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violadiaries · 2 years

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So I'm not only rambling again, have a WIP for a Christmas GuyLeo (it's the shipname variation I've found the most with so far, so I'm sticking with it xD) fic I'm writing on my phone (hopefully my lazy ass will finish it in time)

(none of those idk how many things on my tablet 😅)

So yeah, ramblings under the cut, cause I'm completely emotionally charged rn, and my emotions are riding roller coaster...

Ok so fuck, like I said my emotions are riding roller coaster rn, like this afternoon I was so fucking depressed and now I'm bouncing with energy, I need to get rid of some

And I'm filled with ship thoughts, cause idk Leon and Guy have control rn, but there was a Golkai post in their pixiv tag and I just (๑♡⌓♡๑) and then the vol. 2 of the tob manga I ordered fucking finally arrived and there is Zaveid and Eizen and the sexual tension between them (sry the shipper goggles are stuck) and that hit me with Eizavie feels and then I'm playing Fire Emblem atm and like...yeah feels 😅 but mostly the first three,

But then during the day I remember that I'll probably fail my exams in January, cause I get so distracted during university, cause online shit cause the bad c virus is still going strong, and then I get all depressed again 😓

So I'll distract myself by writing fanfiction or reading fanfiction, btw is anyone else so fucking bad at writing smut scenes but still wants to incorporate them, cause I so suck at that, help 😂, if anyone got any tips pls give them to me, but anyway so I'll distract myself by not doing any coursework, lagging behind even more and it's like vicious cycle and that sucks ass

And don't get me started looking at ship art, like there is so much gorgeous GolKai, Eizavie and Sylvix (Fe3h) out there (not GuyLeo which sucks) and my lonely ass just craves something like that or just...like some sort of affection but my anxiety is like 'nope bish u suck, be lonely' which...sucks...😓

Oh and then those nice 15 inbox comments on my AO3 I don't know how to answer cause I suck at communication, and one is almost over a hundred days old I think...•́ ‿ ,•̀ Like...fuck...they give me so much joy and I want to let the commenters know, but I don't want to come on to strong and drive people away... (＠_＠;)

Oh and my heart is beating like crazy and I don't think that's healthy but I don't know...xD it just does that (and hurts but that's only when I'm browsing through some of my 3 big otps (well browsing through two, cause there is almost now GuyLeo) or when I'm panicking) sometimes...😂 And then I get all shaky xD

Welp I think that's enough out of me, I'll go and watch Netflix till I'm to tired to pay attention anymore...xD for anyone still reading, have a nice day/evening and bye~

(oh and maybe let me know how you liked that WIP up there, if you read it and only if you want of course, and maybe idk leave some inspiration if you want (◕ᴗ◕✿) )

#leon cromwell #guy crimson #leon x guy #guy x leon #fanfiction writer #fanfiction writing #wip #written on my phone #ao3 #ao3 writer #ive got to much thoughts #how to write #how to write smut scenes #help xD #that time i got reincarnated as a slime #tensura

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