I'd die for Xavier/Wednesday sibling dynamic. Wednesday completely invalidating Xaviers personal space and interrupting his schedule by coming up to him at the most random times to ask him to sketch something she saw in a vision. Xavier forcing Wednesday to listen to him ranting about colour theory, lineart and different types of brushes. Wednesday sliding messy sketches under Xaviers door, him returning literal masterpieces whenever they bump into each other. Them eventually opening up about their visions/nightmares, trying to figure them out together until they naturally greet each other with "did you dream about this?"
If you struggle with showing yourself kindness and compassion because you were so shamed/abused in your childhood that you can’t shake this feeling that there’s something inherently “bad” about you that you need to be “punished” for all the time... consider that you’ve been punished enough. Even though there wasn’t anything deserving of this much punishment to begin with, even if there was... you’ve suffered enough. When will enough be enough? How many more years must you suffer? It’s time to start being gentle and kind with yourself.
Not all of us are meant for greatness. Perhaps I'm not meant to be known and have my face printed in newspapers and my name preserved in history book. And that is okay because if I cannot be great then I can atleast be good. I can be kind and gentle, I can smile at people I don't know and pet stray animals and make my loved ones laugh and I can laugh with them and I can love with all my heart. And if I can be good then that is enough. If I can make another of God's creations feel loved and cared for, is that not enough to make me worthy of the space I take in this world
We are alive. And now the work is to be gentler with ourselves and with the world. I want such a sweet life for you. I want the fierceness of attention, of the light coming over the hill, of your own hand bringing a cup to your mouth. Of love, which will abide so much longer than the fire.
Molly McCully Brown, from Places I've Taken My Body: Essays
“Gentleness is not weakness. Just the opposite. Preserving a gentle spirit in a heartless world takes extraordinary courage, determination, and resilience. Do not underestimate the power of gentleness because gentleness is strength wrapped in peace, and therein lies the power to change the world.”
— L.R. Knost
How do you heal a broken heart
When someone leaves, they create a hole, a space within us and within our lives. It is our instinct to fill that space. Another person, alcohol drugs, food these are all things we can use to get back to feeling how we felt before. Happy and content. To fill our space within. But, this is all a cycle and endless, when we try to fill that space and don’t pay attention to what it wants, what it is trying to help us with, we keep this cycle going.
We can learn and we can grow from that space when we turn into it, when we feel it and when we sit with it. This may seem unnatural or uncomfortable, but it is the way to move through, to grow, learn and have that space pull us to be a new person is to turn towards it and not attempt to make it any different than it is.
Now, this may take heartache after heartache and space after space to be created. This may take some time to learn to do and to go away from that societal way of dealing with that hole that is created within. But, it is the way to get through this hard time and to get to a new way of being. A new way of living your life. And the heartache is a great spot to jump in and lean in to and create this new you.
Feel, as much as you can. It hurts, it sucks, it will be bad for a bit. Feel what comes up in you, feel what is there. Feel the loneliness, the hollowness, feel that just plain bad feeling that comes up. Be with it and sit with it. Doing this you may see that it is just a feeling, just a passing emotion in the stream of your life and that it will just be in you, but doesn’t have to control you.
Be gentle with it and be gentle with yourself. That pain you feel now is a current expression of all the times people have left you, hurt you, and those all simply want you to acknowledge them within you.
Love them for what they are truly trying to do for you, heal you and lead you, drag you, to growth and to be a better, more resilient person. It is all there for you.
These things, these feelings are here for you. Try to see that and try to sense that and sit. And just feel. And it will grow you naturally, this hurt and discomfort will naturally transform and things will bubble up, but be laid down again and again and what is there, what is there beyond all of this hurt will begin to emerge more and more.
Peace, a sense of wholeness, will just start to peek its head out from under all that hurt and pain. And then you may begin to see that the hurt and pain are leading you to the peace and wholeness. They just cannot speak to you in ways that are familiar to you, so the get your attention and show you what simply needs to be felt, healed and pushed past.
Then heartache will lose its grip on you and it will change your perspective of it and of all the hurt you have gone through and survived. Then you’ll be taught by it and not be a victim of it.
I hope this helps,