Hey Ho

Can you send in any kind of moodboard theme, if you have something? Like Jake x MC or a different character (Since I also have some followers from other fandoms I can try that as well :)). I don't know. Just like a topic you want it about etc.? Just any inspo. Of course you can be as specific as you want to. But I need something to do. So if you have anything, send it in :)

Thank you and take care! 💚

Hello, heh, it's me again... :)

Well, I feel in love with this synthetic leather dress instantly and then got it as little uplifting gift. And because I have no one (this doesn't count for one specific group <3) to show it to... So I'm positing it here as well. Simply also because the dress makes me feel very confident and comfortable so, yeah. I don't know, I don’t even have to explain why I'm posting it but I still do. Anyway xD

(btw, I'm also waring a harness for the upper body so this doesn't belong to the dress)

Btw 2.0, my hair is green and purple currently, heh.

As always: might regret (don't think so) but might delete later.

Ok byeeee 🫣💚

Shit rambling because I need it okay? Personal shit and kinda moonvale rambling. You don't have to read it. And warning, my words are probably a mess and this post is weird so.. I'm sorry xD

I don’t want to lie, I have zero capacity for the Moonvale posts right now. There's so much shit going on and the posts don’t really hype me up. I mean, I so glad they are active currently but otherwise.. Wah, I don’t know. I need the date. Like really. Not jokingly or anything, I need it to feel some kind of excitement again. And I don't know, I don’t even feel like posting the updates here, my head can't manage to do that. I'm glad other people do it. And I also don't manage to bring out some kind of duskwood shit post or anything. I know no one is forcing me to posts here but I feel like I have to anyway. This blog has many followers, I guess it's not a secret, so I kinda feel like I have to keep it going. And the thing is, I want to keep it going, but as I said, my capacity is like zero.

And the biggest shit. I have to finally submit to the psychiatry. And beside all other struggles that keep me away from finally sending it, Moonvale is in its way as well. I feel like I can't submit there when I don't know when moonvale will be released. Sounds weird, I know, but it's a real thing, trust me. So, Everbyte, please, tell us something. xD

Also, I get sick when I think about I might not be able to play episodes because I'm sitting in a psych ward and have other things to do. So I pray I will be lucky enough and the episodes will come out before and after my little vacation there. But as you see, I didn't even submit there but I'm still trying to plan Moonvale around it.

When I'm not just lying around in my bed I'm positing on Tumblr so it's kinda the only "obligation" I have. Don't take the word too seriously. As I said, I now I'm not obligated to post here. But for myself, and in my own head, I feel this way. I spent so much time here and I was allowed to build up this blog about a game I like and I want to keep it up. And want to stay here and to post and to be the blogger and the blog I used to be. For many a source to talk about the game/s and to ramble and send theories etc. And I want it to stay this way. For myself and for you all. Besides the love you all send me so often is a huge part of positivity in my life. Almost the only source of positivity I have. And I won't lie, missing this would also be a huge loss for me. I don't want it to sound like you have to send me love or anything. Please don't keep it this way. And I also don't want it to sound like I want this love. I post here to get my thoughts about duskwood out of my head. But I can't deny that it's a nice side effect. And I mean, wonderful. It makes me feel happy and loved and I fear to miss it at some point.

But really, if you read this here, don't feel like you have to tell me things like "we will always love you here" etc. It's very kind and lovely. But I think all those things are a problem in my head so, I don’t know.

Gosh, this post is weird, I know. But these thoughts are bothering me a lot and I was holding all of this back since a few weeks already so I'm going to just ramble the shit out now. Nobody has to read it or react. But this is a reminder to myself, it's my blog and I can post what I want. You can do it, girl. 💪

And I think getting this out into the void might calm my mind a bit.

I probably have more to ramble about but I think right now I forgot it. Anyway. If you read it, thank you. And I hope you will have a fantastic day/evening/night. And especially a amazing new week. You're doing wonderful and you deserve love. 💚

Thank you all for everything, seriously. 💚

OK bye 🫣

Might regret - might delete but I felt good wearing this so I'm going to show it.

According to the motto: Fuck it :)

But psst, don’t tell anyone

OK byeeee 🫣

Is it actually one of the first times I don’t want Tumblr to undo an update?? I think so.

Give us the boop o meter back!! :'(((

Your local duskwood shitposter starts her first group therapy today and I'm so freaking nervous, please wish me luck. :'D

Posting it here because I’m in a hole full of self-pity and that's why I need to mimimi. xD And I'm not ashamed xD

Sir, that's my giggling emotional support anarchist

Hey, lovelies. Well, I disappeared more often in the last months so I didn't thought about saying something. But, I actually got a few asks and messages about where I am and if I'm okay. I wasn't expecting people to do this, to be honest, as I said, it happened several times by now. But now I decided to leave a few words so people can stop wonder and worry. (Thank you for doing so, it means so much to me. 🥹)

Long story short, I'm currently in a very bad mental health phase again and I'm lacking the energy and capacity to be here more again. I would love to, but right now it's just hard. So I had to step away for a moment. Life is an asshole xD I have to figure out a lot currently and to deal with some things. But otherwise I'm still surviving.

A huge and insanely big thank to everyone who wrote to me through asks or dms. You truly made my days so much better and I really wasn't expecting it. Otherwise I would have left a short post. So, now it's here. But I'm grateful for your words!💚💚

I queued my weekend posts also for the two next upcoming weekends because I do not want to drop this little ritual.

Can't tell when I will be back. Maybe tomorrow, maybe in a week. I don't know. I wish you all the best and I hope your days will be filled with love and happiness. Remember to take care of yourself and stay healthy and safe! 💚

Last little note, I try to remind myself about it but sometimes it hard, but I want to tell you: You're not alone. Never. It might feel so, but you're not. There will always be a person who understands your struggles, I promise. You can be proud of yourself. 💚

Unfortunately, this comes very late and also unfortunately it is not possible for me right now to write a long paragraph. Nevertheless, I wanted to say a few words.

Today, July 11th, it’s exactly three years since I joined the Duskwood fandom. 🥹 The first day I posted about duskwood. And I want to say a big and really serious thank you to all the ones who are and have been a part of the duskwood community and the community of my blog during these three years. It sounds cheesy, I know, but if I hadn’t started with the blog, my life would look very different now, especially much sadder. This fandom, the people of the fandom, you all, have been with me for a long time now and without knowing it, all of you helped me a lot in many difficult situations. So, thank you all for everything.

I will keep the community forever in my heart. ❤️

Hey Hoo 👀 Getting braver and braver 👀

Maybe I’ll regret all this someday ^^

(The tattoo on my arm is probably about to leave, don't like it anymore so xD)

Might delete later ^^

I was tagged by @saddah-mo to participate in this cool Picrew thing! Thank you a lot for tagging me! Loved it! 💚

-> Here is the link to the picrew

Tagging: @booklover-01040 @zmayadw @julesisreading @itsnotzka @julesthoughts @mysteriouslover1516 @angie-01040 (Of course don’t feel forced <3)

I was tagged by @satveek some time ago, thank you so much, I really appreciate it. 💚

three ships: Jake and MC. V and Evey. Joker and Harley

first ship: uhh, that's hard. I guess Rose (Huntsgirls) and Jake Long (Series: American Dragon). Or Cornelius Fillmore and Ingrid Third (Series: Fillmore). It already started as kid xD

last song: Cirice - Ghost

currently reading: The Chemistry of Death - Simon Beckett

last film: Marvels Civil War (heh)

currently watching: Crime documentary - The case of Emanuela Orlandi

currently consuming: Cold Tea flavoured Peach Ice Tea

currently craving: Sleep and more Ice Tea ^^ And my bed.

Tagging: Of course, no pressure, only do it if you want to 💚 @julesisreading @itsnotzka @anabellerose96 @fem-moony @cassi0-peia @miss-celestia13 @lyon-amore @angie-01040 @rw47vr-key @mirajanemoonvale @hackerqueen @giu-world @kyras-things

9 people you'd like to know better

Thank you a lot for tagging me @barracuda677 and @kimberly-campbell I really appreciate it <3<3

last song: I Killed A Man - Slaughter to Prevail

favorite color: Black and Green

currently watching: V for Vendetta and The dark Knight

currently reading: Comic: V for Vendetta and just started Simon Becketts 'The Chemistry of Death'

sweet/spicy/savory: Savory

relationship status: Since I'm not interested in relationships, happily single ^^

current obsession: Too many things.

last thing I googled: brass knuckles 3d printer stl file (it's not how it looks like, it's for decoration only, I swear! xD)

currently working on: Uhh, nothing really. At least nothing like a fanfiction or similar.

Tagging: @julesisreading @itsnotzka @miss-celestia13 @cassi0-peia @booklover-01040 @hackerqueen @kyras-things @zmayadw @duskwood-disco @duskjake Of course only if you want, no pressure and no stress 💚

I have spent so much time, thoughts, work and tears trying desperately to be someone special/popular/known that there was no room left for the thought of how much more beautiful it would be, instead of becoming someone else, to work on learning to love and accept myself exactly the way I am right now. While this isn’t easy either, it’s still so much easier than becoming someone I’m not.

I want to stop romanticizing that life can only be beautiful if you’re popular and known by many people. But I want to start romanticizing how nice it would be to love yourself. How nice it would be to look at myself and to think "You’re worth it, you’re worth working on accepting and loving yourself."

I’m slowly getting really desperate. I just can’t find anything to watch currently.

So if you have series or movies, please send some good recommendations. Would be very appreciated. 💚

(Preferably nothing supernatural heh <3)