i exist, i exist, i exist

@ryebreadgf // holly warburton // ? // image from pinterest // letters to a young poet by rainer maria rilke

I sure hope we get at least one rerun between goth wives and Medusa...

I don't know how much time there usually is between an outfit being added and the actual event running

So let's just. Keep some hope.

Hey fun fact Arval is real and it's my tumblr mutual and they're always on my dash and I love it.

There’s so many things I want to do. I want to learn photography and develop photos in a darkroom. I want to make pottery, and fail so many times before I make something that stands on its own. I want to travel the world, and see oceans and mountains. I want to see the mushrooms come out in my backyard after it rains. I want to go on a road trip with all my friends and eat junk food and sing at the top of my lungs. I want to see theatre that makes me feel so deeply for everything. I want to paint badly and sing badly. How wonderful it is that I still have so much to experience.

Despite it all life feels so wonderful when you know that you're loved

I can do it, you guys. I can make it.

i love growing and getting older. the past few years beat a lot out of me. im less sensitive and shy, more skeptical. but ive also cultivated more passion and joy and fun, and i understand myself so much more. my friendships are so much deeper. and im still so young! im not even 25! i am so glad to be done with childhood and adolescence. i feel like my life is just beginning and i still have over 2/3 left of it

When I talk about something bad I've experienced, Baked In to my experience as A Woman, I am not "making my little cousins feel like shit for being women", because I am talking in a space with, allegedly, adults. I am not bringing my problems to children in the first place. That said, I don't HAVE to make my baby cousin feel bad, because she's already experienced sexual harassment in her life, and she's only 8, and doesn't even understand what any of it means yet. And everyone in her family can try to instill confidence in her, and never talk about our bodies in a negative way. But she can still feel like she's too chubby, because she still goes to school, and talks to other kids and their parents, and still sees ads, and still watches tv. We can be positive, but we can't fix the root of the problem. And I don't HAVE to tell trans women that "pain is a rite of passage", because that's not a Rule being enforced (by me), because I've already sat and listened to my friend complain about constantly shaving as a Baseline necessity and how it hurts her skin and she has to put makeup onto fresh cuts on her face because going out without a full face of properly feminine makeup would make her life worse, and being anything less than thin and lithe makes her "less feminine", and ALL the things that can make her "more feminine" are behind a paywall. And I can try to make her feel better, and I can hear her experiencing the tenfold version of problems I relate to, but I can't fix the root cause of her problems by just telling her not to complain. Forcing happiness as a core personality trait for women is not the Girlboss Feminist move that you think it is, and no amount of gender euphoria in the world will make you immune to systemic oppression.

i love being aro so fucking much

I hope everyone heals soon 🌱

Here are your pretty flowers

🌹🌸🌻🌷🌼💐🪷🌺

For trying each day.

Friendly neighbourhood reminder:

If you’re sick, it is so easy to feel overwhelmed, catastrophize, be in a low mood and so hard to self regulate.

Don’t think about your life. Don’t believe the things your brain tells you about you and your life.

Just be sick. Focus on rest, hydration, sleep, nutrition.

And, if life won’t allow you to engage in self care, just focus on getting through the day and remember it’s so hard because you’re sick.

If my body could sprak; "eat" by blythe baird // ocean voung // pinterest // ? // @ibvyache // holly warburton // @star-eaters @antidecay // @chenchenwrites on twitter // domenico fiasella // hum, hum by mary oliver

So. Um. This might be a stretch. In which case, fine. But I think there's something here: being turned was this big metaphor for sex, right? Losing your virginity. And it was terrible for Guillermo with Derek. It was messy and painful and not romantic or gentle or anything like he'd always imagined. And he regretted it.

But he was "turned" twice this season. Once by Derek, into a vampire. Then by Nandor, into a human.

And look at that scene. Look how kind and understanding and tender Nandor is with him. Always asking Guillermo what he wants and if he's sure and caring for his emotions.

If being turned is losing your virginity, then look at the fucking difference.

Imagine being pulled into an unexpected hug, your f/o putting their head atop yours while you're wrapped between their arms.

If they're usually hesitant to show their affection, this could just be them testing the waters. Maybe they're not used to receiving affection but they'll attempt give it to you, hoping that they can make up for the times they've acted distant.

"It's what you deserve after all," They mutter, leaning down to nuzzle their head into the crook of your neck, whispering sweet praises about how you're so precious to them.

Only slightly do you feel their embrace tighten.

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If they're usually affectionate, they treat this like a nice surprise. "You've worked hard today, how about I spoil you?" They whisper in your ear, a smile audible in their voice as they plant their lips on your forehead.

Their arms rest on your shoulders, so casually as if they were meant to be there. You look at them only to meet a gaze full of nothing but endearment, their hand going up to caress your cheek.

And it's almost like time could stop between the two of you.

☁︎ proship/comship DNI ☁︎

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