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fah-keet · 6 months

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Imagine pulling this handsome man by talking about your digimon dvd collection.

#satosugu #satoru gojo #suguru geto #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #gego #jjk gojo #jjk geto #art fart #please bare with me I’m trying new and different things for improvement #actually did an bg #I CANT REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I DID BG #I guess 2015 or something

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ashiyn · 7 months

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shoutout to oli theorionsound for being the only bard ever actually

#.post #its 2 am. did i do the thing. the thing being the funny haha meme template thing. from. from last december. i cant remember #hey that rhymed

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ef-1 · 3 months

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girlhood

#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day #like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year.#when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍#not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again #and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :)#like everything i do is informed by her #I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her #and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢#and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again #“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her #growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain #and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when #people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it #but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up-#when people mention it 😍#last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her)#and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook”#and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one #and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?”#im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her #lol!!!!!!!!!

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citrucee · 4 months

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january is a green month

#citruart #self portrait #art #illustration #bright colors #imps #original art #krita #my god. cant remember the last time i did a piece with colors like this #feels so strange #its not quite what i was doing before but even so #waugh #i seriously do not remember how to color anymore. had to use the krita contrast adjust thing #baby steps. thats the way

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evelili · 10 months

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my right arm is so fucked rn lmao this is what always happens, arm gets better -> i start Doing More Things -> i Do Things For Far Too Long -> arm gets worse -> i get depressed bc i Can’t Do Things -> i don’t Do Things -> arm gets better -> repeat forever

nyways, gonna keep plugging away at comms, then unearth the corpse of the last request sitting in my inbox since march, then alternate between ignoring my thesis and Being Completely Normal About Twilight Sparkle, wish me luck

#in other news bc i was reminded by some server chats yesterday i got out my old harmony books #it sucks i dont remember any of it but #i still looked through one and could convince myself i can still relearn it #the first time i touched composition in nearly 5 years was for my magnum opus #and that was terrifying. but i did it anyways #and i tried again tonite even if it was shitty and i still cant get things to sound the way i used to #i am too stubborn to let this affect me anymore #the 5 year anniversary was last month and i refuse to b in the same place for the 6th #nyways!!! i have no time and my sleep schedules fucked i hope yall r having a better time than me #lili talking

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kindheartedgummybears · 10 months

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I just woke up and I had a dream where Jane was spiderman and Olivia was the Lizard and Cynthia was Venom but like a very chaotic Venom(by that i mean she was somehow MORE chaotic than Venom already is) and Nancy was... Nancy.

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lunarharp · 2 years

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various witch stuff of the day or whatever the heck

#witch hat tag #orufrey #uhh yeah just getting some stuff out of the way haha i like the first one tho. i drew something that scares me #iguin must have been involved in qifrey's thing somehow. The Lidless eye..the sight of the world..i mean i think [redacted]#and he'll be [redacted] and [redacted] will be forced to... [redacted]???!?!!?#I want to keep my theories to myself.......or do i. not being a fandom person (other than dropping my art and leaving) means i just..#combust inside by myself with ideas and FEARS FOR THAT MAN.....CAN SOMEONE HELP HIM IM SO WORRIED IM SO...#CAN YOU LET SOMEONE HELP YOU #apparently tetia's expression in the last one is hard to understand =.= she's emotional bc she cant believe they remembered #the twin hat idea. and that she's so happy. i was thinking about how she was probably qif's first pupil so there must have been a time #where it was just her qif and oru... i DO think she is hinted strongly to be trans but even if not her mystery background is probably so sad #why would qifrey even become a teacher? his goal was the brimhats. but he keeps being distracted by kids with problem pasts so #he must have only been drawn to help tetia out of a deep sympathy. it seems at that point he and oru had drifted apart #did oru decide to be his watchful eye hearing about that or did qifrey ask him? he thought that qif had given up on brimhat stuff so..#*mumble mumble* lately i also keep remembering oru saying something UNREAL in kitchen like 'we're finally living under the same roof' ????#you can't just say that. what on earth. i..... whatever. i haven't even processed like 20% of my potential emotions about them #i feel so weirdly emotional today. i stopped thinking about witch hat for zuka even tho im SO hyperfixated it is genuinely PAINFUL to stop #i stopped just long enough to watch gatsby raku.... my haachan #i'm so grateful right now that i dont have any big issues in my life rn so i can get worried about manga men and sad about actors retiring #today at least i am extremely grateful. living and being alive is so so so so weird. i hope we all make it

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larabar · 1 year

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art summary !! its been a year also heres the template i made if you wanna use it v

^ edit it however you like i just kinda made it in 5 minutes you dont need to credit me go wild

#!!!!!!! MADE IT #this year .this year #ok first of all this year has certainly been A Year ! but i think i made it through alright #whole Bunch of ups and downs and zigs and zags #but ! made it!! and so did you reading this!!!#i think that is very cool #i cant really remember much from this year to be completely honest #at least from the first half #but i had fun throughout it and thats all i need #art wise uhh also a bunch of zigs and zags but hey the sonic interest is not going away anytime soon skdhfjkh #most of my favorite things i drew this year were doodles and other things though #so it was hard picking 'finished' stuff #speaking of which september's isnt actually finished. thats why i never posted it #but it was the most finished from that month so ! oh well #chip showed up three (3) times this year .again #its fun to compare this year's with last year's ^^#but anyways !! i think thats all #hope everyones doing alright this fine new year's eve #thanks for helping me get through this year i literally. genuinely couldnt have done it without you #so thanks :)#happy new year !

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killjoy-prince · 2 days

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Because of the other games, I sometimes check the dorm registry out of habit and checking it on the Promised Day gives you this dialogue

#prince's gaming tag #in case anyone doesn't know: this game used to have save points where you did your game saving and this was one of them #so ill sometimes click on it out of habit even though i dont have to do that anymore #bc it adapted 5's way of saving by just hitting the start button in most places #but yea i think whenever you get someone new to the team checking the registry will make the protag comment on it #but i didn't check it right at those times to know for sure #ill check again in ng+#but yea i got to this point last night but imma save the final fight for either tonight or next time i feel ready to play #bc if it was like FES its gonna be a while #i dont know if this dialogue was in FES bc it was a save point and its been so long i cant remember the smaller details #but it was a nice little resolve thing

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hyah-lian · 3 months

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hmmmh I was trying to like. Be very online and do a big art challenge thingy but the Yearly Existential Dread/Weird Complicated Feelings are kind of grabbing me and shaking me like a floppy doll

#i dont want to commit to a hiatus bc i still want to try and things #but i did not anticipate/remember how strongly the ick feelings can be #and for the life of me i cant remember if it lasts long or if its just anticipatory dread until [redacted]#i know i am also having some Big Feels over Percieved Rejection (its not. its just needing to be patient and my adhd doesnt like that)#(and in the cases where the answer is No it is fully understandable and not a Never or a You Suck)#and just Other Things that continue to Be A Problem in the area I live in #today i am Having A Day.#i am letting the creature of my.spul create away from screens #i am eating when im hungry and trying to remember water exists #im taking a sort of caffiene break (1 caffinated drink vs the like 5 coffees etc just to avoid the caffiene headache)#im wearing clothes i find comfy and like #and im going to have some horizontal time with either music or a book maybe a movie bc last night was A Lot

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thehardkandy · 15 days

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Travelling back home tomorrow hoping for a smooth groove

#i did have a really nice week last week but now im back to everything feeling busy #(its not really that busy)#and oh i miss being slow like idk ever since i was a literal child doing ONE excursion weekly #for an hour #always felt like such s draining burden #and tbh i would like to know why thst is because while it's easy to see as poor habit as an adult reinforcing itself #as a kid i was always made to do things. see people.#i did a summer camp every year at least during the day #i did sports i went hiking in forests #but i remember so distinctly like an age where i stopped asking my parents to try new things #because i would get so excited!!!! but then every week it would become this overwhelming presence #despite being something that i actively enjoyed #and it eventually felt so awful i was like okay no more wanting things you dont use them wisely #like ouch yeah actually that's a big one. wanting things usually wraps back #around to shame or guilt just about always #anyway how is this relevant to travelling?#it's just that i have to travel tomorrow and i have a doctors appointment Friday i have to go to in person #ive changed beds ive slept in 3 times in 5 days #and all i can say at the end of it is that even these little things are JUST enough to be on edge #to feel like im putting my hands over my ears and closing my eyes and pretend nothing bad is gonna happen #even thougu DEFINITELY something bad is going to happen #but of course it doesnt because this is all benign stuff ive done a trillion times before of no note #crazy how complicated it can be to be a person #it is why i dream of living in a small village where i am an apprentice tradesperson and i live simple house #and the house you can walk to anywhere you need to anywhere you need in an your #but no one is that urgent about anything anyway.#beautiful little place that has never actually ever existed for anyone in anytime #but i am still wanting to scream and pull my hair out just asking why why cant everything slow down and be smaller

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doublekanble · 17 days

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ghost in your home was not supposed to end like that at all lol, wrestled with the idea of letting him have his cake and eat it too or shove it in his face a bit more and ended up with just letting him be

#/kbtalk #combine the symbols from the three plant mentioned (gardenia. ficus. begonia) and you got what it takes to keep a good relationship #if youre reading this and you want to know. one of the end was first step to reconciliation but i think that wouldve been too nice to him #maybe some other day ill do a rewrite/exploration of the concept bc i think a lot about-#the anguish of mourning someone who sit at your dinner table everyday #i think he would've been a bit more conceited and “hmp its not my fault” but youre from the time where he can only get by with a smile-#and a charming silver tongue so it balances out rlly #i shove the ghost theme last minute because i was going back and forth on what to titled the section and i remember the 21 grams soul theor #added like an extra 1k bc of it and ended up going back over the whole thing to put some more stuff in #brain is finally clearing up and i hope you cant tell when in the writing did that happen lol #next fic needs me to read a 200pg book about voodoo so i can set up one scenario ive been putting it off for some times now #for now im blasting too sweet and making a minecraft house #i need to download mods that give me a radio so i can make an alastor theme room soon

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nerdie-faerie · 10 months

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Having a big family is too expensive. Where am I supposed to find the money for my brother's 20th, my cousin's 21st and graduation, my twin cousins turning 23, my other cousin turning 26 and having a baby all this month!! 😭

#Demon Spawn #+Extra #theres too much going on! and my mum doesnt tell me everything at once so i think i only have one purchase to worry about #and then she hits me with another one!! did you remember this? did you remember that? no i was still dealing with the last one #im sorry but siblings are prioritised then i gotta sort out my own sht if i can then afford all these other peoples things #when i dont even speak to them! then sure maybe ill get around to it but theyve all got more extravagant preferences which i cant afford 😅#most of them still live at home and dont pay rent let alone tuition i cant afford their expectations and having 4 cousin birthdays #in a month is ridiculous have you seen the price of postage? and you wanna add in graduations and a baby into it???#i probably sound like im btching about nothing to people who have a good relationship with their cousins but i never see them and even #when i do we dont talk its super awkward and we have nothing in common yet i gotta go spend money i dont have all at once on them #and i cant even say sht cus my mum arranged a 21st for me that i didnt want so they did end up getting me stuff #god i sound like such btch i just dont know these people and its stressful trying to get presents as is but so many occasions at once when #i have no clue is stressing me out right now its not that i dont want to celebrate its the sudden expenditure and the fact its not spread #out and that theres so many cus i already got 8 siblings and my mum is one of 5 and my cousins are getting older so theyre going through #milestones that require gifts too at the same time as their birthday

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goatmilksoda · 4 months

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The pain of knowing the reason you don't struggle with something as much as other people with your same neurodivergency is because of trauma and abuse that pretty much beat the habit out of/into you.

#i cant suggesr using a planner to everyone with adhd #because i remember the pain and heartache and depression and being forced to use it #and screamed at and held until i did #and like... that has left me with other lasting problems #but hey i never miss an assignment now and im pretty much always on time if not early for things #but no child should have to go through what i did and be neurotic and paranoid to the point i was #goat talk

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clumsyclifford · 2 months

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If you get this, answer with 3 random facts about yourself and send this to the last 7 people in your notifs! Let’s get to know each other better! (Anon or not, it doesn’t matter)

THREE whole facts??? alright LFG

the current #1 song on my on repeat is the cure for breathing by voilà (great song everyone in the world should know it)

in 2021 i drank a grand total of 598 cups of tea

my only piece of stranger things merch is a racerback tank top that says "i dump your ass" in super colorful 80s font that i bought at an it'sugar in nyc like four years ago. after some intensive googling i have been completely unable to find any evidence that this tank top even exists much less was sold by it'sugar, but i guarantee it exists, because it is in my closet right now. it's possible i am the only person in the world who possesses this shirt

ETA: found a picture i took right after i bought the shirt so you can all see what im talking about

i realize this doesnt matter to anyone but it matters to me. a mystery that doesnt need solving but damn if etc etc

#bestie it took me so long to think of three facts and megs had to help me #im useless #i seriously cant find proof of this tank top existing #but i VIVIDLY remember buying it #it was intersession at camp so it mustve been 2019 bc thats the last time we had an intersession #my sister and i were in the city staying with cousins. that was also when we saw spiderman far from home (i think? or maybe homecoming?)#whichever one came out in 2019 lol #anyhow i remember thinking how funny it was of me to go into a candy store and naturally buy basically the only thing that wasnt candy #no regrets tho i love that shirt i wear it often #would wear it more often but it is (1) winter and (2) i work at a school for children now lmao #anyway. the closest i can get to evidence of this shirt's existence and legitimate shelf life is #that itsugar DID have a stranger things line #and the write up MENTIONS tshirts and stuff but i cant find photographic proof of this anywhere #so who knows!!!#i wonder if i can find a picture of it from when i bought it hang on #AHA #ok editing my answer to include the picture #ask #denizoid #this was so silly lmao #btw. that tank top looks a LOT worse for wear these days lmfao #it is loved <3

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cosmicrhetoric · 7 months

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this is how you lose the time war was one of those books where it is really really not what i go for generally (prose wise) and if i hadn't read it in one sitting during a bout of insomnia im not sure if i would've made it through. that being said its probably one of the only "romances" that had me genuinely choked up at times anyway reread when

#went into it like sorry i prefer my epistolary novels to be dry and boring whats all this killing and dying for each other nonsense #i do think i need to reread it cause its like were you choked up cause it was good or cause you hadnt slept in 30 hours #i remember getting to 'i am your echo' and being like okay. im going to throw up.#reading that thing in bed on my kindle app two inches from my face like a process is occuring 2 me............#this is how you lose the time war #wait this is so funny bc this book stayed with me for years but during a separate bout of insomnia last year i tried the same thing with #the lesbian homestuck necromancy books and i was NOT having it. well i was until i woke up next and then i was like why cant i remember #a SINGLE thing that happened in that #kinda gave up on that series i did genuinely like the first book i think but maybe the rest of it isnt for me. maybe i just liked that there #was a butch protagonist i got to read about. once i made certain connections re: homestuck it took the shine off things #she didnt HAVE to give the main character aviators. thats all im saying.

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