#hope u like these janice <3 <3
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you're the reason I ship Clenny now ..... Awesome-
This literally made my day when I saw this in my ask box so erm I drew u smthing ^_^
IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE A QUICK DRAWING BUT IT CLEARLY DIDN'T END UP BEING THAT CUZ I SPENT 4 HOURS ON THIS . Anyways I hope u like it :3
Clyde is complaining abt his step mom Janice from the new special that I haven't seen yet- (I was gonna add like some sorta text or whatever but I'm bad at writing dialogue so just pretend it's there 😇)
#if I wake up tomorrow n I notice a mistake I don't see rn I will literally explode#south park#sp clenny#sp clyde#sp kenny#clyde donovan#kenny mccormick#clenny#clyde x kenny#artists on tumblr#digital art
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Watched WayV on joox live :3 (220104) (220208)
220104 Episode
I always knew Alexander as that guy who could speak a million languages (including Cantonese) from U-Kiss so it was cool seeing him get so excited about being able to speak different languages.
I didn't know anything about Ginny but her being like "我都係廣東人啊!" had me like YEAH!!!!!! Truly the Canto crowd today!!!!!! 4/6 of the people there can speak it.
And Xander being like "hehe our managers won't know what we're saying >3" No but he's so right
Omg but Xander bringing up Cantonese again like he is REALLY excited about people speaking Cantonese and like high key me too dude!!!!
Also Xander really switching between English, Cantonese, and Korean all chill. He's not the one who has to type subtitles anyway lol. Meanwhile Ginny is very professional keeping things in Korean :P
Dejun: I'd love to cover a Cantonese song but we don't have the copyright
林子祥 SUNBAENIM guys I'm crying X'D
DEJUN SANG 大哥 by 衛蘭 I'M GOING TO FUCKING DIE FROM HAPPINESS OMFG Janice Vidal was my favourite Cantonese singers ToT
I hope Yangyang and Qian Kun aren't feeling too left out ^^;;
WayV pets spotlight
Dejun doesn't mind Bella being clingy :3
Kun: I already know how to do so many things
Kun flex
Next level
Yangyang's outfit is cool btw :3
Qian Kun & Yangyang: 你識唔識講英文?
Kind of a flex but also I wonder if that was what Dejun was whispering into Yangyang's ear at the last minute XD
DEJUN DEADASS NAMED THREE NCT MEMBERS WRONG. I know he just got tongue tied though :P
Kun mentions both the Czennies and Wayshennies :3
Ten is unanimously the sexiest WayV
Xander asked for the point and Dejun was the go-to guy to demonstrate XD I don't know why but he fits that vibe :P Without Ten he is the representative for dance I guess :3
I know this is a lower budget show and Xander was like "guys can you get a shot of them again with the legs"
Omg Ten choreographed part of Miracle?????? Makes me love it even more now <3
When Yangyang said Kun was the cutest member and made him do cute poses at the camera and Xander was like "you're just teasing him." FINALLY someone stands up for this injustice XD
They had to pick the member who was coolest when angry and Kunyang pointed at Xiaojun and the little guy was just sitting like this while everyone laughed
Oh nooo Yangyang said that Dejun is cute when he's angry so it makes him want to mess with him TAT Dejun cannot live under this roof
OH RIGHT Kun's birthday is New Year's :3 It's nice that the show got him a cake :3
YEAH the Canto crew sang Kun the 福壽歌 (basically Cantonese Happy Birthday)
Xander so miffed that Yangyang was so good at English and didn't say anything because he did all the English heavy lifting for the day XD
Their final greetings still mentioned keeping safe during the pandemic, time really goes by so fast.
220208 Episode
On Kun's behalf Yangyang promised all Weishennies red pockets ^^;;
Hendery: 很大的煲
Except he said 很大的 in Mandarin and 煲 in Cantonese because he didn't know the Cantonese word for Cantonese and let me tell you, that is how a lot of Cantonese people speak Mandarin XD They just substitute Cantonese words in and hope people get it.
LMAO he was talking about 盤菜
Yangyang's pictures are pretty detailed, kudos :P
Ooh I actually didn't know Xiaojun played guitar :3 Hendery said he plays sad songs a lot
Kun's pictures of Yangyang were cute!!!!!!!! The way he wrote it as "Yangyang's day off" :3
Also the way Kun was like "Yangyang has a lot of clothes but HE GOES SHOPPING FOR MORE!!!!!"
Xiaojun's pretty and dense eyelashes in the spotlight :P
寫揮春!!
Kun explaining the arrangement in Turn Back Time :3
Xander keeps getting 99 team second guessing by being like "which version is it???"
Hendery finding the tiara after the wand and was like "哇, 這是one set 喔!" He was so excited about dressing Yangyang up as a princess.
Oh man I enjoyed this soooo much because like Xander, I was just so excited about seeing a bunch of Cantonese/Chinese speaking peeps together haha <3 <3 <3
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*janice ian from mean girls voice* 2020... how do I even being to explain 2020? quite a shit year but besties, y'all made it bearable! here's a lil thing I wanted to make to express my gratitude! i love you 💘💘💘
pick someone supportive gc
@larryiswhatilivefor if i start explaining how much love you and how thankful i am to you, we’re gonna be here for the rest of eternity. but i’m gonna try summing it up in a couple sentences. im so lucky to have you in my life??? u make my life so bright and light!!! i am always thinking about you, always wondering what you’re doing and if you’re smiling. i’m so fucking lucky to call u my soulmate, my louis to my harry, my jimin to my taehyung 🥺 i love you so so so much 💘 hopefully i can come visit you in 2021 and know what being in your arms feels like 💖 i love u
@chupahojadee hi mortal enemy 👅 wanna meet in the parking lot of McD, fight and make out afterwards? deeeeeee, I love you so much. you’re such a huge inspiration to me. you’re incredibly strong and you love people with such intensity, it makes me feel so safe. i never have to worry about any kind of judgement when talking to you. never afraid to make mistakes because i know i’ll always be loved. i love you so so much and so thankful to you. 💗💗💗
@sapphichalo helloooo baby!!!!! i miss you so much!! i miss ft’ing with you and chas soooo much. ugh i wish we weren’t so busy 😩 can’t wait to move to our island and be sapphic as hell and live happily ever after 💕💕 i love you so much!! hope you’re doing well and happy new year!!!!!!
@hotgirlhannibal hiiii (gayly) sab 🌸🌸🌸 i love seeing you on my dash so much! you’re so cool and funny ? iconic, me thinks 😎 it’s always comforting to see you on my dash! i hope you’re doing well and happy new year!!!! 💖💖💖
chas, olivia and tris!! ilysm you’re the loveliest angels 🍒 this gc is the best thing that ever happened to me. you’re my comfort, you’re my happiness, you’re my home. you’ve given me everything i’ve ever wanted. you made me realise how pure love can be. how loving can make one strong. you make me strong. i miss you all so so so much. you are the greatest loves of my life.
desi gays gc
@finelinedwalls oshiiiiiii we're besties bc of zayn and my stalking tendencies and I think it's beautiful!!!! the fact that we have so many shared interests between us!!!!! AHHHH!!!!! ultimate stan-brain-rot-besites <3 if not you, who would listen to me yell about hq!!!! about bts!!!! i love you so much and I'm manifesting a year of decolonization for both of us ✨✨✨ happy new year!!!! 💓💓💓
@alwayysyou hello aditi !!! ahh I'm so glad I hunted down your blog and sent you that text! you're so cool and fun and ahhh such a great person. it was really fun making that discord server with you even if none of us use it! we share a mutual love for organization and I stan you so hard for that!!! here's to hoping a fun filled 2021 where we make more memories together 💘 happy new year!!!! 💗💗💗
@amateurd18 amiiiiii hello!!!! ahhh I'm so glad you were able to join the mess that is desi gays! I'm so glad that we know each other!!!! you're so cool and so patient, ahh so much to learn from you 💓 I hope we can get to know each other better in 2021 and make more memories!!!! happy new year! 🥰🥰
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@everythingoes - taylor 🥺 my first supporter ever !!!! i was so shook when you rb'd my gifset and been constantly in awe of you since then! you're so cool and talented and so kind! i love your gifs so much and I miss you immensely!!! i hope you're doing great and that you have a lovely new year 💘💘💘 thank you for all the love !!!
@magicjin - al 😭😭😭 I can't even begin this without wanting to sob!!!! i love you SO much????? you're THE coolest person I've ever known! the artistry!!!! the kindness!!!! the person that you are????? I'm in awe and also a little bit (a lot, actually) in love with you. your edits... your gifs... the talent? unmatched. your love???? your kindness??? UNMATCHED. thank you jungkook bwl lover shirt 🙏🏼 I found one of my favourite people ever bc of that shirt !!!!! i absolutely love how bwl is our song. i love you so so so much 💗hope you have the nicest new year ✨✨✨
@bimbojoon - saraaaaa my fav desimyyyy <333 it's an honour to match urls and love joon with you!!!! i always try to find desi people on here and ahhh im so glad I found you!!! i love how easy it was to talk to you!!!! i love you so much!!! and I hope you have the bestest new year, a new year to make the love you have for joon bloom even brighter 💗💗💗💗
@userjiminie rafa!!!!!! bestie <3333 love you so much? i love that I found you and started talking you so quick! you're so fun to talk to! i love how we just ranted to each other about a dumb thing? that honestly bought me so much comfort! I'm so so so glad that I met you!!!! also your edits????? your gifs????? THEYRE SO STUNNING!!!! you're SO SO talented omg !!!!!! and so so cool !!! i have so much love for you!!! 💗💗💗 I wish you a lovely new year's ✨
@sugacutie - andy 🥺 how !!!! can !!! i !!! even !!! being !!! to !!! explain !!! how !!! fond !!! my !!! heart !!! gets !!! when !!! i !!! think !!! about !!! you!!! you're the sweetest person ever omg. thank you so much for hosting secret santa! it was so fun sending messages to my secret receiver (?) and ahhhh the fact that we just started talking about bts!!!!! ahhh you're so lovely and easy to talk to! thank you so much for the playlist! I'm gonna treasure it forever 💗 I hope you're doing well and hope you have a great new year's day!
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@citrusgal - saaaaammm!!!!! my fav citrus gal <33 we have no interests in common except for social justice and loving pretty things and yet we work!!!!! you're so cool and you're always doing something really sick! i love you 💕💕💕 I hope you have the bestest new year!!!!
treasured mutuals 💗
@jinglebellrock @larryissocute @himbojin @atomicqueer @anjalibutch @dnpbants @svpportive @harrysau @ignaciovarga @wolfmanmp3 @jhumkalesbian @vocaline @transberries @sleepwalk-living @namjooniex3 @jintae @soft-lou @h-isforhome @fightofthestars @dionysuswearsanorangetracksuit @haikyuuprettysettersquad @dnpbants
#hi ily <3#im sorry if you dont follow me here and are confused kfjf im also @himbojoon/@helioslouis#follow forever#some... thots
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Pulling Leaves Off Trees, Chapter 1: Been Through the Wringer a Couple Times (Multi) - Sportkuras
Summary:
c’est bon: damnnn
c’est bon: wait. jan isnt your apartment near shea’s
human girl: @jansport spill
Jan could feel her stomach drop as she looked at the message.
“Oh, goddamn it.”
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Or: The girls try to survive college, and everything else that comes with almost being an adult.
A/N: my first fic here on artificialqueens! i noticed that arent many college au’s and group chat fics of the s12 cast so i let myself be self-indulgent for once!! its unbeta’d so apologies lmao but you can talk to me here and you can find the ao3 link here! comment if you’d like!
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Jan started her morning like almost every college student in their third year would: to be woken up by their alarm after a night of heavy drinking. She woke up with a start and groaned as Chromatica II started blaring from her phone, blindly reaching for it on her nightstand and peering at the time.
Damn. One in the afternoon, huh?
“Thank god I don’t have class today.” The blonde muttered as she checked her notifications: 7 from Twitter, 3 from Insta, and 1 from their group chat. She sat up from her bed and scrolled through the chat, trying to quell her pounding headache.
Bon Voy
Members: jaidaessencehall, heidininacloset, jansport, jackiecox, gigigoode, crystalmethyd, britafilter, dahliasin, nickydoll, aidenzhane, and widowvondu
lebron essence ball: okay so
lebron essence ball: me and shea are at the library rn and she’s complaining to me abt how she couldnt sleep right
lebron essence ball: and chile….it was bc someone was getting RAILED last night lmaooo
lebron essence ball: she said, and i quote, “the bitch had such a good time even I’M jealous”
c’est bon: damnnn
c’est bon:wait. jan isnt your apartment near shea’s
human girl: @jansport spill
human girl: also
human girl: feels weird that we didn’t start this day with a good morning announcement from jan
c’est bon: the vibes were off 😞
Jan could feel her stomach drop as she looked at the message, “Oh, goddamn it.” She’s now acutely aware of their apartment door opening and Rock’s footsteps padding from outside her room, most likely just coming home from her class. She suddenly remembered exactly what happened last night; most especially memories of what happened between her and her roommate . Memories of them being drunk as hell, coming back to their apartment from god knows how many bars, going to Jan’s room giggling like teenagers on a sleepover and well. You know.
Jan checked her phone again.
lebron essence ball: jannette….would you happen to know who was the lucky gal? 👀
backpack backpack: good morning to you too gigi 🙄
human girl: *Afternoon, actually
human girl: Now spill! I know you know almost everyone on that floor.
She pinched the bridge of her nose. How in the hell was she gonna say that her and Rock got drunk and hooked up as casually as possible? She could lie, but Jaida, Brita and Widow could smell bullshit coming from a mile away, and she’s a horrible liar. They’d know she was bluffing.
Might as well get it over it. She let out a sigh as she typed out a message, hoping that it was only Jaida, Nicky and Gigi who were online.
backpack backpack: haha yeah so um
backpack backpack: that was me & rock actually
Even though no one could see her, Jan hid her face behind her hands, bracing for the worst. Several dings! had come from her phone as soon as she sent the message. Of course it wasn’t only Jaida, Nicky and Gigi who were online.
cox destroyers: Oh my god.
Jan’s eyes widened when she saw Jackie reply, although she’s not quite sure why she was panicking about Jackie knowing about her hook up with Rock in the first place. All she knows is that she’s gonna have to face Jackie (and everyone else, for that matter,) later.
sin city: ohhh bitch—
c’est bon: you and ROCK???
dom top: !!!
dom top: idk who Rock is but get it sister
backpack backpack: Thank you! Thank you, Heidi. It’s like you’re the only one who’s not acting weird right now.
c’est bon: lmao heidi
c’est bon: she’s jans roommate
human girl: Janice Elizabeth Sport.
von du for two: not this shit again i swear to god
tap water: Jan.
tap water: You know that I love you
tap water: BUT WILL YOU PLEASE STOP SLEEPING WITH YOUR ROOMMATES
Jan rolled her eyes at the messages, wanting the ‘news’ to be over as soon as possible. “And they say I’m the dramatic one.” She huffed as she quickly typed on her phone again.
backpack backpack: okay can y’all chill 🙄
backpack backpack: we just got drunk and slept together, that’s all.
backpack backpack: tell shea im sorry though xxxx @jaidaessencehall
lebron essence ball: bitch you know it ain’t about having a drunk hookup with someone
lebron essence ball: its about the fact that you banged your roommate AGAIN
backpack backpack: oh COME ON
backpack backpack: this was just the second time!!
backpack backpack: and lemon’s with priyanka now!!!
von du for two: girl you & lemon were fucking almost every week i can’t with u
von du for two: going at it like rabbits while we were outside your apartment getting ready to watch glee :/
tap water: and, frankly, i don’t want to come up to your apartment to run lines with you if i have to hear y’all fooling around. my good, christian ears have heard enough.
She felt her face heat up in embarrassment.
backpack backpack: oh my god can you guys please shut up!!!!
backpack backpack: it’s not gonna happen again bc it was a one time thing
backpack backpack: i promise
human girl: [dwayne the rock johnson voice] are you sure about that?
backpack backpack: yes georgina goode i am 100% sure
Jan bit her lip as she looked up at the door to her room. Okay, she’s not 100% sure, but not because she regretted it or anything. As much as her brain was allowing her to remember, last night was good. Great, even. But between auditions, college, and working in the café, her love life (or lack thereof) is on pause for now. Besides, it’s not like anyone has been actively pursuing her, or vice versa.
But it wouldn’t hurt to ask Rock, right?
Sighing in defeat, Jan quickly got up from her bed with her phone still in her hand (as much as her hangover allowed her), left her room and knocked on her roommates door, hoping that she wasn’t busy. She heard a faint “come in!” from the other side and opened the door softly.
“Hey, roomie.” She joked.
Rock looked up from her drawing tablet and slipped off the headphones from her ears. “Glad to see you’re finally awake, and here I thought you were a morning person.” Rock’s room was a mess of color and paraphernalia; while Jan’s was strictly purple, pop culture, and musical theater, hers was an array of figurines and albums on the shelves, kpop & anime posters tacked on the wall behind her bed reaching up to the ceiling, and a somewhat decent gaming setup in the corner of her room. Crystal and Nicky would be proud.
Jan rolled her eyes, “Yeah, well, last night was something,” She slightly cleared her throat at the mention of last night. “Also, about last night…”
Rock raised her brow, “Go on?”
“It was a one time thing, right?” Jan furrowed her brows in question, “I mean, last night was amazing , as much my brain is allowing me to remember. And you’re hot, so, I’m not complaining. Really dig the anime e-girl vibe, and I’m sure anyone would tap that ass! I mean, I did, but I’m just—”
“—Not looking for anything right now?” Rock cut her off, saving Jan from turning into a hungover, rambling mess.
She let out a sigh of relief, sitting on her roommates bed and putting her phone down, “Yeah, doll. Just been really busy right now, y’know? 3rd year isn’t a joke.”
The pink-haired girl let out a snort, “Oh, I know the feeling. And don’t worry, I wasn’t looking for anything either, and while last night was fun,” She looked at her pointedly, and Jan was calm enough to actually smirk at the incident between the two, “I’d much rather have you as my friend than as my fuck buddy, because you are loud , girl!”
Jan shrieked at that, “Oh my god, shut up!” She threw a pillow at Rock’s head while the girl let out a cackle, “My friends were on my ass about that too, some friends they are.”
“Wait, you told your friends about that? Aren’t you friends with Nicky?”
Jan huffed, “Mama, more like I was forced to tell them. Jaida’s friend, Shea—whose apartment is next to ours, by the way—was complaining to her about how she couldn’t sleep last night because of, um, my tendency to be vocal.”
“You’re welcome, by the way.”
“Rotted bitch!” Jan threw another pillow at Rock, this time missing because the girl was doubled over in laughter, “I can’t believe you! The disrespect, really. I shouldn’t be taking this from you, I still have a shift to do at 3.”
“But you took it from me real good last night, so,” this time Rock shielded her face as Jan threw pillow after pillow at her, trying to speak through her laughter, “Okay, okay! I give, I give! I’m sorry, mom!”
“Bitch! I can be a top if I want to!” Jan exclaimed in mock offense. As their laughter subsided, the blonde suddenly had an idea, “Oh! What if I invite you over for dinner?”
Rock smirked, “One: we’re roommates. It’s not really inviting me to dinner if we eat in the same room. And two: I thought you said you weren’t looking for anything?”
“I mean dinner with my friends, gorg. All 11 of us eat together at least once a week, this time we’re gonna crash at Heidi, Jaida and Brita’s. Maybe you wanna come and meet them? I know you and Nicky know each other somehow, so it wouldn’t be too awkward, right?”
“Introducing me to the family already? Ain’t that a bit too early for you, Ms. Sport?”
“More like introducing you to a bunch of kindergartners,” Jan muttered as she checked her phone for any new notifications, “But yeah, I want them to know you as my roommate and friend , not as my roommate who I slept with.”
Bon Voy
dom top: okay so jans sex life aside
dom top: y’all are still coming over tonight?
sin city: yes girl!! college sucks ass sm i need to eat my feelings
c’est bon: wouldn’t miss it for the world mon ami xoxo
cox destroyer: I’m gonna be a little late! I just have to return and borrow some stuff in the library.
human girl: can we please order pizza hut <3
lebron essence hall: no <3
von du for two: we are going to order dominoes like civilized people
human girl: ugh fine, all of you have 0 taste
human girl: crys said yes btw she just has class right now
tap water: aiden said she’s gonna come too, she just can’t message the chat bc she’s still in her shift
Jan grinned at Brita’s message, finally getting the chance to steer the conversation away from her.
backpack backpack: So if she can’t message the chat because of her shift, why’s she messaging you, miss brittany filter?? 👀
Jan can feel Brita’s eye roll from miles away.
tap water: She speaks!
tap water: And don’t act like this conversation isn’t over, Miss Janice Sport. You have a lot of explaining to do.
“So, are ya gonna introduce me as your forbidden, but passionate lover? Whose romance was short-lived, yet wild, fiery and unforgettable?”
Now it was Jan’s turn to let out a cackle as she left Rock’s room, “More like my chaotic mess of a roommate who farted herself awake!”
This time it was Rock’s turn to gasp in offense, “That was one time and you fucking know it! And my answer is yes, by the way!”
Jan sent a message to the chat before grabbing her towel and putting her phone away to take a shower.
backpack backpack: oh btw i’m inviting rock to hang out with us!!! I promise she’s super fun and that we’re just roommates and see y’all soon please dont kill me or make it awkward with rock xxxx
tap water: are you
tap water: kidding me.
von du for two: oh for the love of GOD
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#rpdr fanfiction#sportkuras#pulling leaves off trees#jankie#crygi#jaida x nicky#heidi x rock#aiden x brita#jan x rock#group fic#lesbian au#group chat fic#college au#rare pair#s12#jan sport#jackie cox#gigi goode#crystal methyd#nicky doll#jaida essence hall#heidi n closet#rock m sakura#brita filter#widow von du#aiden zhane#dahlia sin
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And The Winner Is...
So I was hella bummed to miss HIV/AIDS Awareness Day... So I wrote this for National HIV/AIDS Testing Day but I feel like it can emcompass both
anyways happy National HIV/AIDS Testing Day! If you’re sexually active y’all better go get tested! 😜
This is being posted to both my main and nsfs blogs because all of us nsfs content creators are guilty of (more often than not) creating content that doesn’t portray safe sex, which is the only way to prevent STDs and AIDS. For all my followers out there, please use condoms when engaging in sexual activity and if you don’t want to get pregnant, use some form of contraceptive as well. Stay safe. Love you guys <3
Please reblog the version with links
Fandom: Sanders’ Sides
Pairing: Loceit
Words: 2,899
Summary: Janus has been in the epicenter of the AIDS pandemic since it began. He’s seen more death, felt more loss, and heard more pain than any human should just within the last seven years. He’d all but given up on family, friends, forming bonds of any kind, because he knew they would just be taken away from him.
Until he met Logan Abbott.
Tags/Warnings: death, character death, HIV/AIDS, takes place in the 80s, specifically ‘87-’89, mentions of ballroom culture, descriptions of illness, descriptions of delirium/fever, descriptions of unintentional minor starvation, this is not a cheery fic guys just keep that in mind and be careful
December, 1987
“Number 37?”
Silence.
“Number 37.”
People glancing around. Logan nudges Janus. “Janus, that’s you.”
Janus startles slightly when Logan nudges him, blinking. He’d been completely zoned out, staring at the white wall opposite their chairs. “Ah, yes. Right. Thank you, I’ll be back in a moment.” He stands up, meeting the nurse’s kind smile with a blank look and following her back to the doctor’s office.
Janus shuts the door behind him, the click of the deadlatch nearly deafening in the silence. He takes a seat across from the doctor in a stiff polyester chair, shifting his weight nervously and crossing one leg over the other. Janus folds his hands in front of him and gives a slight nod.
The doctor smiles at him, opening up his file and looking over a page as she speaks. “So, are you ready to hear the results of your test?” She looks up, one of her eyebrows slightly raised.
All he can manage is a nod, his heart hammering in his chest. Please let it be negative, please let it be negative, it has to be negative.
“You tested positive, Janus. I’m sorry.”
Janus sits in numb silence for a moment, his mind screeching to a halt, the sound of his racing heart unheard past the ringing in his ears. Positive. He had HIV.
“Run the test again.”
He doesn’t even realize he spoke until the doctor is replying, a sympathetic frown pulling at her lips. “We’ve run the test twice. I’m sorry, but that’s the result.” He shakes his head, looking at her with wide, frantic eyes.
“I can’t have HIV, I can’t die! Not yet!”
The doctor raises her hands in an effort to placate him. “Janus, you aren’t going to die. This doesn’t have to be a death sentence. There are options; treatments, support groups. There’s AZT. You don’t need to fight this forever, you just need to fight until a cure is found-”
Janus jumps to his feet, pushing the chair back. “What cure?! No one is looking! The world wants us dead!” He’s bordering on hysterical; shouting, trembling with his racing heartbeat, tears streaming down his face. He wasn’t an idiot. Doctors may promise help and support and solutions but the facts were that no one cared enough to even look for a cure and the only worthwhile treatment killed as many people as it helped. He’d seen the effects of AZT, seen how it can make your body shut down. He was just as well off not doing anything, in his mind.
His doctor sighs, lowering her hands. “I understand that this is hard to accept. I’ll give you a moment to yourself, I’ll be right outside if you need me.” She walks past Janus and shuts the door quietly behind her, leaving him in silence.
It lasts for all of ten seconds before he’s falling back into his chair and hiding his face in his hands as sobs wracked his body. In the span of thirty seconds his entire life had been thrown up in the air, all plans for the future shrouded in a veil of futile hope that he’d even live long enough to see them happen.
The virus had swept through the gay community like the final plague of Egypt, claiming countless lives in the last seven years and looming over thousands more. It had become apparent very quickly that there would be no help. Not from the president, or any governors; no one. Hospital staff would do their best, but even they could only do so much and due to lack of knowledge many of them were afraid to get too close to those on the downslide, afraid of catching the virus themselves. It was the kind of plague that left even the most healthy man riddled with anxiety. It was the kind of plague that didn’t care about sex, race, gender, religion; it only cared about spreading death.
It was the one thing in this world Janus was afraid of.
Janus had been only nineteen when the pandemic began. He remembered hearing of it through rumor, how so-and-so’s brother/cousin/son had become mysteriously ill, only to die months later. He remembered when it was no longer a rumor and people in his own backyard began to drop like flies. He remembered friends locking themselves away, ending relationships, never leaving the house in fear of catching it. He remembered moments of silence in ballroom and the absence of it on the television. He remembered the first house he had joined and the exact number of days it took for him to be the only one left standing. He remembered burying friends, brothers, sisters, mothers.
And now Logan would have to bury him.
Oh god, Logan. How could he tell him? He knew the pain of watching the man you love withering to nothing before your eyes while no one offered help. Now that he was on the other side, though, nothing terrified him more than Logan not being there, being left alone to rot in a hospital bed while this virus stole his life from him. But Janus was not a cruel man.
He had to tell him. He had to give him a choice.
Janus took another moment to collect himself, wipe the tears from his face, and stood. He left the doctor’s office without a word and made his way back to the hall Logan was waiting in like countless others from their community. The way Logan straightened up and looked up at him with hopeful eyes when Janus finally turned the corner crushed his heart in his chest. This may be the last time that he gets to see that face, hold those hands, kiss those lips.
He walks up to Logan, who’s stood up to meet him with an expectant look. “Well? What’d she say, Janus?”
Janus takes Logan’s hand in his, squeezing it gently. Logan’s expression morphs into one of pain and sadness.
“I’m positive.”
“Janus…”
Janus takes a breath through his nose and lets go of Logan’s hand. “I’ve been on your side of this too many times to ask that you stay in good conscience. If you… If it’s easier for you to leave, to move on now before things get bad… I understand.”
“Ten, ten, ten, ten, ten! The winner is Janus from the House of Fidelity!”
Janus Jackson was twenty-three when he met Logan Abbott. By then he had buried half of his house and five boyfriends, and had decided life would be more tolerable if he stopped forming close bonds with other people. Despite this self-declaration, anyone you asked would claim that Janus was an open, kind, charismatic young man. He could make the terminal men laugh, gossip with the most effeminate queens, and trade beauty tips with all the trans women without making anyone feel awkward, out of place, or invalidated. No one knew his whole story, but everyone loved to fill in the blanks. This was just as well, in Janus’ mind, as it made it nearly impossible to tell which parts were fictional gossip and which were the sad tale of his life.
Logan was a twenty year-old nobody from out of state. He’d moved to the city for a change of scenery, or so he claimed to anyone who would ask. Janus could tell there was more to it though, and had he cared at all about making friends he might have pried. He assumed Logan came out and got shamed by his community, as was the story for many of the people in the ballroom scene. It was their home, their refuge where they could be themselves when the world told them they were a mistake, a disease, a cancer. Logan had taken quickly to the ballroom scene, finding like-minded people to watch the night’s categories with.
Logan blinks, his eyebrows furrowed and lips slightly parted. “I… Janus, I would never leave you just because you have the virus. You mean more to me than that. I love you.”
Janus sighs, relief and sadness washing over him; he was thankful he had met Logan, that he wouldn’t have to go through this alone, but the guilt of putting Logan through the same pain he’d gone through would weigh him down until his dying breath.
“I love you, too.”
At some point during the night, be it during a category Janus was participating in or just idle chit-chat, someone had pointed Logan his way. Janus swore he would find out who it was and make them suffer, but for the moment he had to uphold his reputation and make Logan feel welcome. Logan had come wandering over like a little lost lamb, taking the chair next to Janus tentatively and glancing at him.
“Are you… Janice?”
Oh, this bitch.
Janus rolls his eyes. “Janus.”
Logan blinks. “That is what I said.”
“You said Janice. My name is Janus. J-A-N-U-S. I can hear the difference.”
Logan looks at his lap. “I see. I apologize. Though admittedly I feel a little better not having had the chance to accidentally misgender you.” He casts a glance around the room; gay men, a few lesbians, trans women - some more obvious than others - and those you couldn’t label at first glance.
Janus snrks. “Oh honey. You better watch those comments before you offend the wrong people. This isn’t the suburbs, where you can gossip and slander behind closed doors.” He sighs through his nose, crossing one leg over the other as he gives Logan a once-over. “But I can’t fault you for not knowing. Yet. What is your name, pup?”
“Logan,” he says, just loud enough over the emcee to be heard. Janus leans in with a soft smirk.
“Well Logan, after the ball you’ll be coming to my house and talking to mother. We can’t have a cute thing like you living on the streets.”
Logan blushes and nods, and the two turn their attentions to the next category being walked.
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In the spring of ‘88, Janus got a bad flu. Janus and Logan had just buried their house mother the week before, leaving the two of them and Roman - their newest and youngest house member, a gay Latino boy who was barely older than eighteen - in their house. Roman had been debating leaving to join another house, but his loyalty to Janus as an older brother-now-house-father (oh, the irony) kept him in that dingy apartment. Roman and Logan did their best to look after Janus, checking his temperature every few hours, feeding him soup and helping him drink water, helping him bathe when he was too weak to stand on his own. The flu lasted nearly a week before his fever finally broke. Once it did, Logan was hopeful that Janus would recover quickly, but he never fully did.
As the months went by, Janus seemed to have less and less energy. By the beginning of fall his diagnosis had been moved from HIV to AIDS, and he had stopped walking the balls. If he was having a particularly good day, he would still show up and show support for friends in other houses. Roman had even walked a category on one of Janus’ good days to cheer him up, earning the House of Fidelity their first trophy in almost a year. Janus had cried when Logan wheeled him down the runway to accept the trophy at Roman’s insistence.
The days began to grow colder and Janus never left the apartment. If he even got a cold, he could die, so he and Logan decided it would be better, safer, to stay indoors with the heat on. It didn’t last too long; November rolled around and Janus was admitted to the hospital with an infection. He couldn’t sleep, had trouble breathing, and would only eat if Logan was there to make him. No one thought he would live to see Christmas. Even after his infection cleared, Janus stayed in the AIDS ward with the other men who were too sick to leave. The place smelled of chemicals, with a backdrop of hacking coughs, desperate prayers, and crying. He hated it there, but Roman and Logan made sure to visit as often as they could to keep him company.
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On Thanksgiving, Logan walked into Janus’ room to find him gripping the pole of his IV stand, walking the length of his room like it was a runway. His eyes were unfocused, swinging his arms around in a delirious attempt at vogueing. Logan carefully approached Janus, gently guiding him back to bed, his heart beating anxiously in his chest. Janus sat on the edge of the mattress and looked up at Logan with a soft smile.
“What are my scores, baby?” He asked airily. Logan swallowed, his eyes burning with tears.
“Tens across the board, my love.”
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“Everyone misses you in ballroom, dad. Every night I got people comin’ up to me and telling me they hope you’re doin’ okay.”
Janus gives Roman a small smile, patting the teen’s knee as he sits before him on the bed. “And what do you tell them, Roman?”
Roman grins. “I tell them my dad’s the strongest guy there is! Just watch, spring’s gonna come and you’re gonna get better, I just know it.”
“I’d love to see the looks on their faces when I walk into the room like nothing happened.”
Logan smiles, running his fingers through Janus’ matted hair. “I’m sure you will, love. You just need to rest up.”
“Rest up later, it’s Christmas!” Roman shouts, bouncing a little. Janus chuckles.
“Yes, yes it is. Logan, did you bring the packages I told you about?” Logan nods and hands Janus two sloppily-wrapped presents. Janus hands the blue one to Logan, and the red one to Roman. “Merry Christmas, you two.”
Roman grins and snatches the present out of Janus’ hand, ripping the paper off. “Oh, bitchin’! Thanks, dad!” Roman holds up the leather jacket to inspect it, showing it off to Logan. Logan nods in amusement, watching Roman put the jacket on before he carefully unwraps his own present. He gasps as he looks down at the picture of him and Janus laughing together as they sit next to each other, Janus’ hand on Logan’s knee.
“Just in case. Don’t want you forgetting how hot I am,” Janus jokes lightly. Logan looks at him with teary eyes and takes his hand, squeezing gently.
“Never.”
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“I’m sorry, I’m s-sorry, Logan,” Janus sobs, his body shaking as tears make their way down bony cheeks.
Logan shakes his head, taking Janus’ hands and looking him in the eye. “You have nothing to apologize for, my love.”
“I-I didn’t want to d-die alone, I’m sorry, I’m s-so selfish.”
“You couldn’t have gotten rid of me if you’d tried.”
The pair sit in silence for a moment, Logan rubbing Janus’ knuckles as Janus cries. It was one of those days where a fever made Janus overemotional. Sometimes he thought it was still 1987, and when he realized it was almost 1989 he would lay there and cry, apologizing for trapping Logan with him. It was the same conversation every time.
“I don’t w-want to die.”
“You won’t die, my heart, not for a long time.”
“I should h-have taken the AZT, I should have tried e-everything I could.”
“You said so yourself, there is a significant chance that taking AZT would have shortened your lifespan even more. I’m thankful that we’ve had this time together, I wouldn’t want to change a thing.”
“I-I’m so sorry.”
“... I know.”
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Janus Jackson passed away on January 2nd, 1989, just twenty minutes after his boyfriend Logan had left the hospital. He’d passed away in his sleep, having been well looked-after and held in the arms of the one he loved until he drifted off. The funeral was a week later, and something told Logan that he would need to find a big space to hold it in. True to thought, the day of the funeral the entire church was full of people coming to say goodbye to Janus and celebrate his life, drawing a crowd so big that it spilled out the front doors. No one had known that Janus was religious. No one except Logan.
Logan tested positive for HIV just two months later. He’d sat in the doctor’s office in contemplative silence, nodded, and thanked them before leaving the room. That day, he’d walked the streets of Brooklyn and thought about his time with Janus; all the laughter, the excitement, and the tears. The one thing that kept coming back to mind was all the nights he would sit by Janus’ side in that hospital bed, listening to him cry and apologize, listening to his regrets. Logan returned to the doctor the next day and got a prescription for AZT.
Logan Abbott lived to the age of fifty-four. He had a small number of boyfriends in his life, a few after Janus’ passing, and had buried almost all of them. Shortly after testing positive he had joined ACT UP, leaving behind the balls that Janus loved so dearly to instead fight for his community’s life. When he finally passed on a cool spring day in his own home, Janus’ gift in his hands, he found he had no regrets, looking forward to seeing Janus once again.
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Stay Near, Keep Close: Part 3
By Ms. Auggie
Pairing: Mel/Janice, Xena/Gabrielle
Rating: Mature
Synopsis: Something terrible happens on a dig in Turkey that has Mel and Janice running for their lives. Through separation, war, and death, they manage to find each other.
CHAPTER 21
The large man with the gun pushed Mel and Janice into the compartment. Roebuck followed and closed the door. He drew the small curtain in front of the window.
Janice looked at Mel, her eyes told Mel to keep calm. Roebuck looked furious. Finally he spoke to Janice.
"I told them. I told them you couldn’t be trusted and here you are, with her." He walked over and addressed Mel. "It makes sense now, why you were snooping around the museum. But how stupid could you be, meeting Covington on the train. For what, for, for…" he looked at them both disgustedly. "What a waste," he said looking at Mel. "I’m glad I insisted that we have someone follow you Covington." He looked over at George.
Janice was confused. Roebuck knew Mel? She had been at the museum? She stared at Mel, who now realized the little man from the British Museum was Janice’s Nazi contact.
"Let’s see who you are." He opened Mel’s small purse and took out her papers.
"Melinda Pappas Bruhn, married to Adam Bruhn,"
Janice’s eyes widened. Mel shot her a quick ‘don’t ask’ look. ‘Jesus,’ thought Janice. ‘What the hell is happening here? Mel’s left out a few pertinent details.’ Janice thought Mel’s marriage must be part of her cover, at least she hoped. Had to be, right?
"Does your husband know you play both ways? What a waste," he said once more.
Janice had enough. "Shut your mouth, Roebuck."
"Aah, the spurned lover. You are a failure as a spy and as a woman Covington." Janice saw red and lunged at Roebuck, but before she could touch him, the large silent man with he gun stepped in front of her and slammed his fist into her jaw. Janice collapsed in a heap, unconscious.
"JANICE!"
Mel fell to her knees and cradled Janice in her arms.
"Stay away from her!"
"George, behave yourself." The large man stepped back. "Relax Mrs. Bruhn. I won’t hurt you, but I’m not sure what to do. My guess is that my friends still want Covington to help them, but now as a prisoner and not as a comrade. But what to do with you?" He tapped his index finger on his chin.
Mel knew she had to stay with Janice, it would be her only chance to save her because she knew that they would kill her the moment she finished the job, whatever it was.
"I can help you too."
Roebuck assumed Mel knew Janice’s plan. "That’s right, you do know Sumerian."
Mel played along. "I know it better than Janice," which wasn’t that far from the truth. Janice knew the language, but Mel had an uncanny sense of syntax, and had a way of piecing words together that Janice lacked. Together they could understand just about any of the ancient languages. Mel had an idea.
"She doesn’t like to admit it," Mel said looking down at Janice, "but together we’re the best translating team in the world. She didn’t want me to come, but I insisted. You’d be a fool not to bring me along."
Roebuck thought about it, she was probably right. "I don’t see why not, since she’ll be a lot easier to handle if she knows we’d kill you in an instant. We’ll see when we get to Ipswich. George stay here with them. I’m going to finish my drink." He hated even looking at the women.
He left and the silent George sat by the door. He took out a penny paperback and started to read. Janice slowly came around. Her jaw hurt, she could feel a bruise beginning to rise, and she felt Mel’s arms around her.
"Mel, help me get up."
Mel grabbed Janice under her arms and pulled her to her feet. George got up and looked at the women.
"Don’t worry," Mel said. "We won’t cause any trouble. We’ll sit here and be quiet." Janice glared at the big man and then felt Mel pull her to the seat. "Sit down Janice."
Janice finally turned her attention to Mel. This was bad.
"Well Janice, they know about our plan," Mel said getting Janice’s attention and conveying to her that she was now involved. "I guess I am coming with you to Berlin." Janice was shocked.
"Quiet. No talking." George had a low rumbling voice with a slight European accent. He was probably a German masquerading as a Brit.
Janice glared at Mel. Mel had somehow got tangled up in this mess. This was not good.
CHAPTER 22
The foursome arrived in Ipswich and got into a waiting sedan. The women hadn’t been able to speak to one another, which made Janice very nervous. Mel must have said something to Roebuck when she was unconscious to convince him she was working with Janice.
The group arrived at a riverside cottage in a deserted forest. Janice knew they were near the English Channel and suspected they were going to rendezvous with a U-boat somewhere in the Channel and head to Germany.
Mel and Janice were hauled into the back room of the cottage. It was full of summer furniture and games, this was obviously a family retreat that had been closed up for the fall.
George took out some rope and tied the women’s hands and feet together behind their backs and then pulled out some cloth and tied gags around their mouths. Roebuck entered the room.
"Well, my friends want both of you, so you’ll stay here until we’re ready to go." Both men left the room and locked the door.
Finally, Mel and Janice looked at each other. The fear and love they were both feeling shone in their eyes. Janice was on her knees and scuttled over to Mel. When she reached the taller woman, she simply put her head against her shoulder. Mel brought her head down and rubbed her cheek against the top of Janice’s head. They couldn’t speak, but they both felt the connection. Whatever happened, they would see it through together.
Later that night the tied women and two men rowed out to a boat in the middle of the river. From there they made their way into the channel. Suddenly, a single light blinked and within a minute a U-boat emerged out of the water. Janice was amazed. She had never seen one before, but knew they were the German military’s pride and joy.
The women were hauled onto the wet metallic surface and dragged into the cigar-shaped ship. Janice looked at Mel, whose eyes had glazed over. She was scared, and Janice wished she could hold her, comfort her, just like she had done in Turkey. Mel saw Janice look at her and her courage returned. She shook off her fear and her eyes smiled at Janice. Janice winked at her.
The claustrophobic ship was full of German-speaking men who inched by one another. There was so little room in the ship, and the blonde, bearded men looked so large in the small space. The captain said something to George in German, and he answered in perfect German. Janice was right, he was a German spy. Roebuck looked bored by the whole proceedings. Janice and Mel were taken to a small supply room and tossed in. The metal door clanged shut.
Janice felt the ship begin to dive. She looked at Mel, who had landed in an awkward position with her face against the floor. Janice scuttled over to help her. She saw Mel was rubbing her face against the floor. Janice was worried she was hurt until she saw Mel was rubbing the gag in her mouth against a nail that stuck out from the floor. She was loosening the gag. After a few minutes it had become loose enough for her to push it out with her tongue.
"Thank God!" she whispered loudly.
She looked at Janice, whose eyes shone with pride. Mel moved up to her, "Here, let me help," but before she did anything she kissed the scar on Janice’s forehead. It was the cut she had received on the Turkish ship.
"I meant to do that before, but forgot. I’ve been worried about that cut." Janice rolled her eyes back. ‘God, I can’t believe it, she’s worried about a stupid cut,’ thought Janice. ‘We’re on a U-boat on our way to Germany and she’s worried about an old cut.’
"Don’t roll you eyes at me Janice Covington. I just wanted to make sure you were okay. Now, how can I get this gag off." She lowered her mouth to Janice’s and pulled the gag with her teeth, but the knot at the back of Janice’s head was tight and didn’t give.
She kept tugging, moving her lips and teeth to different parts of the gag, and although she was trying to help, she found herself getting distracted. That wonderful ache in her groin returned and her breathing grew shallow. Her lips brushed against Janice’s face and mouth, until they stopped at Janice’s lower lip. Her lips started to suck on the exposed bottom lip, and her teeth playfully nipped and pulled. This was suppose to be a rescue and it was turning into a seduction. Mel couldn’t help herself.
Janice started to moan. She had tried to stay focused, but the lip sucking drove her crazy. She pushed her tongue at the gag, trying to get to Mel’s lips. Janice couldn’t believe how much she needed to kiss those lips. This was worse than any torture the Nazi’s could come up with. Her moans turned into growls, which excited Mel even more. Finally, Mel’s teeth pulled the gag enough to loosen the knot, and Janice pushed it out of her mouth.
Their lips, tongues and teeth crashed together in a deep, wet kiss. It was messy and hot and the women made groaning, grunting noises. Mel pushed her body into Janice, but was out of control and ended up falling on top of the smaller woman.
‘Ow, oowww." Janice’s tied wrists were bent out of position and trapped under both of their bodies.
Mel rolled off her, and the women lay side by side.
"I’m sorry Janice! Are you all right?" she panted her concern and Janice looked at her flushed face.
"I’m fine." She rolled her wrists into a more natural position. Her breathing was shallow and her face was also flushed. "We’ve got to stop this. I mean it Mel! Jesus."
"I know. I know." She couldn’t help but grin and couldn’t believe what was happening. She was a prisoner and on her way to Germany and all she could think about was making out with Janice.
Janice was trying to be stern, but she started to smile. She knew they were both overcome by the whole mess. "Listen, we’ve got to talk. Firstly, what did you tell Roebuck, and, more importantly, why wasn’t I invited to the wedding?" Janice’s eyes sparkled and Mel’s grin widened.
"I lost your address."
"I’m devastated."
"Sorry, it was to help get out of Denmark and make life easier when I got to England."
"Okay, we’ve got some time, so lets go over everything, and this time don’t leave anything out."
"That goes double for you Janice."
The women talked. It had been weeks since they heard each other’s voice and they both soaked in the other’s soft tones. Mel told Janice about being in the water, Dr. Bruhn, Matilda and Karen. She told her about Sumner’s help, the navy’s denials, her meeting with Roebuck and she told Janice how much she missed her.
Janice told Mel about the lifeboat, hitting Captain Henderson, Bishop, Bertinelli, her training and the plan, including the fact they were looking for The Sumerian Treasure. She told her she had almost lost hope and she told Mel how much she loved her.
CHAPTER 23
Mel and Janice stepped onto German soil. Their legs had been untied, but their hands and mouths had been retied (George grumbled in German when he first saw the women had managed to loosen their gags aboard the U-boat).
Mel now knew all about their task at hand. They were to study an ancient artifact that the Nazis believed would lead them to the Sumerian Treasure. The Treasure was only a myth to scholars, it had been referred to in ancient texts, but there was no proof that it actually existed.
The Germans had no way of knowing that Janice and Mel were the only two people alive who knew that it was in fact real, as they had read Gabrielle’s account of her and Xena’s discovery of the riches in one of the scrolls. In fact, they finished reading about it a few hours before Jack Kleinman motored off with their precious cargo. Mel still had to calm Janice down when she remembered the mix-up that had cost her the scrolls.
They were in a position to help the Nazis, but of course they wouldn’t. They both remembered that the scroll also referred to ambrosia, and that Xena had disposed of the food of the gods, but if by chance there was still some ambrosia left with the treasure than the Nazis…well, it was too much for either woman to consider. They vowed they would die before leading the Germans to the treasure.
They decided the best plan was to lead them astray, send them looking somewhere else, buying them enough time to escape and find the American spy in Berlin who would help them get out of Germany. Just as there were German spies in London, there were American and British spies in Berlin, and Bertinelli had given Janice the transistor code that she could use to send a signal and arrange a meeting with one of them. But it was all iffy, dicey, and both women knew they had to implicitly trust one another and be flexible if they were going to get out of this alive.
Their resolve was put to the test when they arrived in Berlin.
The women were lead to a large gray building in the heart of Berlin. In the car on their way through the dark, war-torn city, Janice tested her knowledge of the city’s layout, which she had memorized before leaving for England. She was relieved that she remembered everything, recognizing streets and how they fit together with other streets, and she knew she could negotiate her way through the city.
Mel studied Janice. She could see the blonde woman thinking, preparing and Mel felt useless. Once again she depended on Janice to lead the way and Mel wished she had something to offer Janice in the way of help. As usual, Mel undervalued her courage and resolve, just as much as Janice believed she wilted under pressure. Each woman underestimated herself, but together they knew their strength.
George led Roebuck, Janice and Mel to a second story office. Roebuck had been silent on the trip through Germany. He was no longer on home turf and his superior air had disappeared, replaced with trepidation, and he became more of a bystander than participant. Janice enjoyed his unease and thought she could use it to their advantage.
The women were pushed into two chairs and their hands and mouths were untied. Both women flexed their hands and moved their jaws. They knew better than to speak, since George would undoubtedly shut them up, as was evident in the bruise that shone from Janice’s jaw.
As they stretched, a good-looking man in his 40s stepped into the office. He wore the black uniform of a SS Officer and Janice felt her heart rate increase. She had heard stories about how cruel these soldiers could be, and she feared for both her and Mel.
Mel noticed the man had pale gray eyes and a thin mustache that matched the color of his blonde hair. He was of medium-build, and extremely good-looking. He sat behind the desk and looked at the odd foursome in front of him.
"Dr. Roebuck, so glad you could return," he spoke excellent English. "My wife will be looking forward to your presence at dinner tonight."
Roebuck bowed his head slightly. The officer looked at George and spoke quickly and politely to the large man in German. George also bowed his head.
He turned his attention to the women in front of him.
"Well, here we are. I’m Colonel Langer. You must be Dr. Covington and you must be Mrs. Bruhn," he said correctly identifying the two women. Janice hated those words, Mrs. Bruhn, they irked her and brought her latent jealousy swimming to the surface. Just the idea that Mel belonged to someone, a man, made her crazy.
"It’s not often a pair of Allied spies make it into the heart of Berlin. You should consider yourselves lucky, or unlucky depending on your point of view. However you are here, alive, because you say you can help us find the Sumerian Treasure."
There was a pause and both women nodded, afraid to speak out of turn.
"We’ll see. I’m willing to make this interesting for you both, since you must know we plan to kill you after you give us the information, and that means you might not be so willing to part with that information. But, as an incentive, I will spare your lives if you uncover the location of the treasure. You will be put in prison, but you won’t be killed. I think that’s fair, don’t you?" He grinned widely.
Janice recognized a sadist the moment she saw one. This was a game to him, he was enjoying it and Janice knew the game would only get rougher with him involved. She resolved to get them out of this as fast as possible.
When the women didn’t answer he continued.
"It’s late. You can start work with our scholar in the morning." He looked at George. "Take them to their cells." George came up behind them as they stood to leave. "Except you Mrs. Bruhn, you stay."
Janice’s head snapped back to face Langer. He slowly smiled at her. She could honestly say this was the first time she felt dread since this god-awful adventure began. She turned to look at Mel, whose fear showed in her eyes. She wanted to touch her hand, tell her it was going to be okay, but knew Langer was waiting for some show of physical affection. No doubt Roebuck had told him she was a lesbian and Mel was her lover. He was testing her, seeing if she’d give away their relationship and he was using Mel to do it. He was a bastard. Janice’s eyes met Mel’s. She sent her love through her eyes as she was led out of the office.
Mel was scared. This good-looking, charming man was what her daddy called the ‘devil disguised as a snake oil salesman,’ meaning no matter how bad you thought he was, he was worse. She knew Janice was scared for her, and she took a deep breath and promised she’d stay strong for her.
"Mrs. Bruhn, please sit down."
Mel sat.
"I just wanted to tell you your addition to the team is most welcome," his teeth gleamed as he smiled. "I’m curious how you came to know a woman like Dr. Covington."
"We’re partners, through my late father."
He got up from behind the desk and perched himself on the corner of the desk, his feet dangling in the air a few feet from Mel’s knees. "My you are pretty. Please?" he motioned with his hand to her hair. She froze. He stood and moved his hand behind her head and undid the bun holding her long hair up. He then ran his fingers through it and shook it out over her shoulders. He thought her dark looks, blue eyes, wide cheekbones indicated Slavic heritage and he believed she could perhaps be part Jewess. He intended to taste from this forbidden fruit.
Mel was too frightened to resist. This felt like a game, and she knew he was toying with her. He looked at her again and slowly took off her glasses and played with them in his hands.
"My God, you are beautiful." He simply stared at her. "I hope your husband appreciates you. Tell me, does he join in with you and Dr. Covington…I mean in your work?"
Mel didn’t answer.
"You can go Mrs. Bruhn." Mel got up to leave but then stopped. He had her glasses. She turned and he came up to her and put the glasses on for her, gently brushing back her hair. "We’ll have dinner together tomorrow night, alone."
"What about your wife," she sneered. She hadn’t wanted to answer but it came out of her mouth before she could stop it.
"We have an arrangement. I’m sure it’s similar to the one you have with your husband." He turned and went back to his desk and Mel slinked out the door.
Meanwhile, Janice paced up and down her cell. It was a solid iron room,
with a cot and basin, and the only opening was the food slit at the bottom of door. She could make out footsteps in the corridor, but that was the only sound she could latch onto. She was terrified for Mel. If that bastard hurt her she would tear him apart. Then she heard footsteps, it was the unmistakable clack of pumps hitting a stone floor.
Janice fell onto her knees and moved her face to the opening at the bottom of the door.
"Mel are you all right?" she cried.
The clacking stopped and there came a quick. "I’m fine Janice," and then there came an ‘oofh’ sound as something was slammed into Mel’s body.
"Mel!" Janice screamed. She heard a door close, it sounded like it was beside her. "Mel!" she cried once more.
"Stillen!" came the gruff reply from the German guard. He was telling the women to be quiet and Janice stopped. At least she knew Mel was safe in a cell and not with Langer. She had probably been pushed around a little, but she was safe for the night.
In her cell, Mel rubbed her back where the rifle butt jammed into her and she scrambled to put her hair back up in a bun. She knew Janice was close by and it shored her resolve.
CHAPTER 24
In the morning guards brought warm water and fresh clothes to the women. They were able to wash themselves and were told to put on the brown khaki pants, brown khaki shirts and boots. Mel had seen these uniforms in newsreels and felt violated, putting on the German rags.
They were separately brought to a large room. Janice arrived first. The well-light room was full of books, manuscripts and artifacts. It was a magnificent research center/study. There was a large oak table in the center and it was covered with papers and notes. Janice looked over the notes. They were in German, English and French. The researcher working here knew his stuff. The notes were detailed and intricate. Janice felt a small moment of deja vu, but it passed.
She looked up as the door opened and Mel and Roebuck entered. The women looked at one another, and beside the relief in knowing each was safe, there was the sadness of seeing the other dressed in the same brown uniform. Janice moved around the table and came up and hugged Mel. She didn’t care if Roebuck saw them, she was too worried to care what the toady traitor thought.
"Are you all right?" whispered Janice in Mel’s ear.
"Fine," she breathed.
"If he touches a hair on your head…" she didn’t get a chance to finish as she heard the door open. She released Mel and stood back as Langer entered.
"Good morning ladies. I hope you slept well." He brushed by Mel and Janice flinched. "How do you like your new attire?"
"The least you could have done was get us some clean clothes," said Janice picking disgustedly at her shirt.
"You have a foul mouth Dr. Covington. That could get you into trouble." Mel swallowed. She wished Janice would be quiet and not push the man. She dreaded telling her that she was going to have dinner with him tonight, alone. Beside being afraid for herself, she was afraid Janice would do something very, very stupid.
Janice held back from saying anything more. She turned and looked around the room once more.
"As you can see," continued Langer, "We have an extensive library - scrolls, maps, manuscripts, history books. I’m a scholar of sorts myself and I can say there is no finer collection in the world."
"I’m sure the many family libraries you raided to obtain this collection are overjoyed," sniped Janice. Even Roebuck twitched at Janice’s unwise comments.
"Dr. Covington, this library may save your life, so I suggest you respect it, and me." He stepped over to her and curled his index finger inside the collar of her shirt and pulled her closer. "It’s all I ask." He breathed into her face. She stared at him, but eventually turned her head away. Mel held her breath. ‘Damn it Janice. Stop it,' she thought.
He released her and turned. He looked at Roebuck and flicked his head. Roebuck went into the hall.
"Now, my I present your colleague," Roebuck came back in the room and behind him was a middle-aged woman with short brown hair, penetrating eyes and a full mouth. She wore white linen trousers and a tan blouse. It was obvious she was not a prisoner.
"Dr. Marie Bernier meet Dr. Janice Covington and Mrs. Bruhn."
Janice’s mouth fell open. "Marie?"
"Janice?"
The two women stared at one another. It couldn’t be, they both thought. They both quickly covered their reactions.
Mel looked back and forth between them. She felt something pass through the air between the women and suddenly felt very uncomfortable. Just for a second Langer’s eyes sparkled. He suspected the women knew each other well, very well. He’s mind raced with possibilities. Getting to Melinda Bruhn just got a whole lot easier.
"I see the two of you know each other. Interesting," he stole a glance at
Mel, who was preoccupied with the women in front of her. "I’ll check on your progress later on today." He turned and left the room, and the women missed the broad grin that came to his face as he closed the door behind him.
Roebuck took a seat near the door. He was obviously assigned to watch the women and help if he could. He didn’t look too thrilled. No one made a move.
Finally, Marie Bernier stepped over to Janice and held out her hand. "It’s been quite some time Janice."
Janice reached out her hand. "Yes, Marie it has been." Janice saw Marie’s face had become gaunt and the lines around her eyes and mouth were deeply etched. She noticed the nicotine stains on her fingers had become a deeper shade of browny/orange.
However, she still possessed the air of authority and power that appealed to Janice. Janice had never met another woman who seemed so sure of herself. And yet, here she was working for the Germans. A French woman working for the Germans! She couldn’t grasp the idea that Marie had willingly come to help them. She was always ambitious, but would she turn her back on her country just for the chance at uncovering the Sumerian Treasure?
Marie hid her feelings well. The only woman she ever loved was standing in front of her! She had always assumed she would never see Janice again, so to be holding her hand, here in the heart of Berlin, left her almost speechless.
Meanwhile Mel looked on with a gnawing fear in her stomach. She had made the guess that this was the French archaeologist that Janice had the affair with in Istanbul. She prayed she was wrong, but she could feel Janice’s pull towards the woman and she had never seen Janice so flatfooted.
The women released their hands. They really were shocked. Finally Marie spoke.
"I’m sorry to see you here Janice. I had heard they captured spies who were scholars, but I never...I mean… I’m so sorry," she turned her head away.
Janice noticed her English had improved considerably over the last 6 years. "It’s…unfort…" Janice tried to speak, but was dumbfounded and turned away. She caught Mel looking at her. Janice saw the questions in her face. She smiled at Mel, and shyly took her fingers for too brief a second and tugged her over to her side.
"Marie, this is Melinda Pappas. She’s with me." She hoped Marie understood the double meaning. "Mel, this Marie Bernier."
Marie was curious Janice used another name other than Mrs. Bruhn to introduce the tall, dark-haired woman. She was lovely and Marie saw the light shining from Janice’s eyes. She had no doubt they were lovers. She stepped up and shook Mel’s hand as her heart collapsed like some old brown paper bag. "Again, I’m sorry to have met you under these circumstances."
Mel smiled sadly and Marie was truly taken back by her beauty.
"I’m sorry to." Mel felt the strength in Marie’s hand, and she stared at the woman who reminded her so much of Janice. Marie oozed the same life force, and of course Mel couldn’t help but imagine her in bed with Janice. This woman’s lips had kissed Janice as deeply as she had. She wished she could stop the images that poured into her head, but it wasn’t possible. Yet, Marie was working for the Germans, and Mel couldn’t help but feel a little dirty shaking her hand.
Roebuck stood up. "Now that you’ve made the introductions, get to work."
For once, Janice agreed with him.
CHAPTER 25
The tension between Janice and Marie dissipated as soon as they began to work. Marie went to a steel safe and twisted the combination. It opened and she pulled out what looked like a large key. It had an oval top, that had an inscription going across it. It was decked in jewels. Both Janice and Mel gasped and Roebuck peered over the desk to take another look at the object he had already studied closely.
"Here it is," said Marie.
Janice reached for it. "May I?"
"Mais oui," slipped out of Marie. All the women smiled at her lapse back into French. Janice forgot how alluring the language sounding coming from Marie.
She placed it on the desk. Mel stood behind Janice and looked over her shoulder and Janice soaked in the familiar feeling of her presence.
"It’s Sumerian all right. There’s the word for treasure, gold and mountain, but it’s a dialect I don’t recognize."
"Yes, that’s the problem," said Marie. "I’ve tried to decipher this dialect, but to no avail. It seems there are traces of ancient Egyptian hieroglyphics mixed in and some other symbol-based language, but I can’t break the code. I’ve tried everything."
She showed the women her notes. Mel was shocked at how brilliant a scholar Marie was. Her notes were detailed, and it looked as if she had come up with every conceivable combination of languages to break the code of the inscription. Mel felt like an amateur sleuth beside a pair of Sherlock Holmes. She was no match for their intellects.
Janice was also taken back by the work Marie had done. "God Marie, you’ve done everything I would have done, two times over."
"Yes, but it’s been useless. What do you think Melinda?" Marie was curious to see what Janice’s partner thought.
"Well, I agree, you’ve tried everything," she was grasping at straws. "I’m stumped." That was it, that was all she could say. Janice saw her turn away dejectedly. Janice knew Mel had so much to offer, but she was overcome. Damn, she needed to talk to her alone, tell her she had nothing to fear. Marie was beside her, yes, but it was Mel she loved, the only woman she could truly love. Hopefully they’d get the chance to talk tonight.
But first they had to make progress on the key. She turned back to Marie. "Marie, let’s go back to the Egyptian hieroglyphs. I have an idea…" The two started working, while Mel went and peered over maps and history books. Janice looked over her shoulder and saw Mel engrossed in studying an ancient map. She turned back to Marie and all three women settled down to the challenge of their lives.
They worked through lunch and into the afternoon. Roebuck had been circling the room. He was listening and watching. He wanted to offer his advice, but his pride wouldn’t let him get involved, however he had to admit all three women were brilliant and he would have killed to have any of them on his staff. He knew they were making progress.
Finally they stopped and sat at the large oak table to eat liverwurst sandwiches, drink cold coffee and allow Marie to chain smoke a few cigarettes. They discussed their theories. Marie and Janice felt the key to deciphering the code lay in the string of word in the top right corner. If they could understand those words, they could translate the enter object.
Mel nodded her head, but she had her own theory. For some unknown reason she felt the jewels on the key held the answer. She believed they represented mountains and the small jewel in the center of the key was the treasure. It was an unorthodox and odd thought for a scholar, but she had the feeling she was onto something.
She didn’t want to say anything until she was sure, that’s why she had been pouring over the ancient maps, hoping to locate some mountain range that resembled the jewel pattern. The inscription, if translated, should confirm her suspicions. Then what? She had to lead Marie in the wrong direction, convince her it was someplace else. That was going to be hard, considering Marie was so intelligent.
"Mel," said Janice quietly. "Are you all right?" Janice surreptitiously moved her right hand under that table and stroked Mel’s thigh and rested her hand on her knee. She squeezed gently. Mel looked at Janice, studying her concerned face. She moved her left hand down her leg, took Janice’s hand and squeezed back.
"I’m fine," she said.
Janice rubbed her thumb over the back of Mel’s long hand and felt a tingle move up he spine. She could see Mel felt the same thing.
"So am I," said Janice softly. "Don’t forget that. Please."
Mel understood. Janice was telling her she had nothing to be jealous about. She smiled.
"Thank you."
Marie watched Janice and Mel from the corner of her eye. She could see the passion lurking under the surface between these two women. It was a passion she once shared with Janice, but that was a long time ago. She had had other lovers since Janice, but no one could compare to her, and the small blonde woman had remained in her heart long after she physically departed. Marie was not one to settle down, but if she had a second chance, she would have stayed with Janice, gone with her to America. She knew that now, but hindsight was always 20/20.
Their lunch was interrupted by Langer. He entered the room in a flourish.
"Making progress?"
"Actually we are," said Marie. Langer looked at Roebuck. He nodded his head in agreement.
"Good," he turned to leave, but just before going through the door he turned back and looked at Mel. "Someone will be by in a few hours Mrs. Bruhn to pick you up. I’m looking forward to our dinner."
"What!" Janice’s grip on Mel’s hand tightened. She looked at Mel who turned away.
"Didn’t she tell you Dr. Covington. We are having dinner together." He could practically smell her fear. "Roebuck, I need to speak with you, come with me. Auf Wiedersehen ladies." Both Roebuck and Langer left the room.
"Mel, is it true? Are you having dinner with him?" Mel heard the panic in Janice’s voice.
"Janice, it’ll be all right. He just wants to…"
Janice grabbed Mel’s arm. "You’re not going! He’s a sadist Mel. He’ll hurt you."
"Don’t you think I know that! But what choice do I have? Janice, if I can keep him off our backs, then maybe we can get out of this alive."
"She’s right Janice," interrupted Marie.
"Stay out of this Marie!" Janice was beside herself.
"Janice, I don’t want to go for God’s sake, but this is a game to him and I’ve got to play."
"No! I won’t let you."
"Janice, you seem to think I have a choice here. He’s coming to get me. Listen," Mel took her hand. "I’ll be careful, I won’t let him…" she couldn’t finish.
Marie came over to the women. "Janice," she said quietly, "from what I’ve seen Langer likes to toy with his...women. I think Mel’s safe for tonight."
"And what do you know about this Marie? Has he…"
"No," she stopped her. "I’m not exactly up to his standard, but there have been other prisoners over the last few months. He likes to seduce rather than conquer."
"Maybe tonight she’s safe, but what about tomorrow?"
Marie turned her back on Janice. She had no answer for that.
Mel moved closer to Janice. "Then we have to get out of here quicker than we thought. But Marie’s right Janice, he won’t hurt me as long as we’re working on finding the Treasure. I can handle him tonight love."
Janice took a deep breath and nodded her head.
CHAPTER 26
Mel was brought to a first-floor dining room. A gorgeous table setting, chilling champagne and a black dress and shoes lay on the antique table. Mel knew what was expected of her.
Meanwhile, Janice was surprised to find she did not go back to her cell, but instead was told to follow Marie back to her quarters. Janice knew what Langer wanted to do, send Janice into Marie’s arms while he toyed with Mel. It wasn’t going to work. She paid close attention to where Marie’s quarter were in relation to the research library.
Janice was surprised to see Marie had luxurious accommodations. A large brass bed, a French day bed, Turkish carpets and many, many books filled the room. Diner for two was laid on one of the two tables that filled the space. The women sat down
"Cozy Marie," Janice sneered.
"I know you think what I’m doing is awful Janice, but I have my reasons."
Janice pulled Marie’s arm and stopped her as she reached for the wine bottle. "And what are those reasons Marie? I need to know."
Marie looked down at the hand on her arm. She felt the blood rush faster through her veins. "I can’t share that with you Janice. But you can trust me when I say I’ll help you and Mel all I can."
Janice continued to hold onto Marie’s arm. She too felt the warmth of their contact, as her body remembered doing this before, many times, and reacted automatically. Janice ignored her body’s response.
"What happened to you Marie? The woman I knew six years ago could never do this, be here."
"You obviously weren’t paying attention back then."
Janice let go of her arm. "My memory is pretty clear about us Marie."
Marie poured them both wine and Janice noticed her hand trembled slightly.
"She’s lovely Janice," said Marie quietly. "I never thought I’d see you in…love."
Janice saw the pained look in her eyes. "Life works in mysterious ways Marie. I think you told me that." Janice wasn’t able to talk about Mel, she’d fall apart if she tried. She had a hard enough time not attacking the guards as Mel walked out to meet Langer, opening herself up emotionally would put her over the edge.
Marie saw Janice was holding on by a thread. She got up and walked over to Janice and knelt by her chair. "Don’t…Marie…"
"She’ll be all right Janice." Her hand came up and she stroked Janice’s cheek with her thumb. Janice shivered at the contact. "Stop it Marie." Janice took hold of her thumb and pushed it away from her face.
Marie was desperate for contact with Janice. She suddenly grabbed Janice’s face with her hands and kissed her hard. Janice pulled out of the kiss.
"Marie! You do that again and I’ll kill you."
Marie fell back on her rear and held her head in her hands. She started to sob.
Just then it dawned on Janice. Marie was in love her! Six years after a brief affair, and the woman was in love with her. ‘Oh, God Marie. Don’t tell me…I’m sorry, but it’s Mel. It can only be Mel.’ Janice fell off her chair and gently took the woman in her arms and let her cry on her shoulder.
Mel adjusted the dress for the fifth time. It was short, it came above her knees and she was self-conscious. As she tugged at it again, Langer entered the room. She stood up to face him.
He stopped in mid stride. She was stunning, a siren in a tight, black dress. He specifically had it shortened so he could see Mel’s legs. He was right, they were magnificent. He smiled and came up to her.
Mel put on her game face. She smiled back.
"You are the Eighth Wonder of the World," he said taking off her glasses and once again undoing her hair bun. Her hair fell over her shoulders. "There. Much better. Please sit."
Mel sat down and dinner was served. Mel concluded that Langer saw himself as some sort of Teutonic prince, seducing unwilling partners. ‘God what a life his wife must lead,’ she thought.
For his part, Langer planned to stretch out this seduction. His wife had left for Hanover this morning with his son and Langer had all the time in the world. He studied Mel and was arrogant enough to believe she choose Janice as a lover simply because there were no other men available. Her husband must obviously be a failure as a man. She wasn’t a lesbian, he thought, only a woman with limited options, and he was sure Covington had purposely confused her with her wicked ways.
As they ate dinner, Mel asked Langer questions, what he did before the war, where he grew up, anything to keep him talking. Every horrid evening with a gentleman caller came back to her, where she pretended to care about some man’s prattlings about business, sports or his petty accomplishments. Not one of those men had Janice’s strength and courage, not one.
Langer never noticed Mel’s distraction. After dessert Langer got up and went over to the phonograph and put on a Strauss waltz. He moved behind Mel’s chair and whispered in her ear. "May I have this dance?"
Mel nodded, stood up and felt his arms go around her. She focused on keeping her body relaxed although every fiber in her being was repulsed by his touch. He moved close and pressed his body against hers. Mel’s Sunday afternoon dance lessons came flooding back and she surprised Langer with her fluid grace. He got lost in their movements, and the two danced until the record ended.
He stepped back and bowed. "Thank you Mrs. Bruhn. That was lovely. May I see you again tomorrow night?"
Mel forced a smile. "Of course."
"Good. Someone will see you out." She turned to leave.
"But before you go, can I have my dress back?" She froze.
"That’s right. Your clothes are on that chair, please change back into them...Now."
Mel swallowed and forced her legs to go over to the chair and pick up the ugly khaki shirt and pants. She kept her back to Langer.
"Please turn around."
Mel turned and unzipped her dress and let it fall to the ground. She stepped out of the dress that pooled on the ground around her feet. She was in her bra, underwear and pumps. She didn’t look up, so she missed Langer cross his legs and take out a cigarette from his uniform. He was amazed at her fine feminine form, her long legs and full breasts.
She heard him strike a match and could smell the tobacco as she reached for her shirt.
"Please remove your bra Mrs. Bruhn." Mel’s hands shook. No man had ever seen her breasts, and now to have this pig look upon her cut her deeply. Not even Janice had looked upon them, and now this. She awkwardly unlatched the clasp at her back and pulled the cloth away from her. She was exposed.
Langer took a long drag on his cigarette. "Thank you." He got up and left the room.
Mel fell to her knees and took a deep gulp of air. She was positive that tomorrow night her luck would run out. Janice and her had to escape within the next 24 hours.
CHAPTER 27
Janice was curled on the daybed with a blanket draped over her. She awoke from her troublesome night’s sleep, violently shaking the images of Mel out of her head. Throughout the night she dreamed of Langer caressing, touching the women she loved. She would awake in fear and when finally she did fall back asleep the vile pictures returned.
It had been a painful night. After Marie’s confession of love, the two women talked. Marie was upset, and all Janice could do was listen to her words of love, but then, slowly, a look of resignation encompassed Marie’s face and she accepted the fact she could never win back Janice.
Marie updated Janice on the last six years, and Janice found out Marie had become the head of a Paris research institute. Marie admitted the offer to find the Sumerian Treasure was too good to pass up, and she was financially desperate, since the war had put an end to her work at the institute. Although Marie seemed forthcoming Janice felt she was hiding something.
Janice talked about her life, but most of the night was spent talking about Janice’s father, as Marie was one of the few people in Janice’s life who really cared for Harry Covington and was the only lover her father had genuinely liked.
It saddened Janice to think Harry would never meet Mel, she was sure he would have loved the southern woman’s grace, charm and spirit. He would have said something like "Playin’ outta yer league little girl, she’s too good for ya." Then he would have smiled and quickly stroked her hair once or twice as was his way.
Now, in the dawn’s early light, Janice vowed she and Mel would escape before nightfall. The dreams of Mel and thoughts of her father made her realize the people she loved had suffered so much in their lifetimes and she wouldn’t let that happen anymore.
She needed a plan. She got up and saw Marie was sound asleep, curled in the
middle of her brass bed. She looked older and more vulnerable in the morning light and Janice prayed she’d find someone to love her the way she deserved to be loved.
Janice began to quietly search the room.
At the bottom of a dresser drawer under some sweaters she found a short, sharp knife, which surprised the archaeologist. She guessed Marie didn’t feel completely safe with her German employers. She took the knife and slid it inside her boot. She looked over Marie’s dresser, and spied the bottle of perfume. Then the idea struck. She picked up Marie’s bottle of French perfume and stuck it in her back pocket.
Mel was inside the library waiting for Janice to arrive. Then the door opened and in walked Janice, Marie and Roebuck. Janice strode over to Mel and seized her in a powerful hug. Marie and Roebuck both looked away, but for very different reasons.
Mel felt her spirit click back into place in the smaller woman’s arms and last night’s humiliation didn’t loom as large now that Janice was holding her.
"Did he touch you Mel?" came Janice’s fearful question.
"No, he didn’t. We danced, that was all." Mel knew one day she’d tell Janice everything, but not today, not at this moment.
Even that admission fired Janice’s anger. She had never danced with Mel, so how could Langer have dared? She tightened their embrace.
"It’s all right Janice. But I’m not sure…"
"I know, I know. I have a plan. Do you trust me?" she asked quietly so the others wouldn’t hear.
"Of course…"
"Then be ready. I’m not sure if it’ll work, I mean getting outta here isn’t going to be easy, we might not…"
"No worries Janice. Whatever happens."
Janice reluctantly let go of Mel. She looked into those oceanic eyes and smiled. "Be ready."
She turned and walked over to Marie and chatted about their next line of research and Roebuck settled himself by the door.
About an hour into the morning Mel was getting bored of watching Janice from the corner of her eye, waiting for a signal. Janice seemed to working as per normal, so Mel started to work in earnest, and then it happened.
She discovered the whereabouts of the Sumerian Treasure.
Flipping though a weighty volume of ancient battles by an unknown Greek author, she spied a simplistic map of the Styolis peaks, hills really, that surrounded the ancient town of Malith. Mel could see the layout of the hills fit the jewel pattern on the key. She took a paper rendering of the key and laid it over the map. It was an exact match and the inside jewel corresponded with the smallest peak of the chain.
Mel’s hands started to tremble. It had to be there, buried under that small center peak was the world’s greatest treasure. God, she had done it! She allowed a private moment of joy, for herself and for her father. He would have been proud.
"Janice," she called in a dry voice.
"Yeah," Janice was looking at a scroll.
"Could you please come over and help me translate this passage?"
"Sure." She walked over to Mel and when she got close Mel grabbed her right hand and placed it over the book and paper copy of the key. She didn’t speak, she just let Janice look, while she pretended to sound out some words. She looked down and saw Janice staring with her mouth open. She slowly looked up at Mel. Mel smiled shyly.
"You did it," she whispered. "You found it!"
Mel bit her bottom lip trying to stop the grin.
"Do you need assistance Janice?" called Marie.
"Uum… uum, no. We’ve got it." Marie nodded and Roebuck who had looked up went back to reading his archaeology journal.
"How?" Janice was amazed.
"I had a hunch. I followed it. You taught me to do that Dr. Covington." Mel’s eyes sparkled.
"You’re brilliant Mel, absolutely brilliant." Janice was in awe of Mel and for the first time Mel felt totally accepted by Janice as a peer. "I’m so lucky. A woman like…you…loves me." Mel was taken back, she didn’t expect Janice to say that. If they were alone she would have cried.
Suddenly Janice’s loved-filled face took on a serious expression.
"Now, think you can remember where it is?"
"Of course Janice."
"Burn it into your memory Mel. Don’t forget, because you’re going to be the only one who will ever know where that god damn treasure is. Are you ready?"
Mel understood. Janice was ready to make the break. Mel swallowed hard. "Yes."
Janice nodded her head. She went over to Marie and picked up the heavy, foot-long key. She came up beside Roebuck and swung.
Mel’s mouth opened and she made a low, guttural noise as she saw Janice make contact, splitting open the small man’s scalp. He fell off his chair and landed heavily on the floor.
Marie turned around swiftly. She saw Janice standing over Roebuck with the bloodied key in her hands.
"Janice! What have you done!" She stepped towards Roebuck but Mel pushed the key at her. "Stay back Marie. I don’t want to hurt you." Mel had come to stand beside Janice, a look of horror on her face at having seen Janice brutally strike Roebuck.
Marie stepped back. "What are you going to do Janice? You can’t get out of this building, it’s swarming with SS troops and officers."
"I know." She reached back and took the bottle of perfume from her pocket. She handed it to Mel. "Here. Sprinkle this over everything." Janice then reached across the table for Marie’s lighter that was beside her package of cigarettes. Mel finally understood. Janice was going to torch the room.
"No! Janice, we can’t, these books, scrolls, they’re priceless." Mel was distraught. Books and learning had been her only friend in a much too lonely life and the thought of burning them hurt deeply.
Janice turned wide-eyed at Mel. "They are only things Mel! They mean nothing compared to our lives…your life. If there were another way, I’d take it, but we need to create a diversion and buy enough time to get away." Her eyes pleaded with Mel.
"Do you think the families who owned these book will ever see them again?" asked Janice. She knew the Germans were shipping Jews to concentration camps, Bertinelli and Bishop had told her all about it, and she suspected most of these books came from Jewish homes. She knew Mel had heard this truth as rumors and she pressed home her point.
"They are all most likely dead. Slaughtered by the Nazis. We can’t let them soil their memory any more by allowing them to use all this knowledge for evil. Let’s let them rest in peace and save ourselves."
Mel realized Janice was right. Books and knowledge were meaningless without intent or purpose. She would not allow the Nazis to misuse her beloved world of ancient writings. She nodded sadly and began to sprinkle the old papers and maps.
Janice turned to Marie.
"You said you’d help us. Did you mean it?"
Marie looked at Janice with awe. No wonder she loved her, she was a force to be reckoned with. She made a decision, it was risky but Janice and Mel deserved her help.
"Of course."
"Good. Do you have your keys?"
Marie took out her keys. "Get into the hallway. Take him with you," she motioned to the unconscious Roebuck. "After I set the fire and get out, you’ll lock the door. It’ll be a few minutes before they get into the room and the fire should be blazing by then to keep them from getting too far inside. It’ll be hours before they discover we aren’t there."
Mel was finished and joined Janice.
"All right," said Marie. "Come with me to my suite, I can help you from there." Janice looked at Mel. She wanted to make sure the taller woman agreed to trust Marie. Mel nodded. Janice took the lighter and moved around the room lighting priceless books and maps on fire. The alcohol from the perfume helped them catch, but it really wasn’t needed, the entire room was a tinder box.
Mel and Marie dragged Roebuck to the hall.
The flames leapt higher and higher and there was a Halloween orange glow to the room. Janice let a single tear escape from her eye, and she threw the key into the flames. No one, not even the Allies would get that key. It was too much of a temptation for either side she decided. It would melt down to a golden lump and the Nazis could do what they wanted with it. She ran out of the room.
Marie closed and locked the door behind Janice. She helped Mel pick up Roebuck and she motioned them to follow her.
"There’s a shortcut to my room through here."
CHAPTER 28
Marie and Mel charged into the suite and dropped Roebuck near the door. Janice was right behind them.
Marie went to the bed and stripped the pillow of its case and threw it to Mel. "Here, rip that into strips and wrap his head," she said pointing to Roebuck. "I don't want him bleeding to death. Janice," she reached under her mattress "you'll be needing this." Marie took out a Luger and tossed it to Janice.
Both Janice and Mel stared at Marie, who had suddenly transformed into a woman of action. Janice checked the gun, it was loaded and the safety was off.
"I'm a spy Janice. I'm working for the French resistance."
"What?" Janice was stunned.
"It took months, but my reputation as an archaeologist allowed me to get in here. This isn't SS headquarters, but Langer receives and sends dispatches regarding SS troop movements. I've set up bugs around the building and if I'm lucky I hear where they're sending troops and get the information to my resistance contact. They try and get the word out, and if we're really lucky we can warn people in time. We've saved Jews, Catholics, Germans, Czechs and French citizens from these dogs."
Janice was dumbfounded. She thought Marie was hiding something, but this?
"I'm sorry Marie, sorry I doubted you."
Marie smiled. "You saw what I wanted you to see. Now, I suspect you need a
radio." She walked over to one of the large leather chairs and removed the cushion and tore back the fabric covering the springs. She pulled out a portable radio.
"Here." She passed the radio to Janice, who was shocked. The chances Marie took, keeping the radio in her room!
Mel was also shocked. She wanted to apologize for her jealousy and her harsh thoughts towards the valiant woman. She understood how Janice could have been caught in her spell.
"Quickly Janice you don't have much time." Marie moved to the window and carefully peeked out the corner. Her second story window faced a back alley, but she could see around the corner and she expected fire trucks at any moment.
Mel returned to ripping the pillowcase and wrapping Roebuck's deep gash. The swelling was bad, and Mel thought the man would remain unconscious for hours, if not longer.
Janice put in practice what she had learned in Malta. She dialed the frequency and heard a connection. She spoke in a deep, harsh voice and in passable German. Mel was surprised. Janice waited for a reply. It came, and Janice recognized the appropriate response.
She clicked off the radio and returned it to its place. She spoke to Mel. "I just pretended to be a supply sergeant accidentally dialing through to what the Germans think is an open frequency. Our contacts have been monitoring the frequency waiting for us to make contact. They told me to get lost, which means we can make our way to them."
Mel nodded her head, this was all happening so quickly. She tried to stay calm and control her breathing.
Janice went over to Marie. "It's time. I'm going to have to knock you out. We can't have Langer thinking you helped us. You've risked so much already."
Marie agreed. "You're right."
Janice stepped closer to the woman and brought hand to her cheek and softly caressed the lined face in front of her. Mel turned away. She didn't - no couldn't bear to watch their intimate goodbye. She felt her heart wrench seeing Janice's loving expression. What was past was past, but it still scorched her heart.
"Thank you Marie, for everything." Janice kissed the woman’s cheek, and felt a tear hit her lips. Without opening her closed eyes she quietly told Marie to turn around. Marie turned around. "I love you Janice" were her last words before Janice brought the gun handle down on her head. She collapsed into Janice’s waiting arms.
Mel turned around and went to Janice.
"You've got to tie her up with Roebuck." Her voice cracked and Mel felt Janice's remorse at having to hurt Marie.
"What are you going to do?"
"I'll be back in second."
Janice raced to Marie's walk-in closet and grabbed an outfit -- navy skirt and jacket, white blouse, hose and shoes. Marie was about the same size as Janice, except a little thinner, so the clothes were a tight fit. She found a brush and brushed out her long blonde hair. She rummaged through the make-up drawer and applied rouge and red, red lipstick. She looked in the full length mirror.
She was stunned, hardly recognizing the stranger in front of her. This wasn't the person she called Janice. Strange, how clothes define us, she thought.
Now, she needed to find a jacket or coat large enough for Mel. She got lucky. An oversized raincoat was hanging on the door. It would be short on Mel, but she needed to hide her khaki uniform, the Germans would looking for them in those khakis.
She stepped out of the closet with the raincoat in her hand and saw Mel had secured Marie and Roebuck. Mel looked up quickly, and her mouth flew open and her eyes widened.
"My God, is that you Janice?"
Janice panicked.
"What?"
"I've never seen you so, so..."
"Feminine. Is that it Mel?"
"Yes!" Mel was amazed. Janice was beautiful, not just pretty, but stunning. The tight outfit accentuated her fine figure and the make-up, well it made her look very, very sexy. Is that what Janice sees when she looks at me, wondered Mel.
Janice looked squarely at Mel. "Do you...do you prefer me like this Mel?" She was afraid, not because Mel might say yes, but because if she did Janice knew she'd give up the leather jacket and jodhpurs in an instant, anything to please Mel. That kind of obsessive love was a little frightening for her.
Mel stepped over to her and placed her hand on Janice's arm.
"No, I prefer the woman I fell in love with. I'm just overwhelmed at how truly beautiful you are."
Janice released a breath she hadn’t realized she was holding and looked away.
"I've never told you how beautiful you are, have I?"
Janice looked over Mel's shoulder, focusing on a lamp in the distance.
Mel moved closer and looked into Jancie's unfocused eyes. "Hasn't anyone ever told you how stunning you are? The other women in your life, they must have told you."
"Well, yes, but it was in the heat of the moment type of thing." She felt
very uncomfortable having this discussion. She never felt beautiful in her entire life. Powerful yes, sexy sometimes, but not beautiful. Mel was beautiful.
Mel moved Janice's chin over a bit and looked deeply into her eyes. "Well, I'm telling you now. No matter what you wear you are the most beautiful woman in the world." She brought her lips down and gave Janice a gentle kiss.
Mel tasted lipstick on another woman for the first time in her life and liked it. Janice almost swooned. It was such a loving, gentle moment and she couldn't remember anyone sending their love to her in one such blissful kiss. She reluctantly broke away.
"Thank you," she said in a hoarse, emotion-filled voice.
"Your welcome." Mel felt their connection return. It had been too long since they had drawn strength from one another in this most intimate way.
"Now Miss Pappas put this on." Mel took the coat and let it fall above her knees and come up well short of her wrists.
"Now what?"
Janice looked towards the window. "We make our break.”
CHAPTER 29
The women shimmied down the second story drainpipe. Janice had never done such a thing in a skirt and she cursed all the way down. Mel took off her glasses and put them in the pocket of the raincoat and followed Janice down, hearing every one of Janice’s colorful expressions.
They walked around the back of the building and onto Bauer Strassen. They made quite a couple, the lovely blonde woman in the wrinkled suit and the tall, gawky woman in a raincoat and khaki pants.
They walked quickly and Janice knew where they were headed, but first she had to get something else for Mel to wear. About two blocks from the building they heard the fire trucks arrive. Janice smiled, so far so good, since the fire trucks offered a diversion and people in the busy street looked past them to see what was happening at the Nazi Party building.
"God Mel," whispered Janice. "How can you walk in these shoes?"
Mel stifled a laugh. "I don’t know, how can you stand these boots? And this gun in my waistband is making me very nervous."
"Sorry about that, I didn’t have anywhere to hide it."
"I noticed," smirked Mel.
Janice ignored the comment but was secretly delighted. Maybe this dressing up wasn’t so bad after all.
They moved to a shopping section of Berlin. It was lunchtime and men streamed into local pubs for a pint of beer and something to eat. Janice noticed the stares increase. She pushed Mel into an alley beside a large pub. They moved behind the building and Janice pointed out the large metal doors leading down into the basement of the pub.
"Let’s go inside and find you something to wear."
Janice slowly opened the delivery doors. They quietly moved down the stairs. The basement was empty, although it was full of beer kegs and barrels of fermenting sauerkraut. The place stank of cabbage and beer.
The women looked around and Mel spied a pair of black overalls and a working class beret.
"I’ve found something." Janice came over. "Great, get changed. I’m going to look for something for us to eat." Janice turned her back, glad she had something to do so she wouldn’t be tempted to turn back around.
Mel quickly disrobed and put on the overalls. They stank of sweat, but they were a good fit. She noticed a heap of charcoal on the ground and swiped a lump and smeared it on her face. She did up her hair and put on the beret.
Janice rummaged a bit and found some ham curing in a corner. She found a knife and sliced two generous helpings. She turned and saw Mel, or what was now Mel masquerading as a man.
"Wow," said a surprised Janice.
"I feel ridiculous. No one will believe I’m a man."
"All we need to do is stop them from looking too closely." She moved to Mel and gave her a piece of ham. "Remember, they’ll be looking for two women in Nazi uniforms, not a lady and her plumber husband."
Mel laughed. She hadn’t laughed in days and it felt good. They leaned against empty beer kegs, devouring their food and brushing their hands off on their clothes. Mel glanced down at Janice, she’d been waiting for Janice to say something about her appearance.
"Well, how do you like me as a man?" asked Mel with more than a little curiosity.
"Well, you kinda stink Mel, but I like the way your shoulders stand out. Your real shoulders, not the padded ones I see when your wear your suits."
Mel’s eyebrows jumped. "My shoulders?"
"You have strong, powerful shoulders. I’ve always, you know, liked your shoulders."
"Really?"
"Yeah, really." Janice smirked a little and Mel returned the look. Janice knew they were heading for trouble but she was captured in Mel’s magnetic aura. She leaned up and into Mel, brushing her lips across the taller woman’s dirty cheek, and then moving to Mel’s ear. She nibbled.
"Aah, Janice, we’d better…" Mel’s concentration was lost when Janice moved
back to her cheek and finally her mouth. Janice’s lips pressed hotly against Mel’s. Mel’s arms came up and around Janice’s body, her right hand tangling in Janice’s blonde locks and her left hand enjoying the feel of the silk material against Janice’s skin. Janice pressed her body against Mel, pushing her against the beer kegs.
The kiss was hot, passionate and both women moaned into each other’s mouth. Their tongues danced together and Janice began to rhythmically push her hips against Mel, who responded in kind.
Janice felt this was getting way out of control, and if she didn’t stop they’d make love on the floor of this dirty Berlin pub. She forced herself to break the kiss and she pushed herself off Mel.
Mel leaned forward and then opened her eyes, searching for the missing body she craved.
"I’m sorry Mel. It’s my fault, I guess I like the plumber’s outfit more than I thought." Her breathing was shallow and she wiped her brow. "I won’t let our first time be here Mel," she looked around the smelly, dinghy basement.
Mel bit he lower lip and gave a little laugh. "You’re right. We do have other things to do, like get out of Germany alive." She put her hands on her thighs and bent over. "It’s just, when I look…"
"I know. Same here. We’ll just have to wait it out. It has to be special Mel," said Janice quietly.
Mel blushed a little.
"C’mon Mr. Plumber, let’s get outta here."
The women continued on Bauer Strassen, and then Janice cut them over to Frausen Strassen. It was nearing twilight as they reached their contact point, the Olympic Stadium, where Hitler welcomed the world in 1936. Mel looked at Janice with a raised eyebrow. "The stadium?"
"The stadium."
Janice remembered the map Bertinelli showed her and the entrance at the back corner. They slipped through an unlocked gate and neared the old equipment entrance. There seemed to be no one around. They walked into the equipment locker and then the door quietly shut behind them. The women turned. Out of the shadows emerged Bertinelli.
"Hello Janice," he didn’t even smile. But Janice did.
"Bertinelli!" she cried. "You, you’re our contact?"
"Let’s just say I made it my business to make sure you got out of this alive."
CHAPTER 30
Janice moved up and took Bertinelli’s offered hand. "I’m glad you’re here."
"I almost didn’t recognize you Janice," said Bertinelli as he looked Janice up and down.
Janice glared at him and then turned and looked at Mel. "This is Melinda Pappas. She wasn’t exactly part of the plan, but things got complicated."
"We know," said Bertinelli. "We saw you both get off the train in Ipswich with Roebuck."
Mel stepped forward. Her expression was hard. She was angry.
"Are you the man responsible for keeping Janice’s whereabouts a secret?" Her voice was cold and Janice had never heard Mel speak so abruptly.
Bertinelli looked at the tall woman who was obviously beautiful despite the fact she was wearing smelly men’s overalls, a beret and her face was smudged with charcoal. He could tell she was not going to like the truth.
"Well…"
Janice stepped beside Mel. In the excitement of seeing Bertinelli’s familiar face she had forgotten he had known Mel was alive and hadn’t told her, but Mel had remembered everything.
"…yes, we knew…"
Mel slapped him hard across the face.
"Mel!" cried a surprised Janice.
"It’s all right Janice," said Bertinelli rubbing his cheek. "I deserve it. I tried to get them to tell you both that the other was alive but I was outranked. I’m sorry, for both of you. If those damn head honchos would have said something than Miss Pappas would be safe in England right now."
Mel felt a surge of remorse pass through her. The bearded, round man had tried to help but failed. He didn’t personally deserve the slap, but she was so angry. Janice had been blackmailed into doing this job and government men had used Janice’s love for her as a weapon.
"I’m sorry Mr. Bertinelli." Mel lowered her eyes. "I should never have slapped you. I can see you did your best."
"Apology accepted."
Janice moved her hand behind Mel and rubbed the small of her back. Mel looked over at Janice.
"Thanks Mel," she said quietly. No one had stood up for her before, not like that. It was an odd, wonderful feeling to have someone protecting her, looking out for her.
The physical contact and look that past between the two women was not lost on Bertinelli. He knew the women were probably lovers, and that made this mission all the more important to him.
He was not a man prone to prejudices, despite his upbringing in a racist home with deeply religious roots. In fact, he was the opposite, a man who respected honor and love, and that was what he saw when he looked at Janice Covington and Melinda Pappas. That’s why he had asked to switch places with their contact in Germany. He needed to get Janice and Melinda to safety.
"Now, if we’ve finished the hitting," Bertinelli looked at Mel, "I’d like to tell you our plan."
Janice grinned at Bertinelli’s dry sense of humor but Mel looked chagrined.
"Okay, where’s the artifact?" Bertinelli stared at Janice.
"There was a fire," said Janice. "Everything was lost. That’s how we got out, the fire was a diversion." Janice hoped she sounded remorseful enough.
"What? You don’t have the artifact? You don’t know where the treasure is?"
"We didn’t have enough time Bertinelli! The fire consumed the library and I knew if there was no artifact than Mel and I were as good as dead. It was my decision to abort the plan and contact you."
Mel kept a neutral expression knowing Janice had purposely left the key to burn. Although they hadn’t spoken of it, Mel agreed with Janice’s decision. No one should be tempted with that much wealth, even the Allies. She knew they both seemed like traitors to the cause of good, but Mel felt the Allies would defeat the Nazis without the treasure.
"How did the fire start?"
"I’m not sure," lied Janice. "One minute we’re looking over text, then next minute there’s smoke everywhere."
"Our reports stated that Marie Bernier was a heavy smoker. Do you think she started it?"
Janice was taken back for a moment, hearing Marie’s name.
"I think that may have been the cause," said Mel softly. She wanted to protect Janice and Marie. "But it was an accident Mr. Bertinelli, an accident, pure and simple."
"Janice, I can’t tell you how disappointed they’re going to be in Washington."
"Screw Washington." Janice was suddenly angry. "You sent me…us…here against our wills, you subjected us to cruelty and fear and now you’re disappointed? Jesus, if Mel hadn’t already hit you…"
"I’m sorry Janice," interrupted Bertinelli. "I’m sorry. All right, no artifact. Fine." He could see Janice relax slightly. The mission was a bust. The best they could do was get out of it alive.
"Now, we hadn’t planned on three people having to make the return trip, so we’ve made some adjustments. We’re going to try and cross into Switzerland."
"What?" said Janice. "We’re in Berlin. Switzerland is on the other side of the country. How are we suppose to make it to the border?"
"I have a truck and I have papers. You and I are a married couple from just outside Ravensburg, that’s near the border. We’re here visiting our nephew in hospital, he was injured on the Eastern front. We’re farmers," he handed Janice the fake identification, "and we’re driving back home."
"Bertinelli, I don’t speak German. They’ll stop us at the checkpoints and that’ll be it. And what about Mel?" The plan sounded ridiculously simple-minded to Janice.
"I speak German Janice, and as far as you’re concerned I’m going to have to knock you out with these," he pulled a container of small white pills from his jacket. "They’re fast-acting sleeping pills. Two pills should do it. When we’re stopped I tell them you’re ill and I have to get you home. They won’t be able to wake you even if they try."
"That sounds dangerous," said Mel. She didn’t like the idea of Janice being drugged.
"No, she’ll be fine Melinda. I promise."
"What about Mel? Where does she go?"
"There’s a secret compartment under the back seat."
"No way Bertinelli! She’ll suffocate in there."
"Look, I know it’s going to be uncomfortable," he looked at Mel. "But we didn’t have much time to adjust the plan, Melinda wasn’t suppose to be here. This is the best we can do. Melinda will fit, but it’s going to be…claustrophobic."
"What about switching places? I’m smaller than Mel."
"I don’t have papers for Mel. If they stop us we’re all dead."
Mel was looking a little peaked. The thought of scrunching up under a truck seat made her very, very nervous. Janice and Bertinelli were looking at her.
"I guess we don’t have any choice, do we?" She looked hopefully at Bertinelli.
"I’m sorry Melinda. I’ll try and stop often, but we have to get to a farmhouse near the border as quickly as possible."
"Then what," asked Janice.
"Then, we walk into Switzerland."
"Just like that, under the noses of border guards?" asked Janice.
"There’s a pass that is lightly guarded. We’ll most likely have to do some fighting…"
"You mean shooting?" interrupted Mel
"Yes," said Bertinelli. He knew this was difficult for Melinda Pappas. He didn’t think the woman had ever fired a gun.
Janice looked between them. The thought of Mel getting into a fire fight with Nazis horrified her.
"That’s your god damn plan? Rush the border and fight for our lives!"
"Listen to me Janice. We have no choice. The longer we stay in Berlin the more likely we’ll be discovered. Don’t you think Langer is at this very moment turning the city upside down looking for you two. He’s not the kind of man to forgive and forget. We have no time to wait for help, new identification papers, or a diversion…this is it. We get in that truck and drive, as fast as we can and then we cross into Switzerland. There are no other options."
Janice let out a loud breath. She looked at Mel. Mel knew this was no time to hesitate.
"Let’s go." She quickly moved her gaze to Bertinelli. It was easier to look brave in front of him.
"Right. Let me check to see if the coast is clear." He knew the women needed a moment to themselves. "Be right back." He ran out of the locker.
Janice grabbed Mel’s arm and turned her around. "Mel…"
Mel brought her fingers to Janice’s lips. "No, don’t say anything. We’re going to make it out of here. Don’t worry about me. I can handle this Janice. Understand?" She removed her fingers. Janice took them in her hand.
"All right Mel." She kissed her palm and marveled at Mel’s bravery. "I’ll be dreaming about you when I’m asleep," she said with a smile.
"I should hope so." They looked into each others eyes and all that needed to be said passed between them in that moment. They heard Bertinelli return. They separated. He brought out the pills and handed two to Janice. "Here."
Janice swallowed the two pills. She didn’t feel anything at first, but within a few seconds she became dizzy. Bertinelli moved behind her, but Mel pushed him away gently and then Janice stumbled back into Mel’s arms. She easily lifted Janice and held the sleeping woman. "Where’s the truck?"
She followed Bertinelli out the door, which was good since she didn’t want him to see the tears forming in her eyes.
#xena#xena warrior princess#xena/gabrielle#mel/janice#mel/janice fanfiction#xena/gabrielle fanfiction#mature#author: ms. auggie
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Either the scratched library disc or the old DVD player are conspiring against me to ensure I do not finish watching Pitch Perfect 3, and I can’t help but think they are just trying to save me from my own destructive tendencies, because I have been stewing in sourness and grumpitude basically since it opened and at 55 minutes in I have a long list of grievances. In no particular order:
(Disclaimer 1: I loved the sequel even more than the original, so I am hardly your typical "they need to stop” complainer.)
(Disclaimer 2: I knew going into this movie that Jesse and Beca, a.k.a. this franchise’s heart and soul and my reason for being in its fandom, were gonna be broken up for some nonsensical reason, and after much soul-searching I decided that I could handwave that lying falsehood* for the pleasure of more awesome musical performances I could declare to be AU. But that is not helping my attitude.)
Why were Jesse and Beca still trying to be in a long distance relationship though. And why would you give him a new girlfriend “with a cat” so that now my headcanon has to choose between him getting back with Beca, and being a person who would either leave a cat or take a cat away from its other owner.
Beca and Fat Amy’s ~ super awesome best friendship ~ still sucks (yes I am still mad about Beca cuddling with her instead of Jesse in the last film).
*turns out I cannot handwave it as easily as I thought
Amy’s lines are as gross and awful as ever
I love the very charming brunette soldier from Chicago**; he is one of about two non-awful things in this movie, but if this movie is blowing everything else to hell, why not at least finally feed the rabid fandom by giving Chloe a girlfriend*? (preferably not Beca due to my own shipping priorities, but then again, what did you have to lose besides the dollars of homophobic countries? ...yep just answered my own question there)
*Random boob groping does not count. The hell was that.
**oh wait. he’s the part of Timeless I don’t like (based on people’s wrong shipping notions for Lucy, even though I have only ever seen gifsets and not the actual show). Well, fine, now he’s canceled too.
WHY THE HELL is Beca making eyes back at some new loser. If this isn’t at least about Beca flying single and fabulous, what even was the point of breaking her relationship up?
I cried at the non-reunion at the aquarium and it was legitimate sadness crossed with recognizing that exact feeling of longing for when being a part of something made you special (#clumsy Glee reference #self five). Why would you reduce them to such sad and unfulfilled young adults. No plot reason justifies this.
I only caught a glimpse of Young Amy’s My Little Pony shirt but I am pretty sure it’s anachronistic, and that personally offends me.
John Lithgow’s “Australian” accent is a nightmare.
So is Amy’s bizarre attempt to imitate Sean Paul’s Jamaican accent for some reason on part of Cheap Thrills. Why??? Cynthia Rose was handling it fine, thanks.
“Evermoist” (why would u take the very most enjoyable thing about this movie so far and give them that name)
Why did this movie start with a dumb action sequence. I hate when movies do this; now I’m just wondering how the hell they get to that point and can’t concentrate on anything else.
I can’t tell if I like the music yet or not. The music has always been near perfect to me, whether I liked the originals or not, but I’ve experienced a nonzero amount of “I hate this song so much no version is acceptable” as well as “this is Not As Good as the original and I do not like its mangling” with a side of “why would you squander this awesome cover on a few seconds in a riff-off.”
(that said: I do love the riff-off, musically and visually. I was excited to see it as a sneak peek and I am glad that is what they released, because it is by far the best scene in the movie, at least up to this point)
At least frickin’ Bumper isn’t in this movie (I hope?).
Another rare positive: my delight upon recognizing Background Bella Jessica this time around as Janice from Scorpion knew no bounds.
Now, off I go to view my “otp: singing dorks” tag and either cry a lot, or find some comfort in the obvious canonness of the AU gifsets.
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anime expo was soooooooooo much and it was so hot and overwhelming (and yes, crowded) but i had so much fun! under the cut because i sure do talk a lot
i knew ax was big but WHOA OK its on a whole nother level!! i dont think i even saw the entirety of the convention center and i didnt even step into the jw! wow ok! i was really worried about it being overwhelming and everyone being too busy to.. be friendly i guess but that wasnt really a problem!! everyone was really friendly, especially at the meets!! the ff meet was on the hottest day of the weekend and it was overcrowded and difficult to get things organized but everyone was still friendly and talkative and looking out for each other in that wild heat!! SHOUT OUT TO THE ZACK FAIR PHOTOBOMBING THE SHOOT BY DOING SQUATS IN THAT HEAT!! you really are a hero, zack fair. you really are.
speaking of the heat, idk how i survived in noctis all day in.. 106 or something degree weather but i loveloveLOVED being him!! it was worth the suffering!!!! one of my favorite costumes ive done so far i think and i got so many super nice comments from people on it and waah! also got arrested by the thot patrol and shoved into the ballpit by ardyn and ik ive already posted pics but that was fun. i didnt take nearly enough shitty meme pictures honestly. smh. I DIDNT GET A PICTURE OF ME GETTING FRIENDZONED BY LUNAFREYA which happened. noctis did a heart hand luna thumbs up’d. rip noctis.
cosplaying kingdom hearts is always a really fun time and im kinda glad i didnt finish riku in time bc kairi was a godsend of a costume. so comfortable. bless. and i just love being her!! im glad i brought my pins back to give out, everyone had the CUTEST reactions!! a sora also tossed me a little paopu fruit as he walked by which was really sweet and its soft and adorable!!
it was also the first time i wore bakura which was uhhhh and experience and that costume didnt make it home in one piece lol i really didnt feel great in it but i still had some fun!! littlekuriboh complimented it lol so like, my inner 10 year old can die happy!
i think the thing that really made this con was the people!! rooming with sharon, janice and emma was like, the best, chillest hotel room and i hadnt seen any of them in EONS i miss u guys come back to cali soon!!!! and meeting angel and aj was really nice and i had a lot of fun hanging out with them and also going to dennys at midnight in cosplay. andrew and jesse are local friends so i see them a lot but it was still fun hanging out with them at the con! they braved the outdoors to meet up with me at the ff shoot. brave souls.
i met a lot of real cool new people too, and people id seen once or twice before at cons and got to spend more time with and everyone was just! really nice!! and fun to talk to!! hopefully the people i met felt the same about me and i didnt annoy anyone or talk anyones ear off.. too much cause i sure do that my apologies if i was the biggest pest in the universe!!!
ALSO SPENT A LOT OF TIME IN ARTIST ALLEY LOL.. someone was selling ffxv omanjuus so i got a prompto and a noctis!! omanjuus are my absolutest favoritest kind of merch ever. im so happy. actually i mostly just bought xv merch for myself... OOPS i got some cute sorikai tho!!! i got more stickers for my travel sketchbook :3
AND!!!!! AND I GOT TO PLAY KH3 DEMO!!!! the lines were capped for most of the weekend... except for when i walked by and one of the booth employees went “PSST HEY GUYS, WANNA PLAY KINGDOM HEARTS 3?” hells yeah. uh, i know some people dont wanna see details about kh3 until they actually play it and idk if anyones actually READING this but im gonna talk about the demo so like.. leave now if u dont wanna see any of that
the gameplay!! was so good!! it was so FAST and smooth and intuitive! but it was creative and cool and you can switch keyblades in combat and the attraction attacks are SO CUTE! theres something so emotionally satisfying about killing things with the tea cups. you could play olympus and/or toy story world if you had time to do both in the 15 minutes you got (i finished toy story and almost finished olympus!) the toy story world was so cute!! TOY SORA IS THE MOST ADORABLE and fighting in the mechs was actually really fun!! the cutscenes were included for toy story but there were 7 minutes of cutscene so i skipped it rip. there’s nothing new that hasnt been seen in trailers and stuff yet but it was super fun to actually play it!! it’s a lot like bbs/ddd gameplay but a lot better and idk, im not an expert in gamedev but it just felt like combat had a good.. flow to it and its a million lightyears away from the clunky gameplay of kh1!!!! ITS COME SO FAR!! IM PROUD! and also it just feels like its a REAL CONCRETE thing thats actually happening now that ive actually gotten a chance to play it for real. kh3 isnt fake yall. wow. wow.
ANYWAY. THAT WAS A LOT OF TALKING AND I FEEL LIKE THERES A HUNDRED MORE THINGS I WANNA SAY it was a good weekend. im very tired. im so sad its over. idk when my next con is but im hoping mayyybe ala???? maybe????????? we’ll see! other than that uhhh i really just have disneyland planned so... i guess its time to actually finish riku for the halloween party.
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1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
Daniel aka one of the Finnish guys cause I didn’t want to get lost in the club (I also hate club so it was like a double whammy)
2. Are you outgoing or shy?
Is outgoingly shy a thing? I used to be super shy and still am around guys, but im definitely more outgoing in everyday life than I used to be
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?
MY BESTFRIEND WHO FREAKING FLEW TO ENGLAND THE DAY I CAME HOME AND I HAVEN’T BEEN ABLE TO SEE HER YET.
4. Are you easy to get along with?
Depends on who you ask, I guess.
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
More likely than not.
6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
Blond hair, blue eyes… the eye colour doesnt really matter tbh but that seems to be the trend. Not douchey.
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?
Uhh.. that’s wishful thinking.
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?
Those dang Finnish boys #lifecrisis
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
Yes.
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Probs one of those Finnish boys
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?
I sent an article to my mom about how Canada was gonna be colder than Antarctica and mars. lmao I love this freaking country.
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
Freedom 90 - Pitch Perfect Cast
Saturday Night - Whigfield
New Year’s Day - TSwift
New Rules - Dua Lipa
Hopeless Romantic - Scott Middough
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?
Yeah dude point me to a girl who doesn’t
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?
Lmao no not really
15. What good thing happened this summer?
I turned 20 and apparently had a life resolution. Ditch those crappy people y’all, they aint worth your time
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Debatable…
17. Do you think there is life on other planets?
18. Do you still talk to your first crush?
Don’t even remember who my first crush was so that’s probably a no.
19. Do you like bubble baths?
Yo. My kryptonite. My res only had showers for the 4 months I was there and I legit cried when I say my bathtub so.
20. Do you like your neighbors?
As long as I can’t hear them, I don’t really care
21. What are you bad habits?
Getting super snippy when I’m hungry. Um… constantly being on my phone? Idk what else. Being blunt?
22. Where would you like to travel?
I just want to go back to England at this point
23. Do you have trust issues?
hahahah AHAHAHAHAHHA bye
24. Favorite part of your daily routine?
the fact I didnt wake up until like mid afternoon in the uk… now literally nothing
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
My stomach? Or maybe my arms
26. What do you do when you wake up?
Check my phone notifs
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
Maybe a tad darker because im literally pale af but otherwise no
28. Who are you most comfortable around?
my best friends aka girls
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?
No? One of my ex’s once told one of my friends to check on me though cause he was worried.. it was strange.
30. Do you ever want to get married?
Also, debatable. I’m loving my alone life right now.
31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?
If it wasn’t I would literally cry so. Every time I get it cut we make sure it goes into a pony because of dance and stuff.
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?
Anna Kendrick and is Tessa Virtue a celebrity? I think she is. Wow… that is quite the threesome honestly. Gotta have different life experiences I suppose.
33. Spell your name with your chin.
grasysdoihj
34. Do you play sports? What sports?
Dance and soccer. dance is a sport dont argue with me
35. Would you rather live without TV or music?
TV I guess. But either option would be pretty lame.
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
In my 20 years, yeah probably
37. What do you say during awkward silences?
Nothing, I usually check my phone or something
38. Describe your dream girl/guy?
Not an inconsiderate douchebag. And someone that lives in the same country as me.
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?
NEWLOOK, River Island, ASOS, RW and Co, Dynamite (sometimes the Bay)
40. What do you want to do after high school?
Be a lawyer.
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Nah man.
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?
I’m fucking mad and u best walk away before I slit you in half. Or I’m tired. Or im not comfortable with the situation
43. Do you smile at strangers?
I barely even look up so no
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?
Bottom of the ocean
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
That maybe it’ll be cold enough for me to take a bath at some point… I have a lame Canadian life. And I also don’t wanna be a university drop out so there’s also that.
46. What are you paranoid about?
People following me… like not on social media. Just like in general
47. Have you ever been high?
Nope
48. Have you ever been drunk?
Potentially? Idk man, probably not
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
Oh yeah. But I told my friends about it so does that really count?
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?
Navy
51. Ever wished you were someone else?
Everyone wishes they were T Virtue so.
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
I wish I could make myself want to go to the gym an exercise. But yet, here I am
53. Favourite makeup brand?
Anastasia Beverley Hills/Tarte/Fenty Beauty
54. Favourite store?
Did I not already answer this?
55. Favourite blog?
Mine. Shameless self promo
https://graysonwadsworth2.wixsite.com/hayitsgray
56. Favourite colour?
Grey/Teal/Burgundy
57. Favourite food?
G A R L I C B R E A D
58. Last thing you ate?
I’m about to eat a huge ass bowl of oatmeal
59. First thing you ate this morning?
This huge ass bowl of oatmeal. It’s 9:25 PM in case y’all were wondering.
60. Ever won a competition? For what?
Many. For dance.
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?
No, I’m an angel. Just kidding.
62. Been arrested? For what?
Nope.
63. Ever been in love?
Yep.
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?
Happened on a cruise ship in the middle of the Mediterranean Sea and I stupidly decided to play a game where we were trying to get our faces as close as possible without kissing… I was dumb okay lmao.
65. Are you hungry right now?
Mildly.
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?
I talk to my Tumblr friends more than my real friends
67. Facebook or Twitter?
Twitter
68. Twitter or Tumblr?
Why is instagram not a choice. Tumblr I guess.
69. Are you watching tv right now?
I’m watching the movie what not to expect when you’re expecting
70. Names of your bestfriends?
Harneet, Keira, Emmy, Katerina, Andy, Meghan x 2, Madi, Sydney, Emily, Lauren, Cassidy… wow… that’s so many
71. Craving something? What?
Not to be sick.
72. What colour are your towels?
My personal towels are teal. But we have brown, black. and grey ones in the bathroom too.
72. How many pillows do you sleep with?
there’s 6 on my bed right now
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
does one laying at the foot of the bed count cause otherwise no
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?
I legitimately cleaned out my entire closet this week and found my ENTIRE collection of webkinz so if we’re gonna count those probs like 300 lmao
75. Favourite animal?
Elephant
76. What colour is your underwear?
Pink
77. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Vanilla
78. Favourite ice cream flavour?
Cookie Dough OR French crisp from Laura Secord
79. What colour shirt are you wearing?
Grey
80. What colour pants?
Grey, white and pink
81. Favourite tv show?
GREYS ANATOMY
82. Favourite movie?
Moulin Rouge or Angels and Demons
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?
Mean girls who are you
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?
Jump Street
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?
Janice
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?
Dory or Crush
87. First person you talked to today?
I honestly have no idea, probably meg though… or I definitely snapchatted people
88. Last person you talked to today?
Meg
89. Name a person you hate?
Well, that would be mean.
90. Name a person you love?
My British bestie, honestly, I don’t know why I love her so much. It’s strange. My cat is the next backup.
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
No? Violence is never the answer. Passive aggressiveness is
92. In a fight with someone?
Not that I know of
93. How many sweatpants do you have?
All of my sweats are basically roots, and I honestly have too many
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?
TOO MANY
95. Last movie you watched?
Pitch Perfect 2
96. Favourite actress?
Anna Kendrick OR Reese Witherspoon
97. Favourite actor?
I am currently blanking on male actors at the moment. Let’s just go with Ryan Reynolds cause he’s funny af and married to Blake so
98. Do you tan a lot?
I burn a lot.
99. Have any pets?
A really bitchy cat
100. How are you feeling?
Sick #iloveairplanes
101. Do you type fast?
Yes, unnaturally fast. I can also type without looking at the keys which weirds a lot of people out.
102. Do you regret anything from your past?
Doesn’t everyone? It wasn’t stuff that I did myself though
103. Can you spell well?
Usually yes, lately no. I need to go back to school obviously
104. Do you miss anyone from your past?
My grandma
105. Ever been to a bonfire party?
Yep
106. Ever broken someone’s heart?
Accidentally on purpose yes
107. Have you ever been on a horse?
Yes, and I got bucked off and now refuse to ride another horse
108. What should you be doing?
Writing an essay that’s due on Friday
109. Is something irritating you right now?
The fact that I can’t fall asleep, but that’s the norm so
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
Only when they broke my heartttttt
111. Do you have trust issues?
I swear to god I’ve already answered this one
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
My best british friend. She legit left me crying in the middle of the club
113. What was your childhood nickname?
Gray gray. Or Gray goose.
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?
Yes
115. Do you play the Wii?
I used to. My console is in my closet now though
116. Are you listening to music right now?
Yes, always.
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?
MA FAVE. It’s the only soup I eat.
118. Do you like Chinese food?
YES. MY OTHER FAVE.
119. Favourite book?
13 Reasons Why, or Atonement. Soon to be: Scrappy Little Nobody
120. Are you afraid of the dark?
No.
121. Are you mean?
I am blunt. Sometimes those two can get confused
122. Is cheating ever okay?
No, y’all are scum bye
123. Can you keep white shoes clean?
Uh… if my white shoes get dirty I clean them so they’re white again
124. Do you believe in love at first sight?
No, but I believe in crushes at first sight #themodel
125. Do you believe in true love?
I mean.. maybe.
126. Are you currently bored?
Yes, hence why I’m answering all these questions
127. What makes you happy?
My friends
128. Would you change your name?
I currently am, but not my first name.
129. What your zodiac sign?
Cancer the crabbbbbb
130. Do you like subway?
Uh…. sometimes. But it’s not my go to
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Yikes, this has legit happened to me and I had to dip so fast im not even lying
132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Definitely one of those Finnish boys
133. Favourite lyrics right now?
Take back your picture in a frame
OR
sometimes the clothes do not make the man
134. Can you count to one million?
Who would ever try that? It would take forever.
135. Dumbest lie you ever told?
When I told all my profs I couldn’t write my midterm cause I had a concussion and I went to the Dominican instead #rebel
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?
Closed
137. How tall are you?
5′ 3″
138. Curly or Straight hair?
Straight hair that is curled
139. Brunette or Blonde?
Blonde
140. Summer or Winter?
Neither, I hate both. But if I had to choose, summer
141. Night or Day?
Night
142. Favourite month?
May
143. Are you a vegetarian?
No, I’d literally die because I hate vegetables
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?
milk
145. Tea or Coffee?
T E A
146. Was today a good day?
Tbh I laid in bed all day so that’s pretty ideal
147. Mars or Snickers?
Mars
148. What’s your favourite quote?
Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind - Dr. Suess (how philosophical wow)
149. Do you believe in ghosts?
Nope
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?
The young team were still getting most of their ice time in Ilderton and were preparing for the Western Ontario sectionals in the juvenile category, but in late autumn of 1998, just a week before sectionals, Scott broke his right arm playing flag football. That is the longest sentence ever wow.
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Fricking left tumblr for like a week and I missed so much. How??? Anyway, I was tagged by the amazing @dragonwinnie-kotlc for this insanely long post (like seriously who did this geez) but I love doing these so LETS DO THIS
THE LAST
1. drink: water (I literally only drink water... is that bad orrrr?)
2. phone call: mom
3. text message: best friend
4. song you listened to: Shatter Me by Lindsey Stirling
5. time you cried: yesterday in science when we watched a documentary about how humans are ruining the earth by killing endangered species (not the only way humans messed up the world btw)
6. dated someone twice: Nope
7. kissed someone and regretted it: I’m the Virgin Mary
8. been cheated on: I’m too single for this shit, next
9. lost someone special: my grandmother when I was 10
10. been depressed: watching that video in science made me wanna die so yeah it was then
11. gotten drunk and thrown up: I love Jesus
FAVOURITE COLOURS
12. Purple
13. Black
14. Navy blue
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU
15. made new friends: hells yes new friends are my favorite
16. fallen out of love: nope
17. laughed until you cried: I literally cry every time I laugh. Like I’m not even kidding and everyone’s like “wow it wasn’t that funny” like stfu Janice nobody asked u
18. found out someone was talking about you: Ooh yeah there’s a story there
19. met someone who changed you: Everyday. I think that everyone u meet changes in u in some way
20. found out who your friends are: it’s the same story
21. kissed someone on your facebook list: I don’t even have facebook. Is this like a normal thing that happens to people??? Why is this a question??
GENERAL
22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: no facebook
23. do you have any pets: two doggies, Remington and lil baby Hershey
24. do you want to change your name: No
25. what did you do for your last birthday: took my best friend baby cousin trick or treating (my birthdays around Halloween)
26. what time did you wake up: 5:30
27. what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping
28. name something you can’t wait for: the next episode of The Flash (I’m obsessed send help)
29. when was the last time you saw your mom: 15 minutes ago
31. what are you listening to right now: Leaves blowing in the wind 🍁
32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: Thomas?
33. something that is getting on your nerves: oooh this girl who I used to be friends with is so fucking ditzy it makes me wanna die. Like shut up and sit down, nobody cares that u thought u lost ur phone even tho it was in ur hand. God
34. most visited website: tumblr for sure
35. hair color: dark brown but I got caramel highlights in July so it’s lightened up
36. long or short hair: short
37. do you have a crush on someone: yes
38. what do you like about yourself: I’ve been told I’m a good listener and I give good advice
39. want any piercings: nope
40. blood type: Idk fam
41. nickname: Imma tell u some that might seem mean but this is just how my friends and I interact -> Kenna Makennahay, Makennahoe, Skank Whore. Idk where those came from I’m like the most innocent person ever.
42. relationship status: single
43. zodiac: scorpio
44. pronouns: she/her
45. favourite tv show: The Flash
46. tattoos: None
47. right or left handed: right handed
48. surgery: Ankle when I snapped it in half oops
49. piercing: None
50. sport: i don’t sport
51. vacation: Dream vacation? D.C. but only when trumps been impeached
52. pair of trainers: wut
MORE GENERAL
53. eating: Soon. I’m hungry af
54. drinking: Water
55. i’m about to: fall asleep it’s been a long week
56. waiting for: dinner to be ready. I have to help make it. No.
57. want: to live a long happy life
58. get married: yes hopefully
59. career: nursing
WHICH IS BETTER
60. hugs or kisses: hugs omg I love hugs
61. lips or eyes: eyes
62. shorter or taller: taller
63. older or younger: older
64. nice arms or nice stomach: I say both
65. hook up or relationship: relationship
66. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant
HAVE YOU EVER
67. kissed a stranger: no
68. drank hard liquor: no
69. lost glasses/contact lenses: 20/20 vision
70. turned someone down: yeah
71. sex on the first date: nope! Legs closed bible open
72. broken someone’s heart: I hope not
73. had your heart broken: not yet
74. been arrested: nope
75. cried when someone died: yes
76. fallen for a friend: no
DO YOU BELIEVE IN
77. yourself: yes, but it’s declining everyday😊
78. miracles: absolutely
79. love at first sight: in special cases
80. santa claus: nope
81. kiss on the first date: depends...
82. angels: yes
OTHER
83. current best friend’s name: Jocey
84. eye colour: hazel (so many different colors it’s odd)
85. favorite movie: Wonder Woman
Okay, now that I’m finally done, I’ll be tagging: @stuffgoeswrong @lodestarinitiative @wylieendal @themoonlarksareback @froufrouscribbles @xylia-neo @the-three-space-gals @mallowmelting
Idk if u guys have done this yet but if u haven’t, don’t feel pressured to bc I know it’s kinda daunting.
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all of them. suffer
making this a read more bc jacks the worst
1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
jack
2. Are you outgoing or shy?
outgoing
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?
my bros ig
4. Are you easy to get along with?
idk!! sometimes!
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
elmer probs would. jack would probs make fun of me. or hed b drunker than me
6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
kinda gay 1s and girl soccer players
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?
jesus i hope so
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?
my wife alex morgan
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
nope!
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
spot i think
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?
no were @ the park
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
mr brightside, r u mine, say you like me, uhhhhhh idk what else?
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?
fuckin love it
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?
nah
15. What good thing happened this summer?
buncha stuff. its been a rly good summer
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
no elmers icky (yes pls)
17. Do you think there is life on other planets?
yeah obviously
18. Do you still talk to your first crush?
uhh no? srry madeline from 4th grade
19. Do you like bubble baths?
no rly. i dont like sitting still 4 that long
20. Do you like your neighbors?
thyere ok
21. What are you bad habits?
I Have Never Done Anything Wrong In My Life Ever
22. Where would you like to travel?
space. also europe
23. Do you have trust issues?
sometimes
24. Favorite part of your daily routine?
talking 2 the bfs
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
uhh idrk. im tryna bulk up some
26. What do you do when you wake up?
bathroom. food.
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
uh idrc
28. Who are you most comfortable around?
My Boys
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?
nah
30. Do you ever want to get married?
probably someday
31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?
no (ive just been told that it is but its rly not)
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?
alex morgan + whoever she wants
33. Spell your name with your chin.
aqkbherrt
34. Do you play sports? What sports?
soccer
35. Would you rather live without TV or music?
god idk
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
currently tbh! it happens
37. What do you say during awkward silences?
some shitty joke
38. Describe your dream girl/guy?
bigfoot
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?
uh idrk
40. What do you want to do after high school?
be a mechanic
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
nope
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?
im overthinking
43. Do you smile at strangers?
not rly
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?
SPACE SPACE SPACE
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
having to pee or eat
46. What are you paranoid about?
idk i kinda have abandonment issues
47. Have you ever been high?
yup
48. Have you ever been drunk?
yup
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
nah
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?
black
51. Ever wished you were someone else?
nah im good!
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
seeing colors seems p cool
53. Favourite makeup brand?
i dont have 1
54. Favourite store?
again. idk
55. Favourite blog?
the bfs and also crypticaesthetic
56. Favourite colour?
black
57. Favourite food?
pizza
58. Last thing you ate?
a bagel
59. First thing you ate this morning?
…a bagel
60. Ever won a competition? For what?
uh i dont think so?
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?
ive been suspended loads of times. and ig i was kinda expelled? for having bad grades
62. Been arrested? For what?
yup. mostly shoplifting and vandalism. oops
63. Ever been in love?
currently
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?
it was @ a movie theater and it was not good
65. Are you hungry right now?
nah but i could eat
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?
my tumblr friends r my real friends
67. Facebook or Twitter?
twitter
68. Twitter or Tumblr?
tumblr
69. Are you watching tv right now?
nope
70. Names of your bestfriends?
elmer jack n spot
71. Craving something? What?
pizza
72. What colour are your towels?
grey i think? idk
72. How many pillows do you sleep with?
a bunch
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
nah
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?
ive got a few. like… 3 maybe
75. Favourite animal?
dogs
76. What colour is your underwear?
black
77. Chocolate or Vanilla?
chocolate
78. Favourite ice cream flavour?
depends on the day but rocky road
79. What colour shirt are you wearing?
white
80. What colour pants?
black
81. Favourite tv show?
uhhh x files is rly cool. also like ghost hunters n shit like that
82. Favourite movie?
the fast and the furious
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?
mean girls wtf
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?
mean girls
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?
janice
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?
the butt
87. First person you talked to today?
elmer n spot
88. Last person you talked to today?
uh idk im w ppl now so…….
89. Name a person you hate?
my dad
90. Name a person you love?
my mom
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
always
92. In a fight with someone?
eh not actively
93. How many sweatpants do you have?
So Many
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?
like 4? 5?
95. Last movie you watched?
trolls
96. Favourite actress?
anna kendrick. actually WAIT NO. medda
97. Favourite actor?
chris pratt maybe
98. Do you tan a lot?
hahahahahahahhahaha no
99. Have any pets?
no :(((
100. How are you feeling?
gr8!!!!!!!!
101. Do you type fast?
im ok
102. Do you regret anything from your past?
eh. not rly but i do wish some stuff didnt happen
103. Can you spell well?
sometimes
104. Do you miss anyone from your past?
y u p
105. Ever been to a bonfire party?
yeah! theyre fun!
106. Ever broken someone’s heart?
i hope not!
107. Have you ever been on a horse?
yup
108. What should you be doing?
probs paying attention 2 my friends
109. Is something irritating you right now?
not 2 bad
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
god yes
111. Do you have trust issues?
already answered this
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
jack
113. What was your childhood nickname?
albie
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?
yeah ofc
115. Do you play the Wii?
i like how this is phrased. like “do u play guitar? do u play flute? do u play wii?” but yeah i play wii
116. Are you listening to music right now?
nope
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?
fuck yeah
118. Do you like Chinese food?
Y E S HOLY SHIT
119. Favourite book?
football and the halftime prince
120. Are you afraid of the dark?
nah. but i dont see 2 good n the dark
121. Are you mean?
not rly.
122. Is cheating ever okay?
No.
123. Can you keep white shoes clean?
hahahah no
124. Do you believe in love at first sight?
nah. but u can def think some1s hot @ 1st sight
125. Do you believe in true love?
yeah
126. Are you currently bored?
nope!
127. What makes you happy?
My Boys, my family, soccer, cryptids
128. Would you change your name?
nah my names stupid but i can work w it
129. What your zodiac sign?
libra
130. Do you like subway?
the sandwiches or the train system? either way yeah
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
…….i dont have a best friend of the opposite sex
132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
spot
133. Favourite lyrics right now?
ALRIGHTALRIGHTALRIGHTALRIGHTALRIGHTALRIGHTALRIGHTALRIGHT
134. Can you count to one million?
i could but i wont
135. Dumbest lie you ever told?
god. 2 many 2 count
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?
closed
137. How tall are you?
6′
138. Curly or Straight hair?
i have straight hair
139. Brunette or Blonde?
idc but i prefer darker hair
140. Summer or Winter?
winter
141. Night or Day?
night
142. Favourite month?
october
143. Are you a vegetarian?
def not
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?
the darker the better
145. Tea or Coffee?
coffee. tea is garbo
146. Was today a good day?
yeah!!
147. Mars or Snickers?
snicks
148. What’s your favourite quote?
uh………. idk i dont rly have 1
149. Do you believe in ghosts?
y e s
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?
there r no books around me
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Here you go @pxrasayo (sorry it's a few days late babe) 1. Who was the last person you held hands with? @pxrasayo 2. Are you outgoing or shy? It depends how I'm feeling really, if I'm really happy and excited I can talk to anyone but most of the time I'm quite nervous 3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? My dog, my mum and my gf 4. Are you easy to get along with? I'm pretty sure I am, yeah 5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? "If you drink I'll probably leave"-my gf about prom 6. What kind of people are you attracted to? I'm attracted to passionate people, often with interesting stories or views 7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? I'll be in the same relationship two months from now 8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? Nobodyyy 9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Depends who it's with tbh 10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? My group chat I think 11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? 'Two days ago' 12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? •I Adore U-Adore Delano •Loved Like This-Tatiana Manaois •Strangers-Halsey ft Lauren Jauregui •I Have Questions/Crying In The Club-Camila Cabello •I Was Made For Loving You-Tori Kelly ft Ed Sheeran 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? I love it when my gf does 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? I'm not sure 15. What good thing happened this summer? The last summer I had I learned a lot about life and myself 16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Definitely 17. Do you think there is life on other planets? Yeah 18. Do you still talk to your first crush? Nopeeee 19. Do you like bubble baths? Yeah 20. Do you like your neighbors? We only talk to one but he's lovely 21. What are your bad habits? I overthink a lot and I'm so sensitive and passionate about certain issues 22. Where would you like to travel? Everywhereeee-I wanna visit Philippines 23. Do you have trust issues? Idk I don't think so 24. Favorite part of your daily routine? Calling my gf at night 25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? Idk I don't like most of it tbh?? But probably my stomach or legs 26. What do you do when you wake up? I usually get ready and text my gf good morning 27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? Neither 28. Who are you most comfortable around? Robyn, Lue, Jean 29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? Not directly but it has been hinted 30. Do you ever want to get married? I would only get married if my gf wanted to, because I'm not religious and I don't see the point in marriage unless at least one of the people getting married is religious 31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? Yeah 32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? Adore Delano and Lauren Jauregui (sorry babe) 33. Spell your name with your chin. Aht 34. Do you play sports? What sports? Nope 35. Would you rather live without TV or music? TV 36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? I don't think so actually?? I'm pretty open with feelings 37. What do you say during awkward silences? I'm just silent tbh 38. Describe your dream girl/guy? @pxrasayo 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? The Disney Store 40. What do you want to do after high school? I wanna go to uni for psychology and travel a lot 41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? Depends what they did 42. If you're being extremely quiet what does it mean? I'm thinking too much probably, or I'm distracted 43. Do you smile at strangers? Yeah 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? Spaceeee 45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? My dog ahaha 46. What are you paranoid about? Like everything, I'm most scared of my relationship ending badly though 47. Have you ever been high? Nope 48. Have you ever been drunk? Yeahhh 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? Nope 50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? Black 51. Ever wished you were someone else? I've wanted to be Lauren Jauregui a couple times 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? Idk I kinda wish I could change how anxious I get 53. Favourite makeup brand? I don't have one 54. Favourite store? X 55. Favourite blog? Don't really have one I guess just whichever blogs I reblog from most 56. Favourite colour? Blue 57. Favourite food? Idk?? Spicy noodle soup is great 58. Last thing you ate? I don't remember 59. First thing you ate this morning? I haven't eaten today 60. Ever won a competition? For what? I've won a spelling competition and a writing competition 61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? Nope 62. Been arrested? For what? Nope 63. Ever been in love? I am rn 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? My first kiss was with Charlie because he was trying to kiss everyone at the party and after he kissed me he felt bad because he took my first kiss ahahah 65. Are you hungry right now? Nope 66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? I love and trust @watduidu a lot more than some of my irl friends 67. Facebook or Twitter? Facebook 68. Twitter or Tumblr? Tumblr 69. Are you watching tv right now? Nope 70. Names of your bestfriends? Robyn, Lue, Jean 71. Craving something? What? Tea 72. What colour are your towels? Idk loads of different colours 72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2 73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Yeahhh I do 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? Like 30?? Maybe more idk 75. Favourite animal? Foxxxx 76. What colour is your underwear? Black 77. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate 78. Favourite ice cream flavour? Chocolate fudge brownie 79. What colour shirt are you wearing? White 80. What colour pants? Black 81. Favourite tv show? The 100 even though it's a piece of crap 82. Favourite movie? Moana, Les Mis, HTTYD, Ghostbusters 83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? Mean Girls 84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? Mean Girls 85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? Janice?? Is that her name 86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Dory 87. First person you talked to today? Robyn 88. Last person you talked to today? It'll probably be my gf 89. Name a person you hate? Lol no 90. Name a person you love? My gf 91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? Trump 92. In a fight with someone? Nah 93. How many sweatpants do you have? Idk?? 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? Like 10 but only 2 are actually mine 95. Last movie you watched? Beauty & The Beast 96. Favourite actress? Emma Watson or Katie McGrath 97. Favourite actor? Idk?? I like Ricky Whittle 98. Do you tan a lot? I don't tan or burn 99. Have any pets? Two dogs, Max and Woody 100. How are you feeling? Pretty ill 101. Do you type fast? Yeah I guess 102. Do you regret anything from your past? Nah 103. Can you spell well? Yeah 104. Do you miss anyone from your past? Nah not anymore 105. Ever been to a bonfire party? Yeah 106. Ever broken someone’s heart? I don't think so?? Maybe 107. Have you ever been on a horse? Yeahhh 108. What should you be doing? Revising 109. Is something irritating you right now? How ill I feel 110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? Yeaaaah I do rn 111. Do you have trust issues? X 112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? Ummm my whole family whilst watching A Dog's Purpose 113. What was your childhood nickname? Ning-Ning/Spud/AJ 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? Yeah? 115. Do you play the Wii? I used to but it's broken now 116. Are you listening to music right now? The radio yes 117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? Yeah I guess 118. Do you like Chinese food? Yeahhh 119. Favourite book? Because You'll Never Meet Me 120. Are you afraid of the dark? Yeah a lil 121. Are you mean? I don't think so?? I can be a lil mean if someone fucks with my best friends tho 122. Is cheating ever okay? No 123. Can you keep white shoes clean? Probably not 124. Do you believe in love at first sight? I think you can know that someone is gonna be important to you at first sight but not necessarily love 125. Do you believe in true love? Yeah 126. Are you currently bored? A lil 127. What makes you happy? My friends, my gf, my dog, my family 128. Would you change your name? Nah 129. What your zodiac sign? Taurus 130. Do you like subway? Yeah 131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? Just keep being friends 132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? X 133. Favourite lyrics right now? 'My name was safest in your mouth' 134. Can you count to one million? Probably but I cba 135. Dumbest lie you ever told? Probably something about alcohol like 'I don't drink' 136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? Closed 137. How tall are you? Like 5 foot 138. Curly or Straight hair? Curly 139. Brunette or Blonde? Brunette 140. Summer or Winter? I like both?? Probably winter though 141. Night or Day? Night 142. Favourite month? October 143. Are you a vegetarian? Ya 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? Milk 145. Tea or Coffee? Tea 146. Was today a good day? Not particularly 147. Mars or Snickers? Snickers 148. What’s your favourite quote? 'Sunrise will come. All you have to do is wake up.' 149. Do you believe in ghosts? Nah 150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? I'm in a car so I don't have oneeeee
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Blog #6~ Too Comfy -w-
Well tonight is the last night I am staying with my grandma in the temporary home, well at least for this weekend. I’m hoping I will come every weekend it was so nice being here spending time with her even though I spend most of my time in bed because it was so comfortable. The frame of the bed is very squeaky but my old frame from my old bed set when I used to have a twin used to be squeaky like this so it didn’t bother me. What bothers me is that every time I get on this bed I want to pass out, I can’t just lounge, I end up wanting to fall asleep, even if I slept well the night before, it’s just that fucking comfortable, I want to take this bed home with me. Not going to complain, my bed at home is almost just as comfortable. But without the tiny dog poking me and crying when I don’t pet her at the same time every day gets a little annoying but I love her anyways. It was pretty funny when I woke up this morning, the pillow cases my grandma got are like quilted textured, and I guess I was laying on one side for a long period of time, which is a shock because I tend to toss and turn frequently I’ve been told and apparently, according to my face having prints, I slept pretty solid! So that was hysterical going into the bathroom and seeing that. I started my day anyways though. Went out to the kitchen to try to make stronger coffee today so I wouldn’t pass out, which ended up failing, but I tried at least. I tried like 5 tablespoons or something like that instead of 2 ½ that I did yesterday and I still ended up knocking out for another 3 hours heh, whoops. I’ve also been getting really annoyed with these band aids, they keep falling off and won’t stick, and they are the fabric ones so they like I don’t know how to describe it, almost like shed? I hate dealing with changing them frequently. Luckily my grandma found liquid band aid in the stuff she packed from the other house that burned down. So I tried that, well because I type and am a busy women myself, that shit loves to shed/ peel up and I have to constantly reapply that crap, it smells so bad, but at least it doesn’t burn as bad as I was told it would, but maybe that means it’s not infected which I guess is a good sign yes? But as long as it keeps the skin flap part like “glued” together I’m fine with that because I really don’t want to be dealing with band aids, it really feels so much better to be typing without the band aid too, I was hitting all sorts of keys.
It is currently 6:07pm and I am waiting my dad and brother to get here so we can go out to dinner and then I’m not sure what. I know I need to pack up tonight cause my grandma is taking me home around like 10am tomorrow because she needs to go to the bank somewhat early tomorrow to help my mom out with my other grandma’s funeral, apparently the funeral home fucked my mom over in the fine print and its been just a huge mess. And with my mom being so upset they took advantage of that and really screwed her over so my grandma is helping her out. Probably sounds confusing. So my grandma that just passed away is my mom’s mom, or how I know her by is Grandma Mahoney, and the one that’s still alive and that her house burned down while she was having emergency gallbladder surgery is my dad’s mom, and I know her by Grandma Janice. So ill like try to maybe like make it easier to word it to help not confuse you guys. I confuse myself a lot. I hope that all made sense.
It is now 10.20pm, we went out to eat, me and grandma watched once upon a time and I mostly packed up for going back home, I don’t think I’m going to take everything home, because what is the point. It was annoying at dinner my grandma asked my brother if he ever wanted to spend the night and its like ummm where exactly do u expect him to sleep? Cause she said this was MY room, and she said I could leave my stuff here, my brother is very unhygienic and is a horn dog, also is a bad idea cause it has two windows and the front door is right there and my grandma is nearly deaf, she wouldn’t hear him if he snuck out. My brother is an imature and irresponsible person. I’m here to keep an eye on my grandma and to help her out around the house, she had surgery about a month ago now, but she’s had vertigo for years now and she has her dizzy spells and there is a lot of big steps around the house, and god only knows if my grandma ask anything, and I mean ANYTHING of my brother he’s going to bitch and moan about it and she doesn’t deserve that, she deserves someone who is willing to help her, and spend time with her. For everything she’s done for me growing up, this is the least I can do for her! Plus I love spending time with my grandparents I always have, I still always have gotten excited going to my grandparents’ house even though I’m 20 years old. Its always like what can I show them this time, I always love trying to impress my grandma, she loves my artwork, but my whole family was always into art actually on both sides of my family so there is no big surprise there. Everyone was like so talented and I’m just abstracted and different from the bunch so my grandma enjoyed the uniqueness in my pieces she’s really been missing me doing my art, but I’ve been trying on stuff but it just hasn’t been coming out the same. Not the same feel as when I going through what I was back then. But that’s another story for another time if you guys want to hear about that dark depressing time back in the day.
Well I think that is it for this post, I shall write to you all tomorrow, goodnight everyone.
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A L L OF T H E M
1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
A friend
2. Are you outgoing or shy?
both?
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?
My fam
4. Are you easy to get along with?
Idk??
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
I don’t even like anyone so no
6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
The bad boy RIP me
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?
Ha no
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?
Nate cause he is currently exasperating
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
Nah
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Maggie
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?
I cannot handle you (@nate)
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
Work this body - walk the moon
The way you look tonight - Frank Sinatra
Nobody but me - Michael Buble
Ordinary World - Green Day
Still Breathing - Green Day
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?
Ye
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?
Depends
15. What good thing happened this summer?
Going to my cabin
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
I’m not planning on it
17. Do you think there is life on other planets?
Duh
18. Do you still talk to your first crush?
HAHA no
19. Do you like bubble baths?
sure
20. Do you like your neighbors?
No they are loud and stupid
21. What are you bad habits?
My throat chakra is overactive
22. Where would you like to travel?
Italy, Spain, Japan
23. Do you have trust issues?
yes
24. Favorite part of your daily routine?
Seeing my friends
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
My stomach and thighs
26. What do you do when you wake up?
Check my messages
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
I’m okay with my skin color but like being a little more tan wouldn’t be bad
28. Who are you most comfortable around?
Mate and Naggie
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?
Yup he’s still telling me it too
30. Do you ever want to get married?
yes
31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?
Yes
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?
Andy Biersack and Brendon Urie
33. Spell your name with your chin.
erucas
34. Do you play sports? What sports?
Tennis and On a bowling league
35. Would you rather live without TV or music?
TV
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
Of course
37. What do you say during awkward silences?
Literally anything I hate them
38. Describe your dream girl/guy?
Dark hair, tall, leather jacket, etc
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?
Idk man like khols or something Idc
40. What do you want to do after high school?
Yo I’m old Im out of HS
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
mmmmmmm depends
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?
I’m probably pissed at u so
43. Do you smile at strangers?
I do the white people smile if we make eye contact
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?
Outer space r u kidding me the bottom of the ocean is probably scary as fuck
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
Class
46. What are you paranoid about?
That everyone secretly hates me also that my pad is leaking also that I’m pregnant when my period comes late even tho it’s impossible cause like no thx to sex
47. Have you ever been high?
Nope and I don’t plan on it
48. Have you ever been drunk?
Not even close
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
Nope
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?
Red
51. Ever wished you were someone else?
I used to when I was younger
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
There are a lot so
53. Favourite makeup brand?
Idk I like my tarte pallet
54. Favourite store?
Father Time Antiques, Lush, Candle stores
55. Favourite blog?
Idk man they’re all good
56. Favourite colour?
Purple
57. Favourite food?
Actual good Ramen
58. Last thing you ate?
Pizza
59. First thing you ate this morning?
French Fries
60. Ever won a competition? For what?
Tennis and in orchestra
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?
Nope
62. Been arrested? For what?
Nope
63. Ever been in love?
I thought so at the time
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?
So the guy and I went to see the life of Pi. We sat near the end of the aisle. After the movie we stood up to leave and he decided that would be a good time to kiss me. There were people lining up behind us to get out bc we were blocking the only exit on that level. On top of that, when he decided to kiss me, he decided to go in with tongue. I did not. He licked my lips. We also knocked glasses bc it was 2012 and he had the huge hipster glasses on. RIP me
65. Are you hungry right now?
Sorta
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?
My real friends r pretty cool
67. Facebook or Twitter?
FB I guess I hardly remember to check my twitter
68. Twitter or Tumblr?
Tumblr
69. Are you watching tv right now?
Ye
70. Names of your bestfriends?
Maggie and Nate
71. Craving something? What?
Asian food, as per usual
72. What colour are your towels?
So many colors
72. How many pillows do you sleep with?
One who tf can sleep with any more than that
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
not at college but at home they’re still in my room
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?
So many
75. Favourite animal?
Jelly fish
76. What colour is your underwear?
Pink and gray stripes
77. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Chocolate
78. Favourite ice cream flavour?
Ben and Jerry’s Americone dream
79. What colour shirt are you wearing?
Black
80. What colour pants?
Gray
81. Favourite tv show?
Kitchen Nightmares
82. Favourite movie?
V for Vendetta or Pirates of the Caribbean
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?
Mean girls
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?
I haven’t seen 21 jump street
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?
Janice and Damien
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?
the angsty fish whose fin is fucked and Crush
87. First person you talked to today?
Nate
88. Last person you talked to today?
Nate and Maggie
89. Name a person you hate?
Not gonna name names but it starts with a B
90. Name a person you love?
My fam
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
Nate cause he’s exasperating cause he walked to maggie’s house instead of taking the bus like a fool even though it was so easy to take the bus but no he had to walk cause he’s a chicken also maggie’s Ex bf cause like ugh he sucks
92. In a fight with someone?
No
93. How many sweatpants do you have?
Like one pair but technically they’re joggers
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?
Who knows man
95. Last movie you watched?
V for Vendetta
96. Favourite actress?
Emma Watson
97. Favourite actor?
Johnny Depp or Leo Dicap
98. Do you tan a lot?
Yeah
99. Have any pets?
I wish
100. How are you feeling?
Idk fine man
101. Do you type fast?
Yeah I do I could beat anyone in a typing contest
102. Do you regret anything from your past?
I mean I’ve made bad decisions but there’s no reason to dwell and regret bc what happened has happened and u can’t change it
103. Can you spell well?
Yes
104. Do you miss anyone from your past?
yes
105. Ever been to a bonfire party?
Yes
106. Ever broken someone’s heart?
Apparently but he broke mine first so idk how I broke his
107. Have you ever been on a horse?
Yes
108. What should you be doing?
Homework oops
109. Is something irritating you right now?
My friend refused to take the bus and walked to our friend’s house instead I stg
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
Yes but they were fictional oops
111. Do you have trust issues?
Yup
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Nate
113. What was your childhood nickname?]Erike
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?
Yes
115. Do you play the Wii?
Occasionally
116. Are you listening to music right now?
No
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?
Yes
118. Do you like Chinese food?
Yes
119. Favourite book?
The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold
120. Are you afraid of the dark?
If I’m outside and alone then a little
121. Are you mean?
Depends on who you are
122. Is cheating ever okay?
Only in Monopoly man
123. Can you keep white shoes clean?
I can try
124. Do you believe in love at first sight?
MMMmmmmmmmmmm idk maybe if it happened to me I would
125. Do you believe in true love?
Yes
126. Are you currently bored?
No
127. What makes you happy?
A lot of things but mainly music and good food and my friends
128. Would you change your name?
Probably not
129. What your zodiac sign?
Cancer
130. Do you like subway?
It’s fine I guess
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Date them if I like them back or literally nothing if I don’t like them back idk
132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Maggie
133. Favourite lyrics right now?
All of them from Still breathing by green day
134. Can you count to one million?
I can but I don’t want to
135. Dumbest lie you ever told?
That I was okay with eating McDonalds even though I despise fast food
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?
Closed
137. How tall are you?
Five Five
138. Curly or Straight hair?
I have straight but I want curly
139. Brunette or Blonde?
Brunette
140. Summer or Winter?
Summer
141. Night or Day?
Night
142. Favourite month?
July
143. Are you a vegetarian?
Nope I like meat too much
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?
Dark all the way
145. Tea or Coffee?
Tea
146. Was today a good day?
It was pretty chill
147. Mars or Snickers?
Snickers
148. What’s your favourite quote?
Things can fall apart, or threaten to, for many reasons, and then there’s got to be a leap of faith. Ultimately, when you’re at the edge, you have to go forward or backward; if you go forward, you have to jump together. ~ Yo-Yo Ma
And also
“I used to think the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It’s not. The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel all alone.” - Robin Williams
And also
“Life isn’t about how popular you are, what boy or girl you’re dating or who you know. Life is about always being true to who you are and what you believe in. Never let anyone convince you that their way is better than your way.” ― Andy Biersack
And also
“No one can make you inferior without your consent.” -Eleanor Roosevelt
149. Do you believe in ghosts?
Fuck yeah
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?
“I’m still not clear on this. Why me? Why not the Police” - From one of Maggie’s random books on the floor
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1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
a very sweet girl
2. Are you outgoing or shy?
outgoing for the most part
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?
um no one particularly atm
4. Are you easy to get along with?
very
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
I would hope but I wouldn't get drunk so it's fine lol
6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
can't begin to explain that..I just know it when I see it
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?
I doubt it but I don't try to figure out the future anymore. if somethings meant to be it happens
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?
um..... Mark Cuban XD XD XD
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
I wouldn't say that ha...i'm all for it lmaaoo
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
ummm i think my mom
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?
something lol
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
be the one-dua lipa, temple-tonight alive, new rules-dua lipa,dusk til dawn-sia,falling-haim
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?
oh yessss
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?
luck not really..in a sense i guess. miracles absolutely
15. What good thing happened this summer?
uh honestly it's kinda a blur to me
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
absolutely
17. Do you think there is life on other planets?
yes
18. Do you still talk to your first crush?
no haha he was from elementary school
19. Do you like bubble baths?
yaaaaaassssss
20. Do you like your neighbors?
i don't know them
21. What are you bad habits?
leaving drinks and bottles unfinished/out.. messy room.. too many things tbh
22. Where would you like to travel?
soooo many places...anywhere...everywhere
23. Do you have trust issues?
not really...I trust too easy
24. Favorite part of your daily routine?
coming home from work..or going to bed lol
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
stomach :(
26. What do you do when you wake up?
wish I could go back to sleep
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
darker
28. Who are you most comfortable around?
a few people
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?
not really
30. Do you ever want to get married?
maybe
31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?
yes
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?
uhhhh XD not really the threesome type but.. erm. lets just not lol
33. Spell your name with your chin.
wutt
34. Do you play sports? What sports?
hell no.
35. Would you rather live without TV or music?
tv
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
um.. ya probably a couple times when i was younger but i'm usually pretty straight forward about it
37. What do you say during awkward silences?
random shit
38. Describe your dream girl/guy?
it'd take too long
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?
target.. bath and body works.. publix.. hot topic.. vans..
40. What do you want to do after high school?
i'm outta school bitchess
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
usually
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?
it depends. either i'm really tired or thinking about something/daydreaming or don't feel good
43. Do you smile at strangers?
ya i get paid to every day XD
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?
spaceeeeee. but the ocean would be cool too. those are like my two fave things
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
moneeeyyy.
HAAHA i'm so kidding.
um... you know.. i have to think about that one. just trying to be the best person i can and try my best in life i guess... and my cats lol
46. What are you paranoid about?
stupid shit all the time
47. Have you ever been high?
no
48. Have you ever been drunk?
no but close like one time lol i'm a good noodle
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
probably but cant think of what.
oh wait... yuppp yuppp.... hahahahahha
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?
black
51. Ever wished you were someone else?
maybe before but i dont really these days
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
my weight. but luckily i can change it..and i'm trying
53. Favourite makeup brand?
not a huge makeup girl but i guess elf
54. Favourite store?
i already answered that pretty much but i guess if i have to choose... target. well. but publix tho. both
55. Favourite blog?
follow too many..like alot..dont really have one fave
56. Favourite colour?
purple. black. silver. blue
57. Favourite food?
so many foods. publix subs are bae though. and steak is awesome. and any pasta
58. Last thing you ate?
some chunky peanut butter on a slice of bread and some ramen noodles with sweet peas lol
59. First thing you ate this morning?
oatmeal and my vegan maple sausage haha
60. Ever won a competition? For what?
ummm... I dont think so. i'm not that cool
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?
nah
62. Been arrested? For what?
nooo lol
63. Ever been in love?
yes
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?
well i have two stories XD when I was in 2nd grade I pretty much forced my kisses upon this kid on the playground ahahah.... but really when I was 14, with my first boyfriend, it was outside my apartment by a tree and pond and it was super de duper awkward but i think at the time i thought it was the greatest thing ever but it was actually awful lol
65. Are you hungry right now?
nah i'm full and too tired to be hungry
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?
no
67. Facebook or Twitter?
facebook
68. Twitter or Tumblr?
tumblr
69. Are you watching tv right now?
yes..shark tank
70. Names of your bestfriends?
rue. and lamby. my cats XD XD XD jk but i have a few
71. Craving something? What?
cuddles. sleep. blankets. kisses.
72. What colour are your towels?
all the colors
72. How many pillows do you sleep with?
like 5
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
sometimes
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?
several
75. Favourite animal?
so many. elephants. cows. penguins. cats.... i love all animals though
76. What colour is your underwear?
black
77. Chocolate or Vanilla?
chocolate
78. Favourite ice cream flavour?
mint
79. What colour shirt are you wearing?
black
80. What colour pants?
gray
81. Favourite tv show?
the walking dead
82. Favourite movie?
so many
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?
original
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?
thats tough but mean girls
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?
janice and karen
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?
Dory
87. First person you talked to today?
my mom
88. Last person you talked to today?
same
89. Name a person you hate?
I'm really not the hating type but the closest to hate I have for someone sadly is one of my brothers.
and donald trump XD
90. Name a person you love?
this girl
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
not really
92. In a fight with someone?
i dont think you can really call it that lol
93. How many sweatpants do you have?
at least 3
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?
like 5
95. Last movie you watched?
proud mary in the theater...twice in one weekend haha it was soooo gooood
96. Favourite actress?
many. jennifer lawrence. kate mara. sjp. melissa mccarthy
97. Favourite actor?
norman reedus
98. Do you tan a lot?
never
99. Have any pets?
2 sweet kitties
100. How are you feeling?
soooo tireddd
101. Do you type fast?
ya
102. Do you regret anything from your past?
not really regret..i just have a lot of what ifs
103. Can you spell well?
for the most part
104. Do you miss anyone from your past?
very much
105. Ever been to a bonfire party?
yes..thatd be nice right now
106. Ever broken someone’s heart?
yaa a couple times
107. Have you ever been on a horse?
yesss
108. What should you be doing?
sleeping
109. Is something irritating you right now?
not really
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
oh ya
111. Do you have trust issues?
you asked that already
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
my mom
113. What was your childhood nickname?
none really..some people called me by my middle name, deena
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?
yes
115. Do you play the Wii?
I used to alot ..not so much lately
116. Are you listening to music right now?
no, watching tv
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?
yes
118. Do you like Chinese food?
yessss
119. Favourite book?
Look Again by Lisa Scottoline. Paper Towns and Looking for Alaska by John Green
120. Are you afraid of the dark?
nah
121. Are you mean?
for sure not
122. Is cheating ever okay?
nooo
123. Can you keep white shoes clean?
i dont get all white shoes
124. Do you believe in love at first sight?
eh... i have too long of an answer for that.. i dont really know
125. Do you believe in true love?
yes
126. Are you currently bored?
no just tired
127. What makes you happy?
my cats, coffee, music, sleep, food, certain people
128. Would you change your name?
eh maybe. i dont mind it..its just too common
129. What your zodiac sign?
aquarius
130. Do you like subway?
ya but not as much as i used to
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
i dont have one of the opposite sex so dont need to worry about that problem XD
132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
again u asked that already
133. Favourite lyrics right now?
several songs. first came to mind.. goodnight moon
134. Can you count to one million?
well sure but do you think theres time for that right now? no.
135. Dumbest lie you ever told?
i'm not sure
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?
closed usually
137. How tall are you?
like 5'7 or 5'8
138. Curly or Straight hair?
in between
139. Brunette or Blonde?
brunette
140. Summer or Winter?
errmmm depends
141. Night or Day?
night
142. Favourite month?
december
143. Are you a vegetarian?
nah
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?
darrrrkk but milk is fine too
145. Tea or Coffee?
coffee
146. Was today a good day?
Ya i suppose... kinda just average really
147. Mars or Snickers?
snickers
148. What’s your favourite quote?
eh i have a few but i'm too sleepy to think
149. Do you believe in ghosts?
yes in a sense
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?
but blessed are your eyes for they see and your ears for they hear
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