In The Future

I was a woman for 21 years. For 21 years I didn’t question that, I didn’t feel like I should be anyone else. Until the days leading up to my months in Costa Rica. I was sitting with my friends Artemis and Cailey and we were talking about growing old. I mentioned that I couldn’t picture myself as an old woman. I didn’t see a grown version of myself who fit that shape. And I mentioned that when I imagined myself as an adult, as the teacher I aspire to be, I pictured a man. Artemis planted a seed in my brain by stopping me and asking ‘why do you think that is?’

I spent two months in Costa Rica on a veterinary internship and it was one of the hardest two months of my life. I was away from home, surrounded by people who I didn’t feel safe being queer around, and questioning everything about my identity. We had a lot of free time in the evenings because we couldn’t leave the worksite with COVID restrictions and I spent hours reading and learning about what it meant to be trans masculine and trying to figure out if what I was feeling was valid. If I could trust myself.

For two months while I was away I read this poem, these lines, over and over and over again. Every time I read it I was talking to myself. Telling myself that someday I would be some other, better, truer version of me. I had the idea for this comic when I was in the back of my coworker’s car driving through the palm fields on our way out to buy supplies.

I envisioned this piece as one where I would be talking to my present self about the future. Life took over and I never got around to making the comic. Now, 1 year later as I draw, I realize that I’m not talking to myself about the future. I’m talking to my past self from the future she imagined. It’s a thought that brings tears to my eyes even as I’m typing this.

I am such a different person today than I was 10 years ago. 5 years, 1. I don’t regret any part of my journey, and I feel so much love for my community and for every queer and trans person who has shared their identity both interpersonally and publicly. I wouldn’t be Theodore without seeing others around me who shared their stories. It’s my hope that I can contribute in the same way to anyone who is exploring their gender and sexuality.

Happy pride month 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️

To my enbys

Trans culture is knowing someone you know isn't cis, but you can't tell them because of The Rule ™ so you have to gently encourage them and push them in the right direction, leaving the discovery to them

The "___-culture-is" blogs are the best part of tumblr. You agree. Reblog

Be the robot of your dreams not your memes.

Raine for thé non-binary flag

Happy birthday Verity. It's been quite a year.

Here's to many more.

no it’s just the fact that everyone respects raine’s pronouns and NEVER gets them wrong that really makes me feel seen as an enby with the same pronouns-

I recently started coming out to almost everyone I know and it feels so good to be able to be myself and no longer have to hide how I feel. It took me a long time to even realize I was nonbinary, not because I was unsure of my identity, just because I didn't know there was a word for it. For years I thought I was the only one who felt this way about gender. I have always felt like I was in between woman and man, never a man but never really fully a woman either. I thought I was broken, that something was wrong with me, that I was a freak. But there is nothing wrong with me, there is nothing wrong with how I feel gender is a spectrum and humans are not meant to fit nicely into societies gender binary. We are individuals and no two humans are exactly alike. And that's OK.

It sucks that I know who I am now, but I can't actually be that person yet.

Does anyone else weren’t a fan of extremely male/female-coded media when you were a kid and grew up until you realized you're non-binary?

That's me 🙋🏻

Bonus if you loved characters who defied gender norms and didn't know why!

(Of course, it's not a rule, you can love gendered media and be non-binary!)

(Also, my autofill replaced "gender norms" with "gender nonsense" and it is so accurate. I love you, autofill!)

reblog with something that you think is the most non-binary thing about you. I'll go first, i wear these old people walking shoes everyday to college and i deem that to be the most enby thing about me.

Mothem.

you’ve heard of “gaslight, gatekeeper, girlboss” and “manipulate, mansplain, malewife”. now get ready for “Exploit, Emasculate, Enemy”