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Siegfried Farnon is based on eccentric vet Donald Sinclair, who Peter Wright worked closely with in his early career.
"You know, Donald died unexpectedly. And that morning, I remember the phone going, Jim Wight rang me to say Donald's died. Jim said, 'It's going to be a duller world without Donald Sinclair.' By gosh, it was. It has been."
#all creatures great and small#acgas 2020#the yorkshire vet#samuel west#peter wright#donald sinclair#long post#mine#this was so much fun#and what can be a bigger compliment than hearing those who knew the guy your character is based on#tell you that it's almost like being in his presence again#i dont know sam and im sure he has his faults but he once again comes across as such a genuinely kind and good person#and it makes me so happy#and yes the beard is essential for siegfried but i love that face either way#still if he ever tries to go clean shaven on the show i hope audrey hides his razor w/ as much success as she hid his tobacco#and - understandably - it was skirted on screen but if i remember correctly donald took his own life after real-life audrey died#which i could def see happen (not that i ever wanna mind you) on the show as well given how siegfried was on the verge of going to pieces#and that was 'only' when she was about to move away
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#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog#didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move#across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s#so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help#with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the#location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright#colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird#like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the#southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December#it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but#i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and#jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen#im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and#the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier#for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy#but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked#up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents#r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes#better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book#like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭#so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-]#unrelated
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“All that I've been taught // And every word I've got // Is foreign to me” — Hozier, Foreigner’s God
Aka "nooo dont grieve the life you spent running away from everything and wish you could go back to that life of uncertainty, where you constantly wonder if you can survive another day, rather than stand in the middle of a civil war which has nothing to do with you, you're so cool and sexy you're literally the mythical hero of a land where everyone detests your kind ahahahh"
A silly drawing of my Bosaltmer Dovahkiin, Baltana :))
I fiddled with her design a little, aka i added a different facial tattoo (which mirrors Lynwallyn's because hehe they're twins)
-> a companion piece to this older drawing of Lynwallyn
(Alternative version under the cut; possible eyestrain warning)
#oh tana we're really in it now#oc: baltana#i love me a reluctant hero <3 so thats what she essentially is#like imagine being a nobody your entire life then later become an assassin whose main deal is to be a silent executor#so she's really used to not being noticed and then bam. the whole province knows about her and she has these weird powers#that can make people explode and stuff. not to mention they all hope she was someone different & keep forcing their dreams and hopes#on her when she literally did not ask for any of it. suddenly her name opens a lot of doors and grants her so many contacts but she sees#through everyone's smile and knows they're full of shit. she's everything they hoped the dovahkiin not to be and yet.#she wants to belong so bad but her entire existence is just contrary yo everyone's beliefs. and it hurts so so much but she doesn't let#it consume her nor convince her to use her powers to destroy everything. she saves a world she cares very little about and doesn't even get#proper recognition for it which makes her so frustrated but yknow. what can you do#in the end it's better for her to be remembered as something entirely different than what she actually was bc ironically it means#the real her becomes forgotten. goes unnoticed#so yeah. no i cant make a normal happy character why do you ask#long tags#digital art#stellar.artz#stellar.ocs#tesblr#skyrim#skyrim tes#skyrim dragonborn#dovahkiin
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sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive
#lighthearted but also serious bc what is going on here buddy#been feeling weird as hell these past few months#like I can remember some stuff… but it doesn’t feel normal to forget the names of anyone I haven’t seen/heard the name of in a few days#or forget about basic interests and personality traits and experiences and feel like a blank slate every day#idk like ultimately life goes on and I’m happy to live in the moment but it would be nice to understand why my brain is doing this#just thinking#meposting#I think my brain just. does this sometimes when I’m stressed. which is annoying#I recall (lmao) feeling similar during earlier parts of life so this isn’t *new* it’s just unexpected and much more disruptive as an adult#I’m feeling better about it than I was. after like. acknowledging it. bc my mind has not always felt like a sieve it isn’t always this bad.#whatever#I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that#dissociation#me and her go way back… haven’t seen each other in years though#she wasnt all bad! coping mechanisms can provide relief and a sense of safety#and as far as coping mechanisms go it’s not the most unhealthy. though it ranks high in ‘socially stunting’#I kind of miss the distance sometimes to be honest everything’s just So Much all the time#I’m so solid now#so stuck in the ruts of capitalism#fuck capitalism#I wish my imagination didn’t feel so dulled#sorry I love talking#and I don’t miss dissociation when I feel mentally present because I feel so Here with the people and things I love but rn?#it’s like a lose-lose bc I am not Here nor am I untethered. I’m heavy yet hold nothing#I enjoy being dramatic/poetic about it — I feel pretty fine. I just hope this isn’t a permanent and/or long-term state of existence.#like it makes me awful at my job I went from remembering a solid amount of the student body’s names (built up over a few years) to. like 5.#overnight it felt like. like Stressful Thing happened and I went to work and I couldn’t remember anyone’s names.#can’t believe I have to start from fucking scratch AGAIN I’d be better off quitting and working at a different school#bc at least then my lack of knowledge/remembering is justified rather than strange and seemingly rude#I’m getting better now but at the beginning of this it was blue screen in my brain all the time
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maybe its too early to say anything bc this is only the second old lady group i've ever attended (the first one was a scrapbooking group that my mum was in briefly and i joined for a couple sessions) BUT OLD LADY GROUPS FUCKING RULE MAN. they're so chill and they CARE about each other and there's no egotistical bullshit getting in the way and everyones just there to have a good time and its so nice. also if u dont hear what someone said u can totally just ask them to repeat it and nobody gives u a hard time bc THEYRE OLD LADIES. PLUS you aren't really expected to remember everyone's names because everyone there forgets ppls names constantly esp if it's a drop-in group that has an ever-shifting members list !!!!
everyone should have an old lady group theyre part of and i mean this whole-heartedly and genuinely
#ALSO they take sickness and stuff seriously. and they will show so much compassion if u get sick. it was so awesome to see#IM SO HAPPY I HAVE THIS GROUP NOW YAYYY#im so excited for next week already dsgjkl#ONE OF THE LADIES WAS MAKING A CARD AND HER CARDS ARE GORGEOUS... SHE HAS ALL THESE COOL TOOLS#PLUS a lot of them seem really willing to share their stash with you if u ever need and ask sdfjkl#GOD THEYRE SO COOL. i have always loved talking to elders but i got nervous recently bc its been a long time since i talked to any#but this just refueled my love of socializing with them. theyre almost always so so so good to talk with and hang out with#this may not result in capital f Friendship for me but it will result in having some semblance of a social life finally dsjkl#and maybe if im sitting in there then other young ppl will see me and decide they can join too sdjkl idk thats A Hope to have i guess#pippen needs 2nd breakfast
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You know what?
OLIVE THE OTHER REINDEER IS WONDERFUL I LOVE THIS SPECIAL
#does this special have the most original of plot lines? not really in reality it's kinda bare bones#but I can allow it since it's aimed towards younger kids with jokes parents might get a chuckle a few times in#but Olive just makes me so happy ;w; she's so unapologetically positive and kind#she's literally too nice to even ditch the flea and kept him as a pet and LOVES HER OWNER UNCONDITIONALLY#which if I remember right he criticized her for not acting enough like a normal dog???#but was fido the flea actually hard of hearing or did he just... kind of emotionally manipulate olive into running away from home??#like she just wanted to help santa as she believed that if she doesn't identify with a dog than she MUST be a reindeer!!!#which um. otherkin vibes???#maybe even species dysphoria or however it's spelled?!#either way I read a review of this movie and while I agree mr. postman is kind of boring as a protaganist I see their point!#could have been kinda funny/ironic if mr.postman was an amazon warehouse worker and the reason he hates christmas is because he's overworked#and has no family to come home too even though olive is probably the rare case of a dog that might have been his friend#since you know dogs hate the post service delivery people X'DD#also I disagreed since honestly Olive HAS too much hope in people... that's her entire character! she's a dog. it's her job to love everyone#she's just a naive sweet little pup who's doing this to find herself and to help Santa!#oh also she teaches martini about being a good person and bring out the heart of gold in him and even helps find his new life's purpose!#though honestly I saw them as very close friends and my HC was olive is long distance dating the reindeer that gave her the most advice!!!#Olive and Donner get to meet up every christmas eve and yes ofc tim has met him!#also one of my hc is similar to how Anabelle got her wish to be a reindeer when she reaching old age#that once Olive reaches old age she'll get her wish and turn in reindeer <333#come to think of it I need to watch anabelle's wish too#Lei stop being silly#Lei's Rambles About Cartoons#Olive The Other Reindeer
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Love that I had the thought “hmm well some of this stuff in my fic might not be completely accurate :/“
But then I reminded myself it’s like a totally self indulgent written for *me* thing,,, like yeah! It doesn’t have to be perfect, I am writing what makes my heart happy! That is all that should matter really!! And so now I feel okay, honestly. Good job, me.
That rly is an important thing to remember when creating things, is that foremost it should be making you happy, no matter inaccuracies or popularity or anything else
Also an essay of my thoughts about writing a pmd fic below in the tags hahah oops:
#lol yes I have been working on a pmd fic that I may or may not post when it’s done#it’s like such a conglomeration of different points in my life when I played the game and thoughts and feelings from throughout those times#something that can be. so personal#I wanna make a mark of having some pmd content shared I think so!#but yk so maybe there is some wavy logic in the human (before they became a Pokémon) being able to talk to Pokémon#but that is always how I imagined it must’ve been as a kid without question#and that I know Grovyle and the mc aren’t the main relationship the game wants focus on#but for me over the years I more and more find it fascinating to think about#especially just with the context of a friendship that now only has memories remaining with one person#and stuff like that#but I don’t super delve into angst bc I also rly just want this to be cozy at the end of the day#happy warm soft fuzzy cozy vibes#which I probably get from nostalgia alone here but writing it I feel those energies in it#but while the partner character doesn’t get as much of a focus she is still so dear to me methinks#idk this rambling has been going on so long rn lol#I hope all that I have been putting into this fic shows through in the end#I’m not even done writing it yet it has been a challenge at times but I sure do want to complete it#okay thanks and thanks like sm if you read the tags hahah <3#now we are going to do proper tags so maybe people will see this…#pmd#pmd explorers#pokemon mystery dungeon#pokemon#fanfic#writing#content creating#? idk what to tag bc the advice/whatever u would call it can apply to more than just writers I think…#pmd2#pmd eos#pmd sky
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shut UPPPPPPPPPPP someone just put the clip of tiny manticore telling betty "maybe you're going after someone who doesn't exist anymore" with simon trying to bring back betty back ohhhh i feel sick
#thats it exactly.#i reallyyyyy think its a good conclusion. betty probably SHOULD HAVE just accepted that simon was gone and learned to appreciate ice king#for who he was. it was seemingly impossible to get him back. she literally had to become part of a fucking chaos god just to do it#and this sacrifice really seemed to only hurt them both in the long run. and then it was reversed - simon tries to bring betty back#which is similarly impossible. but instead of letting him make some sort of crazy sacrifice like she did. she has finally realized that#she may have made the wrong choice and she wont let him do the same. its breaking the cycle of self-sacrifice its making up for her mistake#its her saying i may have ruined our chances of happiness together because i couldnt accept that you had changed.#there isnt any way for us to be together now. but i wont let you do the same. i gave up everything to let you have a second chance at life#and perhaps that was a mistake. but dont let it go to waste. dont give up everything like i did. just live your life.#let me go. let me let YOU go. accept that the past is flawed and beautiful and you cannot return to it. just let it exist as the past.#and keep that love in your heart and let yourself actually have a future instead of clinging onto these impossible hopes of returning#to that past. do what i did not.#godddddd the full-circleness of it all. i love these two so much#im so happy they finally got closure#serena.txt
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i didn’t want to buy anything during the strike but my cat got sick and i panicked and took her to the vet. i wish i had paid with money instead of my credit card though :/
#she’s doing a little better now but she’s still tired#i was so scared i would lose her like i lost my bird but the doctor told me that she’s healthy and has a long life ahead of her#i don’t know what she might have eaten to have upset her stomach like this but she ate a little bit of boiled chicken this morning#and i cried tears from happiness#i’m so so worried about her#she still has the energy to purr and groom herself though#so i think i’m being a little paranoid#i just hope she gets back to full health soon#anyway aside from that one credit card use i don’t want to spend anymore#may palestine be free and may israhell cease existing ameen ya rabb#personal#cashew talks
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I can't stop crying off and on about this since I read the news. I hope one of the most wonderful souls to grace the planet rests peacefully. 💔😭💗
#R.I.P.#Tina Turner#I can't believe 2023 has taken her from us. 😭 somehow I expected her to live forever#which is probably pretty selfish of me as a fan of her music but...I also hoped she would get to live an incredibly long & happy life#after all of the fucking BULLSHIT she went through. I hope she did do that at least as much as she could. she so deserved it.#now may we and history absolutely fucking never forget her and her contributions and impact.#anyway...I send my love and eternal gratitude to the rightful Queen of Rock and Roll. 💗 NO ONE deserves the title more.
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woah i. wrote a lot.
#to me friend ^^ yk the. that one. i ended up writing several paragraphs . I'M RLLY GLAD W MYSELF WAHHH 😭😭#there's sm i don't know yet though but i managed to. say at least a lot of what i've been meaning to say for a long time#i think i managed it maturely !!!! i reached out i'm so happy.#i want the best for my friend. n. yeah there's so much communication lacking but for now i think she needs space for herself#hopefully. sometime when all four of us r free we can. be direct w each other? yeah.#i'm. actually. mostly proud of how i'm handling this. hdfkajsdkfl wish i cld do so much more but..#yeah. this isn't enough. but i've taken a step at least. know i cld still do better but.#there's. rlly a lot i want to say. but. i think when we're all not quite as busy i'll try to yk. set a time where we can all talk#irl hopefully. hdjafsldf i rlly hope my words reached out to her tho :c#wish i cld still do more but i have my limits too n though i rlly try my best to be kind bcs i really mean it unconditionally#i have my boundaries.#i can't emphasize enough just how important it is to be able to do things for your own self so you can apply it to the rest of the world.#so.. i'll. say it outright here. i can't handle this on my own. all four of us have to put effort in it.#so. this seems a bit clearer at least. thankfully. aghhh i wrote a lot but i want to comfort her more directly too#i want to do. so much for each person in life i think i need to set more boundaries for myself or i'll get overwhelmed#n then it's not like every friendship has to have everything yk? but.#hdjaflsdfs no bcs for this. specifically rn. i care a lot for her she's one of my best friends after all n. for nearly 7 years#i know at least one of the things i rlly need in those sort of close friendships is. yk we can open up to each other n be honest#being honest at least. when it comes to venting i know i can just do that more on social media or. online friends#like when i say online friends btw 😭 i basically consider them irl friends n i value them very very much but#for the sake of. yk. we don't know each other irl irl so just difference in label. not the value n meaning it has for me.#so. yeah w ^^ we don't rlly share similar beliefs n views which is honestly pretty draining for me#so at the very least. hopefully sometime this/next month we can at least be direct abt that? to communicate so we can understand#i can understand ppl well enough like. uh. i'm good at piecing things tgther but there's so much gaps without direct communication#i can't guess all the time. but yk one thing abt myself that i'm. at least happy w is that. yk. i. can open up when needed#okay like it's hard when i have to do it directly to another person for my own sake but in this context w my friend. yes i can. 👍#that said though oh dear other than this. friend stuff rn there's also more i'm worried abt bcs. school. assignments. yeah#which i'll be able to do but i'm still a bit. stressed. n then for prom 10 per table but we're only 9 n we're all stags 😭😭#wanted at least to have my ^^ friend w me bcs. despite these stuff yk we're still friends :c but she's going w a partner yeah#n then there's more personal stuff too.. there's. a lot. too much to write. but i'll manage.
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literally the only reason i am not in as bad a mental health place as i was in in december is bc i’m done w school now and i never have to go back or deal with being a student again if i don’t want to and also bc i know there is a high likelihood that there are some big important helpful highly desired changes on my horizon in the next few months and years. but i am really not doing good right now
#purrs#scotus leaked draft + buffalo shooting + dallas shooting + uvalde shooting + monkeypox + covid cases rising + losing my last 3 weeks of#college and graduation + losing my freedom for who knows how long and moving back home + friends and family getting covid + pushing myself#to the limit finishing my capstone + watching my loved ones suffer with the situations in their own lives = is it ethical to bring children#into this world is it reasonable to think that i will one day live with autonomy again and find a romantic partner and have a pet and enjoy#my life and see all the people i love doing the same. all ive been able to do this week outside of finishing school my job application etc#is doomscroll about the shootings and covid and monkeypox when i really should be doomscrollimg through my fucking save tag that i curated#specifically to counteract these situations and give me reasons to find hope but i don’t have the strength or see the point bc im only gonn#lose the hope again. but i know there’s a point but i can’t get myself to see it and maybe it’s bc km just so exhausted but idk. and one of#the WORST parts of this is that if the job works out i am going to have to understand that people will look at me differently part of which#means that people — STUDENTS like i just was 2 days ago!!! — will look to me expecting that i have answers or at the very least hope and i#literally do not have hope right now and after national events this month i don’t know if i’ll ever feel hope again. so it’s like fuck i#wont be able to do my fucking job that i feel called to do and want to do more than anything lol. but i already won’t be able to do it bc t#the chances that i can go to [insert convferwrnce] when it involves being on a plane and navigating people who won’t wear masks are so low#and * already snarked about it to me yesterday which really hurt my feelings like i don’t think she was trying to be mean but it’s like yes#the fuck i can hide in the van forever i do NOT want to get covid. but i also do not want to miss [conference] and it’s just so stupid that#im going to have to keep making these choices because this nightmare country has decided covid doesn’t exist anymore. idk lol#i know everything in my life could be a lot worse and also that it is objectively WORLDS better than it was very recently bc i graduated an#im done now. but this month has sucked so unbelievably bad and June is also going to be hard and im just scared i will never be happy or#hopeful again or that every time i am something new will knock it down (which is a given living in the usa lol) and that it would be#unethical to try to do the BASIC bare minimum things i have always wanted to do in my life. lole#negative tw#ask to tag#abortion tw#shooting tw#mass shooting tw#monkeypox tw
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#I’m just going to put my ramble in the tags bc no one cares and that’s fine#I love this is us and I love that we got kophie endgame more than life itself#but#I really wish they had made more use of having alex#she’s so talented and considering they haven’t been able to have her consistently in years/seasons#and now they finally have her and they just aren’t using her??#like she’s been in the past 4 eps and apart from kophie the movie has barely said over 10 words??#they’ve been trying to get her back for so long and are now just using her as a glorified extra??#I know it’s the final season and they have a lot to get through etc but they really could’ve utilised her better#maybe it’s just me being salty bc I’m the biggest alex breck stan and just think she’s so underrated and deserves the world but still#don’t get me wrong I’m super happy with kophie and all the crumbs that’s entailed#but we could’ve had so much more!!#and with only 3 eps left I’m losing hope on how much more of her we’ll get to see#give me a kophie/sophie spin off baby!!!#at the very least I’d LOVE justin and alex to work together again🥺#their chemistry is the BEST and you can tell they love working together<3#okay ramble over!! time to enjoy the last few eps<3
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btw my friend got barricade for mcr the same night i went to see them and she got a setlist and ive never been more jealous of another person in my life. she peaked where i never could.
#shes the same person i went to the frank iero concert with a few years back#and shes the reason i have a frank setlist signed by the whole band and with a little personalized inscrip from frank#its my prized possession fr#she has the BEST luck with concerts its insane#she has a full set of waterparks guitar picks and an otto drum stick#she almost had like 5 mikey picks from this concert#EVERY time ive ever met a band its been with her#the only time ive ever been barricade for any concerts that i didnt work for the ppl's promo team have also been w her#its INSANE. she gets everything. i dont understand how#she also lives like two states away and is always at concerts in MY state like 12 hrs early#love her so much she lives the life i always wish i could#anyways im so happy for her she deserves it im glad she got the set list#her and i have been mcr buddies for long enough that im like. yeah.#yeah even if i had been standing next to u when u got it i wouldve wanted u to have it anyways#i hope i can go to her place at some point and see it... eye emoji pls....
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the living situation is …. not good you guys ✌🏽
#mädch rambles#this is tmi and only close friends know about this so you can completely ignore <3 i just need to get stuff off my chest :’)#so my mom has been in this relationship w her bf for like 10 years and while we were still living at home they had a long distance#relationship#and the summer before i moved to uni she decided to have us live w him in the state that he lives in and ive been here for like 5 years at#this point#and basically we have been miserable for 5 years too …. and i do believe they loved each other#but things change in 10 years and this summer has been the worst . he had a heart attack this year and i guess it’s been putting a lot of#stress on him bc he’s starting to treat my mom like shit for no reason#and ive always had a Rocky relationship w him and quite frankly i don’t want him in my life i really just don’t want anything to do w him#but my mom has been wanting to move us back home bc my grandparents are getting older and we just. don’t wanna be here anymore ya know? and#he’s just been acting like such an asshole to my mom like blowing up on her for no reason … throwing things …. it honestly worries me a#little bc idk what’s brewing in his head and i just don’t want anything to happen to my mom physically or mentally#we just need to get out of here :’) go back home be close to family and never look back here ever again . it’s just hard having a single mom#bc you want to do everything in your power to support her financially but i still don’t have my job at the hospital yet bc i’m waiting for#feedback 😭 i just want what’s best for us and i want us to be happy and I want her to be happy and not be around this asshole anymore#we should have never mo Ed here in the first place ……#hoping we can get out of here soon :’)#just there’s a lot going on :’)
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Every session that I play Fang in, I grow to love him even more. Bc of how he lived prior to this phase of his life, every joy is a new one & he takes to them like a kid on Christmas. Bc of his strange circumstances, he doesn't view what he experienced as a societal injustice, so he's not really that angry. He can easily see the dichotomy between the choices of individuals, both good and bad. People aren't bad, because some people have been kind to him. So even though he's gone through so much shit, he never hesitates to be kind to people.
And I just. Holy Fuck I love him so much
#speculation nation#fang#hes not exactly angry at the ppl who made his life what it is. bc hes more Scared than angry#but also so very sad.#bc hes in some ways Very alone. and he has been for much of his life.#the only others who are Like Him are part of this awful group. and fang never wants to become one of them#but a part of his heart yearns for that belonging. to not be an outcast. to have people to call Family#but his blood relatives arent them. his mom was but she's long gone.#so he just has to build his life as he wishes it to be. and Currently that's by surrounding himself with people who accept him#people he can Have that belonging with. however mismatched it is#a part of him is so deeply sad that he cant call his blood relatives his family. but the bigger part doesnt pay it much mind#like with everything else in his life. he just takes things one step at a time#enjoys the things that are in front of him. enjoys the food he can eat. the comfortable places he can sleep. and the sunset over the ocean#his life isnt a tragedy because he refuses to let it be one. he's gone through so much. but ultimately#he just wants to live. whatever that may entail.#i just want to bundle him up into my arms and hold him Forever#i really hope he gets to have a happy ending
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