i love you so much i can't hold it

the summer hikaru died ruins lives

Can I say how much I love how Ouran High School handles the rich boy/poor girl in love trope. 

Like I absolutely believe it’s discussions about classism and elitism to this Day still hold up! 

I will admit there is so much weird stuff in ouran😭, but we see the Handsome ‘Unlimited Money’ Male Lead a LOT in anime and I feel ouran gets a lot of points of the characterisation SO right, that a lot of other shows just don’t! 

Ouran does the whole love story/harem/all the boys want brown hair girl that we project on, trope. Like they do that, but they show that at the foundation, the root of all of it, those rich boys are JEALOUS. They aren’t approaching Haruhi with the need to protect and own her, at their core the rich are envious of her! Even though they have everything, they want what she has! 

Like we see in the real world with how the rich cosplay as poor! And say "ohhhh I'm so broke please venmo me for lunch" and wear their ripped jeans and strained sweaters and take pictures at the met gala with a box of McDonalds fries in their hand. 

The classist comments made towards Haruhi ARE comedic relief, but the joke isn’t on characters like Haruhi, the joke is on THEM. 

They are the ones who can’t do anything! They are the ones who are stilted and emotionally closed off! They are the ones who can’t make an instant coffee or go to a mall without help! 

THAT is why Haruhi is the center of this harem, why she is the one they’re chasing. They are jealous of her insight and world experience from living independently, from living a REAL life. That is her enviable trait. Haruhi GETS people! And they don’t. Their wealth has isolated them and now there is a barrier between these characters and the rest of the world and they have no idea how to navigate it. 

And this is the foundation of 90% of the problems/conflict in the show! 

The holiday ep when Hikaru has feelings because Haruhi reconnects with Nice Guy Arai? Hikaru says he doesn’t like this guy for all these reasons and most of them are like ‘he’s just some nobody from nothing who only knows Haruhi cause they went to some stupid public school together’. Like okay? Haruhi has all of those ‘bad traits’ as well but you still seem to like her?  

Because it’s not about that, it’s never about that, it’s not even about the love rival/romance angle (at least not completely).  

Hikaru is scared and embarrassed! He already was when they got there, when these rich boys crashed Haruhi’s summer to find out she is an employee here and she is working with her own two hands. This is not a break for her! And then he’s so worried when Haruhi and Arai find each other because what they have is so untouchable to him. Same background, same class, they can meet each other’s needs! And know the other's needs! And this is a chasm that Hikaru has no idea how to cross so he starts lashing out. 

And that episode concludes with Hikaru being told about Haruhi’s fear of thunderstorms, finally actually listening and empathizing with what that means, and then going to her and giving her the stuff she needs to deal with that problem (blanket, headphones, support, protection etc.). 

He has to LEARN that none of those poor people inherently know all this secret knowledge! They just care and ask each other stuff! You can ask Haruhi what she's afraid of and then help her with that! It was always this simple! Just because you’re not the same class as her and knowing her isn’t as easy as it is with people the same as you, doesn’t mean you’ll never know! Learn! Listen! Keep trying! 

Ouran shows their rich characters being hurt by their wealth. Their elitists mindset does NOT benefit them and they’re only narratively rewarded when they break out of it, THAT’S why the arcs are so good. 

(And also while we’re here, I LOVE when they do eps that show Tamaki’s character is actually a parallel of Haruhi’s. Tamaki grew up as an illegitimate child, hidden away in France with his mother. He knows what it is to not be at the top of the food chain, and he learns the skills to keep living! Tamaki is a survivor in a world run by a man who was ashamed of him and did not want him. That can destroy a child, but Tamaki doesn’t let it. He learns how to work people and he learns that belief in yourself is the most powerful asset someone can have. And this is the life experience he imparts onto Kyoya and this SAVES Kyoya, who was barreling towards a black pit of despair and chasing his father’s shadow. The ‘poor’ characters of this show have power that the rich people desperately desire, and in the end they learn that it’s not something you take it’s something you build for yourself.) 

It's hilarious how "Hikaru" is supposed to do Eldritch Abomination Things™ but he's so consumed by Gay Thoughts that he's useless. U go boy, go give your crush half your soul just before a bunch of hunters come for your ass, I'm sure everything is going to go fine.

I physically cannot draw this guy without making one of his irises bleed

hikaru

Tried a new art style again EXPLODES!!

Think I like before I shaded the goo stuff better and the light

Fandom bugs, this time for Magic Knight Rayearth.

ID: Jeweled and fantasy bug designs based on Magic Knight Rayearth characters and their aesthetics, lined up on a page like you might see on a bug display box.

Hikaru: At top, a red beetle with pink gems and iridescent wings. There is no real anatomy to this because the wings stick out from odd places and there are three sets of wing carapace. Umi: Center, a blue dragonfly with blue gems and the top set of wings looks like bat wings. The second set of wings is detailed like an actual dragonfly's wings with all the veins, and iridescent light reflecting from them. Fuu: At bottom, a green butterfly with ornate gold lines all over the wings, covered in green gems, and has white feather-shaped extensions to the wings. The center body of each of the bugs resembles the sword hilts each character uses.

HIKARU GALILEO (Highlight Medley), 2023

Trustworthy

ah yes my fav depressed babygirl

another version

Hikaru ga shinda natsu and eyes

Hgsn puts a special emphasis in eyes. Everyone with some special relation to the unatural has unique eyes.

"Hikaru", who is the brain-snatcher, has red pupils

Asako, who can hear spirits, has a ripple effect in her eyes

Rie, who can see the creatures, has a white outline in her pupil

And finally, Tanaka, who does not have any special ability, covers his eyes.

magic knight rayearth

who i am as a person and my body are both borrowed, but i really love you... please... i don't want to kill you