breathe
I can't begin to comprehend how to pull oxygen into my lungs. they fill with water and my tears. I'm dropping to the bottom of the ocean, surrounded by my own devotion and lack thereof. I want to see and feel but all my nerves are severed. my brain is unbalanced and I am nauseous, constantly surrounded by my own grief and vexed with the pain of others. I feel too much yet I can't feel anything at all.
my mother is the sea and my god is the moon. I pray to both yet I can never find salvation.
I keep praying.
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𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐘 𝐁𝐔𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒. Get a fucking grip.
word count. 0.687k. warning. profanity.
Y/N had enough of this girl’s bullshit. So much so that when she saw the article from Koreaboo, she snapped. She was sick and tired of this brat having some type of one-sided beef with her. So when we had asked their driver to make a stop on the way to their destination, nobody questioned it. At least, not until Hades had realized they had stopped in front of the EVE dorms, and Y/N was pulling off a few things. Her shoes, her jewelry, her lashes. Nadia looked at Sei before looking back at Y/N.
“Hey, Y/N.” Rei had started to say as Y/N pulled her hair into a bun. The leader dancer stopped and looked at her. “What are you doing?”
“I’m gonna talk to Chaewon, and if she puts her hand on me, i’m gonna put her in her place.” With that, she opened the door, hoping out of the car and walking towards the front door. Hades made a gesture for the rest of them to wait, getting out and following her. Y/N’a palm hit the door several times, until a tall girl with blue hair with purple ends answered. Her expression went from clueless to grim.
“She’s in her room, i’ll go get her.” She said lowly before disappearing. Y/N tapped her foot impatiently. “Chaewon, there's someone at the door for you.” No longer then a few seconds does she appear, and she crossed her arms after seeing who it was. She begins to open her mouth, probably to say something snarky or rude, but Y/N cuts her off.
“Look, i don't know what your issue with me is, and to be fucking for real, i don't really care. I don't know you that well and i don't want to, but keep my fucking name out your mouth. I don't know what weird obsession you have with Sunghoon, and he's not my boyfriend so i don't really care, but i’ll tell you in plain terms what the truth is: He doesn't fucking like you or want you. I don't know what you did to him to the full extent but i know you did some fucked up shit. It's time to move on, because gaslighting him and blackmailing him into a relationship he doesn't want may feed your ego, but what happens when you realize that he doesn't want you? Then what? An endless cycle of you leaving him and then running back when it's convenient for you?”
“Get over yourself. And don't bring me into it for god's sake. You want to ruin our fake relationship? Fine. But leave my career and my friend's out of it. I'm not here to argue, I'm not here to grovel. I'm here to give you a fucking reality check, because while your daddy can buy you into companies and groups and take away opportunities for people who worked hard for them, he has you living in La La land, and i’m sick of that shit. Get a fucking grip and grown the fuck up.” She turns around, grabbing Hades hand and pulling the leader with her, before she stops, and drops her hand. She turns around, walking back up to Chaewon. “And for the love of god, apologize to Sunghoon. I don't care if its not sincere, and you don't want to. If you actually want him back because you realize you lost a great-” Her voice cracks, and brushes a tear that fell from her lash away before clearing her throat. “-a great person, apologize. He deserves becauses even if I can't stand him right now, I know he's not doing well no matter how well he pretends.” She turns around, walking back to the car.
Hades turns to look at Chaewon, but to the redhead’s surprise, Chaewon looked….sorry. She wipes her nose, and closes the door. Hades frowns before getting back into the car. Hades isn't usually one to feel remorse, especially with someone who toyed with multiple people’s feelings, but the leader felt that somewhere, deep down in her, Chaewon wasn’t a bad person.
A/N. BAES WAKE UP I UPDATED🙀🙀 il yall was like 'this bitch been active all week and aint touch the fic in a minute🤨" HEHDHD MY FRIEND WAS LIKE "its been six days😐" anyways y/n ate and thats on that
SYNOPSIS. Y/N never considered once after she debuted that she would get the chance to (fake)date Park Sunghoon, the boy she had a crush on since he debuted. Sunghoon on the other had never thought he would get the chance to date the newly debuted idol from VEVILA. Both feel as though they are on cloud nine, until Sunghoon has to mc with his ex, who can’t catch a hint.
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