DOCTOR WHO || Spyfall; part I

I have like a billion feelings rn and 99% are about dr who, specifically my hatred of 14 and my love of 13 but I’m too tired to make sense of any of it soooo

13 and yaz should’ve hugged more

Whenever yaz is helping fly the tardis 13’s thoughts are just repeating “she is so talented and cool and I love her” over and over

13 thinks yaz with a gun is hot (so do i)

Yaz thinks 13 is hot when she’s angry (same yaz)

Yaz’s family loves 13 and doesn’t believe they aren’t dating

Yaz still struggles with depression sometimes (like has bad days) and whenever she does and is with 13, she does everything in her power to make her feel better

Graham saw the gay looks from day one. Ryan did not

13 doesn’t sleep that much but will lay with yaz whenever asked

Yaz had nightmares and if she wakes up from one she seeks out 13

The mattress is in the control room bc yaz sleeps better around the doctor ( also so 13 can take lil power naps)

13 genuinely tries to improve herself for yaz (like being more open)

Yaz doesn’t push 13 to share but will ask questions

Yaz does not let thirteen be a douche bag to her, and will call her out

While I have yet to step into an actual tardis, watching Jodie's doctor who seasons did somehow take me to the other side of the planet with some really cool people so this first episode will always have a special place in my heart 💙💙

Kinda adore the fact that any time the Master comes back to Doctor Who the Doctor basically pauses the story and tells their companions "sorry, gotta deal with some psychosexual romantic drama with my on-and-off-again genderfluid homicidal ex/narrative foil that WILL traumatize you (and your family/boyfriend/loved ones) for the rest of your lives" all the while the companions are literally just the Live Slug meme

thirteen's era appreciation: 338/?

Me about the Specials:

it is pretty funny how 13 relates to her companions. she hears about ryan's dad one time and is immediately like 'well unfortunately for you ryan I'M your emotionally distant father now' but then she sees yaz and is like '👀👀 pretty girl 😍😍 I famously can't save the universe without eye candy 🥰🥰' and they're. the same age. ryan and yaz were in the same class growing up they're both 19. meanwhile 13 feels a widowed old man kinship with graham but she seems to not understand that she's in a physically younger body than him and thinks he's not Old Manning properly whenever he asks to take a break lmfao

Graham’s companion support group.

DOCTOR WHO It Takes You Away

And if there is one thing I'm certain of...

#me on vacations

I have a lot of thoughts on episodes we shoulda gotten in 13’s era so ima reblog this everytime I think of a new one, but here’s a list of them so far

One focusing on yaz’s depression (I believe that yaz was depressed both bc of being bullied and having no friends and a chemical imbalance, maybe she runs out of meds at one point on the tardis and we see how 13 tries to help? Or it could be like through various flashbacks)

One about Ryan’s grief, both for grace and his mom- with bits about his relationship with his dad

One about Graham… idk what it could be but I like Graham and he should get an episode

One about Dan, again idk what but that man is criminally underdeveloped

One where River meets yaz and 13. It’d be so fun.

One where 13 and yaz get stuck somewhere together, preferably after both realize their feelings (altho having it before would be equally entertaining)

An episode with yaz’s sister as an important character

One where yaz gets taken by a villain and 13 becomes a tornado of fury to get her back

Like 10 more episodes with ONLY yaz and 13 as the main 2, like in the time period between graham/ryan and dan

13 and yaz going on a date, whether they know it’s a date or not

More episodes with Kate, her dynamic with 13 could be brilliant

At this point, I feel like Thirteen's era got criticised no matter what happened during it.

Some fun standalone sci-fi stories? It wasn't being ambitious.

Some fun standalone stories with an interconnected season-long story-arc? This is too ambitious and no-one could follow it.

A serialised season with tons of interesting and fun plots, new characters as well as deepening character arcs? This is literally the most complicated thing ever; no-one could possibly enjoy this.

Characters of different ages from places outside of London and from diverse backgrounds and family dynamics? Pandering.

Canonically queer characters who fall in love steadily over time, as their friendship deepens? This relationship came out of nowhere and is also pandering.

Doctor who is literally just a story about grief. About the stages beyond the normal five. About hope and reaching and living hard and fast and passionately bc we're all going to die. About outlasting those you love most and being forced to keep on living. About celebrating the dead and the dying bc they were once alive and will forever be alive in your memories. About learning how to move on despite knowing some part of you never will. About running as fast as you can while clinging to the small bits of love and happiness you can scrape for yourself along the way. About outliving and outlasting everyone and everything you've ever put you faith in until all you have left is the faith itself. About always being dead and alive at once, carrying everyone you've ever lost and every version of yourself you've ever been on your shoulders bc you are too kind and too selfish and too full of grief to do anything else.

Doctor who is about grief. It is about life and death and hope and fear and ecstasy and bravery and melancholy and the constant balance between optimism and weight that living brings.

Doctor who is about grief. It is about how life is only precious bc everything has its time, and everything ends.

And god, isn't that fantastic?

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thirteen's era appreciation: 337/?