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rogerzsteven · 1 year

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Okay, Buck having naproxen allergy really made me go "huh?" because naproxen allergy is really rare. So I said I should use my pharmacy degree for a good cause.

Naproxen, amongst other nsaids, is considered safe and very effective with fewer tablets than other ones because it is long acting (slower to show its effect but longer to stay in the body); it is used for basically anything.

Now check this out: Naproxen is considered to be safer than other nsaids for people with higher risk of cardiovascular problems, meaning people with heart issues.

Naproxen is a drug of choice for people with heart problems.

Buck is allergic to naproxen.

There is some next level fuckery going on here with the constant heart implications and I am losing my mind.

#911 spoilers #911 fox #evan buckley #eddie diaz #evan buckley meta

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bidisasterevankinard · 1 year

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I'm still thinking and believe that Buck fell first, but never let himself fully accept his love to Eddie. Not because he doesn't want to be with Eddie (he clearly does) but because he believes he could never be enough for Eddie.

I'm pretty sure when Buck change his attitude in 1s where he clearly were trying to understand boundaries of 118. He wanted to show himself (subconsciously) they one moment or the other would leave him. But then he changed it to "I'm gonna be the person who likes to fix things. I want to be in your life. I want to be useful, BUT I know eventually you will leave me". He all those seasons were checking how deep he can be in Eddie's life before Eddie would leave him eventually. But Eddie never did it. He even made Buck officially connected to him and Chris.

But it's stil not enough for Buck to believe he is enough for Eddie as a partner for all life. That Eddie would choose him. He believes he would ruin them. That if he let himself love Eddie openly, Eddie would go away.

Buck already hid his feelings too deep down. And he is scared to take them from this box to look at them, to accept them. But he feel them and it scaring him. That's why he always tries to date someone when Eddie gives his attention to women or if he feels that Eddie can be too close to see his feelings. Because Buck knows Eddie sees him. Buck knows Eddie knows him. But he can't believe Eddie could love him. Not the way Buck wants him to

#it also goes good with Buck trying to sabotage Eddie's relationship #amd not being supportive #he doesn't want Eddie give his attention to other people #buddie #911 meta #evan buckley meta #buddie meta #evan buckley #evan buck buckley #911 fox #911 on fox #911

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useramor · 1 year

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fall out buck

talking to @soleadita about buck’s taste in music and i started to ramble about his top fob songs from his high school years in the replies, but it got too long so i’m making a proper post about it here! i’m a firm believer buck went through a mild edgy phase. he started high school in 2005, aka the year from under the cork tree by fall out boy was released, and i’m entirely convinced that album set the tone for the rest of buck’s high school years. so here, in my professional emo opinion, are buck’s favorite fall out boy songs.

this is only including songs from albums that would’ve released during his high school years, if anyone wants a part 2 with the other fob albums or even other artists lmk

(i’m working with buck being born in 1991 btw because we don’t have a strict timeline for that)

also i’m putting this under the cut because it got so very long, but if you’re curious and don’t feel like reading everything i had to say, here are the songs i chose:

- our lawyer made us change the name of this song so we wouldn’t get sued - i’ve got a dark alley and a bad idea that says you should shut your mouth (summer song) - 7 minutes in heaven (atavan halen) - XO - i’m a lawyer with the way i’m always trying to get you off (me & you) - the (after) life of the party - bang the doldrums - G.I.N.A.S.F.S. - disloyal order of water buffaloes - (coffee’s for closers) - what a catch, donnie - 27 - pavlove

(in order of release)

from under the cork tree (2005)

this album would’ve come out right as he was finishing middle school, so he went into his first year of high school with these songs already released. it was the (private) soundtrack to his summer (he was not about to get called gay by the other guys he was trying out for the football team with, thanks), you cannot convince me otherwise.

our lawyer made us change the name of this song so we wouldn’t get sued

first track baby opening song to the album!! i feel like, at fourteen in his small town in pennsylvania, he felt really edgy for liking this band. for liking more alternative music in general. and he liked having that sort of control over feeling like an outsider, because he’s felt a little off his whole life, but now he was choosing to be different.

lyric buck wrote on his arm in sharpie during math class:

I’ve got a dark alley and a bad idea that says you should shut your mouth (summer song)

i feel like this was his favorite track off this album. he listened to the lyrics for the first time and felt a little bit like someone carved his chest out.

lyrics that made him the most insane (all of them. this song is so buckcoded but i tried to narrow it down):

7 minutes in heaven (atavan halen)

this is definitely the song he most related to when he listened to this album again as he got a little older.

lyrics he used to skip over but that now make his chest feel tight:

(like come on lmao this is so buck coded it’s painful)

XO

buck at fourteen just liked this song. his parents hated it, especially when margaret bothered to listen to the lyrics and realized exactly what the song was saying.

lyrics marge hated the most (and that, in turn, buck liked the best):

infinity on high (2007)

this album would’ve come out in the second semester of his sophomore year, for reference he’d be fifteen going on sixteen

i’m a lawyer with the way i’m always trying to get you off (me & you)

new album! i feel like this would be his first favorite song, and he’d have it on repeat for days until he got sick of it. the sexual innuendos meant more, too, now that he was a little older.

lyrics he sang to the point where he’d get kicked out of class for singing too much:

the (after) life of the party

he listened to the very first line of this song and related to it on a level he simply could not explain. also he belts the chorus in the shower to this day (eddie finds it endearing, even if buck’s terrible).

the first line in question:

bang the doldrums

i feel like this song, like 7 minutes in heaven, is one he liked more as he got older. at fifteen/sixteen he liked it, but at 18, 19, 20? i can just imagine buck went back to this song and listened to it so often even his roommates learned the words.

also it’s objectively hilarious that this song was originally written for shrek

lyrics:

G.I.N.A.S.F.S.

y’all get it. this was one of his favorites in high school. buck goes back to this song after eddie leaves the 118 and he’s with taylor.

these are the lyrics that would make him grip the steering wheel so tight his knuckles would turn white:

(like come on lol. especially considering this song is literally titled gay is not a synonym for shitty it’s so stupidly fitting lmao)

folie a deux (2008)

this album came out his senior year of high school (he would’ve been seventeen)

disloyal order of water buffaloes

okay there’s a lot here but i think not just lyrically but sonically buck really loves this song! the quiet, organ intro that immediately jumps into a guitar and then loud, booming drums? come on, it’s so fun :) and i do think that buck relates to a lot of it lyrically as well. it became an instant fave the second the album started (literally, because this is the first track)

the lyrics i feel like he related to most at angsty seventeen:

(coffee’s for closers)

i don’t have anything particularly intelligent to put here, i just feel like this is the song he listened to when he would work out, just listen to the beat, to patrick’s vocals, and let any meaning of the lyrics fall away as he ran around his neighborhood. idk i just imagine him bopping to it on his ipod.

his favorite lyric:

watch a catch, donnie

this one is one of buck’s favorite fall out boy songs because he simply loves it. i feel like they’re a very personal band to him, i feel like he relates to a lot of lyrics and we know buck feels so much so deeply, that being able to just belt out to this song and listen to it and enjoy it without it cutting all too deeply is nice.

that being said, this lyric definitely hits home for him:

27

this was his PEAK #edgelord song. this song nearly convinced him he should start wearing guyliner. he played this song for a girl once and she hated it, but instead of seeking her approval he just turned the volume up louder and never spoke to her again. peak angsty, edgy, high school buck every time this song came on. he thought the lyrics were inspired. and the fact that this song is about the 27 club? he found that so creative. loser (affectionate).

also he loved to sing the guitar solo as loudly and obnoxiously as possible in the shower

his favorite lyrics:

pavlove

yes, he owned the deluxe version. obviously.

rolling with the fact that buck is seventeen going on eighteen here, and knowing he just gets more and more reckless as he got older, i feel like this captured some of his self destructive tendencies in a way that made him feel uncomfortably seen.

i could honestly put the whole song here, but especially this lyric:

(”i wanna make you as lonely as me” like that’s totally angsty teenage buck towards his parents)

anyway this is horrifically long. let me know if you want a part 2 :)

#holy shit this is SO long #fall out buck #evan buckley #evan buckley meta #i feel like buck liked emo bands bc maddie was a green day fan #like maddie was totally into ur girl groups but i feel like her guilty pleasure was green day #because yknow sometimes nsync doesn't get it #anyway that's it #buck with all his angst and self esteem issues and anger going to high school in 2005 and NOT being a punk rock fan #is unrealistic #thank you for your time

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katyobsesses · 1 year

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Buddie Meta

i'm rewatching 6x02 and i've realized a lot of somethings, but the one I'm focusing on right now is the Buddie of it all.

there's been a lot of complaints in parts of the fandom about the lack of Buddie so far this season (before the midseason finale), and there is, yes, but there is a reason for it and there is a moment when it started - after the Happiness Convention and Lev.

in 6x01 we get them together in Buck's loft - this ridiculously domestic scene for a couple of platonic besties, reminiscent of all the buddie scenes we were graced with in 5b. This shows us that in the time between the end of 5b and 6x01 this was very likely common place for Buddie and Christopher, this was their normal, Buck cooking for Eddie and Chris, the longing lingering looks and smiles from Eddie, Chris's teasing. it's all shown in the first episode of this season as easy and natural for the three of them. this is their status quo. this is where they are at the start of their arcs for this season - a 'platonic' family unit - and it is where their arcs will return to, just changed slightly (because that is what story arcs do) and we already see Buck changing slightly, with him moving his armchair to where his couch was... instead of looking for another couch (or realizing there is a couch waiting for him at the Diazes')

and then it's 6x02 and everything crashes down around Buck, specifically - because Buck is the one that pulls away from this family unit, Eddie never does (in fact in subsequent episodes he tries to draw Buck back in, but doesn't push. he is waiting, patiently, for Buck to figure out his shit).

At the beginning of this episode Buddie are their usual selves, we see them together like normal, like has been established in the first episode of this season, like the new normal they'd created for themselves in 5b. they lean next to each other commenting on Hen being asleep in the engine, they throw popcorn on Hen with Chim - maybe some other stuff i can't remember or more in the background - and then there's the Happiness Convention and Lev.

They're split up on this call, noticeably so. Eddie and Julie go help Lev's two friends, while Chim and Buck help Lev. If Bobby had been there Eddie with Buck, and Chim would have been with Hen. (It's interesting that Hen decided to split Buddie up. this feels relevant to her arc in some way? something something Hen being too overworked and stressed and pulled in two directions to make the right choices??) They're distanced in this rescue, and this rescue is the catalyst to the distance that starts to form between them after this episode.

And I am certain that it's Lev's words to Buck that make him pull away from the family unit he has created with Eddie and Chris:

"You live your whole life doing everything you're supposed to. Marriage, kids, big house, nice car."

"Hey, that doesn't sound too bad, right?"

"It wasn't. It's just this 40 year blur. Work and Family. Never enough time, until one day work stops, and everything finally comes into focus. you're not sure what you're looking at. What was the point of... any of it."

Okay, so, obviously hearing that from a dying man would make anyone have an existential crisis (and this is Buck who collects words from old dying men like baseball cards) but it's the work and family that stood out to me. specifically a blur of work and family.

because that's what Buck is doing, he's blurring work and family together is every single aspect.

his sister is married to his co-worker, his captain is like a father figure, his partner is his best friend and they're basically raising a kid together - family and work is blurred. and I think in this moment Buck is hit with the fact that he doesn't have anything outside of the 118. No friends, no family. the 118 is all he has.

and that's why he spirals. Because if work stops? so does family.

They get Lev's friends out, they get Frankie out, but they don't get Lev out. He dies, but not before saying he "got what he came here for" - Happiness. "I get it now"

The next time we see Buddie they're physically separated by Chim and this is where Buck begins to create some space between Eddie and himself by turning down breakfast. He's unblurring the lines between before and after work by turning down spending time with his coworkers - notably the two coworkers most intertwined with family.

This is the catalyst, the beginning, to the Lack Of Buddie this season - it's Buck suddenly feeling terrified at the comfort he's created with his Platonic Family Unit, because what if, when work stops, this family unit stops too? So he's distancing himself from it now, even if it's mostly subconscious, and he's even making a new family unit with the who Sperm Donation arc. (Oh and he's also internalizing the whole happiness is sacrificing oneself for someone else thing with the recklessness this season that will likely come to a head soon, but that's a non-buddie something)

Buck's arc this season, I theorize, is going to end where it started - with Eddie and Christopher. But he'll be changed, and i truly believe it will be a happier Buck that we end up with, everything will finally come into focus for him, and he'll finally get it, he'll be sure of what he's looking at and finally understand what the point of everything was - a family he's made for himself, with Eddie and Chris, and the knowledge that he and everyone at the 118 are linked to each other forever, even if, in the future, they might drift somewhat. It's the culmination of all of the old men he's bonded with that died on him. It's Thomas, and Red, and now Lev. Love, friendship, and happiness.

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graysontargaryen · 1 year

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My first sorta Buck meta

I might have to watch these seasons again, but I’ve felt that this season was similar to season 4.

Going forward / The start of the Buck’s regression

Season 4

- Getting Therapy (going forward/starting a new life)

The start of his regression:

- Finding out about Daniel (the brother he never knew about and why he was born)

- Eddie’s shooting

- The start of the Buck and Taylor relationship

Season 5 (more regression)

- Buck and Taylor

- Buck and Lucy’s kiss (this could be connected to Eddie leaving the 118)

- Maddie, Chimney, Jee-Yun and Eddie leaving

Season 6 (Could this be the beginning of the end of the regression?)

- Donor Story with Connor and Kameron

- Buck and Natalia (I’m hoping that this is all misunderstanding and Buck is getting help from Natalia) I’m probably wrong about this.

- Coma from lightning and having PTSD. Not dealing with it.

The going forward started again when he broke up with Taylor

Buck going forward and living could have stopped in season 4.

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tommy-evan · 15 days

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we literally got an oh moment. we witnessed buck's oh moment and it was so beautiful because oliver loves buck as much as we do and we are just so lucky

#9-1-1 #911 abc #911 spoilers #evan buckley #oliver stark #911 meta

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klausbens · 9 days

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the way tommy reassures buck that no one is looking at them, that nobody cares about what they're doing, but also tells him that he gets why he's tense. he doesn't invalidate his feelings while trying to soothe him. the way he gives buck the space he needs to ask questions he hasn't felt like he could ask anyone else, and answers them patiently and gracefully. the way he flirts with him and even in that, he is kind. he is gentle. he checks for reactions and respects that buck has just started his journey while he's been on his own for years. tommy i love you... i love queer solidarity

#tommy kinard #evan buckley #911 abc #911 meta #bucktommy #911 spoilers

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what-thisiscrazzzy · 12 days

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“My attention?”

That line for me says a lot of things. His face looks like he’s contemplating things and I don’t think it’s just one thing he’s questioning.

MY attention? You wanted to get MY attention? This was about me and not Eddie?

My ATTENTION? This is flirting, he’s flirting with me and he wants my attention bc he’s flirting.

I think he wasn’t prepared for Buck to be so straightforward, they were flirting but it was less what they were saying and more How they were saying it. Making plans to spend time can be normal friends but the slowly getting closer and the way they were talking makes it flirting. But that is very different than just stating Hey I’m Interested In You like Buck did. He’s checking that he’s picking up exactly what Buck is putting down, that he’s not misreading this before he makes the big move.

And yeah there is an element of Me? Not Eddie? But I think that’s also him double checking that he’s not about to start a disaster, that this is what Buck wants.

Tommy might seem more sure of himself but I think he still needed Buck to say exactly what he was feeling and wanting before he was willing to fully put himself out there.

#911 abc #911 show #911 spoilers #911 fox #911 season 7 #911 #911 meta #evan buckley #evan buck buckely #tommy kinard #bucktommy #tommy x buck #buck x tommy

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rogerzsteven · 1 year

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there’s something about the fact that although Buck never actively tried to jill himself, he never really cared if that’s what happened. But now he has people who love/care about him and he has died but come back to them…. just something

Yeah buck has/had passive suicidal tendencies. He isn't actively trying to off himself like you said, but he isn't actually minimizing the risks by taking care of himself, either. Crashing his bike during college, literal suicide missions during eddie's shooting, being his reckless self overall, you know the drill. He isn't actually doing anything out of nowhere, but he wouldn't say no if the opportunity were to find him. (Although I wouldn't be surprised if he'd actually thought about doing it once or twice and changed his mind because his parents would get upset or maddie would get sad)

But now he has a new family, a family that loves him for who he is, so he is trying his best and fighting off the urge, he's trying to be better. The sad thing is though, he will always have to fight his own mind every day until he dies, because you don't wake up and suddenly you no longer get the impulse and everything is great, but he's strong and he has the support he needs 🥹

#911 fox #evan buckley #tw suicidal tendencies #evan buckley meta

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tallqueennancy · 13 days

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I personally do not see Tommy saying Really? after Buck said Cause trying to get your attention has been kind of exhausting. as him questioning whether or not Buck was sure that it really was his attention he was trying to get, and not Eddie's.

I see it as him making sure and asking for reassurance that the signals he is picking up from Buck really are the flirty kind, that he is not misinterpreting what is happening between them.

He does a similar thing a bit earlier in the conversation saying Yeah? after Buck said I … I just, I wanted to get to know you.

And both times Buck does reassure him. First simply saying Yeah. and then Yeah, I guess so., realizing the truth of what he is saying the moment he says it.

Tommy is a queer man that is confident in his identity, flirting with another queer man that he recognizes is new to this kind of romantic endeavour. Ofc he is treading lightly and making sure that his perception of what is happening is the correct one before making a move on Buck, wouldn't you?

#tommy x buck #tommy kinard #evan buck buckley #911 meta #<- I guess??#911 abc #911 spoilers

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aida-sparks · 3 months

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Eddie pining in secret over Buck seems like a legitimate thing.

There's subtext in many scenes that make me think Eddie has secretly pined over Buck to some extent. I also see more than one reason why Eddie might never act on all those warm feels he doesn't know what to do with. Just one of those reasons is that even if he has finally accepted that he himself has feelings for Buck, he simply doesn't see how Buck could ever reciprocate.

Why would Eddie think that? Eddie's understanding of Buck's sexual life is shaped by what he's heard. (And what he hasn't!)

Eddie was never around to hear Maddie's comments that imply her brother might like men the same way he likes women.

Maddie to Buck in 2x4: "So does this boy crush on Eddie mean that you're finally ready to move on from Abby?"

Maddie to Josh in 3x12: "Oh no, I like you too much to set you up with my brother." Unrelated to Maddie but still key: Eddie also missed TK's comment to Buck in the Lonestar crossover episode, where TK assumed Buck was either gay or bi and that Buck was hitting on him.....

2. Instead, Eddie was around to hear all about Buck's firehose exploits back in the days when he was a self-described "sex addict". Yes, Eddie knows about Buck 1.0.

In 3x12, When Chimney suggests Eddie try talking to a therapist name Rosie, Buck asks, "Is that the one I slept with?" Eddie responds, "You slept with your therapist?"

Most recently in 6x13 Eddie listens to Buck try to calculate all the women he's slept with.

No one can convince me that the look on Eddie's face here is simply exasperation. He truly looks a little crestfallen, like Buck's words stung him.

It's just another reminder in Eddie's head that Buck is different from him when it comes to sex. Pair that with the head canon that Eddie is demisexual (everything in canon points to it, in my opinion!), and it's easy to see why Eddie would think he has zero chance with Buck. Buck once described himself as a sex addict. Eddie, on the other hand, got with Shannon in high school and hasn't ever been shown to go looking for any casual flings or want even a one-night stand. I don't think Eddie judges either lifestyle; he just recognizes they are very different. So, no matter what Eddie may have come to realize about his own feelings toward Buck, it's easy for him to think he could never be enough for Buck. And so Eddie pushes down those warm feelings, and he settles for whatever he can get with Buck. As long as Buck's in his and Christopher's life, that can be enough for Eddie. And that's still so sad to me, because it means that Eddie still isn't following his own heart.

It would be interesting for Eddie to be in earshot the next time Maddie makes a comment about a male date for Buck, though!

#buddie #buddie thoughts #911 buddie #911 abc #buddie canon #eddie diaz #demisexual Eddie Diaz #evan buckley #buck x eddie #buddie meta #buddie 911 #buddie theory

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katyobsesses · 13 days

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Thinking about the fact that we really only see Eddie from Bucks POV in 7x04. Thinking about how silly and goofy and smiley and happy he is when we do. Thinking about the fact that this is how Buck sees Eddie.

Also thinking about the fact that in the firehouse scene we never see Eddie looking at buck, even though in other episodes Eddie is almost constantly gazing at Buck. Thinking about how Buck likely misses those glances, how Eddie likely looks away before Buck can notice.

Thinking a lot about Buddie

#911 #911 spoilers #buddie #evan buckley #evan buck buckely #eddie diaz #911 meta #my meta

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harrowharkwife · 11 months

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the way that it's hen standing beside eddie in this moment of clear physical pain and pure, unbridled anguish and terror.

hen, who watched karen flatline a handful of episodes ago. who desperately worked to save her life in the back of that ambulance. hen, who thought she lost her wife, the love of her life, the mother of her child-

(only to end the episode with the wilson family at home together, safe and sound, hen fussing over her wife and getting her all set up on the couch to recover.)

hen, whose wife and child were simultaneously endangered in the lab explosion. hen, who was unable to rescue them herself, even though every instinct was screaming at her to run headfirst into the burning building.

(she may not have been injured the way eddie is here, but she was benched by bobby and barred from the scene on account of no longer being a paramedic.)

hen, who spent an entire episode subconsciously reflecting on her and karen's journey so far, everything they've been through together, how they built their family, and how they found their way.

(an episode written by nicole barazza keim, mind you, who happens to be- oh, yknow. one half of the writer duo behind pay it forward. no big deal. nothing to see here, keep it moving!)

so, like. of course it had to be hen, in this moment, who's here for eddie, because-

hen was the only witness to his widow's grief for buck.

christopher's back was turned, and eddie hurriedly wiped away his tears before chris could see.

but hen? she saw all of it. and we still haven't circled back to that fact.

in an episode called pay it forward, i'm starting to think this may be hen's chance to pass on the lesson that she and karen learned in tomorrow (courtesy of chimney). how did that go again, exactly?

oh, right:

chimney: hen is not actually dead, but-but she had a pretty bad near-miss accident last night.

karen: what the hell, howie? you can't just say stuff like that.

chim: i know. i just, i... we had a really tough call. and it was rough and there was a minute when i thought hen was dead, and it scared the crap out of me.

karen: and you decided to pay that experience forward?

chimney: yes. look... look, i know you two broke up. and i just thought you needed to know what it would feel like if you woke up tomorrow and you found out hen wasn't in this world anymore.

...

karen: because i thought you were dead. when howie called, there was a moment when i thought you died in that accident. when i felt like i'd lost you forever. and it scared me. to think of you being gone. never having a chance to fix things or try again.

hen: karen, it's too late.

karen: it's not. as long as we are both here on this earth... as long as we have tomorrow, it's not too late.

#911 #buddie #911 fox #6x18 #911 spec #hen wilson #eddie diaz #evan buckley #911 meta #911 abc

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usereddie · 1 day

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k but rewatching 2x01 and it's gotta be Buck's pov of ugh, this new guy who's all handsome and perfect or whatever

Be curious about Eddie's pov bc I feel like it would be 70% Panic like omg pls don't mess this up and also 30% Gay Panic like why doesn't the pretty guy like me :(

(fair warning, this may have spiraled past 2x01......a lot. bear with me.)

i don't think we've ever gotten eddie's pov the way we've gotten buck's (2x01 and 7x04 for example) HOWEVER i do think we more or less know who buck is from eddie's pov through his actions.

which, considering their characters, tracks so hard.

buck didn't realize he was queer until a man quite literally kissed him on the mouth. seeing eddie from buck's pov is safe because buck has no idea what his feelings are. we watched buck's complicated feelings of jealousy towards eddie unfold TWICE and neither time did he realize what the feelings actually were (physical attraction and y'know. being in love with the guy). buck's pov is one we're allowed to see through as the audience, because it's not actually gonna tell us much, seeing as buck hasn't realized anything.

eddie, though?

reservoir of catholic guilt eddie? the guy who had panic attacks about the idea of being married to his girlfriend? the same man who was diagnosed repressed by a cardiologist?

he knows. he knows and he's been pushing it down since he and buck met, and if we were to ever see buck through eddie's eyes it'd give away everything. the eddie we've seen through buck's pov is just. pure golden sunshine, laughter, love, and buck's best friend in the whole fucking world. buck's best friend that he's in love with, sure, but buck hasn't put those dots together yet, so we, as the audience, won't see that.

buck, to eddie, is home. is family and warmth and comfort. and, obviously, eddie is the same to buck, but eddie knows this. eddie is fully and completely aware of who buck is to him, he's just shoving it all the way down. eddie gave buck a place to land ("it's eddie's house, i'm not really a guest"), eddie trusts buck wish christopher more than he trusts his parents with christopher (ramon and helena saying to eddie 'don't drag him down with you' and him leaving for LA -> eddie saying to buck 'there's nobody in this world i trust with my son more than you' after the tsunami), eddie let buck in when he was at his absolute lowest.

and, you know.

the will.

we've talked about it a half dozen million times in this fandom but we're gonna talk about it again because it's brain melting. we've never seen buck through eddie's eyes but we've seen exactly who he is to eddie through his actions. eddie trusts buck. eddie needs buck to know he has a reason to stay, that eddie and chris are his reasons to stay. eddie told buck flat out that his life means something. that buck thinks he's not worth anything but he's wrong because he means everything to eddie. eddie loves him.

eddie loved him when he held his hand when buck got pinned under a firetruck and eddie loved him when he dropped chris off before the tsunami and he still loved him when the water went back to the sea and eddie loved him when buck sued the city because the worst part of the whole lawsuit was how much he fucking missed him and eddie loved him when he was trapped under a well and all he could think about was his son and how, if he goes too soon, christopher deserves to be with someone who will love him the way eddie does and eddie loved him when he thought buck was the last thing he was ever gonna see, bleeding out on the streets of los angeles and eddie loved him when he told buck in the only way he knew how to (because, evan) and eddie loved him through panic attacks and mental breakdowns and lightning strikes and new girlfriends and a broken ankle and a new boyfriend because there is no version of eddie diaz that isn't in love with evan buckley.

and eddie knows that.

which is why we don't see it.

#sorry this got so long but this makes me crazayyyy #buddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz #bia gets mail #anon #buddie meta

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tommy-evan · 15 days

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also let's be serious right now okay. the choice to have tommy call buck "evan" was so inspired, because as this journey begins for him, the healing has to start from the very core. and before buck was ever buck, he was evan. evan was the core of all his insecurities and his hurt. what buck is hurting from is what evan has been hurting from this whole time

and now, he's free and he can start healing. and evan has to heal first. evan gets to learn and figure things out with tommy as his guide and that's beautiful. tommy is there to guide evan so that buck can face the world. so that buck can get what the core of what he really wants, and who he's been looking for this whole time. tommy will allow evan to be seen and heal in this new light, but we know who's been seeing buck this whole time

#9-1-1 #911 abc #911 spoilers #evan buckley #eddie diaz #tommy kinard #911 meta

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klausbens · 7 days

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can't get over the fact that tommy cut the date short even though he genuinely likes buck and sees potential in a relationship with him because he needs buck to feel the same. he doesn't need him to be secure in his sexuality, it wasn't about pushing him to be out for their sake, it was the complete opposite. it was ‘because i want you to take your time with this, and figure things out, and be gentle with yourself, i am taking a step back’. because i could be gentle with you but the thing is i like you, and i maybe like you—or the idea of you, of us—a little too much for this to work without hurting us both. and i don't want you to be hurt now, in such a delicate moment, and i don't want to hurt if i can help it, and i have to help it, because i am ahead of you in this. i see what you can't yet see and that is okay but it leaves me with more responsibility. i think you're adorable, but i don't think you're ready, not like pointing out a fault, but rather like reassurance; that you're good, and worth it, and that whenever you figure yourself out someone will undoubtedly be there to walk alongside you, even if it won't be me. i would like it to be me, sure, but this isn't about me. i won't make it about me. i think you're adorable. i hope you find what you're looking for. i'm rooting for you. i think you're adorable.

#bucktommy #tommy kinard #evan buckley #kinkley #911 abc #911 meta #911 #911 spoilers

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