Thinking about a reality where Grizzop survives home and the bittersweetness of helping Sasha raise her kids and thinking about the clutch he left behind, about his childrem he will never see again, the babies he'll never raise, we don't know how old they are but we know that at some point Sasha's kids would cross the develomental thresshold and Grizzop would have to think about how he'll never see his childrem make that progress. His kids won't even be born for thousand of years and here he is dealing with his morality even worse than before.

been listening to rqg again

I'm relistening to rqg and gave in to the impulse to redraw this three year-old piece of fanart

trying to get less nervous about posting my art on here. heres some ghibli screenshot redraws

batch 2

Man has six kids and a mortgage and has the audacity to look like that.

The more I think about the contrast between Zolf and Grizzop the more respect I have for the character choices Ben made and how they contributed to the story.

When Zolf first leaves the group he's leaving because he's paralyzed by indecision - everything he knows has been challenged and he cannot find a path forward. He's the most uncertain person in the world, second guessing everything he's ever done and everything he ever will do in the future, completely adrift.

EVERYTHING about Grizzop is about going forward. Every decision he makes is firm and absolute, every step he takes he takes with the full confidence that he's doing the right thing. Grizzop makes mistakes but he doesn't reflect on them, he doesn't have time for that, and in the end it's very much his choice that gets him killed. He decides to look back at the hand of Hades. He decides to finish the hunt regardless of the cost of moving forward into a literal nest of spears. He is CERTAIN and it gets him killed.

When Zolf comes back he's better - yes. He's no longer plagued by the crushing doubt of what sent him away from the group but he's STILL PLAGUED BY DOUBT. He still is uncertain of every step he takes, is still unsure of his own authority, still takes every failure of himself and his companions on his own conscience. But he deals with it. He has realised that he cannot be sure if what he is doing is good, but by the same token, he can't not do it. Because doing nothing is where his despair comes from, and doing nothing when he could be doing something means that all his guilt is justified.

And that's... what hope is really. The hope that what you're doing will make a difference.

if you don't get to it in your dress up poll i reckon you should draw sasha in the opera get-up from hamid she refused to wear (ft. a fancy grizzop too?? 👀)

sasha would definitely gird up her loins

grizzop would hate it

i couldn't find this scene on tumblr, so i decided to upload it myself. most chaotic episode ever

ashes to ashes, funk to funky, now go off -- join the celestial hunty

(I've reached the Ancient Rome sidequest and am Feeling Things)

grizzop sketch I did on my phone + a bonus sasha

oh right I also drew this today lol

rusty! quill! gaming!

just can't stop thinking about how different grizzop's choice could have been if the cult hadn't taken vesseek but instead took one of the clutch

because grizzop swore an oath to his god and he knows his partner can handle themself, but he made an oath to the clutch when he adopted them, and they're just children, and he's meant to be their father!

and azu and hamid come racing down the stairs and grizzop is shoving adamantine into moving parts of the factory, and he's got to keep moving because there's a job to do there's a task to finish-

-and azu comes up to him, giant hand on his small shoulder. "they have our family. they have a baby goblin. grizzop, are you a father?"

and it hits so hard because he was expecting them to take vesseek! anyone who knows grizzop knows vesseek is the most important person to him, hardly anyone even knows about their clutch! but azu's eyes are round and her hand is trembling, only slightly, and he knows he underestimated them.

"who?" he asks before he can stop himself, but azu didn't know about the clutch, let alone who each of them are. there's one of his children, kidnapped and scared, and he doesn't even know which one.

grizzop made a promise to artemis that he'd finish this hunt and save as many people as possible- and the stake right now is most of the entire world. but he made a promise, too, to six orphaned goblins without a chance in the world, and it's because of him and that promise that one of them has been taken and used against him.

he's gonna have to break one of those promises

It's always goblin time.