you know what i changed my mind. live albums slap. when the band warbles out the first few notes of a song and the crowd goes wild when they recognize what songs up next >>>
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i do not fully understand Why elsa knudsen is like There in the narrative in peckinpah's Ride the High Country.
she doesn't do a lot to underline peckinpah's most beloved themes, she's mostly there to get assaulted many times, i think her naivety and black-and-white sense of morality could have been collapsed into. what's this fucker's name. heck longtree. the young jaded one, without really affecting the plot very much. judd and elsa aren't even a great parallel to the more vicious pair of westrum and longtree.
the whole inciting incident, the "am i gonna double cross my old best friend in order to steal (checks notes) the $11k in gold we're transporting down a big mountain instead of the $250k i thought was here at this mine" more than fills the "honor and ideals compromised by circumstance, the difficulty of doing right in an unjust world" themes peckinpah likes so much. the "will they help this girl get out from under the thumb of her abusive father in order to marry some guy who's also abusive and then help her get out of that also" b-plot seems to be there to fill time. which like. fine. i get you need a ninety minute movie and not an episode of television but think of a better b-plot. there was a whole ass carnival you didn't do shit with.
was it a competently made, well shot film? sure. did i enjoy the four separate assault scenes? no! why are those there at all! it's not like an equal amount of time is given to "wow the west sure sucks for guys too" bc mccrea's character is just like. poor and a little creaky and is not smothering under a life forced on him like elsa. i think getting shot four times over the course of his career is bad but on a different level of bad than being sexually assaulted four times in the course of three days and if THAT was the parallel peckinpah was trying to draw it's not a very good one
i acknowledge this movie is trying to draw Some parallels but i don't think it executes them well OR in a way i think is interesting. again, why is elsa here at all
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Hey wouldn't it be so cool if women and girls actually got treatment
IDK.im just thinking of when I could have had a serious medical situation with my asthma in gym and idk maybe it could've led me being in the ER or my death bed I don't fucking know, thankfully I got better because I had my inhaler!!!
But I told my gym teacher that "hey lol I'm having a lot of trouble breathing and I feel horrible" and he just said "okay just walk for now" and I'm like?? I can't fucking walk when my breathing isn't working y'know the thing that makes the blood and heart work
When I did have a huge asthma attack, one of the things is that I couldn't barely walk, it was hard for me to do simple functions like eat and drink because my body literally refused it and I got better because I went to the ER and got a shot that helped me along with a mask breath thingy (i forgot what theyre called 💔)
So.im just tired of men not like, actually giving a shit, I'm so tired of people telling me that I'm lazy or I'm complaining too much, I am disabled and i wish asthma wasn't the butt of the joke a lot of the times because it leads people to think we are dramatic or not fun
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if it's ok to ask, have you taken an EEG test? I saw you said something about being tested for epilepsy and wondered if it was that one. And if so, how was it?
hi! yes, i've had several EEGs done in my time. i had febrile seizures when i was a baby, so they did an EEG to check for epilepsy, and when i was about 18 i started having proper epileptic seizures & had many EGGs done ever since.
EEGs themselves are nothing to be scared of, though obviously they're going to try to get your brain to show some epileptic activity by putting a strobe light in front of your face* which can be uncomfortable. for me, it wasn't the lights themselves but the fact that i was asked to close my eyes* that actually made me feel uncomfortable. like as a side effect of my medication (ironically) i get really bad vertigo when i have to sit or lie still without anything to focus on, so doing that with light strobing in your face is a bit overwhelming 😂 but that's just my brain being broken haha
*not the entire time, but at several points
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This is a lil hush so I’m being vague w details but I can’t believe I got a grant to like……. Buy massagers , four of them? So I can facilitate other disabled queer survivors and ensure that we don’t have to push ourselves to work thro pain and can rest and literally get massagers to aid w our pain
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