-Sylvia Plath, from a letter to Aurelia Plath written c. August 1951

Fyodor Dostoevsky, The brothers Karamazov

the summer I felt shitty. summer of lying in dark rooms with wet rags over my eyelids to make the swelling go down. summer of blackberry picking along the old trail, splinters in my fingers, seeds in my teeth. summer of ultrasounds. summer of snarled traffic. summer of crying in cars in empty lots and streets in front of strangers’ homes. I will feel better in the morning. summer of bleeding. summer of not bleeding. summer of soiled linen. summer of the heartbeat, that little pulse of light. summer of dirt under my nails. keep digging. summer of pilgrimages to graves where nothing is buried, flowers wilting in the heat of my cupped hands. summer of brambles. summer of carrion. summer of three point five centimeters out of place. ektopos. summer of envy. crepe myrtle. your secret name. summer of the eucalyptus I couldn’t smell. summer of knowing I’ll never in all my life go back to mendocino. summer of metamorphosis. summer of unwilling change. summer of crouching on all fours by the bed making hurt animal noises, the womb turning itself inside out. summer of the dark clot of tissue I keep in a ziploc bag in the back of the freezer in case you need it, in case you’re still coming, in case you wanted to come back and be my baby. summer of incision sites. weedkiller and fresh mulch. watering the blue hydrangeas through the heat and the smoke, bucket after sloshing bucket, trying to keep them blooming just a little while longer. summer of ash in my mouth. summer I pressed my forehead to the dirt in the woods at dusk, light slanting sideways between the trees. summer of keening. summer of longing. summer I felt worse then better, worse then better. summer I lost. summer I got lost. got stuck. got stuck. got stuck. got over it. summer that followed me home and scratched at the door. cried till I let it in. I let it in. I let it in. summer I felt better in the morning.

Can’t believe Doggust/Dungeons and Doggies is coming to a close and that only one more pup will be joining our campaign! Along with challenge, summer went so by so quickly, hope everyone is having a good week or first day back to school <3

Update on our GoFundMe page out NOW!!!⬇️⬇️⬇️

Thank you all SO much!!!

First and foremost, we want to thank everyone who has donated to the GoFundMe, and connected us with those who have helped make a true difference for Addie. This outpouring of generosity has been so beautiful to witness. Thank you. Here are a few exciting updates!

Thank you SO much to Marlin and Lisa at Plain Values Magazine for publishing the GoFundMe in their August issue! We are so incredibly grateful to have been featured, and for the opportunity to reach such a wide audience.

Thanks to the generosity of E-Sight, Addie will be sent the first new pair of glasses that comes out in the fall, and she currently has an excellent (and wireless!) pair she is using now.

Through the GoFundMe, we’ve been given access to some items that have been massively helpful while we search for long term medical purchases. Thank you to the folks who have been helping us get a foot (or rather a wheel) in the door with medical suppliers!

So far, we’ve managed to raise $24,480 thanks to the generosity of donations and the sharing of Addie’s story. Now we find ourselves filled with a much-needed hope for the hurtles ahead as we continue our fight by the Graf family’s side.

And finally, we have the next step. We have been given the opportunity to purchase an accessible van for Addie and Tricia. The dealership has been deeply empathetic and flexible to our needs. Thanks to that, they have generously agreed to give us a major discount.

However, we only have 21 days to keep the van & deal on hold, and reach our needed new goal of $65,000.

Thankfully, we are already a quarter of the way there! If we can come together and raise 40,000 more by the end of the month, we will be able to buy that van, and help Adeline explore the world more than she has been able to in years.

We hope you will continue with us on our journey by continuing to donate, share, and reach out for any help you may find.

Thank you again for everything!

Help august really did slip away into a moment of time 😭

the last days of summer

… they always have something magical and destressing. I’ve always feel a inner peace when summer ends. Routines are better working because the heat no longer knocks me out on a daily basis. The rainy days come more often. It’s soothing and nourishing to walk through the rain. Also I always look forward to the new semester and love to plan it.

I just can’t wait for autumn to arrive. The pumpkins, hot chocolate, endless rainy reading days, the fire in our wood-stove, the leaves changing the colour, the animals rushing to fill their pantry’s. 🍂🦔

the last pic of my old desk… soon showing my new one

August slipped away like a bottle of wine.

August, Taylor Swift 

Crunchy leaves season!

Wait for it

-J. L. Carr, from A Month in the Country

Virginia Woolf, A Writer's Diary, August 18th 1921

taking a look back at august, i want to thank that cab driver who calmed me down as i panicked i'd miss my bus home and let me use his charger when my phone was dying and ended up making sure I was five mins early to the bus station. i want to thank the kind man who saw my lost face and directed me to the correct platform in the metro station. i want to thank the friend who surprised me with flowers on friendship day. i want to thank taylor swift for keeping us in the feels with her song august. i want to thank the teacher who called me in and told me that she was happy for me that i was taking a day off to go home early and how i can compensate for the class i'd miss. but most of all, i wanna thank august because despite being a hectic month, i had a lot of nice memories too.

Last Dungeons and Doggies!!! Dachshund + Wizard. 🧙‍♂️✨

Thank you y’all for coming along on this wonderful adventure with our crew of pups. Can’t believe it’s already over, this month flew by!

Did you have a favorite Dungeons and Doggies? Let me know down in the comments! 🩵

finally, it is September, I am alive again <3 🌸

I feel my fingernails breaking on the last day of august