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IWTV season 1 liveblog & thoughts (spoilers)

Watching the series before I’ve seen the movie, haven’t read the books at all

Ep1

Wow this is really modernized (this year), very interesting intro with reporter Daniel Molloy and it’s set after the film I guess

This is a really cool penthouse, but yeah online anonymity would be expensive

Really curious how much of the car and sets were cgi vs practical

Absolutely need subtitles I can barely hear the dialogue over background noise

The time stop scene was really cool, and you can hear Louis get more animated

I need a fashion breakdown between Lestat’s intro style and his updated fashion

this show fucks because it’s Anne rice, and it’s somehow the most tasteful I’ve seen seen any show do it (looking at you GoT

bite time! why are they floating

i only know Lestat from fandom osmosis and I keep waiting for something to go wrong during the wedding. I feel like he has something to do with Paul’s death

Oh yeah Lestat is torturing Louis with telepathy and killed Lilly here’s the Lestat I’ve heard of

Oh shit this show is great with cgi to show difference in relative speeds. I flinched at the head punch out, there’s the AMC gore I dislike

Ep2

How does the domestic staff arrangement work, it’s a lot of them and they all know about the vampire thing. No idea what the farm is but I bet it’s horrifying

Lestat really got Louis in really deep really quick

Somehow the death of the salesman isn’t as sad as the poor fox screaming

Killing the alderman, this going to go very poorly

The coffin scene just comes off as couples humor through the absurdity

“did you eat the baby” really enjoy how that question was repeated as a hardball

Also wow they’re leaning hard into Covid and other geopolitical unrest for vampire conspiracy

I’m having a hard time picturing how the original story went without one of the main characters being Black. Like racism affects the plot multiple times, and often highlights the power difference between Louis and Lestat.

Louis keeps describing so many red flags about Lestat, lots to unpack about his own “afraid to disappoint” line because he doesn’t have the same sadism disposition as Lestat

Ep 3

Louis’ reflection of the past changing in the retelling, is it more nuanced or more rehearsed. “The odyssey of recollection” loving that this is both an interplay of the previous movie and how memory of fallible and surely that is worse the longer you live as an immortal

Love the suit fashion in this show, wish I had a good fitting suit. Also love the art Nouveau

The domestic issues are so obvious, like Lestat is not happy about being poly despite proposing it. Like I’ve seen this cliche play out irl, including the other people have more success at dating than the person who proposed it

I don't fully get why Lestat keeps investing his energy into a relationship that is clearly starting to fall apart unless he doesn’t do breakups

Did it rain??? How much of my dislike of Lestat is filtered through Louis’ unreliability as a narrator vs not having a good understanding on what motivates him beyond control issues

What’s the deal with Rashid

Holy shit his family relations literally fell apart so quick

“Is your very nature that of the devil”, and it calls back to beginning of the episode where Louis wonders if they are meant for something greater.

What did Louis expect from the public killing and display other then the resulting white mob violence. It’s a decision made out of anger, but incredibly short sighted. Lestat is just so turned on by the gore and chaos

Ep 4

From fandom osmosis I didn’t expect Louis to be the one to advocate turning Claudia, then Lestat goes along with to keep Lous with him.

Wow Lestat is pissed at being left out in the next scene. There’s absolutely gonna be family secrets

Really interesting how the framing is Daniel looking at Claudia’s journals, and so its her voice overs and Lestat and Louis points of view are so shifted. The actress did a great job

I paused on Daniel’s notes, Rashid is sus

I think they were watching Nosferatu, I recognized the scene

Had to double check apparently she’s 14 physically but mentally 18, since I knew she was a child in the movie. Being forever a teen would be hell especially if its before puberty

I wasn’t sure if she meant to kill Charlie until she begged for Lestat to bring him back. Then she copes by self harm

I notice the costuming changing, the show is so detailed

Ep 5

Louis just feeding on Rashid, like they’re making out while Daniel goes through the journals

Louis doing this interview as a form of suicide, is like the one hint we get at global vampire politics

Claudia’s killing rapidly got crazy with a lot of bodies and a lot of trophies. The danger from the cops is real and they disappeared in the middle of a bar which didn’t help

The relationship is rapidly falling apart (it wasn't great before) where Lestat loses interest in parenting as soon as it isn’t fun. Wonder when Lestat started cheating; when Claudia started catching police attention or if he was cheating the whole time

Claudia’s line of “where is my Lestat” a lot to process in that rant but being alone with no companionship at all would destroy someone's mental health

Daniel's lack of sympathy for Claudia with all the murders and his framing of "once you put it out there it's open to interpretation" I'd love to see more meta on that

Why don't they just break up?! Sure they have their own reasons for not leaving the city but they could live apart

Oh shit a new vampire, Bruce. Waiting for the shoe to drop. Oh shit it dropped real quick

After I finish the series I want to check reviews, because I think when Claudia was an actual child this plot went very differently. I do have reservations about why sexual assault was added if didn't happen in the source.

Louis aggravating Daniel's Parkinson's feels like a bigger asshole move than Daniel pushing these questions

The framing on Claudia as Lestat beats her then him, it's so explicitly framed as domestic violence than a vampire fight

Lol also I forgot they can fly

Title credit music "home is where you're happy" is a good wham music to contrast with what you just saw

I've seen comments that this show is an example of the showrunners not liking the source material, I bet this episode is divisive.

I finish this episode still "eh" on Lestat, I don't like him I don't hate him, I just don't get his motivation other than control issues

Ep 6:

I think the interplay between Louis and Daniel is interesting, Daniel pushes that the doctor who attends the leaders of Dubai is in the apartment and Louis pushes about Daniel dreaming of their first meeting with all the implications that had last time it was brought up

So Louis didnt remember Lestat flying when they fucked?! Yeah someone you’ve lived with for decades suddenly flying and dropping you from such a height gains a new level of horror

I’m really enjoying the 40s or 50s? Fashion.(lmao it was 30s fashion but I don’t know enough to differentiate)

Claudia and Louis seem to be getting along so well

Lestat is really trying to buy his way back in, theres like 10 seconds where I thought maybe he did some self reflection and changing but keeping it up for multiple attempts is a bad sign

Really impressed with the visual framing where Daniel is the only one sitting in sunlight

“I hate you” “as you should” then vampire teeth and he takes Lestat back. Ok this is interesting toxic codependency where Louis had an opportunity to walk away but didn’t take it, and Lestat had an opportunity to move on with Antoinette and didn’t take it.

Louis asking Lestat if he had anything to do with Paul’s death since he always wondered. No wonder their relationship was a mess all these years, i was on the fence on believing Lestat when he said no right up until Antoinette was revealed to be alive

Damn Lestat’s story with the lookalike corpses and his maker killing himself explains so much

Claudia seems to have reached a place of acceptance with her issues, her sense of dress has really changed and you can see how she matured

Holy shit like you think for a moment she got away then the horror of her sobbing as Lestat psychologically tortures her and I think it’s one of the most chilling Lestat scenes in the whole show.

The dreaming then its back to their first meeting. Also lots to unpack about Daniel turning down vampirism. Maybe he would hate to be stuck as he is for eternity.

THATS RASHID HES A VAMPIRE I KNEW IT (good reveal). Him and Louis are definitely together

Ep7:

Sound editing is off, where you can barely hear the dialogue over the music

Surprised it took this long for them and the house to be under a lot of scrutiny especially how they were not subtle

Rashid is in the sun?? I assume its a special vampire power, but Louis totally notices Daniel noticing Rashid

The jaw getting ripped off was a bit too much AMC style gore

Why didn’t Lestat turn Antoinette earlier and just leave Louis other than he can’t handle not possessing Louis. I wasn’t expecting her to have been turned so long ago

Damn that’s an emotionally powerful throat cutting scene

Leaving Lestat as garbage but couldn’t burn him, so I guess that’s how he comes back in Queen of the Damned. Lol Daniel explicitly calls this out

Oh shit the bouncer passing out but Rashid not, that was a big clue I missed but Daniel caught

“Was it raining Louis” great callback to Louis’ editorializing or omissions and what the fuck happened with Claudia where is she now

Rashid literally takes the gloves off when he floats and starts with the threats. Makes sense now why the bookshelves are high enough to be unreachable without a ladder. Love how many good costuming/set details there are that I just missed

“Armand the love of my life” uhhhh lots to unpack about Louis lovelife. How much of this relationship is unhealthy like the relationship with Lestat

Also dammit I don’t think Daniel gets out of this alive. Rashid pivoted so hard to very threating so quick. Like Daniel’s whole interview methodology is push at people to make them uncomfortable and that’s dangerous even without vampires.

Glad tvtropes is filling me in that Armand is a big deal. Ok so does Lestat fight Armand over Louis or does he accept Louis left and move on

TLDR: it’s interesting how much of the relationship storyline would hold up if you removed vampirism, especially since the racial issues would become even more of a focus. I think a lot of my thoughts of “why don’t they break up” come from most of the time both Louis and Lestat are turning away and not towards when the other makes an emotional bid. I’ve read and enjoyed other relationships that are super toxic and codependent like RvB Locus/Felix and enjoyed them. This one just feels like outside forces are keeping them together more than the push and pull of their personal feelings.

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mehonaspace · 3 years

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Conspiracy Theories, Uncertainty And The Chance To Get To Know Yourself

12/07/2021 - Sydney entered the third week of lockdown due to Covid.

There are all sorts of emotions and viewpoints associated with this pandemic that most of us have already read, heard about or experienced first-hand.

I see friends now turning to conspiracy theories - and, let me be clear: I don't know if some, all or none of such theories are true. All I can say is that I witness friends that usually were not prone to such beliefs suddenly try to get me on board for such ideas.

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But I had my fair time with conspiracy theories myself. I dug into that quite deeply for years, and I gladly pass this round. It's a rabbit hole with no end and leaves you feeling powerless, scared, hateful and suspicious towards the world.

I don't regret having opened up my mind to a different perspective of what could, would or even might be the "truth" behind the scenes.

But "truth" in human terms is very subjective, and in the end, none of us will ever decipher the complexity of what is going on, nor should we want to spend the time trying to figure it out. People can die a happy life without even once touching the subject of any conspiracy theory at all.

I concluded that it doesn't matter who controls - or is under the illusion of controlling the world if any such mindset even exists.

In my little daily reality, I realise that the control over my life lies primarily and vastly in my own - perspective. And I have a much better leverage point of influencing my reality from that empowered stance rather than from a dramatic angle that triggers all sorts of distorted emotional and cognitive reactions.

YOU CREATE YOUR OWN REALITY. To deliberately do so, you have to be fully aware of yourself and not get lost in the drama. Protect your creative energy by being aware of what you are consuming, emotionally, mentally and physically. Be conscious about what you are reacting to.

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One must also discern that reaction doesn't equal creation.

To create is drawing power from within, your true self. Sourcing from a consciousness that isn't limited by human beliefs and definitions. It deals down to expressing your own unique energy into this physical world. You might be inspired and influenced by what's around you, but ultimately you follow your own preferences on how you want to experience your reality.

On the other hand, reaction contains very little creative energy as it is, for the most part, a triggered response to already existing conditions. If the influence of what's around you overshadows your own unique spirit, you end up creating a pattern that can easily lead to a perception of victimhood.

One can argue that if you create your own reality, mustn't reaction be part of creation? Indeed, in the true nature of things, this is correct. You exist, therefore you perceive. Perception is creation.

I just like to differentiate between actual creation, which originates from a soul-inspired passion for life, and reaction, a creation deriving from within the limits of human perception.

If true or not, conspiracy theories will keep you in a pattern of reaction and victimhood, muting the connection to your own spirit.

Interestingly, people who dig deep into conspiracy theories are actually looking for their own empowerment. Ironically, the deeper they dig, the further they get away from what they are looking for. Like the carrot hanging in front of the horse, the goal of freedom seems so close, if they just can resolve this next puzzle of hidden secrecy. However, behind one mystery is another one, and another one, and an entire web of complexity spans worldwide, which cannot be resolved.

You can try by spending a lifetime figuring out peoples motives. You can research political, business or other group agendas and how they relate to each other or impact the world. I certainly do believe that it is important to be aware of how things interact with each other. But you have to draw the line when what you believe to be the truth becomes a toxic influence that puts you in a defence mode. Otherwise, if you keep digging, you end up blocking your potentials and tools for creating a life that you actually want to live.

Keep in mind that nothing you will ever read or hear about conspiracy theories is the ultimate truth. You get bits and pieces of different people with different viewpoints and agendas. Some might be true; others might be made up. For most of us, it is not part of our destiny to unveil a hunger for power within the world, as this is already quite obvious.

Don't waste your energy on figuring out the distorted ways of people hunting an illusion of control.

Instead, household your energy wisely and contribute to true empowerment by expressing your own true self.

The "true self" is an awareness of senses that integrate human features but most importantly exists outside its limits of space, time and mind. It is unique, and it resides in an eternal state of freedom.

The shadows that many human experiences seem to cast on our soul are nothing but the veil we put over our intuition by looking outside ourselves for alignment.

The soul cannot be harmed, destroyed or held captive. Nobody can ever take away your soul, but you, as the human, can hide its power from yourself. You most likely don't do this intentionally, but as long as you look outside of yourself for answers about who you are, you play a game of seeking and hide, not realising that all you are looking for is inside.

I find this time we live in very interesting for this very fact.

The energies behind this current Covid-19 pandemic are broad and nuanced, but one is sticking out quite obviously: Uncertainty.

Something very familiar to me and probably most of those people devoting their life to discover themselves, going within and facing what's there. As I said before, you create your own reality - from within. Because of this, the energy dynamics outside of you will change once you shift your attention inside.

In the darkness of your inner universe, hidden behind various human agendas are aspects of fear, emptiness, pain and all sorts of unpleasant conditions. Being aware of those is a mature step in understanding who you are and why and how circumstances play out in your life.

Discovering what lies behind your perceived limits and weaknesses and exploring your potential means that you most often end up not following the usual roadmap of society's expectations.

Often, it feels like a pull from mass consciousness is trying to draw you back into its norms, standards, and limits. But the deeper you get in touch with yourself, the more intense the longing for free expression will get. Once you uncovered how your own feelings of powerlessness and lack of self-trust lead you to specific actions and dramas, you become very sensitive to other people's agendas as well.

The more you shift towards a more balanced life approach staying outside of drama and being in peace with your own energy, the less you will find yourself longing for interactions that introduce such imbalances into your life experience.

The process of getting there is what often creates circumstances and feelings of disconnection with the very world and people around you.

Suddenly you see the patterns and energies behind what is presented to you, and for the most part, you come to realise that our usual way of human life rather distracts us from where our true power lies. The constant need for approval highly increased through our utilisation of social media; the neverending fight between the contrasting poles of "good" and "bad", narrating the stories of victims and perpetrators - you simply don't feel the desire to be part of those games anymore. For the games are an illusion. You know that because you identified your own games. You know yourself; therefore, you understand the reality that is presented to you - because your reality is you.

A more balanced approach to life follows the discovery of your own power. Householding your own energy becomes an essential tool in staying in your own power while navigating throughout human realms.

To give the topic of current uncertainty a bit more playtime here, let's dive into it a little more as it is more present than ever.

Once Covid-19 started, we witnessed for the first time in this century that people - officials, government bodies, health authorities literally didn't know what to do. Nobody knew where it came from, nobody knew what to do, how to react. In the meantime, people died - a lot of people - and that increased panic even more.

It seemed each government applied their own approach to fighting the virus. Some gave it a strict lockdown response, while others tried to keep the economy going and rely on people's own decisions to "do the right thing". However, "doing the right thing" is defined differently by all of us. We might keep our distance from strangers, but the decision line is quite blurred when it comes to family and friends. When those close people fall sick, it's even harder to say what is right and what isn't. Depending on religious beliefs, scientific or emotional interpretation, there are just too many different opinions.

One year into the pandemic, we still don't really know how to react. Once we started thinking it's over, a new variant emerges and shakes up the entire planet. Times are uncertain, which leaves way for vulnerability, suspicion, blaming and speculations - basically the raw material for any good conspiracy theory.

Uncertainty is a gift and a curse depending on exactly how far you are on your way to taking responsibility for your own life.

Uncertainty asks you to shift towards your own creative power. It requires you to be grounded amidst chaos so that you can anchor yourself into your preferred reality. It literally paves the way for you to create your own reality by challenging you to go beyond your fears, beliefs and perceived limits.

If you choose so, uncertainty will lead you to trust in yourself, while outside of you, the wind of change is blowing your old reality apart. Making way for another aspect of you that then interacts with life on an entirely different level.

Sometimes those changes are so subtle you might not even recognise them. But, while you were taking the time to figure out what to do, what you actually want from life and how you will achieve it, something deep inside you gets triggered. The very soul of you likes when you ask those questions because many of us deny and suppress the fact that most time, what we do is not in alignment with what we actually want for ourselves.

Once you had a few breakdowns, you come to see the irony that we humans often and only then come in touch with our divine creative nature when we face significant trauma.

Uncertainty is probably the most human inconvenience we try to avoid. We are still very mind-focused beings rather than conscious entities. "Conscious", meaning, living soul awareness that integrates aspects of the human mind, heart and spirit - but - most importantly -, all senses that go beyond that.

For now, the mind still enthrones human life, and the condition of uncertainty feels like the toxic venom of a snake. And isn't that what really was introduced with Covid-19? Besides the physical illness, uncertainty was the virus that spread worldwide and shook up our systems to their very core. Economics crumbled, health crumbled, politicians crumbled, families crumbled, personalities crumbled and laid bare a new playground.

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Welcome to the new world!

In new age circles, it is common knowledge that we live in extraordinary times.

We were introduced to the concept of "The New Human" most dominantly in the early 60s, and it became a consistent notion from various channelers around the globe since then.

Going back to the term of the "Harmonic Convergence" in 1987, to the official announcement of the new age in 2012, we finally came to the point where we clearly see that change happens on every corner of this planet. Rapid change.

Demonstrations about and against common beliefs of any kind, be it sex, religion or race, global warming, misuse of power, and now the impact of the current pandemic.

We are all required to rethink our attitude and approach to life. We are all invited to challenge the way we lived and to step up our game.

There is no question that things can seem quite negative and sad if you look at the rate of death that happened through Covid-19. Or if we look at the number of dramatic videos emerging, making us witness acts of ill will, seeing people in power abusing the very same. The drama that comes with riots, protests, violence and proof of emotional immaturity could easily overshadow the subtle but persistent impact of powerful intentions for the greater good that also arise.

We are indeed shifting in a better direction. Those dramatic events happen because of the very shift in consciousness that continues to occur around the planet. People say "No!" to the old ways of living. Naturally, there will be those that cling to power and put up a fight when confronted by the idea of losing it.

There will be waves of adjustments, and given the variety of expression and viewpoints on this planet, we might never come to a point of oneness. Still, we start leaning in the direction of a joined agreement about sharing core values throughout society. Those new fundamental concepts will be implemented by industries such as business, politics, teaching, entertainment, and the vast majority of life on this planet.

Humanity is in labor, ready to birth a new system. Which system it will be, is up to - your perspective. You can use your creative energy to focus on others that tell you that we are all controlled and soon will be enslaved by 5G, Covid vaccines and microchips, or you use this time of uncertainty to take a step back. Step back and go inside, take a time-out and reflect and reshape your values and output.

This is indeed a time of many changes and uncertainty, but it can also be an opportunity to surf this new wave, transform and thrive. Things may never be "normal" again, but the old "normal" was never really something to settle for if we are honest. There is more opportunity for fairness, for emotional awareness and emotional maturity, there is more opportunity for inclusiveness and compassion in human interaction. Those are the things that happen as well, don't let the focal point of drama-based reactions and the contagious anxiety because of the unavoidable change be the compass for your own reality. Instead, take the opportunity and get to know yourself and sense who you are beyond the expectations, fears and limits of your human mind.

Be guided from within and then define what life means to you, and be assured that once you are in sink with your own truth, you will naturally create all things you need for your human reality.

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