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#i WOULD go on a tangent abt how much they mean to me but i cant. id cry
natsmagi · 2 years
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switch doodle in celebration of their 6yr anniversary!!! i love this unit so much its not even funny
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stardustdiiving · 6 months
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My friend today was like you know fern I think your genshin favs are really funny because to me they’re all very tame green flags that have good vibes and then there’s zhongxiao which everyone hates. And I was like. WELL…..YES….SNUCHFJFJCNC
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violetfudge · 1 month
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little dps things I only fully appreciated on rewatches:
The first person Neil wants to tell when he gets the part is Charlie. Makes you wonder how much they had talked about it, and if Charlie ran lines with him too :')
Charlie genuinely smiling and being proud of Knox over reading his poem abt Chris in class (like yeah it was funny but he's such a supportive friend I can't)  + Cameron smirking back at Neil during it
Charlie has his sweater on backwards when they're kicking the soccer balls and reciting lines
Neil just bouncing like the energizer bunny when the soccer team is carrying Keating, can you stop being the most adorable person in every room for. Five seconds. 
"We're from the government we're here to help" no Cameron hate in this house
Charlie getting the others to lay off Knox when he's upset they're making fun of him about Chris. Charlie is perfect. Next question.  + manic exit music on the sax when they run out of the cave 
*knox overstreet scarf flip*
When Tina gives Neil the bottle to pass around, he looks questioningly at Todd
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Cameron shakes his head "no", whereas (while there are several ways you could interpret this look) Todd is just
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“when in Rome” (note that in the script he was the only one able to get it down without coughing) 
Charlie trying not to lose it in the corner at "I might be going to Yale! ...But I might not..." 
The hard cut from "I'll tell them I made it up! 🤠" to dozens of angry teachers clomping down the stairs
Neil's "but room, fairy, here comes Oberon!" as he comes to the dorm after rehearsal to get ready for dinner, when his father is waiting for him. Now obviously he was probably just talking to himself but what if (*puts on wild assumptions hat*) he were talking to Todd? And why would he expect Todd to still be in the room when everyone else was going to eat already, unless Todd had a habit of waiting for him? Too anxious to go by himself? Even if this were not the case, DID MR PERRY SHOW WHILE TODD WAS THERE DID THEY SEE EACH OTHER. AND DID NEIL TELL TODD ABOUT MR PERRY BANNING HIM FROM THE PLAY BEFORE THE PLAY. DID HE LIE TO HIM LIKE HE LIED TO KEATING. WE DO NOT KNOW THESE THINGS. 
The whole scene with Neil in Keating's office. That is its own post honestly because I have a lot of feelings about that but I will quickly state the obvious, I think this is the first time we see him really lose hope. In a way talking to Keating was the last resort, last plea for help. He says “I’m trapped”, and he laughs, but not on the inside, because he’s serious, and he needs Keating to see that he means it, he means it, but Keating doesn’t see that. Not enough, anyway.
Pitts' Elvis(?) impression in the bathroom
Charlie trying to start a standing ovation at the beginning of the play the literal second he sees Neil on stage 
The giant grin on Todd's face for the entirety of the play lol 
The way Neil looked like he was gonna throw up or pass out as soon as the play ended and the curtain was down, the mask slipped for a second and he looked so TIRED I'm crying (SIDE NOTE I think I have a tangent to go on about "I've got to tell you what I feel" "tell me what you feel" "...nothing" in contrast to him addressing Puck's closing monologue at his father but no time rn someone remind me to think it through later)
Also Ginny kissing his cheek and taking his hand before curtain call they are besties your honor
Can we talk about how in the deleted last cave scene Todd is the one going "if I ever see Mr. Perry again I'm gonna kill him" because brotheeeeer the character development. (Not to mention that this is before Neil has died, he doesn't even know about that yet.)
Knox giving Todd a smile and a thumbs up as he goes up to Nolan's office (I have Thoughts about his character okay he gets reduced to his attraction to Chris because. Well. Yeah. He's a teenager and an idiot and he reduces himself to that. But he's obviously an emotional guy, he's got a big heart all around. He's fully hugging Todd in the snow while he's crying and throwing up. Then being goofy and trying to lighten the mood for him when they're all getting called up and he undoubtedly feels as crappy as everyone else does. Being the first one to get up on his desk after Todd does.)
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gloriousmonsters · 7 months
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like. last reblog got me on a mental tangent about OoT specifically and the Triforce breaking. and the fact that Ganondorf has been trying to gain some of Hyrule's OP magic for a while (keep thinking abt how he tried to get the time travel ocarina stuff...) and I wouldn't be surprised if he's known of/been planning to steal the Triforce for a fairly long time. I mean it's the THING. it's the fucking power of the gods. You get your hands on that and there's absolutely no question you can steamroll Hyrule and then you'll have Won and this will fix you and justify your existence in the role you have and your moms will be proud etc etc.
And he's obviously pissed when the Triforce breaks and goes out to Link and Zelda, and the way he approaches it is very--no I deserve the whole thing, I'm the one who can use it properly, and it's easy to just see it from the General Villainous Entitlement angle, but getting into his perspective, and looking at it from the angle of him being someone with a certain role who's multiclassed beyond it, who could have been knowledgeable about some of the Triforce's aspects and structure for some time...
the Triforce of Power is obvious; power is something he has, has always possessed, something he believes in, that he undeniably embodies. he's the King (even when he loses his people, even when they reject him, even when he's the king of nothing or the world beyond or darkness itself, he's always a king). but the Triforce is more than power. That's fine. He's not just the king; he fights his own battles, he executes insane strategies, he puts himself into danger unhesitatingly. Who could say he's not courageous? He's a magician, a scholar, familiar with the intricacies of two cultures, comes up with his own plans and gambits--he's wise!
(and yes that's definitely what courage and wisdom consist of he doesn't have skewed ideas of them shut up!)
and it's both a symptom and foundation of his need to be exceptional, to be strong enough he never has to rely on anyone (because he shouldn't and he can't and it would be weak and--), that he reacts to the Triforce shattering with furious denial and a dedication to piecing it back together--it's not only practical (need ALL the godlike power can't have it running around elsewhere) every moment Link and Zelda exist, with other parts of the Triforce in their possession, it's like the powers that be are telling him that he isn't the success at Being Everything All The Time Yourself that he tried to shape himself into; he's incomplete, he's not good enough at these qualities that he was so sure--sorry, that he's STILL so sure! of course!--that he had successfully embodied just as much as he embodies Power.
he spent his life forging himself into a hypercompetent triple threat and The magic artifact of all time is like hm... ok here's. a third. the other two thirds are going to a couple 12-year-old Hylians. that you were just feeling smug about outsmarting. have fun with that blow to your entire conception of yourself byeeee
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reikunrei · 9 months
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okayyyy so i made a post abt this last night that was just a short ramble trying to piece my thoughts together but basically... i’m just really curious how will’s (possible) powers might manifest and what they might be, and i’m trying to like. reason out how i feel about them and what i personally think would be cool or fitting...
lots of people have talked about this before (like user pinkeoni has made some really good posts abt it, and i think heroesbyler has had good discussions abt it too) and what his powers might be, and a lot of them revolve around creation or light, both of which i’m very fond of
this isn't so much a theory or prediction as it is a "these are things i noticed and i think this would work well with the themes of the show" type of spiel. it ended up way longer than i wanted it to and goes off on multiple tangents because i can't stop myself, so i'm putting it under the cut lol
it's more just for me to try and articulate what i'm feeling about it, but if anyone actually reads this mess, you're more than welcome to share your thoughts :3
with the creation stuff, it automatically makes me think of the UD taking the shape of hawkins... because we know that henward grew to hate that town so why would vecna shape the UD to look like the place he hated? i suppose it could be bc he wanted to take revenge on the town, so why not daydream about it and destroy your scale model of it to get some catharsis, right? but... then it's frozen on the night will went missing? it’s possible that the UD could have simply taken the shape of hawkins when the s1 gate was opened and made the two worlds touch, thus making the UD a true "mirror" dimension of hawkins. but i also really like the idea of will getting sucked into the UD, panicking, wishing he had his hiding places to go to to escape from this monster chasing him, and poof! now he's in hawkins and all of his hiding places are there (he's good at hiding!) but it's still the "wrong" hawkins
but anyway, i want to move on to the "light" angle because there's so many things that i love about the possibility of will's powers taking the form of some kind of light to counteract the darkness created by vecna and the UD ("hide in the light" thank u max)
i especially think it would be cool for it to take the shape of some kind of fire or flame, even if the powers themselves don't behave like fire, like it's just a stylization choice to give some sort of visual that the characters and audience can see
i don't recall if there's any specific moment where any version of henward/vecna/001 or other characters talk about burning or fire as a form of destruction in a metaphorical/symbolic sense, but we see it enough of it literally throughout the show. fire is a means of causing pain, of killing, of destroying
season 1, nancy and jonathan think to burn the demogorgon to a crisp because, hey, that'd be a pretty effective way to kill something, right? so they carry that theory over into all the other seasons
season 2, we see hopper using his lighter to maneuver through the tunnels below hawkins, and the vines flinch away from the flame. we see owens and the lab using fire to cull the "weeds" still growing out of the gate. we see will react physically to the burning, feeling the pain through the link with the hivemind, and requiring it to be cold in order to not be in physical agony
season 3, uuuh i can't remember any direct usage of fire against the fleshflayer other than the fireworks, but that's more about the explosions than the flames imo lol. but we do get the sauna test (best s3 episode hands down mwah love it) and the aversion to heat that we see in billy and also in heather, though less prominently
season 4, we get murray's killer flamethrower scene and hopper using the flaming spear to keep the demogorgon at bay. our hawkins crew relies heavily on use of fire (flambé) in order to take out vecna's physical body
so there's just a lot of fire and fire as a means of destruction. but i can't help also thinking about how fire isn't purely a means of harm. fire keeps us warm, it brings us light in the darkness, it cooks our food and brings us health. the sun, a giant ball of fire, is essential for life to exist on earth. i especially keep thinking about how wildfires are a necessity to the planet, and in places like healthy grassland ecosystems, fires are crucial to burn out old growth to make way for new, fresh green, which the animals there then rely on. letting old growth continue to sit and dry out and die isn't good. it has to be removed completely so that new grass shoots can take over
(not to mention that allowing for controlled burns and letting wildfires run their course in a regular system ultimately allows for fewer, less destructive wildfires to happen. if there's no old, dry growth to burn, then there's less stuff to catch on fire)
how does this tie into the show, though?
to me, it makes me think of the concept of simply living with your trauma, not talking about it, and pretending everything is fine, when all that's doing is creating more kindling for a bigger, more destructive fire. it makes me think of season 2 and the conversation will has with jonathan about how everyone keeps treating him like he's gonna break, and the instructions joyce and hopper got from owens to just "treat him how you normally would." you can ignore trauma all you want and pretend everything is fine, but it's going to be more destructive in the long run. instead, letting him talk about it, listening, letting him burn things down a little bit, will be healthier because it'll clear out that old, dry grass clogging everything up and leave a clean patch of earth for him to build back up with new, healthier growth. you can take a weed wacker to it all you want, but those old roots are still there
not to mention the way they get rid of the mind flayer is to "burn it out of him." they literally let the "fire" run rampant, cranking up the heat to make his body inhabitable to the mind flayer, clearing out those nasty "weeds" so will can grow on his own (more or less) unimpeded
and then there's the s1 flashback scene between will and joyce where he's drawing will the wise shooting green fireballs. joyce asks, "why does he need fireballs if he's so wise? can't he just outsmart the bad guys?" but will explains that sometimes the bad guys are smart too, so he needs the fireballs
only here, they're green because he doesn't have a red crayon. this specific tidbit makes me think of how will's powers are currently repressed in some way. at that time, it was possibly because his powers "hadn't come in" yet, if we want to follow the idea that powers are a symbol for puberty or coming of age
he hasn't "found his flame" yet, so to speak (which is what got me thinking about all of this at all last night bc of the song 'find your flame' from the sonic frontiers ost the absolute slapper that it is) and at this point it's obvious that any awakening of his powers will happen in s5 when he's no longer being suppressed, much like how he currently has to suppress his true feelings, or how he's been unable to move on from what happened to him in s1 and 2
he has to use "fireballs" because sometimes the bad guy is smart. sometimes the bad guy has a trick up his sleeve (like *checks notes* literally not being able to die) and your original plan won't work. you can stock up on weapons, you can create as many sneaky ambushes as you want, you can solve all of the bad guy's riddles, but sometimes you need the fireballs
and, once again, we come back to how i feel like will's powers won't be literal fireballs, or something he physically wields. when it comes to el, henward, and kali, as well as the other powers that we see from other subjects, it's all something that they do. and here's where i start to struggle with how i want to articulate what i think about will's powers...
to me, will's possible powers aren't a weapon in the way that we've seen other powers used, or at least framed as, a weapon
like... i guess i do think that it's something that he can "do," but it's less "i'm going to move this thing with my mind" "i'm going to go into your head and walk through your memories" "i'm going to make you see something that isn't really there." like, he himself, his person, his mind, his essence, his intent, is the power. will byers is the light. why else constantly bask him in rays of sunshine, hm?? lol
again, i want to touch on the possibility of the UD hawkins manifesting simply because he wanted it to. he didn't think about it, he didn't deliberately go like "okay and now this house is here and this place is there" it simply... was. it just happened without much of his input other than a vague wish and panic
if we want to make it into something more deliberate, it makes me think of lio fotia in promare. the movie is basically about this group of people who suddenly developed "burnish" abilities, where they contain fire and have some sort of fire powers. they're persecuted by the rest of the planet, and are treated as terrorists and locked away in prisons and experimented upon. the fire, or "promare," inside of them is a double-edged sword, where they supposedly rejuvenate their bodies, but if they don't let it burn, it instead kills them and they turn to ash. spoilers i guess (you should definitely go watch this movie i highly recommend it), but near the end of the movie, lio is taken captive by the antagonist, kray foresight, and our other main chara galo thymos tries to save lio. kray lashes out using his burnish powers and tries to burn galo, but lio launches his own flames toward galo to protect him. when galo's firefighting team finds him, he's on fire, but he doesn't notice because the fire doesn't hurt him. it's a special kind of flame that doesn't burn! in the end, in order to save the world, they have to let it fully burn one last time, and galo and lio work together to wrap the entire earth in a massive wave of fire, and it's fire that takes the form of water. it engulfs everyone, but everyone realizes that it doesn't actually burn
i'm getting off topic but !! now we start getting less into "will has fire powers" and more "his powers are light and warmth" instead. like lio and galo's combined powers and intent (that's the other thing, that final big burn is different than the rest because of the intent behind it), it's not actually about the fire, it's about its purpose
he needs the fireballs to fight the bad guys, but in the case of our "bad guy," literal fireballs don't work. henward's past is a complicated one, and a lot of where he's been led was caused by his lack of a proper support system. he was villainized for being different. even when he was found by someone who "cared" for him, it was for that man's own personal gain, not because he actually cared about henward
henward was only ever burned and then left in the cold. nobody gave him a second chance like el, nobody listened to him like will. he was forced to fend for himself on his own in the darkness. he came to rely on the darkness. vecna literally focuses on the darkest thoughts of his victims in order to gain enough power to open gates. and sure, focusing on negative emotions gives all of our characters with powers some burst of strength
but then we're shown that love is what makes them even stronger. focusing on happy memories, memories of friends and loved ones, memories of the love itself, is what allows el to overpower 001 in the lab and to close the gate in s2 and to break billy out of his tether to the fleshflayer. and even in that final showdown in s3, she's not using her powers. she's burned out. in that moment, it's not the powers themselves that save them, it's the message behind it
will's whole character is about love and understanding. he puts himself last consistently, he puts the needs of others above himself, and he does not know how to be a little bit selfish when it comes to his feelings. he's sensitive, he's kind, he's artistic, he cries easy, he relies on his friends and family to feel safe and loved, and without them, he feels lost and hurt and alone. and there might be ups and downs, but he gets that love and support from them. they always have his back. he knows what it's like to feel pain and to suffer, but to have people who will stay by your side unconditionally through it all
and that's something he can offer to vecna and his alternate versions. he can offer that love, and that warmth, and that light in the darkness. and once again, i think it would be neat if it was less of a literal flame or source of light, and that it was will who is the source of light. like, he is the example for henward/vecna to see. he's the proof that despite all the bad shit there is in the world, there are people who will still love you anyway. there's people who will listen to you and care for you even if everyone else shuts you out
and even if it does take the form of something literal, of an actual flame or glowing ball of light or more of those glowy particles, it's not a weapon like the other powers we've seen
it's also about just shining a light on all the good stuff that's mixed in with the bad stuff. again, there is no black and white (thanks brenner, you fuck). henward was miserable in his life, he hated it and was frustrated that he felt trapped in a cage, and he only saw all the bad in the world. he couldn't see any of the good mixed in (ie. the possibility that he was friends with scott clarke as a kid, or even the fact that victor was really so caring and loved his son so much) because he just assumed it was all bad and he'd have to start from scratch to get any of the good he wanted
even focusing on the negative thoughts and feelings of his victims, vecna was able to be evaded by thinking of happy memories that took place at the same time as the bad ones. "hide in the light." again and again, we see max use memories, both past and present, to free herself from his clutches. good memories that still exist alongside the bad ones. and if vecna acknowledges that there's still good mixed in among the bad, his whole source of power, the foundation for his plan, completely crumbles
if will's power has to do with light, then he'll be the one to shine the light on all of the good memories that henward had mixed in among the bad. and this isn't to victim blame this 12 year old boy who was miserable and didn't know what else to do, but it's instead about his lack of support system, and how it's understandable to have grown so jaded, but that doesn't mean everything is bad, and there's still a chance for him to come back from it and change his way of thinking
henward was a wildfire waiting to happen, and rather than having someone to let him burn a little, to let out his anger and listen, he was trimmed back and suppressed. he had his old growth left there to dry out, which only added more kindling. he was never given the room to bring in new growth
and then to really tie in the use of fire to match the theme of "no black and white," i think about avatar the last airbender, and specifically the sun warrior temple that aang and zuko visit in the final book. in book 1 of atla, aang tries to learn firebending and jumps in too quickly, ends up burning katara's hands, and swears off ever learning firebending because he doesn't want to hurt anyone with it. in book 3, zuko offers to teach him, but aang is still very timid about it because of that incident in book 1. zuko also finds his firebending ability diminishing, and they surmise that it's because he no longer has this drive to find and capture the avatar. that was his source of power, his purpose, and now that it's no longer his purpose, he has to find the true way to master firebending. so, the two boys travel to the sun warrior temple to try to find answers. there, both zuko and aang admit that they really only see fire as something destructive, but the sun warriors remind them that fire is warmth and light and life. fire can be destructive, but it is not only destructive. it's something beautiful and necessary, you just have to respect it
feels pretty fitting for stranger things, yeah?
so, to wrap this all up before i go fucking crazy:
i personally think that will's powers will predominantly take the form of fire or light
i do also still adhere to some of the creation power theories, but it also wouldn't be crazy for him to have more than one power, right? after all, el can use telekinesis, track someone's physical location, and go into their minds. that's 3 pretty different things that she can do!
will is directly tied to the behavior of the lights in s1 and called back to in s4. throughout the show, and especially in s4, will is basked in sunshine on multiple occasions. sure, those instances are mostly about his bond to mike, and how mike sees him in this halo of light all the time...
but that still ties into the theme of love. those rays of light are about mike's love for will, and vice versa. but that kind of unconditional love and acceptance is something that will have to be extended to henward and vecna. therefore: light is the key
and again, it just feels very fitting to have the key be something like fire. something that's so often villainized and only seen as bad and destructive, when it truly is something that's misunderstood. unchecked, it can run rampant and cause pain and grief, but when respected, it can bring life and healing, for lack of a better word
so far, we've only seen fire used as a means of harm. it does keep our characters safe (ie. hopper's flaming spear, the flame thrower, the moltovs, etc.) but it is wielded as a weapon first, when it doesn't have to be
fire can cause pain, yes, but fire is also passion and love. light is something to be extended, to help people find their way out of the darkness, and i just think it would be really cool to see vecna, who's always shrouded in darkness, or henward who hid away in the dark attic surrounded by candles, to have a ray of warm sunshine like will byers hold out a hand to him and try to help
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the-s1lly-corner · 5 months
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ooh ooh, how would pomni react if reader asked them "do you really want to leave?" (like ik for my overworked ass, a colorful world where i dont have to eat or sleep but still technically can, or worry abt taxes and all thats needed of me is to participate in an optional adventure once in a while, plus id have my own questions about like "what if my memory also erased something really bad about my old life? would it really be worth it to remember it?" and further shit and questions that i wont further divulge in)
anyways sorry for the tangent/ramble love your stuff, youre doing gods work out here for us 🎵
"Do you really want to leave?" (pomni x reader!)
not sure how long this one is going to be because even though i just took a break, my thighs are starting to cramp up again so i might take a break right after writing this </3 (future admin here, i did not in fact need to stretch my legs, i needed to throw up TToTT)
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the question kind of just hangs heavy in the air, like a thick wall between the two of you. you just stare at each other before pomni fumbles with her hands.
"i mean... yeah..?" she sounds unsure, but the words still get the point across. she had still been searching for an exit this entire time, the entire time you two were growing closer... the air is tense, and you just. walk away
i mean, what was there left to say? even the way she went about it sounded like she was fully intending to leave on her own, if she were given the chance. she wouldnt even try to go back for you, or the others.... as if the opportunity to leave would disappear. you know you cant blame her, i mean sure you may have given up on escaping a long time ago but the way she was just so ready to move on without you just hurt so much. does that make you selfish? maybe. but are your feelings still valid? i think so... i think the relationship would be a little rocky, for a while... the ideal thing would be you two making up and trying to find a way to escape together, but i dont know, i think something like this would leave a mark on any relationship
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sushisocks · 5 months
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cmon you cant just say how queercoded sean is and then not expand on itผ(•̀_•́ผ)
/lh
My need to constantly talk about Sean MacGuire is really being indulged lately jnhbvbjnbh Thank u dear anon <3
oKAY so like, anon, I will be the FIRST to admit that me calling Sean queercoded might've been a strong choice of words all things considered (especially compared to ACTUALLY explicitly gay Bill Williamson which could go for queercoding considering it's only really explicit if you look for it or catch it). I read Sean as queer in a lot of ways, and that is probably in no small part because I'm queer myself. BUT in my defense, what am I supposed to take away from the developers cuffing Sean's jeans like that?? His queer little swagger???? The outfit with that haircut?????? That is a BISEXUAL MAN if I've ever seen one!!!
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^me rn fr (always, about Sean and Lenny in particular. My gay Lenny headcanon is a lot more solid though, I'll be frank, and I'm honestly waiting to go the fuck off about it properly here some day lmao)
On a more serious note though, I definitely think Sean's admiration for Arthur can be read as a little bit of a crush in certain instances. Not that I particularly ship that pairing, but certain ways Sean responds to Arthur has always had me 🤔🤔 For example (and I'm really gonna out myself and how often i rewatch his missions here) in pouring forth oil, when Arthur gets mad forreal for a sec and threatens Sean (after Sean has a tantrum abt not being invited along which.... come on), and Sean laughs, there is DEFINITELY a crush-related way of reading that interaction & Sean's response. Not to mention the lil lookover Sean gives him I mean COME ON he's not even that subtle!
Not to speak of the fact that the first thing he does after being rescued from bounty hunters is ask Arthur for a hug - how many of yall Arthur Morgan horny ppl wouldn't die to do the same? Sean was ahead of the game. He's one of you, I swear.
I think Sean being queer makes sense with his personality too, as the sort of laid-back and easy-going one. Though I also think, given the time and the fact that I think he's bi, it's probably not smth he's ever thought very hard about? You know, heteronormativity etc etc, him and Karen having their messy thing going on etc etc, but Sean WOULD kiss a homie and not really have a problem with it. He'd just -- not think about it much harder, you know?
It's that same attitude he has, which leads me to believing if given the chance he'd be very gnc. I know I've said it before but I do headcanon that modern au Sean would def fuck around with skirts and makeup and nailpolish, and have a very loose relationship with his gender as a man at best. It makes sense to me, for someone who is both that easygoing, and has that sense of interest in societal issues, to at some point have the realization of 'oh gender roles are made up' and act accordingly, you know?
And then I'm also taken with, and sort of speaking from, this sort of perspective of the gang at large as very queer. Speaking of it in that academic way, as a sort of rejection of normative society - heteronormative society in particular - there's absolutely an inherent queerness to this entire gang of outlaws doing as they will. When being queer has always meant being ostracized from society, it is easy to read characters ostracized from society as queer; in this way, and in my opinion, the queercoding is inherent to this game, and these characters. It's there at the very foundation of their situation and way of living, and it's why I personally am never going to argue against any type of queer headcanon (and why I'm a proponent of many of them myself lol). Me seeing queerness in Sean and Lenny, is no different from me seeing it in Arthur and Charles, or Sadie and Karen, or Hosea and Dutch, or literally ANY other gangmember.
I feel like I went on a tangent here, again, as I am prone to do, BUT my main point is: Sean MacGuire is so so queer bcz I said so, and becuase why the fuck else would he be like that?
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bonetrousled · 3 days
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can you talk about why you disliked undertale yellow? never played it or watched a playthrough but i’m very curious!
PREFACING THIS WITH A DISCLAIMER i know it is a passion project and it makes me Feel Bad that my feelings on it r this negative. i do not mean to discredit the years of work anybody put into it and i am So Happy that the general consensus is that people really liked it! i'm glad the team's work paid off. i am also going to be SUPER opinionated. undertale is my biggest interest of all time it has been my special interest for going on Nine Years . i am Wired to have very strong feelings on it . please do NOT take my opinion as a message to Not enjoy it if you do! play it and form an opinion on ur own time
also SPOILERS for the game!
that being said
i will first state the things i Enjoyed
music was phenomenal! it was very fun and atmospheric
artwork was very good! it makes me a little sad that the canon characters we see didn't really get the tlc/polish that all of the original content did, but that's ok!
i like how smarmy flowey was in the no mercy run. it was a little ooc at times but i had a blast (which will sadly become a negative) partly bc of his attitude
i love mo as a character. im going to rescue him from this game i just know it
ok. things that frustrate me from least to most (i will try to keep this brief bc i WILL go on a tangent if left unrestrained)
i wish the main cast had more variety in monster types. body shape, proportions, colors, etc! with how wide the array of the cast is in ut, it's just a little sad that the main cast here all roughly have the same build, height, and aren't really "monstery". lots of the non-main characters (i am including the feisty five in here) have more diverse and visually interesting designs to me and i wish there was just a bit more variety
add-on to the previous point: something abt the fact that dalv just kind of looks like a human Guy who is Purple with Horns makes me irrationally irritated. they could have put a little more of a bat motif in there or Something because the first time i saw him i genuinely didn't think he was supposed to be a monster
some of the fights are NONSENSE BULLSHIT HARD for no reason. some of these have been fixed since release but there were multiple segments that weren't even like. main story character fights that made me want to rip my hair out. additionally the shops are FEW and FAR between. it was a STRUGGLE to get enough healing items 90% of the time and i had to ration them out constantly
i know most were patched out and this is kind of a nitpick but the complete ABUNDANCE of grammatical and spelling errors on release took me out of the flow of things SO much. places that desperately needed a comma that had none, words completely misspelled (outside of punchlines for jokes), things like that. it wouldn't have been such a problem but it happened SO much and really got into the way of making sure dialogue progressed as normal. speaking of
i'm so sorry. half of the dialogue and jokes make me want to shriek and scream in agony. maybe it's just not my cup of tea and nobody is forcing you to have completely toby-fox-accurate jokes in your game but the majority of the jokes made in the pacifist/neutral runs fall completely flat for me. the general dialogue is very fanfic-esque to me in a way ? i do Not know how to describe it. it's not Good. along w that i'm sorry but in my opinion the way they wrote asgore in there is COMPLETELY out of character. i'm going to be so so honest mr king "fuzzy pushover" fluffybuns isn't going to go GET OUT OF MY SIGHT AND NEVER RETURN!!!!! the man got beat up by a child and took her in to train her. like yeah his garden is sentimental or whatever but like. he is such a Nice Guy. he would Not do that
the timeline does not make Any sense. if frisk is the first human to fall in YEARS to the point where everyone is losing hope of ever getting another soul for the barrier and most monsters don't recognize you as a human and let you interact w them freely why in the Fuck are undyne and alphys just like. alive and kicking here. why is alphys doing amalgamate shit already. what is going ON
and finally. the part that makes me the Most Irritated
i cannot fucking stand the story. I AM SORRY
i physically cannot expound on this as much as i want to bc the post is long enough as it is and i'll go on forever but generally speaking
i Do Not Like ceroba. i didn't really feel any connection or anything to any of the other characters in General but her entire deal and everything that surrounds it just makes me So Mad. like ok. i tried to get past the "oh my husband is a super important scientist (but not the royal scientist because that's alphys teehee but still REALLY important) and he's also secretly a boss monster (even though the only boss monsters we see are the Actual Fucking King and Queen of monsters and are the same monster subtype)" shit but like. THEN it's like. oh he's actually making a super secret magic serum that uses essence from a boss monster soul and a human soul (where did he get that. he made this after he was fired from his job. where did he get a human soul from) to give EVERY monster the power of a boss monster so that when we EVENTUALLY get enough souls to get to the surface (could literally be hundreds of years from now) we'll be strong enough to beat the humans (that's why asgore is collecting the souls in the first place. to shatter the barrier and become a god strong enough to beat the humans. that's the Point)
but WUH OH!!!! the serum is actually KILLING him!!!! and he never told his wife! so he leaves a series of tapes behind to tell her abt it after he dies and IN THESE TAPES he's like listen. here's this awesome potion im making. you need a BOSS MONSTER SOUL and a HUMAN SOUL to make it work. our daughter IS a boss monster. BUT. do NOT FUCKING use it on her. ok. DON'T. do that. ok love you (dies) AND FUCKING. her like 6 year old daughter walks in and speaks in a perfect eloquent sentence and says some shit like "we have to carry on daddy's legacy :(" and asks to be injected w the shit that we saw kill her dad SECONDS PRIOR and ceroba is virtually IMMEDIATELY like well ok if the kindergartner says it's fine. AND OF COURSE HER DAUGHTER IMMEDIATELY FALLS DOWN????
and when i tell u the like. WHOLE second half of the game is dedicated to this bullshit nonsense. ceroba has this whole thing where she's trying to kill you because you're pure of heart or whatever and it'll work for the serum or something and after a LONG ASS (stupid incredibly hard for no reason considering SHE IS NOT a boss monster) battle w her she's like ok i'm not gonna do that anymore i give up kill me etc. and in pacifist you're like nah i won't kill u i forgive you Hooray!
and so. right. youve been fighting the ENTIRE TIME. to find the missing kids. to get home. to leave the underground after figuring out what happened. there are only FIVE human souls at this point. having one more will NOT break the barrier. you've been fighting to LIVE this Entire Time. the story must end in clover's death SOMEHOW but literally the driving force here has been survival
clover is literally like ummmm ok well im gonna give up my soul right here right now to add it to the pile. *dies on rooftop ALONE* . the shriek i screamed when this happened was. Astronomical. like. oh yeah everybody let the 9 year old give their life for a civilization that has been trying to kill them this Entire Time. never mind the fact it makes all of the fighting and striving and grueling we did Worthless because clover decides to sacrifice themselves completely out of the player's control. this wouldn't make me AS mad if we had like. a choice like the forgive him/do not asriel thing where we could face asgore and be forced to lose OR sacrifice ourselves but even then it's just. SO silly to me.
i think i get the like. doomed parents sad child dreemurr parallels they were TRYING to go for but it is all so clunky and wonky and. just DOES not work narratively if you think about ANY aspect of it for too long
all of these factors combined made the game a complete and total Slog to get through . it is Not just me i streamed it to a few friends the whole time and the opinion was the Same
HOWEVER.
the no mercy run, completely against what it is MADE to do, was fucking awesome
the passive aggressive comments from flowey the entire time were hilarious. the power trip i got chasing axis was splendid. i didn't have to sit through pages of dialogue that made my eye twitch. i just got to Kill People.
i do Not like the fact that they seemed to think no mercy = Hard Bosses which. isn't really true for undertale ? out of the normal bosses only two are ramped up in difficulty and it thematically makes sense Why. in uty martlet gets multiple fights (including a Bullshit Insane Hard Final Fight), ceroba gets a Bullshit Insane Hard fight w a new mechanic that is introduced out of Nowhere and took me like 6 times to notice that it was even Implemented, and axis gets a tough fight. which is Fine but i do not think it really understood the message of like. the no mercy run is not supposed to be Fun. you are eviscerating this world and everything it has to offer. you're literally Killing the game. it's a tricky thing to balance but all in all No part of it made me feel bad. this could be due to me Already not really caring abt any of the characters but. sigh
also martlet gets really strong at the end bc she injects herself w dt but like. why does she know about that. she does guard stuff Near the Lab but why does she Know about the experiments. the whole point is that nobody Else Knows. where did she get that from. what the fuck
anyway. says that i won't go on for too long. proceeds to go on for too long like some kind of Liar
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embry-garrick · 17 days
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Nahhh bro, don't be sorry. Your frustrations and shit are valid and I completely agree, rant awayy. I mean, 100% no for the ban as it is right now (bc it's definitely just censorship, and no gov who censors it's ppl is for the ppl obvi) but if it was revised like that? And actually did good? Hell yeah!
I was a kid like that once, too, I was on the Internet wayyyy before j should've been and had pretty much unlimited access. And it fucked my brain up. I'm more or less just worried abt these kids bc that's what they are. KIDS.
But one thing I NEVER did, was lie to actual real people abt my age (the adults who interacted w me then knew very well how young i was lmao). The world is shit, people can be shit, and people will take advantage of you, especially at such a young age.
Which is why it's completely fair and valid for adults to not want minors interacting w their stuff, and have the right to block them and all that- for everyone's safety!
Sorry for the minor tangent, I just could go on abt stuff like this forever istg
I've been following u for a while now (and am absolutely in love w your work <3) and only now managed to gather the courage to say something, was pretty shit timing on my part tho lol
-🦕
Yeah, the adults interacting with me knew how old I was too 😭 I was literally so unsupervised on the internet, that it wasn't until I was like 14? That I started being safer and more aware of the shit I was interacting with. I was unsupervised since I was able to read at 6, which lead me to a lot of terrible videos on youtube way back when 😭
But yeah! If Kosa wasn't a censorship bill, and actually kept minors safe it would be a fucking blessing. Or if maybe, parents stopped letting their children be unsupervised online. Parents are one of the reasons minors are so unsafe online. I feel like a lot of parents are too permissive and allow their children to do whatever they want OR are too tired to interact with their children and think it's okay for their toddlers-children-teens to always be on a device without them present.
And yes I know that some minors depend on the internet to survive, and depend on the internet to learn and grow. But there is no way to make it so that minors can safely be online, even youtube kids is fucking dangerous. Maybe when you buy a phone for your kids they get a phone that doesn't let them use the internet but just apps? Like they can watch videos, listen to music, contact approved friends and family, but cannot go onto discord or comment or safari or whatever? Idk, we just need something genuinely better than kosa.
Like I have seen minors on tiktok comment under a mdni post and be like "I'm a minor why are you posting this on this site." Or stupid shit like "I'm a minor and I enjoyed this." And it's like what part of block, and keep scrolling do these kids not get???? Like I know you can read so???? Plus them commenting that is so unsafe because again, there are adults who will see that and put them in their line of sight.
There are people who can literally find your address like that. There are people who will make the time to travel and find you. There are people who go out of their way to way to physically hurt minors. Why the fuck are you doing shit that can put you in that sort of danger?
Like I said in one post, Atlas was so fucking lucky that I'm not one of those weird adults. But the danger of being online is, I could have been. Genuinely hope he learns, along with other minors, that being unsafe online is so so so dangerous. I hope minors learn that without something bad happening to them, hope they learn that by listening to others telling them to stop and listen.
Also, I'm happy you are now interacting with me 🦕!! The timing is alright because I want to move on from this stuff anyways!! Plus you have been very nice to talk to, and thank you for liking my work! I hope to do better and longer pieces in the future!
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There's this question that's been bugging me for a while. How would one go about writing Honey and Guy angst? I can't picture a angsty scenario with those two. The only thing close to angst i can imagine with them is hurt/comfort.
(definitely asking for no reason! It's not like I would want to write a fic about them. Absolutely not! You're crazy!!!)
I’ve been wanting to write angst for them for like a month now, but my laptop charger hasn’t come in so I can’t write at all, HOWEVER I do have a scenario in my head.
I’ve said this scenario before but incase no one saw it, I hc Honey as the type to go crazy in high school or college. Straight A student, never late to class, honor roll, varsity team, scholarship stuff. I hc Guy as the type to literally be okay with a D-. If it’s not a F hes cool. Best class was English, it was a miracle he graduated on time.
See where I’m going with this? With Honey studying for finals and taking so much shit seriously, Guy would be bored. They usually hang out before or after classes, or even text, but Honey brushed all that off for studying. SO Guy would do what Guy does best and distract them until they’re convinced to hang out with him. Great plan, right? Nothing going wrong? Yeah that’s what they said abt the submarine.
Plan backfires, Honey gets pissy with Guy not taking finals seriously. They get angry that he keeps insisting on “just winging it” with something so important. The stress mixed with annoyance becomes frustration and they say some things they didn’t mean and they wish they could take back to this day.
Guy is in shock and can’t find anything to say back so he silently leaves after their tangent and rant, with Honey realizing what they said to him and trying to apologize, key word: trying. They’re not used to saying sorry or having a long-term friend, so they don’t know how, and just leave him alone.
I’m not sure how I’d end it, I’d probably leave it on a cliffhanger for shits and giggles before releasing a comfort part 2 a week later.
Also this would be before Guy confessed to liking Honey, so probably them in High School if they knew each other then?
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lanshappycorner · 3 months
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Guys I am having vildia thoughts I just think that they would be the sweetest couple ever if they were in love
Like I don't think Idia is the most vocal when he's in love with people he strikes me as the type of person that gets really awkward around his crush, but something abt Idia is that he's like Very Very expressive. Even without saying much or being very loud, he's basically able to get his point across just from his expression
It also helps that his hair is like. A mood ring💀 Vil and Idia make eye contact and Idia's hair just starts turning pink and his eyes widen and he looks like a deer caught in headlights as his cheeks slowly turn red
And when he finally gets over himself, his lips curl up into the most awkward, lopsided smile ever and he just does the tiniest wave and it's the cutest thing ever because he doesn't know what he's doing but he is very clearly trying his best and I think Vil would adore him like that's just a little guy
Like even before they start dating its so obvious he likes Vil because he usually looks yknow a tad bit grumpy but when Vil comes around, even if you ignore the pink hair, you can practically see the affection coming onto his face and the way his eyes naturally follow wherever Vil goes like that is a boy in love
Also when Vil isn't around if someone brings him up I think Idia will go on a tangent about how beautiful and amazing and cool Vil is and then when he realizes Vil is standing behind him he shuts up so fast and turns so red and he feels so embarrassed BUT ALSO Vil is giving him kisses now so it's okay even if he was indeed caught gushing about his boyfie
Also I think them having nonserious arguments would be hilarious because they argue about something and Vil looks at Idia and immediately bursts out laughing because despite how allegedly annoyed Idia is with him, his hair is still very very pink and he just can't shake himself of the obvious love in his expression
And Idia just gets super embarrassed by it because it is NOT his fault that he can't get angry at Vil like he just looks at Vil and boom hearts in his vision like yeah they're arguing about what to get for dinner but Idia keeps getting distracted by how pretty Vil is and you know what else is really pretty, Vil's face when he eats his fav food. Suddenly Vil has won the argument
It's like "I legally can't get angry at u but also I have to pretend I'm angry so u don't know you have me wrapped around your finger" but also Vil knows Idia is down bad and he finds it adorable
Also I think Vil just appreciates how blatantly Idia loves him because yknow someone can always be spouting words of love but you never rly know if they mean it or not. Idia physically can't hide how in love he is with Vil and that is both reassuring and charming to him
I also think that Vil would try doing things Idia likes because. Well because Idia likes it !! I also think Idia would do things Vil likes because they want to be able to do things with their partner like yeah Vil may not see the appeal in certain games Idia plays but when they play it together it's a fun time so he likes it.
Meanwhile Idia isn't a huge fan of dressing up or going out in general but Vil likes dressing him up and going out and he's always attentive to how Idia's feeling or if he's overwhelmed, so that makes it impossible for him to think that hanging out with Vil is tiresome in any way.
Also Vil at a photoshoot and during breaks he sends a selfie of himself at the studio and it's like the most drop dead gorgeous casual selfie ever, and Vil's makeup artist or whatever is just like "aw r u texting ur bf? ☺️" and Vil is like yes and he starts talking abt how cute Idia is
And Vil's phone pings and Idia has sent a picture back but it's from a goofy angle from below or something so he looks extra stupid and the makeup artist is like ???? And Vil just giggles and kicks his feet like a schoolgirl abt how funny and cute idia is and everyone around them is like girl what....
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chococolte · 1 year
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This isn't a request, just forgot to say that I really love your writing, it makes me feel like a confident, bad bitch of an empress, a feeling I rarely get from many yandere fics.
I hope you're doing okay, and thank you for your hard work!
thank you so much!!! that's my goal <3 reverent yanderes are just everything!!
also, i went on a bit of a tangent abt yanderes and i got kind of carried away so i put it underneath a read more! i hope u don't mind, sorry for high jacking ur ask like this fxbdbg
tbh, i really dislike how in a lot of yandere fics the reader is just... degraded. barely even respected. i really hate yanderes who give you thirty page love declarations, "i love you so much and i'll never hurt you" headass while they go and do the exact thing they said they wouldn't do.
i leave those fics feeling almost dirtied. gross. bad. angry. bitter? idk. i know part of the appeal of yanderes is the disproportionate power dynamic-- you're the truly powerless one in the relationship, but the yandere (usually) never acts like it. part of the appeal is the horror-- you've been kidnapped, and ur being stalked, and all those people u glanced at have a steel knife in their back.
but honestly, the reason i read yandere shit is the absolute sense of knowing you are loved. this person loves you. they adore you, even your flaws. they stalk you, which probably means they've seen your every possible ick, and they still want you, even your gross bits included. reading a fic and sensing that this character, while fictional, loves you and only you-- practically worships the ground you walk on and follows you around like a lost puppy-- is a different kind of power trip. it's not an unpleasant one.
i think that's part of the reason why the sagau is so popular. people, for the most part, don't want to read something that's only going to make them feel bad! they don't want to read a fic that leaves them feeling worse! most people who read yanderes do it for the same reason i do. to feel loved, even in such an unhealthy way.
in the sagau, you're a god. they revere you like one. you're worshiped, praised. even characters that initially dislike you will love you eventually. you are loved, regardless of your appearance; you are adored, regardless of your personality, of the flaws you perceive yourself to have. this love of theirs will never wane nor be eroded by time. you could do whatever to them and they would continue to love you. they would forgive your every mistake. it's comforting. it's nice to indulge in.
if i read a yandere fic and i don't feel loved at least in some capacity, i think its failed as a yandere fic.
ok, end of tangent OTZ i hope u at least enjoyed my ranting 💀
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THE OFFICIAL (WELL, UNTIL I NO DOUBT ALTER ALL OF THIS COMPLETELY) GUIDE TO WRITING CASTIEL TOWNSEND BOFA TOWNSEND(????)
alright :) so.
first of all, i refer to him quite frequently as ‘cas’ in this. technically, its not a good move on my part, that, considering every iteration of castiel technically has a name that shortens to ‘cas’, and so if i go around taking about ‘cas’, i could mean, basically, uh… anyone. but through this guide alone, every reference to an entity called ‘cas’ is the one and only ‘castiel townsend(???)’ from the title of the text. that’s the guy in question. got that? great!
this focuses primarily on his dialogue and actions during said dialogue, in five sections ive labelled 'vocabulary', 'amount said', 'accompaniment', 'style', and 'tone', but that's just because he talks a whole bunch. anything additional about how he thinks and acts is in a last section called 'additional' (self explanatory name, innit) but i will probably add to that bit as we go!
so. without further ado, because this is already long enough:
VOCABULARY
cas's vocabulary is... like i've said, a weird mix between normal, comprehensible, though millennial-esque slang and more archaic or nonstandard terms and words. he's a big fan of 'remiss' and 'brogue', but will in exactly the same breath, call someone a boomer. the archaic side of his vocabulary leans more to the shakesperian, but anything poe-esque is absolutely not off the table. just go ham. sprinkle the longest and most complicated words you know into his vocabulary, and you'll be set. don't even worry about using them correctly.
he also uses lines like 'the jig's up' and then immediately gets bullied for it. as he should honestly.
he is also...frequent with his amount of pop culture references. basically, anything you know, you're absolutely entitled to make him know too. go wild. bonus points if it's a shit piece of media. books, films, tv shows-- whatever! go for it.
oh that's another thing. frequent user of 'whatever'. 'whatever' traditionally means 'this thing is impacting me but i can shrug it off enough to ignore it'. he's 'whatever'd murders. and the existence of the compound. basically, unless it causes him to break down on the spot, it's 'whatever'.
you can never use it too much. go wild.
he also uses a LOT of british terms. he's not a 'luv' kind of a man- he's not reached that far- but 'lawks' (exclamation of surprise? ish? somewhere between surprise and oh god) and 'git' and 'goit' and 'wanker' (all insults. we brits are an contentious bunch.) are very much on the table lmaoo
honestly anything goes! he is actively abusing these terms, so don't worry abt getting anything wrong you got this!
AMOUNT SAID
a lot. all of the time.
cas talks like its an olympic sport and he's going for gold. if you're ever sitting there thinking 'is this enough castiel dialogue??' the answer is no. write more. he rambles, he elaborates, he doubles back, he goes off on tangents- and it's ten times worse whenever he's nervous, which is more than he usually lets on. nervous? him? he'd never be nervous. not at all. honestly, it's ridiculous you'd think that. why would he be nervous? what would that possibly be about? don't be silly. he's never been scared a day in his life. except for that one time. with the crocodile. and that had really just been a log, so that one didn't count. <- like that. but ten times more.
oh, that's the other thing! he frequently trails into random stories about his past that have just. never come up before and never will again. make those up as you will. be wild! his backstory up to the age of 18 will never be fully ironed out i think, so you have total free rein.
cas will and does abruptly switch to very...clipped dialogue- like, 1-2 words max. this is a powerful tool, because its an indication that something is Very Very Horrifically Terribly Wrong. this is when he's terrified out his mind, or exhausted beyond reason, or has been through something absolutely abysmal. it is traditionally very rare, and a Very Bad Sign. unless you're trying to get him to do what you want, in which case this is the ultimate way of indicating that you're well on the way there.
this is the reason why fully docile compound cases will maybe say 1-2 words a year if they're feeling particularly chatty-- and the reason why that's a very big thing.
ACCOMPANIMENT
castiel is a man who cannot and will not stay still for long, particularly when talking. sometimes he paces, sometimes he gestures, sometimes he unscrews things or tries flipping items (books, knives, pens- anything in reach really) with varying levels of success. sometimes (if hes behaving or acting more nonchalant) he'll just go 'okay whatever' and go on tumblr mid-conversation. point is, even if you tied him to a chair, he's not staying still, particularly with his hands. go for it. make him do whatever. i will cheer you for it.
STYLE
when I said that 'he elaborates, he doubles back, he goes off on tangents', i meant he often does so m- i mean- thaaaat he often stops himself partway through a word or an idea just to start a new one. or he'll stop mid sentence just to-- just to reconsider the sentence and then continue going with it.
his mouth moves faster than his brain, and so often he'll say something like a lie or a comment or an analogy and have to decide whether or not to try and go back on it or stick with it to the end.
as i described it once to my good friend @heshemikey, 'if he's in a situation where he needs to not joke or not lie he'll often joke or lie and then immediately double back on it he can't ?? not say things? if you get what i mean??'
which is basically. just. cas in his purest form tbh.
TONE
i left this one til last because its the most(??) variable of the lot?
there is constantly a nonchalance, a lack of caring, a projection of being in control to what he says. he's not scared, he knows what he's doing, he's in charge. those kind of vibes. even though its highly unlikely any of the three are true, especially all at once. but depending on where he is in the timeline- where he is in his life, even- the actual terms of that can differ quite a bit. early cas- pre wbg cas-- honestly, pre OVER cas-- does this by acting like a little bit of an arsehole. he's not exactly a touchy-feely guy, he's not exactly open with his affections (though he does have them, and does show them. in his own ways.) and tends to act anywhere from a manipulative asshole to just a dude who Does Not Give A Shit Abt What You're Saying.
as my dearly beloved friend @felixcosm (expert of the early stages of cas) points out, when i say hes 'acting like a little bit of an arsehole', what i mean to say is that he is an extremely bratty, petulant kind of guy. he is…very frustrated, at w.bg, at his husband, at himself, and everything he says mirrors that. the manipulation he exerts is his own attempts to grasp some kind of control over his situation. though when that is inevitably not enough, or it slips through his fingers, he's prone to being a pissy little bastard about it <3
he argues frequently with a wide variety of people (particularly his husband, though anyone who opposes him is probably going to get an earful)- a little hot-headed, a little overconfident, and a lot in denial about it all.
i can feel him in the back of my brain denying it right now. that's how in denial he is. he's constantly in denial and he never stops– at any point in his life, really. if in doubt: make him in denial. great trick. works every time.
through OVER (which is where he's actually quite awkward, especially around people who're nice to him, like hunter) and experiences with the compound, and the flinchites- this begins to transition into the other end of the scale. which is a part of his life i call the pw era. pw era cas is... completely opposing. he's smug, he's amused, he's constantly finding things that Are Not Funny to be funny. he doesn't take anything- or anyone- very seriously.
he's also very, very touchy. he frequently puts his arm around people's shoulders, or pats them on the back, or offers to keep them warm at night, or basically anything that could border on being annoying or discomforting. that's the other thing- he- pw era, especially- delights in causing people discomfort. not horrific amounts, but anywhere from annoyance to pure upset is somewhere he's willing to stoop to. if he thinks something is going to hurt someone's feelings, he'll say it. there's a possibility, depending on their reaction, that he might double back and apologise, but first and foremost he's going to come out with the smugly snide comment in question
i think he's constantly trying to get under people's skin? if he causes them to have a flat-out breakdown, then he'll tune his annoyance levels down quite a bit, but his main goal is still always to get under the skin of the person he's addressing, and he'll stop at nothing to succeed.
ADDITIONAL (yayyy!)
so. this is a little about how he behaves, a little how he thinks and acts. ive been reading through how i write him and realising i really? do not dwell on those much? but let's see what we can do here :)
okay. so.
one of the first things you're ever going to know about cas is that he has a crap marriage. this is never not true, and he will never not bring it up if he finds an opening- honestly, no matter what point in his life he's at.
it gets to the point where he will follow various comments- 'they were not exactly being punctual', and 'the fact he might have been lying didn't once occur to me' are the two i can think off the top of my head, but it's a frequent occurrence- with 'story of my marriage', or something of the sort. sorry. that was dialogue again. point is, he's never not really thinking abt his marriage and how crap it was. you can ALWAYS make it abt his marriage. yippee. no matter how wild the line previous is, chances are he'll compare anything to his husband. he's like a character from a boomer comic but slightly less divorced. not by want of trying, though.
certain details of said marriage are things i still need to iron out but uhh. come to me for more on that baby. or ask felix. whatever you will.
in the same vein, he regularly fidgets with his wedding ring. never takes it off, no matter what- no, he'd sooner lose the whole hand than the ring itself- but he's a constant fidgeter. all of the time. he probably does it in his sleep to be honest.
that being said: VERY deep sleeper. usually goes to bed at a stupid hour of the morning and can't actually be woken until. noonish?
and i mean, like. deep. deeeppp. capable of sleeping through an entire tornado kinda deep.
he also drools :). funfact. probably snores too. loser.
OH! also. pw era cas especially has…weird levels of what he considers a friend (or, for that matter, a romantic partner). like. if you converse with him civilly for about three seconds, you're his best friend and he'd die for you. if you're someone who's skin he wants to get under (whether he succeeds or not), its about on the same level as a marriage proposal. that, and a few other factors. he's once offered to marry enigma simply because he didn't murder castiel in his sleep- the bar is like On The Floor Here.
he also defines marriage as a platonic ideal too. like he's fully capable of having a platonic relationship with someone and being like hey we're married now actually <3
basically? you have free rein on that one too. i don't know the exact standards of how he develops this relationship or why or what the difference is between who he considers a friend and who he considers a Possible Spouse. uh.
go nuts. show nuts. whatever. don't show nuts, actually. put your nuts away.
thank you. now, continuing.
has a knife on him. at all times. always.
okay, he doesn't have a knife on him at certain points, but we don't count those. just presume he has a knife on him. amazing. i keep presuming he has a knife on him and then realising he probably doesn't and having to hope nobody notices my mistake. so really you should be all good.
does not frequently shower. sorry. he's a bit of a greasy mess at any given moment. somewhere between it not being his top priority and not having enough money to pay for the water bill involved. SAD!
actually i will bribe you; whoevers reading this? please god make a fic in which he gets forced to shower. he won't listen to me and someone needs to get his ass in line here.
please. i'll give you my lifes savings. a whole twenty pence.
on that note (there's been a LOT of notes, hasn't there? sozzles.) he will do pretty much anything for money. if you can pay him a living wage, he'll stick with you. whether that involves the risk of bear attacks or, like, human experimentation or whatever, just offer him a couple of quid an hour and he'll probably go along with it.
there's rent to pay, man. you gotta.
sorely lacking in the moral compass department. freaks out about killing people, freaks out while killing people, but acts like he's totally fine with and good at murder- almost well enough for it to be convincing. the freakouts are more about the act of having to watch someone die over the implications it has on his moral standing, anyway.
okay, hes not sorely lacking. he's actually kind of a morally upright guy, if you ignore the murder and the being an asshole.
he doesn't steal, he doesn't, like– what's another crime? he doesn't do a lot of crime. that's the point.
he doesn't care, he's not morally impacted by any choice he makes, but he doesn't do illegal shit without a real, actual, genuine reason about it.
likes kids. unironically. he's a little awkward around them, but he's kind of a little awkward around everyone. definitely the kind of guy who speaks to and treats kids like they're just adult human beings, and honestly doesn't do too bad a job of it either.
he's actually never interacted with a child in canon yet. goddamn. right, another twenty pence for whoevers willing to do that. oo and it's a lovely shiny twenty pence too ooooooooo
he's canonically good at sleight of hand! mostly it's just stupid little tricks he's taught himself when bored- like vanishing coins, or cards, or anything small enough to realistically do that with- but he's proud of himself for getting so good at it, and honestly? so am i. maybe someday he'll learn how to do a whole magic trick. we can only imagine.
EXAMPLES:
i lied.
extra section, boys and girls. extra section. let’s goo!
basically, i'm realizing i've written an imposing amount of stuff to remember- none of which is really necessary, mostly just small details!- and it’s kind of going to feel like a right task now to put it all together.
not to fear though, because my most amazing companion tumblr user @heshemikey (who I constructed this guide at the behest of, though they know how to write castiel technically better than myself and do an amazing job of it (and are generally just a wonderfully cool dude!)) has been so kind as to provide me with examples of their depictions of pw era cas, which i’ve been able to annotate with comments about how much i love their ocs- er, i mean, pull apart to show some of these qualities i’ve been discussing and how it all fits together.
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note the colour coding :). now. i am a lil colourblind, so you might have to correct me if i get any of these wrong, but let’s see…
orange is a quality i didn’t bring up yet, which is his tendency to place emphasis on more words than technically necessary– to make his words sound a little more dramatic, or flourishing, or emotional.
or, particuarly in the early days, to get a point across (fig 1. & 2.)
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astounding. shut up, castiel.
moving on! light?? blue???? you’d call that a light blue, right?
that’s actions specifically to do with body and limbs– because castiel is very expressive with those, frequently when speaking- usually, almost more notably than he actually is facially. he isn’t a man to do anything by halves, yknow? he doesn’t stay still often, and he makes a point of the fact.
green is his weird, nonstandard terminology, or extended vernacular. like heshemikey says, he’s the kind of dude who ‘knows a lot of super obscure fancy words that he uses in normal conversation’, which is honestly so true. look up a list of fancy words and just sprinkle em in and you’re set.
PINK! pink is blatant denial of emotions. it’s not a pw cas fic without it! basically, every time he feels an emotion that isn’t ‘being a smug bastard’, he’s actually never felt that feeling before, never will again, and frankly, is not feeling right now. emotions? he doesn’t do emotions, babeyy.
teal is for his ramblings, his tangents, his going off-on-a-little-spree-iness. if you’re not sitting there writing his dialogue and going oh my GOD castiel shut the HELL UP!! then you’re probably missing a tangent or two down the line. they’re fun to write! they’re just also A Lot.
gray-bluey-purple is ‘whatever’. if someone ever writes castiel dialogue and uses the word ‘whatever’ i let out a little whoop whenever i read it! like YEAH thats his thing!! its a very important word x3
red is also something i haven’t brought up before, which is his habit? occasional frequent practice? of asking questions- whether that’s at the other person, himself, or the universe in general. he’s, uh, basically a big fan!
i WOULD pull apart a piece of text from his pre-wbg, pre-pw days, but alas i don’t have a snippet quite big enough or right enough to do this with– trust me, i’ve checked x(
i plan to keep this document up to date though so if i do get anything adequate enough ill give it its own little section and colour-coded notes and everything too! mUAHAHAHA. anyway. gnight. sleep well. good luck.
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probieravi · 2 years
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this is gonna be kinda long and incomprehensible but hear me out: sth is really weird with buck, he is acting super ooc this season. first his relationship with taylor that seemed super weird in 5a but i brushed it off attributing it to me being negative abt it bc i don't like BT. but then with each passing episode he was acting weirder. he was once again focused on his own pain and making it abt himself. he tried to leave bc he felt unwanted. 1/3
2/2 then maddie left. and back in that episode when chim punched him and buck spent the entire episode telling chim how maddie just needs time and she's fine i didn't think much of it either. but now after boston, now that we know more? like buck is the caretaker. he loves his family. and maddie came to him, told him abt almost drowning jee and that she is leaving, she didn't tell him where and he just LET HER? he never would have before. 2/3
3/3 the buck we always knew would NEVER let maddie go if he suspected that it was THIS BAD. did he not even realize??? and then there is the cheating storyline. this was super ooc for the buck we know. and then the eddie thing? sth bad is happening to buck. i don't mean ooc in a 'this is bad writing' way. i think it's excellent writing. i think they're giving us subtle hints about how he is heading for sth Bad. i think once everyone else is "fixed" he is gonna go down. hard.
OKAY sorry i’ve been holding on to this since you sent it last night and i wanted to wait until i was off work so i could properly digest it and respond because i think you are actually the smartest anon that’s ever been in my inbox.
so my thing with buck is this: eddie hit the nail on the fucking head when he said in 504 “you’re the guy who likes to fix things”. he wasn’t just walking about buck’s relationship with maddie; he was stripping buck down to his very bones, the very root of his character -- beneath all of buck’s bravado, his flirting, his jokes and fun facts, he’s just a guy who wants to help, who wants to do the right thing, and most importantly, who wants to fix other people’s problems. it is of my personal opinion (but i’m right, actually) that buck wants to fix other people’s problems so he doesn’t have to fix his own. i could go on a mile long tangent about how buck compartmentalizes himself and his own issues (hello buck 1.0/2.0/3.0), and how everything we know about buck in canon goes to prove that he avoids dealing with his own problems by dealing with other people’s. he loves to be able to fix things, he hates when he can’t.
which brings us to season 5, and i think you’re literally so right, that buck is acting ooc, and it’s for a very good reason. as the audience, we’re SUPPOSED to be thinking, as my father said during 511, “what the fuck, buckley?”. we’re supposed to be wondering what’s going on in his head. and where with say, eddie, we very clearly know why he’s heading into the direction of a major breakdown, we don’t necessarily have that with buck. like obviously, we know he’s Been Through Shit (daniel, the shooting, the ladder truck, the tsunami, the blood clots, the lawsuit, jesus christ man), but we’ve also been made to believe that those things are things we’ve dealt with. personally i believe this is why dr. copeland was introduced in 4A -- to give viewers the impression that buck was dealing with his shit. but we very clearly see in season 5 that he hasn’t dealt with it, and with the huge fucking elephant in the room that is the shooting and the will, buck can’t deal with it.
so, he acts out of character. this is SO fucking pertinent to buck’s character, imo. he quite literally has a track record of making the wrong decision when he’s backed into a corner and doesn’t know what else to do; the lawsuit is a perfect example of this. so now, in season 5, we have a buck who has absolutely no direction as to how to move forward to healing, so he does what he does when he’s afraid -- he makes Decisions that aren’t necessarily the best for him in the long run. take taylor, for example -- he makes it clear that he’s tired of running after people, and yet he gets with taylor (not to MENTION everything that happens in past is prologue) anyway. he’s constantly making ooc decisions, and it isn’t bad writing. it’s fan-fucking-tastic writing, actually, because we’re slowly seeing buck break down in real time. this isn’t eddie clutching a back (with buck In The Room) because all of his trauma is hitting him at once; this is buck slowly but surely digging himself into a hole he won’t be able to get out of without serious help
and you’re right -- especially after everything that happened with doug, i don’t think buck normally would have let maddie go off by herself, especially if he feared she was in danger to herself. but this isn’t a buck who’s acting rationally; this isn’t a buck who’s head is on straight. this is a buck who’s grasping at the edge of a cliff, trying to hang on. this is a buck who can’t fix someone else’s problems, because his own are becoming suffocating.
so yeah, you’re right on the nose -- buck is going to put it away (hah) and help other people; he’s going to be there for maddie and chim, be there for eddie and chris, be there for bobby and may, and he’s not going to worry about himself. but as soon as he doesn’t have anything to fix, anything to focus on, the weight of everything is going to hit him at once, and he’s going to fucking break.
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gallus-rising · 5 months
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Riverside ask game: Strawhats. Either singularly or together. Maybe both. There are a lot of Strawhats so feel free to pick and choose.
If you want another thing to produce posts about it that's in your lane: give Riverside Characters Pokémon Teams.
Note: I have never heard of Riverside before, so feel free to go on tangents explaining shit.
oh boy the reason you've never heard of Riverside is bc it's my dumbass headworld that i sporadically post about. this means you've given me permission to assign pokemon teams to my OCs. i've tried v hard to think of how the Strawhats would fit in but i think my setting is just too incompatible to work 😔 Zoro as is would totally be a transplant tho (person who got lost and simply fell in to the city from another dimension. they can not leave)
ok here's like. a lil intro. it won't explain much but hopefully it gets the absolute basic Vibe across. there are a lot of ppl in Riverside so i'll pick and choose the fun ones
This Sider's
Jackabill: river prophet and highly successful cult leader. basculegion, golisopod, omastar (praise helix!), cursola, clodsire that is somehow fucked up and evil, and a wingull that he uses to scout out places for him. electric types dni
Kelmet: sanitation worker SUPREME! you have no idea how many rats this guy has killed w his bare hands (and this gun he found). a very large garbodor, Alolan muk, dachsbun that has gone moldy, and a single bergmite bc all good sanitation workers are cold casters (ice wizards) they are also usually being followed by a bunch of lil trubbishs and roaming form gimmighouls
Zafell: an old guard partykiller (demon hunter). grumpy old women who could be forcibly retired any day now. she tries not to think abt it. is only Rem's mentor bc he wouldn't leave her alone. gardevoir, absol, kilowattrel, sneasler, froslass, silvally, and multiple others she'd rather not talk abt
Rem: apprentice partykiller. Some Kid that Zafell found chopped up in the trash she stitched him back together tho so it's fine. has no memory of who killed him, but given he's a bloodmancer it was probably bc of the blood trade (see bloodmancers have the Good Shit in their veins) pidove, greavard, riolu
Mammon: very successful blood dealer/debt collector from Across who complains a lot and would like to go home(when he is in Across he complains abt the lights & noise) gliscor that kills ppl, beldum that he psychically beats ppl w, honchkrow (don't tell anyone but the first time he visited This Side he was so happy to learn that birds are real), and a rotom that he let's electrocute him every so often so he can remember what home is like
VindeTrojanVinde?TrojanTroj͝an҉V̺ͥI̪N͟Ḏ̛͖̫̪̩E͚̜: 2 guys that are Going Thru It. there was a combination boating/human sacrifice accident. you know how it is. their team(s) are now Vinde's espeon, Vinde's tentacool that evolved into a toedscruel, Trojan's Unbreon, Trojan's diglett that evolved into a wugtrio. they are also being tormented by many unrelated joltiks bc on top of everything else Trojan had to go and give Vinde fleas 😔
have pokemon replaced normal animals in this scenario? bc in that case The Pickles is an Alolan rattata
i wanna ramble abt some Across characters now, but i gotta hand out candy irl in a bit. i Will be back with them tho (this is a threat)
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derangedthots · 1 year
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Hi author, anon about the ask over your CTF Jace and Aemond characterization here ✌🏾
First of I want to say that you are very kind to answer all of our asks, questions and comments. I of course left various comments on your fics but I often wonder if I or we, aren’t annoying you … but then I guess that is also the beauty of fanfiction over regular fiction novels,right ? the access, the direct line of communication the readers have with the writer. anyway a very tiny paragraph to say that I’m very grateful for your interactions with us on your tumblr.
To go back to my ask & your answer … I hope you didn’t think I was disparaging your Aemond and its characterization (if it came out that way I really apologize). I think he’s very likable and comes out as any individual who lost his eye & didnt get too see the perpetrator punished, and finally got a dragon and saw himself being reprimanded for it. Meaning he’s bitter, angry and slightly closeted. Also the yearning he has for Jacaerys that you made us peeped in the last chapter made him a very compelling character.
I like what you say abt still maintaining Aemond’s (book canon and show canon) darkness and his thoughts being as dark as his heart. Now I imagine CTF!Aemond’s yearning for Jacaerys is not all rainbows and flowery hope of a courtship. I figure at night, in his room … he must think abt all he could to Jacaerys …🫣
I also like what you say abt Aemond having to change for a place next to Jacaerys. It also parallel how Jacaerys will have to accept Aemond and his not so savory parts too (& also how the throne will inevitably change Jacaerys in some capacity). Ultimately both Jace and Aemond will have to make concessions to be together but also put a lot of trust in one another and love, lust and trust don’t often go together. They have a long way to go … which is probably very fun for you to write as the author.
Sending you good vibes for your college classes !
don't worry, you aren't annoying me at all!! in fact, it's always incredibly touching to me that you guys care abt something i've made so much that you're so curious abt it. i'm grateful for interacting with you too!!💕💕
also absolutely no need to apologize, it didn't come off like you were disparaging my characterization of aemond, i was just running off 3hrs of sleep that day and answering your ask at almost 1am so i misread and didn't realize i went off on a nearly unrelated tangent until after i'd posted😅😅 even when i was delirious tho, i just thought you were commenting on book!aemond's dark traits and wondering how much of them i would be incorporating (part of that whole spiel was also just me preemptively responding to any future issues readers might have with my interpretation)👍🏼
"bitter, angry, and slightly closeted" is such an excellent description of aemond in general but CTF!aemond especially😂😭 let's just say he thinks some very...colorful and impassioned thoughts abt jace frequently😳🫣 i'm glad you find my characterization of him compelling!!
since the FMF/CTF universe is supposed to be a fix-it, i'm really trying to get jacemond's dynamic to be as healthy as possible. not necessarily perfect by our modern standards of course, it is still westeros, but healthy all the same. and i personally think it's a mark of a healthy/equal relationship when you don't try to change one another but rather, your love inspires each other to change. (otherwise, what are you there for? just find someone who already fits your necessary criteria lol, trying to build-a-bear a relationship you're already in just sounds like a recipe for endless fights and disappointment+disaster) but yeah i'm a romantic what can i say🥲🤷🏻‍♀️ like you mention, there's still a long way to go before both them get to being completely level with each other; trust, i think, must preclude love - it has to be there for it to form in the first place, otherwise it's just lust/obsession - and neither of them are really at trust yet. it's def equal parts fun to flesh out but also frustrating bc i know all of us just wanna be there already😂
thank you for the good vibes, i'm sending you some too! i hope life treats you amazing!!♥️
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