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def-not-kaz-brekker · 4 months

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Okay okay okay but Percy and annabeth in the show Annabeth starts out just following the new kid around you know routine shit and Percy is just so lost he doesn’t have his best friend anymore because he got snitched on his moms fucking gone and he fought a motherfucking Minotaur also apparently his dads a god and then she sees him explode a toilet and okay okay maybe he’s one of the big three let’s see him in action during capture the flag he has no fucking clue what’s going on his only friend is luke he’s in the reject cabin this weird girl is talking him and he has a pen that turns into a sword and also his old teacher is apparently a centaur and the weird girl pulled him away from his friend who told him that the girl is really smart so you know he follows her then she ducking abandons him in the middle of Nowhere and he just chills then he gets attacked by the bully girl and then their team won at capture the flag and then he gets pushed in the water and then he’s claimed by Poseidon and now they’re on a quest and then they get attacked by furies and then there’s Medusa and now they’re friends and now they’re in a train together and then they get attacked by echidna and then Percy is poisoned by the chimera and then Annabeth finds out her mother doesn’t care.

She was embarrassed by annabeths impertinence and so she has to save her two friends, one of which is poisoned. She has to sacrifice herself.

Percy finds out he got Annabeth in trouble. His only friends are gonna die because of him impertinence. He has to sacrifice himself.

A child of the big three sacrifices themself again to save Annabeth and Grover.

#DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHY I AM CURRENTLY NOT OKAY???#AGGHHHHH THEYRE JUST AHAHAGAGAG #IM DYING OKAY #IVE WATCHED THAT EPISODE THREE TIMES ALREADY I AM NOT DOING OK #THE PARALELLS BETWEEN THALIA AND PERCY #ANNABETH KNOWING SHE HAS TONSACRIFICE HERSELF #PERCY NOT LETTING HER DO THAT #PERCY WILLING TO DIE FOR HIS FRIENDS #PERCY’S FATAL FLAW BEING LOYALTY SO HE CANT STAND THERE AND LET HIS FRIEND DIE #PERCY’S IMPERTINENCE BEING THEIR DEATH SENTENCE #ATHENA PRACTICALLY LETTING HER CHILD AND HER FRIENDS DIE #POSEIDON SAVING PERCY BECAUSE THE IMPERTINENCE IS WHY HE FELL IN LOVE WITH SALLY #I LITERALLY CANNOT FUNCTION PROPERLY RIGHT NOW #percy jackson tv series #pjo show #annabeth chase #Percy Jackson #grover underwood

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sunny-ghosts · 17 days

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my boys are so comically intertwined. They're two halves of one whole but it wasn't a neat split, they're torn remnants of what could have been a person and there's pieces missing and things that they picked up but they're both roughly half of a whole, not cut nearly, but torn apart by hand, sorted into mismatched piles. They were always supposed to be together and they will do everything in their power to avoid this until it happens. It's not sun and moon symbolism, its life and death, day and night, the same font saying two reflected things. They're interchangeable and complete opposites and the exact same

#🌟star tag🌟#Tristan looks like a representation of life and feels like a representation of death #Ori is the opposite #Same with day and night #They have nothing in common but when combined they reach an equilibrium that allows them to both stay alive #Which is something that neither of them could dream of doing alone #They're two halves of one whole and they cannot be separated and analyzed properly without the other #This is why I love them #I make the two halves thing a romantic or queerplatonic thing but like #It could have been anything #They're soulmates in the way that they cannot survive without the other #They're literally two separate halves of one whole functioning thing #That could be platonic familial romantic whatever #It's just going to happen or they're going to die #And for them it was queer although its unclear whether it was romantic or platonic #Also there was a glitch with the tags a minute ago I can't delete a handful of one word tags #Ignore them please

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crowcussion · 6 months

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omg NAUSEA WTF

#ink’s brain vomit #vomit cw #for later on in the tags #bro all i did was eat food 😭#istg everything makes me nauseous #literally speedran saying goodnight cuz i felt like i was gonna fucking puke #i didn’t but almost did #doctor appointment tomorrow tho #but that’s for the fainting not the nausea #godDAMN this body cannot function properly #wait those tags disappeared on my screen wtf #THE NEW TAGS KEEP DISAPPEARING #WHAT #nvm they’re back #NOPE TJEURE GONE #BACK #AUGU

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flashylightz · 4 months

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HELLO????

Not my wife casually seducing me rn..

ZUHA BETTER STOP BEFORE I POUNCE ON HER 🤭

Jsjsjejsnshiwhduejshsojsufajhs

I love my wives ��🫶

#flashy says:#MY BBGIRL ZUHA #MY WIFEY #MY LIL POOKIE #MY CUTIE PATOOTIE #MY HONEYBUNCHSUGARPLUM #THIS HAS ME ON MY KNEES-#MISS MA'AM YOU BETTER STOP BEFORE I BULLDOZER MY WAY INTO THE HYBE BUILDING-#I literally cannot function properly because of this pic #aAAAAAAAAÆÆHH #There are so many tags to this post-#amsori #Kazuha #le sserafim #nakamura kazuha

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immamapletreekid · 7 months

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it has been so long since a game has done this level of irreparable damage to my emotional wellbeing

#yes this is about persona 3 i am no longer the same person i was before this game #it has permanently altered my brain chemistry. reorganized every single molecule in my body #it has fundamentally changed me as a person #ive been doong horribly in school bc i literally canmot focus in class #all i can tjink about is p3 and how quickly i can rush tjroigh assignments so i can go back to my room and play persona all night it #is not healthy i need summer break for a reason and thay is to be able to let out all this energy so i can #function properly in daily life #ivr half a mind to make little digital p3 emote sticker thing doodles so that i can plaster them on my notes #i think if i have a drawing of aigis next to my linear algebra notes i will have more motivation to read them #going to make so many aki ones...#all of this is if i have the time and energy tho. i hate school so much #rambling about stuff #literally been listening to tje p3 soundtrack everyday when i study #its that bad. it really is that bad. i need to start taking school seriously i cannot fail my classes i do not jave tje money to afford rep #ating any classes #also coping w how hesvy the p3 story is compared to the other games ithink... idk man im thriving off of tjr everybody lives no one dies au #and imean i get thay that kinda goes against the whole tjeme of tje game but like. let them be happy ;O;#maxing all my social links bc i love them all so much tjey are bffs forever. sees bffs sees bffs i love sees #im not even that far into my playthrougj yet ive yet to meet aigis but that is coming soon!!!#going to hug her so hard when she finally shows up #ryoji too ;w;#celebrating every mochizuki monday so i actually get out of bed and go to class #fuck linear algebra i might actuslly fail linear algebra i have no clue whats going in linear algebra ryoji mochizuki would never

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boobveins · 9 months

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is it okay if i pretend you're hyuna

YES. YESYESYES. is it ok if i send u a billion kisses on the forehead. btw putting this as my header i want it to live forever and with that also ur taste anon <3

#fav #BEST. BEST. bestest of #i feel so dizzy and confused this is the greatest ask i've gotten #but honestly i'm so in awe right now i literally cannot function properly.... what did i evend o

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daybreakrising · 1 year

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The builders were supposed to turn up at 8am today to install a new loft hatch in my room, so by half 7 I had everything covered up ready, had taken a bunch of stuff downstairs to keep me occupied while they were working, all on less than 2 hours of sleep bc I'm super ill rn

And then they cancelled 20 minutes later. My whole day is now ruined 🙃

#;that's my shinobi way (ooc)#( i literally cannot function properly when this happens )#( i used all of my physical spoons simply getting out of bed and sorting all that out )#( and now my mental spoons are gone bc my plans have been changed )#( today is a write-off and it's only 8:15 )

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akuutaguava · 2 years

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The poe brainrot is real. Its almost as bad as my chuuya brainrots get.

#and my chuuya ones…. literally cannot function properly because he’s there in everything i see #its like that with poe now ffs #stellas gone mental

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starberry-skies · 1 year

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idk how to phrase this post so i will ramble in tags keep scrolling :-)

#aaagah #how to engage w media where the characters i like are in pain #however that pain is a personal trigger for me #i can't ignore it bc that's ignoring a main facet of the character #but engaging with it is just hurting me #also ignoring it means ignoring ppl w that same issue #and i can't do that #i feel so stuck #bc on one hand #i love the media and the character #and i want to see more of them and learn more abt them #but on the other hand #i can't engage with that media at all if that trigger is included without feeling physical sick and unable to properly function #oh my godddddd #idk why it's like. a thing. where people want to see their fav characters in pain #like that's a whole trope right? 'i love this character and i want to read a story where they suffer'?#i can't do that #i literally cannot stand it when i see a character especially one i like in pain #*unless* there is a guaranteed happy ending #otherwise i will Not engage w it #is that a symptom of hyper empathy? its possible hold on #update: i couldn't find anything #most sources were ableist or outdated (sometimes both)#yayyyyy.#anyway to get back on track #sorry i'm being vague abt the character and the show #like if you're *that* interested ask me in dms ig #ok i think i'm at 30 tags oh well #personal chirps

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misclogarts · 5 months

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why is having a body so difficult

#itlogthoughts #shout out to be being unable to work for like an hour earlier #wondering what was wrong (and also feeling horrible)#and then i realized. my pants were making me feel uncomfortable. that's literally it. why #its literally just clothes i wear that pair like every week WHAT is my problem istg #immediately sat down after finally getting enough energy to change and IMMEDIATELY had to go to the bathroom i hate it here #literally my brain cannot function properly if i'm wearing socks with no shoes on. why is this body so high maintenance

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dhampir-dyke · 10 months

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#i cannot fucking believe that my half-baked psilocybin therapy is working. this is so crazy.......#less than 4 months ago i was incredibly suicidal and my depression + trauma kept me from doing basic shit. i couldnt fucking enjoy anything.#and now i take literally no medicine except a gram of psilocybin every month or so. and i hesistate to say its 'fixed' me bc i still have #a lot of issues and i still have bad days #BUT. my life is so much better now..... i can actually feel good when i do things i like. im able to get important stuff done much easier #and im having bad days instead of bad WEEKS. when my cptsd gets triggered its still horrific and debilitating but the come down from it is #much faster and im able to function properly sooner #today i managed to talk to my leasing office about moving in a few days earlier and they said yes!!! ive manage to pack a BUNCH #of my stuff into my car for when i start moving in tomorrow. ive made an important phone call!!!#i still had to jump through the hoop of executive dysfunction BUT. normally i have to go through an obstacle course of it #every time i do it i feel like i get a little bit better. i try to make a 'plan of attack' every time i take them.#make my place feel as comfortable and safe as possible. i keep a journal nearby and relaxing music playing. and i try to sortof like #i guess a mix of introspection + reparenting in a way. i go with the flow but i try to focus on a way of thinking thats unhealthy #and try to tease + pick apart the reasons its unhealthy; while also trying to replace it with a healthier way of thinking #if that makes sense??? all while just. idk. feeling safe and at ease.#and ill feel kinda weird for at most a day afterwards bc lets be real. its psychedelic mushrooms. but afterwards i just feel much #lighter and generally just more at peace?#maybe its bc of how vulnerable i am while in an altered mental state; it may replicate the vulnerability i experienced as a child.#but rather than be abused for being vulnerable im being gentle and kind to myself??? idek man its weird.#anyways thats the end of my rambling im just thinking outloud

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milquetoad · 1 year

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last night i did smth that was the perfect illustration of what adhd is like for me so here it is

i made some tea and when it was done steeping i grabbed my jar of honey that i use specifically for this tea. i was almost out so there was probably about 2-3 tablespoons at the bottom, so when i flipped it to pour it out it was super slow and was taking forever so i went to grab a spoon.

i have two spoons in my room. one is regular, the other is a pretty big quenelle spoon. the regular one was dirty (used it to eat mac&cheese 4 days ago) so i grab the big one. well. it’s too big to fit in the opening of the jar. so for a couple minutes i sit there, using it to spoon teaspoons at a time of hot tea into the jar, swirling it around to pick up as much of the honey as it can, pouring it back into the mug, and repeating until the jar was clean.

i could’ve: went downstairs to get another spoon (didn’t want to), washed the regular sized spoon (don’t have dish soap upstairs didn’t want to go downstairs), microwaved the honey to make it come out easier (see previous), just sweetened it with sugar (don’t like the taste as much). all of these would have been faster and simpler to do.

obviously this is such a minor thing but for me every single task i complete throughout the day plays out like this. which gets old, wastes time, inconveniences myself and the people around me, and somehow manages to make me feel anxious and ashamed. about making a cup of tea in a slightly weird and inefficient way.

#one of my friends is always asking me how to get diagnosed and what to do bc she thinks she might have it #and her only reasoning is that she spaces out on the drive home from school.#far be it from me to try and gatekeep this shit dude but i literally cannot function properly like as a person #but im also ‘probably autistic’ (thanks dr. big help) so who know if im an accurate metric #anyway. this was kind of funny but also kind of bummed me out. thank god for read mores no one is obligated to read this #my posts #text

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skzingitup · 2 years

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I wish my brain simply processed things quicker 😀

Like bestie we have to write a 4000 word essay by Monday can we wrap our head around the ideas forming quicker because we are running out of time…

#*sobbing*#no because I’m actually going to sob #I can’t even get an extension because I already got the extension #gonna drop out actually #why am I writing an essay when the country is literally in shambles around me and I might not even have a secure future 😀#what do you mean people have trust in bojo???#what do you mean I am depressed???#what do you mean I’m anxious???#what do you mean my brain refuses to work properly???#I don’t have time to have an existential crisis #I need to write this essay #gonna jump out the window #I live on the ground floor but oh well #I can try #I want a hug from my mum bro #but I don’t wanna go home because I already went home a few weeks ago and I’ll look like a baby if I go back again so soon #(even tho I literally cry on the phone to my mum everyday already because I cannot function without her)#becoming mutually emotionally dependent on your mum from a young age is not it #that’s what being a child of divorce involves ig 🤪#I’m literally just rambling now #it’s 1:40am 😀#I’m so tired #but I have to read stupid little articles about some stupid little books for my stupid little essay to pass my stupid little degree..#so I can be a stupid little teacher in a stupid little classroom for the rest of my stupid little life #anyways #I am sane I promise 🧍🏼‍♀️#emi rants about things

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phfenomena · 4 months

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❝in that lavender haze❞ || tom blyth x f!reader

| request- hear me out! lavender haze with tom 🤭

| A/N- done and done. im hearing you out and im listening so hard. i’ve been high probably like hundreds of times but still cannot properly word it sorry 💔

| WARNINGS- marijuana consumption (mega slay), kissing, eating, wine, tiktok, tooth rotting fluff,

(divider by @benkeibear)

the feeling of your lungs being filled with smoke made you giddy, everything with sharp edges turning soft and fuzzy. coughing lightly at the larger hit you’d taken you passed the blunt to your left, to tom.

your eyes fixed on the way his lips wrapped around it and the way he closed his eyes at the sensation. your hopeless crush on your mutual friend with rachel had been developing for months, seeing him at every gathering and meet up.

he was fairly nice and polite, the true english way. you just wished he’d converse with you, more than small talk. you’re laying on your back on the floor and studying the swirling patterns on the ceiling. out of your peripheral vision you see tom lay down next to you.

staring at the ceiling with you, you don’t ever say too much. and you don’t really read into my melancholia.

“you don’t have much to say, do you?” you question into the air hoping that tom would cling on. he hums and says “yeah, i don’t know what you like or what you don’t like so i jus’ say nothing.” you turn your head to face him- all caution thrown to the wind. you find it hard to care about your words in your state. “when i first met you i thought you hated me, you wouldn’t talk to me like how you talked to everyone else. thought i might’ve done something. sometimes i still think that.” you confess and it hangs lowly over both of you.

“i was honestly kind of scared of you. in my head you’re this cool actress who does slashers and everyone loves her. i didn’t wanna say the wrong thing.” you smile and place your hand on your chest. “you think i’m cool? i think you’re cooler, tom.”

his eyes crinkle when he laughs and you love it. you find it hard to decipher where the high ends and where how tom makes you feel starts, but they’re mixing. “i think you’re really cool. you do these cool like artistic horror movies and i’m kind of obsessed with your acting.”

i find it dizzying, they’re bringing up my history. but you aren’t even listening.

the group on the couch and chairs above you pass a bottle of wine and finish off the blunt. your friend laughs loudly and you turn to look at him. “do you remember that time last year when you dated the like entire cast of that one movie? what’s it called? i can’t remember. that was funny as shit.” you cringe and cover your face trying to forget.

tom lightly grazes your shoulder with his finger and whispers “are you hungry? i really want pizza right now.” you smile and nod. he wasn’t going to ask about your questionable past times. he pulls his phone out of his pocket and hands it to you. “i can’t function enough to order pizza, could you do it?” you happily nod and scroll your way through the menu before you both agree on toppings you both like.

i just wanna stay in that lavender haze. talk your talk and go viral, i just need this love spiral.

the pair had found themselves in a corner, talking and giggling over pizza whilst telling stories. “yeah! and she kept asking when i was going to settle down and get married. during an interview for a horror movie.” tom shakes his head and laughs. “i couldn’t get through one promo or interview without someone showing me at-least one edit of me. it was torture.” you pull your phone out and show him how edits of him had filled your timeline.

“you’re literally everywhere. i’m not complaining but sometimes i want to see something else!” he picks his phone up and shows your his own home page. “i’m sorry i ruined your tiktok, but this might make up for it.” his entire for you page was filled with edits of you and you co-stars from your latest movie.

you laugh and watch them “i had no idea people made edits of me, i feel honored. it’s like a right of passage.” he sets his phone down as well as his pizza. “they only the use the same ten clips of you covered in blood, i need more content.” you place you own pizza down and lean towards him.

“do you wanna know a secret i’m not supposed to tell anyone?” he nods and leans closer. “i’m gonna in the next scream movie and i’m one of the ghostface’s, you’re gonna see me murdering on the big screen.” he raises his eyebrows and you barley take into account how close your faces are.

“i love everything you’re in. when i first met you, i went home and watched everything you’ve done.” he confesses with a smile and red eyes. “i did the exact same thing, rachel told me i was creepy! we’re like each others biggest fans.”

get it off your chest, get it off my desk. that lavender haze, i just wanna stay.

you’re sitting in the bathtub of your bathroom passing a blunt back and forth between you and tom. “it’s so much quieter in here, i love them but they’re so loud.” you say leaning your head back on the tile. he softly chuckles and looks at you. “i can’t believe we could’ve been hanging out for months, i should’ve just talked to you.” you smile and set the blunt in the ashtray you brought with you.

“yeah but where’s the fun in that? this is probably the best night i’ve had in a while.” you turn to look at him and you study his features. you’ve never had a chance to really look at him, your glossy eyes try to memorize each slope and curve of his face.

“can i kiss you?” you whisper out before even realizing you’ve said it. he mutters a small ‘yes’ and you’re leaning in, like your body’s on autopilot. he tastes like weed and pizza, you couldn’t find a bone in your body that cared. you sluggishly manage to inch onto his lap. “you’re so pretty.” he whispers in between kisses. his hands find purchase on your waist, not letting you even dream of getting off of him.

you reluctantly pull back and his lips chase yours. “do you wanna hang out tomorrow?” you ask him with a smile. “i would be honored, maybe i’ll take you out on a real date.” his hands are rubbing small circles on your waist. “the press is gonna love that one.” you mutter out before leaning back into him.

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rowwiz · 1 month

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so is nobody else aware that L and Light's names are technical opposites of one another?

ok, so, this requires a lot of elaboration, so bear with me here. first thing to clarify is Light's name. without too much deliberation, Japan has this phenomenon (to my western understanding) wherein certain parents will name their children after English words. (this could potentially include other western languages; i am unsure.) as japanese is a syllabary, most of the time, these words cannot actually be pronounced properly in japanese. these names are often also written with presumably completely unrelated characters. light's name is one of these, having to be pronounced as "raito" in japanese, and written (as he so kindly explains to naomi) with "tsuki," the character for "moon." these names are called "kira-kira names." i am not joking. (that L never made a joke about light's name being literally a "kira-kira" name leaves me with a harrowingly destitute void in my soul.)

last thing we need to do is look at the translation for "Yagami," which approximates (to my knowledge!) as meaning "high," as in "high in power" (not "high" as in "stoned," because that's probably more like L's thing).

so, if we take an extrapolation of this, and replace light's names with their written functions—his forename as being a kira-kira name and being written as moon, and his surname (depending on how it's written) meaning "high"—we can evaluate an interpretation of light's name as being, extensively, "kira-kira moon high."

maybe my fellow death note crazies can see where i'm going with this. now, let's look at L's name, which is far more self-explanatory. his name is L Lawliet (in case you are somehow on the death note tags and were not already aware), which is pronounced "L low-light." (which, as s a side note, is a hilariously unintuitive pronunciation for his name, implying that Light (if he ever heard it) would almost certainly misspell it (made even more likely as a native japanese speaker, even given how good his english is) and potentially make him immune to a human using the death note by misspelling it six times.)

so, if we put the *phonetic* pronunciation of L's name next to the *written* extrapolation of light's, and reduce light's name to its logical conclusion, we get "L low light" and "Kira moon high." (hyphon in L's name and hyphon + second 'kira' in light's removed, as light himself is not both kiras, and removing the second kira also removes the hyphon in his name, whereafter we then logically can remove the hyphon in l's name. like homoerotic algebra.)

furthering the analogy, and allowing a little leniency (given all the other obvious similarities) that "light" can be taken as the opposite to "moon"—as in, "sunlight," and furthermore, "sun"—we output "L low sun" and "Kira moon high."

if you interpret L as the sun and Light as the moon, then congrats, it's already spelled out for you. if you interpret L as the moon and light as the sun, then it's like they carry the symbolic celestial analogies of one another in the other's name, which is some crazy soulmate shit. if you're like me, and interpret them as being both but in different ways, then both ways are true simultaneously. (to me, it speaks to how similar they ultimately are that you can interpret them as being both the sun and moon, albeit in different fashions.)

either way, they have gay ass little names and i can't believe i've never heard anybody talk about this before. so eat up, death note tumblr. enjoy your meal.

#lawlight #l lawliet #light yagami #death note #deathnote #gay men #lawlight easter egg #am i just wildly insane or was this intentional

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silenthillbunni · 2 years

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i want a normal boring life. i want to go to work and have a steady paycheck, i wanna be able to buy some new clothes or books if i want to. i want to save up money and go on trips to scotland, japan, france and wherever. i want to be able to take the fery to denmark or germany with friends. or meet friends in other countries. i want to be able to go play tennis or badminton if i want to. even if it's still a struggle - the way it always will be unless you're upper class, i want that much more than what i have now. barely being able to afford food and having to give up everything bc i cant afford it. i am sick of this shit

#i'd rather have a job and deal with that stress #than deal with the stress of whoops i literally only have $280 on my account each month and when i've bought food i dont have anything left #and also being on wellware isnt secure bc they can decide whenever they want that im not eligible for it #then i wont have a home or any money at all #and society DOES suck bc i've always been asking for help. i WANT them to help me so i can function properly and get off wellfare #but no the fkn psychiatric dont give me shit then say 'u should get a job and some friends you're 100% fine now bye'#i hate everyone and everything but having just $1516 as a monthly salary would give me enough security and comfort #i cannot live like this anymore im gonna fucking break

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