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imdeadlysad · 1 year

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keeping myself numb as if it’s the solution to being suicidal

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iguessricciardo · 8 months

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im inconsolable

#feeling suicidal #googling how to give the loml my hand as we speak #:(((((#daniel ricciardo

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girljeremystrong · 7 months

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today's just .............

#feeling suicidal

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innateapathy · 1 year

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It's time I stopped chasing

Let the light fade me out

I'm farther away now

A lot of me is dead

I can't leave my bed

I've lost my shadow

And become a reflection

Of who I barely was

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daughterboy · 8 months

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the way i could literally get tickets to see loona and i might even have a ride but my classes go late that day and thats the only thing in the way 😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔

#feeling suicidal #slash j but not really

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old-fashioned-achibi-doll · 9 months

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Unless you've actually written one, nobody knows the incredibly sad, deep, and anguishing pain that comes with writing a suicide letter.

#suicidal thought #suicidal #feeling suicidal #sad #depressão #depressed

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bleedingfortherazorkiss · 2 years

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It has gotten so much worse again and I've been more suicidal by the day

Nobody has said a thing

I guess I'm good at playing indifferent

#tw suicide mention #tw suicice #feeling suicidal #suicide #suicidal #i hope i die #and soon #mentally tired #tired #burned out #trauma #actuallymentallyill #suicide vent #suicidal thoughts

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84by91nkd0ll · 2 years

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i never feel comfortable when things are going well because i know that at any time this will end in the worst way.

#feeling suicidal #i hate this

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fluctuating-fixations · 2 years

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BCS fans how we feeling tonight

#feeling suicidal #better call saul #BCS

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lastoneout · 5 months

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Ya know when people told me "when you're finally safe enough that you can leave survival mode and start to let go of and process your c-ptsd/trauma things are probably going to get really, really bad before they slowly start to get better" I thought that was reasonable. I did not understand that by "things are going to get bad" they meant "you're going to find yourself in the worst mental state of your entire life, but dw, that means it's working" and tbh I simply wish someone had been more clear.

Edit: If everyone could please take a minute and think about what it must feel like to be struggling and then have multiple strangers say to your face that they find the prospect of going through what you're going through so horrifying that they'd rather kill themselves and then stop leaving comments like that I would greatly appreciate it.

#hply fuck y'all I haven't felt like this?? ever???#tryinf to be gentle with myself #but I truly feel like I'm made of glass #personal #negative #vent #cw suicide mention #ask to tag

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herethebirdsjourneyends · 21 days

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#Feeling suicidal #Again

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danielleasbureaucouk · 1 month

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Tried 'shout' after last evening's debacle that everyone thinks is my fault. I'm not in charge of assignment deadlines, my mother has known about the deadline since last year, yet she still wants a holiday around it. I've had to ask for an extension today, which I don't feel I will get or worthy of as no doubt I'll get crap marks anyway. dad asked twice if I want her to know that I've asked. Why would I when I don't even know if I'll get it and it's bound to be used against me at some later date.

I feel ashamed of my degree now and I haven't even finished it yet, I wished I could turn the clock back and never started it.

I also feel my existence is resented and hated and quite frankly I don't want to continue on living any more as I don't see the point.

Shout was a complete waste of time. They are dealing with a high volume of messages at the moment. Another example of how little anyone cares.

#mother #father #feeling suicidal #shout #degree #open university

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stil-lindigo · 8 days

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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

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innateapathy · 1 year

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I want to fly,

Plummet freely from up high.

Stretch my hands out,

Towards the nearing ground.

A freedom just for me.

I want to fly,

Right to my death.

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misfit-among-the-angels · 3 months

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#feeling suicidal #But who cares #i just keep roleplaying my death on the ai rp app #even though i want to kill myself so much #but maybe I'm indeed a coward.... meant for suffering only...#suicidal #personal

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old-fashioned-achibi-doll · 1 month

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I'm sorry if I don't satisfy you sexually. I'm sorry if my medications affect my libido. I'm sorry if my polycystic ovary syndrome dampens my desire. I'm sorry if I bring a lot of stress from my academic life home. I'm sorry i feel myself fat and ugly all the time. I'm sorry if the way you treat me doesn't uplift me. I'm sorry for having depression, borderline, bulimia... I'm truly sorry you have to put up with me.

#vent #bpd thoughts #adulthood problems #depression problems #fat #no libido #relashionship problems #feeling suicidal

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