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nothingtherefornow · 1 year

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There's a scene during Revelation which gave me the goosebumps and made me want to puke at the same time

Spoiler WARNING about the season 5 ML episodes and trailers released by GLOOB :

Lila : "Thank you Sabine, you're like a mother to me"

My reaction :

But seriously ... Do you realize what dreadfull implication Lila's words could mean during that sickening scene ?

She wants to add Sabine to her collections of false mothers

I didn't took this theory about Lila murdering girls to take their place seriously, but after that scene, I'm not so sure anymore.

If this Theory is true in some way or another, then Lila's next target could be Marinette.

And if not, Lila having managed to get close to Sabine enough to hug her and compare her to her mother is already horrifying on its own.

Because it's already infuriating and tragic enough that Marinette's friends (except Zoé, Socqueline and Luka I hope) trust Lila more than they trust Marinette, but can you imagine how horrible it will be if Marinette's parents start to trust Lila more than they trust their own daugther ? Just because Lila bonded with Sabine over painting lessons ?

isn't the idea of Lila endgoal not only being to take all of Marinette's friends from her, but her family as well, truly frightening for our heroin who already went through a lot and will probably gain more trauma the more we get toward the season 5 finale ?

Right now I'm hesitating between wanting Marinette to get away from this unhealthy environment before her loved ones hurt her and dissapoint her further, or wanting everyone to finally discover the truth about Lila and realize how much they hurt Marinette by having more faith and support toward somoene who has bad intentions toward Marinette since the beginning.

to summarize... I FREAKING NEED THE EPISODE CONFRONTATION RIGHT NOW ! I NEED LILA TO BE TAKEN DOWN BY SABRINA

#miraculous Ladybug #ml season 5 #ml season 5 spoilers #ml revelation spoilers #ml confrontation spoilers #Lila Rossi #marinette dupain cheng #Sabine cheng #Marinette Dupain Cheng deserves better #leave marinette alone challenge

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lifesucksdiary · 8 months

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What’s happening lately in my life

Guess what? Calob messaged me on Langmate. He apologized that he ghosted on me. He said the longer he waited, the harder it was for him to message back. And he went on and said it was childish. I said I don't remember haha

After I tried my best to move on from him, sometimes I doubted my own meaning to exist(just for a few minutes), my students were worried about me if I was okay, I even tried reading books or studying real estate law to get my mind off of my own grusome thoughts.

Back when he dissappeared from my life suddenly, I checked his messages every hour every day every week. I blew up his phone lol After I had no response, I realized that I had to block him everywhere, distract myself all kinds of ways possible. And I finally feel checked out from him. I started working at a new job, and it has been five months now. I feel tired but feel great to have my own income that at least support my basic needs. Sometimes not enough but I have side gig to last me until my next paycheck comes in. I can buy myself my own clothes, food, some items I find cute at flea market. I can drive myself around the town whenever I want. I found my new hobby which is writing letters to my friends outside Japan. I watch movies here and there. I refocused to myself and see what make myself happy and well.

Here are two aspects of myself I changed this year.

First thing I had to change was my debt situation.

I had credit card debt of about 1 million yen, my sister paid for my pension which she told me after she paid 200000yen. My brother borrowed me 150000 yen.. I was seriously in helpless situation. My brother took me in at his company to work as a waitress for three months, which helped me pay off to my sister. Now I paid off my one credit card that had 4000USD on it, and I cancelled it. What I am left with is about 2500USD debt on my other credit card which I cancelled as well yesterday.

I am more than grateful for my family who willingly helped me survive. I should have taken cared of myself already to have emergency fund and a job. I still do not have my own place because I still want to live abroad. I do not want any long term housing contract. I feel like a very dumb person but I feel much better than before for having reduced the amount of debt this year.

The second thing I had to change was my relationship with men of my interest.

Long story short, like Calob,and D, I revolved my life around them. I enjoyed so it was not forced at all. But the problem was that I did not have my own foundation because I was always changing my plans to match their time and location. That led me to not being able to progress my career, thus no raise or in depth experience in one industry. Now I put myself first before anybody. Sometimes it is tempting because it looks easier to imagine being a housewife who works part time outside and get to stay indoor with someone you love's money to have your basic needs covered. But in reality, I did not feel the total freedom to spend somoene's money. I always felt like I owed them and I felt useless and small. I felt obligated to do things for them and always my wants and needs last.

Now that I have my own job that lasted for five months, I am already making a progress at the company. I assist my manager's tasks whenever she is not in the office. Management was something I was always interested in, and call center job is what people say I am good at.

I did not know in the past four years after Covid lay off, I was doing something meaningful. But today writing these out made me figured that I did actually made a progress. It was definitely a trial and error but I totally am a better version than before.

My skin is better too! I fixed my acne problem! All over my body. Face, neck back butt, it took me about a year to fix them.

I have experience in online customer support position for total of about a year, on-site tech support for one year, clerical staff for a few months. I hope these experience help me be in a better position in the future.

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