#fast forward and I'm fuckin druggie
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Reading excuses for being ia is boring so apologies in advance. Also this isn't supposed to be like a pity party thing istg this rlly standard shit dw about me
But I'm so sorry for being away for a minute. PTSD, depression, anxiety the usual PLUS I've been dealing with a pretty heavy drug addiction/withdrawal, rehab, y'know the shit show that that is. I'm hella dosed to deal with the symptoms from withdrawal and trying to not let my entire life fall into disrepair (the world doesn't stop when you do, ain't that the truth) so it might be a little while before I'm properly posting decent content.
But I just wanna say that the influx of support on my posted fics has meant the world to me, I never expected to receive this kind of a reaction. I love u guys so much, I'm gonna go stare at the wall in a drug induced stupor
#if it doesnt work just use a higher dose#ay yi yi i know im a weird ass mfer and youd expect me to do drugs but istg theyre prescription#my dr just kept filling it with no warning dude i should sue him#he was like okay dope chill#fast forward and I'm fuckin druggie#fanfic writer#kindyslife#and i got my period
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I've complained about this now disowned nasty cousin before: https://ellaintrigue.tumblr.com/post/626251881858088961/here-is-a-word-i-dont-use-often-evil-frankly And her attempts to hook me up with a creepy druggie: https://ellaintrigue.tumblr.com/post/625902021692833792/be-so-so-careful-over-the-span-of-my-early-adult
Time to move on, correct? I have her blocked on all formats and haven't spoken to her since 2020 after she repeatedly mocked my mom both to me and to her face, called her stupid, and said it was her fault she had cancer. Nonetheless, I checked my phone's blocked numbers folder because I thought I had blocked someone else by accident and saw where she has been trying to talk to me after I told her off. Ugh.
When mom passed I messaged her sister on Facebook saying I did not want this cousin there at the funeral, after dad said all his family was coming. I wouldn't have gotten violent or anything like that but I would have flipped my shit for sure if this woman showed up after hating my mom. And the sister is catty too, but never said super cruel things, just that mom was stupid. Whatever, I can do without both. Sister never responded so I sighed in relief when neither showed up at the service. I needed my peace that day and kept Erin close.
That was last month, now the problem cousin contacts Erin (the one cousin I speak to/best friend) on Facebook saying she "forgives" me for not inviting her and that she wants to talk to me even though she knows I don't want to talk to her! That's fucking crazy!!!
How many times do you need to tell someone off? I've dealt with this shit with men I've dated which is one thing but a nearly 50 year old woman I'm related to? It doesn't even make sense. She has a family and friends and a busy life, she should have optimal mental health and not be stalking me. But that's not how it works I guess.
Way back in like 2017 I was bickering with her over politics (we later formed a truce) along with another person, a 40+ year old man I had started talking to when I was 16 and he was 34. I don't describe him as a groomer but he definitely wanted to fuck me. Well, I got reported as being suicidal on Facebook! I got a message in the support inbox saying I had been reported by an individual for threatening suicide. Obviously I had never done any such thing and it had to have been either the cousin or Brian who did it because my profile was friends only and everyone else was kosher.
I've run into all kinds of freaks online and dated some as well, and you could say the frequency of it is embarrassing. But the fact that I am related to these women? Really fuckin' embarrassing! I know I am not 100% stable either but I do not stalk and I try not to do harm. I would never mock someone for having cancer. Say you don't like someone or that they're an idiot but don't go there.
2018, Accomack County:
I drove to my mom's and she said we were going to the R*tard Center! I was like, "mom, what the fuck are you talking about?" She said there was a gardening center where handicapped people grew plants and the proceeds benefitted the Center of R*tardation. I told her that it wasn't the 60s anymore and you didn't refer to people with mental differences as "r*tarded." She wasn't mad but she firmly said that was what it was called. Ugh, boomers.
We get in her SUV and she drives me to this greenhouse, and lo and behold, there is a sign in big block letters that says "Center of R*tardation" on it. Mom says, "see, look, I told you."
Lower Virginia is clearly stuck back in the old days, and not always in a quaint manner. Speaking of which. the other cousin, the sister of the evil one, isn't so appropriate either.
In 2001 I met the politer sister's then-boyfriend. He had a different face (gaping mouth, large teeth) and barely spoke, like he pretty much couldn't. I was 12 but I distinctly remember that. Fast forward to today and they have 2 children with sightly deformed faces and other medical issues. Previously, before she met this man, this cousin was a teacher for people with developmental issues and mental handicaps. My guess is that somewhere along the line, she met this guy, who clearly wasn't fully functioning, no offense to anyone out there. As some of you know, I am professionally diagnosed neurodivergent myself and am in no place to shit on people with handicaps. I view her marrying this man and having kids with him as taking advantage.
I know that the sisters had an abusive father which is nothing to judge but both women seem to have anger and control issues. I have no comments on their home lives, I do not know if they are good mothers or partners or not. But seeing how they treated a dying woman makes me question it all.
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