Dsyfunctional Family Pt 2
Warning: Triggering themes/ Mentions of past abuse such as physcial/sexual and inclusion of minors this is NOT a romanticasation of such things just putting the pieces together of Shen Jius possible abuse at the hands of the Qiu household.
There IS a smutty scene but thats seperate and at the time consentual until Shen Jiu loses it- BUT there is a warning before hand so you can read the rest until that point :D Enjoy.
Shen Jiu realised he was in some sort of routine, He sent Luo Binghe off on some quest and the Beast would succed.
But this was a bad habit, if some enemy of his or Luo Binghe knew that Shen jiu was in charge of Luo Binghe's work load and organisation then they would target him. Luo Binghe can easily defeat anyone and obtain power...he wasn't very good at maintaining it.
When Luo Binghe kidnapped Shen Jiu this wasn't what he had in mind, being Luo Binghe's glorified secretary. How Huan Hua palace hasn't fell into ruin already is ridiculous.
But to be fair...that was his fault, Unlike Shen Yauns beast who became Shen Qingqiu personal shadow he was in charge of the elder Peak Lords work, unlike this Luo Binghe who was whipped in a shed.
Luo Binghe had no good Shizun to teach him this, the man couldn't even deal with trade between the demon and human realm and what was his solution?
Combine the two! Like an idiot.
Shen Jiu had his hands full, he didn't even plan it- he was trying to escape and Luo Binghe kept him in his bedchambers to what- reinact Shen Yaun and his Beast passion? As if.
Luo Binghe was defiently disapointed by getting the Shen Qingqiu from wish.
Snooping around had him finding letters, deeds and the utter iresponsible way Luo Binghe was running this realm!
Shen Jiu wanted to leave it alone but, it irritated him. He began to sit down going through the letters summons, and after copying- then deciding against copying Luo Binghe's messy scrawl [He wasn't illiterate- but Shen Jiu does have to wonder] and began to write in ernest, organising the messy desk full of papers and cutting out the rubbish that was just false pretense of a rebellion.
And that was how Luo Binghe found his new ward, on a desk reading papers and even commentating.
"The Red Fox tribe has an offer for you, a tradesdeal through marriage- one of their own and unite their tribe with ours and you get to learn all about their oh so lovely illusion techniques. I'd write a letter to polite pass. The wife would be an illusion herself marking the offer as void, or making you lose more than you gain- no need to thank me."
Luo Binghe had no idea if he wanted to Strangle the man or thank him [he made sure Shen Jiu didn't do anything suspicious and found nothing other than having his work organised- so many things in his realm was neglected, civilians farmers it was falling apart]
And so Shen Jiu made his peace with working under Luo Binghe as his Loashi and there was a signifigant improvment over ruling over this realm except...
Once others realised without Shen Jiu this will all fall apart and for some stupid reason Luo Binghe refused to learn.
Shen Jiu made the mistake of calling him a stupid beast-
He never made that mistake again, finding himself in a dungeon being whipped a lesson to learn his place.
To remind him he wasn't the Shizun who can talk down to his students anymore.
He stopped speaking to Luo Binghe, only silently working and leaving no longer being alone with the Demon Lord if he could help it.
Luo Binghe had no knowledge that Shen Jiu was reminded of old memories, in a dark dungeon memories of being punished by the originol wrapped in chains with no limbs, the Qui household.
In the middle of the night he would call out the Yue Qingyuan and hate himself for it.
No one was coming for him.
When he would sneak around he would look through scrolls, texts anything to escape and go back home but there was nothing. He would pass Lou Binghe in the corridor and he would have a smirk on his face as if he knew what Shen Jiu was looking for and knew he couldn't find it.
Shen Jiu scowled and walked away.
He was trapped in Luo Binghe's bed chambers, he was lucky that the beast didn't do something, but he would bind Shen Jiu and he was unable to move as he lay next to the sleeping Demon Lord.
Shen Jiu would still struggle, it was worse with the whip marks burning his skin-
He would glare at Luo Binghe and pause, he had dark circles under his eyes and he would look strained as if he had nightmares.
Shen Jiu looked away with a sigh. There was nothing he could do- this world was doomed there was nothing to fix-
The other world was better because of Shen Yuan!
It was Shen jiu who was the reason why everything was so broken, he couldn't fix it!
Shen Jiu teeth clenched his eyes burning- no he wasn't going to cry or wait for Yue Qingyuan he knew he never kept his promise and would never come for him.
But Shen Yaun and that beast- they'll find him, and get him back-
He'll just have to wait.
Shen Jiu gets sucked into Harem drama- why?- They are jelaous since he gets to sleep with Luo Binghe when they never get that privilege- What privilege!? They sleep with him all the time?
He gets assasin attempts, slipped poison in his teeth, publicly attacked. Shen Jiu brushed them off like an annoying fly nothing leaving an impact. He figured if he ignored it they would leave him alone.
On one instance when he was having tea with Ning yingying [they were able to let bygones be bygones and she was airheaded enough to like his company- or she really missed jing peak and wanted someone familiar to talk to of old times] and she ended up hurt in his place her hand stabbed through by a wayward dagger.
That was it
"If you don't control your harem I'm going to go gardening and start cutting out some weeds from your precious garden of flowers!
Luo Binghe smirked, finding this threat empty.
"Do your worst."
And all of a sudden, Luo Binghes 600th Harem began to shrink, fast. He barely noticed since he had so many women to deal with and couldn't possibly remember all of them Which was why he took so long to realise so many women were gone!
Not Ying Xiao!? She was good she was great in tying ropes and understanding his needs!!! Shen Jiu went too far!
Shen Jiu shrugged I didn't kill them, he told Luo Binghe "Only dissolved the marriage, it turns out their dowrys were lacking for the demon Lord and found their service no longer needed in the Huan hua Palace, Luo Binghe deserved the best and he had no need for dead weight :D
Luo Binghe was regretting taking Shen Jiu in...
So Luo Binghe thinks "Well you're going to have to replace all of those women who had so much to offer." Shen Jiu just gives those duties to the remaining wives, actually teaching them on how to run a Palace and working together- he kept them so busy they didn't have time to even think of nefarious plots.
But next was the kids...
Luo Binghe's little beasts, "You're neglecting them, at least I was there to teach you some basics of cultivation and your real father was trapped under a mountain. Whats your excuse of ignoring your brats? Any good reason? After this they'll rip out your limbs and I'd say you deserve it." Luo Binghe's eyes glowed red "You're neglecting your own offspring, most are of age to cultivate now- you have as many kids to have your own peak of disciples why are you neglecting them!?"
And thats when Shen Jiu slowly realises something...did he just become Luo Binghes therapist? Well a hand on therapist?
Luo Binghe never realised how much better everything is- and how much he was spiraling everything would've collapsed if he kept this going.
"Why, why are you doing this?" Luo Binghe asked through gritted teeth, his pride still wounded of the audacity of Shen Jiu he wanted to put him in his place, reminded him who this demon lord was-
He made this empire! How dare this man take over!
Shen Jiu sighed "I'm taking responsibility." Luo Binghe paused on his ire.
"I failed as your shizun, and managed to build all of this with no thanks to me, I may have failed you. But I can help you and teach you to hold onto this and make your house stronger. I owe you this, allow me to be your servant."
It may have happened by accident, but Shen JIu would do anything to survive- Until Shen Yaun can save him.
Luo Binghe realised if he saw this as a debt to be owed, Shen Jiu taking over to fix his mistakes, well he had nothing to say to that.
"Teach me, Shizun. This Disciple is willing to learn."
Shen Yaun would not have survived in this enviorment, Shen Jiu thought one night looking at Luo Binghes resting face...
Still tied in cables...what was with the Binghe's and rope?
Shen Yaun was too good, he had his scars and truama from his first experience in the other world but that Luo Binghe shared those wounds they had history, and understood one another.
Like Glass they were cracks, small scraps and fissues close to breaking a chipped rim, but still able to find themselves and fix their misunderstandings, they knew how to navigate one another without breaking those small cracks and might even be on the path to healing.
But this Luo Binghe was broken, glass shards impaling pale hands that strayed too close Shen Yaun knew nothing of this Luo Binghe's struggles and vice versa, Luo Binghe wouldn't understand why Shen Yaun was afraid of him, both would hurt each other in their ignorance.
Shen Jiu shut his eyes tight, Shen Yuan would've been hurt, broken, a shell of a man and Luo Binghe would try to hold him together as the pieces crumbled in his hands.
Shen Jiu was just as broken, and he knew Luo Binghe's history and was able to avoid most of the damage, even tried to channel his inner Shen Qingqiu of the other world and praised Luo Binghe-
He couldn't infuse warmth into his tone. He was many things but warm wasn't one of them.
18+ Under cut skip ahead if you like :3
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But back to the extenct of his problems. Him Shen Jiu has painted a target on his back, and also Luo Binghe wouldn't stop whining about one of his wives!
"Just ask the little Princess!?" Shen Jiu snapped- wasn't she nortorius with a whip.
Luo Binghe scowled, "She has no control, I can't trust someone like that..." Shen Jiu eyes widened in surprise, wait- Luo Binghe wanted to get whipped?
Shen Jiu didn't understand "Why- Why would you want to be hurt?"
Luo Binghe hated pain, or anything to do with it that reminded him of what his Shizun did.
Luo Binghe cool stare gazed at him before tilting into an emotion, "Oh don't tell me Shen Jiu is too innocent." He sounded pleased.
Shen Jiu scowled "What you do in your personall life Be-Binghe." Shen Jiu almost slipped looking away.
"It has nothing to do with-"
Claws grabbed his chin and tugged him to look into demon red eyes.
"You can call me beast, Shizun. I promise I won't be angry. Sometimes I like being reminded of who I was, weak, pathetic helpless..." He spoke softly.
Shen Jiu eyes wavered, feeling his heart beat against his chest.
This was a test.
"So- So that wife of yours," He took a guess "She understood your moods." A dominitrix of course.
Luo Binghe hummed, happy his Shizun was catching on and the flush on his face gave Luo Binghe a thrill.
If he knew how fun this would be he would've choose this type of torture for Shen Jiu instead.
"I told you to take responsibilty of my wives, since you can't think of anyone appropriate you'd have to do instead."
Shen Jiu almost panicked no there was no way in hell.
"I can't." He refused almost wretching out the grip, it tightened as Luo Binghes amusement fell- it was like a slap to the face. Shen Jiu was shaking.
"What? Can't do it yourself? Have to depend on others to do your dirty work that you've never touched a whip before?"
Shen Jiu flinched as Luo Binghe leaned close to his ear "Never felt it across your flesh-"
But he knew, Shen Jiu squeezed his eyes shut his body trembling as the could feel the phantom pain on his back, the sound the white hot flash-
He remembered hurting Luo BInghe, sitting there with his tea delighhting in the pained cries but fueling his anger, seeing Luo Binghe was like looking into a mirror of himself.
A boy who had a loving family, a caring friend who was there for him- he hated him. He despised him.
But mostly he hated himself, at how pathetic he had become to project his emotions on a boy-
That sounded like shen yuans than himself, Shen Yuan hated him- called him scum and he was right...
"If you don't I could demonstrate on you if you'd like, give you a taste-"
"No!" Shen Jiu voice almost broke, it made Luo Binghe lean back, and
like a mask Shen Jiu let nothing show on his face.
Once was enough, why was it that before Shen Yaun and Luo Binghe he could face any abuse and not care or shy away from it.
But after letting go of his past trying to heal from it, talking to Shen Yaun who knew more about him than he did himself why did it make him weaker, he couldn't been beaten to death before, but now the thought of a whip had him breaking out in a cold sweat.
But why- why did Luo Binghe want that!?
"Fine- Fine just get away from me, beast." Shen Jiu channeled the resentment and hated how it fit snug like a well worn coat.
Luo Binghe's eyes filled with resentment but then looked self assured.
Luo Binghe was sick of Shen Jiu and was pushing him to this so he could finally have a reason to kill him and rip his arms off.
Shen Jiu was onto you brat!
...He couldn't do this.
Luo Binghe was chained him, he had two of his wives stationed at the front both could hear what was going on and everything was planned to perfection with safety in mind. Shen Jiu's mind swam- yes he went to Brothels and red light districts but that was just to sleep! He never- they talked about this stuff but he'd never experienced this first hand and- and-
Luo Binghe was on the floor on his knees, his arms raised in chains and his back exposed, he turned his face smirking in delight at his Shizun standing there with a whip.
You'd thing Shen Jiu was going to get whipped with the way he was shaking like a leaf.
"Shizun," Luo Binghe spoke, mirth in his voice and it grounded Shen Jiu at the stupid ridiculous of this!?
"This disciple apolgises to Shizun- I never meant to look at you, please forgive this wretched disciple."
Shen Jiu finally felt something calm down, his hands shaking and heartbeat thuddering.
He might be experienced a Qi deviation. Or at least Shen Jiu hoped so he was going to die-
How? How could he brutally hurt Luo Binghe and sit there and watch!? How could he stomach it?
Apathy...Shen Yauns voice spoke, you bury your emotions deep to the point where you feel nothing, usually anger is the only thing to come through- even thought you escaped the Qui Household you still never felt self. Even with Yue Qingyuan you felt as if he never had your support and even the peak lords looked down on you. Constantly trying to fight everyone and protect yourself you were still running and still afraid...
Shen Jiu waved away the little Shen yuans voice in his head.
Luo Binghe was staring at him, and Shen Jiu scowled.
Fine.
With no warning he struck-
The sound of the whip striking flesh, the pained cry and it was as if something snapped within Shen Jiu.
His hands still shook as he raised the whip again, another pained cry and Shen Jiu face shattered in pain.
He did it too hard...
The buzzing from before stopped and cold forced calm took over but now his own thoughts were too loud.
He struck again, and felt Luo Binghe hiss- too soft.
"You can do better than that." he laughed-
You can handle more than that, boy.
Shen Jiu was going to be sick, his hands shook so much his arm moving and struck, Luo Binghe yelped and a line of blood slowly eased and split into his back.
Shen Jiu's eyes snapped to the wound the buzzing and ringing in his ears too loud.
"...Shizun?"
That voice- the dungeon, hanging by bloody chains, shizun.
The sound of the whip dropped loose from his quivering hands as Shen Jiu took a step back.
"I can't- don't make me- don't make me-" He tripped falling backwards.
Don't make me do it! I promise I won't run away don't hurt me- please!
Shen Jiu shut his eyes and covered his ears pressing his lips together before he babbled "Stop it- Stop it- Stop it!"
Luo Binghe easily broke the chains as the door opened he dismissed his wives, at his movement Shen Jiu flinched back.
He fell forward pressing his head against the floor and it startled Luo Binghe who reached out.
"Qui-ge, please please don't whip me, I'm sorry for looking at you I didn't mean it I'm sorry please, please forgive me!" Shen Jiu voice was thin.
Luo Binghe kneeled before the man and reached out, sensing the movement Shen Jiu almost flinched back.
Until he looked up to see Luo Binghe with his hand outstretched looking worried.
It was Bingmei, his little beast!
"Little Beast!" Shen Jiu face was tear stained as he lunged forward, Binghe must of woken up he disrupted Shen Yaun and him again but he was too upset to even feel bad about it.
"Take them away- you can take me memories away I know you can!" he clutched Luo Binghe like he did when he was reborn as a child crying and latching onto him like before, he never knew he would affiliate him with safety.
"I'll be like Shen Yaun, if I forget I'll be like him I'll be better you can fix it please just take me away please." He pleaded his voice hoarse and watery.
He felt Lou 'Bingemei' slowly raise his hand up then touch his hair almost afraid of something...?
He barely had time to latch onto it before Luo Bing'mei spoke.
"Losing those memories will break you, you'll be a shell of a man I can't do that to shizun." Shen Jiu's eyes furrowed, Shizun?
"I don't care you can remove them I know you can- what does it matter what happens to me? I'll be better you can make me better-"
"Shh," Luo Binghe spoke, and Shen Jiu tensed body uncoiled falling against him, this was the usual- strange he stopped having these 'episodes' Shen Yuan would call them strange for one to sneak up on him.
He would always ask and Luo Binghe would deny him, Shen Jiu just felt so tired. Tired of being afraid- tired of a dead man!
He could feel Luo Bing'mei pick him up like he was a kid and began to walk away somewhere. Shen Jiu head cushioned on his chest as the sound of a door opened then shut.
"Beast?"
A pause, the hands tightened on him before relaxing, oh he still hated the name. Shen Jiu huffed a breath against Luo 'bingmei's' chest.
"Oh hush, you know I mean it as an endermeant," The beast stumbled at that- what he never told him?
After a pause, the footsteps echoing- echoing?
"What is it?" Luo 'Bingmei' asked.
"Tell me about the time you fell in love with Shen Qingqiu, you never told me."
Another pause as another door opened and he felt himself getting placed down on a bed.
"Well, when Shizun was kind to me, patting my head, here." Luo 'Bingmeis' Hand placed on Shen Jius head...it felt nice.
But that didn't sound right, Shizun was never kind to him, he hurt him pushed him down an abyss- no he did that Shen Yuan would never.
He could feel his chest constrict and his breathing heavy, and shook his head "That doesn't- I don't understand..." Shen Jiu felt Luo 'Bingmei' climb into bed with him and drew him close. Not un unfamiliar arrangment,
"Shh, rest and you'll wake up better in the morning."
He doubt it, these things always drained him, but the worries nagging to the back of his mind faded and dulled.
Sleep overcame him.
...Whips- a scream and pain in his back "Ah!" Shen Jiu cried out his eyes wide and panicked- this room- these walls!?
"Listen to me boy," Qui-ge spoke with another whip his back.
"Talk back to me again, and I'll rip out your tongue."
"G-Gyah!"
Shen Jiu flalied, why? He's never had these dreams before Luo 'Bingmei' always stopped them always.
He looked around panicked then spotted him in a corner, watching. His eyes cold and calculating.
Why?
Suddenly he felt a hand on his back and cold sweat broke out as a panting breath tickled his ear, he struggled then felt a hand in his hair wrenching it back, Shen Jiu grunted and saw Qui JianLou face.
"You'll marry my sister and stay here forever," That hand trailed lower and Shen Jiu couldn't breathe.
"But I've always had your first-"
Stop- stop, don't make him relieve this not again not again-
The Dream snapped and it changed instantly, Shen Jiu blinked to see he was sitting with a young Disciple before him, getting whipped and each strike had him flinching internally, his voice spoke out calmly.
"Can't you take this Luo Binghe? If you can't handle this then what does that say about Jing Cangs Disciples?"
Each whip, each pained grunt had Shen Jiu screaming- each memory faded past why tortrous hell- then his first life passed by in a blur, Luo Binghe ripping of his arms he could feel it, being in in the dungeon chained.
Yue qingyuans head on the floor- he came for him, he came and was killed by a thousand arrows but it was too late it was always too late-
Just let him die- let it end!
Then...then it started again, he couldn't take this but- but it was Shen Yaun, his story, his changes his warmth and misunderstandings dying for Luo Binghe, hurting him being soft and loving him.
Shen Jiu being reborn, his family, Luo 'Bingmei' holding him at night, Shen Yuan berating him for being a scum villain but then holding him as he cried and said how brave and proud he was to try to learn to grow- to be better...
Being taken-
Shen Jiu awoke with a start, with Luo Binghe staring down at him with coal black eyes.
There were too many emotions in him but only one stood out.
When you're in pain, Shen yuan spoke in bamboo groove, You bury all of these feelings down to protect yourself and the only thing left thats strong enough is anger.
Shen Jiu lashed out kicked Luo Binghe off the bed, the demon lord was too surprised to react and took the hit.
"How dare you! You scum- you beast!" He did not say it fondly this time, Luo Binghe jumped up "Shizun calm down!"
"You vile piece of shit, you went through my memories while I was trapped in them!" Shen Jiu ranted "Did it please you, my lord? knowing I was trapped in there feeling everything while you looked through my memories like some sort of entertaintment?"
Sleep paralysis Shen Yuan spoke, about being trapped with something hanging around you and you couldn't move.
"Relieving my pain must of made you feel oh so good about yourself- you killed your old Shizun but now you found new ways of torture?" Shen Jiu laughed advancing before giving a few slow claps.
"Well it was your best one yet, whats next? lull me into a false sense of security? Make me feel protected then needed then what? Rip of a body part? what else? What next do you want from me?"
He shoved Luo Binghe almost out the door.
"Shen Qingqiu-" That was not his name, not anymore- he was Shen Jiu- a number, a thing to be owned and used then discarded. Something filthy that can never be clean even Yue Qingyuan didn't want him.
"Just kill me," Shen Jiu spoke softly.
Luo Binghe gaped almost looking like that sorry excuse of a husband. It was pathetic, the beast probably didn't know what he'd done.
The small fragile peace shattered- Shen Jiu was wrong, Shen Yuan wouldn't survive this place but neither could he.
No Matter what Luo Binghe was clumsy beast that broke anything in his demon hands then had the nerve to look like he was being wronged.
"Get out."
"Shizun-"
Shen Jiu grabbed the nearest object and tossed it, and ink pot that shattered splattering the wall and Binghe.
"I said get out!" Luo Binghe left and Shen Jiu collapesed to his knees.
He had to get out of here. Shen Yuan and Luo Binghe might save him, but...like before he needs to find a way out himself first...
Luo Binghe found himself slumped against the wall and shut his eyes, he never meant to cause sleep paralysis, he had no control.
He used dreams for his wives which were always pleasent, they had good memories or if anything bad happened he would be there after to soothe their hurt.
Or he tortured other demons and humans, he never cared for their mental state so he never figured he should learn.
He hurt his Shizun, he never meant for it to go this far, but he wanted to know why he reacted that way in the play room.
And he flipped through memoires and say that this Shizun was different to the one decomposing in chains beneith their feet.
He never hut Ning yingying.
Maybe in some circumstances what happened at the Qui house...the ripples extended to adulthood like a mark, maybe Shizun had no idea what he was doing thinking it was normal.
Luo Binghe brushed a hand through his face.
On that night, he avoided Shen Jiu but in the dreamscape he couldn't help but peak in to see his Shizuns nightmares being unfolded again, Luo Binghe waved his hand, he was going to change the dreamscape to a memory of the three of them, Shen Jiu as a child with the elder better variants of them.
Then decided against it, that would pour salt in the wound if he awoke with them not there.
He still kept it to Jing Cang peak, but at a river, a memory of Shen Jiu playing the Quiqin alone, admist the bamboos. He left him alone after that. He ruined everything but Shen Jius sleep will not be plaughed no more.
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Oop well - I guess I need a part three- Sorry for the adult and triggering themes, but reading about the Qiu household and Shen Qingqius abuse as well as his possible altercation of Ning yingying and that he frequented brothels made me wonder if it was implying something else happened in that household since MXTX does imply things like Incest/Minors/lack of consent in her stuff [it's not romanticised if thats what your worried about] I do wonder if that was what happened with looking at the breadcrumbs- especially since Shen Jiu burned the household down but only killed the men but spared the women and children.
Part One: here
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