#i learned recently that tumblr changed how their tags show up so now i can yell FIRST and put sorting tags later :)
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Hey guys! Um.. I'm not frequently on this hashtag and just came here to adress that Melanie Martinez songs make a perfect playlist for Sun and Moon. It's been years since the release of Security Breach and still this day I never found anyone talking about that (believe me, I search everywhere from time to time in years (when my hyperfixation starts again lol)) and I'm starting to believe that if I don't say anything, no one will. So umm yeah I don't want to make a big post I just wanna point it out
If you're here in Tumblr and you're interacting with fandoms for a really long time you probably heard at least one of her songs before. Basically for those interested she makes songs with childish aesthetics and serious themes. Her most recent album is more fairycore though, but the first ones aren't.
She has an album called Cry Baby (it's about a disturbed childhood), an album called K-12 (it's about school), and an EP called After School (inspired by school themes but more inspired in the artist's life) and they fit Sun and Moon very well
Also I wanted to add that some of her best gems are unreleased, and like, there are some really good stuff that fit Sun and Moon, you just need to search for it
The songs that fit them most are the first ones of the list, the rest is more like,,, they fit them well but not like the first ones ya know what i mean
That's my mini list of recomendations if anyone is interested;
(if you're going to make a playlist for YouTube be careful with the unreleased ones, Melanie tends to delete them from time to time):
Unreleased- Twins (this one sounds like it was made for them. Want me to put all the lyrics here? Okay then.)
Unreleased- Toy Chest ("clean up, clean up, everybody, everywhere" (it's from Barney))
Unreleased- Arts and Crafts (creating the perfect bf on arts and crafts)
Released- Glued (she's sad and talking about how her sadness is glued to her like school glue)
Unreleased- Night Mime (she's sad and silent during the night like a night mime. She's waiting for the sunrise so that she can be happy again)
Released- Tag, You're It (she's being chased by a big bad wolf while making analogy to a tag game. It sounds like a little childhood game but the chaser is very sinister and want to do bad things to her)
Released- Teddy Bear (this one fits the whole franchise. Her "teddy bear" (probably a metaphor for an important person in her life, maybe her boyfriend or best friend) was sweet to her before, now he's trying to kill her. "You were my teddy bear, you were comforting and quiet, how did love become so violent?". This was released in 2015, if you're here in the fnaf fandom for a really long time or in the whole fandom part of the internet by itself you know this one. It brings me a lot of memories. How I miss the 2010's)
Released- Sippy Cup (you can try to hide your problems but they're always there. "Blood still stains if the sheets are washed". Even if you always try to keep the lights on, that animatronic killed kids inside the daycare and it can happen again if the lights go out. Oh-oh :c
Released- Carousel (you proably heard this one before let's be real)
Released- Drama Club (theatre!!! Yay)
Released- Show And Tell (She's tired, as an artist, of always playing a character in front of everyone. It's the ventrilocus noises for me)
Released- The Contortionist (idk it's the vibe)
Unreleased- Schizo ("i don't know who you are 'cause I don't know who i am, how can we learn how to love if you change your mind again? I don't know who to be, who do you want me to be?")
Released- Alphabet Boy (a rude boy is telling her how much smarter he is than her for knowing how to spell and write the ABCs)
Released- Lunchbox Friends (we are best friends forever yipee🫶🫶🤝)
Unreleased- Unhappy meal (inspired by McDonalds. Idk it just makes me think of sun)
Released- Pity Party (it's her birthday party and nobody showed up. Then she tries to play pretend with her toys and teddy bears, but she still know that she's alone and ends up destroying her party and stabbing her toys with knives. She's tired of being alone. :(
Released- Fire Drill (she's in a fire, it's the song that plays after the end of the K-12 album. It sounds like a nursery rhyme. There are children singing with her.)
Released- Dollhouse ("everyone seems to be perfect, please don't let them look through the curtains, DOLLHOUSE, I see things that nobody else sees" (again y'all probably know that one))
Released- Play Date (being romantically used by someone while doing analogies to games and toys)
Small list of songs that deserve to be mentioned but don't make a lot of sense like the last ones, it's just the vibes: The whole After School EP, the whole Cry Baby album, Gingerbread Man, Lost and Found, Patient, Papercuts, ZZZZ
There are also some fan-made type beats, since Melanie's community also sometimes link her to jesters and clowns and also make songs about her already released albums, so like here are some: Class Clown, Naptime, Fire Alarm, Janitor's Closet (I love this one sm!!), Punishment
All of those type beats have their own artists, some of those artists even sell them, so make sure if they are free to use if you want to make a playlist, but I guess it's okay to listen to them for fun since they were posted on youtube
Tell me what you think about those. I love interacting with people who like the same things as me 🫶🫶
#sundrop#moondrop#sun and moon#sundrop and moondrop#daycare attendant#fnaf security breach#fnaf help wanted 2
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Hello! I just found out about hanyu yuzuru, so I guess that makes me a baby fanyu now haha, and I was wondering if you know any videos or sites of where to start to get to know about him more , thank you!!
Hi! I'm so happy you found out about Yuzu. It's unusual for skaters to gain new fans after they've gone pro. So, that's your first indication that Yuzu is a very unique skater and person.
(I strongly encourage people who see this post and have more resources to add, to either reblog or comment!)
Here's how I started to learn more about him:
1. Planet Hanyu - it's a forum that has a huge video archive (accessible if you sign up). There's a section called Yuzuru's journey with documentaries and interviews and competition footage + the new content after he retired. It's the most complete thing I can think of. There are also sections by year, competitions and ice shows.
However, the first step I took when learning about Yuzu was by reading this page from the forum: The Great Glittering Glossary. It's a comperehensive break down of lingo about Yuzu and it also helps you understand more about him.
I would also add Planet Hanyu's Twitter account - they make regular posts - and their #OnThisDay tag is very helpful to find vids and links with Yuzu content
2. The Yuzuru Hanyu wikipedia page. Yes. It's a very good, detailed resource, constantly updated, and very reliable. His page has the status of Good Article (see here what it means)
3. For more recent stuff (starting with 2019), I highly recommend the Axel with Wings blog. It's a team which works on providing subtitles and they also have some articles translated.
4. Frankly, the most important part for me, it's watching his competition programs - I watched on YouTube all his competitive programs at all competitions he participated. And what I could not freely find on YT because of geo-blocking, I found in the video archive of Planet Hanyu. The best way to understand his excelence, also, is to watch full competitions (or at least the group he participated in competitions). He will definitely stand out. But you can't gather info about him like this, except about his skating and how he expressed himself through it.
5. Google a lot. You find something in the Glossary that's unclear or a reference about an interview or something not linked, look it up. Chances are Google will spit out a Tumblr link that has fan-translations of content not available on the Planet.
6. His various ice show performances. Different from competitive programs (sometimes) and they allow Yuzu the freedom to express his artistry much more than competitions did.
I hope this helps. Learning about Yuzu is an on-going process, it never really ends. I began learning about him in February (shortly before the Beijing Olympics). Up until March/April, I was still finding "new" info. Even now, from time to time, there's old stuff about him that I find out - like yesterday I learnt he sometimes ate at McDonald's.
Keep an eye out on these Twitter accounts for fast translations of Yuzu content - this is not an easy way to learn about Yuzu since Twitter is a pretty messy place for archiving. Nevertheless, if you plan on keeping up with current content about Yuzu/featuring Yuzu, these accounts are great.
1) Marika
2) Lae
3) LGeorgin
4) SweetYuzu
5) Tsukiyomi
6) Sarah
7) This one is a bit more organized and recent: YuzuruHanyu_Eng
Update: ^YuzuruHanyu_Eng have set up a DaikyMotion acc to post from now on. Check their twt page for more info about the change.
(Also, curate your timeline very well - there are a lot of antis and sometimes drama that's better left out).
Of course, don't forget about Yuzu's YouTube Channel, opened on 7th August and also give him a follow on Twitter & Insta. News about his first self-produced solo ice show, Prologue, will be shared on those platforms (you can find the links on my pinned post).
I truly hope this helps and that you enjoy your journey as a Fanyu.
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i just had a thought about why the internet is, for me personally, eroding my capacity to disagree with people.
i recently had a longterm mutual post a few things about how much they personally hate a character i love, and while that's cool and i support it and whatever, my instant emotional response was something i would translate as "i shouldn't have to see this."
without fully realizing it, i'm sitting there evaluating our whole association based on their totally non-rude, from-their-own-perspective opinion about one of many different interests we have in common.
i grew up in a small town (where i now live again). my schools growing up ranged from a one-room-schoolhouse with 1-3 kids per grade up to 60 kids per grade in high school. to have any friends or social interaction at all, i had to ferret out things in common with kids who hated most of what i liked (and hated most things i am, but that's another story). if someone watched the same tv show as i did, even if they hated my favorite character, i would be over the moon. i didn't stay in touch with most of those people when i moved away, but i valued those friends while i had them, and ignoring things i didn't like about people and still hanging out when we had nothing in common is a pretty useful skill to have.
but the internet is the opposite of that school. some of it is that people are essentially or literally faceless, and there are no real consequences for vanishing from their follower list, but i think there's something about how there are effectively infinite people to interact with.
on any given topic, there will be someone on the world wide web who completely agrees with me. if that person changes their mind, there will be someone else. obviously i will put in some effort to overlook differences when it comes to people who i already have personal relationships with, but the big big sea of the internet makes acquaintances replaceable.
and in the real world, most of our human interactions are acquaintances. (i'm american, so i call them "friends" as soon as i learn their last names and have one single positive interaction with them, but you know what i mean.) most friendships start as casual acquaintances, and end up that way again if you don't put effort into nurturing them.
and like, sure, i could ask this blogger "can you tag your dislike of this fictional character so i never have to see it," and that's great for tumblr, but it's kind of a weird thing that we have that ability. it's weird that i would have the desire to curate an illusion that everyone i interact with completely agrees with me on such a granular level, about anything that's emotionally important to me, because seeing evidence that they don't upsets me.
i wonder what that's doing to me on a broader level. i think i'm less willing to put effort into forging and maintaining three-dimensional friendships when they involve compromise (like, i don't like going to movies, but that's my coworker's main hobby and she invites me. and i always say thank you but no, because i don't like going to movies, but if i went, it would help build a friendship with a nice person, and we could still be friends who go to the movies whenever we stop working at the same place). i have a harder time overlooking differences of opinion than i used to and am more likely to avoid people and let friendships die rather than negotiate a way through those differences. i have less tolerance all around for awkward conversations.
and i don't always feel the immediate consequences of any of that, because in the short term, i can replace some of those in-person social interactions with the zillion people on the internet who agree with me about things like television characters, for as long as they do agree with me.
(i want to add, in case anyone for some reason takes this as public-facing advice: you should unfollow and block blogs that upset you, because literally everyone's life on here is better for it. tumblr fandom is a hobby space that hopefully is not the only center of your life, and it should be fun and non-stressful! i am in no way encouraging personal growth through reading anti tags. you should definitely not practice having challenging conversations by arguing about a stranger's opinion on their own post. especially if you reblog that person's post from me.)
it's just a new awareness for me personally about how what's normal and good on here might be affecting my personal relationships off tumblr, and how i should probably suck it up and go to the movies.
#everyone should love michael burnham though#but i will bravely and silently tolerate your wrong opinions and support your right to have them
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15 people, 15 questions
I was tagged by a new mutual zimmbzon in this fun little getting-to-know-you quiz.
Are you named after anyone?
Real name: Yes, a saint (first) and my grandma (middle).
Tumblr handle: It means "shameless" in Korean. Jungkook of BTS said that word perfectly described V, and it stuck with me -- and not many foreign words do. Plus, it perfectly encompassed the content I share here. 😜
When was the last time you cried?
Yesterday, thinking about Night potentially unaliving himself if he reaches his limit with Day's emotional abuse, and Mhok being triggered to remember his sister's death if he witnesses the attempt and tries to stop him. (#LastTwilight) In real life, making myself cry worrying about shit that didn't or might not even happen is my specialty. Anxiety perpetually at 11.
Do you have kids?
Do my parents count?
What sports do you/have you played?
If I were athletically inclined, I'd play soccer, baseball, tennis, volleyball, and hockey. But I am extremely accident prone, and deeply disinterested in anymore ER visits.
Do you use sarcasm?
My best friend gifted me this in college, so...probably.
What's the first thing you notice about people?
Whether or not they feel comfortable around me. It helps me gauge how much of my personality I should show. Am I starting at a 10 or a 2? I know we'll be good friends if I can hit 10 before we part ways.
What is your eye color?
I wish my eye color was violet or that eye color changed based on your emotions. This thought inspired by my recent viewing of both Dungeons & Dragons and the new Percy Jackson Disney series.
Scary Movies or Happy Endings?
Love a happy ending, but only if it makes sense and doesn't seem tacked on after a major unresolved conflict. I only do scary if it's a murder mystery, cause it's like solving a puzzle.
Any talents?
I don't panic under pressure. If anything, it's when I excel the most. Which...is probably a trauma response, but whatever. Lol I've also always been good at seeing the potential in people, whether they were famous or a work colleague. Like I can tell when someone is going to excel in life and what they would excel at.
Random example: Jesse Plemons. Who could've predicted him going from dorky Landry in Friday Night Lights to a respected character actor across film & TV? Me. I did. Who could've predicted he would marry Kirsten Dunst and have kids? Nobody. That one was a curveball. Lol I mean, his competition was Josh Hartnett. Be fucking for real.
Where were you born?
On the East Coast.
What are your hobbies?
I work too much to have substantial hobbies, but if I had time, I would do these more: skateboard, write fiction, photography, wander new cities/neighborhoods, make crafts, explore museums, cook new recipes, learn how to play the drums, and learn Korean + Thai + Tagalog.
Do you have any pets?
No, I'm afraid of having to bury them -- and I don't want to clean up poop. Lol But if I could have pets, I'd get a parrot, an iguana, a lot of different fish, and whatever breed of dog Henry Cavill has. For now, I'll stick to my 8 plants. (RIP to the previous 7.)
How tall are you?
Tall enough to reach things for all of my under 5'4" friends -- of which I have many.
What was your favorite subject in school?
Science, but I was very bad at it. Lol I excelled mostly at Math, English, and Spanish.
What is your dream job?
Storytelling in all its forms. But based on my career trajectory, I'd be happy to settle for a marketing job that allows me to craft very subtle product placement in a series or film.
I'm tagging... @my-rose-tinted-glasses, @wanderlust-in-my-soul, @gothicbarbie, @mikuni14, @heretherebedork, @liyazaki, @mooninagust to post their responses, if they haven't already.
But it's TOTALLY optional. Happy motherf*ckin' New Year! 🤸🏿♀️
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I just saw ANOTHER post lamenting this change, so I'm just gonna say "fuck it" and make a how to do the thing post, and if I'm misunderstanding the outrage... lol, this is tumblr, I'm sure someone will tell me.
Currently, if you want to go to a post in the middle of a reblog thread, you have to click the empty space in what I call the reblog header. The reblog header is the space that holds a user's name and reblog details, and on desktop, it turns a different color when you move your cursor over it. It's this space:
It doesn't change colors on mobile, obviously, because no cursor, but I think tapping is a little more intuitive on mobile anyway and afaik this particular thing has been this way here for a while now...? Whatever. Anyway, that's how you get to a mid-thread reblog!
(I actually do kinda like this new setup. It's not perfect, it can be annoying if someone's URL is long or if I accidentally click "Follow" instead of the header space. But overall, the space to click into a prior reblog is bigger now and I like that. I don't think I'll have to worry as much about mouse precision or drowsy coordination issues, which is nice. Maybe I'll be able to use the desktop version more.)
However, this means that in order to see "prev tags," you apparently have to click into the notes view and scroll until you find them. That's annoying for those who want to see them, and I can't blame anyone for being irritated. If you're new here you may be surprised to learn "prev tags" is fairly recent, so my recommendation (if you're looking for an alternative) is to put the actual tags from the user you're reblogging from, instead. This was normal prior to the "prev tags" trend if you wanted to share tags without screenshotting them, and it seems like tumblr has made it super easy now. The mobile app now automatically suggests the previous tags, and on desktop, they show up in a dropdown when you click to tag your post. Personally, I like to put "<-borrowing your tags bc funny" or "<-stole your tags for truth" or something right after, so I don't feel like I'm taking credit for someone else's phrasing. But either way, it's handy for your followers to be able to read the tags you liked without having to click to a different blog.
I'm hoping this particular change will be seen as useful after the rocky adjustment period is over.
All this being said, I personally like these particular changes, but I wish Tumblr would not roll out changes as rapidly as they seem to be recently. Either change everything at the same time or give it a rest, holy shlamoly! I stopped using Facebook because it seemed like every time I opened it, something was different, and it became jarring and uncomfortable to try to use. I'm starting to have a similar feeling about tumblr, and I don't like it.
#i suspect the prev tags trend is the reason for this change tbh#a tagging system is an organizational system and 'prev tags' is literal junk for organization purposes#even in conversational or informal context#they made copying tags super convenient? and using prev tags obnoxiously INconvenient?#like......i dunno. do the math. 🤷#doesn't mean you gotta be happy about it of course; I'm just saying. i bet that's why#honestly I'm just looking forward to not having to click through to a blog i don't care about just to see what the prev tags were#usually i don't even bother but occasionally someone will talk about the previous tags in THEIR tags#and i wanna know context. so. looking forward to that maybe not being a thing#anyways#dal is a text post#tumblr update#also i don't have hand tremors or anything like that but when I'm tired oh my god#precision is my enemy lol#really looking forward to just. header click! yay!#that's gonna be so nice on desktop omg#but uh. as long as I'm yelling in the tags? prev tags can die in a fire and i will cheerfully roast marshmallows over its flickering corpse#it's a mildly annoying trend at worst but it does not belong with the way this website works#just tumblr things#new user
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My 11th reference post 💀
These are all at.tumblr.com links until I can figure out how to fix that -_- So this was actually a pretty easy fix (see bold & three stars below) most of them should be good now, but one way or another I'll go back and fix them
General
Names between cultures
Staff post community labels
Staff: human moderators check blazed posts
Ghost stories 2000-2001 gifs
Horror movies for people who don't like horror movies
Party Girl Extinction
Lie Detectors are Bullshit
Every Horse Movie World Heritage Post
Strongly worded abortion post
FBI robbed security deposit boxes
Buzzfeed fed their employees Greyhounds
2 times I've been around that track and there is no queen of England
Ben Shapiro short stories
The two-headed calf poem's real meaning
Couldn't agree more and we're best friends now
Passive aggressive museum
How to reformat tumblr links ***
Spy X Family Loid thinks Yor Thinks
Writing research Google alternatives
Tom Brady's Witch Wife
Death of the Queen Tweets
Historical fashion resources and references doc
Quick and dirty laptop buying
BMI and weight loss scams
Loid sees yor looking a LITTLE bit sad and
British politics lettuce
Hundreds, perhaps billions lung expansion
"god gave us transness for the same reason he gave us yeast but no dough"
Elected fic of the year
Lone prairie traveller and their feathery steed
De-google your life
Child poets
Solid color guide
What main thing did you project onto your oc's
Navigating adult ADHD treatment shouldn't suck this much
Cop shows fuckhands the baby murderer
Tumblr folk stories
Soda cake
Death fetish
Elon musk isn't smart bought twitter dragWhat people have and didn't have in the middle ages
UBlock doesn't hurt YouTube creators
Lemon stealing whore lore (rats)
Chocolate guy food that looks like food
A class on what
Adobe Reddit gaslights you
Wish list for people who don't want anything
Fudgers->meaners world heritage post
Ringo Starr told me to fuck off story
Advice to get doctors to take you seriously
1947 anti-fascist video
The blue check debacle tweets
Are prisons obsolete
Changing people's minds
The grand unifying theory of the forger family teacups
Insight into the mind of Elon musk
NO YOU FUCKING CAN'T
Do people actually say things they don't mean when angry?
Anya being like "the fuck you mean we all like you?"
Crying world heritage post
Goncharov video synopsis
Contributions of Stephanie Meyer
Edward scissor hands (scissors when?)
Horrid dreadful atrocious sex scenes
3 yo learning to language
Trolley problem vid tom Hanks reaction 💀
Why can't Muslims tell other Muslims to stop killing people
SpongeBob movie is about coming out
Coward learns the futility of punishing evil comic
Water Biden catgirl
Personal
How I could tell the Twitter users were coming back after we were allowed to have tiddies again
The court of public opinion is inhumane
9/28/2022 Halloween Reference Post
Emotional Landscapes Audio
Red sniper dot porn
Try Guys Recent Nedless vid
"saw it coming/never trust a wife guy" discourse
On "you guys"
"and how can I ever thank you for this way home you've given me"
Doctors are almost all fatphobic
My sister's twin sister (Amber)
You win bitch
Happy rigamortis Wednesday
Pukicho asks "fake" internet culture
Natsu and Lucy Skipping Stones on a Lake
Typical dad polishing gun yor
Damian proposing to Anya spy x family
Nalu take that you fucking lake
Anya Damian balcony
Damianya typical dad polishing gun scene but it's Yor
Spy x family dog-owner mood
Healthcare providers are pretty much all fatphobic
The self-centeredness of bigots
Call-out liste
Spy x family chapter 72 predictions
I, an ADHD possible autistic person, am like mulan in my mind
Skin tag virgin
Tim omelet
"ban porn illegalize sex work" shut the fuck up
Laxus "small now go away
Franky & Loid best friends when Loid dressed him up as wife
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I got tagged by @tessabennet to do a
8 shows to get to know me
list and she did it as a kind of watch history and I loved that method so I am copying it
1. h2o: just add water
this show defined my childhood. i was obsessed. i remember only being allowed to watch the rewatches on saturday mornings but not the premieres that came mondays through thursdays. when s3 came around my parents allowed me to record the episodes on vhs and then watch the episode the next day. when the finale aired i had a friend come over after school the next day and we watched the last two episodes even tho she already watched them the night before. in the scene where lewis walks down the stairs in slow mo she pulled out her flip phone and recorded the scene because she thought he looked so cute.
also rikki made me gay and i was always her when we played mermaids in the pool.
2. glee
my first big teenage obsession. i think i started watching when season 2 was airing. the last two seasons took so fucking long to come out dubbed that it was the first time i streamed an episode right after it aired in the us even tho my english wasn't that good yet. i also got my mom and my aunt to watch it. my aunts favorite was finn and when i read that cory had died i called her right before bed to tell her and she told me later she couldn't sleep that night.
my favorite characters were quinn and kurt. quinn made me gay(er)
also i wasn't in fandom spaces back then so i managed to escape all the crazy shit that went on in the fandom back then but i have met some new friends recently who were in it and told me some horror stories and i really feel like I dodged a bullet.
3. gossip girl
i only watched this show after it aired but it's so messy and a definite guily pleasure.
also unpopular opinion but my favorite character was jenny (i am also obsessed with her band and their music and covered two of their songs in my school rockband)
4. the originals
i always preferred the originals over the vampire diaries because i just liked klaus and the other mikaelsons more than elena and co. i also became obsessed with the soundtrack of the show and used to listen to the tracks on youtube and would then convert my faves. that's how i discovered my love for ruelle.
5. shameless
another big obsession I discovered between s4 and s5 airing. i remember crying real tears when ian and mickey broke up in s5. i think gallavich was the first pairing i watched fanedits on youtube for and also how i discovered twenty one pilots and my ultimate beloved florence and the machine. i also had a fan account on instagram at one point that got some likes from emma kenney.
6. supernatural
oh supernatural.
i discovered the show at a very low point in my life and bingewatched 10 seasons back to back while staying home from school. destiel was the first ship i ever read fic for (twist and shout anyone?) and even tho this show went on for wayyyy to long and made some very questionable choices it still has a place in my heart.
7. 911
at this point in time this show is probably my biggest obsession right now (probably because a new season is airing right now) i saw gifs of buck and abby on tumblr when the first season was airing in 2018 but only started watching when the spin off started and i rediscovered it via tumblr during s3. i have done multiple rewatches at this point and this show can truly make you laugh, cry, look away in disgust and believe in humanity at the same time.
also either buddie is the best slow burn of all time or the biggest queerbait since destiel and i am down for the ride.
8. young royals
where do i even begin with this show. it showed up on tumblr in july of 2021 and then i watched it the second weekend of the month and my life changed. since then i have started being truly active on tumblr, creating content myself, reading fanfic earnestly and by some great writers who i can call friends now, learning swedish (even tho the bird scares me), found a bunch of friends from all over the world and flew to fucking canada all on my own to visit people i met through this show. like what the fuck. even tho my obsession is a bit dormant right now they have just started filming the third and last season and as the amount of content will grow my obsession will too. i know it.
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okay so this was a fucking essay but i really enjoyed this little deep dive into my watch history and even tho i don't expect anyone to do this I'm gonna tag some of my lovely friends (who i may or may not have found through that small swedish show at 8.)
@tooindecisivetopickaurl @i-love-semicolons @prince-simon @angelbabysimon @cloudywilmon @royalwilmon @oatmilkovich @ungaroyals @aro-of-artemis @little---versailles @cantputitintowords
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I posted 960 times in 2022
That's 960 more posts than 2021!
871 posts created (91%)
89 posts reblogged (9%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@dgknightblue
@justbirdie
@soniclozdplove
@idiot-mushroom
@blitzxiiru
I tagged 942 of my posts in 2022
Only 2% of my posts had no tags
#rottmnt - 542 posts
#tmnt 12/18 kraangified crossover - 471 posts
#rottmnt leo - 409 posts
#tmnt 2012 - 281 posts
#lmao what is my life - 234 posts
#rottmnt raph - 132 posts
#tmnt 2012 leo - 132 posts
#tmnt 2012 raph - 124 posts
#rottmnt donnie - 113 posts
#rottmnt mikey - 98 posts
Longest Tag: 117 characters
#also i hate the fight for 12 mikey too like no this is ooc 12 mikey would never want to be seperate from his brothers
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
Ok but imagine if April and Casey never really even realized the boys could do things like chirp and stuff (cuz the joys are somewhat insecure about doing weird turtle things around their human friends) and learn about it from their interactions with Leon? Like, Leon let's out a little chirp and Raph chirps in return or Leon has a nightmare so the boys all just form an turtle pile on top of him. That's sort of thing
They would think it’s adorable!!
also question for y’all, do any of you ship capritello/ non April toxic jonatello? Just out of curiosity, I’ve seen it show up in my ‘for you’ a lot recently!
118 notes - Posted November 12, 2022
#4
Favorite master splinter quotes:
2003: yes pizza sounds very good right now, with pepperonis! And karma!
2012: the cheese phone! Truly an emergency!
rise: phew! I really wanted my last moments to be eating rainbow sherbert!
151 notes - Posted October 14, 2022
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OK HEAR ME OUT
All the Casey’s stuck in a room together!
and I mean ALL Casey’s
cop Casey (bay movies)
2012 Casey
2003 Casey
1987 Casey (even though we only see him in one episode lol)
2007 Casey
rise Cassandra
rise Casey
I think that the first thing they would notice is Cassandra,
“dude your a dudette!?”
“hell yeah! Got a problem jones!?”
“Nah, as long as you like hockey and beating people up we cool”
Cue other Casey’s nodding in agreement
“you guys just became my best friends!”
BONUS:
“You’re a cop!?!?”
See the full post
222 notes - Posted October 5, 2022
#2
Leo: would you guys be there for me if I was going through some thing?
Donnie and Raph without hesitation: no
Donnie: absolutely not
Mikey: laughing quietly in the background
Donnie: I hope it sucks whatever you’re going through
Mikey wheezing: I hope it sucks???
Raph: I hope it emotionally scars you for the rest of your life
Donnie: I hope you reach out to me so I can ignore you
Mikey: wheezing and unable to hide his laughter anymore
Mikey: I can’t wait to go to your funeral knowing I could’ve changed that outcome
Everyone: losing their shit
Leo: I was just asking if you would be there for me!?!?
239 notes - Posted October 10, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
So we get a lot of xovers where the '12 Leo gets jealous or feels Rise Leo is too immature/doesn't take things seriously but where's the aus where a tired mama Leo looks at his younger counterpart, sees how innocent and happy he is, and is all "This is Mine Now, my hatchling, nobody is allowed to hurt him" because he doesn't want this bundle of sunshine to go through the same shit he went through?
yes! And then he hears about his counterparts version of shredder and kraang,
12Leo: I’m signing us both up for therapy
18Leo: what?! Why?!
12Leo: *mom eye*
18Leo: fine…
292 notes - Posted October 15, 2022
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I posted 2,461 times in 2022
168 posts created (7%)
2,293 posts reblogged (93%)
I tagged 882 of my posts in 2022
#pokemon - 53 posts
#critical role - 41 posts
#bry - 36 posts
#hermitcraft - 35 posts
#hades game - 20 posts
#in other lands - 20 posts
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#reading log - 18 posts
#hades 2 - 18 posts
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#all these internship deadlines are coinciding with finals week and its like. i obviously should prioritize the former. everyone would agree
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
so i haven't really been plugged in to Critical Role news in a while but wasn't TLOVM going to be about pre-campaign stuff? I totally understand if things have changed with it being an Amazon show now + wanting to start with Whitestone to have a banger of an opening, but I thought that maybe we'd circle back around to the whole Uriel being possessed arc. But Uriel just stepped down and we're launching right into the Chroma Conclave arc so I'm guessing they're not doing any pre-campaign stuff and are just doing an adaptation?
14 notes - Posted February 20, 2022
#4
OHHHHH PIKE GIVING VEX A BOOST!! CLERICS!!!! I LOVE CLERICS!!!! ITS THE GIRLS!!!!!!
I MISSED PERCY'S STUPID PRETENTIOUS VOICE SO MUCH VOX MACHINA MY BELOVED
19 notes - Posted January 12, 2022
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[ID: A screenshot of a page from In Other Lands that reads, "Myra joined him, pulled up a chair to his table and took one of the books from his unread stack. / 'Luke and Serene told me what you were doing here,' she said. 'And I--I like Commander Woodsinger. She's kind to my cousin, who's all dwarf, and I don't want the camp to have any other commander, and I want to help."]
Even though I reread this book like every 6 months, I only just now caught on to this during my current reread given the recent news. So, for anyone else who was curious/forgot about this like me, Myra mentions her cousin shortly before Colonel Whiteleaf's attempted coup.
Very fascinating to see that the "exiled dwarven prince" mentioned in the announcement post presumably came and studied at the camp too! I can't wait to learn more about him, Myra my beloved, and the dwarves :O
77 notes - Posted December 21, 2022
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it is incredibly funny that Yizhi rolled up and went all in on saving the girl he's in love with but took a quick detour to google the infamous known murderer Li Shimin and immediately developed a celebrity crush on him like "oh, hes smart too? ....thats kinda hot actually"
hes literally like "okay so Li Shimin probably did bad things idk but like have you SEEN his test scores?? people said he used to STUDY" this trio has a buckwild dynamic ajdakhfs
265 notes - Posted January 5, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
i know not many people would want to read a 10,000 word article about the minecraft end poem and how the author, Julian Gough, was never fairly compensated for his work and has made it public domain.
But it's a very well-written and heartfelt read, and he makes it very clear that none of this is a cash-grab and despite the fact that he is essentially a starving artist in this capitalist society, he only mentions his financial struggles despite Minecraft's huge huge success at the bottom of this article and not in the tweets so as to not dilute his message.
Anyway, I just think it'd be cool if those who are able to could support him in some way whether it be subscribing to his substack or donating to his paypal (that's linked in the article, you can ctrl + F to find it easier), that's all.
11,950 notes - Posted December 7, 2022
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#Oohh okay i knew what the number one post would be of course (I MISS MY NOTIFICATIONS LOL) but#i didnt expect the recent iol post to get on here. makes sense though#that 2nd post has consistently shown up in my notifs like every month or so and#since ive made it my feelings on IW have grown soo much more complex
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Alright another Q&A since I keep getting DMs on here about it. Though almost forgot the password to this blog as I only log into it on my phone but typically always switching the account on the phone between the two mains and my code/theme maker blog.
IS THAT STEWIE PERSON PRETENDING TO BE A DECEASED PERSON??
Yep, they are. Didn’t really learn about it til a few days ago. Apparently the person running that blog who is the same person running both the ‘accountability’ blog and that drama rpt blog is pretending to be someone I used to know, was friends with, and spoke to on a daily basis who is no longer with us. Won’t go into details but eight years ago there was a car accident and they are gone. This crazy person is apparently so obsessed with me that they are going that far. The reason for it being that she finally had to admit that I SHOCKER have friends and people that support and help me out. That the majority of people that interact with me happy we are friends. So naturally, pretend to be someone I knew going postal on me is the next ‘logical’ step. Of course the fact she is pretending to be the age that person was 10 years ago and not knowing she is gone were things this sick psychopath didn’t uncover.
Didn’t know of the blog til a week ago or something. Some messaged me about it, saw their intro post and that they apparently were tagging me and another blog in a bunch of rants. Just laughed, shared it, then blocked. Forgot all about them til I got an email that they wanted to share my hollow grove Google doc on one of the accounts I publicly revealed and changed the name to the guy these stalkers fell into the trap of thinking I am. It’s nice to know the traps are working but wait, I have to change the name now. I have a few minutes to kill for a bit of fun with this stalker. It will get boring though, you can only have someone fall into the same trap and show they are stalking ‘your’ ‘real life info’ so many times before you have enough for an RO and to make tumblr get off their lazy asses.
WHY DO THESE PEOPLE HAVE A HATE BONER FOR YOU??
I’ve summed it down to three things. Jealousy, ego, and victim points. They really are the only things that make sense. Some where some how, someone noticed my success. Be it how well I code, how many people interact with and love to plot with me, something. Maybe I even just slightly annoyed them at some point. Anyway, they let eventually get insanely jealous of me and they all go stalker. My motto has always been to ignore anyone I don’t get along with. I can exist in the same space as someone I don’t like, or even hate, and even those that I just find annoying. It’s just as easy as ignoring and blocking them.
That’s where the ego part comes in. Because I don’t just disappear and 99% of people I interact with have nothing but good things to say about me they can’t stand it. They have to be right and get rid of me or at the very least tarnish me in the eyes of others. There is no actual proof of anything, no records, and no one that can back up anything. So the victim points comes into play. Tumblr is a haven for ‘I’m a victim of the universe and my life being crappy isn’t my fault’ types of people. Instead of improving their lives they rather bitch and complain and blame it on others online. So naturally minor annoyances turn into Shakespearean dramas and stories can be made up without a shred of proof but you’re an ‘ist’ this or ‘phobe’ that questioning this lack of proof.
IS IT ALRIGHT IF I ASK YOU TO GET MY INFO OUT?
Haha I’ve done it a couple times for two different people. Only the most recent time is known to these people since like always, they don’t dig into anything that doesn’t suit their narrative. I suppose I can but even I can change my ‘personal info’ to be so many different people and only if you’re sure you don’t mind these people digging into your real life business as that’s what will happen if I’m the one using your info.
Admittedly, it has been great keeping my own stuff private and away from these people. A little annoying I had to move all my personal things to new accounts but what was an hour of work compared to helping out people that need it?
YOU’RE NOT AT ALL WORRIED ABOUT THESE PEOPLE??
Of course not, they’re my fans. It is obsessive and unhealthy but it’s how they want to fulfill their life and make themselves happy. Although I will admit even as a bisexual person who’s engaged to a man. Having a collective of women always thinking about me, talking about me, and obsessing over me is a bit of a confidence and ego boost. I’m more than happy to be that ray of light and hope in their lives. If they want to hate me to avoid hating themselves then have at it. Eventually you’re going to have to look in the mirror and face the fact you’re the problem with your life not some Internet stranger. I’m apparently already like 6 other people so just heap on a lot of other names to mine.
But in the end I simply don’t have the time, effort, or desire to even care about it. The only ‘evidence’ that exists on my happened 10 years ago and 95% of the drama people involved have actually stated was made up, connected me to only because they had a one sided fight with me or they blew up from something minor to get rid of me. I’ve had multiple successful groups of my own and been on others. I run two groups right now, I run classes over discord for people, I have a job, and an engagement to occupy my time along with hanging out with friends. My life is good and I have too much fun on and offline to care about what some lonely, sad, unfulfilled and bitter 40 something are doing.
My process with these people is simple. Someone tells me there is a new hater blog. I think ‘oh another fan, this should be fun’ glance at it really quickly and debate if it’ll piss then off more if I block them or don’t. On one hand they assume if I blocked them I read everything they posted and get their jollies. On the other, one of the only two types of notifications I get reblogs or messages (yes there is an option that turns off tumblr notifying you when you’re tagged) are still open to them. Then I either block and close the window or just close the window and go on with my life. A couple of members have pointed out that the blog pretending to be my deceased friend types, talks, and is active at the same time as that stewie blog is so…….. yeah.
Even more so when I can just do what the other people they went after do. Make new accounts and go on as someone else. Hell I can even go by No or Lan and use all the same face claims just slightly different names and they wouldn’t have a clue it was me. That’s kind of what I do on the three groups I’m on right now that aren’t mine that friends asked me to join but use a different name so they could I’m not be touched by that drama as one of these people is in the group.
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#30DaysTillEndwalker Countdown Challenge
Day 26/30: Ascian
The Martyr’s folly.
(If you haven't looked at Igeyorhm's lorebook entry please do so HW MSQ did my girl SO dirty and I'm still grumpy about it.)
#i learned recently that tumblr changed how their tags show up so now i can yell FIRST and put sorting tags later :)#anyway yes sometimes you gotta make your own content because the source just doesn't deliver#so here iggy lovers come get y'all juice (it's me i'm iggy lovers)#also i queued for e9n at 3am to take these because i didn't want to do wod just for gposing and it took like 20min+ to pop :^)#final fantasy xiv#ffxiv#30daystillendwalker#ascian#igeyorhm#muffled lizard screaming#effort expended#photosets#ancient
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Reason to Come Back (Bucky Barnes x reader)
Reason to come back
Bucky Barnes x reader
Word count: 3574
Request: "can you do something where seb(or one of his characters)and reader used to date and one day he broke up with her and after a short time he comes up with a new girl(not cheating)and the reader thinks that she’s worthless and not beautiful or good enough and that’s why he broke up with her and tries to be better(you know what to do•_-) and silently suffering etc. and with a happy ending where they get back together"
Warnings: mentions of a breakup, angst, depression, very slight mentions of disordered eating and exercise (very slight, not like most of my other fics), general feelings of worthlessness, angst
Tags: @buckys2thicc @mardema @stucky-on-spiderman @abitgryffindorky @freigeistundanderes @barnesplums @thatfangirl42 @buckfics @babyboibucky
A/N: I AM SO SORRY TO THE ANON THAT REQUESTED THIS SO LONG AGO AND THAT IT TOOK SO LONG! I don’t even know if they’re still here, I feel so bad. I got an anon request for this fic and I did not know about the inbox for Tumblr accounts until just recently because I’m incompetent. There’s no excuse for me taking so long to write it, but I wanted to even though it’s been 9 months since they sent it. If you’re still here anon, thank you for sticking with me!
NEW NOTE 06/04/21: I rewrote this to be for Bucky as opposed to Sebastian. It is still mostly the same, just reworded in some places. This is meant to take place in reference to the timeline of tfatws and mentions moments from the show. I am referencing “the time he was gone” as the series episode 1-6. I don’t know how much time passed but I assume it was at least a few weeks if not longer (especially between episodes 5 and 6). That’s how I wrote it.
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It was a quiet night, you under some blankets on the couch watching a movie. There was an empty bowl aside from a few popcorn kernels on the coffee table in front of you, the movie more for background noise than entertainment. You were scrolling through your phone mindlessly, looking for a distraction that would keep you occupied.
Not that it was working too well. There wasn’t much that could distract you from the fact that you were alone.
9 months. You had dated for 9 months. Not that he had been around for much of it. He had been with Sam on an extended mission, and he had been gone for a few weeks. You didn’t know much about the mission, Bucky wasn’t allowed to tell you. For your safety. You understood. It was his job, you knew that, but it could be lonely most of the time. He would call or text you if he could, but he couldn’t compromise his location. You were always happy to hear from him, but it wasn’t the same as when he was around.
You knew this would happen, and you had accepted that. It was hard, but you could manage.
You hadn’t heard from him in a weeks, but you didn’t think much of it. He and Sam must have gotten closer to the answers they had been looking for. You could only hope that he was safe. it took a toll on you, worrying about him, but you had been so happy when he had said he was coming home. But when he walked through the door, he didn’t seem excited at all.
You had wrapped your arms around him, and he had hesitantly hugged you back gently. You had known something was wrong almost immediately, pulling back and trying to meet his eyes. “Babe? Are you okay?”
“We should talk,” he said, struggling to meet your eyes.
You pulled your eyes together with concern. “Yeah, yeah what’s wrong?”
“I, uh… I don’t know if this is gonna work out.”
You shook your head, surprised. “What do you mean? What happened?”
“I just don’t think you and I work with 1,000 miles between us.”
“What?” you said in disbelief. “You’re the one who has to leave and I told you that I’m okay with it, and I am. I never thought you’d be the one with the problem with it.”
“Y/n -”
“We can work this out, Buck. You said it yourself, you don’t normally go away for that long. I’m not going anywhere, I - ”
“I can’t ask you to stay, y/n,” he said, cutting you off. You shut your mouth and shook your head. “Where is this coming from, what happened?” you asked.
He cleared his throat. “I should go.”
“You don’t get to walk away from this like that!” you exclaimed, nearly yelling.
“And I don’t have the right to expect you to wait for months while I’m out trying to save people. I thought it’d be fine but I couldn’t stop thinking about you here, alone. There’s going to be more missions, more danger. They recreated the serum. Who knows what else they’ll be able to create? You shouldn’t have to deal with that.”
“You don’t get to make that choice for me! I told you I’m okay with it and I still am, Bucky! I know the risks!” you said, tears pricking your eyes.
He looked away. “You deserve much better than me. Someone who can be there for you.”
You walked up to him and cupped his face. “You’re all I could ever want Bucky. Distance be damned.”
He sighed and pulled you into a hug, squeezing you tightly for a moment. “I have to go y/n. I’m sorry.”
He let you go and turned around, not even looking back to say goodbye.
That had been a couple of weeks ago. You had been crushed at first, devastated. But you were still able to function in your day-to-day life. You had a few friends to hype you up or cry with you, whatever the day was. You were able to still get to work, try to move on. And it was getting better, but the nights were still hard. It wasn’t the same when you knew he wouldn’t be coming home.
During the day you could pretend like you were waiting for that night when he would be able to call you. But at night, it was dark and you didn’t have a person you wanted to call.
You weren’t bitter, in a way you understood. You had known how relationships could be ruined by distance and work. But being a super soldier wasn’t a typical line of work. You had been okay with it, but you hadn’t thought that it would’ve affected Bucky as much as it seemed to. You had been emotional at the time, but looking back on it you could understand where he was coming from. Relationships were two-sided - just because you felt okay didn’t guarantee he was.
You knew what he did was dangerous. You had accepted that there might not have always been a happy ending. Maybe he hadn’t.
But then one day you had walked into a bar, only to see Bucky flirting with another girl, laughing away..
That was all you needed to see.
You didn’t want to read too much into it, any kind of situation could be misread. But him laughing with a very attractive girl over drinks shortly after becoming single - you couldn’t help but wonder.
You tried to tell yourself that it didn’t matter, that you were reading everything wrong, but your heart still felt as though it was breaking.
She was gorgeous. Much more so than you, you had thought.
Was that why he left? Was he just wanting to get himself back out there? Had he met her and just needed to get rid of you?
You didn’t want to think that way, none of it was true. He wouldn’t do that, he was a good man. But still…
Maybe if you were different it would’ve been harder for him to leave.
Maybe you hadn’t given him a good enough reason to stay.
And maybe, if you were better, prettier, he would come back.
It started small - making more of an effort to go to the gym, not ordering takeaways every night, that sort of thing. Not that you had much of an appetite to begin with. But you didn’t realize when your days had become full of going from work to the gym, nor why you had freaked out so much when you had sprained an ankle and couldn’t do your normal workout.
You had decided to work your arms those next few days to supplement the cardio you had missed. You had kept this up until you woke up one morning struggling to turn over because you were so sore. You decided that that day, you could take a rest day.
A rest day turned into a rest week, and soon enough you were only leaving your house to go to work. And only because you needed money.
You had cut yourself off from most of your contacts, still replying every now and then so they wouldn’t be concerned. You didn’t go out with them or call them because you were worried they would see right through you. Better to stay home. Your bed would never judge you.
You had become familiar with the spots on the wall, the streaks from god knows what, the way that light would filter through your window as the sun ascended and descended the sky. Hours could pass and you could still be in the same position.
You had to keep up a front around everyone. Letting people know how much you were hurting was not an option for you. Then they would ask what was wrong and pull you aside and look at you with this concerned face that you couldn’t deal with. It was the one that everyone always gave when someone was having a bad day, the one people put on when they wanted you to think that they cared. Sometimes they did, but most of the time a person with any sense of morals would put that face on to make a person think that they cared. It’s the same way “How are you?” is more of a greeting than a genuine question.
There were people who cared, but you didn’t want to have that conversation. You didn’t even know what you were doing anymore. It was an honest thought of bettering yourself, but it was for the wrong reasons. Trying to be better for Bucky made you realize how much you missed him. How angry you really were at him. But you couldn’t take it out on him, he didn’t deserve that at all, he didn’t earn that. But you were angry at...something, and maybe it was yourself, at letting him walk out that door, of not calling him and leaving him messages. Maybe if you had fought for him he would’ve stayed. If you had said something when he distanced himself.
You felt like this was your fault. And maybe if you changed something about yourself, you would learn from your mistakes.
Not that you knew exactly what you had done or what isolating yourself would fix, or teach you for that matter.
At some point, you must have fallen asleep because your ringtone jolted you awake. You groaned, shutting your eyes again. You would let it go to voicemail, just like all of the others. If it was that important they would text you.
You let it ring, sighing when it had stopped. You readjusted in your bed, trying to fall back asleep. It was a Saturday morning, you had until Monday morning to sleep. You were going to make the most of it.
But then your phone began ringing again.
You opened your eyes again, picking up your phone to see who it was. You dropped the phone when you saw the name
Bucky Barnes
Why the fuck was he calling you? What could he possibly have to say to you?
You watched the phone ring through to voicemail, soon after seeing a voicemail was left. You didn’t bother listening to it, you didn’t need to. You simply rolled over in bed. If it were that important, he would have called sooner.
Bucky’s POV
As the call went to voicemail again, Bucky was confused. He had never known you to miss a call, ever. It wasn’t like you, he knew you would drop anything to take calls. You had said you hated people leaving voicemails because you hated them having to listen to your voicemail message. You had thought your voice had sounded weird. It was one of the little things he remembered about you that made him smile
And realize how royally he had fucked up.
Being away on a mission wasn’t anything new for him, but maintaining a serious relationship for him was. He had never met anyone like you, and he had missed you so much when he had left. He hadn’t felt anything like what he did when you smiled at him since the 40′s. They say absence makes the heart grow fonder, but all he could think about was how much he had missed you. And that made him think about how much you must have missed him.
He felt like he was holding you back in some way. He was used to being away in dangerous situations for periods of time but you weren’t. And no matter how much you had assured him that you were okay with the long-distance relationship, as the months went on he felt guilty for not being able to be there in the way that he wanted to.
In the way you deserved.
He broke up with you because he thought you deserved better than relying on phone calls and texts for months at a time. Someone who could be there all the time for you. Someone who you didn’t have to worry about getting shot when he left for a mission. Someone predictable and reliable. Something he couldn’t always do.
But God, did he miss you.
He regretted walking out that door. He regretted not giving you a better reason, for not calling you or texting you until now, weeks later. The more time went on, the more he felt it would be inappropriate to call you to apologize.
But he couldn’t take it anymore, so he dialed your number. And when it went to voicemail, he had gotten a little worried.
He knew he didn’t have much of a right or reason to be worried, but he had a gut feeling that something wasn’t right. So, he decided to reach out to one of your friends.
Hey, is y/n alright?
Why do you want to know?
Look, I know I messed up. I just wanted to apologize and give her the answer she deserves. But she’s not answering my calls.
She doesn’t do phone calls anymore.
What do you mean?
She won’t answer calls. She won’t even come out with us anymore. Something’s up but she denies it.
When did this start?
When do you think?
Bucky’s heart sank to his stomach. This was his fault. And he had to go make it right.
Your POV
You were still in bed, wondering why Bucky had called you. It didn’t make sense to you, for him to call after all of this time. What could he possibly have to say to you? Did he want to inform you of a new girlfriend before the news caught wind of it? Did he want to come up with some dumb excuse to tell you he was sorry?
It made you scoff slightly, but the tug at your heart let you know that it wouldn’t be unwelcome.
You couldn’t deny it. As much as his leaving had hurt you, you missed him more than anything.
You wanted another chance with him, one that you weren’t sure you would get. And the thought of him coming back to you was comforting. Like maybe it wasn’t your fault. Or maybe you had done enough to win him back.
Wishful thinking.
You had lost track of time, once again, but were snapped out of your daze by knocking on your door.
What? Why would anyone be here?
You sighed. It was probably just some random person selling some random product or something.
More knocking. More insistent. You sighed, standing up and silently groaning at the soreness you felt in your body. Not necessarily from overuse, but more so from underuse. You stood you slowly, walking quietly over to your door.
More knocking.
You made it to the door and glanced through the peephole you had, eyes widening and a small gasp leaving your mouth.
Why the fuck was Bucky here?
More knocking.
You ran a hand down your face. Knowing him, he wouldn’t leave. But why did it go from calling straight to ‘I’m coming to your door’? As if he hadn’t been the one to leave you?
More knocking.
You swallowed dryly. “Why are you here?” you called out through the door.
Bucky let out a breath. “I just want to talk to you”
You shook your head on the other side of the door, wondering if you should let him speak. As if he wasn’t already living rent-free in your mind.
“Please y/n.”
You set your face hard, pulling the door open. At least you would get to say your piece to him.
“Now you wanna talk? Fine. Let’s talk.” you said, coldly.
Bucky was slightly taken aback, though he couldn’t blame you. He took in your appearance, exhaustion seeming to overtake you. Dark circles under your eyes, pale skin, you just - all life seemed to be drained from you. He scratched the back of his neck nervously before he asked quietly, “Can I come in?”
You stepped to the side, silently allowing him in, closing the door behind you. You crossed your arms over your chest and shrugged slightly. “What do you want Barnes?
“I’m sorry,” he said. You scoffed slightly, shaking your head and looking away. “Y/n look at me, please. I fucked up.”
“Well it took you long enough to figure that one out didn’t it?” you snapped, looking at him.
“Y/n please -”
“Tell me, when exactly did you figure out that maybe, just maybe, you should say you were sorry?”
“Y/n please - “
“Who was the girl? The one in the bar from a few days after we had broken up? The one you were hitting on over a couple of drinks?”
“The… what?”
“When did you feel the slightest bit of regret? When did you change your mind and decide that you didn’t want to leave?”
“I never wanted to leave you!” he exclaimed. “Can you please just listen to me?”
You looked at him, anger in your eyes but you closed your mouth. You gave him a look that said ‘I’m listening.’
He took a deep breath. “The woman at the bar was an old friend of Sam’s. He had introduced the two of us at one point. I was at a bar one night and and she came over to say hello and stayed for one drink. It’s nothing more than that.”
You took a breath. Situations could definitely be read wrong. You knew it had probably been nothing.
“When we first got together we had talked about me leaving for missions. Long-distance, unpredictable times, dangerous missions. A lot of people have a hard time keeping that going.”
“And I knew that and was okay with it.”
“Let me finish, please.” he pleaded. “I knew you knew the risks but I’m not sure I was as ready as I thought I was. I left and suddenly I couldn’t talk to you because I was worried for your safety. I couldn’t be there for you in all the ways I wanted to be. In all the ways you deserved. I just...you didn’t deserve that. You deserved so much more than that.”
You felt tears prick your eyes. “You already told me that. When you left. What’s really going on?”
He shook his head slightly. “ Sam’s sister had gotten a call with a threat towards her and her children. I couldn’t put you at risk. These people, they were super soldiers just like me. I had a few close calls with serious injuries. And I realized that if I got hurt I couldn’t protect you. I couldn’t let you get hurt and I couldn’t let you worry about whether or not I would come home alive. I thought… I thought it’d be less painful for both of us if we stopped seeing each other before that happened.”
You shook your head slightly. “Why couldn’t you tell me that?” you said, a little more softly.
“I don’t know”
You shook your head. “You’re gonna have to do a lot better than I don’t know.”
“I - “ He sighed slightly. “I was scared. You were the best thing that ever happened to me, and I was scared that I was going to lose you.”
“So you gave me up?” you asked.
“And made the biggest mistake of my entire life.”
You looked to the side and bit your lip slightly. “You know I thought it was my fault?” you turned your face back to Bucky’s confused one. “I thought I wasn’t good enough for you. That if I was enough you wouldn’t have left. Or if I was better you would’ve come back.”
He shook his head and started walking towards you to comfort you. “It was never your fault angel -”
You backed up slightly. “You don’t get to call me that. Not right now, not yet at least.”
He looked hurt slightly, but he nodded. After a few moments of silence, you scoffed slightly.
“You know, as much as I hate to admit it, I fell apart these past few weeks. Told myself that the only thing I wanted and needed was having you come back. And here you are and...I don’t know, Bucky.” you shrugged. “I don’t know what I’m supposed to do or think, you broke up with me because you were afraid of hurting me? I - “ you rubbed your eyes. “I just… I get it, but I just wish we could’ve had this conversation weeks ago, Buck.”
“Does this mean we’re done?” he asked timidly.
“I… I don’t know. I just…. I think i need a little bit of time. Please. Just some time to think.”
He nodded, though he looked slightly disappointed. “Yeah, of course.” you nodded, walking him over to the door, opening it. He turned around. “Is it okay to give you a hug, y/n?”
You thought about it for a moment before nodding, letting him wrap his arms around your waist as you looped them around his neck. You closed your eyes and took a deep breath, tears forming in your eyes as you realized how much you missed this. How much you needed this. When he went to pull away, you held him a little more tightly before letting him go.
He smiled at you before turning to leave. “Take as much time as you need, y/n.”
You gave him the smallest of smiles back. “I’ll see you later Bucky.”
And with that, you closed the door behind you, not having a clue what any of this meant. This didn’t make it okay by any means, but maybe, just maybe, the two of you could start fresh. Together.
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What's your ask blog? Tell me about Ingo. What's some facts! I'm too curious! 😁
Thank you, human I know!! I'll gladly tell you all about Ingo >:)
Ingo is a character initially introduced in gen 5, or pokemon Black and White. While in Nimbasa City, you can board the Battle Subway and fight through it. In the Battle Subway, the player must win 21 consecutive battles the fight him, and then 48 consecutive battles to do it again.
He is the identical twin brother of the other Subway Boss, Emmet (as you may have gathered.).
From what I've gathered, the Subway Bosses are verrrry popular in Japan, but it doesn't seem they were as popular over here until Legends Arceus. Before Legends, many references were made to the Battle Subway (I believe there was even one in Sword and Shield, which, now that I think about it, could have been a hint at Ingo appearing in Legends) but the Subway itself was only featured in one game. One would think that the twins would never appear again, however... that would all change with
Pokemon Masters. Yes.
Recently, before the release of Legends, an event was run which added Ingo and Emmet to Masters EX. This was very clearly for marketing purposes as Ingo was slated to show up in Legends all of a month later (if I'm remembering right and they were run in November)- and show up in Legends he did.
Legends released, and every character seemed to clearly be new, even if many were ancestors to other characters. Except, I believe right after the whole Noble Arcanine thing (not sure), Ingo greets you in the morning. For anybody who didn't know who he was, maybe they were just slightly confused, but by anybody who did.... I'd imagine that was quite a shock. Now, I don't remember exactly how I found out Ingo was in the game. Can't remember, but it was well before I was supposed to. Anyway, in Legends, Ingo is a Warden (someone who watches over a Noble Pokemon, which are descendants of Pokemon blessed by the god of Pokemon Arceus. In Ingo's case, he's Sneasler's Warden) of the Pearl Clan. He lacks memories of his past life, save for a smiling man who looked like him (so Emmet) and a parter who wielded flames with mastery (his main partner Chandelure). He gets a whole interactive cutscene where you follow him through a cave as he begins to remember things about his life before Hisui, and it's strangely emotional. This was one of the 2 segments of the game where I teared up. All Ingo has in Hisui is his now tattered conductor's cap and jacket, and also muscle memory and lots of train metaphors. He still uses his signature pointing pose (shown above), however he does not remember where it came from.
In my opinion, one of the most notable things to come out of Ingo's unexpected detour to Hisui is the fan content. There are now hundreds of good fanfictions, art pieces, and Tumblr blogs for the train twins and Nimbasa gym leader Elesa, who is often associated with them. She is awesome and I love her. At the bottom of this post is links to some of my favorite fanfictions and blogs. Tons of AUs (the PokeRus AU was cool but I was scarred by Gaeric's arms falling off, and I also can no longer look at Magby the same way) have been made. It's, frankly, quite amazing. I have provided tons of links below, all organized, to help you learn more because frankly this is a mess.
Fanfictions (note, many of these contain curse words. I don't care, but you might! Any additional warnings are hanging out in the tags!)
https://archiveofourown.org/works/37819621/chapters/94433296
Unova re-education may look intimidating with its many chapters, but it's a really fun, usually lighthearted, sometimes kind of weird slice of life fanfiction following Ingo reacclimating to life in Unova after his time in Hisui.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/38083465/chapters/95130940
All the Time in the World is an apocalyptic fanfiction, and one I recently found. It's extremely good and strangely emotional, and I've had an insanely good time reading it.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/37983265/chapters/94866925
I don't usually read Chatfics, but this is hilarious. Features basically every important character. Super fun, tons of laughs :D
https://archiveofourown.org/works/38367268
The title of this fic says it ALL.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/37952788/chapters/94785307
Written by one of my favorite Ao3 authors, this fic is FANTASTIC. I love it.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/37275400/chapters/93005053
BROWNIEFOX IS AMAZING. they have a Tumblr. PLEASE CHECK THEM OUT. Also Detours is rad.
Blogs:
http://little-lulu-au.tumblr.com
[Adorable. Simply adorable.]
http://waywardstation.tumblr.com
[Literally so good. Look at Wayward's AUs and fanfictions PLEASE.]
http://1863-project.tumblr.com
[I have heard 1863-project has a very good submas primer and tons of posts about trains.]
And finally, the sideblog! @subway-bosses-official is an interactive, in-universe blog that's run by Ingo and Emmet in story. It's first arc just wrapped up, and it was super fun! I hope you try interacting :D.
Hope this was insightful in some way!!! You'll have to copy and paste the links it seems. Hopefully those work. If not, let me know.
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𝐟𝐢𝐱 𝐲𝐨𝐮.
“You’d always been such a troubled girl, haven’t you? Don’t worry, nii-chan will fix you”
pairing: sakusa x reader
cw: incest, spanking, degradation, manipulation, toxic relationship, dacryphilia, gaslighting (lmk if there’s anything i missed)
wc: ~1.6 k
a/n: i just wanted to say thank you so much again for 500+ followers!!! it means a lot, ily! (repost bc tumblr’s a bitch and didn’t show me in tags :))
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“N-no! Stop I-” you struggled against Sakusa’s grasp, his big hands wrapping around your waist and bending you over his knee. Your cries were muffled as he shoved you into the couch. One hand restrained your arms behind your back as the other hiked your skirt up, bunching the material around your waist to reveal the cotton of your underwear.
“P-please, nii-chan, I didn’t mean to. I’m sor-”
You couldn’t even finish your sentence as a heavy hand cracked down on your ass. Tears brimmed your eyes as a scream tore through your throat.
Sounds of your cries echoed around the room as one excruciating slap after another was delivered to your ass, pushing your face further into the couch.
“Ngh… Nii-chan…” your voice came out meekly, “No more, please… It hurts.”
“Does it now?” Sakusa’s large hand gently caressed the curve of your ass, soothing the soft flesh red from impact. “You should have thought of that before acting like such-” smack “a fucking-” smack “brat.” smack.
Inarticulate pleas forced its way out of your mouth, begging him to stop. Fat droplets of tears streamed down your face. You could do nothing else but cry out in pain as you took your punishment.
It was simple, really. All you had to do was follow his house rules while you stayed in his apartment. Cleaning, making dinner, doting on him after a stressful day at work. It was all so simple. Perhaps he’d overestimated you; after all, you were still just his dumb little sister. Nothing had changed since you were kids—he's convinced himself—he would still have to look after you.
However, this was no longer acceptable. You weren’t kids anymore. Sooner or later, you’d have to learn your responsibilities to him.
Broken whimpers filled every corner of the room. Every strike was harder than the last.
“It won’t happen again, please…” you promised.
“How can I believe you, hm? You’ve been nothing but a brat since you got here,” He palmed your ass, the cool rings on his fingers soothing your burning skin, “This is the only way you’ll learn. You trust your nii-chan, don’t you?”
You faltered in your response—and that was enough for him to crack his hands across your already tender skin, forcing a strained whimper into the couch beneath you.
Trembling breaths left your lips as you tried to keep yourself from groaning at the stinging pain crawling up your spine.
It’s too much, you thought, this is all too much.
“Your hesitation,” you could feel the warm puff of his breath on the shell of your ear as he leaned in dangerously close to you, “tells me everything I need to know. Now, get up.”
Sakusa freed your wrists from his grasp and you struggled to push yourself up, your arms too sore and numb from being restrained to hold up any sort of weight. He watched as you brought yourself up on two shaky legs, presenting yourself in front of him.
It was embarrassing.
His narrowed eyes trailed down and examined your body. Your blouse, which had been neatly tucked into your skirt, was now wrinkled and disheveled as you lunged forward on the couch. Red abrasions bloomed across the supple skin of your face, a semi-permanent blush adorning your cheeks. The fabric of the couch had been too rough as your skin brushed against it.
Sakusa pushed himself off his spot on the couch and made his way towards you.
You flinched as he raised a hand, preparing for the impact that never came. Instead, a gentle hand cupped your face and rubbed soothing circles at the irritated skin of your cheeks. It felt nice. You’d all but forgotten how delicate he could be, nuzzling into his palm as you accepted his small embrace.
It didn’t last, however, as his hand dropped back down to his side. Only the ghost of his touch lingered on your skin before fading into the cold.
“After all I’ve done for you, is this how you repay me, hm? After I welcome you into my home with open arms, could you not follow such simple instructions that even a trained dog could do them?”
His words were harsh, nothing like the hand that previously caressed your cheek. Each word that left his lips cut deeper than the last.
It was a feeling you were unfamiliar with—one so painful that it overshadowed the stinging pain from when he had pinned you down and abused your soft skin. The ache had already faded to a dull throb.
You felt the crushing weight of the atmosphere around you. His disappointment was apparent and it felt unbearable as his dark eyes peered at you, radiating uncompromising scrutiny. Your head hung low in shame in a fruitless effort to avoid his fixed gaze. The only thing you could do was watch your tears as they fell to the floor.
“I really shouldn’t even bother with you anymore,” Sakusa let out an exasperated sigh, “What’s the point in keeping someone around who’s absolutely useless to me?”
That was the final blow to your fragile stage.
Your head shot up and even more tears clouded your vision.
No, no, no, no, no. He couldn’t do this to you. He can’t just leave you all by yourself. You needed him! You were nothing without him. You would mean nothing without him.
He had been your entire world, you realized. You always thought it was his world that revolved around you, an unshakeable presence that never strayed far, but as he tried to rip himself out of your life, you discovered that you’d been wrong.
You had always needed him. You jumped into his arms with every good news you received, in an obvious plea for his approval. You ran into his arms with every problem that faced you knowing that he was the only one who could bring you any meaningful comfort. He’d kiss you so sweetly, lay you down, and make it go away. Bring you pleasure that you were sure no other man but your brother could give you. No one knew you like he did.
You would always be the one to seek him out.
You dropped to your knees and clung to his legs as hysterical cries erupted from your mouth.
“N-nii-san, ple-please, you can’t. Please don’t do this to me.” You pleaded as you looked up at him with bleary eyes. Tears stained his pant legs as you pressed the side of your face to his thighs, clutching at the fabric with desperate hands.
“I-I’ll do anything! I’ll be good for you, I pr- I promise,” Your words came out frantic as you spoke in between hiccups, “Just please don’t leave me, please, please, please. I need you!”
Sakusa felt his heart clench as you begged for him. Of course, he had no real intention of leaving you but he thoroughly enjoyed seeing how miserable you had been at the thought.
He almost felt bad, really, he did. But that didn’t stop the glimmer of amusement that hid behind his hardened gaze or the cruel smile that spread across his face. He watched as you nuzzled your face into the fabric of his pants, clinging onto him for dear life. So afraid that if you loosened your grip for just a little bit that he’d disappear from your grasp.
He enjoyed how much you seemed to idolize him. It may have been a cruel ploy, using your love for him as a means to bend your will, but he believed it to be necessary. It was just as you said, you needed him. He just wanted to help you realize it.
You’d been defying him too much recently. First, talking back to him, and lately, refusing to follow his orders, even ignoring a curfew he’d set out for you. He had received a phone call from you at an ungodly hour one night, too drunk to even form a sentence and that had been the last straw. What if something had happened to you? He couldn’t have that. Not to his precious little sister, no.
But he couldn’t really put all the blame on you. You were only a product of your environment. Your parents had always been too lenient on you. His father and mother had spoiled you rotten, never really disciplining you and only ever throwing money at all of your problems instead of teaching you how to fix them. He supposed he had them to thank for making you all too dependent on him but he needed you to be obedient for him.
So he’d decided to take it upon himself to teach you.
Did you not see? Everything he did for you was out of pure love! Did you think he wanted to hurt you? To hear your pretty screams as he held you down and spanked you? He took no pleasure in punishing you. No… All he wanted was for you to be safe with him. And what’s a better way to show you than cutting you off? Convincing you that you needed him, that you couldn’t live without him?
He threaded his fingers through your hair as he brushed the strands away from your face. Caressing your cheek with his thumb, he gently motioned for you to look up at him.
Long trails of black stained your flushed cheeks as your mascara ran down your face. He loved seeing you like this. Big, innocent eyes looking up at him, glazed over with adoration only a sister can have for her big brother. So desperate. So needy. So ruined. And all for him. Only for him.
Sakusa wanted to keep you like this forever.
“You’d always been such a troubled girl haven’t you?” It was a rhetorical question, one that he’d already known the answer to, but you nodded eagerly anyway, ecstatic at the soft tone he’s taken with you.
“Don’t worry, nii-chan will fix you.”
#❣️dark content#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu smut#haikyuu sakusa#hq x reader#hq smut#hq sakusa#kiyoomi sakusa#sakusa kiyoomi#sakusa kiyoomi x reader#sakusa x reader#— my works
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