hm i keep getting random tastes of delicious food just out of nowhere when im not even eating anything, this never happened before

A/N - based off of this sinful photograph

Suggested listening - Wildside by Normani and Kiss It Better by Rihanna

Wildside

Pairing - Lewis Hamilton x Reader (fem!littlemix!reader)

Fandom - F1

Summary - You've been on tour for a while, and you miss your loverboy. But when he surprises you on tour, its bound to get spicy.

Warnings - smut (not well written)

The snap of hips. The soft groans and moans. The sound of pants. The sound of Rihanna's 'Kiss It Better' blaring through the walls. The bed knocking against the wall as Lewis's hands squeezed your hips, the intensity of the thrust pushing the bed against the wall. The high pitched moan that left your mouth as you reached your high, eyes closing as stars exploded behind your eyelids, as your boyfriend came right after you, your walls clenching as he came. Even after reaching your high, you didn't want to open your eyes, far too consumed in the earth shattering pleasure that was coursing through your veins, until a soft hand reached to pull your chin up, soft brown eyes looking into your own, clouded with lust and euphoria.

Pulling your mouth into his in a heated kiss, Lewis moved his hand to rest on your bare stomach, squeezing your tummy softly as he deepened the kiss. Pulling away he let his head droop onto your bare chest. "That was.." he began, far too blissed out to think of an adjective. "Godly" you said, chest rising and falling rapidly, trying to come to terms with the intensity of your orgasm. Laughing he leaned back up to kiss your nose, before standing up and walking to the bathroom. You heard the tap running, and the sound of the dustbin opening and closing. You closed your eyes again, the aftershocks still coursing through your body.

Opening them again slowly, you saw Lewis walk towards you, towel in hand, and a lazy smile on his face. He gently cleaned your thighs, finishing with kisses on both of them. He reached up and wiped your torso, which was gleaming with a thin layer of sweat, before running the towel over your nose, cheeks, eyes and mouth. He dropped the towel in the clothes hamper near the bathroom door, pulling on his boxer shorts and and pulling out one of his t shirts from the cupboard. "What about the clothes on the floor" you piped up, finally beginning to wake up from your post pleasure state. "When did it get so messy?" He said, spotting 5 different clothing items in 5 different corners of the room. "When you decided to run your hand up my dress in a restraunt" you replied, throwing him a fake glare.

"You liked it" was his cocky reply, smirk spreading over his face as you flushed and ran a hand through your hair. "I did not" you lied, watching as he raised his eyebrows. "Oh really ? Thats not what you were saying 5 minutes ago- oh wait, you weren't saying anything at all. You were too busy moaning my name to say anything else-" "OKAY fine I loved it. Now shut up and bring your fine ass back for cuddles"

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That was a month ago. Now you've been away for nearly one and half months, away with the girls on the LM5 tour. You loved touring, it was the best part of being a singer, getting to see the music you girls made together come to life on a stage in front of thousands and thousands of screaming fans. It was a thrill like no other. The only problem was that you were away from home. Distance was never an issue for the two of you, after all, he was a Formula 1 driver. It was very rare that he was home, except during the breaks and the gaps till race weekend, but ever since you two had started dating, he tried to be with you whenever you could. Sometimes, your shows would be in places where the races were too, and then he'd definitely turn up. But it was a difficult thing to do all the time, and some nights on tour were spent pulling all nighters as you talked to each other on the phone, till one of you eventually fell asleep.

But you knew when you started dating him, this wouldn't exactly be a regular relationship. The two of you were doing your dream jobs, and they were both extraordinary. And you were willing to put in the work you had to put in to make the relationship work, and you did. Yet here you were in Madrid, feeling heartbroken and desperately wanting your boyfriend by your side. It had been a rough couple of weeks, you were jet lagged and tired, and although this was the second leg of the tour, and you had had a break, it was tiring. It was hard going to bed every night alone, when all you wanted was to cuddle your boyfriend.

Little did you know, Lewis was feeling the same. In fact he had missed you so much, he had told Angela and his publicist to cancel all events for a week, while he flew out to Madrid to see you. He had missed you, he had missed you more than he could put into words. But he also wanted to surprise you. Pulling out his phone, he scrolled down to Leigh Anne's contact, and sent her a text.

Lewis, Leigh Anne

Hey. Is Y/N asleep ?

Hey! No, she's in an outfit fitting.

Okay that's good. I need your help with something.

Sure how can I help ?

I want to surprise her by coming to see you guys in Madrid.

Oh thats wonderful ! She's been a little down in the dumps. I think she misses you.

I miss her too.

Let me know when, and I'll send a car to pick you up.

I'll be there on Saturday. Landing at 3:15 and I should be at the hotel by 4:30. Then I can get ready and surprise her at the show.

Okay done. I'll send the car around 5:30,so you can rest for a bit. You should be here by 6. The show's at 6:15.

Thank you! Can't wait : )

I'm so happy youre coming to see her ! I'll let the girls know.

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As soon as he had finished texting, Lewis decided to start packing, the prospect of seeing you again sending a buzz of happiness running along his veins. God, he had missed you a lot. He turned to Roscoe, the dog sitting by his feet, looking up at his dad with his head cocked to one side. "I'm going to go see Mumma, Roscoe" he explained, smiling as the doggo barked in response. He wouldn't be able to take him to Madrid, he'd have to leave him with a dog sitter, but he couldn't feel too bad about it, since he had had Roscoe with him even when you were gone. And besides, Roscoe enjoyed the dog creche. He couldn't wait for Saturday.

Later in the evening, he sat down with a glass of wine, while the ringtone of your FaceTime rang through the empty house. After a few more seconds of ringing, the call was picked up, your tired face coming into view. "Hi darling" he said, noticing the tiredness in your eyes, and how much you were struggling to keep them open. "Hi bubs. Did you finish eating?" You asked, rubbing your eyes. "No, I've ordered soup" (did anyone get the reference ;) "Oh okay" was the reply. "What about you? What time is it?" "Its 9:20 AM" you replied, gently rubbing your eyes again, forcing yourself to stay awake.

"9:20? Thats pretty late baby. Why are you still sleepy?" "We were recording till 4 AM, so Im functioning on like 5 hours sleep right now" "Oh damn. Go back to sleep then baby" "Can't, rehearsal" was you reply, making him furrow his eyebrows. "Okay I guess. But don't tire yourself out" "I won't" "I love you" he said, smiling at you. "I love you"

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The Madrid show was always a fun one. The fans were loud and you loved it. They were one of the best crowds you girls ever played for, and the show had its own adrenaline and excitement. But it was difficult to give a 100% when you were tired, but you really tried, you did. During Power, you hit highnotes you didnt think you could, during Woman Like Me you danced like there was no tomorrow. During Wasabi, you brought your sass level up to a 1000. It was during Bounce Back that you caught sight of a very familiar face in the audience. Unable to actually grasp if you had actually seen Lewis, you turned to Jade, who was on your side, and looked back at the crowd and back to her, asking for confirmation.

The smirk she gave you was answer enough. After that, focusing on giving an excellent performance increased tenfold. Every swirl of your hips, every flip of your hair, every wink you threw at the audience, it was all five times sexier. In the crowd, your boyfriend was well aware of what you were doing, and it was fair to say that you were succeeding at it. He could feel an uncomfortable sensation around his pants region, as his cock twitched uncomfortably in his pants. He couldn't wait till the show was over, and you two could have a show of your own.

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"That was amazing darling!" Lewis said, spotting the 5 of you in your dressing room. "Oh look its Mr. Loverboy!" Perrie said, cackling as you rolled your eyes at her, before running up to your lover and jumping into his arms. "Hiya Bub! I missed you!" "I missed you too love. That's why I surprised you. I couldn't stand another day without you at home" he said, wrapping his arms around your waist to keep you stable as you jumped into his arms. A chorus of "awws" echoed throughout the room, as the girls watched your cute little interaction. What wasn't cute however was the comment Lewis made in your ear, hiding his face in your ear so that the girls couldn't see. "I can't wait to get back to the hotel. I saw the performance you were putting on for me baby. You have no idea how hard I got, how uncomfortable I was standing in front of so many people when all I really wanted to do was fuck you"

You could feel your mouth become dry, and your heartbeat quicken, and you could feel the area between your thighs become wet. You tightened your grip around him, letting your crotch rub against his very softly. "I think it's time to go" you mumbled against his ear. "Okay girls, as lovely as it was to see you, I think it's time we go back to the hotel. I'm pretty worn out from travelling as well" "Yeah I'm pretty tired too" you replied, faking a large yawn. "Alright then, we'll see you guys tomorrow!" Leigh Anne said, leaning forward to give you a hug. After you finished hugging all the girls, the two of you made your way to the car, eagerly waiting to get back home.

The car ride home was tense. The tension was apparent in the air, reverberating through the air, choking you in a way you revelled in. The air was thick with tension, and it was suffocating you in the best way possible. It was almost too much to take. When the hotel came into sight, you practically leapt out of the car, and rushed to the door, an equally ruffled Lewis beside you. But he was not going to give in to you so easily. He enjoyed seeing you flustered. And he was not a person that gave someone what they wanted when they asked for it,no. He was going to have you desperate for it. Smirking to himself, he made his way to the reception, grabbing you by the waist as he went.

Throwing him a confused look you followed, slightly frustrated. "Hello sir, how can I help you?" the man at the reception asked, eyes going slightly wide as he recognized the two of you. "Hi! I just wanted to ask, till what time is your pool and spa open?" He asked, sliding his hand down to the back of your dress. "The pool closes at 10 pm sir, and the spa at 9 pm. We open the pool at 7 am and the spa at 11pm"he replied, struggling to maintain his professionalism as he spoke to one of the best drivers in Formula 1. "Alright thank you. And what time does breakfast start?" Lewis asked, hand pressing down on your ass, ever so discreetly. "Breakfast is from 6-10 am sir" "Thank you so much"

Next to him, you were fuming. Of course he was going to ask questions to which he already knew the answers to. A painful throb between your legs made you let out a small whimper, and the man at the reception looked at you with concern in his eyes. "Ma'am are you alright?" He asked, eyeing your stiff posture and tense state. "Yes, just tired, thank you" you replied, a little stiffly, but it was hard to concentrate when Lewis's promise of fucking you senseless kept replaying in your mind. "Alright then, good night" Lewis said, biting back a smirk at your flustered state. He knew getting you all riled up would lead to some seriously earth shattering sex, and he couldn't wait. But first, he definitely wanted to tease you, to push you over the edge, just a little more.

Your room was on the 16th floor, and as the two of you made your way into the elevator, he eyed you up and down, eyes lingering on the curve of your breasts. The minute the door shut, he pushed you against the wall, capturing your lips in a steamy kiss you'd be remembering the next day. His hands moved to your ass, squeezing hard, eliciting a moan from your lips. The moment your lips parted, he was pushing his tongue into yours, his other hand coming up to pull on your hair roughly, relishing in the gasp that left your lips. As suddenly as he started, he stopped, pulling back and standing almost nonchalantly against the wall.

Trying to wrap your head around what happened, you gripped the wall with your hand, feeling your legs grow weak to a point where you felt like you couldn't stand on your own. You could feel your wetness dripping, threatening to run down your thighs, as the throbbing became even more painfully exciting. You looked down at the floor, eyes closing as your frustration grew more and more by the second. Finally, with a little 'ding', the elevator stopped at the 16th floor. The moment the door opened you stepped out on wobbly legs, trying your best to walk properly. But of course, that wasn't going to happen. As you turned one long corridor, Lewis suddenly grabbed your waist, pushing you against the wall again, to reach down and suck on your neck. You let out a gasp, and tried to run your crotch against his, but the retaliated with a slap to your ass, smirking when a high pitched moan left your lips. Lifting you up against the wall, he mumbled against your ear "the key card" your clouded mind was unable to process the words, too consumed by slight relief you were getting. "Get the key card baby" he repeated. This time you noted it, reaching down to his pants pocket to pull out the key card. You couldn't resist running your hand over his cock, feeling how rock hard he was. The thought of him fucking you senseless returned, and you let out a groan.

Grabbing the card from your hand, he opened the door, propping you up against the door in your bedroom. His eyes were filled with a raw, animal desire, as he dropped the card on the floor and reached up to unzip your dress. He ripped the zipper down, your dress falling to the floor in a crumpled heap. He locked his eyes on your heaving chest, hand reaching up to grab your chin, pulling you in for a searing kiss. His hand slid up your torso, reaching behind to unhook the red lacy bra you were wearing, letting it drop to the floor as he took in the glorious sight in front of him. You waited, wanting him to just touch you, but he just stared, eyes looking into yours, clearly saying "beg for it"

You couldn't help the soft "please" that left your lips, too desperate for some sort of touch. "Please what?' Lewis said, tightening his grip on your waist. "Please" was all you could say again, nearly whimpering again at the rough look in his eyes. "Use your words baby. Now, please what?" "Please just touch me!" You finally gasped out, moaning loudly when he licked a stripe down your chest before taking your right tit into his mouth. His hand fondled the left one, running his thumb over your erect nipple, the rough pad of his thumb sending shockwaves of pleasure through your body. His mouth sucked on the skin of your tit, before moving down to bite down on your nipple. You gasped again, pain and pleasure coursing through your body as his tongue ran over your nipple over and over till it nearly felt raw. He switched his actions, moving his mouth to your left tit instead, letting his hand harshly fondle the other. He continued the same process of biting, licking and sucking, till he was satisfied with himself. "I fucking love this baby. Seeing you all wet and needy for me. So what do you want? My mouth? My fingers? My cock? Or does my baby want them all ?" He asked, watching as your pupils dilated and you let out a strangled moan.

You let your crotch rub against his thigh, gasping when the friction went straight to your core. "Look at you darling. I asked you what you what you wanted, and you picked my thighs? Well, I want to see you dripping. I want to see you cum on my fingers, my mouth, my thighs and especially on my cock. I'm going to make you cum over and over and over again till you can't even stand on your own fucking legs. I want your thighs to be shaking around my head. I want to see you moan and groan and scream my name so loud, by tomorrow everyone in this hotel will know my name, because you'll spend all night screaming it" you moaned again, his words going straight to your core."Please Lewis, God, just make me cum please!" The desperation of your cry was enough for him to carry you to the bed, dropping your body onto the soft mattress.

He pulled of shirt, unbuttoning every button so you could see him do it. He could see your eyes grow dark, as his compass tattoo came into sight. You had told him it was one of your favourites, and he had used it against you ever since you had told him that. Smirking at you, he climbed onto the bed, lying down between your legs. You pushed yourself up against the headboard, spreading your legs wide for him. His eyes grew dark, as your core came into his view, shimmering with your juices. A near animalistic growl left his mouth, the sound hitting your core. He moved so that he was situated right in front of your core. He let his eyes take in the sight of you in front of him, snapping back to reality when you let out a groan of frustration. Throwing you a devilishly reassuring smile, he inched neared and nearer, till his nose was nearly touching your clit. Then he just lay there. Not moving. You could feel your heartbeat hammering against your chest, chest heaving up and down, an alarming intense feeling growing in your tummy. Finally, when it became too much you let out a small scream of frustration "Oh for fucks sake Lewis please just fuck me!" Your outburst brought a smile to his face. "Oh I will. Just not yet" and with that, he ran a finger along your slit, before finally slipping it into you. You let out a moan, finally getting the friction you had been desperate for. His fingers circled your clit, thumb gently pressing down, before he removed it,only to slam it back down on your sensitive clit, earning a scream of pleasure from you.

He slipped a second finger into you, scissoring around your clit, as your desperate cries of "oh, oh baby! Fuck, fuck lewis-" were lost in the heat of the moment. He leaned his head down to your core, letting his tongue run along your slit too, before licking around it, collecting your wetness on his tongue, before letting it harshly circle your clit. You bucked up into his mouth, feeling his tongue wrap around your clit. He sucked the nub harshly, his fingers still moving in and out of you. "Oh God, Oh GOD, Lew-I- oh! Oh God!" Your broken moans were music to his ears as he sucked your clit into his mouth. You could feel a strange intensity growing in your stomach, feeling a lot stronger than your usual orgasm. The band in your tummy was threatening to snap, but you needed that something more to help it snap. That something more came when Lewis sucked your clit into his mouth, letting it rest in between his teeth, before flicking it with his tongue.

With a cry of "Oh fucking hell, Lew-" you camr gushing into his mouth, your juices coating his fingers and gushing onto his tongue, as he let you ride out your orgasm on his deadly skilled tongue. Well, he had got his wish. Your thighs were shaking around his head, as your body tried to come to terms with the intensity of the pleasure coursing through your body. Looking down, you saw him with his painfully hard cock, grinding down on the sheet, as he let out a moan at the relief the bedsheets gave him. Raising an eyebrow, you patted your thigh, signaling him to come over to you. "You loved on me so well bubs. But I can see how hard you are. Do you want to use me to get off?" You asked, watching the effect you had on him. All he could do was nod, as you sat up on your knees. "Stand up" you ordered, getting up from the bed as well.

You walked over to the wall, letting your body rest against it. Somewhat confused, Lewis followed you, standing in the space between your legs. "I tried to get off using your thighs didn't I? I think you'll enjoy it as much as I did. So use me. Use my thigh. Get off" looking at you in pure shock, your boyfriend moved forward, groaning when you pushed your leg against his throbbing cock. He relished in the friction, slowly beginning to move against your leg, moaning when he began to rub against your leg. He began to hump your leg faster, as the pleasure began to build up in his body, before you reached your hand down to cup his length in your hands, moaning when you realized your fingers didn't quite meet. You ran your fingers along his length. You pumped him, letting your thumb circle his sensitive tip, eliciting a soft whine from him. You circled faster, moving down to your knees, and letting your tongue run up his shaft very softly. Above you, Lewis slammed his hands against the wall, groaning when you took him into your mouth.

But a part of him still wanted to cum inside when he was fucking you (in a condom, because wrap it before you tap it) so he pulled you back up, smirking when you whined. "I know baby, but I just really wanna fuck you now. Back on the bed please, unless you want me to take you here against this wall" practically running, you clambered onto the bed. You watched as Lewis pulled out a condom, ripping the packet open before climbing back on top of you. He let his hand rest on your hip, eyes temporarily losing some of the animalistic need that had been present in them. Leaning down, he connected your lips together in a kiss, a searing, intense kiss that took your breath away. "Ready love?" He asked, looking into your eyes, looking to see if there was even a slight hint that you didn't want this. But you did.

With a sudden jolt, he thrust himself into you, groaning when your warm walls clamped down on him. His hips thrust into you, starting off slow, letting you adjust to his massive length. "My sweet baby,taking me so well. Does it feel good?" You couldn't even respond, mouth agape, as his the pace of his thrusts increased. "Answer me" he said, suddenly stopping. Almost crying out at the loss of pleasure, you looked at him with desperation. "Yes yes, fuck it feels so good, please don't stop!" "Thats all you had to say baby" he said, before pushing in again, slowly. Then, he pulled back out. Looking at him in confusion, you gasped when he slammed back into you, a high pitched moan of "Lewis!" leaving your lips. He moved so that he had a better hold of your hips, rocking the both of you back and forth, the intensity of his thrusts was so much that the bed knocked back against the wall. What he wasn't expecting was for you to take his left thumb up to your mouth, running your tongue over it before sucking on it.

Moaning, he started thrusting into you even harder, shifting so that he was directly hitting your g spot. "Oh, God ! Oh fuck, Baby that feels so good please keep going keep-oh!" The cry that left your lips was so loud, you were sure Perrie in the room next to yours had heard you. "Fuck baby, you take me so well" Lewis said, as he nearly hammered your g spot. He was so, so damn close to cumming, and when you leant up and bit a sensitive spot on his neck, he came, gushing into the guard between you two, but he wanted you to cum to, so he reached down to pinch and rub your clit, still riding out his orgasm in you, moaning when you came with a scream. He winced when your core spasmed on his sensitive cock, and he pulled out slowly, before collapsing next to you. Panting, you curled up to him, letting your hand rest on his compass tattoo. "Okay that was Godlike" you said, earning a tired laugh from your lover.

"Yeah it really was. I missed you" he said, allowing you to nuzzle into his neck, leaning down to press a kiss to your forehead. "I missed you too" you replied, kissing the tattoo. "I love you too" As you lay there together, still revelling in the moment, your phone buzzed. Reaching over to check it, you saw your groupchat with the girls flooding with messages.

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Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - Y/N, I'm filing a noise complaint. 🍆

Jade ✨ - Pez 😂 let them be. It's been a while for her.

Leigh 🦋- She really got some tonight huh? 😏

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️- LOL she did !! And it was obviously some goooood 'some' *wink wink*

Jade ✨- I could hear em too, and Im on the other end of the hall.

Leigh 🦋 - I know I did too! Must be some damn good sex. 😏

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - Go Y/N !!

Jade ✨ - Can't wait till she reads this.

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - Are they still going?!

Leigh 🦋 - No 😂 she's reading the messages. Y/N!! Yoohoo!

You - yes I'm here 🖕🏽

Jade ✨ - Did you have fun babe 😏

You - ..... yes

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - babe you can't really say no because we heard you

You- Im not saying I didn't have fun. But you guys need to calm down.

Leigh 🦋 - But its funnn

You - okay byeeee ❤

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - Going for a round 2 😏?

You - okay I said bye.

Leigh 🦋 - she is !!

Jade ✨ - Go babe !

You - I need to leave this group.

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - No we love you !! ❤

Leigh 🦋 - Yeah don't leave us ❤

Jade ✨- Don't leave meee ! ❤

You - Haha I'd never leave you girls ❤ now bye.

Jade ✨ - bye babe !

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - bye you sexy minx 😏

Leigh - bye hun 💙

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Smiling to yourself, you put your phone away, to see Lewis looking at you with a raised eyebrow. "Who was it?" "Just the girls" you said, cuddling back up to him. "What did they say?" Giggling, you looked up to him and kissed his neck. "They said they're going to file a noise complaint. And they asked me if we were going for a round two" "Were we really that loud?" He asked, looking at you in surprise. "Yeah, even Leigh heard us and she's at the end of the hall!" "Damn" Lewis said laughing. "Well," he said, looking at you again, with a cheeky look in his eye, "they were right about one thing" "And what is that?" You asked, smiling at him mischievously. "We are going for a round two"

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@maxverstappenx @grandestrategia (because you are worth it 🦋💙)

24/7 ramen.

description: you are iwaizumi’s home; even if he is forced to take you to a ramen place at 2 in the morning.

pairing: iwaizumi x gen!reader

genre/warning: banter, fluff, literally just filler dialogue with an overarching plot, light mentions of violence

word count: 1.8k

a/n: this was inspired by some headcanons im going to post. oh and this is for @hajiimes... hehe <3

“I got into a fight.”

Iwaizumi paused, his phone hovering near his ear. He resisted the urge to let out a sharp laugh—of all the things, why did you have to get into a fight?—and slung his arm over his face. “And you lost?”

Iwaizumi could almost hear you pouting. “To be fair, they were-”

“But you lost.”

A pause. “Yeah.”

Iwaizumi dragged his hand across his face with a heavy sigh. “Why are you fighting people at,” he paused to squint at the digital clock on the dresser, “Two in the morning?”

“Ramen.”

“What?”

“Hot and spicy shrimp,” you said solemnly. “There was only one pack-”

“You’re aware we have finals tomorrow, right?”

“Exactly the reason why I wanted ramen.”

Iwaizumi sighed again. “Are you hurt?”

“Well, someone elbowed me in the eye-”

“The eye?”

“Yes the eye. I’m pretty sure it’s swollen, but other than that I’m perfectly fine.”

“Why do you sound so happy?” Iwaizumi asked, getting up to scour his closet for a hoodie. “You lost a fight over a pack of ramen.”

“Well technically, no one won the fight. We all got kicked out of the store. Poor guy didn’t even keep his ramen.”

“Which store?”

“Walmart.”

“You couldn’t have gone to a convenience store or something?” Iwaizumi pulled on the hoodie Oikawa sent him from Argentina and grabbed an old Godzilla hoodie from his closet.

“Haji, this is Socal, not Japan,” you condescended. Iwaizumi scoffed at how haughty you sounded. “I’m sure Socal has convenience stores,” he muttered.

“Well, Walmart was the closest.”

“You could’ve woken me up,” Iwaizumi grumbled, moving on to grab the keys off the drawer, “I would’ve taken you to a convenience store.”

“But you were sleeping.”

“So? You know how dangerous that was? I’d feel a little better if I was there.”

“Yeah, but I wanted ramen,” you sighed. “Anyway, can you pick me up, Haji? It’s getting cold.”

Iwaizumi shut the apartment door with a quiet click. “I’m leaving the apartment now.”

“That was fast.”

“Yeah, I had a feeling that you’d want me to pick you up.”

“Okay. Oh, and remember to drive on the right side of the road.”

“I know.”

“Are you sure? You almost drove into a tree last time.”

“Because I was tired.” Iwaizumi opened the door to the car, dropping the hoodie into the passenger’s seat. “Tired people don’t think straight.”

“Aren’t you tired right now?”

“No, I’ve been awake since you told me you got into a fight. You need to tell me what the hell actually happened there.”

“I told you, it was ramen,” you huffed. “There was one pack of spicy shrimp and three desperate college students in need of ramen.”

“So you fought for it.”

“I lunged for it, some other dude shoved me, I crashed into the third person, and then he was pushing them and I was on the floor and then someone’s elbow was in my eye and then the employee grabbed us and tossed us out.”

Iwaizumi took a moment to process your words. “You sound proud of yourself.”

“I’m not. I didn’t get the ramen.”

“No one got the ramen,” Iwaizumi deadpanned. “Isn’t that what you said?”

“I mean yeah, but now I can tell people I’ve been in a fight.”

“Why would you want to tell someone you’ve been in a fight?”

“I dunno,” you sighed. “I’m tired and hungry. Tired and hungry people say weird things.”

“Damn right.”

“That was an insult.”

“It was.”

“Ouch.”

Iwaizumi didn’t respond, lightly drumming his fingers against the steering wheel as he waited for the red light to turn green.

“My eye hurts,” you said suddenly, your voice crackling from the phone’s speaker.

Iwaizumi furrowed his eyebrows. “Does it hurt a lot?”

“No,” you decide. “Ramen would make it better.”

“So now I’m buying you ramen?”

“Yeah.”

“At 2 AM?”

“It’s 2:28 now.”

Iwaizumi scoffed.

“I found this ramen place that’s open,” you said. “24/7 Ramen. It’s 25 minutes from here.”

“Why is there a ramen place open for 24 hours?” he muttered, half to himself.

“It’s probably run by college students. That’s why the name is catchy too.”

“Catchy?”

“It sounds like a song. You know, 24 Karat Magic by Bruno Mars.”

“Never heard of it.”

“What?” Iwaizumi found himself flinching, despite the fact it was simply your voice coming from his phone’s speaker. “How have you been living in America for two years without ever hearing 24 Karat Magic? That song is a classic.”

“I think you’re forgetting you’re speaking to a guy born and raised in Japan.”

“Haji, you’ve been here for two years. That’s 24 months. 48 weeks. And a certain amount of days I’m too tired to calculate.”

Iwaizumi thought for a moment. “730.”

“730-” you paused. “How the hell did you calculate that so fast?”

“Dealing with stupid people makes you smarter, I guess.”

“No, ramen makes you smarter.” You sighed. “I really want ramen.”

“I heard.” Iwaizumi turned the steering wheel, bringing the car into the Walmart parking lot. “And I’m here now, so you can stop whining.”

“Oh, I see you. Do you see me?”

There was a figure sitting on the front curb, waving erratically in Iwaizumi’s direction. “I see an idiot waving at me like their life depends on it, so yes, I see you.”

“I think being around stupid people makes you grumpy,” you grumbled.

“No, having to pick my significant other up from Walmart at 2 in the morning makes me grumpy.”

You responded by scoffing and hanging up the phone. Seconds later, you were sliding into the passenger seat of the car. “Aw, did you bring a hoodie for me?” you asked, glancing down at the Godzilla hoodie that you almost sat down on.

Iwaizumi glanced over to you, raising an eyebrow. “Hello to you too.”

You rolled your eyes and leaned forward to press a quick kiss to Iwaizumi’s cheek. “Hi, I love you, thank you for picking me up. Happy now?”

“I’m ecstatic. Yes, that hoodie is for you.”

You smiled, pulling the hoodie on over your shirt and relaxing into the seat. Iwaizumi carefully looked over your face. The only noticeable injury was the ring of darkness around your eye—did they really elbow you that hard?—and a slight cut on your upper lip, but those would heal soon. He let out a quiet sigh of relief.

“What, is there something on my face?” you asked, reaching up to brush your fingers over your cheek.

“You have a black eye.”

Your eyebrows furrowed. “Damn. Is it bad?”

“No, not really.” He checked the dashboard for the time and slightly frowned. “Where’s the ramen place?”

24/7 Ramen was a small convenience store in between an optometrist and a cigarette shop. On the outside, it wasn’t much. The name of the store was illuminated in large flickering neon letters. The exterior brick walls of the store were dusty and crumbling with age and wore. The windows were covered with assorted posters and papers, some for missing children, upcoming movies, and advertisements for Japanese snacks.

“Oh, so this is like a Japanese convenience store then?” you asked, looking at one of the Japanese ads. “I guess you were right.”

“Told you.”

“Just come on and buy me my ramen.”

The door opened with a familiar chime that reminded Iwaizumi of warm yakisoba buns, tangled with the sight of preppy school uniforms, and of course, Oikawa Tooru. The layout of the store was straight out of Japan, overwhelming him with countless reels of tender highschool memories. If he closed his eyes he could see himself standing right there, bag under his arm, Oikawa at his shoulder.

“Feeling a little nostalgic, huh?”

His head whipped toward you standing behind him with an amused smile on your face. “This place does have a Japanese feel to it.” You raised your eyebrow in that insufferably adorable way of yours, and Iwaizumi found it hard to breathe.

He stuffed his hands in his pockets as a flush began to form on his cheeks. “Be quiet.”

You hummed but made no other comment, instead choosing to shoot him another knowing look that made his blood roar in his ears. You started moving through the store, picking cups of ramen off the shelves. He hovered behind you, still embarrassed about his nostalgic moment—was he that homesick?—occasionally picking up cups of ramen and examining them before placing them back onto the shelf.

After what seemed like ages, you presented your armful of ramen cups with a proud smile. “I’m done.”

Iwaizumi raised an eyebrow. “I’m not buying you 15 cups of ramen.”

“But you promised-“

“Each one is like, 65 cents? I’ll buy you 5, max.”

“Why not more?”

“I’m just as broke as you are.”

You sighed in defeat. “Being broke in college sucks.”

“I told you we should’ve held off on getting a car.”

“But I wanted a car!”

“More than you want ramen?”

“That’s- that’s an unfair comparison!”

Iwaizumi continued to go back and forth with you, even as you paid for the ramen at the cash register. You were in the middle of a frantic explanation of why investing in a car was important in California when you finally made it outside.

The air was still and cool, save for the slight breeze that occasionally tangled in Iwaizumi’s spiky locks. The only sounds were the distant cars speeding across the road and the faint sound of crickets chirping, for you had both fallen silent after leaving the convenience store. Iwaizumi turned to look at you: one eye swollen, upper lip bleeding, a plastic bag full of convenience store ramen clutched tightly in your hand. He could see the fire in your eyes, that odd determination to make your own dreams a reality, no matter how fickle or ridiculous they were. It was similar to the drive he saw in Oikawa’s eyes, he realized. The reckless, worthless one that seemed to be a double-edged sword.

Maybe that’s why whenever he looked at you, he felt like he was at home.

“I love you, you know that?”

You cocked your head to the side and smiled slightly. “Where did that come from?”

He shrugged and stuffed his hands into his pockets again, turning away from your curious gaze. The corners of your mouth pulled up into a faint smile. Without warning, you turned Iwaizumi toward you with your finger and pressed a chaste kiss to his lips. And then you were bounding off toward the car, the plastic bag jostling in your hand.

“Hey,” Iwaizumi called, starting after you. “Come back here so I can kiss you properly.”

“I want my ramen!” came your response from the car. “No kisses until I get my ramen!”

Iwaizumi chuckled softly. You were annoying and feisty, but you still managed to make him feel right at home.

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how i spent my 24th birthday!! in bullets

not only was it my birthday, but it was also kuya jp's (tiger's older brother) and basti's (tiger's nephew). kuya jp's at may 15 and basti's at may 12. so we all celebrated it together on may 16th!

we had SO MUCH FOOD. so much food that i invited cath over a day earlier than the planned visit because of the amount of food we had for the day.

cath gave me her gift na din. tan (her boyfriend) gave me a sober kids (his clothing brand) tote bag and cath gave me yogurt drinks and poptarts!!!

i requested for baked chicken with gravy and potato salad cause ate gi (tiger's sister) makes the best of the dish! yes, nagrequest ako HAHAHA

(the first gif) was my cake. banana dream from conti's. i was supposed to get a banoffee pie from banapple but settled for banana dream because yan yung natanggap sa grab HAHAHA no regrets! banana will forever be my favorite flavor of anything

it wasn't the only cake we had at home. we had a mango magnifico(?) cake from cara mia, basti's cake, and a black velvet cake from conti's, kuya jp's cake.

(second gif) WE ALSO HAD BUTTERED SHRIMP, MAKI, AND WAGYU. HOLY FUCKKKKK I LOVE EATING SO MUCH

NEEDLESS TO SAY BUT WE WERE ALL STUFFED BY THE END OF THE DAY

the rest of the evening was spent wide awake waiting for midnight to strike to actually celebrate my birthday.

bianca (my cousin) sent me smores brownies. THEY WERE BAKED ON REQUEST. bianca had a phase in college ata or high school na sobrang hilig niya magbake. and she made me smores brownies and i've been in love ever since and every time she asks me what food i want it's always that HAHAHAHHA

I SWEAR THEY ARE GODSENT

janara (owner of bubblegumph on ig) sent me a gift too but i didn't open it until midnight!

(third gif) janara's gift!! she gave me a cardigan. a colorblock cardigan, green shorts, and a green halter top!! super fucking cute. i truly trust her taste with clothes. walang kupas. ang ganda ng lahat ng binigay niya!!! ANO BA

tiger gave me an ADER ERROR KNITTED SWEATER!! A PURPLE ADER ERROR SWETAER! we talked about it once siguro and i didn't think he'd get it for me WHAT THE FUCK

he also got me a tiny tripod kasi nagpipicture ako sa fire escape namin and hirap ako sa tripod HAHAHAHAH

(special mention: ate gi gave me her gift 2 days earlier. she gave me a watch and rainbow laces that i immediately used sa boots ko! puta ang ganda. she knows me well :( )

before falling asleep, we watched harry potter & the sorcerer's stone. it was cath's first time! and i love that she loved it :(

balak ko talaga sa mismong birthday ko is to go to megamall to order panda express and yan na kakainin namin lahat sa bahay for the day. which i did!

kasama ko si tiger and si cath papunta sa megamall since pauwi din naman si cath sa marikina.

AND NAGKITA KAMI NI MIKA DON! i told her last week na pupunta ako don sa may 17 and she said she was going the next day daw bakit andaya tapos hanggang last minute change of plans she decided to meet up with me today

edi excited ako kasi bibigay ko na din gift ko sa kanya (i got her a taylor swift folklore notebook and a pride & prejudice book)

the 4 of us ate at pepperlunch (my favorite fucking place in the world) and caught up

i kept asking for assurance na okay na gumastos ako ngayon kasi birthday ko naman. nagguilty kasi ako ngayon pag gumagastos ako para sa sarili ko. i kept asking for assurance kung deserve ko ba. EH WHO THE FUCK GIVES A SHIT BIRTHDAY KO NAMAN AH HAHAHHA

(the last gif) SOBRANG MEANT TO BE GRABE. i remember seeing this pink floyd hoodie at cotton on at town (atc) and it was in a size s or xs and i usually get M or L when it comes to hoodies so i couldn't buy it at the time. also because i didn't have money to spend non. that was at around january or february i think? and kasama ko si tiger non and i said out loud "pag nakita ko to ulit, bibilhin ko na" AND HINDI KO SIYA NAKITA ULIT AS IN UNTIL TODAY WHAT THE FUCK

my dad is fucking giving me signs i swear to god

for context: my dad's all time favorite band is pink floyd. so every time i see pink floyd merch, even when he was still with me, i'd buy them instantly because he told me that whenever i see any good pink floyd merch i should get it kasi sayang daw minsan lang HAHAHA kaya ayon

anyway i bought it. it is lovely. and i realized how i truly do buy band merch like this and really do keep them because they're the ones i never get sick of

also got myself a grateful dead shirt

anyway i bought a shit load of panda express and went home and we ate it all at home

AND IT DIDN'T END THERE

MARGA SENT ME COOKIES. BIGLAAN NGA EH. TAPOS SOBRANG LABO KASI YUNG TAG "from marga" AMPUTA DI NAMAN GANON TAWAGAN NAMIN HAHAHAHA KAYA NALITO AKO until i saw the back of the tag sabi "mama marga" edi kilala ko na kung sino

ALEX (rivera) ALSO SENT ME COOKIES THAT SHE BAKED

PUTANGINA ANDAMI KO NANG SWEETS NANAMAN

also bea (valera) sent me mcnuggets money what the fuck sobrang gulat ako kasi bigla nalang may nagsend sakin ng pera sa gcash???? sabi ko HUH wala naman nakalagay na number kasi straight from a 711 kiosk yon tapos i saw her message siya pala nagsend

i miss her so much what the fuck

ALSO, AT 2AM OF MAY 17 mika sent me a long message which i wait for every year. nascreenshot ko nanaman to keep

i love my friends and my newfound family (the espiritus. tiger's family) there is just so much love and comfort and im so happy

my fucking mental stability allowed me a day off from feeling anything other than happiness

today was just so good for me that i forgot about my anxiety and the things that get me sad on mundane days

i love the people i am surrounded with. there is genuine love and comfort and i just feel so fucking cozy

The Last Nugget (Hawks x Reader) pt. 2

So, this here is the part 2 of The Last Nugget :’) This was doing pretty well and @rynxenvy​ would kill for a part 2 so... here you go :) 

link: part 1, part 3

warnings: fluff(?), slight angst(? but ya’ll im bad at angst huhu)

Now that you were out of the meeting and up in the sky, your eyes took in the amazing view of the city. The cool wind and the warmth of Hawks arms around your body was not helping at all. You had already passed by a few branches of McGonald’s so you were pretty sure Hawks had other places in mind.

With that, you gave in and closed your eyes.

Hawks, on the other hand, did the little joy ride on purpose. Of course, he did this not only for you but also for him. He had a lot going on in his mind. There was a tugging feeling in him that something horrible was bound to happen in the months to come.

Unconsciously, his hold on you tightened and his jaw tightened. He stopped moving forward and stayed suspended in the air. Looking at your sleeping figure, he couldn’t help but grit his teeth at frustration. Damn the committee for making him into a spy. Adjusting his hold on you, he moved once more and went to the nearest McGonald’s he could find.

“Can I get 2 boxes of 20 pieces Nuggets?” Hawks ordered quietly. Making sure not to disturb your dreams. The cashier was all too stunned at the sight before her. Hawks carrying Pro-Hero #15. Asleep.

“Oh. And an Oreo Flurry as well.” Smirking at you then to the cashier. “She likes Oreo, in case you didn’t know.”

So the rumors were right, the cashier thought. There had been some activity in the grapevine that #2 and #15 had a thing going on. Yet because of how Hawks had the power to wipe out any article and how you preferred to remain lowkey (despite being ranked high) there weren’t that many blogs. Save for eyewitnesses who saw first hand how you two would interact.

Giving the payment, Hawks made his feather hand over his card. Finally moving to the last window, the employee handed the meal to the same feather as well. This time, curiosity got over him and he couldn’t help but ask.

“Uh. I’m sorry for asking, Mr. Hawks.” He began to fidget a bit with his fingers. “Are you two dating?”

Hawks eyes widened for a wee bit. He was not expecting that question. But there was no running away from the curious minds of people.

“I wish we were.” A ghost of a smile on his face.

Not wanting to answer any more questions, he excused himself and flew away. Heart clenching at the next months to come. Adjusting his wings, he swooped in faster than intended. His eyes now focused on the opening of his penthouse.

Landing gracefully, he made the feather place the meal on the table while he made his way to your room. Despite turning his offer down, he still chose to give you a room in his space. But, you would be lying if you said you had never slept in that room.

Whenever you two would have dinner, Hawks would always manage to persuade you to stay the night. And that happens more often than not. Besides, the two of you liked the quiet moments shared between breakfast.

Placing you gently on your bed, he couldn’t help but let out a sigh. You were one, if not the most, important person in his life. The one thing he looked forward to when he would finish his patrol or come back home from spending time with the LoV. To him, you were what kept him sane from his fast ways.

Letting you get your rest, he closed your door and readied the plates and utensils.

When you finally realized that you fell asleep, you woke up with a recollection that you were just in his arms and in the sky. Now, you were inside Hawk’s penthouse. Feeling heat beside you, you were not expecting him to be beside you. His eyes closed shut and with even breathing. Turning to face him, you noticed he had taken his jacket off.

You always loved it when he was without the jacket. The body suit complimented him well and his cuts were always lovely to stare at. Not able to resist, you began to trace his jaw. Booping his nose, you let yourself smile at how you ended up falling for such a cocky and teasing bastard who has wings.

Not noticing, he had wrapped his arm around you and in turn, you shuffled in closer and wrapped your arm around him. That seemed to wake him up.

“You awake now, lovebird?”

“Yeah. Did I wake you up?”

Pulling you into a tighter hug, you were now buried in his suit. His chin rested on your head.

“Nah. I just drifted off.” His voice had a teasing tone to it. “You were touching me, lovebird.”

“Shut up.” But you were smiling and he knew it.

“Shall we eat? Bet you’re hungry.” Hawks offered which you gladly accepted. Unwrapping each other, he led the way to the dining area despite you knowing perfectly here it was. This did give you the perfect opportunity to stare at his wings from behind.

Up close, they seemed to be quivering. For some reason, they seemed to be fuller as well. Almost as if he were saving them for something. Chewing on your lower lip, your brows furrowed at the unease growing with your tummy.

Pulling your chair for you, you sat down and snickered at the fancy dinnerware he used. Even though it was just iced tea, he still placed them in expensive wine glasses. This would seem all too amusing but you knew this was his way of conveying a message.

“You wanna talk about it?” You offered. Biting a piece of nugget.

“I feel like I’m flying too close to the sun, lovebird.” His eyes were focused on the view his balcony offered. They were distant and closed off. His fingers tapped the edge of the table.

Sadness coated the both of you. You knew this day would be coming, there was just this selfish part of you that it would be later rather than sooner. Losing your appetite, you stood up. Catching his attention, Hawks eyes followed your every movement. Seeing that you were moving towards him, he pushed his chair back and let you sit on his lap.

“You know I’ll always catch you no matter how fast you’ll fall, right?” You nuzzled into his neck. The stubble on his chin a little ticklish on your skin. You saw how he made his feathers cocoon the two of you. “I’ll come catching you with a first aid kit…”

“I know, lovebird.” Hawks began to draw circles on your back. “Say, if things go according to plan, go on a proper date with me?”

“And what kind of date do you have in plan?” You went with the flow. If there’s something he needs, he needs his mind to be taken off of the gigantic weight on his shoulder. “I think nuggets in fine dinner plates is an amazing date.”

“Oh yeah?” The sadness in his voice was something he couldn’t hide from you. “I’m still taking you out to a fancy private restaurant. And there, that’s where I’ll ask you to be mine. Properly.”

“Is that your way of saying you’ll come back?”

“Perhaps. I just want you to know I like you”

“I know you do.” Wrapping your arms tighter around his neck. Your hands find the base of his wings. Giving him a small massage, Hawks let out a small content moan from all the tension being released. “How long will you…”

“In about 4 months.”

“Oh.” That’s all you could say. Any further and you were bound to release the waterfalls. Your lower lip began to quiver and despite your effort, a few stray tears ran down your cheek.

Pushing you a bit, Hawks wiped the tears away and gave you a small kiss on the cheeks. His heart ached when he saw that had only made things worse. The waterfall had flowed and the only sound that filled his dining area were your quiet sobs. Pulling you back into his arms, he hated himself for having to see you in this state.

Whispering sweet nothings in your ear, the shaking and crying subsided.

“(Y/N)?”

“Keigo?”

“I’ll come back, my sweet birdy.” Tucking in a strand of hair behind your ear.

“In one piece I hope.”

“You can bet on that, love.” Now that the mood was better, Hawks refused to let you stand up. Making a feather push your plate to his side and have you eat from there. From time to time, you would feed each other earning a few fits, tickles, and giggles.

Night had fallen and Hawks managed to persuade you to stay in his unit. Not knowing what’s to come in the next 4 months, you agreed and the two of you stuck like two peas in a bod. Now, you were using his chest as a pillow and taking in his scent as much as you could. You were certain that once you wake up tomorrow, you would be alone with his side of the bed cold.

“What do you want for breakfast tomorrow, dove?” Hawks silently asked.

“I want to wake up with you beside me.” That was the truth.

Silence hugged the both of you. Slowly, you began to drift on and off. Using your last bit of strength, with eyes closed you whispered his name. Tears forming a puddle on his shirt. The rapid beating of his heart in your ears. His fists clenching tightly on his shirt you wore, hoping that tomorrow wouldn’t have to come.

“Don’t go…”

Hawks said something but you were now dead to the bone. Fatigue had won. Even in your sleep, you regret giving in to your body. All you wanted to do was wait till the morning sun would shine through his windows. All you wanted was to spend the remaining hours awake before who knows how long Hawks will be gone.

When you woke up, the other side was now cold. A lone red feather took his place. With trembling hands, you gripped the feather and held it against your chest. The room was now filled with your wails and cries. Damn the community. Fuck the LoV.

Not too far from the unit, Hawks had been cursing at the sight of you. All he wanted to do was to fly to you and bring you into his arms but both of you know it would be selfish. With a heavy heart, he turned his back on you and flew towards his demise.

BTS game

hello i was tagged by @fictionbunny @kimsouthjoon @hobis-glasses @kookie-off-his-kookie to do this one of the most complicated tags to me cuz i really dont like to choose amongst these things -_- just wanna say that i appreciate every era every hair colour they pull them off like crazy every song every mv every moment etc so i wanna punch the air and eat my fist rn but lets try im gonna break every rule i can tho dont fucking @ me fuck this shit  expect a lot of words     keep reading fucked up all the mentions im sorry ;( just scroll to the bottom

1. First BTS song? DNA but yo when i was in my active yt phase (2015-) i think i watched fine bros ent and they showed kpop mvs to random ppl and i think (i only realized it months later) they showed bst mv and at those times i was wow those kpop dudes r so extra with mvs like this dlfsjkljkfdhf also i think somewhere on 9gag i saw a lil clip of fire mv and i remembered joons verse just visuals and the rythm or melody or idk this is how i didnt know who r bts but i remembered that dudes (joon) face so yeah idk how to feel

2. First bias? as i just whined in the tags in previous posts it was taehyung

3. Current bias? ot7 biased i had sth clicking in me with every member but ofc sometimes i have moods related to a certain member :)

4. Put the members in order of your bias list: nO idk how am i supposed to choose 

5. Favorite BTS song? well fuck u too let me know rain serendipity pied piper dimple gogo trivia love singularity fake love tear anpanman love maze so what  black swan ugh jamais vu interlude shadow my time louder than bombs on 00:00 home mikrokosmos intro the most beautiful moment in life hold me tight autumn leaves run silver spoon save me epilogue young forever butterfly house of cards love is not over converse high outro propose where you from intro skool luv affair blood swear and tears lie mama awake lost begin cypher 4 intro boy meets evil spring day outro wings we are bulletproof pt 2 like outro circle room cypher dream glow who feat lauv no more dream ddaeng chicken noodle soup sea should i continue???????

6. Favorite underrated BTS song? i dont even know overrated songs?? if u can put it like this 

7. Favorite song of Wings? ................. no one is going to read all of this anyway but i mentioned some in 5th question fhahaha

8. Favorite songs of each LY Her, Tear, Answer? same here lmao yes im doing this on purpose who cares

9. Favorite music video?  ON Kinetic Manifesto Film : Come Prima i think cuz bruh the choreo this is what i love the most about mvs sdfhsdlkhsf 

10. Favorite dancer? out of dance line? uh THEY ALL DANCE IN SUCH DIFFERENT STYLES WTF ok so im a fan of hip hop so i really love hobis style but oh my god the way jungkook moves or does whatever??? im losing my shit?? jimin hello he made me love contemporary with black swan even tho i wasnt a fan of it taehyung BITCH SHOULD I EVEN START HE APPEARS ON STAGE AND U FEEL IT RIGHT AFTER

11. Favorite vocalist? should i reply like i did previously :/ ngl tho i prefer lower voices irl cuz they make me feels things but bro nah no way i can reply to this properly i keep listening to them i feeling their voices differently even in some new ways and im blown away fuck u 

12. Favorite rapper? f u c k  u  one thing im gonna say tho idk how but a lot of times whenever i hear hobis verses in majority of songs im like YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :OOOOOOOOOOOO IM LOVING THIS NOT NORMAL AMOUNT but should i start about their different flows or how much they experiment with it and how cool is that??? and how they feel themselves and how good they r at this??? nah fr fuck u -_- metaphorical ‘u’ 

13. Favorite hair color on each member? uh plz dont forget about my disclaimer namjoon-grape peachy platinum blonde, jin-blonde purple pink, yoongi-mint black blonde fake love era hair, hoseok-blonde fake love era hair chicken noodle soup hair longish hair esp during tear performances -_-, jimin-blonde black silver pink blue and honesly all those colours he had during lys tour????, taehyung-dna hair perm he has rn mint red peachy blue and also all that ly tour hair, jungkook-long hair blonde cherry all kinds of ombre he has rn dna era hair too and fake love hair and bst hair and i think there r more but i dont remember ;(

14. Favorite choreography? on black swan fake love bst boy with luv dionysus save me etc shOULD I MENTION THOSE DANCE BREAKS THEY HAD DURING AWARD SHOWS LOL

15. Favorite (bromance) ship? GOD I LOVE ALL THEIR BONDS SO MUCH ITS SO PRECIOUS AND SPECIAL my ults tho r taekook yoonminseok and namjin cuz i prefer it this way in fanfics but irl or how do i say it from all the content we get i love every bromance thingy they have tho????? LIKEEEE THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH AND CARE FOR EACH OTHER SO MUCH I CAN TALK ABOUT IT FOR HOURS HOW MUCH ALL OF THEM MEAN TO EACH OTHER AND HOW MANY TAEJINYOONKOOKMINJOONVHOPEYOONSEOKJIHOPENAMGI2SEOKEVRYTHINGEVERPOSSIBLEETC THREADS I RETWEETED they melt my heart they really show how u r supposed to treat ur closest ppl u kno? they accepted each other and all those personal traits that seemed so weird and unfamiliar at first and they know each other so well and r so caring and loving and supportive but how do we do shit irl? bitch u piss me off real bad u better fuckk off or else- ofc im exaggerating but shit like this happens and its really time to rethink some shit and well i really learnt a lot 

thank u for u patience 

im tagging @darlingjoon @starry-tae @stargazingjin @crytaeby @cyphertaehyungie @brightlytae @vjimin @monojoons @jungkpop @jungkooksmoon @itseokjins @flowerbangtann @lucid-jjin @yoonshadow @agu5td @hosnack @jjkguk @hwagaemkt @utopiajeon @nemjyoon @sunshineggukie @mapofugh or whoever else wants or well sorry if u were tagged or did this already also u may read its pointless anyways so  yeah i hope u r having a good time day night week mood etc or if u dont plz do 

Without A Parachute (7/15) - Silver, Gold, and Secrets

Summary:  Emma worked tremendously hard to give herself a better chance. From group homes, to living in her car, to ivy league student, this English Major’s only solace was escaping her reality through books. One night, Emma comes home to find a small package with only her name on it written in beautiful calligraphy. The package contains a thick, brown leather journal. Emma soon learns that the fiction she writes in the journal eventually becomes reality. Will Emma learn to control this gift, or will she fall too fast into the temptation to change too much? With the help of her good friends August, Robin, and Elsa, and the mysterious, intriguing bartender of The Jolly Roger, Emma discovers just how easy it is to lose control, and how difficult it is to pick up the pieces.

Rating: M

Words: 31,139 total / 6,952 Ch 7

Read on ao3: Beginning | Current

A/N: Sorry again for the inconsistent posting schedule! I'm trying so hard to stay on track. Here's a LONG chapter with a whole lot happening to make up for it :) Enjoy some fluff, plot, and smut! 

Also the formatting is better on ao3 so I’d recommend reading there :)

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I dreamt I saw you walking up a hillside in the snow

Casting shadows on the winter sky as you stood there counting crows

One for sorrow

Two for joy

Three for girls and four for boys

Five for silver

Six for gold and

Seven for a secret never to be told

- Counting Crows, Murder of One

Cold, Emma rolled over to snuggle closer to Killian. Instead she rolled flat onto her stomach. She blindly reached out, slapping the empty mattress next to her trying to find him. Groaning when she concluded he wasn’t next to her, Emma rubbed the sleep out of her eyes, checking the clock next to her. 9:30 am . Sighing, she dragged herself out of bed and made her way downstairs. Halfway down the stairs she spotted Killian in the kitchen. His phone was in his hand. His ear buds were in. And he was dancing . Like an idiot. In boxers and a t-shirt. His hair still messy from bed. God, he was awful. But fuck he was sexy.

He clearly didn’t notice her because he didn’t stop, only slowed a bit to fill the coffee maker with water. So Emma snuck up behind him and joined his ridiculous dancing. Eventually he turned around, saw her, and broke out into a fit of laughter.

“What’re we dancing to?” Emma yelled so he could hear her over his music. It was so loud she could hear it faintly from where she was in front of him. In response, Killian connected his phone to the bluetooth speaker on the counter and blasted Your Such A Mystery by Bleachers.

To anyone on the outside of their bubble they looked ridiculous. To Emma, it looked like what love should be. Or, at least, what she had always imagined it to be. Jumping around the kitchen at 9:30 in the morning in their pajamas, everything felt comfortable and wonderful. Maybe it was the endorphins talking but she felt like she was on cloud nine. And when Killian pulled her close to him to kiss her passionately, she believed that this must be the high people tried to chase with drugs. Who needs drugs when they have a Killian?

When the song ended, Killian pulled back. “Coffee, love?”

“That depends. It’s not the same crap you have at the pub, is it?” Emma teased. Killian lowered the music so they didn’t have to scream to have a conversation when they were standing in each other's personal space.

He chuckled. “I promise it’s not. It’s local and it’s sweet. You’ll like it.” Killian poured them each a mug of coffee. He was right, she did like it. There was a hit of chocolate that did, in fact, make the bitter drink a little sweeter. She hummed softly, enjoying the comfort of the warm mug in her hand as the coffee started to bring her back to reality.

“What is it?”

“Ithaca House Blend from Ithaca Coffee Company. It’s fair trade and organic.” He explained, taking a sip from his mug.

“Why don’t you serve this at the Jolly?”

“Because it’s not cheap and I spend money on alcohol. You and maybe 2 other people have ever ordered coffee there.”

“Maybe that’s because they know you serve shit coffee.”

Killian chuckled. “Maybe.” Emma hopped up to sit on the island while Killian leaned back against the counter across from her. They drank their coffee for a moment in comfortable silence, listening to the music coming softly through the speaker on the counter. “How are you this morning?” He asked, tentatively. Concern blanketed his words, silently asking whether he hurt her, whether she regretted it, whether she enjoyed it. He was familiar with the buzz that an orgasm left him in and the way it sometimes, or more recently the way it often, faded the following morning. That morning, however, he woke up happier than he had ever been. Killian, who was much more of a night owl than an early bird, nearly sprung out of bed dancing while he replayed every glorious moment of the previous night a little too graphically according to a certain part of him that was more awake than the rest of him. That’s how he ended up dancing alone in his kitchen. Partially because he was happy, partially because he needed to work off the stress that started to settle in his stomach when he remembered the countless nights he regretted the morning after and wondered if that was how Emma would feel.

Emma knew. She knew exactly what he was asking when he spoke. “Cold. I did wake up alone while someone was having a dance party without me.”

Killian chuckled, set his mug down and moved to wrap his arms around her. Emma’s legs wrapped around his waist and his arms around his neck. “Better?”

“Much,” she said, nuzzling her face into the crook of his neck.

“I have to pick up a few things from my apartment today and I assume you need some things from yours. I thought we could get that out of the way this morning, binge some Netflix or break out the DVD collection,” Killian’s voice dropped, “maybe jump in the hottub later?”

Emma sighed, heat pooling in her belly. “That sounds wonderful.”

They finished their coffee and made their way upstairs to get dressed during which Killian spent more time staring at Emma than actually pulling his own clothing on and Emma spent more time staring at Killian than actually pulling on her clothes and if it wasn’t for that lingering, delicious, ache between her legs reminding her of the previous night’s activity there likely would’ve been a repeat.

“Later,” Emma purred as she walked past him and out of the bedroom carrying her bag with her. Like a puppy, he followed her, hanging on each syllable that fell from her mouth.

They hopped in Killian’s car and drove back to Collegetown. In the daylight, the view from their drive was wonderful. Half the way back Emma could see the lake. She let her mind drift as she stared off into the distance, Killian tuning the radio to the local college modern rock station - WICB 91.7 FM. Emma’s eyes drifted to sleep from the soft vibrations of the car. Unfortunately her nap, which was more like sleep part 2 considering she had only been up for about an hour, was quickly interrupted by Killian gently shaking her shoulder. He had parked right outside the Jolly Roger.

“Swan, wake up, love.” He placed a kiss to her temple as if he was bribing her to open her eyes.

“Five more minutes,” Emma grumbled.

“You can go right back to sleep when we get back to the house but right now I need you to pack.” Emma groaned, refusing to open her eyes. “Or else.” Killain smirked

“Or else what?”

“Or else I’ll withhold sex from you all week.” He toyed.

Emma opened her eyes for the sole purpose of glaring at him. If looks could kill, Killian surely would’ve been dead in that moment. Then she closed her eyes again. “Okay goodnight.”

Killian scoffed. “Fine. Then I won’t buy you breakfast.”

Emma’s ears perked up and she instantly opened her eyes. “CTB?”

“If I say yes will you please go pack?”

“Yes.”

“Then yes.”

Emma jumped out of the car, slamming the door a little too hard in her excitement. Killian mentally noted that she was significantly more food motivated than sex motivated and went to his apartment to pack his own things.

In her bedroom Emma stared at the handful of clothes she owned. She grabbed a few pairs of jeans and leggings and a pair of sweatpants, her favorite Cornell sweatshirt and long sleeve (which together may as well have cost her an entire week's pay), a nicer sweater, and some long sleeves. Remembering that Killian mentioned a hot tub, she tossed in the simple black bikini that Elsa made her buy back in September when the weather was still nice enough to go gorge jumping. But when it came to lingerie, Emma was stuck.

Emma Swan: When you’re back we need to go shopping.

Elsa Agnarr: FINALLY!

Elsa Agnarr: where?

Emma Swan: That mall in Syracuse you always try to get me to take you to?

Elsa Agnarr: really?! i mean im not complaining ;) why the sudden desire to take a shopping trip?

Emma Swan: Oh nothing. I just need some new bras.

Elsa Agnarr: and you felt the need to text me a week in advance to plan a shopping trip for just some new bras…

Emma Swan: I slept with Killian.

Emma’s phone rang and Elsa started speaking the second she answered the FaceTime call. “You did what?”

“I told you.”

“Were you safe?!”

“Elsa!” They laughed. They were the cautious two of the group, nearly mothering over August and Robin whenever they could. Of course Emma was safe.

“Was it good?”

“Oh my god.” Emma blushed furiously.

“Oooooo I knew he’d be good in bed.”

“Elsa!”

“Oh come on! Even though we don’t play for the same team, anyone with eyes would bet that Killian Jones is good in bed.”

Emma sighed, an unfamiliar green-eyed monster rearing its ugly head in Emma’s mind. “Don’t remind me.”

“So are you guys together?”

“I don’t know.” Emma admitted. She wanted to be. To call Killian Jones hers? That’s a dream Emma hadn’t allowed herself to have. No matter what, Killian had been there for her. To lose that, to lose her friend if none of this worked out, might kill her. He deserved someone better, someone less damaged . And the familiar spiral began tightening in her mind.

“Don’t overthink this Em. You deserve to be happy and he clearly makes you happy. I see the way you smile every time his name pops up on your phone.”

“I just don’t want to ruin what we have.”

“I think you ruined what you had when you slept with him. There’s no going back from that. You need to talk to him.”

“I know.”

“Elsa! Elsa!” Emma heard a familiar voice shouting on the other end of the line. Elsa giggled.

“Sorry I have to go. Anna’s been forcing me to help her make some pro/con lists for the college’s she’s been accepted to.”

“Well she can’t go to Harvard. That’s a given.”

“Can’t go to Penn either.”

“Guess it just has to be Cornell.”

“ Far above Cayuga’s waters - ” Elsa started singing loudly so Anna could hear the alma mater every Cornell student knew by heart by the end of their first semester.

“ With it’s waves of blue-” Emma joined in. “ Stands our noble Alma Mater, glorious to view. LIFT the chorus, speed it onward, loud her praises tell, hail to thee our Alma Mater - ”

In the background Anna groaned. “Not again.”

“ HAIL, ALL HAIL, CORNELL! ” They screamed, bursting out laughing.

“I’m going to Harvard if you don’t stop.” Anna threatened.

“No you’re not.” Elsa turned her attention back to Emma. “I’ll talk to you later?”

“Talk to you later.” They hung up. Emma’s lingerie problem, however, will have to wait another week. She shoved the nicest things she owned into the duffle bag she packed, stuffed her laptop and her journal into her backpack, and finally left her apartment to meet Killian at the car.

He was sitting against the edge of his open trunk, reading something on his phone when she reached him.

“Reading anything interesting?” She asked to get his attention.

“Nope. Just doing some online shopping, love.” Killian kissed her cheek as he took her bag from her and placed it in the trunk. He had a black backpack and his guitar secured in its case. “Breakfast?”

“Please.” Emma was starving and entirely unprepared for the way he took her hand in his after he closed the trunk of his car, nonchalantly, as if this was their normal, their comfortable, their them .

They walked to CollegeTown Bagels, their joined hands swinging gently between them. When they arrived, they got on line as Killian told her a story about one Summer he spent with his grandparents as a kid. His thumb rubbed softly over the back of her hand, engrossed in his own story. Emma, however, wasn't paying any attention.

At the front of the cafe, there was a brunette, a ghost from Emma’s past. Or, at least, she looked like a ghost from Emma’s past. Emma couldn’t quite make out the girl’s face. She was looking down at her phone, her hair blocking Emma’s view. Suddenly her past was flashing before her eyes, unfolding like a horror story where the victim runs into the house and the audience screams stop. But there’s no stopping the spiral Emma’s mind falls into.

A security guard was at the end of the aisle, clearly noticing the PopTart box Emma was shoving under her sweatshirt. The guard cleared her throat when Emma noticed her.

“Are you going to pay for that miss?”

Emma was panicking. She couldn’t pay for it. She didn’t have money. All she had were a few hand-me-down clothes in a backpack and a bruise on her cheek from her last foster home she was trying to escape from.

Thankfully, a brunette around her age came to stand beside her and held up a credit card. “Yes, ma’am. Our Dad’s in the car just outside.” The guard nodded and left them to be. The girl turned to Emma. “The key is swiping one of these.”

Emma nodded. “Thank you.”

“I’m just like you, you know. Trying to get away. I’m Lilly.”

Emma’s grip on Killian’s hand tightened like a vice grip.

“Swan?” KIllian asked, concern blanketing his voice. “Are you alright, love?

But Emma didn’t hear a word he said.

Emma and Lilly shopped for a bit. They became fast friends. When they checked out and left, however, a car not too far away started honking and driving after them. Emma figured this was the man Lilly swiped the card from. So they ran.

They lost the car and Lilly led her to a beautiful lake house that was empty for the season. And they promised to be friends forever, no matter what. Emma told her everything about her life, about moving between foster homes, about the abusive man that ran the last group home she was in, about how alone she felt all the time.

And Lilly pretended to understand. Because, in fact, Lilly couldn’t truly understand what Emma was going through. Because when they were caught later that night, it was Lilly’s father who caught them. Because this was Lilly’s family’s summer home.

Killian’s hand was starting to hurt under Emma’s grasp. It was their turn to place their order and Killian stepped up to the register, taking Emma with him.

The brunette looked up when she stood to throw away her empty coffee cup. It had to be Lilly. But what was she doing in Ithaca? Emma nearly started hyperventilating, wanting to call out to her but being unable to find her voice.

“Swan, what do you want for breakfast?”

Emma watched the girl she assumed to be Lilly leave. “I’m actually not hungry anymore. I think I’ll just meet you outside,” She said, without turning to look at him. Emma let go of Killian’s hand and dashed out of the cafe.

There was already distance between them. Emma just stood there, shocked. She didn’t know what to say or whether to say anything or whether Lilly still hated her. And even though Emma was standing alone, now nowhere near Lilly, she was working herself up to a panic attack. Her entire body was shaking. Killian followed shortly after.

“Emma?” He quickly noticed her panicked state and pulled her into his arms, placing a comforting kiss to her forehead. “Come on, love. Let’s go.”

***

Back at the house, Killian made tea for Emma and opened a package of PopTarts to put on a plate. From the kitchen he felt the weight of Emma’s thoughts, but she hadn’t said a word to him since the cafe. Something happened there, but he couldn’t figure out what. Was it him? Was it another guy? Was she having second thoughts? Was she starting to regret what they did? Was she starting to regret what they were, what they had become, what was so strong between them?

She was curled up on the couch, staring at the TV which was turned to the local news channel. It was Ithaca. It was grey, cold, probably some form of precipitation was expected at some point in the day, some local business was probably doing something for charity, the university students were probably protesting or petitioning something, and there was probably news about music or theatrical performances. Every now and again something major happened at one of the colleges and that was actually newsworthy. All of this to say that if you need something mindless to watch, local news in central New York was the place to turn.

Killian brought the tea and plate over to Emma who graciously accepted the mug but ignored the plate. Killian sat next to her, keeping some distance between them in case he was the reason she was upset. “Talk to me, love,” he urged her, gently.

Emma took a sip of tea. “It’s nothing, Killian.”

“Swan, you’re clearly upset about something. You’re an open book to me.” He sighed. “Did I do something? Do you regret last night?”

Emma looked at him, wide-eyed like a deer in headlights. “What?! No! Killian, no.” She set the mug down and laid down, resting her head in his lap. He stroked her hair, playing with his softly. Instantly she felt relaxed, her heart fluttering slightly, her entire body tingling in bliss from the feeling of Killian’s fingers running through her hair.

“You know you can tell me anything, love.”

Emma sighed. “I thought I saw an old friend. I guess she’s more like a former friend. I’m not really sure anymore, to be honest.” Killian stopped his motions and looked at her. “Don’t stop,” Emma nearly whimpered.

Killian chuckled and resumed playing with Emma’s hair. “What happened?”

“Lilly and I met when she saved my ass while I was trying to steal PopTarts from a convenience store.”

“Ah the shoplifting PopTarts story.”

Emma looked up at him. “You remember that?”

Killian blushed. “Aye.”

Emma could’ve kissed him senseless in that moment. Finally, for what felt like the first time in her life, someone genuinely listened to her. And this wasn’t the first time Emma had this realization about Killian. She noticed every time he heard her answers to how her day was. She noticed every time she ranted about school or told him what she learned. But something about this time meant a little more to her.

“Yeah. The shoplifting PopTarts story. Anyway, she made me feel like she was like me. Like she was also a foster kid, bouncing around from home to home. It was a particularly bad time. I was running away from a home that didn’t treat any of the kids right. There was always a reason for the guy running it to hit us, always something we did wrong, something we did to aggravate him. So I ran and I was hungry and I was about to get caught and Lilly stepped in with a credit card and said that our dad was waiting for us outside. She told me she swiped the card from some stranger, that she was also running from the system and brought me to this empty lake house which, by the way, was her family’s lake house because she wasn’t running from the system because she was never in the system and she tricked me into thinking she understood but she couldn’t understand. No one could understand what it’s like to constantly be running as a child, to not have a home, to sometimes have a roof over your head but never be at peace and never feel safe. No one could understand what it’s like to want to get the fuck out so fucking bad that you spend two and a half years living in a car you worked overtime to be able to buy just to have consistency in your fucking transcript so ivy leagues don’t immediately reject you. No one could understand unless they fucking experienced it.”

Emma was screaming by the time she finished. Tears streamed down her cheeks as she bared part of her soul to a man she realized she didn’t want to live without, a man that made her feel loved and at peace and at home, a man who would stand so fiercely beside her through anything life threw at her.

And in that same moment of realization for Emma, Killian fell in love with her.

“Emma . . .” Killian whispered, silently making promises to himself that he dared not speak out loud for fear that she’d run from the sheer intensity of the way he felt for her. No longer would he ever allow her to be hit or hurt. No longer would he ever allow her to feel alone or hungry. No longer would he ever allow her to not have a home or someone she would call family or someone she could turn to when everything was crashing down around her or simply getting too much for one person to carry. No longer would he ever allow her to feel unloved.

He didn’t want her to ever have to run from something again. He wanted to be what she ran to.

“There’s more. I’ll tell you the rest another day.” Emma sat up so that she could curl up against Killian’s side as he engulfed her in his arms. He held her tightly against him and they sat silently for a while. Eventually, they both fell asleep.

***

They were sitting on the floor on either side of the coffee table in the living room, Emma’s back against the couch as she lost yet another game of chess to Killian who broke out his grandfather’s marble chess set. He had even tried to let her win on multiple occasions but Emma was too distracted by his deep blue eyes to pay any mind to the game in front of her. She missed easy takes and fell easily into his traps. Fitting, really, considering how easily she fell for, fell into, him .

“Alright, alright, I surrender.” Emma tapped her foot against Killian’s thigh. “I believe that you promised me a dip in a hot tub?” She asked, smirking at him.

If it were possible to undress someone with your eyes, Killian would’ve been naked in an instant with the look Emma was giving him. He waggled his eyebrows at her, entirely up to play this game she started. “Did you bring your swimsuit, love?"

“Do I need one, Captain?” Emma teased.

“You little minx.” Killian growled, his cock already starting to harden simply at the words falling off her tongue, and the image they created in his mind. “You go change, or strip, either works wonders for me, love, and grab some towels from upstairs.”

Emma giggled and bounded up the stairs to change into her black bikini. She pulled her hair up into a bun on the top of her head, grabbed some towels, and rummaged through the dresser drawers to find a pair of Killian’s swim trunks for him.

She found him in the kitchen, pouring two glasses of red wine. Killian was nothing if not a romantic.

“I hope one of those is for me,” she toyed, wanting to get his attention and catch him off guard while she wore nothing but her bathing suit.

The second he saw her, Killian’s eyebrows shot up. “Wow,” was about all he could manage.

Emma threw his swim trunks at him. “I brought you these.” He caught them, easily.

He handed her a glass and kissed her softly. “Outside on the left end of the deck. I’ll meet you there, my love.”

The cold air nipped at Emma’s skin as she quickly walked towards the hot water, careful not to spill her wine. It was a long day that tested all of her emotions. Quite frankly, she was exhausted and stressed. Killian tried all day to keep her mind busy, tried to help her relax. As graceful as we were for him, none of it worked. Her past with Lilly kept replaying over and over like a broken record or a film on loop. Sinking into the warm bubbly water, her back against a few of the jets, finally she felt herself relaxing. The jets felt so good against her back she was nearly moaning by the time Killian joined her. She actually didn’t even notice him slipping into the tub across from her until he chuckled.

“Enjoying yourself, love?”

“This might be better than sex.”

Killian threw his head back and laughed. He could have come up with a cheeky line, but he knew she needed this. He knew she needed to really relax, to turn her mind off for a second. He’d follow her lead on where this went.

“Come here, Swan.” He took a sip of his wine and set it down on the ledge behind him. Emma moved to sit between Killian’s legs. He placed a sensual kiss on her shoulder and his hands trailed up her arms to rub her shoulders, working at the knots that had formed there likely from stress.

Emma moaned softly. “That feels nice.”

“All I want is to make you feel good.” Killian whispered against her ear, nipping teasingly at her lobe.

“Mmm you’re succeeding.”

He trailed kisses slowly down her neck, stopping at her pulse point to suck gently at her skin. His fingertips ghosted down her sides, tracing the curves of her breasts and her waist. “I’ve wanted you since the day I met you, Swan.”

His words sent a shiver down her spine as he spoke in that timbre she learned was reserved for only the sultriest of remarks, the dirtiest of phrases, the sexiest of sayings.

“Well now you have me . . . And I’m all yours, Killian.” Emma’s hands rested on Killian’s thighs. As much as she wanted to turn to face him, to straddle his legs and grind into him, to tell him to take shed them of the few clothes creating a barrier between them, Emma was quite enjoying this teasing game.

“And I, yours, love.” Killian pulled her back against him so she could feel the effect her words had on him. “Just hearing you say that is enough to turn me on.”

Emma wiggled her ass back against him which elicited a hiss from Killian behind her. “I quite enjoy having this effect on you, Captain.”

“Oh do you now?”

“Aye,” Emma said, mocking his accent.

Killian chuckled. “You think you’re funny?”

“Aye,” she mocked again, a devilish grin plastered on her face.

In response, Killian nipped at her pulse point, dragging his teeth teasingly over her skin, sucking to leave his mark on her. Not expecting how incredible that would feel, Emma gasped. “Not so funny anymore, are you, my love?”

Taking a deep breath to attempt to calm her racing heart, Emma hummed softly. “It’s hard to think straight when you’re doing such salacious things to me.”

Killian trailed his fingertips underwater over her stomach, whispering in a sultry tone against her neck between wet kisses, “Close your eyes, Swan.”

“Why?”

“Do you trust me?”

Emma closed her eyes. “With all my heart.” She let her head fall back against Killian’s shoulder.

“Imagine I’m kissing down your body,” Killian whispered, trailing his hand between her breasts and down her stomach to the waistband of her bikini bottoms. Emma hummed in response. “Teasing just above where I know you want me.”

Dancing his fingers over her skin, he turned his attention to her breast. “You’re wearing far too much clothing, love.”

Emma reached behind her neck and untied the top while Killian untied the back, tossing the material to the ground beside the tub. “Better?” She teased.

“Much,” Killian smirked, cupping her breasts in his hands, massaging gently.

Emma moaned, heat pooling in the pit of her stomach. “Killian . . .”

“Does that feel good love?” He purred.

“Fuck, Killian. Yes,” Emma groaned, arching her back as if her body was begging for more of his touch, more of his voice, more of his everything.

He placed a kiss on her shoulder. “You’re so beautiful, Emma.”

Emma hummed softly. “Don’t stop.”

“Don’t stop what? Talking?” Killian teased.

“Don’t stop talking,” Emma affirmed, the simple way each word teasingly fell off his tongue sending chills down her spine.

“As you wish, my love.” One of his hands grazed over a sensitive spot on her side.

Emma broke out into a fit of giggles. “Killian! Stop!"

Killian chuckled, purposely tickling her. “Stop?”

“I’m ticklish!” Emma nearly bucked back against him, her laughter uncontrollable. Killian grins, the carefree nature of her genuine laugh warmed his heart. For once today, after a long, stressful day, it looked like Emma was relaxed. But he stopped, lifting both of his hands off of her body, complying with her request.

“Wait, no,” Emma whimpered.

“No?”

“Come back.” She reached back and grabbed one of his wrists, bringing his hand back to rest on her stomach.

“I’m here, Swan. Wherever you need me.” He lowered his lips back to her neck, over the mark he had left earlier. Once again, his hands were roaming her torso, dancing over her stomach, careful to avoid her ticklish sides, caressing her breasts beneath the water, teasing her nipples.

Emma groaned, his name slipping effortlessly from her lips as her eyes close and her head resettles against his shoulder. “More,” she whispers, as if saving that word only for him.

“How about,” Killians hands trailed down her body to her thighs, “here?”

Emma inhales sharply, his fingers dangerously close to where she so desperately needs him. “More,” she repeats. “Killian, please.”

She can feel him smile against her throat, grinning like a madman.

“Where?” He asked, as if he didn’t already know, as if he didn’t already know where she was aching for his touch, as if he wasn’t aching to give her everything she needed, everything she wanted.

Emma rested her hand over his, guiding him to rest above where she needed him over her bikini bottoms. He strummed his fingers over her clit. “Oh god.”

“Killian will do just fine, love,” he joked, chuckling as he continued his teasing.

If Emma could do anything other than moan she might’ve - would’ve - rolled her eyes at him. Instead, she played along, giving him exactly what he asked for. “Oh Killian.”

He hummed softly. “I love the way you moan my name, letting the world know who’s turning you on, who’s making you feel this good.”

Grinding her hips into his hand, Emma was reaching the point of begging. “Killian,” she pleaded, “more.”

Killian grinned, having found the perfect opportunity to mention one of the ridiculous pickup lines he had spent hours looking for on the internet after they had first met when she was studying for economics. “Are your legs available for some open market operations, Swan?”

Emma’s eyes shot open and she turned around to playfully hit his chest.

“What? Not up for a conversation about open markets, Swan? I thought you’d be an expert after all that studying you’ve been doing.” He smirked, clearly enjoying this game they’ve been playing.

Emma glared pointedly at him, a smile tugging at the edges of her lips. “You almost ruined the mood.”

“Almost?” Killian raised an eyebrow at her.

Emma shifts to straddle his legs, now facing him, finally able to see the storm in his eyes. Killian dragged his nails down her bare back, scratching gently. Her hands tangled in the hair at the nape of his neck and her lips captured his in a passionate kiss she had been longing for since this dance began. His tongue slipped between her lips, finding hers as he held her close to her. Instinctively, Killian groaned into her mouth as her hips rolled over his straining cock.

Emma grinned against his lips. “You like that, Captain?”

Killian hummed, his hands now resting on her hips, edging her down harder on him as she resisted. “More, Emma,” Killian pleaded.

“My, my, how the tables have turned.”  Emma listed her hips off him entirely, eliciting a groan from the man beneath her.

“You’re killing me, love.” His hands ran over her ass, squeezing.

“Hmmmm maybe I’m feeling a sense of sympathy,” Emma teased, her hands toying with his hair, “for those swim trunks.” While her eyes portrayed the utmost innocence, her words insinuated that her intentions were anything but.

Killian smirked, waggling his eyebrows at her. “A growing sense?”

Emma giggled. “Well something’s growing.” She ran her hands down his chest until her fingers were brushing along his waistband. Killian leaned back, giving her the room she needed, groaning and laughing softly at the utter bliss rippling through his body at every brush of her fingertips.

Her hands grazed over his cock, clearly hard and ready for her. “Why don’t we move this into the bedroom?” She whispered salaciously against his lips.

“Swan, you read my mind.” She left him with a quick kiss, hopping out of the tub and wrapping a towel around her as she raced towards the back door to escape the cold, Ithaca night, with Killian following closely behind.

***

The past few days had been more than Emma ever could have dreamed of. Falling asleep wrapped in Killians arms holding her closely against her, waking up to freshly made cups of coffee, spending days playing games and reading and telling nonsensical stories, spending evening curled up on the couch watching whatever seemed interesting on Netflix, and spending nights making out on the couch like hormonal teenagers was simply perfect.

It was Wednesday. Spring break was halfway over and Emma dreaded having to go back to the reality of classes and studying and being apart from Killian. Her eyes fluttered open, sighing as Killian trailed butterfly kisses down her body. He had pushed the covers away, needing to see her face for cues. They hadn’t bothered getting dressed from the night before and had fallen asleep shortly after cleaning up from a delightful rendezvous.

She gripped the pillowcase with one hand while her other ran through his messy hair. A sleepy moan escaped her lips when he kissed her inner thigh. “Well this is a nice way to wake up,” Emma purred.

Killian grinned against her thigh, his stubble scratching gently against her only turned her on more. Unfortunately any endeavour he had planned for that morning was interrupted by Emma’s phone. He groaned, resting his cheek against her thigh, looking up at her with pleading, piercing blue eyes. “Please don’t answer that,” Killian begged. He’d been wanting to taste her all week, but they always seemed to get a little caught up in the moment.

Emma checked her phone, thinking it might be Belle asking her to come in a day or two to help out this week. “It’s August,” she said, confused. August never called her. His preferred method of annoying her was sending a million and a half text messages in a row until she answered. She gently swatted Killians face away from her, a move that was met with an even louder groan as he flopped onto his back. Emma answered the phone. “August?”

“Ems, I don’t fucking know what I’m going to fucking do,” August said, his voice sounding absolutely wrecked on the other end of the line.

“What happened? What’s wrong?” Emma asked, concern so clearly blanketing each word that Killian was no longer pouting like an incessant child and instead tossing her his t-shirt from the floor before grabbing a clean pair of boxers from the dresser for himself.

“I can’t fucking believe this is happening. Everything is falling apart.” It sounded like August, someone who had been her rock through the stress of their first semester, was crying. Emma quickly pulled Killian’s shirt on.

“August you have to talk to me. What happened?”

“I didn’t get the fucking internship.”

“The one with the publishing house in New York? I thought the final interview went well! The HR rep basically told you that you got the job.”

“Don’t you think I fucking know that?!” August screamed. Emma winced. “Fuck, Ems I’m sorry.”

“What happened?” Emma asked softly.

August sighed. “I have no idea. I got great feedback after every round and they basically handed me the job after the last round but I must’ve fucked up something because I got a rejection email this morning.” He choked on a sob. This was his dream internship. He had worked his entire life for the chance to be at this publishing house. He spent countless hours prepping and forcing Emma to ask him interview questions he had complied from random internet sources and previous interns he connected with on LinkedIn.

“August, I’m so sorry. You have that other interview right?”

“I turned it down. I turned it down after the empty promises HR made.”

Emma’s heart broke for her friend. “Fuck August. I’m so sorry.” Killian came out of the bathroom after brushing his teeth and flopped back into bed, throwing his arm over his eyes. Emma reached over to play with his hair with her free hand.

“I don’t know what to do.” August whispered.

“We’ll figure this out. There are still applications open and great publishing houses to start at. Check Nashville. If you’re feeling adventurous check London.” Emma paused. “We’ll figure this out, August.”

“I just wish I knew what I did wrong.”

“So send an email. You had a good relationship with that guy in HR, send him an email and ask for some feedback so that you can come back next year and do better.”

“Yeah. You’re right.” August sighed heavily. “Thanks Ems. I better go. Sorry for bothering you.”

“I’m always here for you, Gus.”

August snorted. “I hate you.”

“Aw, I love you too!”

Killian smiled next to her, partially because it felt damn good when she ran her hand through his hair like she was doing and partially because it warmed his heart to hear how much she cared about her friends. And he would have been lying if he didn’t admit that he was imagining what it would be like to be on the receiving end of her “I love you.”

Emma hung up the phone after saying goodbye and sighed.

Killian uncovered his eyes to look up at her. “Everything alright, Swan?”

“Yeah. Something happened with August’s internship and he’s back at square one.”

Killian rolled onto his side, propping himself up on his elbow. “Why do I sense there’s something else? You forget you’re an open book to me, love.”

“I just . . . I haven't even thought about what I was going to do this summer.”

Suddenly, Killian’s heart was in his throat, realizing that Emma might choose to spend the Summer in a glamorous city working for an incredible publishing house . . . away from him.

“What do you want to do?” He asked, tentatively but ready to fully support whatever dreams and goals she had. If only she knew how deeply he was in this thing that they started, how fiercely he’d stand beside her no matter what, how no matter where in the world she was he’d either wait for her or follow her. Killian, he was realizing this week, would follow her to the end of the world, or time, if that’s what it took to be with her.

Emma smiled down at him, shifting so she was no longer sitting up next to him but laying down facing him. “I want to write. I really want to write.”

Writing . Writing was something she could do anywhere. Writing was something she could do in Ithaca. Writing was something she didn’t have to leave him to accomplish. Killian grinned before showering her face in kisses.

Emma giggled, rolling onto her back so that Killian was taking his place atop her. “What's all this for?” She asked between fits of giggles, pretending like she didn’t know why Killian was happy - ecstatic really. Her whole life she wanted to be a writer, to tell stories like the ones that got her through the worst moments of her life, the ones that provided her an escape even when she was too tired to run, the ones that gave her hope and showed her love and captured her wildest imaginations. Writing suddenly had an added benefit. She could write wherever she wanted to write. She could write from Ithaca. She could stay near Killian. Emma didn’t need to give up her heart to follow her dreams.

“I just -” Killian paused, his heart racing as he smiled down at Emma beneath him.

“What, Killian?”

His heart skipped a beat when she said his name. Granted, there was nothing he adored more than the way Emma said his name. This time, however, she spoke his name as if she was claiming him as her own. “I just really didn’t want you to be away from me.”

“I think you’re stuck with me.” Emma pulled him close to her. “If you’ll have me, that is.”

“Emma, I am always yours.”

Neither of them could imagine, in that moment, a life without each other. And so they didn’t.

mad sweeney or adam jensen for all the odd numbers 💜💜

@ectozombie​ IM GONNA DO BOTH AND IT’S GONNA BE A LOT

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1. Who’s usually the first to fall asleep: you or your F/O?

MAD SWEENEY: sweeney says he doesn’t have a need to sleep but he’s always out before i am. 

ADAM JENSEN: adam is ALWAYS the first one asleep. NO exceptions. i will run myself RAGGED before i fall asleep before him.

3. What are some of your F/O’s sleeping habits?

SWEENEY: can sleep anywhere, any way. has fallen asleep in a bar before. actually has passed out in a bar bathroom in canon. doesn’t mind sleeping alone but prefers sleeping with a warm body next to him so he’ll find my body heat while he’s asleep. starts out sleeping on his back and ends up sleeping on his side. tends to mumble in his sleep!!

ADAM: sleeps on his back or side. doesn’t move at all while he’s asleep unless he’s dreaming. tends to also run rather hot so he’ll kick off the sheets and sleep without clothes. sometimes he likes to cuddle. doesn’t make any noise in his sleep but he’s been known to talk during nightmares. 

5. Are you and your F/O light sleepers or heavy sleepers?

SWEENEY: both of us sleep through everything. i’d say he’s a heavier sleeper than i am.

ADAM: he’s a light sleeper!!

7. Do either of you steal the sheets in your sleep?

SWEENEY: i don’t really but because sweeney is so fucking big he’ll roll over and take the blankets with him.

ADAM: prefers that i take the sheets anyways because he hates being swaddled in them.

9. How do you and your F/O fit on the bed? Is there a lot of space? Little space? What’s the bed size?

SWEENEY: well the good news is that since im so small compared to him i can just sleep on him. the bad news is that we don’t ever have an actual fuckin bed to sleep in

ADAM: BRO ADAM’S BED IN BOTH HIS APARTMENT IN DETROIT AND HIS APARTMENT IN PRAGUE ARE SO BIG THAT WE FEEL LONELY LAYING THERE!!!! THEY’RE BOTH LIKE 8 FEET WIDE

11. How does your F/O say good night to you?

SWEENEY: never says goodnight because he’s awkward as fuck. ends up passing out before he knows it anyways.

ADAM: has been known to tell me goodnight and sometimes gives a goodnight kiss..

13. What do the bedsheets smell like?

SWEENEY: cheap motel bedsheets and whiskey and denim. honestly there’s something so simple about it that it makes me kind of feel warm and fuzzy. once again i smell like persephone and must leave my mark

ADAM: leather, something like honey, whiskey and the ever-present smell of metal. his shampoo is deeply masculine and everything is offset by the simple ocean breeze, lavender, and cotton that surrounds me in this universe

15. How long did it take for you and your F/O to feel comfortable sharing a bed?

SWEENEY: not immediately, but rather quickly. i would say like a week or so, mainly because i don’t have boundaries and sweeney started to love not having to sleep alone every night

ADAM: half a year maybe?? a year?? in this verse adam was more comfortable first before i was

17. How does your F/O react when you’re away and unable to sleep with them? How about vice versa?

SWEENEY: gets pouty about it, resorts to cuddling a pillow and stuffs his face in his own jacket to see if it still smells like him. i’ll look through my phone for pictures or videos of him and curl in on myself to placate the empty feeling

ADAM: got used to not sleeping next to someone initially, but there’s still a slightly empty feeling that he gets when im not next to him. he’ll sleep with a feeling of unease. i’ll be the one who is pouty and clings onto whatever i can find

19. How early/ late do you and your F/O head off to bed?

SWEENEY: we are awake forever it seems like. we both head to bed late-late, or whenever we can

ADAM: we both go to bed at a normal time but dont actually go to sleep for a while

21. What are mornings like, waking up to your F/O?

SWEENEY: waking up and immediately wanting to go back to sleep. normally it’s mid-late afternoon when either of us wake up so we’ll sit up in silence for a bit 

ADAM: we wake up around the same time / get stirred awake by the other person. we lay around and cuddle for a while before one of us gets out of bed and continue with the loose routine we have

23. How does your F/O greet you a good morning?

SWEENEY: never wants a good morning kiss and will only acknowledge me with a grumble or a ‘hello’

ADAM: will grant me One (1) small kiss to the forehead and say ‘good morning’

25. Do you and your F/O spend some time lying in bed after waking up, or do you get up from bed pretty quickly?

SWEENEY: lounges around for a while. i Will trap him with cuddles

ADAM: spend time in bed but then get up

i was tagged by @chippedcupanddustybooks sweet bb. i am tagging @irrelephantsims @magnoliidae @simplymelaninated and anyone who hasn’t been tagged i swear i feel like the last person doing this LOL. heckin long ass questionnaire under the cut.

1. What is your full name? Brianna Leigh [Redacted] 2. What is your nickname? Breezy 3. Birthday? may 4th 4. What is your favorite book series? hmmmm series? idk.... i really like every single john grisham book and they aren’t related but when you have such a niche brand of book i feel like it counts lol.  5. Do you believe in aliens or ghosts? kinda on both. 6. Who is your favorite author? oh whew. tough one right here. idk man, i have a few? but if i had to choose i guezz i would say george orwell.   7. What is your favorite radio station? who tf listens to the radio like det anymore lmfao. i don’t have one. before i listened to 107.1 in memphis in the car sometimes, but i moved so. 8. What is your favorite flavor of anything? i loveeee pineapple anything. 9. What word would you use often to describe something great or wonderful? lit 10. What is your current favorite song? currently really into pink in the night by mitski and also sicko mode by travis scott.

11. What is your favorite word? good ole fuck(in/ed/etc.) i also really like voluptuous and bubbles. 12. What was the last song you listened to? last thing i listened to was another lifetime x nao.  13. What TV show would you recommend for everybody to watch? absolutely check out the good place. also hilda, the dragon prince, she-ra princess of power, criminal minds, law and order (the original), and snapped. 14. What is your favorite movie to watch when you’re feeling down? i used to watch the notebook religiously when it rained/felt upset like shit. but lately i’ve been watching say yes to the dress to combat my depression lol. 15. Do you play video games? yah 16. What is your biggest fear? dying alone and no one finding me. like literally alone not like meta alone “oh no one loves me” like dead ass alone somewhere isolated. 17. What is your best quality, in your opinion? hmmmmm idk that i care a lot about other people? 18. What is your worst quality, in your opinion? all of them lmfao. i’m annoying, i’m physically unattractive, i talk too damn much, i can be kind of a bitch both intentionally and unintentionally, i’m a trash writer, i can be selfish, and i self depreciate a lot (lol see above response “all of them”) and i’m sure that gets on people who love and care about me’s nerves ((but like....i mean it lmfao)) 19. Do you like cats or dogs better? whew tough. prolly cats though.  20. What is your favorite season? winter followed by a tie between spring and fall.  21. Are you in a relationship? nah lmfao.  22. What is something you miss from your childhood? not being so fuckin ugly and depressed lmfao. 23. Who is your best friend? “my person” as greys anatomy stans would say is ivy lynn [redacted] [redacted] but i also wanna shout out my home girl mary (i know you follow me on here), my home girl christina (also follows me on here but she never checks her simblr anymore), my smoothie gang bitches, my NSA bitches (which includes both ivy and mary lmfao), and my memphis as fuck family. honorable mention to loml [redacted] who is skating on thin fucking ice with me right now lmfao. 24. What is your eye color? brown 25. What is your hair color? brown 26. Who is someone you love? don’t make me answer this tumblr gods. 27. Who is someone you trust? all my best friends, my parents, my brother. 28. Who is someone you think about often? fucking murder me @ this question lmfao. my friend kate (RIP) my grandmother grannypeg (RIP) and [redacted] 29. Are you currently excited about/for something? i’m excited to spend christmas in a new country! forging new traditions and all that. 30. What is your biggest obsession? currently i’m obsessed with wedding stuff and mens fashion and how mens fashion such as suits translates into womens fashion. we love a hot lady in a tailored suit amiright? 31. What was your favorite TV show as a child? spongebob squarepants RIP :”( 32. Who of the opposite gender can you tell anything to, if anyone? [redacted] 33. Are you superstitious? kinda i guess? not really about stuff like stepping on cracks breaking mamas’ backs or opening umbrellas indoors but little things about familial traditions. 34. Do you have any unusual phobias? not really a phobia but i have misophonia. i also hate eye shit. like eye violence or anything fuckin around with eyes is a big no from me dawg. 35. Do you prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it? absolutely behind the camera. i used to be a theater kid so like being on stage i don’t mind but when it comes to the spotlight and being filmed??? no no no no no. lemme be a cinnamontawgrowfur all day.  36. What is your favorite hobby? watching movies, playing skyrim (I MISS IT SO MUCH), reading, watching music videos, modern calligraphy/hand lettering, baking (ALSO MISS IT MUCH) 37. What was the last book you read? lol a textbook about developing countries.

38. What was the last movie you watched? i just rewatched the swan princess the other day but in terms of watching something brand new i think it was this tom cruise movie my friend showed us and i thought she said someone else ( i don’t remember now. maybe tom hanks?) it was pretty good he was irish or sum with nicole kidman and they came to the united states and pretended to be siblings but the sexual tension was so fucking high dawg. 

39. What musical instruments do you play, if any? nothing i’m wack and a disappointment to my musically gifted family (my dad and brother)  40. What is your favorite animal?  polar bears followed by giraffes. 41. What are your top 5 favorite Tumblr blogs that you follow? i’m gonna go with my main tumblr because ion wanna hurt nobody’s feelings but i follow a celebs of color page i really love, a fashion page i really love, and a few artists i really love. 42. What superpower do you wish you had? teleportation or shape shifting.  43. When and where do you feel most at peace?  i feel most at peace when it is raining and i’m in my room, everything is clean and tidy, candles are lit, i have nothing to do so the world is my oyster, i have a nice cup of coffee or hot cocoa or tea, and i just am v i b i n g.  44. What makes you smile? seeing my friends, my brother (when he isn’t pissing me off), funny videos of red dead people falling off their horse in cinematic mode, pretty flowers, cute art, round birds. 45. What sports do you play, if any? i don’t lmfao. 46. What is your favorite drink? honestly a frozen margarita no salt. 47. When was the last time you wrote a hand-written letter or note to somebody? a month ago.  48. Are you afraid of heights? absolutely. 49. What is your biggest pet peeve? people chewing with their mouths open and people talking to me like i’m incompetent/assuming i don’t know anything about what they’re trying to talk to me about especially if it is my area of expertise lol. 50. Have you ever been to a concert? hail yeah. many. 51. Are you vegan/vegetarian? nope! 52. When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up? honestly i don’t know but i have a distinct memory of a bunch of girls in my second grade, yours truly included, wanting to be strippers. and i don’t know why or how this came up or if we even truly knew what stripping meant but. yeah. OH i guess around the time i was in 4th/5th grade i started wanting to be a harvard law graduate and be a lawyer but i gave that up in like high school and then bounced being a lawyer back and forth in my noggin up until i applied for grad school. shout out to my mary for doing it though.  53. What fictional world would you like to live in? hmmmm idk. none of em really. 54. What is something you worry about? if i made the right decision(s) in life lol.  55. Are you scared of the dark? not really.  56. Do you like to sing? yeah i do! doesn’t mean i’m good at it though haha. 57. Have you ever skipped school? yeah lmfao. 58. What is your favorite place on the planet? i miss Rwanda a lot. but honestly my favorite place is wherever the people i love are. my family loves to travel so whenever i’m with someone i love sharing an experience? i’m in heaven. 59. Where would you like to live? idk anywhere i guess. somewhere it is mostly cold most of the time though haha. 60. Do you have any pets? my bb boi fred lives with my dad and my mom has a dog and 2 cats. we used to have 3 but one of em ran away when she moved to her house, we caught him, he ran away again. oh whale. 61. Are you more of an early bird or a night owl? oh a big time night owl. big time. 62. Do you like sunrises or sunsets better? honestly i like sunrises better but i am never awake to catch em hahah. 63. Do you know how to drive? yah and i fuckin love doing it. 64. Do you prefer earbuds or headphones? i prefer headphones. like really quality ones too. but i tend to use earbuds more often because i don’t need quality while im working out or going to class just easy grab and go. 65. Have you ever had braces? nope but i used to want some so bad. 66. What is your favorite genre of music? i love rap, dream-y pop music and dream-y rap music, i love 80s music. all 80s music really lmfao.  67. Who is your hero? mi mum and mi dad. also viola davis queen of inventing acting and every single color in the rainbow. 68. Do you read comic books? kind of. i was trying to build up a collection before i moved but i only had my BP comics. 69. What makes you the most angry? injustice and offensive ass content and behaviors. also don’t fuck with my friends. i got two dudes on my shit list right now that it is *on sight* if i ever see them again. 70. Do you prefer to read on an electronic device or with a real book? a real book all the way. idk what it is about digital reading my brain shuts the fuck down. i am super fast reader but the second i try and read something digitally it takes me maybe like 10-15 min to get through just a few sentences. 71. What is your favorite subject in school? history lol i was a history major. 72. Do you have any siblings? yeah my chicken nugget puppy brother dylan. asshole. 73. What was the last thing you bought? some historical romance i think? it’s in dutch so idrk.  74. How tall are you? 5′7 i think. 75. Can you cook? yeah i love cooking but saddly don’t do much of it. 76. What are three things that you love? my teddy bear my momma got me for valentines day, my st. agatha figurine, and my yikes tapestry mary got me. i realize now after reading the next question you probably meant like shit in general so. the smell of a fresh cup of coffee, snuggly warm sweaters, postcards and tiny gifts from friends. you know the ones “i just got this for you because i thought you’d like it” 77. What are three things that you hate? funky ass attitudes, the smell and feel of lavender oil, corn. 78. Do you have more female friends or more male friends? female 79. What is your sexual orientation? i’m a big ole heterosexual. sorry to disappoint :/  80. Where do you currently live? the netherlands. 81. Who was the last person you texted? my friend and former roommate. today is her birthday. 82. When was the last time you cried? like an hour ago lmfao. 83. Who is your favorite YouTuber? i don’t have one haha. vevo i guess. 84. Do you like to take selfies? do i like taking them? not really. it takes me too damn long to get one that looks good enough. i like sending stupid selfies to friends though. 85. What is your favorite app? i use twitter probably the most but my favorite app is my spider solitaire game haha. 86. What is your relationship with your parent(s) like? we are very close. i would say both of my parents are my biggest supporters and cheerleaders but how they do that looks a bit different. my mom and i are very similar but sometimes how we handle certain things is very different so we can be the best of friends one day and the completely butt heads the next. 87. What is your favorite foreign accent? i loovveeeee a scottish accent and an irish accent. also tbrh i love a good southern boy drawl. like idk if i could play for you all the way this one dude who works with my mom talks? i would because i wanna bottle it and listen to it whenever i feel bad. 88. What is a place that you’ve never been to, but you want to visit? i would really like to go to norway for my birthday. 89. What is your favorite number? i don’t have one. 90. Can you juggle? nope but i did try and learn i have a video of it somewhere lmfao. 91. Are you religious? kind of. i’m more spiritual than religious and lowkey hate saying that because it sounds so hoitietoitie but it’s true. 92. Do you find outer space or the deep ocean to be more interesting? the ocean. so much of it we haven’t explored. thinking about space makes me feel existential and dead inside.  93. Do you consider yourself to be a daredevil? nah haha 94. Are you allergic to anything? yeah i’m supposed to take one claritin a day but like i don’t. 95. Can you curl your tongue? yeah 96. Can you wiggle your ears? nope :(  97. How often do you admit that you were wrong about something? i’ll admit i’m wrong if i’m actually wrong but you’re gonna have to a helluva lot of convincing to get me there lmfao. though if my being “wrong” has caused harm to someone else i’ll apologize quicker than lightning because the last thing i would want is for my stubbornness to hurt someone i love. 98. Do you prefer the forest or the beach? um the mountains 99. What is your favorite piece of advice that anyone has ever given you? "never turn down a date. you never know who you might meet while you’re out” -my grandmother to my mother to me. 100. Are you a good liar? lmfaooooo i am a reformed liar. 101. What is your Hogwarts House? HUFFLEPUFF BAYBEEE 102. Do you talk to yourself? yah 103. Are you an introvert or an extrovert? an introvert. i may be loud and talkative sis but i promise you i’m over compensating because i want you to like me lmfao. 104. Do you keep a journal/diary? i have a private twitter does that count. 105. Do you believe in second chances? depends. 106. If you found a wallet full of money on the ground, what would you do?imma keep it real with you chief i would keeps the money lmfao. in the past i would’ve tried to return it to the owner but i am big broke bois with a lot of unexpected expenses coming up so like... yeah lmfao. we keepin that coint. 107. Do you believe that people are capable of change? sometimes. 108. Are you ticklish? yes lmfao 109. Have you ever been on a plane? yeah! 110. Do you have any piercings? yah i got my lobes pierced one on each ear, my nose, and a cartilage piercing. 111. What fictional character do you wish was real? my girl nancy drew. 112. Do you have any tattoos? yeah i got 2 of em. 113. What is the best decision that you’ve made in your life so far? idk lmfao. probably when i applied for cityterm and when i appled to go back to undergrad. 114. Do you believe in karma? Yeah but not in a “oh you hurt me? you’re gonna get your come uppins” way but in a every action affects your soul and your being kinda way.  115. Do you wear glasses or contacts? im supposed to wear glasses but ask me if im wearing em right now lmfao. 116. Do you want children? presently i don’t see myself wanting or having kids but i want to foster. 117. Who is the smartest person you know? my friends lol. 118. What is your most embarrassing memory? literally every single memory has a tinge of embarassment lol. but probz when i walked into the cafeteria my first day of highschool as a smol freshman and my knees locked up and i fell forward and my giant ass backpack (because i never used my locker ever in any grade) wrapped around my neck and had me stuck in a strange position in the middle of the parting of the tables in the cafeteria.  119. Have you ever pulled an all-nighter? hell yeah lmfao. 120. What color are most of you clothes? blue or black 121. Do you like adventures? yeah! 122. Have you ever been on TV? yeah but like on the news and shit. 123. How old are you? 24 124. What is your favorite quote? i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart) 125. Do you prefer sweet or savory foods? OOF TOUGH BUT UHHH probz sweet. 

A L L O F T H E Q U E S T I O N S

(01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?) ~with mom yes, dad no.(02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?) ~my boyfriend, i think..?(03: Do you regret anything?) ~yes! a lot!(04: Are you insecure?) ~very.(05: What is your relationship status?) ~im dating somebody i believe to be the best person for me... i dont want to let him go.(06: How do you want to die?) ~i havent imagined how i want to die outside of suicide plans.(07: What did you last eat?) ~a stick of gum.(08: Played any sports?) ~ive played baseball in gym, and it was fun, but i dont really like other sports.(09: Do you bite your nails?) ~all the time. theyre a mess.(10: When was your last physical fight?) ~in like... grade 6.(11: Do you like someone?) ~my boyfriend...(12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?) ~yep. ill go up even further, the longest ive ever stayed awake was about... 72 hours..? a few days.(13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?) ~not necessarily hate. just a tad annoyed whenever i see them. which is a lot.(14: Do you miss someone?) ~yeah, two people.(15: Have any pets?) ~cats.(16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?) ~sad.(17: Ever made out in the bathroom?) ~ew, no. (18: Are you scared of spiders?) ~yeah.(19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?) ~no, im... content with where i am.(20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?) ~ive kissed like one person and i didnt even want to idk what to tell you dude.(21: What are your plans for this weekend?) ~die sleep draw and cry over gay shit !(22: Do you want to have kids? How many?) ~not really..? if i did, like, 2 at max, but theyd be adopted.(23: Do you have piercings? How many?) ~two ear piercings, i want more.(24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?) ~SCIENCE ART AND ENGLISH.(25: Do you miss anyone from your past?) ~yeah. one person.(26: What are you craving right now?) ~physical affection.27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?) ~yeah.(28: Have you ever been cheated on?) ~i hope not.(29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?) ~i hope not.(30: What’s irritating you right now?) ~my jaw and neck hurt so thats kinda :/(31: Does somebody love you?) ~i hope so.(32: What is your favourite color?) ~purple!(33: Do you have trust issues?) ~somewhay.(34: Who/what was your last dream about?) ~...it was about my boyfriend.(35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?) ~i dont know, but nobody from my current school.(36: Do you give out second chances too easily?) ~i dont think i do.(37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?) ~forgive. (38: Is this year the best year of your life?) ~i hope not.(39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?) ~12. i hated it.(40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?) ~ID RATHER DIE. ((you ever notice how this doesn't have 41-50?))(51: Favourite food?) ~dont really have one.(52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?) ~yeah.(53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?) ~listened to music i think, or cried.(54: Is cheating ever okay?) ~in very, VERY specific circumstances. like, extremely specific 'i dont love them but im being forced to marry them/be with them' circumstances.(55: Are you mean?) ~to certain people.(56: How many people have you fist fought?) ~...like, none.(57: Do you believe in true love?) ~yeah... (58: Favourite weather?) ~rain.(59: Do you like the snow?) ~too cold 3:(60: Do you wanna get married?) ~...i guess...(61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?) ~not a huge fan of the nickname but i certainly wouldnt object to it.(62: What makes you happy?) ~my friends, my boyfriend, music, drawing...(63: Would you change your name?) ~already planning on it babey.(64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?) ~yeah, seeing as i hate his guts and want him to die.(65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?) ~i tell them i dont like them back and if theyre a dick about it i guess we arent friends anymore.(66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?) ~not really.(67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?) ~uh... my dad?(68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?) ~one of my friends. probably friday. (69: Do you believe in soulmates?) ~yeah...(70: Is there anyone you would die for?) ~The List Is Long And Vast.

Sorry if I asked too much ;;; Can you do Rei and Koga with 7,9,10,11,15 please? Thank you so much ; v ;

yall are thirsty, im pretty sure every one of these has had number 9 in it hmmmm i see where your guys minds are

H I tried my best with Koga’s accent ?

Rei:

7: sleeping

Rei is almost always sleeping- at least from what people see. He usually sleeps through the daylight, since he hates it so much. He’s actually a pretty heavy sleeper due to having to learn to sleep through Koga’s yelling and the twins’ antics. Usually both at once. When he wakes up, it’s hard for him to find sleep again.

9: kissing

After the fight with Eichi, he turned to his weakened state. His kisses became less harsh and sloppy, to more soft, but still pretty rough. When he’s sleepy, he kisses super sloppy and lazily- but when he’s awake and alert, and away from the sun, he can almost get as rough as he used to be. He likes to seem “dangerous.”

10: general physical contact

He isn’t necessarily clingy, but he is really touchy. While walking in public, he loves to wrap an arm around his companion, holding their waist. Holding hands just doesn’t seem good enough; and this way, he can be more protective of them. 

11: love expression

Rei can be pretty cheesy. He’s a master at smooth pickup lines, usually ones that are pretty dumb. But he feels proud and confident whenever he pulls one off. At times, he tends to treat the other like a younger sibling. He can get extremely protective over them as well.

15: soft spots/weaknesses

Whenever he sees the person he loves do something innocent are cute at all, he practically melts. He’ll just want to hug them for hours afterward. If they happened to be where others saw them, he would send evil glares to whoever it may be, then take them somewhere more private.

Koga:

7: sleeping

He snores. And he denies that he does. He’s like a dog, even in his sleep; he’ll whimper and quiver while he’s dreaming, twitching every now and then. What could he be dreaming about...? When he gets up in the middle of the night, or early in the morning, he’s really loud about it. He usually falls out of the bed while trying to be quiet, then tripping over something and cursing.

9: kissing

When he kisses, it’s really messy and rough. Usually it ends up more teeth than lips. He tends to growl while he’s kissing, though he never means to. He loves giving neck kisses and leaving satisfying marks. It’s like he wants to tell everyone that they belong to him, without having to say it.

10: general physical contact

He usually doesn’t initiate anything on his own. In public, if they try to do anything, he’ll probably ask about it. “Ah? Ya wanna hold my hand? Whatever, jus’ don’ do anythin’ too lovey-dovey, a’ight?” He’s usually okay with small things in public, and he usually opens up more in private.

11: love expression

He’s not that good at expressing his emotions; especially love. At school, he would want to keep his “lone wolf” demeanor. He’ll get all embarrassed if they do anything too mushy; even when they’re alone. He tends to snap, but will apologize afterward. He tries his best, I promise!

15: soft spots/weaknesses

He’ll never, ever, admit it, but he loves being pet. When he gets head scratches, he absolutely loves it. It gives him a moment of weakness, making him vulnerable. But the moment he does something embarrassing, like moan, his face turns bright red and he’ll shout in annoyance. Then threaten them if they ever tell anyone.

love notes Part #5

[2/14/18, 00:23:48] YL: Happy valentines [2/14/18, 00:34:19] Captain P.: Are you awake?? [2/14/18, 00:34:21] Captain P.: Amore? [2/14/18, 00:34:30] Captain P.: I have something for you actually [2/14/18, 00:34:35] Captain P.: Less sexy though [2/14/18, 04:04:41] Captain P.: Dear Goldenmouth, I do not believe in Valentine's day, however I won’t loose such a juicy occasion to renovate my message of love for you. Today I want through all our love notes from the last you posted on tumblr and I extrapolated them and put all of them till tonight in a word document that I just sent you via email. I hope you’ll appreciate this small gift as a valuable gift. Nevertheless, this exercise was very interesting for me. I finally got the chance to read again many of our stories and live again all our relationship’s daily routine  in all it’s crazy spheres and facades. I am so in love with you and I will always be willing to take care of you. Your gentle spirit and generous hart sweetly nurture my soul every day. You are an angel that came to my life to use me for the better. I can perceive how we both grew during last year and how you amplify my power how you simply make me a better person. With all that in mind, I want you to know that beside my passion and everything that matters the most is the affection I hold for your person. I want you to know you will always find a secure allay in me no matter the distance or the problems the future  might reserve us. I wish only for a shared life ahead us. Un bacio grande tesoro bio, you are the most beautiful being on this planet. I am honoured I have the chance to spend time with you. Buona notte patata mia <3. Always yours, Captain P.. [2/14/18, 09:16:55] YL: Mornig love [2/14/18, 09:17:05] YL: I love the valentines message can you send me one everyday [2/14/18, 09:17:08] YL: ❤️❤️ [2/14/18, 11:59:49] Captain P.: Morning amore [2/14/18, 16:18:10] YL: Baby [2/14/18, 16:18:24] YL: I'm the only one with no flowers on the table [2/15/18, 03:06:30] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, i know sometimes is hard to see the light in the end of the tunnel, and also nothing seams to lead where you thought it would, however you shouldn’t be so severe with your self. I know you’ll find the right path to get where you want because of your acume, open mind and bug heart. I am not here to tell you where to go. I am standing by your side just to make your journey happier, funnier and full of love. I want you to take all these decisions in harmony and with a smile on your face. I would love to hug you right now. I would love to have you next to me tonight and sleep spoon mode with you. Amore you are my little thing that I will never stop thinking of. If there is something in this work I can’t stand is your sadness. Above all, what really matters in life is that what you do makes you perceive spreading some love. Don’t ever fall in any vicious promise of other happiness. The real one has love and passion as drivers. If you love development go for it, if you love real estate finance go for it. If one requires the other than practice one and study the other. I know you know better than me the right paradigm. Anyway I love you so much and I want to always be able to take care of you. I am sure the universe has some interesting plan for us, hopefully this plans will also always be joint. Sleep tight and rock tomorrow, focus and learn. Un bacio grande tesoro mio, ❤🐒🐽 [2/15/18, 03:07:01] Captain P.: Ps: I stopped at a bar because of a birthday while coming back after I called you!!! [2/15/18, 03:07:06] Captain P.: 🐽🐽🐽🐽 [2/15/18, 03:08:53] Captain P.: Jeez there are to many spelling mistakes that changes the meaning I just realised!  Not work* but world [2/15/18, 09:04:15] YL: ❤️❤️ [2/15/18, 09:04:21] YL: I miss you pat [2/15/18, 09:04:28] YL: I thought I was going to die yesterday [2/15/18, 09:04:49] YL: Tam told me this story that a guy die after his shoulder was hurting and turns out to be an heart attack [2/15/18, 09:05:04] YL: And he died while resting on the chair in the clinic [2/15/18, 09:05:07] YL: 😱😱😱 [2/15/18, 10:30:53] Captain P.: Babe you are 20 [2/15/18, 10:31:06] Captain P.: You can’t have heart attack ok? [2/15/18, 10:31:19] Captain P.: Morning pat [2/15/18, 10:31:51] YL: Hahahaha [2/15/18, 11:08:04] YL: Baby 😂😂😂 [2/15/18, 11:08:09] Captain P.: Babe... [2/15/18, 11:08:09] YL: You ordered the flower [2/15/18, 11:08:13] Captain P.: I made a mistake [2/15/18, 11:08:15] YL: But it's delivering tomorrow [2/15/18, 11:08:17] YL: 😂😂😂 [2/15/18, 11:08:18] Captain P.: Dio cane [2/15/18, 11:08:20] YL: Honey [2/15/18, 11:08:21] Captain P.: Fan culo [2/15/18, 11:08:25] YL: I'll give them a call ... [2/15/18, 11:09:09] Captain P.: Why did they notify you? [2/15/18, 11:09:14] YL: Email [2/16/18, 02:47:08] Captain P.: Dear love, tonight more than ever I want to sneak in your bed without you to know. I miss you and I want to touch your silky hairs. I want you here, next to me, now. Not tomorrow. Now. It is this impossibility of being able to come and know on your door whenever I want that I hate. I will ask the universe to help me get closer to you soon. It’s a new year today and it’s your year pat since you love dogs so much I’m pretty sure this one will be gentle to you. Happy new year my love. May you be smiling for the entire year and always happy with your soul. Ti bacio tanto patatozzza mia! Sleep tight and come please to visit me in my dreams. 🐽🐒❤ [2/17/18, 04:50:48] Captain P.: Dear love, tonight I want to explain you again how beautiful you are because to me you are, as a marvellous humane, a magical figure that enriches my days. No matter what, I will always feel this confidentiality, passion and, of course sex appeal with you. I see a day where we celebrate all New Years together eating and laughing. However, tonight what I really miss is going out partying with you. I remember this summer a La profumiere with wenny and matteo. I enjoyed the techno in Taipei and I would love to be back there some other time With you. I’m trying to get some sleep on this late night bus to Frankfurt and I’ll immerge my self in us. Un bacione amore mio, buona notte sputnik !!! 🐽❤🐒 [2/17/18, 23:37:21] Captain P.: Potato i promess tomorrow we read Pinocchio [2/17/18, 23:37:44] Captain P.: I want to screw you all amore [2/18/18, 02:27:56] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, distance is a choice and many times is hard to see why it’s so worthy. If I think about it kills my day, instead when I think of you and when I picture in my mind our future together nothing is impossible. No matter how many girls are out there no matter how many boys will flirt with you. This is also part of our relationship, being able to know that this choice is made everyday by the both of us dreaming for something together. I will do all I can to be sure our roads won’t ever take different paths. I want to you to stay by my side forever. Tomorrow we will have our bednight stories and I would love to spend some time with you on Skype just chatting as usual. I really believe soon enough we will be living together. I honestly think this is the most important thing and in life sometimes a choice driven by the heart either than the mind leads to the best. We have this one opportunity to stay together, it is now more than a year and it’s always a pleasure to think of you. I will always love my pat, ❤🐒🐽 I had a great dinner with brother and one day I will take you to this amazing restaurant as well. Can’t wait to be again with you. If I only could I would come Over every weekend in Dubai to see your beautiful face. Sleep tight!! Buona notte amore mio. My principessa [2/18/18, 03:23:10] Captain P.: And lastely im thinking that you are my soul mate, it’s not only a matter of passion but also of sharing the good and the bad. Sharing the load together with our intimacy and finding something more. [2/19/18, 02:17:16] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I’m feeling homesick. I feel like I could die because my other half is not here with me. I think since Christmas my love became bigger, if this is even possible. I miss you ever since more and I never have enough.. I’m always willing to get tickets and visit you! Anyway, beside that.. tonight I want to write a bit more properly than usual..even if what I really miss is your giraffe neck, the sexiest neck I’ve ever seen in my life.. I know my love has more to say than the animalistic response. I was thinking about all your life and how it could go depending on what’s next on your agenda. I’m super excited for you because you are at an another turning point. Stay? Change? Where to? Someone would argue that this moving and changing is a bit wobbly, yet I think it’s a way of learning how to revert paradigm, reinventing it all the time. Because a paradigm is so intrinsic to our mental process that we are hardly aware of its existence, until you try to communicate with someone with a different paradigm. I believe this training of yours, imposed by today’s circumstances, will make you a paradigm inventor by getting the knowledge to put all the puzzle together. Might not be that this puzzle will answer to all your happiness or desires, but it will for sure get you where you want. Im just saying that I believe in you and I know you will find your perfect balance. You’ll be able to question the objectivity, that hidden and unspoken reality which is the key, the truth. Don’t think your lost cause happiness is a complex flow and only in a chaotic cosmos you’ll find your pattern. Something I understood, for instance is the value of knowing that there is someone in this world, that no matter what will always look at you with those shiny eye fool of hope and amusement. To keep this eyes wet and full of sparks one must see beyond the nature of the bodies, deeper than things perceivable by the senses and find a path of passion which I might call Love, for tonight. I want to keep on looking at you like this for the rest of my life!! I felt in love with you for you ability to talk to me differently by opening a new world into my heart. You managed to show me some unknowable ceilings of expression. Let’s never stop teaching each other new perspective of love: I learnt so much with you goldenmouth. With your soul and way of communicating you built in me the paradigm of a bond which doesn’t know what convenience, circumstances or boredom are. We became what we became: best friends? Soul mates? Sex buddies or admirers? I feel we became an indivisible duo. Open relationship or not I would like to keep exploring everything together in this world..by being an incredible miracle of compromise, trust and efforts to take the best out of the other for the sake of a common vision. In the name of a dream which if only whispered could be blown. With all that in mind I think I will never get used to the pain of distance, however what I know firmly and fiery is that you’ll always have a person to count on, and that person even in 20 Years will be me. Buona notte principessa mia, I send you all of my love and I hope tomorrow you wake up like a rose in spite of the hungover which will make you read this love note very dizzy. Un bacio grande tesoro mio❤🐒🐽 [2/20/18, 04:26:48] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I truly miss you and I want to touch your hairs to smell your skin and to spend all my time with you. Even looking at you watching tv series makes me happy. You are my sun shine even  in these days of boring doubting. When everything seems meaningless you light up my fire. Un bacione principessa mia, sleep tight and come visit me in my dreams. I couldn’t sleep till now.. and they say if you can’t sleep you’re usually in someone’s dream. I like to think I am now in yours taking you around one of our incredible adventures. Buona notte tesoro❤🐒🐽 [2/20/18, 08:04:29] YL: 💕💕💕 [2/21/18, 05:13:28] Captain P.: Dear my potatoz, camelpardhead, and goldenmouth: with you i want to travel the world, build a house of love and pass on some of our genes to new creatures that will need to much love to become, one day, life lovers them selfs. In other words I feel I found the fish in the ocean with whom I want to swim in the strong currents. No matter if it will be a cold or a hot current cause with you I can only feel warm and comfortable. I see us limitless. There is nothing that can stop us when we are together. I miss you and your legs so much, I miss your small tiny princess hands and you whispering close to my ears. Let’s never grow apart, let’s just keep on growing together and I’m sure the universe is preparing for us a roof under which we will finally be able look at the same moon and starts every night, hand in hand. Buona notte amore mio, un bacio alla mia principessa rap❤🐒🐽 [2/22/18, 04:18:39] Captain P.: Dear my patata, love it’s so crazy and beautiful. Sometimes i stop and I try to understand what are small gestures that makes me understand how madly in love I can be with you. For instance when I read Pinocchio to you, even if you don’t understand the language, I try to be as expressive as I can, as precise as I can. I wouldn’t read with such an intonation not even for my self. The thing is that I dindt realise it till matteo told me he was enjoying him self to listen to it even if he still thinks we are weird. I can read for you for ages my potato. Unluckily tonight the connection let us down. Anyways I would give at least a week or two of my life if I could have you here tonight, for just one night to sleep in the same bed, to share the same roof. I want my life to be driven by love and not by anything else. The number one thing is to be close to our love otherwise everything else is not complete, colors are faded.  Sleep tight and come into my dreams you beautiful principessa rap🐽🐒❤ I want to dream of a coez concert under the rain in the hot summer with you . Un bacio grande mio tesoro, buona notte [2/23/18, 04:01:06] Captain P.: My love note was written a while ago because I was too tired from the day and...

Amore mio, I hope you are all safe and sound home becuase I didn’t see anything on my card!! Are you safe sleeping? Ti bacio tanto amore mio, how I wish, how I wish I could see you now and be there to make sure all bones are in the right place and no scratch on my patata. One day we will be living together, I know this for sure, no matter how hard is now to see that future but I’m firmly convinced we are meant to be, we are not just one love as many meant to burn fast. My love for you is not just a spark, is a steady and warm fire which will burn in eternity. Sleep well golden mouth. You ora the princess of my life, your hairs are silk and your hands are so beautiful that I would like a sculpture always to have with me. Oh.. and.. how much I miss your skin and it’s smell. I hope you had fun tonight and that the pasta is also very good. I only always wish for the best for you in all the spheres of this existence. If you’re happy I’m happy. The rotten tomato here sends you all his love. [2/23/18, 04:42:30] YL: Buona notte amore 💕 [2/23/18, 04:44:26] YL: I can't wait to see you very very soon, only could I count the days to be faster until then 2/24/18, 02:13:25] Captain P.: My one and only love Yu-fei, I never call you with this name and I think by time to time is something that must be done to remember your roots, the roots of love through which complexity you landed into my arms. You know how sometimes I like to think deeply about love because in the end is the real only law, and the most powerful one existing in the world of sentient beings. It’s a while now that I wonder how we really met, how we end up together and how are we still staying together against all the odds.. obstacles.. kilometres. I end up realising that there is one main driver to start a love story: causality. If we think as causality as simple linear mechanics.. well.. you were flatmate with an old acquaintance of mine, alias Daniel. Than, we can think of causality as weakly related statistics.. so.. basically the possibilities that we liked each other..and the possibilities of us seeing each other enough times to have sex (holy shit it took a damn year). At this stage, please bear with me, we are at the beginning of what I would call a honeymoon phase. In order to translate all of this universal mix of casualties there is the need to understand the unspoken reality of complexity. In other words.. you can have an almost infinite number of compatible beings on this planet to have sex with, live a life and give birth to something which will ensure the human specie survival. Nevertheless, it is in the complexity of multiple interaction of this casualties that a rare real love as ours (I like to think so) is hidden. I think we finished the honeymoon phase quite a while ago and our complexity is staying strong after an enormous number of casualties working against it.. to name few: we live in different cities, we speak different languages, we are both young and full of casual opportunities in all directions. I’m not sure I managed to explain well what I have in mind but it is simply that: I love you. And when I say so behind this tiny words there is a world of complex feelings always interacting with them selfs. We don’t play by the rules of causality, we chose each other because we like the reality we create together no matter the surrounding environment. No matter how hard and painful is waiting but give us just one drop of our love and everything is solved, saved and happy. I hope I also didn’t overheat or just confused your mind.. and please do tell me if any of these ideas makes sense to you given you are my beautiful mirror. I want to keep on raising our glasses to the good and the evil together. I would love also to read to you this love note in 20 Years and hug you gently while giving it to you from behind in an sunny, chilly autumn day. Buona notte principessa rap, never stop surprising me with your beautiful soul and generous heart. Always yours, ❤🐒🐽 [2/24/18, 02:13:54] Captain P.: I’m gonna week up early tomorrow because if sunny I’ll go skiing [2/24/18, 02:14:20] Captain P.: Stay safe and have fun my principessa rap [2/24/18, 04:51:42] YL: Thank you for always letting me be myself, for the worst and best. You give me the space and courage to find my way and shine, and this is why I will always choose you in any circumstances. We have our true love and I wish it will always be there. Like you said, we play against the rule of causality, and our love is a living statement that true love exists and I wish we will have our forever after in this enternity and the rest. 💕 [2/24/18, 04:51:55] YL: Buona notte mio principe [2/24/18, 10:43:26] Captain P.: Buongiorno potatohead of my life!! How did the party go you funky slayer? I’m driving to the mountains with some windy cold weather, however is quite sunny [2/24/18, 11:12:48] Captain P.: Ps: you sexy in the picture! This time in Dubai we are going out because I want to see you like that [2/25/18, 02:05:48] Captain P.: Dear love, I’m counting every minute that separates us. I would like to wake up tomorrow next you. Amore mio, you are my angel! I miss everything of you and having all these stuff of yours in my wardrobe makes me crazy. I see your winter stuff and I want to have you here next to me like last Christmas. My patata.. days, months are gone behind us but I still feel the same passion, the same flying soul and big heart when I look at you. You are my reason of hope, my guiding light and I can't wait to have you tight in my arms soon again. In this life there is nothing else but a bit of love to make us happy. Buona notte amore mio. Trento is so boring without you even if I’m with my friends. Sleep well and come visit in my dreams, you’re mostly welcome principessa rap. Ti bacio..tesoro mio🐽🐽❤🐒 [2/26/18, 05:53:07] Captain P.: Dear love, i want to buy us a dog and to simply have a house where to spend time with you cooking, eating and dancing under the stars. Is that asking too much? Universe, Lord, please give us the strength to stay together till that joyful day. Please help us getting there soon, and faster if You can. Anyway patata I miss you as always and I always think of you every moment of my life. Wherever I look I see your eyes. You know I’m always here as a family right? You’ll always have a house with me, and a place where you’re loved. Remember that in the darkness. I’m arriving soon In geneve and the next weeks are going to be fast as hell for me. Deadlines are approaching and travels as well. In this chaotic period everything I ask for is just time to still be able t call you and see your beautiful face. Above all, just off records, I would love to have an açai bowl right now. Please let’s go have one each evening when I’m in Dubai, especially if it’s gonna be my last time there. Potato mia, don’t worry about a thing at work because I know that in the end you’re still working your ass out. Ti bacio tanto è ti bacio tutta tesoro Mio. Rise and shine today. Always, Captain P.🐽🐒❤ [2/26/18, 09:58:31] YL: 💕 [3/1/18, 04:03:44] Captain P.: Dear love, in the past weeks I’ve been thinking a lot about your happiness. I think I might have been mentally egoist by time to time because I didn’t push you enough to actually change and move from Dubai. Not Dubai really, more about Kerzner. You deserve much better. And not because you are special or super qualified (these things the careeer  that will prove it and I’m not really interested), but because you deserve to be happy. The past year you experienced something that in the end doesn’t make you happy, not for the job type maybe but relationship wise, life balance and self esteem. I really hate how they treated you and how i saw sometimes the amazing Aura light of yours being feeble and fading. The Golden Mounth I love is the one with shiny eyes, enthusiast and thirsty of high speed life. Even if this means having you in Bangkok I don’t care. Go wherever you’re happy because than everything in life follows. And please let’s not even try to argue that changing company every year is bad and this Bla Bla shit of HR micro brained people because fuck them.. what matters a 20years is to go wherever your happiness and heart tells you, no matter the stability of the job or if sticking to the same monster corporation would make you grow in the big organisation. Screw the big organisations and playing by the rules. They are all just creating a society of dumb models which like, aim and work for the same stupid goal. People who really change and think out of the box can’t stick to the ordinary rules. You’ve been gifted the power of love and enthusiasm..don’t let it burst. More than ever our time is kind of transitionary in all industries and you are building exceptional profile through multiple experience in various key developing countries. Go out there and experiment, yet with a big smile on your face and a heart full of emotions. No matter the distance I can only love that Golden Mounth and, most importantly, I want you to be happy at any cost otherwise what I really love about you would be at stake. Sounds weird yet this is quite a utilitarian approach because you being happy boosts my love and also makes you feel better. Thanks the universe we found this win win solution!!! All that being said, don’t be sad at all in the next days since we always need to relatively think how lucky is it already to have all what we got and mainly we got each other and a big chunk of love. It’s not something that everyone is having everyday. Go to work and slay everyone at Kerzner with your smile, with your prominent youth that says fuck off and YOLO ya all bitchas with that taste of professionalism which would give the global office the knock out. I will always be your supporter number one, and will always push you to the top of your happiness. Don’t let anyway let you down and proudly walk the walk of life beautiful soul. Un bacio grande tesoro, sleep well tonight. Soon I’ll be there and these love notes won’t be needed. ‎[3/1/18, 05:05:40] Captain P.: ‎image omitted [3/1/18, 05:06:45] Captain P.: (The one before the heart should be a dick) [3/1/18, 07:01:15] YL: 😂😂😂😂😂😂 [3/1/18, 07:02:51] YL: Thank you babe for the love note [3/1/18, 07:02:54] YL: ❤️ [3/2/18, 02:57:40] Captain P.: Dear love you are so beautiful that everytime I see you even on skype ( as it is now that I am writing this love note) I ask my self how is it possible that I bumped in such an incredible creature. I look at you eating and I wish all the nutrients get properly in your body so that you’ll be fully in shape and strong. When I see you dressed I get the vibrant sensuality and all your presence smashes me as an oceanic wave. I could go on forever describing your beauty but I will have to keep this for many other love notes. Good luck with your test today, I know by far that you’re going to do great. Finally after weeks of uncertainty the doors are now open to you and you just need to decide which one to enter. Will be good either way I guess because it’s a deserved luxury to choose and for you the best is yet to come. How marvellous is it to dream with open eyes having such an unpredictable world ahead. Un bacio grande Tesoro mio bello. Visit me in my dreams princess. Always. <3

[3/3/18, 03:25:00] Captain P.: Buona notte amore mio, I want to debate with you forever. We can both actually be very stubborn and restless. I will never stop loving you in spite of how many times you’ll hang up on me. I’m just waiting to debate and kill each other in person so that there is no such half way of making peace but everything can end up sleeping together and hugging each other for the rest of the night. Here it’s full of midsts tonight and I wish I could have you here next to me to share this bed. I want to spend my life with you and to never stop being so in love that we can spend hours on the phone debating and debating ending up just reading Pinocchio and still hating/loving one another. Sleep tight and come visit me in the midst. I’m waiting for you already. Un bacio grande principessa mia🐒❤🐽 [3/4/18, 03:32:22] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I really like thinking about you as the accent of my life as I said earlier tonight. Living this time on the planet thinking about you is something I will never get used enough to be bored. You give me this sweet hope that keeps me alive while burning all my energies. I really hate the distance and the inability of just seeing each other regularly, however I wouldn’t give up on us for anything in this world, I will always fight to go to bed knowing I let you know I love you and that we can push it further night over night. Every additional 24h with you is a precious gift to me. Beside all of this simply sweeet things I am actually profoundly happy for you because of the amazing opportunity you fought for. Seeing you growing and being independent is for me an example, a model to admire. I think you are my master in love and together we can build an ever lasting precious story which we will be able to proudly look back. We are slowly discovering each other through the best and the worst, and there is still so much inside each of us that we don’t know. It’s great to find who we are through the lenses of the other. We will both need the other one when down and I’m ready for everything. I don’t mind thinking of sleeping only with you because I also know that you can be many to my eyes. One day you are the sweet potato, the other one the nasty princess and another one more the fragile girl. I’m in love with all of your faces because of your special soul. The week of decision is ahead you. Be clear in your mind and work hard my love. I send you loads of kisses. Un bacio grande mia regina🐽🐒❤

Ps: the girl is sleeping in matteo’s bed, she is a classic ballet dancer here to be tested at a dancing academy. [3/5/18, 05:40:21] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I’m finally going to bed after waiting for matteo for ages because his train was late. Now I remover your train was late as well and how happy I was when you surprise me here. To be honest I think that has been the best thing someone has ever done for me and was the best day of my life indeed. In other words, in just a year you manage to steal my heart forever and I will never get bored at reading  bed night stories to you or spending time texting love notes. I’m so trhirlled for you for tomorrow. Don’t stress about the answer from Bangkok. Whatever happens you’ll still have a rotten tomato on your side, in Dubai in Bangkok as a senior or as an intern. Stay strong and keep on rocking the world beautiful princess. I love you always and deeply. Un bacio grande tesoro mio. BuOnanotte ❤🐽🐒 [3/6/18, 05:49:28] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, most of the times I believe we are all just beginners when it comes to love. I’ve been writing love notes for the past year, however I still know nothing about it because it’s such an incredible magic. I love you so much my potato, I always think about you and how to get closer. It’s incredible how two beings can be so attached to each other. I want only you and I don’t want to ever stop loving you. Not reading bed night stories and having enough Skype yesterday is already something I didn’t like. Big kisses to from the rotten tomato! I do tired I can bearly think right now. I just landed in Tbilisi. Emily and Luis are good people and flight was all good ! Now passport control, exchanging some money and straight to the transfer car! Good luck with your day and finger crossed for the great decision! Un bacione grande tesoro mio. You are my life [3/6/18, 05:54:30] Captain P.: 🐽🐽🐽🐽🐽 [3/6/18, 22:36:00] Captain P.: Dear love, in this lonely room the thought of you is what keeps me dreaming about the amazing world I see with your love. Reading carver stories makes me wonder about our love and how am I in love with you. There is nothing stronger than this and I wouldn’t be able to describe it better than: you are the one I want to talk to forever. I want to exchange with you everything. I want to spend all my time and all my energy to dissipate energy with you till the end. People here are poor, yet most of them know better than western what is generosity, hospitality and, therefore love. We wi have a dog from these pastures. I swear. And I swear we are going to love it more than our friends ahahah! Above all, I’m so Proud of you going to Bangkok, starting a new chapter and picking up new challenges. Good luck with everything my love. Be strong at work and work hard even if You’ll be done soon. Tu bacio tanto tesoro mio.. you are my angel and only one. Buona notte from the rotten tomato🐽🐒❤ [3/7/18, 23:54:37] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I understood only at last what you meant tonight on Skype. Yes I can only imagine it is hard.. but you know that’s why there is love in this planet and that’s why we can build our house from scratch and start having our own set of things which will value twice as much because we dreamed of them and are creatures of our love. I’m sure together we have no limit and all this apparent emptiness is there to be filled with our love and creation of future. There are no boundaries in this world when two people are in love and that power mange to generate miracles. I love you with all my heart and my living is aimed to stay and pamper you. Wish you were here in this bed with me so that I can hug you and I wouldn’t have snake nightmares and you dizzy head. Un bacio grande tesoro Mio. Buona notte principessa rap. Always, ❤🐒🐽 [3/9/18, 00:27:05] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I will ever let you down. You are an amazing being and I respect you so much. I want to give you the best this world can offer and there is no creature as beautiful as you are to my eyes. You are a wonderful gift from the ski that was awarded to me only to be pampered and caressed. I love you with all My heart and no matter What we will Make it till The day we live under the same roof. After that Day we Can fight on whatever we want. I want to live my life with you and nothing else matter. Have a great boat party and feel sexy because you are. Un bacio grande amore mio, buona notte principessa della mia vita❤🐒🐽 [3/10/18, 01:52:32] Captain P.: Buona notte love of my life, when will we get bored of each other? Hopefully never. I will always have that extra amount of energy to read bednight stories to you princess. I dream of you taking on your new adventures and how amazing all this challenges are and how you are a surfer of this world. I honestly think we are the most amazing couple on this planet, the craziest duo and the most romantic patheads in circulation. I always feel like flying when I’m with you and I don’t ever what to touch the ground again. Have sweet dreams and come visit me in mine. Un bacio tesoro mio. Sleep tight principessa❤🐒🐽 [3/11/18, 01:00:12] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you are my everything. In the good and In the bad times I will always know I win in life anyway because we are together and our love has infinite resources. Everything I see i project it on you and on how we could experience it together. I’m burning every single minute that still separates us. I want to talk to you each night because in the end, no matter who I meet or who I get to spend time with, the only one I miss is my patatahead next to me. You are a star to my eyes and I feel we are like the moon and the sun, meant to work together and to shine of each other’s reflection. I send you all my love and a huge amount of kisses to cover you all..! We went out for dinner with some from the other organisations and was fun in a nice place with some music as well. Ti bacio tutta patatozzz🐽 buona notte tesoro, sleep tight and don’t forget to come visit me while dreaming princepessa rap❤🐒always, Captain P.. [3/12/18, 00:24:45] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you are my angel and I will always do anything to keep it this way. I’m more than sure life has some great plans for us because such a big love cannot be dissatisfied. I can’t think of anyone that could possibly love you more than I do and whenever I would find that guy I would prove the impossible. Sleep well and hopefully tonight you won’t have trouble with tummy pain!! I dream of us laying on the soft grass and just picking flowers thinking of how beautiful is life when we have one another. Can’t wait to touch your hairs and feel your warm breath on my chest. Un bacio grande tesoro mio, buona notte principessa 🐒❤🐽 [3/13/18, 04:11:49] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, sounds like all of these incredible choices are hard today, however one day you’ll look back and everything will make sense. I also know it sounds redundant, but you know well that both are pretty fine. Try to pause the time and feel the thrill, feel the pride of being such a senior potato that earned it all with its bare hands. I’m so proud of you and also so happy for you. Either way you’ll end up well. I also think our prayers worked and that’s a good reason to get back to our previous daily practice. Not only the universe gave you the golden contract but also an alternative. Feel honoured and grateful because it’s important to sometimes stop and celebrate success when life give it to you. We tend to emphasise what’s bad or unsuccessful, yet I think this situation deserve a nice toast. Luckily we will be soon together to celebrate. These last few days I’ve been in contact with Azeri shepherds that earn what you would earn per month as a yearly salary, actually for their entire household. If I can tell a final suggestion I think you should go for the one that would allow you the highest impact on the highest amount of people. Living beings and their happiness is what matters the most, choose the one which allows you to touch more lives. There are still so many things in this world that need to be changed and I always think you are one of those crazy enough dreamers to think they can change it, and for this mere reason you will. You will change it. No matter what I will support you and love you always: here, now, in the future and even if I would have to bring my ass to planet mars. Buona notte amore mio, hopefully you are now sleeping sweet dreams. I’m at the airport standing in the check in line and saying goodbye to Georgia. Will text when in Geneva. You are a beautiful flower. Un bacio grande tesoro mio, always to my principessa rap❤🐒🐽 [3/14/18, 01:54:49] Captain P.: Buona notte love of my life, I still need to pack and do quite a bit of things but I’m so tired that I decided to go to bed now and wake up early tomorrow instead. You are my only light and reason of happiness. I only think of you all the time and how to find why towards our happiness. Next week this time I will almost be travelling to yours. I can’t wait to see you and touch you and put my hands into your hairs. What and incredible life are we having. New steps are ahead us, yet what I’m sure about is that we are going to make those together. You’ll never be alone in this world till I breath. Un grande bacio amore mio, im excited to see your city, we need to go there together sooon. Come visit me in my dreams. Buona notte tesoro🐒❤🐽 [3/15/18, 06:19:39] Captain P.: Love of my life, you are my angel my sweet potato and only love. Don’t panic for this choice I’m sure you’ll be fine no matter the place, salary and job. I’ll be always here for you and will always find a way to get to you because love is the only things that nurture my happiness and you are the custodian of my heart. I had a nice dinner with Claudia and now at home Ready to sleep [3/16/18, 01:21:07] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I hope you are fine and having some fun either outside or in your dreams. I can’t wait to know what you end up deciding so that I’ll know where I will come to visit my wonderful patata. I miss you as never before even in the big Apple and I would give anything to have you here with me strolling around midtown and all this hectic streets. I walked a lot today going everywhere I could to see the main touristic places. I’m now collecting my things from claudia’s place and going to check in at the hotel where I’ll meet all the other team members. I’m sure whatever you choose it’s going to be exciting and I’m so happy you actually got the opportunity to choose. It’s crazy how I miss you and how I can’t wait to touch your hairs very soon. Whenever I have WiFi I will keep loud tone up so that if you call I’ll try to pick up to hear your voice. In the mean time I send you all my love and a big hug to celebrate the choice. I’ll always love you and I always think of you. ❤🐒🐽be safe principessa rap [3/16/18, 01:32:14] YL: Baby [3/17/18, 07:11:43] Captain P.: Dear my patata, these days everything is long and hard because there is no personal time left for us. I miss you like oxygen. I really want to come back here with you because this time I’m actually not seeing much due to the intense schedule and also loads of people around. Potato you have no idea today we had to welcome 3000 students and the entire staff team is 60 people only. Anyway I’m sleeping next to a guy right now and how I wish I could hug you instead and touch your hairs. My love I wish you all the best for the talk with the guy tomorrow and I’m sure your contract won’t be jeopardised. There is no worry about that. Can’t wait to see you again and spend some time in tranquility with you. Un bacio grande. No matter how many odds the universe will try to test us I will always believe we are like the sun and the moon chasing each other to te infinite. I think I would give anything to be in that hotel back next to the moon lake in Taipei right now. You are always in my thoughts. Buona notte principessa mia❤🐒🐽sleep tight. [3/18/18, 07:56:15] Captain P.: Potato love of my life! Had some Kieran barbecue for dinner!Finally in bed even if out is San Patrick’s day and Saturday evening, to tired as all the staff members to do anything at all because tomorrow is again meeting at 6:15 am [3/18/18, 07:56:59] Captain P.: I love you always and deeply. Every place I go and no matter how could the company is.. I always wish you were there [3/18/18, 07:59:20] Captain P.: Come visit me in my dreams tonight❤🐒🐽can’t wait to see you soon this week. Un bacio grande amore mio!!! Buona notte tesoro, go rock at work tomorrow your first day as a senior potatohead with golden contract [3/19/18, 15:49:47] Captain P.: Amore mio I just entered Claudia’s place! I’m dead, but happy. In these days I met so many great people. The thing is that I will never met someone like you and I wouldn’t ask any better than just havenind you are staying with me because anythin [3/19/18, 15:50:27] Captain P.: Babe I felt asleep last night writing [3/19/18, 15:50:39] Captain P.: Didn’t sent my love note [3/19/18, 15:50:59] Captain P.: I just woke up after some good sleep [3/20/18, 07:29:22] Captain P.: Love of my life you are my only desire and thought all the time. Brew york is a crazy city amazing and hectic. I really enjoyed it however I need to be back soon with you. Can’t wait to see you and stay with you very soon my one and only. I can’t believe it’s veri sooon [3/20/18, 07:36:38] YL: 💕 [3/21/18, 03:59:22] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I can’t wait to see you, [3/21/18, 03:59:29] Captain P.: Amore matteo’s flight cancelled.. [3/21/18, 03:59:35] Captain P.: Michi’s flight cancelled [3/21/18, 04:00:28] Captain P.: There is a snow storm coming and they are cancelling loads of flights let’s pray for mine. [3/21/18, 04:33:22] Captain P.: Dear love of my life I really do hope I’ll get my flight going because I can’t wait to see you very soon. You are my guiding light and happiness. My love for you is so deep and consistente that I could not immagine anyone loving someone more. I miss your small hands and nice nose. You wisheotimg into my ears and biting my lips while fucking gently or hard. I miss everything about you. Un bacio grande mia principessa! Buona notte sweatheart [3/21/18, 04:33:26] Captain P.: Have a great day [3/21/18, 04:34:09] Captain P.: I had an amazing stay here and at least half of it is thanks to you. Claudia is a great friend [3/21/18, 04:36:45] Captain P.: I’m boarding and my flight is delayed half an hour. Let’s just hope we can take off [3/21/18, 10:56:20] YL: 💕💕 [3/22/18, 03:23:48] Captain P.: Dear love of my life I wish all nights were like this one. The thrill, the hope, the positive feeling of seeing you tomorrow is making me speechless. I’m excited and happy as a kid going to the seaside for the first time or touching a snowflake. The stupor is embracing my heart making it beating fast fast fats. Un bacione amore mio, you are my only happiness and person I want to spend time with in this life. I had fun at soccer and now going to bed and getting to the airport tomorrow. Buona notte principessa. Love you alwayss❤🐽🐒 [3/30/18, 01:47:37] Captain P.: Dear my love, as always saying goodbye to you it’s not the easiest thing. I want you to know that you are my one and single love. It will always be like this till the end of time. I feel kissed by the gods to find someone as special as you on my path and that somehow, in our own crazy way, we managed to never let each other go. I also want you to know how proud I am of this patata that with her own strength and strive lives her life here entering in a new apartment already. I can’t wait to visit you already in 21st century tower and worship my pussy again. Sleep well and enjoy your evening out. I love you so much. I always dream about our story and how we are building a unique journey in this incredible existence. With you I feel I am a whole, perfection seems at our reach and no moment is a regret. Times fly as my heart flys high when you next to me. Un bacione patatozza❤🐒🐽always to my principessa rap, buona notte. [3/31/18, 03:17:38] Captain P.: Love of my life, you are my fire and my only desire (as the silly song says) but I truly love you deeply and I want to be like this forever. I miss you so much now that I’m in a bed alone. Tonight is my first night being without you since last one was on a plane. I really hate not being with all the time. Anyway it is good being back with family for few days and also eating good food, however every place I go I think about how I would enjoy it more with you. I think of you all the time. I send you all my love and un bacione❤🐒🐽buona notte patata mia sleep well and visit me in my dreams [4/1/18, 03:27:12] Captain P.: Dear my patata, the best for us is yet to come and I am so happy to be in love with such an amazing woman. You are beautiful and you are a nice soul as well. I have no words to explain my will to have you here right now next to me sharing the same sky and the shining room. I want to remember our dinner with Sophia mosque as a view. I year is now behind us and I wouldn’t regret a single moment. Every time with you food is delicious and atmosphere perfect. Soon we will have vota as our memory too remembering it as another night full of smiles and laughs. I would love to have you in my arms amore. Good luck with this new adventure and the new apartment, so excited for you. Ti bacio and send you all my love.🐒❤🐽buona notte principessa rap. [4/2/18, 02:08:45] Captain P.: Amore you are my sunshine and the real only happiness! Don’t be upset about your clothes because soon more will come and also better ones. On top of that you are beautiful and anything will suits you. I love you deeply and you’ll see how being in the new apartment will make you forget any other shitty things. Exciting times are coming patata mia. I had fun with edo and the boys but at home now because tomorrow is study day, I’m really far behind with my thesis. Drive safe on the patmobile tomorrow morning and smile my sweet potato. I miss you dearly. Un bacione amore mio. Buona notte tesoro🐽🐒❤ [4/4/18, 01:46:36] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, every day without you next to me is wasted and kind of useless [4/4/18, 02:01:50] Captain P.: I feel like I just want to spend all the time left in my life with you and keep you tight in my arms. It’s hard to understand how love functions, however for some reason you are a solid though in my mind and a warm light into my heart. I feel you with all my senses, from smell to voice I love everything about you. I would also recognise you by any of these sensible characteristics: the smoothness of your skin, the silky hairs, the sweet voice or creamy smell. I don’t know what is wrong and what is right in this life, yet I know this love feels good tonight and forever. I don’t ever want to stop exploring the world with you. I truly can’t wait to see you soon already. I’m so glad you recuperated your cloths and also discovering new food places so that later on we know where to go eat good Chinese food in Dubai. Un bacione amore mio. Sleep tight and visit me in my dreams principessa mia🐽🐒❤ [4/5/18, 04:12:07] Captain P.: Dear my only potato, tonight I miss you more than ever becuase you are the only human I’d like to spend time with. Edo’s party was nice and good vibes playing beer pong. However i simply wish you were here or me there. I don’t mind where we will be living. I just care of being with you leaving the every day life. Un bacio grande mia bellissima Patato, I hope I’ll see you in my dreams tonight. Maybe meeting in the desert talking and wisperig at eachothers ears. Buona notte tesoro. Can’t wait to meet you in your new room [4/6/18, 03:02:39] Captain P.: Dear my one and only, I love you from the bottom of my heart. You are my desire and dream❤🐒🐽 I just want you to be here with me, in my arms talking to the same moon. [4/6/18, 03:08:30] Captain P.: I really miss you. Seems ages already even if it was exactly a week ago that I was having dinner with my princess [4/6/18, 03:10:35] Captain P.: Don’t work too much tomorrow patata. Did you know today was carbonara’s international day? We should have celebrate that. Un bacio grande tesoro mio. Buona notte and stay safe because I need to spend my life staring at your beauty. [4/6/18, 09:23:35] Captain P.: 🐽🐽🐽🐽 [4/7/18, 03:20:33] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, after a while writing easy love notes is maybe time for a series reflection of how our love is evolving. Let’s quickly remember how everything started.. from a slow inception of seeing each other randomly because of a mutual friend we ended up escaping to paris hand in hand with the most amazing love parenthesis of my life. Now after more than a year I still burn of love and my feelings are only deeper and stronger for you. The smoothness of your skin, the silky hairs and the warm heart are still fascinating me as a genuine lover. However, there are new characteristics I am starting to perceive of our love [4/8/18, 02:42:21] Captain P.: Dear love, the night here was a nice family event with cousins and grandma!! Anyway I just miss you and not having skypecall everyday is something I don’t like but today we have to accept it I guess. What did you do ?? How was buying furniture? I don’t ever want to stop dreaming with you because dreams are the only moment when you enter in a complete different world and if we do it together it’s even better. I wish very soon we will be having dinner together again. Principessa mia, i send you all my love. I will dream about us and our adventures, can’t wait to be again road tripping somewhere. Soon I want to live my days under the same roof. Un bacio grande patata, sleep tight and get some rest. Buona notte 🐽🐒❤ [4/9/18, 04:06:56] Captain P.: Love of my life, we arrived late late today because SBB is repairing the railway between losanne and Geneva and they put us on a bus. Anyway.. who cares. The only thing that matters is that I miss you so so much and that I really want to see your beutiful fresh face. I would give anything to step into your room now and slowly introduce my self under your bed sheets. I always think of you and wonder how amazing this life is since you stepped in. I love you with all my heart. Un bacio grande amore mio. No matter what I’ll be here. Buona notte and try to sleep tight tesoro🐽🐒❤ [4/10/18, 02:04:53] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you are the my angel and only lovable occupation. I think of you as an untouchable flower which is fragile yet strong as a raw diamond rock. I love you to the infinite. Don’t even bother your mind think of those dumb fuck at the office because as I already said they are small, small in their mind. In spite of their stupidity you have beauty, youth and a provoking brain on your side. Don’t ever let them tell you who you are or what to do. Don’t ever let them have you as they wish. I would personally slap them if I only could. Anyway I miss your body, your smooth hairs between my fingers and that fresh face next to me when I sleep. I’m still in my way back to the residence and tomorrow is another long day. My one and only goal is to live a life with you, creating an extraordinary existence. I can’t wait to have a roof with you and our PEPE to look at stars together. Un bacio grande amore mio. Sleep tight and meet me in my dreams, I’ll be waiting for your visit. Buona notte tesoro, always my princess. ❤🐒🐽 [4/11/18, 04:06:22] Captain P.: Dear love I just landed. You are my happiness and trigger for good. My flight was smooth beside was one hour late because there was a battery problem from Istambul. Anyway I am in Tbilisi. I can’t wait to see you again and to kiss your forehead every morning as a week agosto staying with you for a week made me feel I could have you always but it isn’t like that yet. We will change this very soon. We will have our Pepe and life is going to be so much better and serene. Rise and shine beautiful flower🐽🐒❤ un bacio grande tesoro mio [4/12/18, 01:20:19] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I miss you dearly and I just want you hear next to me now to be pampered and loved. I love you enough that I would go on a desert island with you for the rest of my life. When I am with you there’s no need for anything else. I can only see my self working towards our shared life. Un bacio grande love. Ti amo tesoro🐽🐒❤ [4/13/18, 01:11:28] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I want you badly here with my and I want to paper you so much when you are sick as tonight. I want to live my life with you and spend all the time I can with you under a roof of stars. Tonight we are again away from each other, however my heart and mind is always very close to you. There is no one else to me and nothing else beside our love that matters to me. Buona notte tesoro mio, sleep tight and have sweet dreams. You are my angel. Un bacione tesoro, always 🐽❤🐒 [4/14/18, 01:43:48] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you are everything to me. I can’t wait to build our house and family and live the dream I always hope to achieve. But besides all these conventional goals I want simply to stand by your side and being the one always holding your hand while our souls merge into one entity. I love you to the moon and back my only love. I think of us as the only safety in this world and I know together we can become something unique and very precious. Sleep tight and get some rest🐒❤🐽buona notte tesoro mio. Un bacio grande [4/15/18, 00:18:18] Captain P.: Buona notte amore mio, love of my life, there is no Dubai restriction that will ever see us defeated. We will always find a solution to make everything work no matter the distance, no matter the difficulties they try to put us through. I can’t wait to be in your new flat and sleep in your bedroom. I’m sure the new house will welcome you with a proper sleep tonight and the more time passes the more decoration and home atmosphere will be created in the flat. You are my princess and I always think of you pathead. Un bacio grande tesoro mio❤🐒🐽 you are my angel. Always [4/16/18, 02:00:51] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I had a lot of time to think about lots of things in these days in Georgia. Maybe I am suggested by the simple environment I found my self in right now, yet I think is everting but the opposite. In short, I think here I’m thinking more clearly about things because life is simple and understanding how lucky we are makes me fear how much I have to loose in my life. I came to the conclusion that the only thing I don’t ever want to loose is you because you are the most precious thing I have and not because at the moment I feel good with you but because I truly believe we will leave our life together. Living a life together isn’t certainly something easy and it isn’t also something people of our age in our generation decide usually. I think our generation might be loosing a lot of love because of the circumstances and I don’t care about the distance about the others. I care about you and I love you. You are my hope to a world where everything is possible. A world where the law of love rules. Un bacio grande tesoro mio, i can’t wait to be again with you very soon. Buona notte principessa. Always, ❤🐒🐽 [4/16/18, 07:56:46] YL: Morning precious love 🌹 [4/16/18, 23:20:39] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, You are like the first snow of the season. Every time I get excited like a kid and I will always be fascinated till the end. Your beautiful face and perfect skin. I miss you hairs mainly. But also you whispering to my ear and our legs crossing while sleeping. I cant wait to be there already and go eat some açai knowing that after we can just hug and smell each other skin. I love you so much that is hard to picture. I don’t want to live anyone else on this planet. Un bacio grande tesoro mio. Sleep tight principessa. Always,🐽🐒❤ [4/16/18, 23:35:39] YL: 💛 [4/18/18, 01:56:43] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I’m glad you’re having so much fun building and settling in your own new place. You deserved it and also need it. Can’t wait to be actually there and explore your room. You’ll be always me favourite flower and the crazy sex appeal I feel for you is never over. I wish you were here as every night. I’ll never be tired of saying how happy I’ll be when we will be living together, starting our own gated life. Un bacio grande tesoro mio. Drop by in my dreams for a kiss. Sleep tight principessa rap. Always ❤🐽🐒 [4/19/18, 01:29:10] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I miss yo soo much !! My day was class and editing thesis all day long! football was very nice and run a lot today so I feel much better now. I have here a new airbnb guest from milan studying at Christie's , he is a bit weird but calm. I hope you got the time to rest a bit and eat some good dinner my potato. I would really love to eat a nice acai bowl with you and sleep next to your fresh face. Soon enough this will be routine and in the mean time come and meet me in dreams where everything is allowed. Un bacio grande babe, sleep tight! you are my sputnik sweetheart. Buona notte principessa ❤ [4/21/18, 05:06:59] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, we’ve been running after each other and I can’t wait to see you face even if it still gonna be Skype. The fire I hold for you is strong. I understood that every minute I’m not with you it’s some time lost to be together that it will simply never come back. That’s why the soonest I want to make sure no time will be wasted in not being together. There is still a long way towards a shared life, yet I think I will never get enough and I must use all the time I have with you. I hope you had fun and that you’re sleeping sweat dreams. See you there now that I join the night as well. Buona notte mio amore. Send you all my love in a night that I would like more than ever to have you next to me. Un bacio principessa. Always, ❤🐒🐽

[4/22/18, 03:37:29] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, in this type of nights you are the only princess I want to take care of. I don’t want to party with anyone else more than you and I will always be willing to be anywhere in your company. I feel like I couldn’t get closer to anyone as much as you because our way of living love is something I never experienced before. I always just want the best for the being I care the most in this planet and you are the happiness I look for. Un grande bacio tesoro mio, sleep tight and be serene. Buona notte patata mia, the best for us il all about to happen. Always, ❤🐒🐽

[4/23/18, 01:05:38] Captain P.: Dear love of my life you remain and always be my only princess. I look at you and I see the woman I want to spend all my time with. There is no one else’s into my eyes and thoughts. Please be careful and eat properly I need you to be around for long and healthy. Soon you’ll be back in Taipei and the happiness will be over the ceiling. So happy and excited for you my love. Sleep tight and please come over to meet me inside, inside my dreams. Un bacio grande tesoro mio. Buona notte principessa❤🐒🐽 [4/24/18, 03:02:37] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you can’t imagine how happy am I to see you in only 9 days. I’m also excited for you going back to taipei! I want full reportage of food. Can’t wait to go to din tai fun as soon as in Dubai. You made me discover new colours in this world, a new dimension and set of possibilities at my reach. For this I will always be grateful and ready to read bed night stories for you. I’m thrilled every time I receive a message or that I talk to you. I’m simply still so much in love with you that I can nearly not put it in words. How crazy is the world of love. Let’s please never exit it and make it our shared house instead, forever. Buona notte amore mio, sleep tight and drive safe tomorrow if you’ll go to the fair by car. Un bacio grande tesoro. Come and see me in the dreams bocca d’orata.🐽🐒❤ [4/25/18, 01:39:16] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I miss you dearly, it is homesickness that is smoking down deep into my bones. It’s hard to not have you around always. Also, reading the little prince is actually very thought provoking becuase it speaks about what we value in life and honestly what we should be valuing as number one thing is love. My love for you is an infinite flame, Something that will last forever. I cannot think of someone that I know which is sharing my same craziness for a being, however there is no scale in love. There are no matrix nor figures. What matters is what you feel inside and when I see you my heart gets bigger, my brain wider and my willingness to provide you with anything you’d be needing is endless. I would do anything my love. I can’t wait to see you again, and I wish we will be this in love for ever After. I’m Ready for a Life of bednight sotirez and love notes even when next To you. I’ll never get tired. It is so exciting to think of growing old together. Un bacio grande love of my life, Sleep tight my only principessa❤🐒🐽 [4/26/18, 02:42:05] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, tonight there is no bed night stories and we couldn’t call but I still want you to know you complete me. You make up my mistakes and help me be a loving being. You are the closest thing to family I ever had. Beside blood, I believe family is people in your life who want you in theirs. The thing is that I will always be willing to keep you in mine because my love for you is forever. Than later on, gianmarco or Lila might even mix up our genes but for us is a choice. For us willl be choosing the soul of the other every single day. When I’m not with you there is silence and brooding in my heart, instead with you around colors get brighter, food taste better and time isn’t an issue. Everything is following the wave of enthusiasm without stressing our human limits. With you I’m infinite, and with you I live forever in the energetic power of love. You’re travelling back home, to the country that got my heart stolen setting a milestone in the history of our love journey. I will never forget the heart beats and strong emotions I felt on that island. I hope you have a great time and also relax, eat well and feel loved. Un bacio grande patata mia🐽🐒❤ I think of you all the time and stage safe, text me when you land. Buon viaggio principessa. [4/27/18, 09:06:31] Captain P.: Dear my potatohead, today is not going to be a night love night but a daily one. You are the sweet taste of strawberries in a sad day. You are the pervasive smell of coffe in a cold and frosty morning. On me you have the same effect of a perpetual safe paradise where to hide no matter if outside is sunny or windy. In other words, the refugee of love we created with such a hardship is unique and can’t be broken by some stupid misunderstanding. I do not see a world without you. It’s too long i imagine my future next to you. Next week this time we will be having breakfast together and my happiness in thinking about this is transmuting my lips into a nice smile. That’s love, the smile printed on the face whenever I think of you. Un bacio grande patatozza mia. Enjoy home, friends, food and mommy. [4/28/18, 03:32:54] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, we live apart however you are the only being I want stay and spend my life with you forever. I really hope you’re having all the fun possible at the amazing wedding you are at. One day we will have something similar but much better becuase we are so special that anything we do together becomes the best thing in the entire world. With you I have no boundaries. With you my soul is flying above any level. Let’s never let someone stop this love vibe we manage to preserve. I love you from the bottom of my heart Golden Mounth. Please stay healthy and allow me to be next to you for the remaining time on this planet.🐽🐒❤ 4/30/18, 01:28:11] Captain P.: Dear love, sometimes people tell me we are crazy. Sometimes people don’t understand why we are loyal to each other even if thousands of kilometres and different communities separates us. These days I thought a lot about why people in general are so hopeless towards love. Mostly they don’t have the courage to make extraordinary things happen. In our story, honestly, extraordinary events seems ordinary. We are so well tuned, so perfectly in harmony that travelling to Dubai became to me a quick bus transfer and being on Skype my favourite hobby. No one understands the preciousness of this type of love till they experience it. And even so, each love is different and the perceptions differs by the being due to the past experiences. All these thoughts just to say that I am eager to pursue the amazing path of life with your companionship. With you I feel complete and most importantly your kind soul nurture my heart with love. Anyways apparently you don’t need the original copy of the birth certificate. You need a copy and the translation if in a foreign language. I think getting married in Holland might be a good idea because seems so easy and since I’m going to be resident there we will have the right to do so. Anyway take a copy of birth certificate and get a photo of the original. Besides that we do not need anything else. Un bacio grande my love. Sleep tight and soon we will be together. Buona notte amore mio🐒🐽❤

[5/1/18, 00:23:27] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you’re up in the air but hear on the ground I think of you with a warm heart. Thanks the forces of the universe we decided to open our souls to each other with no fear of being rejected. Lovers have to be courageous. Tonight I was scrolling in my camera roll and I got back till taipei and I found a lot of funny things I completely for got. For instance I have an amazing Live Photo if you shooting darts to a target while we drink beer. The way you celebrate beating me is amazing. You’re truly happy of smashing me down and winning the match against me. That passion in doing something apparently silly makes me so happy and I can’t look at that picture without feeling homesick. Without thinking of that trip as the best travel I ever decided to do. I missed you so much these days and I can’t wait to see you my love. Few days and we will be back in our usual team. I can’t wait to see your beautiful face and sleep next to it. I’m always excited as the first time, always nervous on the plane as the first time I visited you. I’m so glad you saw your mum and your friends. Ti bacio tanto principessa mia. Be safe and treat your self well after the long trip. Soon I’ll be there to pamper you. Buona notte amore❤🐒🐽 [5/2/18, 01:14:08] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, how can I even start writing my love note tonight with this background picture..? I can wait to see you, to have you. I miss you deeply. I want to spend time chatting and being stupid. I’m so glad I’ll be there for two weekends. Actually if I think about it I’m already pissed at leaving that soon. Anyways.. I’m so happy to see you in 48h! Tomorrow I’ll be done with all my three essays and submit them so that I can only concentrate on thesis while in Dubai. Let’s go to the great mosque and also do something special for your birthday. I love you patata. Buona notte tesoro, sleep tight and visit me in my dreams🐒❤🐽 [5/3/18, 03:41:24] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I just closed my suitcase. I’m ready again to come and meet you. We have one of the most Italian suitcase ever- plenty of food. Anyway I can’t keep the blood running fast under my skin for the happiness I’ll feel tomorrow when seeing you. There is nothing in this world more important than you for me. Oh how happy I’ll be when I will be finally putting my hands into your hairs again. We have a lot of nights ahead to chit chat under the blankets and watch movies together. Un bacio grande love of my life. See you very soon princess❤🐒🐽 [5/22/18, 21:55:06] Captain P.: I just want to let you know that I feel very sad about how badly our conversation yesterday ended. I’m sorry...there is not much to say regarding the miscommunication and the misunderstandings. I would only like you to know that I care about what you think and feel. I’m so sorry this hurt you so much and I wish I could be there to hug you and make you understand how I feel on my side. Please don’t feel left behind because I was genuinely driven by the wave of enthusiasm. It was not in my intention to hurt you, mom nor being disrespectful to the ones I love. I also wish we can soon come to a shared understanding of the situation. Again, I apologise for giving you such a hard time yesterday.. that was certainly not healthy and I hope you are alright and It never happened that way. Talk soon.. [5/29/18, 03:55:36] Captain P.: Im boarding babe! I love you deeply my one and only.

Ps: very interesting thing happened.. I was sitting next to a guy and we talked because of a change of gate and he asked me where I was from and than me too.. we ended up talking a lot about many things. Look at his business card and also he is from Amsterdam [5/30/18, 03:22:33] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, here we go again with the old good love notes in which I try to jot down the colours of my heart. It is honestly really weird not to have you next to me or not to find your hairs today into my hands. There are a lot of gestures and sounds that I got used to in these two weeks that I’m missing. I felt in love with those habits and routine actions. I miss you a lot my potatoesss. Anyway tomorrow I’m sure you’ll get the finances sorted and all the payments will be set at the right time. Call the back and get the driving instalments sorters first and than credit card. Just leave internet last if javad wants to talk I don’t think they’ll cut it. I want to Skype you they can’t cut it. Wish you were here with me, cherishing a bit of Swiss breeze . Only thinking of when I’ll be with you again. Un bacio grande love. Sleep tight and come into my dreams. ❤🐒🐽 buona notte tesoro mio. [5/31/18, 03:19:49] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I miss you with al my heart and no matter all the people I have around at any time the only one I’m willing to have around is you. I’m Only waiting to go to on a roadtrip and being free in the world with my princess. Everything has a meaning, everything is worth the energy. I like you even if you like th ghetto Italian trash music and even if after a while I get to like them as well. Un bacio grande mio grande amore sleep tight🐽🐒❤ buona notte tesoro [5/31/18, 05:20:51] Captain P.: Baby woke up again, where are your hairs and nice ass!!?? [5/31/18, 05:20:56] Captain P.: I miss you my love [6/1/18, 03:21:56] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, we should reflect why we are so beautiful. I was thinking about the beauty of our relationship. Honestly I think it’s incredible what love made us develop and how nice all these months with you have been. I think there are two main characteristic of our strength. First one is the imperfection. We have the beauty of those imperfect things that looks cuter and inspirational. We are far, we are crazy and exuberant many times. The second focal point is time. Time always provides a special overtone, the strength of a long lasting relationship for instance. In other words, we are beautiful because we are young, inconsiderate and full of passion. Please let’s never loose this incredible energy and let’s make our mistakes precious. What happened with your sister and man can become a golden scarf in our amazing relationship we can turn it into an inconsiderate action which make us grow as two beings that love each other [6/1/18, 03:24:44] Captain P.: And we will be going deeper in our relationship exploring lots of new worlds. I wish you were here as always amore mio. Buona notte stellina🐒❤🐽ti bacio tanto [6/2/18, 04:03:02] Captain P.: Sometimes distance makes everything faded. I wish I was there to hug you and make you feel my affection. I just want your smile and happiness my poatossss. I miss you crazily my love.  I always think of you and ou and see you everywhere. You are a present strong image in my mind and dreams and I feel I don’t ever want this to stop. Wherever you are and however you feel remember there is always me somewhere loving you. Un bacio grande mio tesoro. Buona notte 🐽🐒❤

[6/3/18, 01:45:57] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, since I met you my life went from negative to positive. Can’t wait to have you again into my arms and crawl with you in a bed. We shaped each other in this year and a half and I really look forward everything that is yet to come. I know there is happiness ahead. I dream of our roadtrip in Lebanon but I also know for me I roadtrip my heart everyday with you. Buona notte amore mio, sleep well and rock your week. Let me know how licenze is going . I miss you darling. Un bacio tesoro ❤🐒🐽 ‎[ [6/4/18, 01:06:44] Captain P.: Good night love of my life, today I had and amazing day heading in strong winds in the morning and sailing really tight next to the mountain. I feel already getting better and hopefully soon I’ll be a decent skipper [6/4/18, 01:06:45] Captain P.: How was iftar? Did you bring javad? [6/4/18, 01:06:46] Captain P.: After that I helped working at some improvements of the boat and visited both grandmas. Than we had a last joint dinner with brother mother and dad and tomorrow we are all leaving at 4 am. My brother has a plane at 6 and my train is at 5:45 from Verona! I hope you had a nice night and I wish I was there eating hummus with you honey [6/4/18, 01:06:46] Captain P.: Sleep well my only princess. I miss everything about you and nothing or anyone will ever be able to replace your warmth in my heart. Un bacio grande tesoro. I love you🐒🐽❤ come visit me in my dreams. Buona notte stellina [6/5/18, 08:48:34] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, the realty is that this life without you next to loses a good 70% of its meaning. I m much more happier when you are with me and I am also a better person and my soul is properly fed by our love. I miss you deeply and I hate not being there pampering you and talking to you closely. What I also can’t accept is the fact of not waking up next to you and seeing your sleeping lips and just waken up hairs in that messy beauty after a night together. I can’t wait to be road tripping, to have some time to be out in the nature and enjoy the world with you. I’m so strongly in love that thinking of you going anywhere without me masked me feel bad becuase I wish there wouldn’t be any non shared experience anymore on our path. I love you with all my heart Golden Mounth. Un bacio grande tesoro. Sleep well and visit me in my dreams so that you can bring the colours my real life without you these days is missing. Buona notte patata❤🐒🐽 always [6/6/18, 02:34:05] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, everyday I miss you more. My love flame is burning intensively after those weeks with you always around my love. I think about you all the time and if I dream about anything you are there with me. I miss you talking funny and making my day happy with easy smiles. When you smile I am happy as well. I’m proud of you pat and you are my angel. I wish I could sneak with you under your blanckets, sleeping together again. I look at life and time with a printed smile on my face since I met you. Un bacio grande tesoro mio. Sleep well and have sweet dreams. Buona notte patata❤🐒🐽 [6/7/18, 02:39:50] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I’ve been searching Croatian Islands ever since I’m back from soccer and there are actually some intact beaches and marvellous views. People call them the Maldives of the Mediterranean Sea and I have to admit looks nice even compared to Sardinia or Canary Islands. Distance wise we can even drive there from Milan is not to bad as a road trip and we can stop by Trieste which is a nice city as well. Either this or Lebanon what matters is to be together and I’m sure I will discover the beauty of any country thanks to you. Did you survive the fire alarm rotten tomato? I can’t afford to loose you at that age please, a lot of pompinos are still ahead us. Stay safe potatohead.  Babe I miss you so much and I just wish distance could shrink at least at night to hug and wisper to each other under the blanckets. I can’t wait to see you soon and laugh again with the same fulfilment and joyful life. These days I just wish you could be here in geneve, going to the river and being together in the goodbye period in Switzerland. Un bacio grande tesoro, go rock last working day and visit me in my dreams. I always think of you my sweet potato: buona notte tesoro mio🐽🐒❤ with all my love. [6/8/18, 03:19:47] Captain P.: Goodnight love of my life, as I always say I am a better person when I am with you becuase we help each other seeing things differently. We can talk about love, life, dreams and happiness. This shows how deep we can dive into each others soul and I do not want to explore the caves of my mind with anyone else. There is no one else for me and you’ll always be my one and only. I love you more than how much I love my self. I believe this is the ultimate stage of love, if there is any ultimate stage it’s self. I hope we can find other stages and never stop exploring this life together. Un bacio grande mia principessa. Ti bacio tanto pat❤🐒🐽 [6/9/18, 02:13:51] Captain P.: Dear love of my life I miss you dearly and my love for you is strong as always. I never thought life could be so beautiful. I never thought it could be possible to love someone unconditionally and with consistency ! Good luck my potatoz tomorrow, brake a leg. I will think of you as always. I can’t wait to see you next to me travelling to any country trying to make our realty beautiful. Living this life with you it’s just so much better. Un bacio grande amore mio. Buona notte stellina cara, you my princess❤🐒🐽 [6/10/18, 01:55:31] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, everyday I live it as if we are one day closer to the joyful day when we will simply talk to each other from the other side of the bed. Every single night. I wish I could snuggle into your bed now and sleep with you before this small challenge I have tomorrow. Having you next to me gives me all the power I need to face anything. I can’t wait to be with you again, no matter where or in which facility I know our love is enough to make me happy, and fulfil all my needs. Im grateful to have you and to be able to love you intensively. Un bacio grande mio amore. Im profound of my pat getting a license and earning it all bit by bit on its own in the difficult world of adulthood. You are a miracle and I’m glad to be part of it. Buona notte stellina🐒❤🐽 [6/11/18, 02:34:04] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, today is just one of those days where freedom has a better taste, however throughout the entire day I was thinking how everything would have been just so much better if you were there. There is no freedom and there is no full happiness if you are not there with me. This level of love is the passion I want to feel everyday for the rest of my life. I love you so much my patata. I miss you dearly my love🐒❤🐽 [6/11/18, 02:38:22] Captain P.: Buona notte tesoro mio, sleep tight! Un bacio grande

[6/12/18, 03:50:16] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I hope you’re sleeping happily and smoothly. Tomorrow I want to know everything about the car classes and I really need to see you face and listen to my princess voice. This days I miss you with all my heart because I just wish you were here able to enjoy with me this sort of free vibe I have after graduation. Even if the pathos is disappearing already I really wish I could share it with you. With my one and only love. I m think I g of you all the time and I really want to spend the rest of my free time in the next months the most I can with you. Soon is time to book our flights and any adventure with you will be the only thing I’m looking at with all my heart full of passion. Un bacio grande tesoro mio🐽🐒❤ I wish we could have breakfast together tomorrow and take you to work. Buona notte stella. 🐽🐽 [6/13/18, 02:05:07] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I really wish we could be together tomorrow just for the sake of showing everyone how beautiful is the woman I luckily found on my path. That second of December and your graduation simply kickstarted the story of my life and hopefully of our shared life. After a year and a half is my turn to walk the show and I will do it thinking of you all the time. Be safe in Dubai, I can’t afford to loose you. Pathead you mean everything to me. You are simply my best friend, favourite person and sexual passion. Let’s never stop loving each other and striving for mutual wellbeing. Un bacio grande tesoro mio, sleep tight. Buona notte stella❤🐒🐽always [6/15/18, 04:27:21] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, Patata mia, my phone went off at the beginning of the concert! A lot of people, crazy dance and really physically demanding ! The band was giving it all and weather was gentle with us. Sunny yet not to hot. Really nice event day but tooo tired to even think clearly. I wish you were here with me tonight. I’m sleeping in a round bed, kind of weird. How was your night? Were did you end up? We can talk tomorrow patata mia. You are the best at helping me, and I’m just so lazy these days after graduation. I need to have a look at it properly. I love you deeply [6/16/18, 04:18:55] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, as every night I wish you were here to share with you the lights of Florence by night. I deeply need to travel with you and smell your skin again. I miss you with all my body, soul and mind. I can’t live my life without you in it and I want to share the best moments and vibes only with you. The truth is that I even miss our skypecalls and our chats and discussion. I miss you [6/16/18, 04:36:29] Captain P.: Un bacio grande tesoro mio❤🐒🐽i send you all

[6/17/18, 04:15:47] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I was born to be with you in this space and time, my one and only source of happiness. I can try anything on this earth yet I’m bound to you. I didn't have a chance of not following in love with you. This is magnificent. Loving the marvellous power of fate. I know being far away is hard but I’m missing you more than ever and I can't wait to see your lovable face next to mine on the road soon. Tomorrow last concert. I wish you were here with me raising the glass and eating fine. Un bacio grande mio amore, sleep tight and dream of us❤🐽🐒buona notte patata!! Always [6/18/18, 03:37:04] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I think of you a lot every single day. I see your eyes everywhere and I want to hug you badly. Last concert was cool and the team is loosing two members tomorrow morning ! We will have sometime to visit the city tomorrow! I hope the days are passing by sweetly for you because I can’t wait to be back with you hunting for food and talking about us!! Un bacio grande tesoro mio [6/18/18, 03:40:49] Captain P.: Living this time on the planet thinking about you is something I will never get used enough to be bored. You give me this sweet hope that keeps me alive while burning all my energies. I really hate the distance and the inability of just seeing each other regularly, however I wouldn’t give up on us for anything in this world!! [6/18/18, 03:56:23] Captain P.: Sweet dreams potatohead🐒❤🐽 I muss you always [6/19/18, 01:35:49] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I feel with you things will just get better and better as the years roll on. This life it’s such a precious gift and it goes by so quick.. I don’t want to wait more than required to start living together. I want to be living under the same roof as soon as possible. The thing is that I never get enough of you and I can’t deal with not having you next to me. I miss you so much and I need to hear your voice much more often. How I wish you could appear here now, knock on my bedroom door and see your shiny eyes and than touch your silky skin. Babe I want to have a nice dinner and discover everything with you. I can’t wait to see the one I love as soon as possible. Ti bacio tanto patata mia, I hope I will see you in my dreams. Buona notte tesoro🐽🐒❤ [6/20/18, 02:58:11] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I can’t stop thinking of us cruising the world, road tripping the entire globe. I already see ya projected in the hot south of Italy eating fresh mozzarella and drinking bitter coffe at the bar desk! I can’t wait to see you again, to touch your body and having you from behind. I’m so madly in love with you.. you have no idea. I don’t want this feeling ever to stop. Un bacio grande patatozza. Buona notte tesoro mio. Sleep tight and join me in the world of dreams tonight. I send you all my love🐒🐽❤

[6/21/18, 01:46:49] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I don’t ever wanna loose you nor grow apart. I just love the way we are, how we argue and how we end up into our conversation. Right now the only thing I want to do is to be there to eat you all in one bite and sleep next to you smelling your fresh skin. I’m so jealous of fat teddy.. he doesn’t deserve that. I can’t wait to be again together and simply being able to talk about things again and face to face eating at nice restaurants again. I miss DTF and the matcha deserts as well. I don’t see anything in this world I would like if it wasn’t for your beautiful aura to shred light on it. Buona notte patata mia.. oh how I wish you were here. Un bacio grande principessa❤🐒🐽 [6/22/18, 01:18:23] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I hope you’re safe and sound!! I miss you dearly. I also hope you’re having fun. I only want the best for you and I want to be part of you life forever. I want you to be into my life forever. I’m driving to geneve tomorrow morning leaving at 4 am. Tomorrow I have a meeting worth altus in the afternoon and than Matteo will also arrive by plane. Last weekend in geneve, probably for ever. I hope one day we will go back to Switzerland for some senior position or just as rich tourists!! In life everything is so crazy and we do not know what can happen. I just want to see you the soonest. I’m thinking about you all the time honey. Sleep well. I love you deeply. Un bacione amore mio! Buona notte tesoro❤🐽🐒 [6/23/18, 04:27:24] Captain P.: Patata I met Rodrigo and his friends around because Switzerland won the match at the worlds cup tonight [6/23/18, 04:35:14] Captain P.: I’m just dead and in need of going home. I wish I could find you when entering my bed and smelling your skin. I miss you so much. In this world there is only one thing that matters to me and it’s your happiness. I can’t wait the day when we will actually enter a place that it’s ours. As I already said many times that will simply be the best day of my life . Buona notte tesoro mio🐒🐽❤ [6/23/18, 04:35:42] Captain P.: I love you every minute, come visit me in my dreams process [6/23/18, 04:35:49] Captain P.: Princess [6/23/18, 11:20:31] YL: Hi [6/24/18, 05:15:54] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I miss you as always.. I had a stupid long day but I managed to bring the car to an open garage to get it fixed but Land Rover is closed till Monday morning. The thing is that we have free insurance cover in Italy so I think I might go back with just an easy solution!! Will see Monday I guesss. I wish you were here with me as always.. I can’t sleep properly without you. [6/24/18, 05:20:17] Captain P.: It’s hard to sleep alone after you sleep with someone for a while. I m dreaming about a roadtrip with you that never ends🐽🐒❤ [6/25/18, 03:15:24] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, tonight is the last nuit in the ville of Geneve!! I wish you were here pretty girl as abdullah’s sings in the song. You’re always my first thought and everywhere I look I see you beautiful presence. Soon we are going to be cruising the south of Italy together and that’s the dream that keeps my vanes floating with blood!!  Ti bacio tanto chica mia, tomorrow long drive for me with a broken window 🐽🐒❤ I hope you’ll visit me in my dreams. Sleep well my love. Buona notte principessa mia! [6/25/18, 07:50:39] YL: 🌹 [6/26/18, 00:56:57] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I know you’ll be visiting me tonight in my dreams. I want to sleep now so that I can meet you. I really need to see you very soon. Not becuase my love needs to see you in order to stay strong but because I’m honestly miss you to the point that I don’t care about anything around me besides thinking about the date we will meet in Rome. I can’t wait to see your face again and hear your voice close to my neck while I gently pass my fingers into your silky hairs. I want to book all the hotels and Airbnbs next days so that we are all good to go. Today is one of those days where I actually drove and did a lot of things but still I just received tons of insults form everywhere and tomorrow I will be working at the mountain house cutting grass and emptying the garage. I miss you dearly my potatohead. Can’t wait you to have the license so next time in Dubai I can just go out and drink while you drive us back home ahah! Buona notte tesoro mio, you are my best friend, sex symbol and only passion. Ti bacio tutta mia principessa❤🐒🐽 [6/26/18, 00:57:32] Captain P.: Ps: you look a bit like an Egyptian mummy [6/26/18, 00:57:43] Captain P.: A beautiful Egyptian mummy I mean [6/27/18, 01:30:00] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, as every day you are the last thing I think about because of this daily ritual of love notes. However you are also the first thing I think of and the amount of times during the day that I see you in my actions never decreases. Tonight is party night in trento.. there are fireworks everywhere and no sleeping night. The issue is that I don’t have next to me the person I love to share all this beauty. Egoistically speaking I thank the universe for bumping into you because otherwise I would have lost the opppotuinty of such strong, beautiful. I might have not loved this much in my life and this is also something that makes it great/m. In other words I fell so lucky to be next to you my potatohead. Sleep well and meet me in our deep dreams. I can’t wait to see you very soon my pot! Buona notte amore mio, un bacio grande tesoro. 🐽🐒❤ [6/28/18, 03:19:08] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, there isn’t a single day that I don’t think how life is amazing when you are around. I kind of can’t cope anymore with not being next to you. Thanks god soon we will be together again. I’m dying for touching your hairs and kissing your ears knowing that lots of days are there for us to be one entity again. I miss you deeply. I m leaving thinking of how we can have a shared life, house and time till the end of our time together. With you everything is just so much better, full of colours, food and happiness. I wish you were here in my bed sharing the same moon and stars. Buona notte amore mio. I love you with all my heart. Un bacio grande tesoro❤🐒🐽 [6/29/18, 11:16:27] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, the way I miss you can’t be explained with words. I had a pizza for dinner and I bumped into edo and Charlie at the pizzeria and stayed with them. Edo is really crazy and living on his planet with a life on the edge of betting and drugs problems. Anyway will tell you tomorrow about his latest craziness. I wish you were here with me as always, in this comfortable bed playing with you legs into mine. I can’t wait to have you aside again. The need of kissing your eyes and touching your hairs is in my mind stronger than ever. Un bacio grande tesoro mio, I miss you dearly. Buona notte patatozza mia 🐽❤🐒 [6/30/18, 02:25:02] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I’m so happy and intrigued by the trip we ended up shaping. I can only count the days before some happy shared vacations!! I miss you profoundly every day and what I miss the most is to work for seeing a smile on that face. Looking at you smiling feeds my soul. Discovering the beauty of this life and world with you is the one thing keeping me thirsty of living. You are the source of my happiness. I love you. Un bacio grande patataz!🐽❤🐒come visit me in my dreams. Ps:Tomorrow I will be going at the lake and maybe go out a couple of hours with the boat. [7/2/18, 08:39:48] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I wish I could materialise there and prepare nice breakfast for you today before this stupid exam. I also wish you could be here with me all the time and cherish this world at the same longitude and latitude. I wish things were different and I can’t wait The dreamed day when we will live under our own roof. I love you desperately and there is no one I want to have aside beside you. You are my angel pathead [7/2/18, 08:40:44] Captain P.: Last night my phone went off and I didn’t have the charger because sleepy mum was using it. I’m having breakfast now and going to the boat to catch some Strong morning wind hopefully [7/2/18, 08:41:31] Captain P.: I wish you best of Luck with those Assholes !! I’m sure you’ll Rock!!! Tanti bAci per la [7/4/18, 00:34:30] Captain P.: Dear my sweet potato, I’m in love with you because you are a free spirit always bringing a bright aurea of love around you. You always find something interesting for us to think and speculate on. I can sees this glimpse of light that I’m so lucky to share everyday. I will always be yours and I think of you every moment. I can’t wait to wake up at night and find you next to me instead. I miss the time that I can just pull my arm and find you next to me breathing’s sleeping softly. Un bacio grande potatohead! Buona notte tesoro mio, ❤🐒🐽 have a great time acing your exam my potatohead. I love you [7/6/18, 01:17:03] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, as always I’m missing you like a lover misses the beloved one. I’m thinking of you all the time and I can’t wait to see you again. I have this feeling that i would drive till Dubai nostop just to come and ring at your bell and destroy your door and get into your room [7/6/18, 01:20:02] Captain P.: I miss you deeply my patata and your papaya as well.. I hope you’re having fun and that life is being gentle with you. I m thrilled for the day when everyday we will be sharing some time together, I miss having you around all the time. Un bacio grande mia patatozza [7/6/18, 01:20:47] Captain P.: Buona notte amore mio🐽🐒❤ have fun and stay safe [7/7/18, 03:16:01] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I can change place, bed and company but I will always be missing you like water in the desert. Every beauty I see around I wish I could share it with you and dream about it with you my only love. Here at Matteo’s food is good and weather is chilly but really good for Sleeping. His friends are funny and everything is fine, only you missing. Buona notte patatozza mia. I live waiting the moment I can hug you again and feel my soul aside me again. Un bacio grande tesoro. Sleep well and visit me in my dreams sweatheart. With love❤🐒🐽 [7/8/18, 04:17:27] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, i want to eat all the possible different dishes we are going to find around our trip. I could go anywhere, yet I would never cherish any moments if you are not there next to me. I miss you everyday and each day the fever to see you increases drastically!! I feel the same vibe as before taiwan or after Mauritius.. the feeling might be less unpredictable but the fierce of homesickness is the same and I wish I could see you tonight. Un bacio grande patata mia, master your exam! I’m sure it’s going to be an easy one. Come visit me in my dreams. The magic with you never ends and the fire if love I hold for you won’t ever extinguish. Buona notte tesoro🐒🐽❤ [7/9/18, 02:10:21] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, it’s crazy how from today we can finally say “see you next week” this is music to my ears. This is the kind of hope that keeps me breathing and wishing for a long shared life. Without you everything is meaningless and I wouldn’t even be here probably. I miss you profoundly in every single minute. There is no day that passes without me being crazily in love with you and I think god you all the time. Also I’m happy for your license, so proud to see you mastering all your things smoothly and being strong and independent. I love you my patata, let’s never grow apart or let stupid distance disrupt our relationship. Love is more than that. Buona notte amore mio🐽🐒❤un bacio grande tesoro. [7/10/18, 01:30:56] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, during this year and a half of relationship I might have understood a bit better what is love. I came to the conclusion love is about rewinding your priorities for the other and also to Listen more what the other have to say. I always wish the best for you. I can only think of good and new treatments for you. I want you to be happy and serene and healthy more than what I would Want for my self. With you aside I’m much stronger and ready to work towards any goal. You are my strength, Home and love. I can’t wait to visit museums, eat good food and stay at the seaside with my princess. I’m not even sure this is really about to start. My summer is waiting that joyful day of holiday when I’ll be hugging you in Aureliano’s city. Un bacio grande patata mia, I love you. Buona notte tesoro!!! Visit Me in my dreams❤🐒🐽 [7/11/18, 01:55:30] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, soon we will both be packing for The dreamed adventure, however what I’m really looking for is the journey in our souls. I want always to be the one close to your beautiful soul and nurture my mind with your bright atmosphere. I can’t wait to see you, hug you and hold your hand in mine again. You are my one and only love. The princess I want always to spend my time with and the only sentient being capable of making me feel alive, happily alive. If I was asked what is worth living for I would say it is worth for the love, the love I feel for you. Un bacio grande patatozza mia. I love you with all my heart. Buona notte tesoro❤🐒🐽 [7/12/18, 01:53:15] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I said a lot about us, the future and the wishes. Today I simply want to remember once again how I felt in Paris. Oh Paris in that winter has been something unbelievable. I’ve never been so alive in my entire life. I’ve never been so full of love in my existence. Those days were fed with passion, love and kindness. Anyway even now every time I’m with you I can be as happy and feel the strength of love running fast trough my vanes. Let’s never let something stop us from feeling such a strong emotion. My head is always spinning with you and I never want to stop flying. I love you patata mia. Un bacio grande tesoro. Buona notte principessa. Visit me in my deepest dreams. 🐒🐽❤ [7/14/18, 02:56:54] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you are my primary thought and my only soul fodder. I miss you dearly, however the fact that we will be soon hugging eachother again is something providing me a crazy amount of strength. I would like to be in a tropical forest on top of a try in a nice tent with you just chilling talking shit and looking at the moon. Oh what does the moon do everyday up there? I wonder that sometimes and I think I believe it’s a bit like us. I am now your moon while you sleep I think about you and dream about you and you actually live inside me. Anyway, good night my princess, sooner than we think we will be eating matriciana with Aureliano. Un bacio grande patatozza mia. I love you. 🐒❤🐽 [8/13/18, 08:32:25] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, here we go again, another trip together and another goodbye. I’m reading your very first love note and my heart is bumping and my eyes shiny. I feel the same love, passion, thrill and drive as the very first day. No matter what, the way you make me feel will always be the only thing I look for in life. There are no career goals, academic accomplishments, or whatever success is simply vane without you by my side. I will work to have you next to me as soon as possible because every night without you is a loss which I’ll never forgive to this life. I’m now boarding and ready to fly. See you soon love of my life. Stay safe and strong. I’ll stay hungry and foolish as always about us. Ti amo. Bacio patatahead. Will text when in milan [8/15/18, 00:53:31] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I really hate not sleeping with you and especially not being John lennoning on you as always. I miss you so much and especially all the small little things we became used to in our routine. I’m just so glad Holland is giving us this incredible opportunity and I can’t wait that to become a realty. Me and you living together in our very first room or house is something that excites me so much. I’m sure we will be having an amazing life and I just want to decorate everything and live in beauty with you. I honey if you knew how much I wish you were here with me dreaming about this.. anyways.. this hope is the fire that gets me going and I know by experience we fear nothing and nothing can be between us. We are strong enough to make this happen smoothly. I love you principessa🐽🐒❤buona notte amore mio. Sleep tight and come visit me in my dreams. Un bacio tesoro [8/16/18, 00:43:47] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I'm so glad you're my little girl and I'm telling about you to all the world. I hope your sweet heart is still the same as the Sputnik one.. the very first love story we ever embed in our imaginary. Do you remember? Who would have imagine we would have gone so far.. The days with you are always a dream and the adventures are never enough. I found it funny how we always manage to have something to say to eachother how I would never be bored with you aside. It’s incredible to me. In these months I learned some tips about love with you and I think there are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. Thank you for being my balance, to make me push to the limit. I love so much Pathead. We are the proof that, in the end the love you take is equal to the love you make. I came to Taipei and than a circular love started to boost in our heart that we are still witnessing the power.  I can’t wait to be together in Holland starting this new crazy chapter. Just another one for many more to come. Good luck tomorrow at work pat. You’ll be amazing as always. Un bacio grande my love🐒 you are my princess bocca d'orata. 🐽❤ [8/17/18, 01:19:09] Captain P.: Love of my life, as usual I would only love to be with you and rather be anywhere else. We just finished loading everything. It has been a hell of a long day and now all is done and almost ready to go. I can’t wait for you to be in Holland with me chersing alll the time. I miss you dearly and I dream of your silky hair floating in my hands even if you now hate that habit my lovely Pathead: un bacio grande. Sleep tight and come visit me In my dreams. I love you honey🐽🐒❤ [8/17/18, 08:53:44] Captain P.: Pathead [8/17/18, 09:06:32] Captain P.: Oh you sleeping Pathead..what a Pathead How was last night love? I miss you crazily love. Did you decide something? [8/18/18, 04:39:11] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you are the only one I miss every time and in anyplace. Doesn’t matter if today I arrive in this city or any other one.. it will always be a deficit not to have you aside to feel nurtured by our incredible love. You make me feel in a way that no place or situation will ever make me feel: I think we are just so lucky. I feel I found a treasure with you and I never wanna let it go. You are my fire and only desire. I wish you were here cherishing this new begin and seeing the place where I’ll have to survive for the next months. I’m waiting for you to be here ASAP, to join me and see new places together. I love you deeply and always. Good night love, sleep tight and come visit me in my dreams. I hope I’ll see you tonight. Un bacio grande tesoro. Always, ❤🐒🐽 [8/19/18, 02:45:32] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I am sleeping without you once again and I really hate sleeping alone, without you. The vibes here are great but I miss my lady, My friend and princess! I would rather live with you than in this place. I think when you come I want to have a different place if this doesn’t work out properly. But anyways the thing is that I can’t wait for having you aside me everyday. Un bacio grande tesoro. I really wish you were here already❤🐒🐽I love you! Buona notte tesoro [8/20/18, 02:24:00] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I don’t know if you’ll be visiting or not but the only happiness I can think about right now is you and your sweet smile. I can’t wait to hug you.. as always and I wish you were here with me seeing how easy is to turn a shitty room in a nice place. I would need your entirior design skills now that the framework is finished. Please come and add some things. I miss you honey. The thing is that I don’t want to live without you. I think about you all the time. Un bacio grande bocca d’orata. Soon I’ll also add my posters.. so that we have a similar picture in our rooms. Tomorrow is long day in Amsterdam.. living at 7:30pm Wageningen [8/28/18, 01:18:56] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I hate this saparation of bodies. I don’t like being away from you. I’m watching a documentary on Palau Right now and of course I’m thinking about you. I want to go there with you. Anyways the point is that we need to live together soon becuase I don’t want to not live with you for much longer. As you are I am amazed about our relationship and love... no one, and I stress it., no one can understand how we feel. No one will ever know of all my trips, of the hours spent on a plane just to come and spend some time with you and the same works for you. I miss you so much love. We are for sure a miracle and making so much love around us. Ti amo molto, un bacio grande tesoro mio. Buona notte patata. I miss you so much my princess. Can’t wait to meet you in London alreay🐽❤🐒 [8/29/18, 03:02:30] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I love this world and life only becuase I can count on your smile, voice, soul and there is nothing else I am interested in. I don’t know what my life would be if I didn’t fell in love with you. I can’t wait to meet you in London and I only dream about our life, our home, our future. My patata you are everything. This love is giving me everyday the energy I need to push this existence over. I love you tesoro. I need to get you very soon in Holland and spend more time with the love of my life. Un bacio grande principessa mia. I dream of you now in my bed alone. Visit me in my dreams and talk me gently. Always yours ❤🐒🐽 [8/30/18, 00:11:48] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, here we go again going to bed on different mattresss !! Thanks god we will be living together soon becuase this situation has a deadline and we can dream about our shared life with a real attitude. I can’t wait and I can’t wait to go over all the steps and do mistakes and Argue and be happy all over again. Please stay away from that man JL becuase I can’t think about anyone touching you. I miss you deeply everyday and very millimillimilllimilli second my love. Un bacio grande tesoro. Sleep tight with teddies and come visit in my dreams❤🐒🐽 you are my light and my desire. Always [8/31/18, 03:10:50] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I love you to the infinite and I cannot wait for the time when we will be sharing all the time together. You’re my soulmate and my life partner. I am happy only when you’re there and of your smile I live. I love deeply and I’ll always will my patatahead. Un bacio grande and come visit me in my dreams please. Loads of love from the lake. Buona notte tesoro 🐒❤🐽 [9/1/18, 01:46:32] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I love you everyday as if it was the first one and I always keep the excitement as if it could be the last one. I can’t live without you and you are my entire world. I’m getting everyday more excited about the reality that soon we will be sleeping every single night onto the same mattress. I can’t wait that day to come and I’m so glad in 3 weeks ill be in London with you cherishing some good dining. I miss you deeply and I always think about you. Tonight after dinner dad did some green tea.. for us and nonna that you took. I love you honey. Thank you for being my princess. Un  bacio grande. Buona notte amore. Tomorrow I fly at 8 am. Have fun at the party [9/2/18, 04:05:27] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, another day without pathead as you say.. feels like I miss some parts of my body. I need you next to me all the time and I love when we can just have our days talking and living of one another. I finished painting my room, ha d a sandwich and chilled with the housemates [9/2/18, 04:07:22] Captain P.: Everything would me so much better if you’d be with me. But I don’t live in pain, I’m only dreaming how happpy I’ll be. I send you all my love sweetheart. Un bacio grande patata❤🐽🐒 [9/2/18, 22:48:17] YL: The thing is you are already smoking too much that you don’t care about me. I wish you would sleep in loneliness after a long day tonight and the rest of the week [9/2/18, 22:54:13] ‎You left [9/3/18, 01:41:07] ‎Captain P. added you [9/3/18, 13:33:04] Captain P.: Morning patatozza!! I miss you honey. Let’s talk later. Un bacione [9/3/18, 13:52:12] YL: I’m still upset [9/3/18, 13:52:23] YL: So I deleted my Instagram pat [9/3/18, 13:52:33] YL: Can you unblock yourself on my Instagram [9/3/18, 13:52:43] YL: You can log in via your phone [9/3/18, 13:52:45] YL: Thanks [9/3/18, 13:52:53] YL: Oh and I deactivated my Facebook [9/3/18, 13:52:58] YL: I was so upset pat [9/3/18, 13:53:01] YL: I still am [9/3/18, 13:53:05] YL: But I miss you a bit [9/3/18, 13:53:16] YL: And tonight I’m going out late for dinner [9/3/18, 14:02:13] Captain P.: Oh pat.. what a Pathead. I’m still so sad about it.. but I love you with all my heart. Will talk after dinner or when you can. I’m buying study books and getting bank account and I contacted the IND. [9/3/18, 14:02:30] Captain P.: Bacio pat [9/4/18, 02:03:03] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you cannot imagine what I feel when I see your smile. The sun enters in my body. I can predict the moments of your small laughter sometimes and I feel proud. You are everything and I wish we could be sharing all the time at our disposal together. I miss our routine. My Pathead, can’t wait to see you in London and also in my dreams tonight golden mouth. Un bacio grande tesoro! [9/4/18, 02:11:43] Captain P.: Waking up early tomorrow and see how’s real life her is. Sleep tight pat [9/5/18, 01:39:39] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, it’s always a strong emotion to hear your voice. I feel the butterflies flying in my stomach and everything feels less numb. Colours are vivid and light is strong. I miss you my potozzz so much. I would just love cuddling on my couch here with you and enjoying all the life together. I hope this will really become our shared dream becuase I donated my heart to you and you’ll always have it. I send you all my love and I can’t wait to go dining in London with you having a break from this hippie community. I love you immensely. Buona notte amore mio. Un bacio grande tesoro❤🐒🐽 [9/6/18, 03:16:29] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, tonight I miss you becuase I want your warm body next to me to feel the heartbeat of a lover. I miss touching your hairs and talking about our universe. Anyways I think I should just book an appointment and go to Rotterdam at tHe immigration office. Will see when they respond to the email. But that’s the best alternative. I want us just to be together the sooner. So at this looooong house meeting we basically decided to ask to change the floor (the current one really sucks) and the house-party date which il be the 9th of November ! They all seem like they are doing routing organising this things. I guess I can’t still really understand what’s going on here. Potato’s mia I can’t wait tohave you again in my arms and screw you gently. Un bacio grande tesoro mio. Buona notte pat 🐒❤🐽 [9/7/18, 03:39:40] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, sometimes I feel like you don’t understand how much I love you. I love you to the infinity my glacticos pat. You are my only dream and song of life [9/7/18, 03:39:40] Captain P.: I can’t think of anything if not you whenever I breath [9/7/18, 03:39:40] Captain P.: The thing is that you are the love of my life and there is nothing i want more than living my life with you my princess. The time walking the roads together and living the existence in the same contingency is such a luck. I wish only the best. Ti amo tanto patata mia. Sleep well and visit me in these crazy dreams🐒❤🐽 [9/8/18, 05:58:18] Captain P.: Dear patata, there is nothing I of how things are going. I love us and I think I’m so happy of having you aside me more than ever. You give me the happiness, the dose of sunshine I need right now. As always but more than always I would love to be there tonight, under bed sheets together. I miss you Pathead, oh how I miss the times when travelling together, packing unpacking and eating around. I wish that could be our lives. Don’t think about the nose so much pat, we will check it and it’s nothing really bad. We will manage to see what it is anyway. Buona notte amorrr mio❤🐽🐒i fall asleep thinking about golden mouth and the stories of us around the space. Dormi bene tesoro. Un bacio pat [9/9/18, 02:58:45] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you are the reason I like to live my life and for being on this planet. Without you I wouldn’t know my name, my means and my future. With you I always feel upper in a state of serenity of fluid existence of time. I will never love anyone else and I’m so eager to live this life together than I cannot wait to be done with this studies already. My sweet potato you are my angel and dream. I hope your nose will be better soon and that we can get our registered partnership sooner. Honey more than ever this first week made me understand how once again the only thing that matters is love and where your beloved ones are. We both live away from our main affections (family) and also apart one another. Let’s try to get at least the both of us together under one roof so that our hearts can finally be full everyday and our soul satisfied. Un bacio grande patata mia. Enjoy work as much as you can tomorrow and eat well my love. Buona notte tesoro. I love you with all my heart🐒❤🐽 [9/10/18, 00:35:16] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, the night that I met you already that day a spark of your light entered in my body and crack my love code. I’m so happy everyday to see your face and it always make me feel I just wanna love your soul. I’m so proud of our reality of the means we create to still manage to keep such a precious fragile love. Soon enough we will be able to nurture our heart directly by standing next to each other everyday honey. You are my source of happiness and pride. I feel lucky and alive thanks to you. Stay strong bunny tomorrow, then she’ll be gone and no witch will be there to stop you. Un bacio grande patata, i love you❤🐽🐒 [9/11/18, 01:14:39] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, the reason why breath lays in your heart. I am always in need of feeling satisfied by this love. It makes me feel much more alive and involved and capable of seeing colours I would have never seen. I’m happy we are still here together and planning other voyages!! I miss having you around and talking about anything and being any pile of shit. I miss us. Also I am happy about seeing you in London so soon. I can’t wait to hag you. We can officialy celebrate Phoenix  departure with a proper drink in few days. Be strong pat, and sleep tight. Un bacio grande tesoro. I always think about you and the moon when I fall asleep. Buona notte 🐒❤🐽 [9/14/18, 11:20:56] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I’m feeling homesick. I feel like I could die because my other half is not here with me. I think since you came Visit me in trentino again my love became bigger, if this is even possible. I miss you ever since more and I never have enough.. I’m always willing to get tickets and visit you.. sometimes I. Just wonder on Skyscanner for Half hours. Anyways, beside that.. what I really miss is your giraffe neck, the sexiest neck I’ve ever seen in my life..I felt in love with you for you ability to talk to me differently by opening a new world into my heart. You managed to show me some unknowable ceilings of expression. Let’s never stop teaching each other new perspective of love: I learnt so much with you my sweet goldenmouth. With your soul and way of communicating you built in me the paradigm of a bond which doesn’t know what convenience, circumstances or boredom are. We became what we became: best friends? Soul mates? Sex buddies or admirers? I feel we became an indivisible duo even admirable if possible. Us being an incredible miracle of compromise, trust and efforts to take the best out of the other for the sake of a common vision. In the name of a dream which if only whispered could be blown. With all that in mind I think I will never get used to the pain of distance, however what I know firmly is that you’ll always have a person to count on, and that person even in 20 Years will be me. Buona notte principessa mia, I send you all of my love and I hope you’ll visit me tonight in my deep dreams. I love you pat. Un bacio grande tesoro mio❤🐒🐽 [9/15/18, 04:37:41] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, it’s not always easy to understand the other but what holds me to us is the immense love I feel for you and even when everything looks like falling I know I have my spark of light into this world of happiness, serenity and passion. I love you honey no matter what and I always wish for us to be glowing together for the rest of our time. I don’t want my fire to ever stop burning so hard in my heart and this strength never to leave my body. I’m missing you so much these days and I can’t wait to see you pathead in London going around for food and beauty. My Sputnik lady I dream of you with open eyes all the day.  I send you all my love princess, soon we will be kissing each other again. Un bacio grande patatozza. 🐽❤🐒 [9/16/18, 01:55:40] Captain P.: Dear love I’m back home I love you so much [9/16/18, 01:58:56] Captain P.: My dear love you are my fire and only desire. [9/16/18, 01:59:07] Captain P.: I can’t stand life when you’re not there [9/16/18, 02:19:02] Captain P.: Honey bunny I’m back home and sleeping for a productive day tomorrow. I miss you deeply Mia principessa. Un bacio grande. Sleep tight and stay strong mio amore. I love you🐒❤🐽 [9/17/18, 01:21:33] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, no matter what we will have always our real, pure love in our hands. No obstacle is for us an issue and we will be chasing our dream together as always and getting stronger. I’m so happy to know I’ll get to see you very soon. I feel good. The week starts for me tomorrow and it will be very quick Thursday my patata. Also excited about a city than I never really lived at a decent age. My principessa I love you beyond imagination for reasons that sometimes are also hard to realise my self. My life, the energy I have are devoted to us in means I sometimes don’t feel anymore. Buona notte patata mia❤🐽🐒 ti bacio tesoro, sleep tight [9/18/18, 03:29:07] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I deeply love you. I have only you on my mind. I both wanna cry for how much I miss and laugh about how beautiful you are and how lucky I am to have you. You’re such an amazing pat and what matters to me is only us. I can’t wait to see you pat and to talk patlanguage 24h again honey. You’re my life. You’re working hard this days but soon a small sweet break is coming. I hope tonight you find sometime to visit me while We sleep. I wish I could remember those dreams yet only thought of us together makes me happy. Ti bacio tesoro mio, always🐒❤🐽 buona notte piccola [9/19/18, 01:13:11] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I hope you’re sleeping safely and smoothly right now. I just got back after the thesis track panel session which was interesting. Tomorrow you’re flying off London pat, I will think about you those 6 hours and wish I was there flying with you. Anyhow soon we’ll be together so I just try not to think about time. Un bacio grande mia patatozza. I miss your skin and sweet figure. Buona notte tesoro mio, 🐒❤🐽 [9/20/18, 03:15:53] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I’m so happy to know you’re one step closer to me. I’m so glad I’m seeing you tomorrow and I can love you again face to face. I can’t wait to touch your hairs and hear your voice without the buffer of the microphone. I still think every time how our love is so precious delicate and beautiful as an early spring flower. You’re my life and reason to be alive. Oh love if you could only feel how my body feels when I think about you. I wish we could exchange personality and let you feel my love. My one patata you are just like a sunshine in my life, supporting entity and sweet soul, un bacio grande patata mia. I’ll see you later today. It’s unbelievable to say this. Buona notte tesoro, sleep Well and enjoy your day tomorrow 🐒❤🐽 [9/25/18, 00:46:41] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, as a mirage our londinese weekend is now blurring away. Just like and injection of happiness your presence made me energetic and excited about life once again. Even sick I was able to enjoy the world thanks to you and our love. With you I discovered new places, feelings and food of course. Love of my life, I’m so proud of us, I’m so in love with our love story that I don’t need anything else to feed my soul with. Now a long period of separation is coming yet I face it with a big smile and with the security of a promised serenity and joint future ahead. I miss you so much already and there is no other person I want to stay with for the rest of my life. I can’t wait to be done studying and provide food for us and live under the same roof. Only than my life will have a sense and I will be able to call my self a satisfyed being. Thank you for being who you are and thanks to the fate for putting us together. Stay strong and safe bunny. Text me when home. I’m so glad I happened to open my heart to yours and viceversa. We are so lucky. Ti amo amore mio. Pasta la vista pat🐒❤🐽buona notte tesoro mio. Sleep well and do take the time to visit me in your dreams. I’ll be there waiting. Un bacione [9/26/18, 01:03:13] Captain P.: Dear love of my life your face is so damn beautiful I can’t stop thinking about it. You’re my sun, my power and only desire. When I see you I feel the thrill of butterflies in my stomach dancing for an early spring. Thank you for loving me and for being such a pathead honey. I love you and I’ll never stop. The more I push it the more I like it and this addiction is so positive that no one can argue about it. I hope you went back all good and that life will treat you gently till next time. Ti amo patatozza, good night honey. Sleep well and come visit me as always, loads of kisses for you pat🐒❤🐽 [9/27/18, 02:51:52] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I wish you were here with me going to bed on the same mattress. I miss you deeply and I just think life is too short to be separated from The one we love. This means we really need to keep as an imperative to live together soon becuase I simply don’t want to be far one another. The dinner here was good and I have so much food left that I think I won’t be cooking for a while. Also a lot of hummus, which makes me very happy pat. Un bacio grande patata mia. Sleep tight and come visit me. Wherever I look I can only see your eyes. Buona notte tesoro❤🐽🐒 [9/28/18, 02:58:17] Captain P.: Dear love of my life I’m finally in bed and going to sleep. You have no idea how I wish I could snuggle into your bedsheets right now and follow asleep John lennoing you. I hope you had a nice dinner with jav and I want to know everything about his walking buddy. I miss you dearly and I can’t think of anything better than you. You are my dream and only desire. No matter how many people I can meet, no matter how many stories I can hear and learn you are and always be my only sunshine. I love you badly honey. Sleep well and visit me in my dreams. Can’t wait to Skype with you soon Pathead ... oh what a Pathead. I miss so much talking patlanguage. Un bacio grande tesoro mio. Stay safe and let’s work to get you here the soonest. I’m Sick and tired of not having you always with me. Buona notte amore mio. Always yours and faithfully, Captain P.🐽❤🐒 [9/29/18, 04:03:51] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, no I didn’t go to any party I just stayed in and being talking with Philip and Judith the entire evening. They’re a funny couple and weird in many ways as everyone. I miss you in a complete different way than usual these days pathead. I miss the comfort I have with you, the nudity I can wear when only with you. I mainly miss our intimacy and this is something I never used to miss. Oh honey bunny how I wish we could live together as of tomorrow and not have to wait to all of this stupid procedure. How I wish you were here with me now in this precise moment in time just to hug and kiss gently. Un bacio grande patata mia. Sleep tight and drop into my dreams. I need you everyday as much as I need light pat. Buona notte tesoro🐽🐒❤ [10/1/18, 01:36:32] Captain P.: Babe I just got back home. Such a long day. I’m dead and the dinner was very good but a bit overpriced. I guess is normal in Amsterdam. Dear love of my life, I really can’t wait to be always together. I don’t like my life if you not around. I can’t handle staying away from you for such a long time. You are the happiness of my life and the real sunshine of the day. I miss you dearly honey. In the end im gonna travel tomorrow early at 7:20 with the train and go directly to uni. Un bacio grande love. Hope we can call properly tomorrow. Ti amo❤🐒🐽 [10/1/18, 08:29:09] YL: Morning pat [10/1/18, 08:29:16] YL: Are you marrying me yet [10/2/18, 00:47:19] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I wish one day very soon we will be able to be always together when the other one is sick. I would love to have you around tonight that I feel feverish and unprotected. I love how we can just dream about our future with no boundaries and restrains. I would follow you anywhere pat. I can’t wait to get married and live with you. I miss you dearly today. I truly do and it hurts to be here alone. Anyhow I hope you’re having sweet dreams and you find time to come visit me in tonight’s dreams. We are an amazing flower still in its spring and this love is the most important thing of this world, arät least for me! Ill see you tonight. Un bacio patatozza. Buona notte amore mio❤🐒🐽 [10/3/18, 00:26:39] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, as always I struggle with this reality of not having you next to me. I hate it and I want to change this quickly. I cannot wait to see you, touch you, screw around with you and have fun. I simply wanna live my life with you and I don’t get the metrics whic are not allowing our dream to come true. I don’t believe this is just a fire for the prohibited flower we are growing. I know this is just deep and whatever it is,.. oh well is the only way I can live my life. Nothing is interesting if you are not in the picture and nothing is useful if it’s not a tool to get closer or make it better. The means I m living are towards our common future and nothin g else. I send you all my love and I hope you feel the warmth of my affection and sexual attraction to you as well. Sleep tight and visit me. I truly hope this dreams makes us closer and stronger. Un bacio grande patata, ti amo🐽🐒❤ [10/4/18, 01:15:12] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I had so much fun today during our call. I believe I cannot have this amount of fun in an entire week here in Wageningen. You’re such an amazing being and I can only love you in my life. You are a pure flower I can only admire. I’m so happy I have my ticket to come visit You and I can’t wait to go eat DTF when with you. I miss you dearly every day more and more pat and I just want to start living our shared life no respect to the means we need to take. Sometimes I feel this burden given by the circumstances but then I always think how life is one and we have this amazing love and how stupid would it be to let anything, literally anything work against us. I can’t wait to see you and touch you again honey. Un bacio grande patatozza. Goood night my miracle worker. Sleep well and come visit me as always. Buona notte tesoro🐽❤🐒 [10/5/18, 02:16:54] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, how nice it would be if I could have you in my arms right now. I really miss sleeping together and waking up together. I miss walking around the world with you and finding new places. You’re my sunshine and reason of being. My face gets smiling when I think of eating DTF with you very soon. Un bacio grande mia patatozza ❤🐽🐒sleep tight in your warm blanket and visit me in the deepest rooms of our minds. Buona notte tesoro [10/6/18, 03:26:00] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you are stardust and energy. You are my flowering love which keeps me breathing happily everyday. I only wish the best for you and strive to see you and hold you in my arms. I can’t wait to get married and spend all the time with an egghead partner. The affection I hold For you is unbelievable and time getting me more and more Into this love that I could have imagined for. I miss your smell, I miss how we can forget about the world Together because I do not fear anything when with you. Un bacio grande tesoro Mio. I hope you’ll manage to go sailing and I can’t count the minutes remaining for eating dtf with you Sputnik sweetheart. If I think about our sec in nyon I want to cry and go back then, touch you and feel your body on mine in such a pure way once again. Sleep tight pat, I wi always love you honey. Un bacio grande🐽❤🐒 [10/7/18, 00:28:40] Captain P.: Love you sweetheart [10/7/18, 05:08:23] Captain P.: Dear love, sweetheart and sexy chica I always feel enchanted by your soul. I feel the world would be unreal without you. I’m often recalling all our story and always happy about everything. I love remembering about our memories and dream about the ones yet to come. I’m glad you had a wonderful experience pat today and wish you were here with me falling aspleep together. I had a beer with Louy and got home quite early but then I started watching movies and end up very late. Un bacio grande patatozza, sleep tight and visit me in the unbelievable dreamlike. Love you tesoro mio, buona notte❤🐒🐽 [10/8/18, 00:40:59] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you are becoming my new family and this transition is happening in a way that I would have never expected. Our love is becoming the underlying live-motive of our lives and it’s always there making things looking happier just because of its existence. I’m grateful we choose to walk the journey of life together. It’s such an incredible life the one I can live next to you. Un bacio grande mio unico grande amore. Sleep tight and visit me in the world of glass of dreams. Buona notte pata mia🐒❤🐽 [10/9/18, 02:30:05] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, my world is full of stars thanks to you. The light aura around you provides the brightness to see the world under a better light. I love you so deeply that the feelings get physical and emotions are surfing the skin. I couldn’t imagine anything bad happening to you and I stand next to you for life. Un bacio grande patatozza, come visit me tonight. Buona notte tesoro, I wish we could always sleep together. 🐒❤🐽 [10/10/18, 01:56:45] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, my life here is fee and nice, however I’m always missing that fundamental comfort of having you. You’re not just a treat for my eyes but also a cure for my heart and a painkiller to my soul. I don’t know what I would do without you and I can imagine my existence without talking pat language all the time. This games, this game of love are the most interesting aspects of relationship making everything so familiar. We are building the pillars of our relationship these days ad I’m so glad we are both strong, resilient to change and highly adaptive. I want to explore the world with you honey. Un bacio grande patata. Let me know everything about your nose tomorrow tesoro mio. Buona notte amore🐒❤🐽 [10/11/18, 01:33:32] Captain P.: Dear patata, there is nothing I regret of how things are going. I love us and I think I’m so happy of having you aside me more than ever. I need you like I need water or oxygen. You are my life. You give me the happiness, the dose of sunshine I need in my everyday. As always but more than always I would love to be there tonight, under bed sheets together. I miss you Pathead, oh how I miss the times when dining together, packing unpacking and wondering around the all the places of this world. I wish we could just be together and travel. Hopefully will fix the together thing first and then also the travel part honey.Hate kash for taking away my dose of Pathead tonight. Buona notte amorrr mio❤🐽🐒i fall asleep thinking about golden mouth and the stories of us around the space. Dormi bene tesoro. Un bacio pat, come visit me in the night. [10/12/18, 02:43:20] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I hope you’re sleeping sweet dreams in your nice eye mask. I would give anything to have you here with me right now. My love for you is strong as ever and I miss you all the day Pathead. I wish I could stroll around Dubai with you and have nice food. I anyway hope your nose get better soon babe becuase I just want us to stay health and have more time to spend together. Un bacio grande mia patata, sleep tight and come in the stream of dreams to make a visit. 🐽❤🐒 [10/13/18, 09:29:10] Captain P.: Dear love of my life,  I simply miss you like waterfalls r in the dessert all the time, just like juice for a men that didn’t drink [10/13/18, 09:29:22] Captain P.: Amore my love note didn’t go [10/13/18, 09:29:39] Captain P.: Im awake already [10/13/18, 09:33:44] Captain P.: Honey pat how I wish in this warm morning I could have you in my arms pat [10/13/18, 22:54:44] Captain P.: I miss you my love. You can’t imagine [10/14/18, 00:11:42] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, a day without you is a sad day. You are the light I need every single Day and I am just thrilled about our future. I can’t wait to see my potatohead soon and my only dream Is to be with you forever. I hope you’re having sweet dreams pat. We ate at home and just watching a movie. I send you all my love and come visit me in the dreams❤🐒🐽 [10/14/18, 00:13:43] Captain P.: Babe I wish you were here. I can wait to be in Dubai with you [10/15/18, 00:57:12] Captain P.: Dear pat of my life. Oh I meant dear love of my life. As always distance is a shitty pain and I miss you so much. I’m always thinking about you and how things would be if I could spend my free time rather then with anyone else. Im dying to come and to spend time with you. I need to see you and breath your smell and talk patlanguage honey. I love you so much that I would repropose every year till we die. Can’t imagine how happy I’ll be the day where we actually have shared roof above our heads and all nights will be in the same bed. Un bacio grande patata mia❤🐒🐽 I love you my princess. I’ll fall asleep dreaming of you [10/16/18, 02:34:08] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, my joy comes only when I see your face bad talk with my beautiful princess. I think this love has an energy that everyday surprises me incredibly for its tremendous tenancy. It’s amazing how the fire wouldn’t die, no matter what. Anyways I praise our love always in different ways, yet the facets that it can get are infinite and this is possibly why it endures❤🐒🐽buona notte patata mia. I can’t wait to hold you in my arms and kiss your forehead. Un bacio grande tesoro. Sleep tight and pay me a visit during tonight’s dream. [10/17/18, 03:46:46] Captain P.: Dear love of my life and beyond, I need an extra life to fully enjoy our love. Or maybe even more. You are the companion I want to spend my whole existence and I want to share the same bed every night, the same sky and roof. I miss your smooth skin onto mine and you running around and being scremy and crazy under the shower. These days I miss you more than ever and there is nothing I can do about it. My potatoz a and pathead I want to kiss all your body first thing I do when I see you when I arrive. Buona notte principessa mia❤🐒🐽have an excursion in my dreams tonight. [10/18/18, 08:16:18] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, my pat and favourite turtle girl! I remember the day that I decided to travel to Taiwan. I can’t express how I felt but somehow I didn’t have any choice I could only pay a visit to the girl of my life. Since then my thirst for seeing you has only increased and brought us to the extraordinary journey of travellling to keep up our love . I think part of because I’m in love is also thanks for our mood when we travel together. I love travelling with my Pathead. Un bacio grande babe.. ti amo tesoro mio grande. Stay strong another day so you can get some relax this weekend. Buona notte principessa ❤🐒🐽 [10/18/18, 08:17:05] Captain P.: Morning silly pat ! Felt asleep with the phone on my face [10/18/18, 08:17:33] Captain P.: Super hot phone next to me all night. Super stupid [10/19/18, 01:55:14] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I wish I could fly every day to you just to give one big kiss on your forehead and I would already be happy. You’re the source of my happiness and energy. You are the driver of my life and I’m so glad it ended up being like this. I envision us always in multiple scenarios and hardly I can think depressively about something because if we are together nothing is scary nor dark. Distance is a shit enemy but we are fighting it with success. I cannot wait to be in Dubai with you and stroll from restaurant to reastaurant. Buona notte patatozza❤🐽🐒sleep well and wish me good luck tomorrow. I love you [10/20/18, 01:45:14] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, sometimes I feel so grateful for living in the Skype era. Watching a movie and seeing your sleepy face next to it makes everything look more interesting. I would like to come to Dubai and stay forever and just sleep under the same piece of 10m2 of sky. Can’t wait to be there very soon patata❤🐒🐽 buona notte principessa. Never forget to visit me in night’s dreams. Un bacio patata mia [10/20/18, 23:50:48] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, these days I would really like to have you close and touch your smooth skin. I’m a bit stressed for these exams because I don’t know what to expect and if I know enough. Anyways will see how it goes and hopefully I’ll manage to survive. Hope you’re sleeping right now and that your head is light and freeriding wonderful dreams. My only love, I could never live on this planet in this time frame with you by my side. I want to cry for how much I miss you. I miss everything even the most annoying things. I would love to sneak under the bed sheets with you right now or host you in my room. I can’t think about my self without you pat. I love you to the fullest. Sleep well and visit me principessa mia❤🐒🐽un bacio grande tesoro. [10/22/18, 02:20:32] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, there will be no night without a love note. I don’t know what going to bed means without thinking of you and hitting down few love lines. I would love to have you here by my side for these couple of days ahead and just penetrate you and also get some sweet lovin. Can’t wait to get this as hopefully my post exam gift and whatever will happen nothing can be that bad since I still have you. I still can count on his love that keeps the fire burning inside my soul. I send you love and I wish you a good sleep. You’re also working a lot my miracle worker. Don’t forget to eat healthy and treat your self good. We need to live 2 lives and enjoy every single moment together. Always❤🐒🐽 [10/23/18, 01:17:07] Captain P.: Dear love of my life my only potata and favourite turtle girl, I am without breath just like life without oxygen when you’re not around. I’m always like to look at our picture, think of you and pray for our reunions to get longer and less sporadic. I just dream with open eyes everyday about our shared journey of life and how I am feeling comfortable with you being my pata companion. Sleep well tesoro mio, I wish you were here with me. Can’t wait to pamper you sooon sweetheart, buona notte stella❤🐒🐽 [10/24/18, 01:32:41] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you are the only one I miss every time and in anyplace. If I’m the Earth you’re my sun, the only real source of energy and most amazing star. Doesn’t matter if today I live in Wageningen or in any other place..it will always be a deficit not to have you aside to feel nurtured by our incredible love. You make me feel in a way that no place or situation will ever make me feel: I think we are just so lucky. I feel I found a treasure with you and I never wanna let it go. You are my fire and only desire. I wish you were here in this bed with me patata. Life would simply be uplifted to the amazing level we have when together. I love you deeply and always. Good night love, sleep tight and come visit me in my dreams. I hope I’ll see you tonight. Un bacio grande tesoro. Always, ❤🐒🐽 [10/25/18, 02:54:00] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, it is always incredible how I talk about people about you and I realise more and more how much I am in love with you my Pathead. I don’t wanna live apart much longer and I will do everything to find a way for us to be together everyday. This year will fly quicker than we think and then everything will change and take a clear path. I can’t wait to be sleeping under the same set of starts and share the same oxygen with my favourite turtle girl 🐢. Next week this time I’ll be packing and getting ready to see my princess. I can’t wait for that to be reality again. Un bacio grande tesoro mio. I love you aLways and for ever❤🐒🐽 [10/26/18, 02:35:09] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I will always be happy to read love notes and to make love in all possible ways for you. Your face is my happiness. You have no idea how much I miss you and how happy I’ll be when with you again. Un bacio grande mia unica principessa. I love you sweetheart 🐽🐒❤sleep tight and come see me in the world of dreams [10/27/18, 02:38:06] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, tonight the moon is full and the Air is cold, I miss you dearly: I wish we could see all of that together. I can’t wait to be in your bed next week and cuddle all the time. Un bacio grande tesoro mio❤🐒🐽 tonight is a short love note also because my phone is out of battery but my heart and mind is always full of you. [10/28/18, 01:49:02] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I actually know you don’t hate me. But anyways I’m always thinking of you and always scared of a world without my Pathead. I guess it’s one of the way my brain has to keep the love burining without giving me all the safety net. The thrill is keeping me alive and strong. Babe, I love you deeply and I can’t wait to see you being stupid live very soon. Seeing your face and you joking around and being the pathead you are. When you flip your eyes or smile forcing your teeth to squeeze while doing weird sounds. I felt in love with all the odd part of you and I will never stop having my heart pumping my blod stream in function of this reality of love we created. I’m missing you all the time and everywhere I look I your eyes. I wish you were here sleeping with me and hugging and dry hump you just to laugh and being silly together. How much I miss you? I like to think more than any other lover on this planet. Buona notte principessa. Stay safe for other 5 days and then will be sharing some reality together. Un bacio grande tesoro mio. You’re my turtle girl and only happiness ❤🐒🐽 [10/29/18, 02:03:26] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, the immidiate days before seeing you are always those that I like less because always living them as non existing. I want to push them away and speed up time so I tend to think everything happens faster. Anyways I love you badly and the thrill to see pathead is always the thrill and highlight of my soul. Seams far and like a dream but few months ago we had a marvellous trip and I can still remember the smell of sea at that seafood restaurant after your sunglasses fight. Such incredible days and we have many more ahead waiting to be lived. I wanna go slow so that this life with you can last longer with its enjoyment. Buona notte amore miio, sleep tight principessa. Soon enough you’ll be in my arms. Un bacio tesoro mio❤🐒🐽 [10/30/18, 02:56:03] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, going to be bed without you is always a pain. I’m now in bed, fisically dead after playing football. I can’t wait for the day when the routine is going to be always end hugging you at night. When that day come I’ll feel powerful and fulfilled. Your the trigger of my life and heart filler. My patatozza I’m super ready to give you some love and kissing you all. Un bacio grande principessa, sleep well and now that you’re dreaming I will try to merge in the flow of them. Buona notte tesoro mio🐽🐒❤love you [10/31/18, 01:24:39] Captain P.: I’m super dead today and going to bed. I’m sorry I’ve been not very present today but it was such a long day and couldn’t look at the phone so much [10/31/18, 01:28:46] Captain P.: You are my only star my Pathead. I wanna cry and be joyful for how much I love you and how much you mean to me [10/31/18, 01:28:56] Captain P.: Redress my teddy pat [10/31/18, 02:32:05] Captain P.: Oh pat, I felt asleep with the phone on my face again. I love you my sweet love, can’t wait to see you and smell your porfume❤🐒🐽 [10/31/18, 08:44:11] YL: Oh pat [10/31/18, 08:54:03] YL: Morning pat [10/31/18, 08:54:11] YL: I love you [11/1/18, 02:10:23] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, dear pathead and only princess I want to have. Tomorrow I’m gonna feel alive again seeing you after ages. I can already feel the thrill and the butterfly in my stomach. Passing trough ataturk will be my usual toy time before coming and see you. I can’t wait for our dinners and our moments. These next days I don’t wanna do anything beside seeing your face and touching your skin. Can’t wait to fall asleep with you in just 24h. I’m so glad to technology for allowing us this luxury and I want to work just in the direction of us living in the same house very soon. My love, you can’t imagine how much I miss you and my sentiment right now. I can’t even fall asleep even if I’m super tired and tomorrow such a long day. Un bacio grande mio amore❤🐽🐒 see you soon my turtle girl. Buona notte tesoro, sleep tight [11/8/18, 03:09:47] Captain P.: So we had an emergency landing pat.. one of the scariest shit I ever did. Long story short.. now I will sleep in Oslo and tomorrow plane at 7pm.. stupid vauchers for nothing food and staying  at a hotel next to airport. Very cold here [11/8/18, 03:10:52] Captain P.: I made friendship with an American guy from LA and a Spanish dude. Drinking a beer now and going to bed, I love you honey: this will give me an almost free ticket to see you again so I think it’s worth it. Un bacio grande mynobly love❤🐒🐽 [11/9/18, 04:24:43] Captain P.: Love of my life, as always is sad not to be together and the time of love notes is back on me. I miss you dearly every second not being able to kiss my favourite egg head on the planet. Every day with you is a gift and I’m so proud of us, going trough everything and taking care of eachother like never before. I feel we are strong I feel like I could go in war and not talk for ages but nothing could ever change becuase im bonded to your soul forever and there is nothing that makes me stronger or that could make me more fond. You’re going to see your most beloved ones and I’m super excited for you. It’s time instead for me to work hard and get back on a proper track. I send you all my love and keep me posted with your journey honey. Ti amo. Try to rest and think of me🐽🐒❤ un bacio grande Teodoro mio. Buona notte principessa [11/11/18, 12:09:24] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, i miss you as always. Nothing can be fully happy in my life without you colouring it with your crazy voice and wonderful presence. Yesterday was such a crazy party, we had more then 500 people coming over during the entire night. The party revenue is more than a thousand and anyway it was nice. Not very nice cleaning up shit today tho. Anyways I’m just super tired and I need to get a bit of stability right now. How’s everything in New York, what did you do today and what did you eat? Let me know everything. I can’t wait to talk to you on the phone again. Hearing your voice is what keeps my heart beating and my soul serene. I am glad you arrived where you are loved and pampered even if I can’t be the one taking care of you. I’m also jealous because I would give everything to be in New York with you and go around restaurants and explore the wilderness of the nature in the states. This will happen later on in our lives! Buona notte amore mio, I was sleeping when you called. Wish you sweet dreams. Un bacio grande patatozza mia❤🐒🐽you my only happiness [11/12/18, 12:30:38] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I drream of you these days in the big New York roads and moving from one place to the other. I keep on visioning you around and taking your moves to do the things you do. I can only imagine how beautiful it must be being back with the pregnant sister and knowing this holiday just kicked off. Here is gloomy and rainy again. I’m back on track with full schedule again and thinking of really dropping the job. I can’t deliver very reliable shifts and I think it might be worth just to concentrate on my studies.. I Always over take things I cannot fulfil and this was one of it but it was worth the journey and I got to know a bit more of what is out there anyways. Besides that tonight I have another house interview. Not stressing it too much as we know how this lottery is really something unpredictable here in Wageningen. Anyways is a house in the city centre and I also wanna see it actually before feeling comfortable moving there. I hope all is good with sister and that today you also enjoy your working schedule Pathead. Sure it’s more exciting than going to the office. Let me know what you do, how your are and the weather. I miss you dearly and my bones are asking to the other set of bones that are missing when I sleep. All my body, soul and heart is missing you. Un bacio grande patata [11/13/18, 13:31:52] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you looked so beautiful during our call yesterday and I’m saying to see your cute face very soon. I need to kiss your egghead pat you’ve ni idea how much I miss your egg forehead actually which sounds wired but I really got affectionate to that part of your body too. I’m happy you are there being busy and happy to explore that stimulating environment. You’re lucky pat and also jealous of you going out and eating well. I rally want to go to new York soon with you. Anyways my pat I hope you’re now poop empty and sleeping like a kiddo in the guest room. I wish I could sneak in there and avoid this stupid distance. I miss you dearly love, un bacio grande patatozza. I hope you get my intereferenxe of love in you dream stream. Buona notte principessa❤🐒🐽 [11/14/18, 13:31:18] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you are my guiding star into a universe where everything is unclear, chaotic and complex. You are the one bright light I always look at when I feel lost in the ocean. Amore you have no clue what you mean to me, how great is the ideal I hold for your person. I feel enlighted to be lucky enough to stand next such a resilient individual, strong, funny and beautiful. There is an aura of trascendent perfection fluctuating around you and this is thanks to our love. When I don’t know how to decodificate things around me I think about our love and how everything is easy when I hold to that power. I could rework the entire world when the energy of love flows into my vanes. I also miss your body and you smile and the most simple things such as laying together in bed with eyemasks and talk about the day ahead. I miss you deeply principessa mia. Un bacio grande patatozza. Sleep tight now in your bed and keep on being the beautiful flower I love [11/15/18, 13:59:17] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, my love and only patata you are my soul. I miss you crazy in these busy and frosty days in the Netherlands. My mind is fully occupied with new topics and challenging excercises. I’m really struggling being on top of all these classes and material. The only thing I think of when I go home is your face and how I would love to be pampered by you at home, at our home. I can’t wait this to be a reality and I also can’t wait to sign a paper that states we can live and work in the same fucking country when earth is just a piece of soil with normative borders. I send you all my love and I hope you’re enjoying your NY days with family. Be careful on the train and at the station love. I know you’ll find the platform and always be perfect as you are. Ti amo. I love you and never no one else. Un bacio grande principessa❤🐒🐽 [11/18/18, 13:32:16] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, these days I can only dream with open eyes to rember how your beauty looks like. I can’t wait to hug and hold you in my arms again. Patata, tonight I go to bed again here at the dormitory and I can only think of you under the snow in newyork with that yellow jacket. I miss you immensely and I’m here wondering how happy and beautiful things will be when our family will also start the journey of a shared life. Days are passing by quicker than expected and life is still keeping us together. I wish you were here and I want to kiss your egghead. Un bacio grande my love. Im now sleeping hoping to melt in your dreams when you’ll do so later as well. Buona notte principessa❤🐒🐽 [11/19/18, 14:29:58] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, tonight is a lucky night. One more sentient being is now out there to enrich our lives. I’m sure this little creature will turn out to be a great gift for all of us. How amazing is the life cycle you assisted and marvellous family situation for you guys there. Anyways.. one day we might also experience this incredible thing. Hope you won’t be to jealous of this creature pathead ahahha I know you’ll steal all the food and gifts already. What a stupid pat you are. I love you babe and these days missing you like crazy. I wish I was there! Un bacio grande auntie Golden Mounth. Big kisses for you my princess. Un bacio grande e buona notte patata mia🐽🐒❤always with love. [11/19/18, 14:30:22] Captain P.: Ps: for the first time I heard someone else’s than you saying anywho [11/20/18, 13:28:47] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, long days for you there and I can only imagine the emotions you are going trough by holding carter and seeing how fragile and precious that little creature is. Everything is ready for him in this life. Anyways for me the homesickness if my Pathead does not change and I can’t wait to touch you, see you, have you around and smell your perfume. I wish we could already live together because going home every night and not sleeping with you nor finding you is really something I miss. Ti amo patata mia, sleep well and enjoy newyork frosty air. Can’t wait to be on ski slopes with you and eat some buttery gnocchi. Un bacio amore mio. Stay safe, you are the most important thing. Buona notte pat [11/21/18, 11:35:10] Captain P.: Dead love of my life, hearing your voice and looking at your beautiful face even for a quick glance is what keeps me strong in these days. I always think how would I live this life without you. It is impossibile. No one is like you out there and no one will ever have the same spot in my heart. You are my fire and only desire. You are the one that help me see the light in this world. Love is the only answer to understand and support life for the time being and your companionship is the best gift the fate has ever served me. Oh babe I miss you desperately some times. I think of Paris, I think of pulir with nostalgia and happiness. Our days in Roma at the museum in the outskirts and driving all the way to Naples. I would give anything now to rewind and be there again with you. Un bacio grande tesoro mio, sleep well and stay safe. Buona notte principessa mia. I can’t wait to be in the cold snowy Trentino with you sooner than I can realise❤🐒🐽 [11/22/18, 11:02:17] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I always always think of you. I see you face and hear your voice inside me. This inner presence keep me striving for my life and dream about our future. As always you’re the only thing that keeps me going in these busy and cold days of November. The pace here is something I never experienced. Classes are really tough, long and full of material. I’m learning a lot of concrete and technical knowledge which I hope will make the difference. I’m also meeting a lot of people and making friendship with those that are more like minded. I would like to make you meet all my friends here and then also to see how an amazing person I can proudly say I have beside me. Anyways I hope you got some rest and that the doggo is feeling better. Let me know what you do and how was boxing and the weather. Ti amo mia stella. Sleep tight and hopefully my alterego will visit you in the dreams. Un bacio grande patatozza❤🐒🐽 [11/23/18, 14:21:39] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, it was nice seeing your face in a toilet talking to me. I always feel the same thrill, the same butterfly effect in my brain and the energy this love gives me to push the limits for a shared life is something I’ll always be lost in. I’m just so happy and grateful to the cosmos for meeting you that whatever karma will give me ilm always be in debt. I hope to see you soon and to only get to breath the same air with the same rooftop on our heads very soon. Loads of things are going on in both our lives and I wish we could tell More About it to eachother. I want to know and share everything. Anyways sleep well my princess, try to also rest in this vacation becuase till now you profused a lot of energies as well. Un bacio grande amore mio, ti amo🐒❤🐽 tonight I’ll see grandma [11/24/18, 13:48:56] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I miss you dearly and even with eye beauty mask for me you are the most beautiful princess. Hope you’re sleeping well and that you are maximising your momentum in New York. I love you patata, sleep tight and dream of us. Can’t wait to see you my patata❤🐒🐽 ‎ [11/25/18, 14:50:27] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I hope you dream of me and move like ruby pat !! I need to see your face and hear your voice. I miss you dearly my only princess. I can be anywhere but I think of you all the time. I wish you could be here with me visiting the national museum pat. I miss living with you next to me. I miss you hairs and your egg head. Pat I need to talk patlanguage and hear your voice whispering into my ears. I can’t wait to live with you babe [11/25/18, 15:26:42] Captain P.: My only patata I want to sleep in the same bed forever and I want to get the papers from Taipei. Can’t wait to have a post signing marriage dinner pat and to show you around Wageningen and my friends. Even if these days communication is slow my love doesn’t experience an inch of decrease. I love you deeply and forever. Rise and shine principessa mia. Un bacio grande tesoro❤🐒🐽 [11/26/18, 16:11:03] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, another week without you and another busy week. This morning I moved all my staff from the dormitory place and moved it to my old house and this week I’ll be a bit sleeping with luck. A guy in my new house (which I will get next Monday) is letting me sleep in his room since he sleeps at his girlfriend place most of the time. But he might need the room a night or two and un that case I will sleep on marghe’s sofa. Anyways I’m all sorted just a bit annoying to keep on moving around! Finally next Monday I’ll be in a permanent nice room. My patata I miss you deeply and wildly. I want to penetrate you and at the same time kiss all your forehead 2000000 times. I hope all is good in New York and I’m always dreaming about the time when we will be exploring that city together. Un bacio grande principessa🐽🐒❤ let’s try to talk today. Buona notte and sleeep tight love [11/27/18, 10:17:51] Captain P.: Still annoyed you keep me blocked on Facebook [11/27/18, 10:17:59] Captain P.: I tried to go there this morning [11/27/18, 10:18:05] Captain P.: And I’m still blocked [11/27/18, 10:18:22] YL: It’s lovely ❤️❤️❤️❤️ [11/27/18, 10:18:54] Captain P.: Eh ma porco dio pat [11/27/18, 13:19:13] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I foundry imagine to experience the strength of our love in days where it’s presence is lessen. This experiment is the proof that distance will never fill in the gap, at least on my side, of boredom and loneliness. For me you are my only one in life and I m not interested in exploring anything on this planet if it’s not something I can replicate with you or next to you. I have a list of so many places I want to visit with you babe. I just want in 2019 to get the chance to live together and stop this amzing love note editing. I love you deeply my Pathead, Soon we are hitting the 2 years, yet I look at the next 20 with thirst for love and thrive for life thanks to your presence. I love you my pat, stay safe and take good care. I can’t wait to hug you again. Un bacio grande principessa.❤🐒🐽today I don’t have afternoon class so maybe we can have a decent call [11/28/18, 11:43:34] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, the strength of our love and the maturity of our relationship is a gift That makes me proud to be alive every day. Amore mio last night before going to bed I watched the marriage video I sent you yesterday and besides all this pshicjological castles I truly believe we know what the other think before speaking and even when not we tell eachother how we feel. It might happen sometimes to be late in telling eschother how to adjust but the truth is also that there isn’t much to adjust and our love right now makes us see only the beauty of us. Thank you for being my lover and team member. I’m so happy to have you and to hold on to us. Un bacio grande principessa, sleep tight and have sweet dreams. I can’t wait to have my room and be stable again. I’m already in the library since 8. I really want to ace this period and have some nice winter vacation. Buona notte ancora patatozza. Bacioni❤🐒🐽 [11/29/18, 02:51:47] YL: Love, so I’ve got Intouch with a Taiwanese girl who got married in Netherlands. After she got all her document in Taiwan, they made an appointment with INd at Stadhius. At that meeting the person will check if all is good, if all is good we will have to wait for them to send us a approval letter, which then we can go online to make an appointment for marriage. [11/29/18, 02:52:11] YL: I really got to think everything through, when is it the best time to quit, how do I tell my family, etc. [11/29/18, 02:52:42] YL: Odile and Ron asked me to come visit them during summer, I think it will be a great opportunity for you to meet them then. [11/29/18, 02:53:05] YL: Either way, I know these days have been hard, but I love you so much. We will get through all of this. [11/29/18, 02:54:34] YL: I know we both want this to be done ASAP, but perhaps with some money saved we can then have more flexibility to move around together. So perhaps the next few months, I’ll need to start saving more. [11/29/18, 02:54:38] YL: I love you love. [11/29/18, 02:57:48] YL: We have been together for two years, with your study coming to an end next year, I am more certain in order for us to go to the next stage of our relationship is to live together, we just need to make sure each of our steps are the best ones so we don’t stumble upon situations that makes our lives and relationship harder. [11/29/18, 02:58:10] YL: Buona notte anore, please let’s talk soon x ❤️ [11/29/18, 03:06:24] Captain P.: Ti amo, let’s take some good time to talk about this. [11/29/18, 13:34:07] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I know I say this very often and therefore it looses significance but today I actually really think I’ve never been more in control of my mental ability and limits. I know the frames I have at my disposal to understand reality and I know I don’t know which are some that I’m missing. I think you compensate the frame I am missing, you show me my limits by hitting it at the right time. We care for eachother and we take decisions together as a family. Without you I’m just a useless sentient being going around. When I’m with you I feel accomplished, in the end also love is an egoist act but at least is an egoist act that implies the happiness of others, this is better. This is just an articulated way to say once again that I love you bunny🐽🐒❤ sleep tight and take precautions for your flue. Un bacio grande amore mio. Buona notte principessa [11/30/18, 12:18:53] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, not always is easy to be distant, not always love is the thing you expected to be. However I want to explore all its possible facets with you and I see the world in the meantime. How amazing is this journey when you share it with such a perfect being. I love you my stupid Pathead. Enjoy last days in New York and pamper carter and the dogs. Be healthy and eat well. I can’t wait to see you whenever that it’ll be. Till then I’ll keep on dreaming about golden mouth and her adventures. Un bacio grande patatozza. Buona notte primcipessa🐒🐽❤ [12/1/18, 12:31:40] Captain P.: Buonanotte pat! I love honeybee, I just stayed home getting to know my housemates because one of them was having a birthday party [12/1/18, 12:32:17] Captain P.: I was texting this and I felt asleep typing it [12/1/18, 12:32:38] Captain P.: I always end up with the phone next to my head. Not good [12/1/18, 14:25:47] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I miss you immensnly, can’t wait now that you go back to Dubai to have proper calls and see your face everyday at least on the phone. These days are being dense and lonely without you. I know that our love is powerful enough and I know we will see eachother very soon. I want to talk about everything and go trough all you did in New York that I still don’t know. What time are you leaving pat or you’re ditching everything and staying there? Are you ready? Did you pack? You have no idea ho strong is the homesickness in certain moments. I feel your egghead in my arms and can see all the perfection of your skin in my eyes. I miss your touching your hairs and feeling your body on mine. I love you always my patata, call me before taking off. Ti amo🐽❤🐒 [12/2/18, 05:06:21] Captain P.: Patata mia, this is the day when two years ago we first entered into intimacy with eachother. I love you so much my bunny. I would give everything to be again in that night and have sex for the first time in a sweet way. Travelling to Paris and staritinf this journey again I would give my life to start all over again. [12/2/18, 05:49:30] YL: Love [12/2/18, 05:49:36] YL: I’m at the airport [12/2/18, 05:49:43] YL: Happy 2 year lovie [12/2/18, 13:18:20] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, 2 years, 3 years or more? Time is just something we decided sitting at a table. I feel like our soul are connected on a different level not really following time and space restrictions. The moment we looked at each others eyes in Paris I understood there was something more, we were so caring for eachother and kind of afraid of hurting eachother., oh how romantic that days were. Even though now we fart and burp the relationship has not loosen its romance and we keep it going everyday with our love, trust, and respect for the other one. I wish us other hundreds years of love and years like those. Stay safe during your trip pat and get back to Dubai all in one piece. I love you principessa mia❤🐽🐒 un bacio grande [12/3/18, 09:44:22] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you’re back from a long vacation and also became an auntie. Being back to routine won’t change the amaZing days you had and the pillow is there to remember you these amazing days. I’m so glad you had some family time even if I wanted to be there as well. Thanks good I’m slowly also becoming part of family and with time we all will be one. Anyways I miss you silky hair, and I’m was your hair fan much earlier than that hairdresser. I miss your nose and egg head. I want to kiss you all and touch you beautiful skin. I can’t wait to see you and to be back to normal Skypecall. Sleep well pat and get some rest. I love you principessa. Un bacio grande patatozza. Buona notte ❤🐒🐽finally today I will get into my room. [12/4/18, 02:58:20] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I worked till now and finally I’m done with moving in all my stufffff. The room already loooks much better than before and slowly is becoming home. How I wish you where here making this room even more my home. Well, hopefully soon I’ll be able to host you here and the bed is much better than the one we had in Geneva pat. My housemates are nice people and finally the place is kept clean and with order. I’m super happy. Only thing I’m missing is you my love. Hope you’re sleeping sweet dreams and I wish you best of luck tomorrow with going back to work. You’ll be fine my miracle worker. I love you deeply and always think of you. Un bacio grande patata mia🐒❤🐽 buona notte principessa [12/5/18, 04:30:45] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, these days are boring without you. Everyday is brining without you next to me. However at least these days are passing by quickly in the fast paste of life. Hopefully soon we will be able to slow down and spende time together. I want to pamper you and kiss you all. I want to pamper you and kiss you all. We will be going around the mountains back home soon pat. I can’t wait to eat some good food with you babe. Un bacio grande honey. I love you deeply and can only dream of you. Buona notte principessa🐒❤🐽 I love you [12/6/18, 03:42:03] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I’m in my bed, starting an episode of Baby and I wish I could do this with you. I can’t wait for you to visit me here in the Netherlands and have you in my room, show you around, make everyone see the marvellous person I share my intimacy with. I miss you dearly and weirdly enough everyone I talk to says something about Taiwan or recalling the facets of our love. I miss you dearly and I’m dying to see you very soon my pat. This life without you is meaningless and slowly but surely we will manage to find a way together. Our plan is getting prolonged but nothing is gone and maybe is a good idea to make all this also clear to our families and let them also cherish and praise our path. I don’t care much about their acknowledgments but I know they all probably deserve to be happy for us. Anyways these are just thoughts. The only thing that matters is us living togheter very soon Pathead. Un bacio grande. Send me a picture please or a vocal message. Buona notte principessa.❤🐒🐽 [12/8/18, 02:46:07] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, no day passes that I feel less involved in our love. I want to always be in love like that and spend my life with you. I can’t wait to seee you very very soon in the beautiful mountains of trentino. I also have to admit I miss home and the mountains this time. Dutch landscape is soo borning and repetitive. I miss you so much egghead and I can’t wait to have you around and sleep together on my amazing mattress. That is going to be booooming. Anyways I miss you hairs and your skin, I miss your warmth next to me. How i wish you were here with me pat. Un bacio grande amore mio. Sleep tight and visit me in my dreams. I love you primcipessa mia🐒❤🐽 [12/9/18, 01:47:43] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, i miss you so much and I’m becoming more and more excited for this winter days in Trentino with you. I want to do so many things, eat so much stuff and have a lot of sex. I don’t know, I feel like I’m a kid again and crazy for what’s coming. This is one of my happiest and most full year of my life. In 2018 i proposed to you, had my first business trip, started a master and now I’m preparing the file for the unep job thingy! No matter to the rest the best part is that you were standing beside me and I could cherish all this amazing life with the person I loved. You make me laugh, cry (yes..) and feel alive most importantly. I love you deeply my principessa. Buona notte. I wish you sweet and safe dreams. I’ll always be there for you tesoro🐒❤🐽 un bacio grande [12/10/18, 00:21:05] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I’m just counting the days to see you and be done with this crazy exam session. I want to relax and take some time for us to chill, eat well, breath good air and detox from technology as well. I can’t wait to be back in trentino and go hunt for some powder and have you also by my side. I wish I could pamper you now and have you here for this week full Of stress and work. I miss you dearly my potatohead. I would love to be back in muro leccese right now and go for a focaccia in Altamura tomorrow. O the bufala buttata was over the top there. Anyways, I’m in bed, brain dead and now watching some episodes. Tomorrow I’ll go to library at 8 in order to get a decent spot. Un bacio grande principessa: i love you. Sleep tight and have sweet dreams. 🐒❤🐽 [12/11/18, 02:29:49] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, why this separation of bodies is still pending on us. I hope paying this price everyday will soon end and to have you always with me. I can’t wait for that day to come and I can only dream about that. It’s gonna be the happiest day of my life. There is nothing I can do that makes me feel better than when I’m with you honey. I want to go eat some good trentino’s food with you and walk in the snow while pampering you and wasting some time. I’m so happy to see you very soon my love. The concert was nice and in a super cool theatre. Hopefully we will be going together around the Netherlands as well, for concerts and expositions. I love you all and deeply. I miss your hairs and smooth skin. Un bacio grande patata mia🐒❤🐽 sleep tight and visit me now that I fall as sleep too. Can’t wait to be with you my egghead. I want to kiss you all and never stop [12/12/18, 02:11:53] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you’re always in my heart and in my mind. It’s crazy the love I feel for you and how I would not know where to stand without you anymore. You are the other half of my soul and the source of all my energy. I’m simply out of my mind for seeing you super soon and talking patlanguage all the time with this egghead around me. I really wanna cuddle and pull your hairs while watching a movie. I hope this vibe between us never ends and that we will be in love for the rest of our lives. You’re everything my pat. Buona notte amore mio, sweet dreams.  Un bacio principessa 🐒❤🐽 [12/12/18, 23:49:08] Captain P.: He has a Dutch passport out of nothing [12/13/18, 01:13:09] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I’m so happy you’re coming to visit me that you have no idea. I can’t wait to see you and to spend all the time together again. This is crazy. My love for you is crazy and I sometimes still have to understand we are going to stay together forever my Pathead. Many years of love ahead and I’m excited about all that is yet to come with you. I love you deeply and I can’t wait to have you in my arms pat. Un bacio grande and sleep tight: tonight I go to bed happy knowing that la principessa is coming. Buona notte oatata🐒❤🐽 un bacio grande

[12/14/18, 00:23:36] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, turning 23 with you and having 3rd birthday with my pathead is so much better. With you I feel alive and loved. You’re my precious gift and nothing will change that even in the next 100 years. I can’t wait to see you and breath the same air, sleep under the same stars and look up at the same sun. Actually we do this but just from different location of the emu sphere so we need to align our latitudes Pathead. The point is that I miss you so much and that my existence would be boring, miserable and meaningless without an egghead to make it colourful and fun. Super soon we’re gonna be together and i hope we will be enjoying the mountain and nice weather in Trentino. Un bacio grande tesoro. Sleep tight and visit me in tonight’s dream. Buona notte principessa 🐒❤🐽 always [12/15/18, 05:12:07] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, in the past two years this love note was not written becuase we were always sleeping together. It’s my first time writing this love note ever since we met. As the past nights of the 14th of December I would love to have you here and touch you all, feel your body, smell your hairs and hug you in the warmth of somebed shits. I love you more than anything or anyone on this plant. I’m so happy to live this life the one you’re part of it and state of mind we have when we are together. I truly think this is the only love that matters and the only love I will ever have in my heart for the rest of my life. It’s very late for me now but I had a really nice night full of friends and cake. I can’t wait to show you all of this and my new friends to see my patatahead. Un bacio grande stellina🐒❤🐽 buona notte principessa [12/16/18, 00:13:58] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I’m already in bed dead and tired. I will watch something and fall asleep. These days would be simply a treat to have you when I get home. Because these days I don’t feel like seeing many humans but my patata would be an exemption. I miss you pat. Counting the days to see you in Milan and be cool kiddos together, pateam and lover. Visit in my dreams and sleep tight. Un bacio grande principessa. Buona notte ❤🐒🐽 [12/17/18, 00:39:26] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, 48 h and I’m gonna be freee no matter how these exams are gonna go. I’m only looking forward some chill vacation full of food, snow and patatahead. I can already smell the perfume of you hairs and feel the smoothness of your skin or the silky touch of your hairs in my hands. Can’t wait to be in Malpensa and hug you and not think about stupid Wageningen and diminishing marginal rates or measurements validity. Who cares about all this shit if I cannot even stay under the roof of the only person I love. No matter where this master will take me, we will be living together. This is just a paper what matters is what we have in or heads and the thrive in our hearts. I’ll move mountains and reshape oceans for us and I don’t need any knowledge for that becuase the power of love goes beyond any human expectation. I love you deeply honey. Sleep tight and think about me tomorrow, Maybe your wisdom and kindness will present as a guiding light while I tick multiple choice boxes. Buona notte principessa. ❤🐒🐽 [12/18/18, 01:40:09] Captain P.: Dear love f my life, you’re my promess of happiness, you’re my safety net and the woman I want to spend my life with. Honey I will never leave you, I will never betray you and unlike many I feel so lucky knowing we will be only one of the other for the rest of our lives. I believe the more the time passes the more I understand how profound is the promess we made to eachother on La mer beach in Dubai. Maybe time was not mature, probably our understanding was not full, however the sentiments were there strong and secure. I don’t regret having proposed in what might luck like a clumsy way, when everything was unsure, not properly thought. Reason is becuase I felt my heart was balanced, my soul found the other half completing where it lacks and letting complete where yours needs mine. I’m very tired now and these thoughts are just a stream of a heavy head but what is true and will always remain true is that I love you immensely. Un bacio grande patatozza. I can’t wait to see you in 10 days. Doesn’t seem possible that as of tomorrow the real count down can start.. -9 and just one number not to fat numbers anymore. Buona notte principessa ❤🐒🐽 now that I’m free and pimping for life, I’m glad we will be together in few days. Both traveling tomorrow and some how passing by the same airport at different times. Probably you’ll be in Milan 18 hours after I landed pat. Anyways  can’t imagine how you’re excited for New York as well. We are so lucky pat, this life gives us such an amazing treat and we will be together in the mountains again. Un bacio grande patata, i still have to pack and long day tomorrow. Send impressions about the chauffeur tomorrow evening don’t forget pat. Sleep tight my principessa. Visit me tonight 🐒❤🐽

[12/20/18, 03:47:05] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I’m so glad I’m finally home. I forgot how nice this house is and how good fruits tasted like. Just looking inside this fridge I feel so rich. Anyways I can’t wait you to be here soon pat we will have an amazing time in the mountains and we will get you on the slopes I’m so excited honey. Don’t worry I will dress you up like crazy. Anyways I miss you so much and I can’t wait to have you next to me in this amazing bed pat. Counting the days honey. Officially only a week my love. Have fun in New York and be gentle with carter. Looks like a cool kid already with those long hairs. I love you immensely principessa mia. Try to sleep on the plane and get some rest. Stay safe pat. Text me when you land🐒❤🐽un bacio grande, safe flight. ‎[12/20/18, 11:20:18] Captain P.: ‎image omitted [12/21/18, 11:16:57] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, the world makes sense in its complexity to me only becuase I can rationalise it with the means of our love. Affection is the only answer and taking care of eachother is the beautiful aspect in a grey world where colors are visible only when under the light of love. Looking at Daniels and michis picture I got so homesick about our adventure in Paris and the days when we would take any transport method to see eachother and location was just a physical place where to express our love. Istambul was a tipping point when our long distance entered a new level. I rember me staring at the wall in that airbnb room while you departing towards Dubai once again. I really felt full of love and passion back then, but the fire is still the same. I love you Pathead. Miss you loads here. Happy you’re there with the doggos and carter the fat one. Un bacio grande patata. Sleep tight mia principessa and tesoro. 🐒❤🐽 [12/22/18, 01:50:21] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, a meaningful life is possible only when love is there. Amore im so excited to hug you very soon and kiss you all and have you in my arms. I’m dying to talk to you all the time and staying together all day. How much I miss you is crazy my love. I’m always looking at my future thinking when is the next time that I can see you and when we will be living together and how are we going to build our house and how we will live the amazing time that will be given to us. You are my star, My guiding light and hope in this world of strangers. You are my best friend and lovers ti amo amore mio. Babe have fun. I will try to fell asleep thinking of you so that hopefully I will dream about our adventures. I want to travel all the world with you principessa. Buona notte tesoro mio🐒🐽🐽❤ tomorrow is finally sking day for me and very soon for you too. Un bacione patata [12/23/18, 12:01:53] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I miss you like crazy my oatata. Days here are long and physically intesinve. I’m already at the second slope. Always the first to start when the slopes open. It’s cold now and writing love notes it’s already a bravery action. Will be on series today.. in a while another bit. Ti amo [12/23/18, 15:36:11] Captain P.: Dear patata finally im inside a hut and the phone is again on. I’m alone under the sky without you. I’m alone again tonight without you my princess. I wish every night was not alone and we will be working towards that, in the mean time I’m waiting the 27th as if it was Christmas. It’s my best gift my love. I hope your sleeping tight my pat and that family time is being good. Hope I can hear your voice at least for a sec later pat. Un bacio grande tesoro, stay safe my treasure🐒❤🐽 [12/24/18, 03:00:51] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I’m missing you like water in the desert. Where are you? I really need to see your beautiful face and kiss you all in 4 days. I’m dying of homesickness love. If I can recall the night in Oman when you were scared for the cockroach I was feeling blessed not to be scared and help you out my principessa. I miss you dearly touching your hair and face I can’t wait. Going to bed here love, good to be with family. Only problem is that to me you are my family now and I need to have you next to me otherwise I don’t feel home any longer. Can’t wait to screw you and pamper you and doing all things together once again. Un bacione grande patata❤🐒🐽 enjoy your evening. Send me pics and tell what you are up to. Ti amo patata [12/25/18, 02:17:57] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, days are passing by slowly without you next to me and I’m just counting every second. I m really suffering this separation and I truly need to find a way to speed up the process to be finally living together all the time. Anyways since it’s time I wish you, your mum odile and Ron a happy Christmas and also to fatass carter celebrating his first one and roxy and ruby as well. Are you walking the girls always?Soon we will be celebrating all our cristams together pat and one day also with our dog so you’ll love me more. I don’t even know why we need to stay away while we are so much in love, so silly all this need of building up to then have a maybe better opportunity. Anyway I will make this worth it by remembering this is time stolen to us. I love you honey, you are the best encounter and the person I love the most on this planet ever. The moment I will hug you in Malpensa I’m gonna feel home. No one ever made me feel like you do. I need to pamper you and touch your pategg and sleep together and talk patlanguage and go around the world together again. You’re so precious. This love is so precious. I love you deeply honey and miss you loads these days. Un bacione patatozza mia, have a nice evening and sleep tight principessa. Enjoy newyork tesoro. Buona notte🐒❤🐽 [12/26/18, 01:39:26] Captain P.: My patata, don’t be sad about that it was a stupid mistake of mine but nothing has never been truly behind that. You are my best friend, lover and only love forever. Trust this please and don’t ever doubt that [12/26/18, 01:40:14] Captain P.: I can’t wait to talk about everything and see you super soon [12/27/18, 03:04:09] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I can’t wait to see you tomorrow pat. I’m super tired tonight, finally got home and tomorrow leaving at 8 with my train. I really want to pamper your head and go eat everything with you. Are you ready to fly? Be safe and stay good till tomorrow at 11:55 pat than I’ll take care of you [12/27/18, 03:04:20] Captain P.: I love you honey 🐒❤🐽 [12/27/18, 03:05:06] Captain P.: Just super dead now. Please don’t be late for the plane and try to get some rest. Un bacione grande mia principessa. Finally tomorrow I see you [1/6/19, 02:42:49] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, there is nothing more important than you in my life. The fulfilment of staying together and sharing time is the strongest form of existing I’ve ever experienced. The present is more precious than the past and creating love memories is what I want to do for life. I want to work to Foster our love and never stop exploring this world with you Pathead. I feel we are like a mountain flower so rare and fragile yet stronger than any low land rose. It’s amazing how our imperfection given the long distance, cultural back ground and life situation makes our love so beautiful, powerful and strong as headwinds. I miss you dearly already. I just want to live my life with you at home and always next to me. Un bacio grande mia principessa. I exist to live the next present of us together again. Buona notte amore mio🐒❤🐽 good luck with being back to work tomorrow. I love you [1/7/19, 02:47:44] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, princess and pathead I only want to stand beneath the firmament with you and stare at the stars forever. I hate that you wear such a sexy sleeping pigiama when not with me and I only dream of you tonight in this bed alone. I can’t wait for the day when this distance and love notes will just be a funny story, however at the same time I do not want time to pass because our love must live in eternity and also our bodies must be preserved in their freshness. We are two nearly blossomed flowers, approaching summer with strong petals. I want ya to be like this forever. If I could only stop time and live this present always I would. This joy and fierce of live I hold now is mostly thanks to you and our love and I will always be grateful for the strength you give me. I miss you dearly tesoro mio. You are mynprincess and I wish I could touch you and kiss your forehead now. Buona notte patata. Un bacio grande and visit me in my dreams honey🐒❤🐽 [1/8/19, 03:23:16] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you love me three thousands times? Than I love you 6 thounds. But the truth is that there is no scale is just a spectrum on a range and we are currently very close to the centre , to the perfect balance where there is no right or wrong, Black or white. Everything is balanced, in perfect equilibrium. We satisfy our need of love with the just perfect amount of kisses and mental satisfaction. How I  wish you were here in my arms now trying out and experiencing more this amazing sesnsion of what live love is. You are my princess and my star I will always be yours and I can’t wait for the moment when this distance will just be a funny memory. I love you my Pathead. Buona notte tesoro mio, sleep tight and visit me tonight. 🐒❤🐽ti bacio principessa mia [1/9/19, 00:45:20] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, how I wish you were here all the time to hear this love note voice all the time. I laugh so much with you and my life is joyful ever since I met you. You bring me happiness, harmony and give me the strength I need to survive the darkness of this world. I found the happiness to look at everything with passion, interest and care. Love is such an amazing endurance power and you are my hidden, unspoken force that works as a energiser. I love you immensely and I don’t know how I would be without my Pathead. Lover, princess, best friend, travel buddy, sex bomb and more. You are my person and the only one I wanna stare to the star with. Un bacio grande and come over visit me in my dreams. Sleep tight pat🐒❤🐽 buona notte tesoro mio [1/10/19, 00:37:59] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, there is no way people would ever understand our way of communicating. We are simply an example of what love is at its best. We can be serious and determined as much as silly and stupidly making fun of eachother varying from anyrange of age at anytime. That’s the beauty of it. Our love will keep us young, fearless but focus. I love you so much honey. I’m missing you like never before because every time I see you the bond gets bigger and I can’t deal with separation of bodies. I can’t wait to seee you again and touch your face, kiss you forehead and sleep together. Un bacio grande amore mio. Sleep tight and visit me in my dreams. Buona notte patata ❤🐒🐽 [1/11/19, 01:23:45] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, the existence of love is such a controversial topic becuase im so ignorant about it. I think we are immersed in this amazing dream of happiness affection and sexuality but I can’t imagine the spring of such a sweet nurturing spice of our live. But what I can say is that you are the one source I yield everyday and I feel like your golden mine will never stop offering me new pathways to find this crazy thirst of life. So maybe love is the thirst of living at its best and it’s coming from the human nature to life adaptation. Maybe it’s becoming to brainy but there must be a utilitarian aspect of love and it has to do with our prolonged presence on the plant. What matters is that o love you and I miss you immensely. Goodnight my Pathead. I live for touching you very soon. Un bacio grande tesoro mio. Buona notte principessa and please don’t forget to visit me in my dreams🐒❤🐽 [1/12/19, 02:58:56] Captain P.: Love of my life, never feel alone. I’m always with you and will always be. [1/12/19, 04:20:44] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, I’m finally home in my bed and you can’t imagine how I wish I could find you here next to me warming up the same blanckets and holding hands all night long. You are my star, my sunshine and moonlight in the nights darkness. There are no words to describe our love and you simply are my wonderful flower. I’m sorry if I made you feel as I forgot about my pathead today but it’s totally not the case. Whenever I go I see your eyes and everything I ralate to you thinking how you’d like or not like or speculating how you would react to so many things. You are part of my and you’ll always be with me becuase I won’t ever be able to see the world under a lens scope which doesn’t include you as a lovely filter. I would give everything to sneak in your room now and warmly hug you from behind and spoon you as always. Buona notte principessa. Sleep tight and stay safe. I love you to the pathead and back. Un bacio grande tesoro mio🐒❤🐽 always

[1/13/19, 04:33:21] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, everyday that passes without you next to me is lost. I miss you dearly and I would do anything to make you happy. You are my star and I don’t know you I am without you. You make my push the limits and see this world under a different light. You are my guiding light and life dream princess. Tonight I saw a movie called free solo, you should watch it as well. Made me really thirst of going for a big road trip in some nice natural place with you love. I can’t wait till every time vacations are gonna be with you in the nature. I want to travel the world with you honey. Un bacio grande. I will sleep with this dream and hopefully it will all become reality. Buona notte tesoro mio🐒❤🐽I love you [1/13/19, 08:58:51] YL: So tired pat [1/14/19, 01:31:11] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, there are days that long distance hits ya more than what we wish and some others that are gift to us with kindness and richness. Let’s focus on the fortune we have rather than what we are missing out on. We found eachother, we love eachother and against all the odds we manage to endure, to fight for one another and to fly to our beloved pat anytime there is an open window. Anywho I can’t wait to be in UAE with you and travel around or even just prepare dinner at home and wait for you, go to DTF and mealtop and this time there’s gonna be super nice weather hence we will hit the beach and the pool. My only love you are the sunshine of my life and the star of my solo nights. I love you dearly and I would never exchange the pain of the long distance with anything else rather than us. Be always healthy and safe. I don’t wanna live in a world where you are not there. Love is a crazy adventure and so far you are the one making me discover its beauty. Let’s never stop this. Un bacio grande e buona notte amore mio🐒❤🐽 love you [1/15/19, 03:02:16] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you are my only potato and turtle girl and egg head and sexy beast. You’re my fire and only desire. I miss you dearly honey bunny. My life is for you and for us and I can’t wait to see you the soonest. My highlight of the day is when I see you and I can talk patlanguage with you and I love to see your face to be the source of your smile. I want always to look at the stars hand in hand I can’t wait to build a house soon with you and deepen our love story with a roof, a shared bed and one day a family. I love you my princess and this will never change. I’m so lucky to have you and glad to have meet you in the crazy Swiss period. Buona notte amore mio🐒❤🐽sleep tight and visit me. [1/16/19, 02:23:28] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you always bring life and happiness in my life. I’m so proud of you learning Italian, you’re so much stronger than me and always ready to take up a new challenge from square one with a smile on your face. I love you becuase you’re resources are infinite and you are to me a pandora box of stimuli which I would never find in any other existing being. Thank you for being my friend and lover and enduring in this difficult situation. Let’s stick together till the end of time. Ti bacio my beloved principessa and send you loads of bacioni. Buona notte stellina🐒🐽❤ visit me tonight please [1/17/19, 03:14:11] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you are my happiness. I don’t know how i would be able to smile without you. I don’t know what is life without you anymore. Thanks to you I manage to survive and breath every day in this gloomy weather. The thought of you somewhere walking on those sexy legs and keeping that bright running makes me feel alive, dizzy and alive. I can’t wait the day when we will be for real sharing the same bed every night and hold hands with the perspective of conducting a shared existenxenfor the rest of the time gifted to us. We only live once and we need to get this very soon. I’m thinking and working only towards that goal my pat. Un bacio grande mia unica principessa. My love for you is infinite. Buona nottte tesoro😘🐒❤ [1/18/19, 10:51:11] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, last night this message was all nice and written and then my phone switched off with 39% battery and I felt a spleen again while charging it. Nevertheless, new day new love note in my hands. I love you genuinely and for the good person you are. Also for your seriousness about things I care and bringing me to reality with some nice ideas about life and beliefs. I love you long legs and your elegant figure. I want to sleep with you for the rest of my life and feel your body on mine is the nicests thing that can happen to me. Soon the day is coming for us being unsaperdabke. It’s an invisible countdown and it’s working for us. Un bacio grande pat [1/19/19, 03:18:55] Captain P.: Dear love of my life, you are my princess and I could never live without you anymore. My pathead I can’t wait to see you in Dubai soon and being pampered at night with your presence and stand under the moon together again. Just have a stroll and being together again. The life you bring to me exiting and energetic. I’m also so proud of you pat being out there and win your steak every day. I’m Happy for you and admire you. Anyways lover and sunflower sleep well tonight tesoro. Come visit me in the under dreams🐒❤🐽 [1/19/19, 03:21:22] YL: Excuse me [1/19/19, 03:23:26] YL: Why did you turn your phone off pat [1/19/19, 11:34:15] Captain P.: Pat [1/19/19, 11:34:30] Captain P.: I always put flight mode at night

                 – Go deep, deeper, follow its shadow like it’s your own

The streets are not any busier than they would be on any other day. The world still moves at a fast pace and its sounds are just as hectic. Cars honking, people rushing, a greeting in the background, the sound of teenagers giggling in unison.  An arm extends towards you, a hand delivers a sweet offer neatly wrapped in a colorful transparent plastic. A smile is delivered from the girl who tends to the small table where little yellow and blue pots rest. It’s probably just some new shop advertising their products anyway but the girl is compelling enough that you do taste the tiny chocolate egg, either on the spot or later. It’s okay, tasty, but nothing special… or is it?

There is A LOT more to those tiny and tasty chocolate eggs. Their effect is not immediate but it’s sure to come once you fall asleep that night and in a way, they are magical. You may feel lethargic and tired – more than usual – as the night approaches and as you fall asleep, your subconscious awakes in a different place. The sensation is that of a dream, but a very lucid and vivid one, as if you are indeed living it, because you are.. Everything is real even if it’s happening in a warped world that you can’t recognize and therefore don’t know how to get out of. 

Something draws your attention though. In the corner, there is a glowing egg – red in color – you take it and it opens unexpectedly. Inside, a message: ‘look for the white rabbit’ and the piece of a puzzle. As you walk, you will realize there are more of those colored, glowing eggs and although some are empty, others will have other puzzle pieces and some, will have clues, rules or even commands which you must follow. However, those don’t seem to be easy to find and while looking for them, you may come across some hurdles. After all, remember, you are still dreaming and not all dreams are good … 

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– OOC DETAILS:

congratulations, your muse ate an hallucinogenic chocolate egg and now, they’re trapped in a collective dream which they will share with everyone who ate the egg. Meaning that yes, you will find most of them there and here’s where you should interact. 

your muse has no idea where they are or even if they’re asleep. this world is so real that it will make you doubt everything and probably render you paranoid about some things. 

they are in a sort of REM state of sleep, so there will be strange things like it often happens in dreams… and in nightmares. 

the dreamscape looks like an underground maze. it's dark, cold and there is an echo most of the time which makes them think they are in some sort of cave. to put it in perspective, think of it as similar to dedalus' labyrinth, the one built to trap the Minotaur.

everyone starts this trial with one glowing egg which contains the same message and one puzzle piece. there are dozens of eggs hidden, some of which you are free to find, but they will ALL be fake (aka they’re empty). 

There are 15 REAL eggs – 5 of them have one puzzle piece each and the other 10 have clues, situations or instructions which you must follow (think of alice in wonderland when the cake said ‘eat me’ and she did.) and some will have consequences while others won’t, so it will be a matter of luck. These real eggs CAN’T BE FOUND BY THE MUSES AS THEY WILL BE GIVEN OUT BY THE MAIN!!!!!  For the duration of this event, the main will be in charge of releasing the eggs at non-scheduled hours of the day through posts. Your task is to claim that egg first which you can do by LIKING the post. (ex: the main releases an egg. first person to like the post claims that egg. everyone who comes next will have lost that opportunity and will have to try to snag the next one we post. we’ll post 15, so there’s plenty of opportunities for things to happen to everyone).

Out of the 15, only 5 will have puzzle pieces which your muse will need to collect so that they can put the puzzle together. Remember that everyone who’s participating starts with one piece each so you will need all the pieces whether you work together to gather them together or you go through not-so-conventional ways to get them (share them, give them out, steal them from others – here’s where you can be creative with your interactions and your threads for the event). Nonetheless, you won’t know what the egg you claimed contains until you receive a message from the main indicating what it is. (you will need to reply to that message and post it for everyone to know what you got). Imagine your egg contains a mission, you will be reacting/doing it on the dash; if your egg contains a piece, you can react to your muse opening it and finding the piece to add it to their count. 

for organizing purposes, we would like to ask you to have a tally sheet where you can put the count of your puzzle pieces. (you can either make a page for it and link it in your blog, you can put it in the description of your blog or you can even make a post and update it whenever you earn another piece.) The amount of pieces will be the amount of members who participate plus the 5 pieces that the main will release. (we will update the total count once we gather how many people will be participating in the event)

in the end, when the puzzle is completed, it will show a white rabbit – which is what everyone is looking for (remember your first clue?). When all the pieces are collected and are in one place, everyone will wake up from their “dream”. If they can’t come to terms or find the rabbit, they will be trapped forever (insert evil laugh here). If one person or group gathers the pieces, they can send a message to the main with the word “completed” and automatically the dream will end. If no one does, the dream will be deemed completed at the last day of the event.

This event will last from today, the 16th until the 30th. After the due date, no event threads can be started, but you are free to keep the ones you have going until you finish them if you so desire. Please tag all of your event interactions with krevent: rabbit hole so that everyone can easily follow. Also, make sure to like this post to display the fact that you will be participating.

If you have any doubts or questions, our ask and IM are always open and I’m always here to answer whatever questions you have so don’t be afraid and ask away. 

Have fun and happy roleplaying ~

– Admin M

Reminisce | 3

Park Jimin ���I found myself falling more in love with you as I grew older.” You and Jimin were childhood best friends until you had to move away. As years passed and you both aged, the separation between your friendship deepen and you never heard from him again. More than a decade passed and you suddenly stumble upon the man who you never stopped thinking about. Word Count: 4,210 Italics = flashback (Y/F/N) = Your Full Name

Prologue | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4

I will be updating less frequently bc school is starting again and I know i will not have time to update )): im sorry, but i am tremendously happy for all the love and support for my stories so far

“Why don’t you come back to my place? It’s late and I don’t think you have the keys to your own house. My apartment is only a city over.” The bright digital numbers read 2:08 AM. Jimin’s hands were shoved into his pockets as you both waited for a taxi to drive by.

You sighed, your breath visible in front of you. He was right. You had no way to get into your dad’s house and you were unsure if he was even home. If he was, you didn’t have the heart to wake him up. “You don’t mind?”

“As long as you don’t mind spending another couple of hours with me.” Jimin chuckled and hoisted your suitcases into the arriving vehicle. He followed you into the car and you rested your head against the window. 

You felt something brush against your right hand. You didn’t check what it was because you knew what it was. Jimin’s hand slyly rested under yours and he loosely intertwined your fingers. You blushed and thanked the darkness for concealing the red mess on your cheeks.

Jimin dragged you into the elevator and pulled you to his door when you arrived at his floor. The building was tall and fancy, like one of those hotels your family and Jimin’s family used to stay in on vacations.

“I want to share a room with (Y/N)!” Jimin was nine and you were seven at the time. He was beginning to show signs of growth while you were still very much a child.

Both of your families had planned a trip to Hawaii and stayed at one of those big, expensive hotels with two pools and an ocean view. The carpet was patterned and soft underneath your toes. The beds were big and their sheets smelled like coconut. 

“(Y/N) is a girl and you are a boy, Jimin. A girl needs her own personal space.” Jimin’s father slid the key card into the door of his room. Jimin pouted and wouldn’t let go of your small hand.

He viciously pulled you into the room and helped you up on one of the gigantic mattresses. “Do you want to share a room with me?” He asked you quietly. 

You giggled and hugged him tightly. “Mhm.” You nodded excitedly. You liked being with Jimin. He was your close friend and he made you really happy. At seven, you were unsure what these feelings really meant. You only knew that you wanted him to stay with you.

“Okay, then we will. We can have this bed to ourselves.” He pulled away from the hug and tucked you into the soft covers. He joined you soon after you were set. “Does your mommy give you a kiss goodnight?” 

You nodded and smiled. “Does yours?” He nodded as well. “How about I give you a kiss goodnight and you give me one? I think my mommy is still downstairs and your daddy went to the bathroom.” 

“That sounds good.” Jimin laid down next to you and kissed you on the cheek. “Goodnight, (Y/N).” 

You giggled once more and kissed his cheek. “Goodnight, Jimin.” 

Jimin’s apartment was majority empty. If you didn’t know he lived here, you would’ve thought no one lived here at all. His furniture was simple and tidy. The smell of the apartment was his though. It smelled like Jimin’s musky cologne. He tossed his luggage into his room. 

There was only one bedroom and one bathroom. It was comfortable, for him at least. There was no way a group of 3 could live cozy in the small area. 

“I can sleep on the couch. My sheets are washed, so they’re clean. I haven’t touched the bathroom since I left, so it’s clean as well. Make yourself at home, I guess.” He fluffed out the pillows on the small sofa.

“It’s okay. I can sleep on the couch. It’s your house, Jimin. You should be sleeping in your own bed.” You laughed. His eyebrow went up and you knew what he was thinking. Whenever you slept over at his house, you absolutely refused to sleep on the couch. You always slept with Jimin in his bed. 

“You? On the couch? Are you sure?” 

“Positive.” Awkward tension filled the air and you locked yourself in his bathroom to escape it.

The couch was immensely uncomfortable. Without the lights on, his living room was pitch black. You couldn’t adjust your eyes on any source of light. Checking the time, you groaned at the sight of 3:44 AM. Jimin had gone to sleep about 15 minutes ago. It was a long night, so he must’ve fallen asleep. 

You folded the blankets neatly on the sofa and re-positioned the pillows to their previous display. You carefully walked towards his room, trying very hard not to make a sound. His door was open and you saw his breathing figure cuddled up in his white sheets.

His room had no mark of his own. It was like any other room. His bottles of cologne scattered his desk, along with some other products. You tiptoed over to the other edge of his bed. Slowly lifting up the covers, you slid into his warmth. You were tense, afraid that he would wake up. 

After a few seconds of reassurance, you relaxed and closed your eyes. His mattress shaped your body line well, unlike the couch, and you were so ready to drift into your dreams. The entire day was a tiring mess and you were incredibly exhausted.

Suddenly, the bed shifted and Jimin’s body was pressed against your back. His heat engulfed your chilled body and his arm lazily wrapped around your waist. His forehead rested against the back of your shoulder. 

“Took you long enough.” He mumbled. 

You turned around to face him. His eyelids were over his eyes, but his lips were curved up into a smirk. “Were you expecting me or something?”

“Yeah. (Y/F/N) doesn’t settle for the couch.” 

“Did I wake you?” You whispered. Jimin’s eyes slowly fluttered open. You panicked and quickly shut yours. You had to act like you weren’t just admiring his cute sleeping face.

You heard him laugh a little. He grabbed your arms and placed them around his shoulders. You felt his raw skin underneath your fingertips. His strong arms wrapped around your lower waist, pulling you towards him. “No, I was awake waiting for you.”

The moment was very intimate and sweet. You wished he could hold you forever and time would stop to capture this very scene. “I missed you so much.” You blurted out into his collarbone.

“I missed you too, babygirl.” Your heart burned at the name. Everything was confusing. You were unsure how Jimin felt about you, but he knew that you felt something for him. You didn’t know if these simple actions were merely being over analyzed in your head, or if he did feel the same about you. Either way, you loved every second of it. He wasn’t officially yours, but he was all yours right now. 

You’ve always imagine something like this, so you tried to savor every minute of it. You prayed that morning wouldn’t come so soon and the universe was on your side, just for this one time.

You woke up to the sound of someone's ringtone. Jimin turned over to pick up, his warmth escaping you quickly. His deep, raspy morning voice filled the silence.

"Hello?" You groaned quietly at the absence of his arms. Curling back against his body, you pushed your face into the side of his bicep. He welcomed you, casually, wrapping his arm around your shoulders and drawing you close.

"Yeah. I know. I should've called, yeah, I got it. But you knew I was coming back-- alright. Okay, don't be upset." Jimin spoke with annoyance. All the while, he was subconsciously draw small circles on your hip bone.

You peered up at the preoccupied man. His hair represented a birds’ nest, parts of his hair pointing up and his forehead exposed. His eyes were closed, but his phone was pressed closely to his ear. His collarbones pushed against his fair, raw skin. His complexion contrasted the pure white bed sheets. His red lips were plump and pressed together. You had such a strong desire to kiss his beautiful morning state.

However, a woman's voice ranted angrily through the receiver and Jimin was obviously distraught. "I know, Mom. I forgot and I got distracted--"

You impulsively grabbed the phone out of Jimin's hand and pressed it against your ear. Jimin's eyes shot open and he looked puzzling at you. "Hello Mrs.Park, it's (Y/N)! We haven't spoken in such a long time."

She sounded confused, but it slowly registered to her that you were the small girl that was her son's prized companion when he was younger. "My dear, I didn't know you were coming into town! How have you been? It has been so long. How's your mother? Where are you staying?"

She was bombarding you with so many questions. All you wanted was alone time with Jimin, who merely admired your bare face lazily. "I spent the night at Jimin's apartment. I'll catch up with you soon, I'm coming over to see my Dad later today."

"Alright, dear. I'll see you then." You quickly hung up after wishing her a goodbye and threw Jimin's phone somewhere on the plush bed.

"Good morning, sunshine." Jimin greeted.

"Can I kiss you?" You went straight for it. No more beating around the bush. Even if he denied the request, you were still satisfied with the nightly cuddles.

He looked at you, shocked at the sudden question. His lips slowly turned into a smirk and his eyebrow rose, "not even a good morning, kiddo?"

He was back with the platonic nicknames. You sighed and saw your chances were slim. Slightly getting up, you planned on getting ready for the day. However, he pulled you back down and you hovered over him. "Well, aren’t you going to kiss me?" He whispered and you leaned down.

Your heart was beating quickly as you drew closer to his sweet escape. Inexplicable words filled your heart, waiting to burst at any moment. It was finally happening. The kiss that has been harboring for more than a decade. The kiss that the younger you always tried to achieve.

Your lips met, barely grazing on top of one another. His lips soft and plushy. His breath steady against your cheek. It was only a peck, you pulled away fast after contact.

Jimin laughed after the small kiss and drew you into a hug. "That was so cute." He smiled against your temple as your face turned colors. Obviously embarrassed, you buried your head into the blankets. You felt his slobbery kisses paint your forehead. Laughing, you pushed at his chest to stop him. 

He held on tight though. You couldn’t escape his strong arms. Innocent giggles bounced off his bedroom walls. Jimin suddenly came to a halt and blinked at you. “What?” 

“Remember how I use to cheer you up by tickling you?” He inquired. You nodded. Those were torturous, but sweet moments. 

You hated preschool because you always missed your parents. You were one of those kids that cried every morning at drop off. The ones that wrapped their short arms around their mom’s leg and sobbed without caring who heard. 

The grudge that they left you there for the entire day lingered with you. When they picked you up, you’d angrily cross your arms and frown. “You left me there!” You whined.

Everyday after preschool, you needed to pick up Jimin from elementary school. Your mom always used that against you. “If you don’t stop whining, we are not going to see Jimin. We are going to go straight home.”

That only made your lips quiver and you bursting into tears. You eventually caught on that that was never an actual option. You were Jimin’s ride home. 

Even though you were a crying mess every time Jimin entered the car, he always made the effort to cheer you up. To make you laugh at least once was his goal. To do that, that meant he needed to tickle you. He knew all your weak points and tickling you never failed to put a smile on your face.

Jimin greeted your mom happily when he entered your car and buckled up next to your car seat. He sighed, “hello to you too, cry baby.”

“I’m not a cry baby!” You said, while crying. He smiled and spoke over your wails.

“Here comes the tickle monster!” He laughed as he gently tickled your sides. You fell into a fit of giggles and he didn’t stop until hiccups formed. 

“Are you better, kiddo?” The 8 year old boy questioned. You nodded eagerly and the smiles never left your youthful face. “Good. I hate seeing my favorite girl cry. I like it when she smiles.” 

“I meant it when I said I liked seeing you smile.” He picked up your chin and you rolled your eyes. 

“Shut up, Jimin.” You groaned and kicked off the sheets. He followed you into the bathroom and hugged you from behind. He snuggled his head into the crook of your neck and inhaled deeply.

The intimacy continued and you fell crazy into confusion. Then, Jimin’s teeth grazed across your exposed skin and sucked roughly. Your eyes widen at the action as you watched him in the mirror. His eyes were closed and his plump lips wrapped around a small spot on your neck.

“Jimin!” You pushed him away and a deep, purple mark appeared. The prominent mark did not go away no matter how hard you rubbed at it. “I have to go see my dad today!”

“It’s not like he doesn’t know who I am.” He smirked and prepped his toothbrush. 

“Am I suppose to tell him I’m sleeping with you now?” You sarcastically shot at him. 

Shrugging, the nonchalant boy leaned against the door frame watching you frantically trying to rub away the mark. “I mean you did.” 

“Sleep as in I’m hooking up with you.” You rolled your eyes again.

That made him laugh loudly. “We won’t rush into those things.” 

“Jimin, what are you implying?” 

“Nothing. We’re friends, (Y/N). Best Friends.” Jimin emphasized on “best”. 

Disappointment dropped to your stomach. It churned at your foolishness at believing you were something more than that. He was ultimately messing with you, teasing you. However, there was nothing you needed to hide anymore. 

Your secret of your crush was out. You could ask for the wildest things and he’d still allow you to do it. So, you let him have his fun, since he let you have yours. 

“Why do you live in an apartment when your parents live a city away?” You asked as Jimin cruised out of the complex’s parking lot. His car was another representation of his apartment --- neat and empty. The familiar musky scent filled your lungs when you had entered the vehicle. 

“Because the studio I work with is a couple blocks down the street and I can’t bring women home whenever I would like to my parent’s house.” He smirked as he swiftly turned the steering wheel. You two sat in silence for majority of the trip and Jimin had turned on some soft tunes to ease the tension. However, the burning question pondered in your head.  

“So you bring women back to your apartment?” The fact that he brought other women to his apartment irritated you. It was the irrational side of you thinking, letting your crush for him think for you. He was a grown, young man. An attractive young man, who probably gets lonely from time to time. Even if he did say he didn’t have a girlfriend, he never said that he wasn’t sexually active. 

“You jealous?” He chuckled. He drove with one hand on the wheel and his elbow resting on the center console. 

Right on cue, your phone rang. Pilot Kim’s ID flashed on your screen and you looked up to see Jimin eyeing the device from the corner of his eye. “Hello?” 

“Hey (Y/N). It’s me. I was wondering if you’re free later tonight. I still want to treat you to a drink.” The sweet man offered.

“Pilot Kim---”

“Please, call me Taehyung.” He interjected your response.

“Taehyung, I would love to take that offer. However, I am unsure whether my father wants to have dinner with me tonight.” You spoke formally and professionally with him. He was your superior and you needed to respect him.

Jimin fidgeted at your side. He periodically checked your facial expressions as you spoke with Taehyung. Once he heard the deep, husky male voice, he was all ears. 

“Oh I totally understand your visiting family. I’m free all night, even into the later hours.” Taehyung persisted. You bit your lip and failed to find any more excuses.

Jimin casually interrupted you as you both pulled into your old neighborhood, “Do you know if your dad’s home?”

“Jimin!” You scolded him. You wanted Jimin’s existence to be as discreet as possible. You didn’t want to explain anything to any of your colleagues.

“Are you with someone, (Y/N)?” Taehyung asked quickly.

You sighed and glared at the boy with the prized smile on his face, “yeah. I’m with an old friend right now.” 

“Sorry. I’ll leave you alone, but if you are still up for drinks, just hit me up.” 

“Of course, thank you.” You hung up and lightly punched Jimin.

“Ow! What was that for?” He parked into his parent’s driveway and turned off the engine.

“’Do you know if your dad’s home?’” You mocked childishly. Rolling your eyes, you hastily unbuckled your seat belt.

“What? Was he your boyfriend?” 

“No, I told you I don’t have one.” You crossed your arms. 

“Then what’s the big deal?”

“I don’t want to explain to any of my colleagues as to why some guy’s voice randomly appeared in the middle of my phone call with my co worker.” You were about to step out of the car, but Jimin pulled you back in.

“What would you even need to explain?” He urged. You blinked at him for a few moments and soften your hard expression. 

“N-Nothing.” You nervously stammered. You mentally slapped yourself for assuming --- once again --- that you two were anything more than friends.

Sure he knew about your feelings for him, but it didn’t change the fact that you two were not together. 

“I’m sorry, bud. I shouldn’t have rudely interrupted you like that. It’s a bad habit of mine.” Jimin never use to have that habit when you were friends with him. Maybe he adapted it when you left. You didn’t give it much thought because the old Jimin resurfaced. Jimin was always sincere and never wanted to truly upset you. 

You saw that Jimin wasn’t entirely a flirt. Jimin was still there. He was still thriving underneath the new playfulness. So vulnerable and loving.

“It’s okay. I overreacted, like always.” You ruffled his perfect sweep of hair and climbed out of his car. He followed you out and you crossed over to your old house.

“I don’t think he’s home.” You said after ringing the door bell for the third time. A frown evidently appeared on your face and Jimin rubbed your shoulders to console you. 

“He might be at work. Let’s go see my parents first. I bet Mom is dying to see you after knowing your back.” He walked you over and unlocked the doors to his house.

“Mom? Dad? I’m home. I also brought a guest.” He yelled into the empty space. Everything was exactly like how you remembered it. 

The familiar women appeared from their kitchen. She smiled brightly at you and opened her arms to embrace your small figure. Jimin’s mom had aged only slightly. “My dear, my sweet sweet child. You’ve grown up to be such a beautiful young lady.” She tasseled your hair out of your face and caressed your smooth skin.

“Thank you. You still look like how I remembered you, not a day over 30.” You complimented and she laughed happily. 

“I missed you so much. It’s so nice to know you’re back.”

“I won’t be staying for long though.” 

“You’re not?” Both Jimin and his mother asked at the same time. Both with curious and widened eyes.

You nodded and gently squeezed his mother’s hands. “I have to go back in the next 3 days. I’m a flight attendant, so I would need to go back with my airline.” 

“Then what are we doing here hanging out with my mom?” Jimin blurted out and received a small smack on his arm from his mother. 

“A flight attendant, that’s nice. Jimin travels a lot too.” Her smile never leaving her face. Jimin groaned and wrapped his arm around your lower waist. His mother’s eyes followed and stayed at his resting arm.

You uncomfortably wiggled out of his grip, but it didn’t work. “Mom, she doesn’t want to know the boring life I live.” 

“Alright. You can tell her yourself. I’ll stop mentioning it.” She sighed and you hurried to ask about your absent father.

“Do you know when my dad will be home?” 

“He comes home around 5 PM. Are you hungry? I can make your favorite.” She walked back into the kitchen and Jimin dragged you along. 

“I’m fine, thank you.” You declined politely as Jimin hurriedly up the stairs to his old bedroom. It was filled with cardboard boxes and old clothes scattered on the floor. A full mattress sat in the position of his old twin one. “What is this life that you claim is boring, Park Jimin? Getting a new girl every night and traveling does not sound anything along those lines.” 

He plopped onto the springy bed and lazily gazed at you as you spoke. “Have I ever told you I love it when you call me by my full name?” 

“You use to hate it.” You reminded him.

“Park Jimin! Park Jimin!” You blew a raspberry in his grumpy face. 

“My name is Jimin! Stop calling me by my full name!” The young boy demanded.

You crossed your arms, “you don’t pay attention if I call you Jimin. Park Jimin always gets your attention.” 

“That’s because I hate being called by my full name.” Jimin rolled his eyes and walked out of your bedroom.

“I think it sounds catchy.” You smiled and followed after him, singing his name. 

“Stop! I hate it!” He groaned and covered his ears.

“Why? I like it. Park reminds me of the park and how we always have fun at the park. Jimin, hm...uh..” you tapped your chin in thought, “.. it reminds me of you! And how you’re my bestest friend.” 

“Bestest isn’t a word, dummy.” A small smile appeared on his squishy, small face. His anger obviously decreasing. 

“Well, it’s a word to me and that’s what I’m going to use to describe you, Park Jimin.” You sassed and he, in response, tackled you into a big hug.

“Key word, use to.” He clarified. “I also don’t have a new girl every night, that would be too much work.” 

“I didn’t know someone like you needed to put in work.” You shaded him, enough for him to get the message. You wondered around the old room and scanned the past memories on the walls.

“Only slightly.” You scoffed at that answer. 

“Why do you travel so often?” You asked.

“I’m a choreographer, so I travel back and forth a lot.” You stopped and stared at him. 

“You’re a choreographer? What happened to firefighter Jimin?” 

Jimin popped up and walked up to you. “Firefighter Jimin died after he realized he was afraid of fire.” Both of you laughed, the sounds of giggles mixed together harmoniously. “How did you become a flight attendant? What happened to becoming a princess?” 

You scoffed and flicked his forehead. “I found out I really loved travelling after I left here and got on the airplane. I had friends doing it at the time, so I decided that I should give it a try. Also, I can’t be a princess, that’s just impossible.” 

“Well, you can be my princess... you’re a princess to me.” Jimin smiled. You blinked at him, confused at how genuine that had sounded. 

“Jimin... stop playing around..” Jimin stepped closer until you backed up against his wall. 

Jimin tilted his head slightly and slowly intertwined your fingers together. “(Y/N).. my dear.. I wish I was just playing..” 

He leaned in and his plush lips fell gently against your own. You squeezed your eyes shut and his small hands traveled up to caress your face. Fingers dangled loosely around his wrists, precipitation forming at your palms, and every movement set in slow motion. It was the perfect scene for the perfect kiss, much different than the small peck from this morning.

Kissing Jimin was reviling and refreshing. The feeling was equivalent to finishing a marathon, or a tedious exam. The thing that you most desired was finally happening. You were kissing your best friend, Park Jimin. 

all of them. just fckin.. all of them. every single question. 1-100. good luck comrade.

fuck u, here it is:

1.      Is a kiss considered cheating?

-if theykiss a boy idm.

2.      Have you ever faked orgasm?

-yeahlmao

3.      If you could have one superpower, what would it be?

-shapeshifting

4.      Do you think you are going to be rich in 7-8-9 years?

-I fuckinhope so

5.      Tell us some funny drunk story.

-oh man,ive only been smashed once, and it was a night full of regrets and a lot ofcheating and gay stuff happened.

6.      Why are you no longer together with your ex?

-u knowwhat. fuck my ex, he was a manipulative cheating cunt and he broke up with meover snapchat.

7.      If you had to choose one way to die, what would it be? 

-bathtuband sleeping pills, im out painlessly.

8.      What are your current goals?

-be asuccessful bitch and build myself up.

9.      Do you like someone?

-wheneverI think of feelings I take a shot so idk..

10.   Who was the last person to disappoint you?

-my ex.

11.   Do you like your body?

-eh imgetting there

12.   Can you keep a diet?

-no lmao

13.   If the whole world listened to you right now, what would you say?

-don’t discriminateagainst sex workers and treat them like actual people.

14.   Do you work?

-yep, gota retail job and everything.

15.   If you could choose only one food to eat to the rest of your life, whatwould it be?

-ayesalad, bc anything you cut up and put in a bowl is salad, so pizza salad, fruitsalad, ice cream salad, anything.

16.   Would you get a tattoo?

-hellyeah, im actually thinking about getting this floral one on my thigh, gottalike, tell my mum tho.

17.   Something you don’t mind spending all your money on?

-theperson I love,,

18.   Can you drive?

Ive onlyhad like, one driving test ever.

19.   When was the last time someone told you you were beautiful?

-at therink on Friday? Someone said I was beautiful and that my ex didn’t deserve me:)

20.   What was the last thing you cried for?

-when I drinkI don’t cry, so ive been drinking a lot.

21.   Do you keep a journal?

-yep,serves as my receipts.

22.   Is life fun?

-ehhhhitll get there.

23.   Is farting in front of people irrelevant?

-I don’t reallycare, just warn me so I have time to get out of there.

24.   What’s your dream car?

-somethingI don’t have to use petrol for.

25.   Are grades in school important?

-justnail ur finals and ur good.

26.   Describe your crush.

-its tooearly homie

27.   What was the last book/movie that really impressed you?

-WONDERWOMAN HOLY SHIT A+

28.   What was your last lie?

-im fine

29.   Dumbest lie you ever told? 

-idk, I normallytell the truth, its such an effort to lie.

30.   Is crying in front of people embarrassing?

-no I doit all the time lmao

31.   Something you did and you are proud of?

-Teamedup with my Best Friend and Absolutely Called the shit out of my Ex out andfuckin roasted him.

32.   What’s your favourite cocktail?

-I haven’tdelved into cocktails too much yet, ive been drinking straight.

33.   Something you are good at?

-iceskating?? idk

34.   Do you like small kids?

-I hatekids so much

35.   How are you feeling right now?

-There

36.   What would you name your daughter/son?

-daughter:Lavender? Idk I just watched matilda and I was like what a pretty name, andboys: Christian?  

37.   What do you need to be happy?

-abillion dollars

38.   Is there some you want to punch in the face right now?

-my ex

39.   What was the last gift you received?

-does mycoworker buying everyone hot chocolates and frozen cokes during their shiftcount as a gift

40.   What was the last gift you gave?

-a fidgetcube?

41.   What was the last concert you went to?

-panic atthe disco in January :D

42.   Favourite place to shop at?

-ittotally was this gothic shop in Newtown, but then it moved and I don’t knowwhere it is anymore :/

43.   Who inspires you?

-myselfbitch

44.   How old were you when you first got drunk?

-18

45.   How old were you when you first got high?

-never

46.   When was your first kiss?

-when I was15? 16?

47.   Something you want to do until the end of this year?

-be amermaid, like fr, go follow mermaid_shelly on Instagram no joke.

48.   Is there something in the past you wish you hadn’t done?

-dated myex

49.   Post a selfie.

-heres alink instead: http://darklarru.tumblr.com/post/161374174865/cat-cafe-aesthetic

50.   Who are you most comfortable around?

-my BestFriend

51.   Name one thing that terrifies you.

-to loseeverything I worked for

52.   What kind of books do you read?

-haventread a book in so long, but I like the fantasy genre

53.   What would you tell your 12 year old self?

-girl,girl, u gay as fuck

54.   What is your favourite flower?

-roses!!

55.   Any bad habits you have?

-speakingquietly

56.   What kind of people are you attracted to?

-peoplewho think the same as me

57.   What was the last thing you cried for?

-my ex :/

58.   Is there something you don’t eat? Some food that truly disgust you?

-pickles,what r they doin, get outta here

59.   Are you in love?

-yeah imalways in love

60.   Something you find romantic?

-tealightcandles

61.   How long was your longest relationship? 

-like 3or 4 months

62.   What are 3 things that irritate you about the same sex?

-wereso,, bitchy.

63.   What are 3 things that irritate you about the opposite sex? 

-they don’tknow what the fuck is up, they don’t listen, they always horny, theyre kindaviolent, theyre more hardcore and aggressive physically.

64.   What are you saving money for?

-anothermermaid tail,,, but also a house I guess

65.   How would you describe your bad side?

-emotional,angry, violent, temperamental, not thinking,, idk

66.   Are you actually a good person? Why?

-sometimesI guess, I try not to be shitty, but some people fuckin deserve it.

67.   What are you living for?

-a future

68.   Have you ever done anything illegal?

-probably

69.   Do you like your body?

-yeahsometimes

70.   Have you ever made someone feel bad about themselves intentionally?

-notunless we were fighting

71.   Ever sent nudes?

-whohasnt

72.   Have you ever cheated on someone?

-I cheatedon a guy with girl and I was very drunk, but then we said same sex cheating wasokay

73.   Favourite candy?

-redfrogs, gummy bears

74.   Is there a blog you visit every day, or almost every day? Tag it!

-imbarely on this hell site

75.   Do you play any computer games? What is your favourite game?

-adarkroomwas one of my Faves

76.   Favourite TV series?

-w.i.t.c.h.what a Classic

77.   Are you religious? Does God exist?

-yeah, imchill w god.

78.   What was the last book you read? Did it impress you and why?

-I haven’tread a book in so long yall.

79.   What do you think about vegetarianism/veganism?

-kudos tothem who r doin it but I really love chicken.

80.   How long have you been on Tumblr?

-sinceyear 9, so like, 2013

81.   Do you like Chineese food?

-I am Chinese

82.   McDonalds or Subway?

-subwayyyy

83.   Vodka or whiskey?

-fuuuuuuck,,,fucking love vodka but it makes my face screw up in a bad expression, and I lovefireball whiskey, but like, vodka gets me fucked up faster.

84.   Alcohol or drugs?

-alcohol,don’t do drugs kids

85.   Ever been out of your province/state/country?

-ya

86.   Meaning behind your blog name?

-I lovetypos

87.   What gets you up in the morning?

-spite.

88.   What are you scared of?

-a lot ofthings

89.   Last time you were insulted?

-wednesday

90.   Most traumatic experience ?

-my bf atthe time, was fuckin, chewin his toenails in his mouth, and I forgot bc he wasbein sweet n he stuck his tongue out to touch mine, n I stuck mine out too n I fuckni,,.,,,. touched the toenail w my mouth I nearly threw up, I felt my soul ejectfrom my body for a second.

91.   Perfect date idea?

-picnicdaate, and watching the stars and cuddling

92.   Favourite app on your phone?

-instagram?I check it the most.

93.   What colour are the walls in your room?

-white

94.   Do you watch Youtube? Who is your favourite youtuber?

-daviddobrik tbh

95.   Share your favourite quote.

-ifsomeone tells you that they hurt you, you don’t get to decide that you didn’t.

96.   What is the meaning of life?

-when thestreets are empty and the moon is shining and nobody is awake and its chilly,but your alone and maybe the wind is blowing through the grass, or whatever.

97.   Do you like horror movies?

-fuck nah

98.   Have you ever made your mum cry? What happened?

-I signedup for Netflix and didn’t tell her.

99.   Do you feel lucky or special in a way?

-I amspecial

100. Can you keep a secret?

-ya justmake sure u tell me its important.