed to Lex about wanting to send anons to the person behind the account whose name they had found out. Lex had not only told me this on call, but also told me that the “friend” Chess was referring to in the hateful anons was me.

Utterly disgusted by their actions towards the situation, I blocked Chess. That was it. I explained to my friends why I blocked them and told them that they could still be friends with Chess, and I left the Parrlyn server to avoid drama since I figured Chess needed it more than me and wouldn’t hurt anyone else after this.

Chess was very upset that I blocked them without talking to them, and I refused to unblock them since they made me uncomfortable by this point. They then told a few friends they were framed for the anons even after previous confessions that they had sent them, and the fact that the anons only pointed to them.

One of the people Chess talked to was Lake, who then tried to find who sent the anons. After I found this out, I called Lake and we both shared our sides of the story. This is when Lake told me how Chess guilt tripped them, but also figured out that Chess had lied to them about how they found out Lake knew. Chess had blamed it on me telling someone, when Lake’s former partner confessed to telling Chess that Lake knew.

This new information caused Lake to become extremely panicked. They were already dealing with stress and just found out they had played a small part in their friend getting sent anon hate and death threats. Chess lying had triggered them more. I talked to Lake and helped them calm down and they decided to block Chess as well.

Chess didn’t like this. They immediately began to spam Lake’s user on a server and also had three friends ask them to unblock Chess.

Not only was this disrespecting Lake’s mental health and decision, but one of the people who dmed Lake had angrily blown up at them. This was @flat-dr-pepper-chasers (Robbie).

By blowing up on Lake, who was dragged into this situation and emotionally manipulated, Robbie caused Lake to panic again.

Soon after this, I got notified that Chess was so mad at Lake, that they deleted a server collaborative fanfic because it was Lake’s “pride and joy”.

Lake had now been through so much and they didn’t tell me anything until it was necessary. I had received all this info from another source because I was an ex-mod of the server and a person involved in the incident, but Chess began to blame Lake and continued to hate them.

I couldn’t take it anymore when I found out that Chess, a 16 year old, deleted the fic to spite Lake, a 14 year old who they had until very recently viewed as a friend, when Lake didn’t do anything. I knew I couldn’t let this slide or more people would get hurt, so I rejoined the server as a mod again, kicked Chess and explained the situation so everyone knew what was going on.

Do to a limit on screenshots the next part of the post will be reblogged by me, might take a second though to add in the screenshots.

#six the musical #we are the tigers #watt #discord #warning #callout

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takeiteasypeasybaby · 4 years

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Save Me: Chapter 27 - War

~Hey guys! Chapter 27 is out! With Negan and Rick at war, will Molly be able to face Negan again? I hope everyone is having a good week :) Hope everyone is enjoying Save Me so far and make sure to dm me to let me know your thoughts <3 ~

Both sides were drained, both leaders had lost so much already. Rick was at the end of his tether, so was everyone, including Molly. She knew Negan's fate, everyone had told her many times. She had to do right by her family now, but would she just let the love of her life die?

Bombs and flares dropped all around us as we ran for cover.

Rick stayed behind as I helped Carl into the bunker.

I tried to lie to myself by pretending that Negan wasn't the one doing this, but he was.

He wanted us all dead and decided to burn Alexandria to the ground to achieve that, killing innocent families and children.

My love was gone.

He wasn't the man I recognised anymore.

I made sure all the children were safe in the bunker and climbed back out with Michonne to find Rick who was trying to fight back.

'Rick!' Michonne shouted as he turned to face her.

There we three stood amidst the burning church and houses.

Mine was still untouched.

'Carl needs you, Rick!' I yelled to him as the sounds of explosions deafened us and the smoke strangled around our throats.

Tears formed in my eyes as I struggled to breathe, if he wanted to kill me, he was gonna have to try harder than that.

Rick nodded in shock as Michonne and I grabbed him and made our way down the bunker.

It was dark and damp down there as all you could hear were droplets hitting against the rusted metal walls.

I squeezed past everyone and brought Rick and Michonne over to Carl who was being tended to by Siddiq.

His face was pale and beads of sweat formed on his brow as he struggled to keep his eyes open.

I had known him for five years, he had become such a man over the years.

'Dad...' he said wearily as he pulled up his shirt.

We all thought he was just sick but my heart stopped when I saw the bite mark which oozed blood.

Rick dropped to his knees and clambered to him, crying and screaming like I'd never heard him do before.

It was hard to watch. Tears rolled down my cheeks.

'I did what I had to do, what you guys taught me' he said looking at Rick and Michonne.

'I love you mom' Carl said holding Michonne's hand as she kissed it through her tears.

Aaron peeked outside and saw the burning subside slightly, this would be our only chance.

'Rick...we have to move. We can carry Carl' Aaron said quietly.

Rick just turned and looked at Michonne.

'How long do we have?' she asked pleadingly.

'Five minutes tops before the fire on us again. The smoke will cover us' he answered.

Rick just nodded as he was about to lift Carl when Carl said 'don't, you have to leave now. I have my gun'.

Rick just stared at him in confusion.

'Dad...please. Let me do this' he pleaded as his voice strained.

Michonne dragged Rick away as we all clambered up the stairs to the outside.

The smoke was bitter and dry in our lungs as we coughed and spluttered as we stumbled out of the back gates.

Michonne held Rick up as we hurried, but we were stopped dead by a gunshot which echoed amidst the explosions.

You could hear it anywhere.

Once we were out of the gates and away from the Saviours we ran for Hilltop.

I had never seen Rick like this, I couldn't imagine his pain.

Carl had been like a little brother to me and I had loved him like one.

I felt numb once again and even though it wasn't because of Negan this time, he still made our lives hell.

The sun was rising now but we barely noticed, keeping our eyes firmly on the gravel we treaded through.

I trailed slightly behind the group when I heard a group of guys talking about the Saviours.

'I think we all know what killed Carl. It was Negan and his group of pricks. I'd rather fucking kill myself than be 'saved' by them. I think we all would...well except for one' he said as his friends chuckled.

I lost it.

Maybe it was their mention of Carl or blaming of Negan but I marched up to them, grabbed the chatty one by his shoulder and spun him around as he collided with my fist.

He dropped to the gravel and clambered to get away from me.

His friends just stood there awkwardly in silence.

'If I hear another word about Carl or Negan come out of your mouth, I'll kill you myself. Well...I'll gut you and let the walkers finish you off' I whispered to him as I stood over him.

I scowled at the other guys as I kicked gravel up at him as I walked ahead.

Aaron looked at me, but didn't scowl, in fact he looked impressed.

Thank God Rick didn't see that.

We walked for a couple days, all of us dehydrated and drained of energy but we knew we had to make it to Hilltop.

In the distance, there stood hope as we saw Barrington House and the walls which enclosed it.

I sighed in relief as I knew this was what would keep Rick going at this time.

Once we reached the walls, Jesus opened the gates hastily.

He knew something was wrong.

Tara and Rosita rushed out to greet us, Tara hugged me tightly as I cried into her arms.

Enid fell to the floor as Michonne told them.

Carol, Ezekiel, Jerry and the other Kingdommers were now at Hilltop because the Saviours had burned down the Kingdom as well.

Only Hilltop stood now.

Carol and Daryl hugged each other for the first time since the wolves came to Alexandria.

Carol told us about Shiva, Ezekiel's tiger who died protecting them.

We were deflated, all of us having lost so much already and we hadn't even fought them yet.

Michonne had Carl's letters and gave them to everyone except Negan, she wanted to deliver that message differently.

Tara stroked my hair as she held me, pulling me away from her when Maggie walked over.

I turned to see Maggie and just broke.

'I'm so sorry Maggie' I said as she pulled me into a hug.

'I know' she said softly, we were family forever and that bond would never be broken.

That was what we needed to fight for and Rick just needed to be reminded of that.

Michonne handed Rick the letter which he put on their bedside table in the house.

He wouldn't open it, he couldn't.

Michonne gave him some space and left him to read it alone, he needed that.

He opened it and Carl told him that there had to be something after, that was the same message he wanted for Negan which Michonne relayed on the walkie talkie.

This gave Rick hope and the next day he was full of vengeance and energy to take them on, we all were.

This was the end of everything.

I might die, so might Tara but either way Negan's fate was already sealed.

I saw that in Rick's eyes.

We marched towards the Sanctuary for one last fight, we now had the numbers with all the communities united.

Tara had told us of a community she had found when she went on her run with Heath last year.

They called it Oceanside but they wouldn't join us.

Tara had already asked them and even when Rick radioed to them to ask, they still declined.

They had already lost so much because of the Saviours, they had killed all the men in their community.

When I heard this I felt sick, it was like all sound drained from my ears as I felt dizzy.

The room seemed to spin and I went to sit down on the grass and breathed deeply.

Tara knew exactly how I was feeling.

It was like every time he did something horrific, another bullet went straight through my heart.

Rick nodded, 'we can do this without them' he said confidently as he marched on ahead of us.

He took the walkie talkie from Michonne so we knew he was gonna talk to Negan.

How could I want a guy dead so badly and at the same time want to save him?

I was insane.

Tara and Aaron helped me up and I tried to drink some water and eat some fruit to keep my energy up.

Rick's POV//

I stood in an open field and paced as I connected to the Sanctuary line.

'Give me Negan' I said sternly.

'Who the hell is askin?' Negan responded.

'It's Rick Grimes' I replied.

He hesitated before saying 'Ricky, look at you callin me up. You wanna tell me where you are so we can do this face to face' he answered cockily.

'Carl's dead. He wrote letters, he wrote one to you. He asked you to stop, he asked me to stop. He asked us for peace. But it's too late for that, even if we wanted a deal now, it doesn't matter' I said with little emotion.

'I'm gonna kill you' I said sternly.

'How did it happen?' he asked weakly.

I was surprised by his concern.

'What?' I asked.

'How did he die? Was it us? Was it the grenades? The fire' he responded.

I shouted down the walkie talkie 'it wasn't you!'.

'Carl went out to help someone and he got bit' I said defeatedly.

'Goddamn it' Negan responded breathlessly, like he was genuinely affected by this news.

This only made me more angry.

'Shit...I-Um, I am sorry. You know I wanted him to be a part of things. I had plans, he...that kid was the future' he said quietly.

'The only future is one where you're dead' I said sternly as I paced around.

'The hell are you doing Rick? Why are you fighting? Why are you making this so hard? Carl is dead, because of you. Because you couldn't leave shit well enough alone. I mean hell maybe he would've died some other way, anyone of us can get our ticket punched at any second but in this case, in this case he is dead because of you. Because you weren't there to stop him from doing something stupid. You set this course Rick, who's next?' he said trying to provoke me.

I couldn't resist, 'you are!' I shouted shakily.

'No, but someone is. You see, I stop people from dying. I am the answer. Now it may have taken a hard lesson for you to hear it, but you should hear it now. Do not let anymore of your shit decisions cost you to lose anyone else you love. That garbage, it sticks with you forever just like Carl will. You could have just let me save all of you' he said cooly.

He wanted to hurt me, fine, two can play at that game.

I chuckled into the walkie talkie.

'You wanna talk shit decisions and losing people you love? Fine, then I guess our next topic is Molly' I said sternly.

He was silent for a minute on the other side, before I heard it click as he spoke.

'What about Molly?' he asked hesitantly.

I smirked at his interest, the bastard had a weakness.

'You killed her...' I growled as I disconnected the line.

Negan's POV//

My body froze as he spoke those words, 'you killed her' rung in my ears over and over again.

I scowled in confusion, 'what?' I shouted down the walkie talkie.

No response.

The fucker must have disconnected the line.

I squeezed it in my hands and pressed it to my lips before throwing down onto the concrete and stamping on it repeatedly.

I exhaled as I grabbed hold of the railings outside the Sanctuary and shut my eyes in frustration as hot tears rained from my eyes.

No, I thought.

I couldn't have killed her, maybe it was the bombs.

Dwight had said that she was safe at the Hilltop.

I could live knowing that she hated me, but if I had killed her...I didn't know what I would do.

I looked straight ahead in front of me to see Simon, chained to the fence, coated in molten metal to preserve the body.

That was Eugene's genius.

Seeing him as a walker reminded me of what he had done to Molly and how badly I needed to know whether the was alive.

I had to find out either way.

I readied up my guys and we set off to the Hilltop, I would have to kill them all except for Molly.

I had always thought that I was weaker with her around me, but being without her crippled me even more.

I just needed her safe and alive.

Eugene handed out the weapons, our bullets restocked plus more.

We were fucking ready for war.

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ofphcenixes · 5 years

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BLUE & LIBBY - text thread 001

texts from 3:55pm to 7:01pm

blue

hey lib. (: havent talked today. just wanted to drop in and see if u were doin alright i have memes if u need them

libby

i mean, technically we did talk. i reminded you of the moment the world stood still: when valentine and you made contact (1) time. are you okay though? you seem a little, weird

blue

i maintain that valentine was an alien in a spider suit that wanted to destroy me but u know what I mean djdjdjd just chats between us. the gc has been a june holden fest lately lmao hope it works out for them tho anyways i am always weird in ur eyes djdjhd. but im fine. shit was crazy that night and we never really got to talk about what happenedand if u wanted to talk i just want u to kno im here ABOUT NADIA bc yeah kdjdjjd

libby

don't talk to me or my son ever again yeah, wow, okay so holden stayed over the night. i only know that because i saw his stuff in her room? i think she mentioned that like, it was a one time thing but i feel like... he might be coming over again which.. is Interesting oh. yeah, no i think i'm okay. i guess just in shock. june is very broken up over it, so i'm doing my best to be a good pal, and bring loads of ice cream and kisses. /: do you wanna talk? about nadia? i know that she like, meant something to you

blue

ok good luck getting me to stop talkin to u but as for valentine? bye Felecia! is that right. hmm well he doesn’t seem like much is goin on so maybe they were just,, hanging out. bringing a bag over is pretty damning tho. and if he does come over and u see him tell that bih he owes me $ bc he ate my fucking chorizo salad ): r u proud lib?? I ate a salad by choice well I would have if Holden wasn’t a lil birch bitch DONT CENSOR ME fuck. im sorry. ): i actually wanted to see june today tbh. but if u need anyone pls let me know alright? id skip practice if u needed me, lib WELL. i mean ok i was sorta close with her in middle school and she’s always been a friend and I just. I’m just fucking numb tbh. I really can’t believe it

libby

i'll have you know that valentine died shortly after my 18th birthday so ): idk idk, why would they hang out in her room if they were "hanging out"? like they have history. i feel like thats, a little too ... suspicious given the context. in a good way though. like i hope it works out theyre both so miserable without each other. oh my god!! look at you go! so proud of you, dude! ( even if you never got to it lmao ) no, no, it's okay. june needs all the support she can get, and i don't wanna impede. i'm really fine, i just sort of need to accept it and i guess reflect on how terrible it is. she was a really sweet person and fuck i really cant believe any of it i guess

blue

fuck what kdjdjdnd I thought valentine just yeeted shit that’s not a good way to put it fuck but. im sorry lib ): ok I take it back Valentine was alright. still scared the fuck out of me tho all i know is that if i loved someone as much as holden loves june, i wouldn’t let you go **THEM fuck Damn phone Typos Djdjhdi can’t believe u make me eat green stuff its truly CRUEL whomst? I only know nadia just didn’t fucking deserve any of this. shit even daisey didn’t. i just want to protect everyone and i don’t know HOW it goes without saying that im happy to be ur uber driver for the indefinite future

libby

no omg, i took good care of my boy. idk what happened, they can live up to like 15 years so i was pretty bummed tbh. i was a bad mom he appreciates your support from the grave though i mean, i guess. but not everyone you love is going to love you back, i think that's where holden's at. not everyone wants to be clung to, and june seems reluctant besides, you know all about that. holden, the love of your life, loves june. how sad it's good for you!!! i'm helping i ... feel so badly for both of them. i can't imagine how their families must be feeling, fuck. i hate this. i'm moving to spain ah, dude you don't have to do all that. you probably are busy with practice, and holden, and work. thank you tho

blue

im sure ur a great mother. ): but still valentine was lucky to have u. and im sure he misses u in his weird spider heaven web of flies and whatever it is spiders like idk ill dm peter parker and find out i mean... guess that’s true. I suppose I dont get to see how june feels most of the time. i just wish they’d talk about it and sort it out at least. they both deserve to be happy holden is the loml that is true aksjjsjd. holden has enough room for both me and june in his heart. so i mean technically i can love someone else too?? but enough about that lmfao you definitely are helping. even coach has noticed dkdjd. making me better without even trying u can’t move without me who’s gonna get me free popcorn ): you’re just as important as practise and holden to me, lib.

libby

god, i miss him. you think the girls would be mad if i bought another one? like, to keep in my room. i know! they're both obviously still in love, you can tell. i can't wait for them to overcome this and get to be together. also, im grateful for the amount of sleep i'm able to get now that... the room next to mine is less loud welp, i hope you find someone who is willing to share you with holden lol oMG, REALLY? IDK WHY THAT MADE ME IRRATIONALLY HAPPY LOL. WE CAN GET SALAD LATER let's go, we'll go to spain and take on a new identity. we can live along the coast and work in a bakery or something. get a puppy don't show holden that text he might cry. but dsjflk thank you, you're very important to me too. kinda my best pal

blue

u would have to ask. but if you did get another what would u call it? thanksgiving? funnily enough valentine is only a few weeks away. a sign?? i mean fuck ive known holden for years and can confirm he is happiest when he’s with june. when she’s not roasting him at least lmfao. and if my MasterPlan works im afraid things will get bad again djdjdj. I can take one for the team and try to get them to come over here tho - u don’t need to deal with that shit i hope i do too tbh. and who would I want it to be u ask? that’s right. danny devito. LETS NOT GET TOO CRAZY IVE ALREADY HAD THREE VEGETABLES THIS WERK AND ITS ONLY TUESDAY. I think it’s popcorn time 8) bold of u to assume i know where Spain is dkdjdjdjdj well he’s gonna catch on soon enough we spend every day together at this point lol

libby

i was gonna name this one patrick, after st patricks day actually lol. yes you know what's also approaching that is more important? your birthday! i know, it doesnt take a rocket scientist to figure that out. he's v much a relationship kinda dude, actually bc he's also kinda slutty lol. but even june is sad and its just, SO HARD. i hate when people are clearly, happiest together are like, nO IM GOING TO PROLONG THE MISERY. i feel like we're in a rom-com. how do we get them back together? i'll let him know. my v-day gift from me to you oooo, should i get the skittles ready too then? popcorn is kinda of a veggie if you think abt it omg, okay well now you can't come with me. offer rescinded. im going with the hot cop lslsfkjdjkldfs i mean its not like we're doing anything weird, so its okay, right?

blue

ur so cute wtf. although if u did do this i hope u know im calling him patrick star. also how the fuck do u tell if its a female or a male spider theyre so small and gross. fuck it is too lol. i dont have any money so im gonna let ppl down on the party front lmao. ud still come tho, right? how can he be both slutty and relationshippy. like not to be weird bc i know hes ur cousin and all dkfjgg but he doesnt.. have people over anymore. unless hes someone learned not to stomp around the house WHICH I DONT BELIEVE. and ha hA im already on plan 384 to get them back together get on my level lmao. we just gotta force them to spend time together tbh. does that mean i have to give u the hot cop for valentines bc i mean. i would if that's what u wanted but im sure u can do much better than him OH FUCK UR RIGHT OUR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP HAS BEEN A LIE TO CONVERT ME TO VEGGIES HASNT IT r u breaking up with me? well fine, ill take the dog ): it's... it's not weird unless we make it weird. and we haven't. have we?

libby

fdsjfjdsl shhhhh, back at you. Patrick Star will be his full name, i promise you this much. as for gender idfk, i am honestly assuming its pronouns lol. i'd be sued by the LGBT community if they knew. also dude, of course. i'll make you cupcakes. plus i know what i wanna buy you! i can't wait dude what? really?? i thought he was seeing people this whole time, holy shit. dude he's really messed up over this huh? wow, okay, we need to kick this into high gear and have them get back together. tell me your plans. omg, no you clown. i don't even like him that much, he's just pretty. i do like... some personality and he has 0 GOD MY PLAN HAS BEEN FOILED. I CANT BELIEVE IT like i'd ever let you take the dog. she's mine sdfjlkdsfjlk iDK DUDE. I MAY HAVE MADE IT WEIRD BUT WE'RE BAD AT TALKING ABT STUFF, SO WE DONT HAVE TO LOL.

blue

do spiders even have gender i thought they were just the minions of evil lmfao lib u rly dont have to get me anything, really. altho now im curious tbh. but get ready for me to get a lit gift in june >:) ill even wrap it myself which says a lot bc i cant wrap for shit but i want it to be personal lmao not many that im aware of atm. will give u info is this changes. huh we r spies lib. >:) but i dont have any current plans except trying to force them to go in a photo booth together or something when we eventually go to the arcade djsjdh omg how did u know. but idk everyone speaks about him like hes gOD he’s just a dude. eyebrows on fleek tho I will say that IM SO HURT UD USE ME LIKE THIS LIB. ALL THIS TIME WE WERE GETTING CLOSE AND U WERE ONLY HERE FOR THE VEGGIES so u get Spain AND the dog. what do I get, sadness ???? you haven’t made it weird lib, i promise. not to me, anyway. maybe we both wanted the same thing. maybe. oR MAYBE NOT LMFAO but yeah we can talk about whatever lol

libby

don't talk about nate like that omg! i want to, plus its a surprise so no asking what it is. also wow i cant believe you remember my birthday, lol. you dont have to get me anything. you can buy me an ice cream though oh my gOD THAT'S BRILLIANT! aw, what if they take one of those cute kiss pictures in the photobooth like in the movies? i can't wait for them to love each other again, they're so cute. are you jealous that no one is talking about your eyebrows? you have nice eyebrows and nothing to be jealous abt GOD, IM SO SORRY. ROY HIRED ME. HE WAS WORRIED ABT YOUR HEALTH. IM SORRY YOU HAD TO FIND OUT THIS WAY. I THOUGHT YOU NEVER WOULD /: you get the memory of what we were to keep you warm right, cool. noted

blue

why do u talk about the string bean all the time i know u grew up with him but seriously he's like a pale pipe cleaner that i dont need in my life ofc i remeber ur birthday lib. dont u remember ur 10th?? probably the best day of my life lmao. and if u get me something i get u something thats how this works as long as june doesnt say anything mean and holden say anything stupid, its a pretty solid plan tbh. im not jealous HOW DARE ROY PLAY ME LIKE THIS. cant believe u betrayed me lib, after all we've been through ;-; but what if i want something to sell off now that u took the house oh fuck lib i didn't mean it like that. just... pretend i said nothing ok and. yeah talk about something else

libby

hey sorry, i gotta go. talk tomorrow.

blue

oh is everything ok? but alright talk tomorrow then i guess bye lib

libby

night

blue

its 6pm lib but okay night

blue

lib if i did something u dont have to tell me but pls know i didnt mean it, whatever it was. i hope youre okay. but i wont bother u again i promise. just. yeah

libby

it's okay, dude. i'm fine. it's honestly my own fault, it's not you. you're always great. i'm sorry. it's fine

blue

i dont understand what ur talking about but i can tell u dont want to so ill just... leave this. but you're always great too lib. the greatest, in fact. just let me know if ur still coming to the arcade later or not yeah

libby

i guess i'll go. i like pacman.

blue

if u... if u change ur mind i understand. but i really hope u can make it.

#( blue ; converse ! )#( blue & libby ! )#WE LOVE CRYING

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trashmykrp · 7 years

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Hi guys! It’s @yaboynez here. I wasn’t going to get into this, mostly because it’s extremely petty and the one person fueling this is slowly cracking and showing everyone their true face, so I don’t think I need to do much before karma comes back around, but I’ll send this in. And according to Natalia, a lot of people talk about me behind my back? If it helps at least one person see the truth, whether it’s about me, or someone else involved, then that’ll make me happy.

It’s about to get real lengthy up in this bitch, so grab ya ass some tea and get cozy.

I never forced myself into any argument between Hunter and Lars. I have my opinions on them, and usually they’re valid ones (like how hypocritical it is for one trans person to misgender another trans person and then expect people to respect their decision and NOT misgender them– and then lie about ever doing it). I don’t really know where I forced myself into their arguments, but trust me when I didn’t want jack shit to do with it. I think they should have stayed out of each others’ lives. I actually find it funny that Hunter spent all that time trashing Lars and actively going out of his way to continue to slander someone’s name, just to end up with them again. I don’t think you would talk so badly of someone if you truly cared about them. I know Lars has done bad things but damn? DAMN. How do you go from misgendering someone and trying to get everyone to dislike a person, to dating them again and defending them when someone brings up a small altercation with them? It’s just weird to me, that anyone would put so much effort into hating someone and trying to get others to hate a person that they would just go back. Like that. I don’t really care if there’s proof of me somehow forcing myself into any arguments, because I’m 100% sure I never did that.

I don’t need to know the full story to have my opinion. In the three or so months now? Maybe? That I’ve known Lars, there have been ups and downs. He’s definitely done things ic and ooc that made me want to be done with him, shit I didn’t want to put up. I had a lot of heated arguments with him where I felt more assholish than I honestly think I should have been, where I repeatedly told him we wouldn’t ship, moments where I told him I didn’t even want to be friends ooc anymore. But the thing about Lars is, he usually comes back and realizes that he’s done something wrong. And when he does, he seems genuine in wanting to make things better. During this time, he’s made improvements with me, how he acts around me, with some minor hiccups here and there. But it’s not as bad as it was that first month. In all the time that I’ve known him, I haven’t seen him be all that malicious either. I think he’s told me not to trust Natalia, and hell maybe he even said not to trust Hunter at some point? But those conversations were brief and more of a “hey friend, I care about you so I feel like you shouldn’t trust them”.

In the month or so? Maybe a little more than that, that I’ve known him, I’ve seen more bad things about Hunter than anything else. Before even meeting him all I knew about him was that he continuously talked shit about Lars. Which I didn’t judge him for initially because based on what I’d heard, they hat a tumultuous relationship that definitely went sour and I tried to give him the benefit of the doubt. And upon meeting him I had no real qualms, he seemed okay. We didn’t really talk until his muse, Tem, gave Eumae a second chance to try things with him. It was after that when we got close. Our muses started to talk to each other and there was an instant connection, too great to ignore. Hours after the movie we watched together, Hunter expressed to me that he didn’t actually want to ship with Natalia anymore and that he was guilted into it by her. He said his muse no longer had the desire to be faithful to her, which was evident in what happened on rabbit. I struggled knowing this information, because I wanted to talk to Natalia, but I didn’t want to be the bearer of bad news. I just tried my best to tell Hunter that he should be honest about it with her. I don’t think he was until shit hit the fan that she found out though, or maybe he told her and that’s why everything melted down the way it did. But I may have been the one who ended up saying honestly. Who knows, I don’t know what was said between them that day.

Hunter has shown me that he’s two-faced in the way he treated Natalia, who he has already crawled back to. Something he claims of me for what I said to him about Natalia. I’m sorry I didn’t word everything the exact same way the multiple times I spoke to her, but that doesn’t mean I hid anything from her? I may not have said it all right away, but I definitely had multiple conversations where I showed Natalia I was discontent with her and all the reasons why, if not all at once then over time.

Because honestly talking to Natalia about anything unpleasant with her is really hard, she’s not… it’s hard to talk to her earnestly about my feelings when I know that she’s going to be cold and distant and not really care about it. I have expressed my main points to her but even the times where I said I was going to explain everything from the start I chickened out because I didn’t want to have her look me dead in the eyes and be like yeah idc I’m not sorry. But, she knew the gist of how I felt, even if I didn’t go into detail. I guess I should have, then none of this would have happened and there would have been no reason for any of this to have happened today.

I find it funny that I’m being called a hypocrite too, because here’s the thing. Hunter decided to not trust me and ship with me, because of the negative things I said about Natalia while she spoke negatively of me and basically told me to fuck off and I found out everyone elses’ stories about what went down with her. Things I had every right to say, things that anyone in that situation might say when they find out their best friend has possibly lied to their face about everything just about. I was pissed and hurt and angy that I spent so much defending someone who would just straight up go behind my back like that. He didn’t trust me because he was afraid I would talk behind his back. Yet– he was talking… behind my back… to his friends? He shaded me on the TL and his friends all replied knowing EXACTLY what it was about ?? On top of that, he’s talked mad shit about Lars behind his back, yet took him back. However, me saying negative things because Natalia had hurt me and I felt like I was seeing her in a new light, but then the idea of me and her suddenly going back to normal and being friends, is enough for him to worry and stop talking to me. Hunter actually made an assumption at that point, because when I posted asking for someone to get her to message me, we weren’t okay yet. I wanted to finish the conversation we had. I wanted to know where she and I stood, if we were going to work things out.

And the thing is it never really became okay. This whole time I’ve felt extremely negative feelings towards her because of her hypocritical actions and knowing she went behind my back to talk shit just made it even worse.

As for emotionally manipulating and invalidating feelings? This is really funny because at least one of these asks is Hunter, and the other one might be Natalia. Hunter seems to have sent the one about invalidating feelings, which is really funny. It hadn’t even been a week yet but we saw each other basically every day. We spoke pretty much the whole time he was here, whenever he was here. We watched a lot of rom coms together and plotted shit. It was a lot of fun. Our muses were supposed to go on a date one night and I made sure I had time for it. But he didn’t show up that night. He wasn’t there when I went to bed. I think he was gone for over 24 hours and at this point I was a little worried because it wasn’t like him to disappear that long, or at least as far as I knew. My concern had more to do with hoping he was okay and not that he hadn’t shown up. When he did finally show up, he said something but I don’t remember what it was at this point, nothing memorable. I was just happy to see him again and know he was okay. I think he sort of explained that he was exhausted or something, but it wasn’t anything major.

The next couple of days, he was there around his usual times, but when he was, he wouldn’t answer any of our chats, not the ic ones or the ooc one, illit or lit. He wouldn’t respond to anything I mentioned him in, even the cute things. He wouldn’t talk to me even if we were both on the tl posting and talking to our friends. I was busy around this time so I didn’t spend a whole time looking at the ACTUAL TL, just my notifications and going to certain twitters to check up on certain people. The next couple of days, that’s how I found out he had actually been online for a good while talking to the rest of his friends. The first time I said anything his excuse was not always being in the mood to talk or being spaced out, not noticing things, etc. I was like okay cool I’ll just try hard to get your attention when it’s just you spacing out or whatever. No biggie. The way he spoke to me was a little ?? I don’t know, it’s like he was telling me to shut up I’m being unreasonable or something. It was the second time I think he mentioned his disease or whatever that basically means he’s in pain all the time, and sometimes it’s too bad to reply. So at this point I was like OHHHHH WOW OKAY I GOT YOU, THANKS FOR TELLING ME !!! Having him actually be fully honest and tell me why he may not be here or reply to dms or some shit, that made sense. I understand. My mom has fibromyalgia and I don’t know what my deal is, maybe I just work too much, but I’m in constant pain and forever exhausted, so it’s not like I was going to be like IDC REPLY TO ME.

My issue though is how he would say he couldn’t keep track of things because he spaced out or was in pain, but with his other friends he seemed to do just fine? Still I bit my tongue because Hunter had already sort of made me feel bad for wondering why he wouldn’t talk to me. I feel like if your muse is interested in another muse, and supposedly dating, that probably means when you’re around, you’re gonna want to them talk right? Like I’m not crazy in thinking that? Because why would your muse be involved with someone you don’t feel like speaking to when you get here? But he always found a way to invalidate my feelings so I never spoke about it much. If something was going on he had some excuse for it, and even though he didn’t want sympathy for his disease he sure liked to use it as an excuse for why he didn’t notice me anywhere despite talking to others.

I haven’t done anything to be emotionally manipulative to anyone, and it’s really frustrating that I have to be called all of these things when all I’ve wanted to do the last few months is rebuild my muse’s life after dealing with shitty person after shitty person. I just got him to the point of letting go what his ex and ex best friend did to him, which took way longer than it should have honestly. All I want is for my muse to be happy and have good friends and be around good people. And it’s fucking annoying that I have to be in this situation.

The good thing in all of this, that makes me feel better, is no one has turned on me beyond Hunter and Natalia. At least, not that I know of. Not the friends I speak to regularly. I think they all see the truth here. I have neve been perfect. I have fucked up and did bad things, I’ve tried my best to make up for them despite some people not wanting any of that. My muse is extremely emotional and can be petty, and it affects me too, often times. I’ve done things that might be hypocritical, yes, but it’s nothing I won’t own up to. And a lot of people are seeing that even though I have my issues, I’m doing my best to work on them. I’ve gotten really far in the last few months and I’m proud of myself because I’m finally salvaging a muse I love dearly, instead of letting toxic people ruin him for me.

Anyone who takes the time to really get to know me or my muse, knows how kind and giving I am. I’ve offered so many times to pay for people to see doctors, I’ve offered to pay bills, I’ve sent people gifts for their birthdays spent 80 bucks on them to never see a dime or even really hear from them for long afterwards. If someone here was suddenly homeless and needed a roof over their head I would come and help them if I could. I was raised in the midwest/south, in the city but with a country mentality where no one’s a stranger and everyone deserves a chance to prove themselves. I have done my best to make sure both myself and my muse are very transparent, as is probably the most important thing when having a very flirtacious muse where a lot of other muses can get their feelings involved. I have done my best to make sure that nothing I say is a lie, to look at everyone and make my own opinions of them despite how much everyone likes to try and convince you otherwise. I have made as much as an effort as I can to talk to the people who seem lonely because I know how they feel and I want them to have a friend. I think that despite the flaws I still have, my kindness shows and so does my sincerity. Things that aren’t very valued here by many, which is okay.

I don’t care what anyone thinks. If people want to believe the shit that’s going to be flying from someone’s mouth from here on out, that’s okay. If you’re the type of person to let others make your opinions then I’m better off. The thing is I’m done letting people walk all over me and tell me who I am and what I feel, or how I should express how I feel. I think that in the end people are going to see everyone for who they really are, and while I’ve made a fool out of myself and definitely been in the wrong before, that doesn’t change my true colors. But for some of you time is running out and more people are seeing it every day.

Hunter, move on with your life. You already have so much shit to deal with, your ooc life isn’t something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy and I sincerely feel like you could spend your time doing something more pleasant. You don’t trust me, okay whatever, so move on. I just hope from now on you’re more honest with people, and that you treat people you love with the kind of respect they deserve. And if someone isn’t good to you, you should move the fuck on and find someone who does. Karma tends to take care of everyone who deserves it, so keep that in mind and focus on doing you instead of being shady about others. If you want people to be sympathetic about how much you were abused in your relationship supposedly, then don’t abuse others in return. Being abused does not give you the right to be abusive in return, it just puts you on the same level as your abuser, and the people who support you won’t be so quick to do it anymore when the truth comes out and they see the things you’ve done. I wouldn’t call you out if I didn’t know personally some of the things you’ve done, based on my own experience I hadn’t even shared yet. But to hear the same thing coming from someone else’s mouth, that really set it in stone for me.

Anyway nobody probably gonna read this but HEY HERE WE GO. If you got shit to say, talk to me privately. Otherwise I’m not gonna respond.

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