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#his struggle w emotions; and he wouldnt even ADMIT it was a complex bc to him its just. the truth. he IS better. hes above all the ‘weak’
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What are some songs that remind you of fresh?
OH OH OH!!! I ACTUALLY HAVE A. cough. Almost seven hour. playlist of songs i associate with him!!! ITS ON SPOTIFY HERE!! some songs are there just for psychic damage like caramelldansen and casin, id recommend listenin on shuffle so u can have the intended experience of going from Hey Ya! by Outkast to Back and Forth by Dr. Steel to Karma by AJR to Purple People Eater. as someone who’s special interest and ID has been fresh for,,, *checks* seven years strong, it’s definitely. The playlist i’ve made of all time
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#doodles#freshposting#UGH I LOVE TALKIN ABT HIM SO MUCH DUDE please send more asks abt him bros i need a distraction rn AVSNA;VDNSBFB#EVERY SONG IS ON THERE FOR A REASON!!!#even if the reason is ‘Yeah thatd be funny’#LIKE CARTOONS IS ON THERE BC. fresh doesnt view the people around him as REAL people#like he knows theyre real but he like. cant.. rlly UNDERSTAND or process it he jus sees them as pawns!! and its his way of like#not dealin w like… their emotions or thinkin any further abt it bc he just cant understand ITS HARD TO PUT INTO WORDS BUT I HOPE THE VIBES#THERE like he knows rationally they’re alive but he only rlly comprehends it w very few people (like pacifrisk in canon!!)#HE ALSO HAS A HUGE SUPERIORITY COMPLEX THAT HE DOESNT KNOW IS A SUPERIORITY COMPLEX unrelated to the song but bc of that#HE SEES HIMSELF AS JUST. BETTER. ABOVE. BC HE WAS *MADE* TO BE IN HIS MIND. and that’s why he refers to any of his emotions as like#ITD LIKE. not just having to deal w his own mind turning against him but he also has to deal w. just being like everybody else. he sees them#as WEAKNESS and therefore to him having them means hes weak and turns his entire worldview on his head#EVEN IGNORING THE WHOLE THING W THE HIGHER UPS AND FRESH 2.0 WHERE IF HE STOPPED BEING ENTERTAINING TO THEM HED LITERALLY BE KILLED ND#REPLACED WITH A ‘BETTER’ VERSION WHOS EVERYTHING HE CANT BE BUT REFUSES TO ADMIT IT EVEN TO HIMSELF#ITS ALL SO. MAN people overlook his superiority complex a lot and I think that needs to be explored more in fanon bc itd be a huge part of#his struggle w emotions; and he wouldnt even ADMIT it was a complex bc to him its just. the truth. he IS better. hes above all the ‘weak’#people w their confusing emotions and boring lives and happiness sadness love attachments unchecked anger#hes ABOVE that and bc he cant comprehend it it’s like#watchin animals at the zoo through a thick layer of glass and throwin rocks at them from safety. u know theyre real but they can’t affect u#they can react but theyre helpless and at ur ‘mercy’ for entertainment NOT SAYIN. ANYBODY WOULD DO THIS BUT.#and that in ur mind ur better than them; because youre FREE arent you? you’re not caged#but in reality you’re inside an even bigger glass cage. you’re an experiment just as much as they are. you’re not better you’re the same as#the animals.#HES SO COMPLICATED DUDE AAAGH this is what happens when u ask me one sentence i turn it into a completely different essay on freshs#COMPLEXES IM SORRY AJDBSJFBDKFBDMFBS#HES JUST. AAAHHH STAMPS MY FEET I WAS PACIN NONSTOP AS I WROTE THIS i love fresh so much#I MISS RPING HIM SO BADLY EVERY DAY I SWEARRRRR#it’s just an energy issue unfortunately ADKJSMSBFNBD#asks
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Hi! A fan of your writing here. I just love the way you write Caroline. An Avoidable Heart is my comfort fic and I am constantly in awe with the way you write and craft the dynamics in that story. Caroline's inner monologue is just priceless and God! I just love that intro scene where Caroline is walking into the Mikaelson compound with vampires and hybrids in the surrounding ready to pounce on her.
I would love to hear how you would have visualized Caroline crossing over into TO or not? Like in what season and why? How it would have likely gone?
Thank you!
First of all lovely anon gimme a moment to breathe, asdfghjkl why are people so lovely 😭😭🥺✨ It means sooo much to me that you’d take the time to jump into my inbox and send these kind words, like please I’m not worthyyyyy, But you make me smile and feel really freaking warm so *handcuffs your hand to mine* you aint leaving 💖✨💞🙃
But OK ALSO oh my god dude THAT CAROLINE WALTZS INTO THE COMPOUND AND TAKES ON A COUPLE HUNDRED VAMPIRES BY HERSELF SCENE???? Ughhhhh I’m sorry but I have SUCH a boner for Caroline in that, like my badass -I admit kinda op- QUEEN IS HERE and she’s fucking shit up, I’m sorry but I love that scene so much it’s so dear to me I was killing myself over how self-indulgent and grossly Over powered Caroline is but like idgaf man it’s such a hot scene and Caroline is practically invincible and we just love to see that, so seriously lovely anon, you telling me you LOVE that scene??? Puts the biggest smile on my face and reassures me a LOT bc I was whining and cribbing over how absolutely unbalanced that scene is to literally everyone BUT LIKE YOU JUMPING OUT OF NOWHERE and pointing that exact scene UGHH…...meant to fucking be the both of us 💖💞✨
And ALSO Caroline’s monologue is quite honestly the easiest inner monologue out of the three voices I wrote for that work, Klaus’s is the real pain in the ass tbvh like it is NOT easy writing pretentious besotted losers with a Kardashian complex especially when you need to make them sound cool when they’re the lamest OP dude bros to ever exist - and no I don’t hate Klaus although I seem to try my darndest to convince ppl I do- I just personally believe that a feral fucker like that with a thousand years of existence under his belt can grow a pair and graduate from his kindergarten level of emotional maturity to adult sometime soon, But then on the flipside he’s so grossly adorkably smitten and feral for Caroline plus hella horny for her all the time that its usually easy to write the trashed and devoted idiot he is into something pretentious and powerful and potent when relating to his unflappable arrogance and his narcissism, but sometimes I also need him to be *deep* and ffs profound for the sake of the plot and jfc my muse just wont work with me on that, she’s like I’m sorry I’m not about to bust my ass to make this mongrel intelligible like no sir all I wanna do is make him uncomfortably horny for Caroline and leave him like that.
So smh yeah the struggle is real….but lmao Caroline is just so precious and fiercely protective and just so achingly lonely in that story, so desperate for connection and trust and intimacy yet so guarded and impervious to everyone like it hurts me to write her like that but it really challenges me as an author to balance out her inherent light with the “void” I create in her and through her, so yeah it’s a very fulfilling task and I wouldnt change it one bit, and also I had to balance out her physical op-ness w half a millennium of the ugliest emotional trauma lol so I guess that figures, but the point being….once again I am overjoyed knowing that you liked a facet of the story that I tried so hard to make as authentically Caroline and achingly real and moving as I can and I cannot possibly feel more accomplished than rn for it so ty ty ty ty for reaching out to me and telling me *tackle hugs* It makes me GIDDY knowing that you enjoyed that particular part of the story like ugh stab me please you're too sweet.
And ok NOW, coming to The Originals part of the ask, (also please note that when I say TO headcanon; Hope does not exist, Hayley is a dead in a ditch and ofc Klaus will stop being that lil bitch they tried to pawn off as Klaus in TO) 
HEADCANON 1
Honestly my biggest headcanon when it comes to TO crossovers somehow always include non-humanity!Caroline like it’s just so perfect to me?? The opportunity to make shit BLOW UP b/w them like imagine the DEBAUCHERY, the heat, the SEXUAL TENSION, the repression of one Klaus Mikaelson, the EXPLORATIONS, and omg the role reversal when Klaus has to be the voice of moral reason between them and not bc he believes Caroline would not be able to stand herself if she does something heinous and monstrous but bc he wants her to be completely and utterly herself, and yk *aware*, when she DECIMATES ppl to the ground and is in full-on predator mode, like he wants her monster to come out and play with him when no part of Caroline is locked away or suppressed, so obviously when she is w/o her humanity KLAUS exercises restraint on her behalf, like can you imagine that, Klaus restraining himself and being the vague, extremely broken and just largely inaccurate moral compass between the two of them for ALL the wrong reasons- and the entirety of NOLA just standing there watching him herd this baby vampire who seems to be intent on riling him up and angering him when all she is doing is giving him a massive hybrid hard on, like IMAGINE THE GOODNESS of non-humanity Caroline wrecking NOLA and Klaus letting her wreck it bc he is helpless in the face of Caroline Forbes and also bc he is quite honestly *enjoying* the debauchery himself so why put a damper on the festivities.
-I might wanna add that I favour this headcanon a lot bc I genuinely do not even remotely *like* the idea of NOLA as Klaus's chosen place to set his roots so like I would love Caroline going to NOLA and destroying everything there just bc I detest NOLA and the storyline behind it in TO. (yes is it petty? Obvi, but like I am a petty soul and I make no apologies ma’am)
HEADCANON 2
So yeah that’s my main TO headcanon, but my other one being, one I talk about very frequently, scream about in tag rants to an obsessive level, and like this is a cracky one but still very valid, where Caroline rolls up to NOLA humanity intact and all, finds Hayley preggo and is just laughing her fucking ass off bc anybody ANYBODY, with half a brain and a two minute convo w klaus would know how UTTERLY stupid the entire baby shit is especially when it’s with an immemorable one night stand, and Caroline’s just losing her shit about how like an entire city is obssessed w this baby and she just straight up tells Klaus he’d SUCK as a dad (which he really does tho like he was a shitty fucking dad canonically too) and Klaus is just like *sigh* girl tell me about it. I mean basically he’s finally relieved that someone is on his side about the whole baby thing and how he definitely does not want his entire millennium of life to finally sum up to this one squalling leaking stinky infant/unicorn Hayley is apparently baking in her oven, and I say this headcanon is cracky bc klaus would never have put up w this mess long enough for Caroline to come in and sort it out, there’s this preferred method of disposal of his called heart ripping that would've been employed quite early on and honestly saved us all a lot of brain cells and minused years of life, bc let’s be real any Klaus who’s NOT a lil snivelling bitch wearing a Klaus skinsuit would’ve yeeted the baby and the mama first chance he got, and that’s just how I see it.
Lmao I really hope I didnt scare you away w my *strong* opinions Ik they can be a bit much but I enjoy having them so theyre not going anywhere, anyways this ask answer got WAYYYY too long but I’m hoping I answered your question well with this or atleast left you slightly confused and bemused over my feral screaming....either ways I’m really really really happy to have got your ask and the chance to rant so much bs, Twas cathartic and honestly I had nothing to do today so I was more than happy to dish this baby out for you. Thank you so much sweet anon for putting a smile on my face today I am absolutely HONOURED by your words you’sa cutie 💖💞✨🗣🗣
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