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#i can be infinitely patient with friends! those are my fave people i chose to have them in my life I'd wait like a fucking mountain for them
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We need better fucking care infrastructure. I should not be trusted with anyone's care ever π
#thing is caring for myself? I'm not GREAT at it but i can scrape by
#i know my limits i know how much or little i need to survive i know that i can usually more or less bounce back after a tough time
#i think if my life fell out from under me i could probably scrape it back even if i wound up doing a lot of couch surfing in the meantime
#i genuinely don't know how I'll survive if i have to be fucking sole carer for someone
#dad's on his way back now and he's been prescribed antibiotics and hopefully that's that
#but at least a couple of times a year there's some shit like this
#an awful cough or an infection or a fucking insane choice to like do some diy on the outside of the house standing on the windowsill
#he fucking nearly chokes on his food once or twice a week
#maybe he's just one of those cockroach type motherfuckers who'll never die no matter how the universe steps on him
#but I'm fucking PISSED that he's taking that for granted and won't even sit and fucking talk to me about what happens when his luck runs out
#I've been looking after mum alone for what four hours today and I'm already so tired and frustrated i wanna die
#i am. a deeply impatient and unsociable creature.
#i can be infinitely patient with friends! those are my fave people i chose to have them in my life I'd wait like a fucking mountain for them
#mum and i were.... already sort of At Odds before all this started.
#i'm the kid she never 100% really wanted and who never really 100% wanted to be here
#and now we're stuck together and one day possibly sooner than any of us want it will be. just the two of us.
#and i just. i don't know what that looks like. i really don't.
#anyway. mental breakdown over hopefullly.
#with a bit of luck dad and i actually fucking TALK before the next one
#idk man. i never really knew what i wanted to do with my life but i thought I'd have time to figure it out
#but maybe I'm just. the unqualified burnout with covid memory damage and a whole ass other human to care for
#the exact thing i set out to avoid when i decided never to have kids
#anyway. enough oversharing.
#thank you anyone who's read my spiralling tag rambles in solidarity i love you
#mr. bees speaks
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