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ghosts-and-blue-sweaters · 9 months

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Thing is, right, I wasn’t able to write at all during the beach trip because I slept in a camper filled with people who liked going to bed early lol and I WRITE LATE AT NIGHT OKAY THAT IS HOW I DO THINGS

So I’m gonna try writing now and see how that goes 😅 Wish me luckkkkk

#I actually did write a little bit in the car today #inspiration struck and I had to take it #you know how it is #anyway #I’m thinking about writing three stories… two of which are WIPs and another is one I haven’t started yet #hmmmmmm #my post

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starstruckmoony · 1 year

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call it what you want.

masterlist

pairing - remus lupin x fem!reader

summary - pure social media chaos. the whole gang is here. proper romance/fluff starts in the next part!

trope/tags - band/celeb!au, instagram/social media!au, modern!au, fluff, terrible humour

word count - 610

warnings - language

part 1 / part 2 / part 3

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yourusername go buy yourself some roses.

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rjlupin

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rjlupin anyone wanna be my valentine? 🤪

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rjlupin people change y/n

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rjlupin i did though

starmanblack bf material 😜

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marymacdonald no, she went to get milk

vance_emm your mum went to get milk

user637722 ME ME ME ME ME

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user111002 half of y'all are just forgetting you're famous HELPP

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yourusername a lil throwback to last year - my favourite people ever <3

tagged rjlupin, mmmckinnon

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starmanblack personally i like marlene more

yourusername don't we all?

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rjlupin broke into y/n's house today

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rjlupin that's your job sirius

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ev.rosier new music?

rjlupin hmmmmmm

mmmckinnon you should have invited me

rjlupin it didn't cross my mind oops

mmmckinnon i wonder why

lily_evans isn't that illegal?

prongsyboy to me, personally, it's cute

lily_evans i did not ask

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yourusername something is cooking...

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marymacdonald no one say sike

pete__ SIKE HAHA

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yourusername my best friend is cooler (and drunker) than yours

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rjlupin cute but you're cooler anyway

yourusername are you flirting with me?

rjlupin depends how you define flirting

prongsyboy damn

starmanblack tell him to give me my jacket back

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rjlupin thanks pete

user675677 two pretty drunk best friends

user157463 is no one gonna talk about them lowkey flirting in the comments?

user224000 god really does have favourites

tagging some of my lovely mutuals <3

@sp1rit-realm @masivechaos @innerloverpainter @forourmoons @sw34terw34ther @withastrangerheart @nyxxxxxxxx @goodoldfashionedluvergirl @laluna0 @incorrectwolfstar

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elliotts-pocket-crab · 9 months

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My every day schedule (by Elliott)

4am: wake up, get showered, dry hair, get dressed

5:45 am: make breakfast and coffee

6am: FARMER IS AWAKE OH THE ANGEL HAS AWAKENED!! Time to sing praises to the most beautiful queen alive (and also give her breakfast)

6:20am: kiss farmer goodbye, wash dishes. Do some cleaning around the house

9am: work!

10am: realize that I got off schedule writing personal poems about farmer barbie, then take something out of the freezer for dinner. Then, I take a break

11am: make lunch for the most beautiful amazing wife in the world (and myself)

Around 11:30am: SHES HERE!! SHES BACK FOR LUNCH!!! BE STILL MY HEART!

Around 11:45am: spend a lazy afternoon cozied to her on the loveseat as we watch a show together (until I inevitably fall asleep)

1:30pm: I wake up from my nap and she is not there :( she has, however, left a red lipstick kiss on my forehead before she left. Oh, right! Shouldn’t I actually get some writing done today?

4:30pm: i finish working for today and start dinner.

5:30pm: my beautiful wife is home for dinner and the rest of the night!!! This is my favorite part of the day!

6pm: after she’s done eating, she thanks me and i run her a bath. I know her poor muscles must be aching from all the heavy lifting and hard work.

6:10pm: i do dishes and wait for her to come to our bedroom

6:45pm: hmmmmmm ;)

10pm: I’m fast asleep! Excited for another day on the farm

#stardew valley elliott #stardew valley hcs #stardew elliott #elliott stardew valley #sdv elliott #farmer barbie #farmer oc

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mareenavee · 8 months

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For the positivity asks!!! I remembered!

3. One of the best takes you’ve ever seen 6. Ship or platonic relationship that you got into because of the fans 17. Something you love that you don’t often share because you’re worried what others will think.

OH HELLO FRIENMBD <3 Let me do a positivity one first today!

Positivity Asks from this game right here.

3. One of the best takes you’ve ever seen

Since I've been YELLING all over tumblr about their work all day, for some reason ( :> ) I'm going to talk about @paraparadigm and @polypolymorph 's Soul Magic in Gathering Souls. (It's NECROMANCY!!!!!! I said I'd yell with ya'll.) Actually. Let me just.... let me let it speak for itself.

From Gathering Souls, Chapter 8: The moth’s soul was tiny—the smallest of flutters, like a gust of breath on one’s cheek. The moment of absorption would have been easy to miss had she not been vigilant to it. It came in a brief flash—a world illuminated, wrought in light of impossible complexity, shadows infinitely richer and more nuanced than hers where its perception stretched beyond her human spectrum. It was pure, unmuddled will, or perhaps pure desire—the moth noticed, therefore it went, with no separation between the doing and the doer, the subject and the object. Its pain was keen, yet brief. There had been neither fear, nor surprise, and she had to keep herself still as a pane of glass to avoid smearing it with her own reaction. She cradled the little thing, the feeling of it like some precious splinter she was loathe to break even as it buried itself in skin and flesh, then deeper until it slowed, suspended in the vast void she only noticed when she came into contact with whatever it was that constituted a being’s soul.

Augh. Just read the series and thank me later.

6. Ship or platonic relationship that you got into because of the fans.

The fans? Hmmmmmm. It's a good one. I really have to think about this one because obviously LDB / or LDB & fics are very common. But less so NPC/NPC. So I'm actually going to talk about a ship I didn't know I needed, or that other people needed, and still am baffled ya'll were behind something that, yes, originally started out as a hellship. I'm talking about Teldryn/Athis. (Ceth, augh your art. I love it. It's here for those wondering.) This ship has spawned two and a half stories so far and I really hope more people pick this ship or platonic relationship up. It works in its weird little way and the people who loved them and read my writing (the fans!) make me want to keep writing more of that.

17. Something you love that you don’t often share because you’re worried what others will think.

I usually am pretty transparent about what I love in fandom. I suppose what I don't say often is that while I don't read pwp, there are a great many fics that feature some degree of smut that has to do with the plot of the story, most of the time. I'll usually read through it unaffected, though, to be perfectly frank. ("Ah yes, good on ya, woo, you did it, now what's the next part of the story...?")

People assume because of my aceness that it affects me in some negative way. It doesn't. I just find it generally incredibly dull LOL. But there are a few pieces where it makes perfect sense to be happening, for the characters. When it's not in there for shock value, then it's good. Even better if it's more psychological, ie -- the less actually said, the more vivid? If that makes sense. No ikea manuals here, pff. No thanks, I know and I'm more than over it.

#positivity asks #AskMareena #paraparadigm #Always read the fine print #gathering souls #errant souls archive #fanficblr #tes #tesblr #elder scrolls #skyrim #skyrim fic

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sergeantsporks · 2 years

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Writing request: Hunter and Darius digging graves for the Golden guards. Hunter contemplating that he could have been one of those skulls, Hunter asking Darius and Flapjack to tell him about his predecessor and his ortet respectivelly, to get to know his family, other stuff we mentioned.

Hmmmmmm using this for Dadrius week :)

Chapter 5: In Loving Memory of

Hunter eyed Darius as he picked up plates, the eggs long gone. Darius could feel his stare burning into his back. “What is it?”

“You look… nice,” Hunter said skeptically.

“Thank you.”

“You said you wouldn’t wear something like that in the house. So you’re going out today?”

“Very astute.”

“Where are you going?”

“Out,” Darius replied vaguely, rinsing the plates off in the sink.

“Hm.”

Oh, he’s just going to tail me from the moment I leave the house.

“King found…” Darius pinched the bridge of his nose. “Did he tell you what he found?”

Hunter shook his head.

“Ah. No, I suppose he wouldn’t. He found a… graveyard, of sorts. A mass pit grave, more accurately.”

Hunter shuddered. “And you’re going to go try and figure out who’s dead? Contact family?”

“We-ell,” Darius said slowly, “We… already know who’s dead.”

“Good start. Just condolences, then? That explains the outfit.”

Enough stalling. Rip the bandage off, Darius.

“It’s where Belos put his previous golden guards.”

Hunter’s mouth opened and closed like a fish for a few moments. “Oh,” he said finally in a very strangled voice, “I see.”

Darius dropped back into his seat. “I suppose you technically would be next of kin,” he tried to joke, “so here I am, contacting you.” His shoulders dropped, and he put his head in his hands. “Titan. That was bad. I didn’t… Hunter, I didn’t want to upset you, I know this is…”

“Yeah,” Hunter said softly, “Yeah, it’s… So, what are you doing?”

“Burying them properly,” Darius replied shakily, “Eber and I are… we thought they deserved that. Well, Eber thinks I should chew on my mentor’s bones for a bit to cope with the loss, but I believe a proper funeral will suffice.”

Hunter nodded, then traipsed up the stairs, disappearing into his room. Darius watched him go, then tugged on his shoes. “Come on, Eber. We’d better get a move on, there’s a lot of graves to—”

Hunter’s door opened, and he came back down, now dressed in one of the nicer outfits that Darius had bought for him, a collared yellow button up and a floor-length brown skirt. He’d brushed his hair, too. Hunter slipped his feet into his boots. “Ready.”

“You… want… to come?”

Hunter lifted his chin. “Like you said, I’m their next of kin.”

“You don’t have to—”

“I want to. Darius—” Hunter’s voice hitched, “—please.”

Darius held his hands up. “Alright! Alright. Let’s go.”

Abomination fluid swept around the three of them, and then they were standing at the head—or at least what was left of it. Hunter’s footsteps tapped neatly on the bridge. “I haven’t been here since…”

Darius stood behind him. “I know.”

Hunter took a deep breath. “Okay. Where…”

Darius steered him down a set of stairs, keeping himself on the side with the sharp drop and Hunter closer to the wall.

Crunch.

Darius’s head whipped around to see Hunter’s face, ghostly white and twisted up like he might be sick. Hunter slowly lifted his foot off of a skeletal hand, crumbling under his boot. “Sorry,” he whispered, his voice echoing around the empty chamber.

“Just… watch your step down here.”

The cave was nothing like King had described it—the jumbles of bones had been laid out in full skeletons, matched with a golden mask per skeleton. Despite the grimness of it all, Darius felt a smile twitch across his face.

“Raine,” he whispered, “They knew I was planning to come down here.”

“Do we just… bury them here?” Hunter asked. He rubbed his arms. “Feels kind of…”

“Horrible? Distasteful? A mockery of their sacrifice?” Darius suggested.

“I was going to say lonely.”

“Ah.” Darius shook his head. “Where do you think they should go?”

“Outside.”

“Sure.”

Darius picked the closest skeleton, warping it, Eberwolf, and Hunter outdoors. “I suppose we should get started?” He created an abomination with shovel hands, and created another shovel for Hunter. Eberwolf was already four paws deep in earth, the dirty flying away at his touch.

The work was slow, one skeleton at a time. Darius supposed he could warp multiple at a time, but he could tell in the way that the bones matched each other and the way the masks matched up to the general shape and size of the school that Raine had deliberately arranged each one as accurately as they could, and he didn’t want to muddle them up in the warp.

One more.

Xxx

Hunter planted each mask over the grave after he and Eber covered up the skeleton. Maybe Gus could get his construction friend to come out here and create a proper gravestone, with the mask set in it instead of a name. That would be nice. Or they could hire a professional, but Hunter didn’t even want to think about how much money fifty gravestones would cost.

Fifty graves.

I was almost one more

Why was I the only one who survived?

Hunter’s legs wobbled in a way that had nothing to do with the steady physical labor. Eberwolf hopped up out of the nearest hole, nestling against his side.

“There were so many of them,” Hunter whispered, “They all—they all must have been good at fighting, why… how was he able to kill them, but not me?”

Eber shrugged, crawling into his lap and bumping him with the top of his head. He signed something, and Hunter shook his head helplessly. All he recognized was “want.”

“I don’t know what that means.”

Darius reappeared, cradling one more skeleton in his arms, fluid to keep the bones in shape. He slowly came to the last hole, but he didn’t lower it down. “It’s him,” he said quietly. Hunter looked up and saw tears glimmering in his eyes. “This is…”

Hunter jumped up, his hand hovering just over Darius’ arm. “How can you…?”

“I put a chip in his mask in training. The abomination got stuck in the crack and turned it purple. He got a new one, but he kept the broken one. As a memento.”

“If that’s the one that was down there, then…”

Darius sniffed. “It was what he was wearing when he faced Belos,” he muttered thickly. He knelt down, letting the skeleton into the hole. He scooped up a handful of dirt, throwing it on the grave. Eber lifted his head, and howled, loud and long.

Hunter helped Darius cover the grave, planting the broken mask in the dirt. “…Tell me about him?”

Darius rubbed his arms. “He was… strict. But in a funny kind of way. He’d sentence me to dish duty on days when I acted up, but he’d be right there next to me. Mask and all, doing the dishes. He was…” the coven head barked a laugh. “Titan, he was weird. He’d learn about some new abomination technique, or some weird creature, and he’d show up at the window at all hours of the night, completely unfazed by how late it was, just excited to share his new knowledge. He was strange. Endearing, but strange.”

“Was he…” Hunter struggled to form his next words, trying to think of the right way to say it. “You don’t have to just tell me the good parts. I want to know everything.”

“He hid things from me. There was so much he never told me, never trusted me with.” Darius’ hands clenched and unclenched helplessly. “I don’t know if it was because he thought I was too young, or if he didn’t want to put me in danger, or if—if he just thought I would betray him if I knew. And I’ll never know the answer, because…”

Hunter’s hand hovered over Darius’ arm again, but this time, he connected, circling his arms around his huge trunk of an arm. Darius’ free hand came up and covered Hunter’s hands.

“Sometimes you remind me of him. Not… exactly. You’re so different in so many ways. It’s just the way that you get excited about things, and talk the ear off of anyone who will listen.”

Hunter shrank away. “Sorry if I bug—”

Darius’ hand tightened on his. “No, I just said it was endearing, Hunter.”

“You also said it was strange.”

“It is. But in a good way.”

“Hm.” Hunter sighed, looking out over the graves. “You really think I’m making them proud?”

Darius shrugged. “I think they’d be happy you survived.”

Why?

Why, when they all died?

“I think… they’d be happy you got the better of the man who killed them.”

But I didn’t.

He’s still there in my head.

Darius nudged him. “And… I think they’d want you to go home and change clothes. You are filthy.”

Hunter brushed dirt off of his skirt. “Yeah, I guess I shouldn’t have worn the nice clothes to dig graves.”

“Hindsight’s 20/20. C’mon. Let’s go home. This is enough for one day.”

#long post #toh #dadrius week 2022 #day 5: in loving memory of #dadrius #toh hunter #darius deamonne #asks #writing requests

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steffigraf · 4 months

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10, 19, 25!

10. Something that made you cry this year?

answered earlier today! and idw to get too emotional right now so i’ll just leave it at that skdhdkdjsk

19. What’re you excited about for next year?

also answered but i’ll name another one! super excited to develop my foreign language skills bc i’ll be super duper focusing on german and italian starting this next year and i’m looking forward to progressing further and starting to explore more native media in german specifically bc i’m approaching a level at which i can really do that :)

25. Did you create any characters (in games, art, or writing) this year? Describe one

hmmmmmm. i don’t think so? i’m not a very character creation person tbh

#mwah thanks cher!#ask game #garethsedwards #cher tag 🐶

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eraasaa · 2 months

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The terror of putting pen on paper

If you ever see me running, screaming and bawling, it probably isn't me, because out of the many things I haven't done in a long time, running seems to be the clearest distant-foggy-memory, 'clear' because it's oddly painful for how irrelevant (right?) it should be. But, in this carefully crafted hypothetical which serves to qualify the intensity of an emotion (you guess, joy, right?), that is indeed me. I am quite puzzled about whether to assume that this is common or not, and thus accordingly speak in an "Oh hello goofers, don't we hate it when this happens, alrighty" tone or in "I hereby exist in the swallow of loneliness, scratching through a thin veil of unpierceable clouds" this. ummmu hmmmmmm huhhhhhhhhhhhhhh So, imagine this, you fancy yourself a creative (the jury is still out), but the act of creation seems revolting. "What if I am not able to finish it" "I barely finish anything, I won't do this either" "I need the perfect situation to begin" "Oh, I only need the exact and precise tools and resources to begin" "I must be in a creative and positive mindset, so as to use my magnificent brain and create to my best potential" "It's so easy, what is the point of doing it" "Isn't it a grand ol deal, a massive feat, a giant process to add something of your own (no matter how derivative) to something sometimes non-existent, or something with an existence different than of your creations?" This is what I want to explore I suppose, sorry for the impression that this was going to be about the ruts in/during the act of creation, I can say some things about it, but for me to be actually saying something, I would have to create, and that, is still in the works. In an extension of and in specificity, I fear writing things down, physically. Writing (typing) digitally, no problem (And... I lie, some problem, but that's a different one, not doing a thorough mental analysis today). It feels like hearing that horrible sound of thermocol rubbing against each other, or a metal piece screeching against a chalk board. There seems to be a visceral physical reaction, my body, 'my?' body?, unwilling to ruin the beauty of a void, that is this blank page that tortures me. It's as if, the sheer idea of not perfectly putting down these odd marks which dictate our written language, is disgusting. How can I allow for the words to not be in symmetry with the line above or for them to not be aligned as I imagined, how can there be no way to erase and reverse and add things exactly where they fit, how can there be no space for mistakes existing only as a phantom. How can there be a record of mistakes, an archive of imperfections? The fear must be from here? The pretentious apathy masking a shivering anger when deviating from the thought, from imperfections of the body. I want to be perfect, and I want to not start towards perfection for it is easier.

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tafferling · 11 months

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I’ve been *gasps* tagged! Thank you, @turbo-toast :> :> AND OH GOSH, your words about Monsters, We. I weep. I WEEP. This is me. Weeping. (good weeps)

Imma tag @canonicallymoriche @johnnyy-guitarr and @pandanivanson (no pressure anywhere!)

1) Describe one creative WIP project you’re planning to work on over the summer.

I hope to finish Aphelion’s first book this summer. Which should be 100% doable, since I’ve got it all drafted and now only have to write it out. That’s four chapters! Deep breaths... I can do this... I can do this...

If there is still some time in the summer after that, I will rewrite Reluctant, my Second Person Dying Light fic. I want to turn it third person and make it 🌶️ :3

2) Rec a book:

Hmmmmmm. I’d like to rec the Otherland series by Tad Williams today. Science Fiction/Cyberpunk. 250k+ on each book (there are four of them), with one of the most memorable casts of characters I have ever come across and a fantastic mystery to unravel. Plus, the world building is gorgeous.

3) Rec a fic:

I cannot decide so I am going for a fandom and recing two. Is that cheating? Maybe.

Here’s two Elder Scrolls fics I am following a little obsessively:

Servare Solem by @turbo-toast

Do you like vampires? Do you like saphic vampires? Do you like it when one of a pair is delightfully clueless and has you go feral over waiting for the italicised Oh?

On top of that, we’ve got competent heroes, fast and easy to follow action, and lovely, lovely prose.

Fear in a Handful of Dust by @canonicallymoriche

Hold still my wildly beating heart. Veryn, Moriche’s dunmer, has me root for him beyond my normal rootings. There’s a character who starts beyond rock bottom, with everything he’s had taken from him, including his dignity; and who I cannot wait to see carve out a new life for himself.

4) Rec music:

I’ve been listening to a lot of synth wave/dream wave and would like to recommend The Midnight and their album Heroes.

5) Share one piece of advice.

Remember that you leave footprints in people’s lives all the time. Every interaction that you have with someone (a family member, a friend, a coworker, a stranger) has the potential to make a difference to them, even if you may not think so.

#Tag game

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piratefishmama · 1 year

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Hey momma. Wondering if you'd be willing to write me something sickly sweet (either steddie or Platonic stobin)? I have been stressing like crazy today because I travel internationally next week and I couldn't find my passport (It's ALWAYS in the same spot) so my house is torn to pieces, I have a stress headache, and I know the exact process of how to start a rush replacement process! Thank anything out there that I found the damn thing. Now I need a nap.

If not, that's fine. I at least needed to vent in an ask 🤣

Have a fabulous day! ❤

HMMMMMM, WELL. I'M ABOUT TO POST ONE OF THOSE WRITER PROMPTS and that's kinda sweet?? Right now it's quite late in britain and im about to dip out for a shower before bed! So i dunno if i have time to help right now!

If it's not enough lemme know, i'll see what i can whip up after work tomorrow 💖

#Pirateanswers #USUALLY i'd say yes #but oof u got me in the evening!!#hopefully the lil prompt i'm about to post helps!

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impish-lion · 6 months

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Tag ppl you wanna know betteeer

Tagged by: @dudettastone & @bluemouseblackpad (I'm so popular 😎)

Last song: My earworm of the day was "Up Jumped the Devil" by Nick Cave and The Bad Seeds, a comically evil song perfect for Halloween. Favorite new discovery today was "Sin In My Heart" by Siouxsie and the Banshees, it fucking rules!! I've slept on Siouxsie for way too long and I'm finally realizing she's one of the post punk greats

Favorite Color: deep forest greens are comforting beyond words.

Currently Watching: Just finished rewatching The Righteous Gemstones with my partner (it was their first time watching!), also very slowly burning through Eastbound and Down with one of my friends (hi @bluemouseblackpad , I promise I wanna get back to it). What can I say, I'm a simple man, Danny McBride makes a TV show, I love it.

Last Movie: Oh man, for the first time in a while I've actually been watching a good amount of movies again! I've been dipping into Criterion's Pre-Code Horror selection, which has been absolutely delightful. So far I've watched Murders in the Zoo and Murders in the Rue Morgue, both of which were genuinely shocking! Something about seeing a film that is so visibly a 1930s studio production, yet feels actually transgressive is so unnerving. Tonight I hosted a film club at the library I work at where we showed Wolf of Snow Hollow. I liked Thunder Road and I find Jim Cummings to be a fascinating (if sometimes grating) performer and his portrayals of tightly wound, self destructive men to be pretty raw. Here, he certainly brought a good performance, but man, is he ill equipped to wade into the Twin Peaks-y territory he ends up in here. It's still a pretty good movie, but it's always a little sad to watch a skilled director reach their limits. Also watched the new VHS with my partner, there were some good bits in there! Also one absolute dogshit one lmao

Currently Reading: I have started and stopped so many novels, it's genuinely embarrassing. What I have been actually reading though is the original Stan Lee/Steve Ditko run of Spider-Man lol. It's really fun! Peter is an over dramatic asshole who sucks at life and honestly? That's an amazing protagonist! Lee's writing is very "gee whiz" but he's unexpectedly very good at writing Peter's personal drama. Ditko's art is simultaneously amazing and totally bizarre! My favorite thing is that he keeps drawing Aunt May looking older and older, she's looking like cryptkeeper by issue 15.

Sweet/spicy/savory: hmmmmmm. Going with savory, but let it be known that spicy is within the margin of error

Relationship status: partnered up with a lovely person! We're coming up on our nine month! ❤️

Current Obsessions: Not extremely current, but Vampire Survivors took over all of my free time for a good while and I've only recently escaped its clutches lmao. I'm such a sucker for games like that, perfectly addictive formula!

Last googled: the cover for Throbbing Gristle's 20 Jazz Funk Greats (in the running for funniest ever cover)

Currently working on: freelance work for a very annoying client lol. Thinking I should do another project for myself soon and have some fun with an AMV. Oh, also looking into getting my master's?? Never thought I'd be doing that, but I can get it for free, so why not?

@criticalrolo I choose you

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abyssmalice · 8 months

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(hmmmmmm having some thonkies :V

nothing bad, just something ive been thinking on for a bit today and also i am Sweepy so its not gonna sound coherent. anyway point is its nothing bad just Sweepy Thonky ft. interactions)

(i have mentioned this absolutely nowhere bc its utterly irrelevant to mention and also havent ever really been in a situation where i had to mention it BUT ANYWAY i identify as quoiromantic

which if you dont know what that is: its a label on the aro spectrum, and has a couple of different definitions tbh, but the most common one is that a person can't tell the difference between platonic and romantic feelings. in general, all definitions of quoiromantic have some aspect of "can't identify romance/romantic feelings/romantic relationships".

for me, the definition of quoiromantic i subscribe to is a person who can't identify romance, in the sense that the Concept of romance is inapplicable or non-understandable

which is a very elaborate way of saying: i don't get it. you ask me to describe what a romance is or what romantic feelings should feel like or what a romantic relationship should look like and i wouldnt know!!!!!!! i have no answers for that bc its like asking me to explain literal rocket science or quantum physics!!!!!!! i have NO understanding of it, its outright 100% incomprehensible, i would even say its illogical to me if a majority of people ive ever seen werent on the aro spectrum and thus can have romantic relationships which Should Mean romance and the process of experiencing it is like, a thing, with steps, and a logic to it. or Something. i dont know.

"ok but what does this have to do with rp" so like i had a passing thought while preparing to snork mimimimi myself into bed and it was along the lines of "ok what if my preferences for character development - not even ships, just pure chara dev - is rooted in how i dont know how romance works at all so i dont really pursue ship interactions from the get-go + want to start at a platonic stage bc From What I Have Read, the best romances have a strong platonic foundation + apparently a romance is..... life changing? character-changing? so a character changing/developing from interacting with someone is........ Potentially able to reach a romantic status? maybe ill figure out the romance that way??????"

or something. i think? idk it was a passing thonky and unfortunately i do not Know and at the end of the day, i do like holding up my muses like little dolls just to go "look!!!!!!!! are they fun??? play with them??" like im overall just here to write my little intricate dolls for pure funsies over any deeper reasoning, but eh. its a thonkie)

#ooc | (written and loved and forgotten);#(tldr me: oh i love romance! *doesnt know what that is*)#(being on the aroace spectrum is so very fun you know /unclear tone bc where do i even describe how loaded that statement is)

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wildelydawn · 1 year

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tag people you want to get to know better

Thank you for tagging me, @myulalie my friend <3

Three ships: oooof. Okay. KimChay, obviously, from KinnPorsche. SamMon from Gap the Series (which I hope to start writing about? Someday? I want lesbians.) Annddddd let's go classic; Megstiel from Supernatural.

First ever ship: Probably Kaiba/Yami from YuGiOh. No shame in admitting that because a young Dawn was and still is, a Kaiba fan. No matter how fucked up he is.

Last song: I've been listening to Linkin Park's early albums again. I just really miss Chester (which makes no sense... because I never saw him or LP live.) Forgotten is my favorite Linkin Park song right now.

Last movie: Uhhhh haha. I saw a documentary about the Ruby Ridge Siege for research. I don't watch many movies, and I feel like any time I answer this, I give increasingly bizarre answers.

Currently reading: I reread @emberfaye's KimChay fic three times today. I'm not manic or anything, I just think everyone should read tenta-KimChay.

Currently watching: The only thing I'm watching is Gap the Series with Shou. I am patiently waiting for them to come home so we can keep watching.

Currently consuming: Water.

Currently craving: An orgasm a sense of purpose I could really go for a cheeseburger tbh.

Tagging: hmmmmmm let's no pressure tag @emberfaye @xxatlasxx and @neuroticblue since I adore them. And anyone else that reads this! No pressure though. :')

#personal #thank u for the tag #tagged #tag game #tag meme #tagged others

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kdipshit · 1 year

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Trying ;

A different part of me shows up depending on who I’m speaking to, strangers don’t even get the same version of me, yanno that version on you when you meet someone new? I change my personality based on the initial energy I feel. I’m shy sometimes, I’m out the gate other times. It really just DEPENDS. who am I? Well I’m not one thing, I’m a combination of hundreds of thousands of little things, I’m not uniform, I actually don’t have a clue how to start explaining myself, this is the shit I do, I just wrote a cover letter for a job, like a specific job, because I guess I really want it, having a job gives me anxiety issues, but I haven’t had any anxiety issues since not being at work, hmmmmmm, like duh work gives me anxiety, but I have been working on my anxiety, and taking this god damn pills every damn day, I am happy to take them, by the way. I do truely feel like I can take on this job, casually, not crazy hours, super close to home still, I can walk, I’m happy to walk, I’m in my walking girl phase anyways, like its still good to get something off my daily to do list, I slacked off today, I think I got discouraged because I woke up super late even though I set an alarm, It wa like instant failure and bad day, I’ve already missed the morning so why do my Me+ yang, and I said no, I should still do my morning routine even though I woke up late, and I did, and I’m so grateful that I did because I didn’t fall into the trap, I did what I said I was going to do every morning, because it helps my mental health status.

Being fit genuinely makes you pretty, it evens out your skin tone, tightens your skin and like you just look sooooo pretty, I need to be more fit, I don’t have any excuses not to, I’m trying to learn how to do the things I don’t want to do even when I don’t want to do it, prepping me for bigger things in life like going to work when I don’t want to lmao, it’s all connected, and I’m still learning. Until I can accept to have to do the things I don’t want to, I’ll continue to do them, no matter how I feel. Well that’s what I hope I do, but I don’t think I’ll be able to do it without constantly writing about it, other wise it just get tangled up in all the other mess…. My main focus remains to slowly unravel, and just all round slow the fuck down, mentally, my thinking needs management and direction, it’s a mess. But I’m doing the messy work, and I’m okay with that, because it just is, and I have to be. I shouldn’t tourture myself though, with doing things I don’t want to do all day long, but just recognising, that things need to be done, no matter how I feel about it. How I feel about it, is irrelevant to the bigger picture, its only when I focus on what the problem should be, is there ever an issue. i am not my feelings and they come and go just as thoughts do.

I caught a glimpse and I’m going after it, no matter how I feel, I’m so grateful for the version of myself I am today, thanks to the many yesterdays, i swear I change faster than one of those skin changer lizards lol, I feel on cloud 9, I’m happy despite all the crazy noise below me, I can breath despite all the chatter, I can sleep no matter how crazy the city traffic is. The moment I say no to doing something that is benefiting me, it turns on the switch to spiral me back down to old ways of thinking, and that’s exactly where we’re trying to a avoid, and may I just say how fucking proud I am of myself, I’ve kept up with my morning routine for like a solid couple weeks, I’ve kept my room clean, I’ve made my bed every morning which is something I’ve never done, I’ve just never cared for making my bed coz I was always in it lmao, and my mum made my bed when I was a kid, I’ve eaten every day, I’ve taken my pills at the same time, I’ve gotten my sleep schedule on lock, I’m literally out like a light by 10pm WHO AM I ???? I’m up by 8-9 which is okay but I’d like to get up at 7am, don’t ask me why, I don’t know, I just love the number 7, plus I’m the luckiest girl in the universe and all that cute jazz. I write every single day like this is a HUGE streak for me, I’m very very proud of myself, I think seeing the streak of my non drinking (7months 29days btw) really motivated me in a way that made me feel capable to streak other good things in my life. Like seeing a meter of my success lmao, not that I need it, it’s just good to have a quick look and be grateful to be able to stand here today. It has not been an easy road, in fact it’s the hardest road I’ve ever had to go down, but I don’t care how hard it is, I can do this. I don’t know what it is I’m doing, but I’m fucking doing it and I’m doing it to the best of my ability, I’m achieving my own trust by consistently standing beside myself, no matter what, by showing up for myself, for putting the thoughts and feelings aside and pushing thru. healthy coping mechanisms have slowly implemented themselves into my life due to my constant effort. I’m not perfect, I’m a rough cut, but I’m getting there, and that’s by doing this shit every single day. Alone. Most importantly.

#blogging #new blog #mental health #actually bipolar #actually borderline #mental instability #actually bpd #original post #original writing #original words

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mydiaryx · 1 year

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God do I don’t have much time but, I will finish this later, I’m going to really try and do this work later after my shower, I know I’m gonna be so exhausted !! I would have some energy drink but I’m scared I wont sleep after !! It seems like so, okay so if I make my little space cute and aesthetic then ill be happy hehe, I suppose on Friday night ill get all mystify ready for the weekend, I just really need to remember to do this holiday ! Ill do that later so I can type on my cute keyboard, maybe ill enjoy it more and if I have an aesthetic desk setup maybe I should like do some filing on my nails too !! I’m also happy I got those cute pink juicy joggers they will look so good with

Okay hmm im feeling a bit off now, im sad that I didn’t get started on this earlier ! Also I will need to go into town at some point, and ill get lunch there, im not sure where from tho hmmmmmm boots meal deal maybe ?? That’s always a Peng option im not sure how I feel about buying that jumper, I do love it but I just spent a lot of money on it, and I have a headache rn hmm I do just need to start on this sourcing, as soon as I get started ill feel so much better, that’s what happens like every single day !! And I know it does, I think im like on the easiest part right now tbh just feeling a little achey and off, maybe ill go to the library sooner tonight, at least everything is pie now !!!! And I have my cute pens ! Just wish I remembered at stapler tbh. Or like even just paper clips, maybe I can go into tiger and get some hahah, I need to stop with this spending tho!! I was so good up until today, hopefully my idk I can’t remember, oh yes hopefully my lunch Is fine for tommorow, and imvery happy with that tan, its not too ark but like the perfect colour, also should I have got more this month thinking about it ?? I feel like I worked so many like 18 hour weeks hmm, maybe they were after the cult off but im not sure that they were ?? I want my coffee to be cold grr I wanna drink it !! At least this playlist is good, I need to stop caring about what other people think !! Im just starting to flag so much. I need some of that weird fucking drug tbh ! Okay now im going to think of some sections, or should I just like write it and do it as it goes along ?? Hmmmmm okay ill try, that’s all I need to do ! Just try !!

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cypressrunt · 2 years

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When Millenials started to hate their grandparents. By: Me

I can't tell you exactly when I STARTED TO HATE my maternal grandparents, but I can tell you EXACTLY when I realized that I did. Wednesday, June 8, 2022, @ 6:56 PM (CST). As I stood in the kitchen, cooking dinner for myself, my 4-year-old, and a 50-something-year-old man, I heard that same man's phone ring. It was his mother. How sweet. This is how this conversation that I overheard went: Mother: "How are you feeling today son?" Man: "A little better." Mother: "Is (me) keeping up the house?" Man: "Yes." Let's break down my thought process for a second. I'm standing in the kitchen, cooking dinner for 3 people. ONE OUT OF THREE of the people mentioned can't cook. JUST ONE. "Why are you writing this?" I AM FUCKING MAD!!! AND I AM GOING TO TELL YOU WHY!!! This entire conversation that I overheard, made STEAM come out of my ears. "Am 'I' keeping up the house?" DUDE... Let me tell you something about my grandma. If you were to look up the word CODDLE (for the people in the South, "TA TA"), you would see a picture of my GRANDMA. My UNCLE, the man I mentioned earlier, is now living with us. HER SON is living with us. (I'm getting ready to move out with my kids, do not come for me saying I put myself here. Youll understand later) My UNCLE had surgery, about a month ago. SHOULDER surgery. Can't say for sure what the surgery was called; maybe I'll UPDATE later. I get it, surgery is A LOT of things, and one of them is PAINFUL. I am in no way discrediting his pain or his mental anguish; I know how you internet HATERS like to come for people like this, but put your PITCHFORKS down because we are on the SAME TEAM. It is recommended that: "You should not do any reaching, lifting, pushing, or pulling with your shoulder during the first six weeks after surgery. You should not reach behind your back with the operative arm. You may remove your arm from the sling to bend and straighten your elbow and move your fingers several times a day." (pulled this from google). Wait, what does that say? You may remove your arm from the sling to bend and straighten your elbow and move your fingers several times a day...hmmmmmm FAIR ENOUGH, let us see what else GOOGLE has to say... "What is the fastest way to recover from shoulder surgery?", is what I googled for you ACCURACY NUTS. "8 Tips to Speed Recovery After Rotator Cuff Surgery" Ok, let's GO! -Wear a sling. To speed recovery, it is important to keep your shoulder immobilized initially after surgery so your tendon can heal. OK, yea he's doing GREAT so far -Sleep carefully. … Does staying up all hours of the night and sleeping until NOON count? -Ask for help. … He hasn't really asked for HELP. He just kinda appears, then you gotta treat him like a LOST CHILD. -Watch for complications. … Does complaining about his knee or how "This is his life now" count as a complication? (That's a direct quote from him) -Do the physical therapy. … UH OH! Not doing much of that. CAN'T do it really. He's chair-ridden BY CHOICE. He doesn't really get up from his chair unless it's to use the bathroom or fix himself a drink. An ALCOHOLIC drink. His MOM fixes his food for him. Remember, it's his shoulder that had the surgery, not his legs. -Keep comfortable. … He hit the BULLSEYE with this one. He's doing great. If they gave out OLYMPIC medals for chair sitting... -Be mindful of your movement. … What movement? -Pace yourself I don't know how pace is determined, but I'm pretty sure that NOT HAVING a pace doesn't count DISCLAIMER!!! PAST THIS POINT are things regarding MY LIFE and my STRUGGLE with MENTAL ILLNESS. I have C-PTSD AND MAJOR DEPRESSIVE DISORDER...fun... I am a SUICIDE survivor I am a SINGLE MOTHER of two MAGICAL humans. I have lost MY MOTHER to suicide MY COUSIN also My cousin was in a CAR WRECK that took his LIFE! This will be filled with: -GASLIGHTING -SEXUAL ASSAULT -DRUG USE -SEX/MASTURBATION -MENTAL/PHYSICAL ABUSE (I WILL CONTINUE IN PART 2) -

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afigment · 3 years

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#prairie fire crab apple #graptopetalum paraguayense #echeveria colorata #my plants #hmmmmmm today I started writing #let’s see where it goes

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