The world is filled with so many beautiful people after all and who am I to think that you will hold on, hold on to me, because who am I and what are we?
I need someone to hold my hand and say "everything is going to be okay". And I think someone out there reading this might need it too. This is me, reaching out. Our hands are full of sorrow, but they can hold better the weight of the burdens we carry, so we don't have to hold them on our own. We don't have to suffer in silence. This is me holding your hand and saying "everything will be okay."
I cling to everything - CDs that skip, rings that turn my fingers green, the dead ends of my hair, old love notes that turn my stomach over and over. I'm not proud but there are still boxes under my bed. I'm not proud but my closet is still running out of space. And nostalgia is a fucking waste of time but my heart is full with it. Tell me I won't hold this forever. Tell me there will be a day where I let gloriously go.
when it rains i will turn my face to the sky and let the water spray my skin. i will let you overflow in me. i will let you in. please march bear with me as i lick my wounds from february. please march, will you smile on me? dote on me? pick me out from the crowd of people and shine on me? will you love me? will you hold me as i cry and try as i might, burn with the desire to feel alive?
Maybe right now all you can feel is... hurt. And it is okay. It's okay to sit through this pain, but please remember there is still joy out there. There is still laughter, wholesome movies, cuddles, plushies, puppies, cute drawings, hands who want to hold yours, people who love you and want to comfort you even if you don't notice it. There are still cat memes, funny videos, flowers, bread, butterflies, people fighting injustice, people who want to be friends with you, warm sunlight on early mornings, stars that have been shining for so long, so hold on to life, because it means holding onto to yourself. This sadness won't last forever, even if it's trying to make you feel like it will.