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idealuk · 2 days
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Full context is so important, and I feel like I've been speaking into the void when I point out what they've actually said versus people going "Buddie is happening." Of course I want it to, but I also don't think it's fair to end up accusing Oliver or Ryan of queerbaiting when people are removing the full context of what's been said.
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sorrowingsoldier · 2 years
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Rating: Teen 

Relationships: Evan “Buck” Buckley/Eddie Diaz
Additional Tags: Fake Dating, Getting Together
Summary:
“Now, logistics, what are they?”
“Cousin’s quincé. Two weeks from now, the colors are ivory and maroon. Chris is part of the court. I am expected to be there with,” Eddie looks around the room, licks his lips, and says: “My boyfriend.”
Hen jots everything down in little bullets, “Okay, so the biggest obstacle is asking Buck?”
Chim snorts, lightly bouncing on his heels to entertain Jee, “Asking Buck to the quincé is the easy part, he’d be ready to go if you told him it was two hours from now. It’s the—the…” Chim searches the air like the words escaped him.
“Confession,” Karen offers.
“Yes!” Chim points at Karen, “That’s going to be the hard part.”
(Or: The one where Eddie has to pretend Buck's his boyfriend)
Word Count: 8k
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mattzerella-sticks · 2 years
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Imagine if, despite in the previous episode about how Lucy shouldn’t make a ‘mess of Buck’s family’, Taylor gets angry with Buck and storms over to Eddie’s where he’s watching Chris and actually brings ‘the mess’ with her and into what has - and we can all agree - Buck’s home with Buck’s family, and they get into an argument that ends with their relationship breaking up and her storming out of Eddie’s house and leaving Buck with all that baggage and mess in Eddie’s house (throwback to the beginning of the season where Ana left Eddie with ‘his mess’).
And while Buck tries to make it seem like everything is normal, Chris asks if he’s okay and if he and Taylor broke up because of him and Eddie. To which Buck has to tell Chris that it was because of lots of reasons, but never them. And this would be Buck admitting the truth to Chris, as he’s someone he can’t lie to, and in part admitting it to himself that his and Taylor’s relationship was over.
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sadieb798 · 9 months
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man idk why Eddie and Buck isn't canon like it's obvious they love each other
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svd126 · 11 months
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So with 911 moving to abc we might have a better chance of buddy going canon but abc like to kill off major characters so let’s hope that doesn’t happen
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Buck & Eddie: Before Buck’s Breakdown
Eddie had a mental breakdown in S5 but Buck could be heading towards having a breakdown of his own in S6.
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This post includes detailed character studies on Buck and Eddie to illustrate how Eddie’s behaviors led to his mental breakdown and how Buck’s past and recent behaviors could lead to him having a breakdown of his own.
Eddie and Buck have experienced a lot of traumatic events both together and separately.  Those events have led them to therapy but Buck stopped talking to Dr. Copeland towards the end of season 4 and by the end of season 5 he hadn’t returned to therapy.  Eddie restarted his sessions with Frank after Bobby ordered him to go back into therapy for the second time in season 5B.  If the narrative about the way Buck doesn’t deal with things that affect him continues, it’s possible he could have a mental breakdown of his own in season 6 that could be worse than the one Eddie experienced.  They’ve both said they felt like they weren’t enough but Eddie said it in season 3 while Buck said it in season 4; therefore if their storylines keep paralleling, then all the pain and hurt Buck’s been carrying around with him for the last 31 years could contribute to him having a breakdown in season 6.  Let’s review some of their behaviors and compare some of the things that contributed to Eddie’s breakdown with Buck’s behaviors and how they could lead to him having a mental breakdown of his own.
Relationships
Buck and Eddie have experienced lopsided relationships with women who truly didn’t know them, used them to get what they wanted and broke their hearts. Those relationships led to them blaming themselves for being abandoned or hurt but some of the contributing factors that caused their relationships to end, weren’t their faults.  They both took the initiative to breakup with their girlfriends in season 5 since the relationships weren’t what either of them needed.  The difference is Eddie admitted the real reason why he needed to end it during his breakup but Buck didn’t.  Buck avoided the real reason why he should have ended it long before they reached the one-year mark of their relationship.
Eddie
Buck told Eddie to breakup with his girlfriend
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Buck told Eddie to break up with his girlfriend in 5x2 “Desperate Times” because he knew Eddie wasn’t all in with her after he said he was planning to “stick it out” even though he knew it wasn’t working and it was causing him to have panic attacks.  He also realized that Eddie was only with her because of Christopher when he said, “My kid loves her” and Buck asked him if that was enough.  Buck continued and explained how he had been in a relationship with someone who wasn’t all in and how it hurts worse than the truth.  Eddie realized that he was only with her for Christopher’s sake so he had to decide if he was going to keep ignoring the red flags that were glaringly obvious in his relationship or if he was going to take a stand and do something for himself. Buck telling him he should end it was what he needed to hear and while Eddie had the benefit of someone telling him to end his relationship, Buck didn’t.
Eddie’s admission
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Eddie admitted the truth to his ex-girlfriend in 5x3 “Desperate Measures” when he said, “I thought it would work. I…I did. The idea of us. Chris loves you so much”.  That was his admission to her and to himself that things would never work between them because (1) his heart wasn’t in it and (2) he was doing it for Christopher instead of for himself.  He cared more about the idea of them instead of actually wanting to be in a relationship with her.   Even though Eddie continued to use Christopher as a shield in 5x10 “Wrapped in Red” when he quit the 118, he did demonstrate how he had grown a little bit from using Christopher as a shield when he broke up with his girlfriend because he realized that he wasn’t in the relationship for the right reasons.  He thought he needed to find a mother for Christopher and based on the things he said to Bobby in 3x8 “Malfunction”, Eddie didn’t believe he was enough for someone to love both him and Christopher after his deceased wife asked him for a divorce in 2x17 “Careful What You Wish For” right after she told him that she didn’t want to be a wife or a mother anymore.  Eddie also quit his job because he was scared; therefore the time he spent in therapy after 5x13 “Fear-O-Phobia” helped him to grow even more once he understood that it was ok for him to want good things for himself instead of him just wanting Christopher to be happy (read blog post: “Eddie Diaz:  He’s going to therapy so that he can be better for himself” for more about Eddie’s therapy).
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No one told Buck to breakup with his girlfriend
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No one told Buck he should break up with his girlfriend even though someone probably should have; therefore he suffered through a roommates with benefits type of situation for a year only to finally end it with her after she broke a promise she made to him when she agreed to keep the information Chimney and Hen shared with them in 5x17 “Hero Complex” off the record.  Maddie didn’t tell him he should breakup with her when she returned in 5x13 “Fear-O-Phobia” even though she was very vocal with him in 2x1 “Under Pressure” about how she felt frustrated with the way his first girlfriend had abandoned him.
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She even explained how the love part of an “Eat, pray, love” journey” is when the woman is out banging other guys so that he would understand that his first girlfriend wasn’t coming back to him.  She was right because his girlfriend didn’t return until two years later after she had a fiance’ and a family and she didn’t apologize to him.  At the time, he didn’t want to believe what Maddie told him so he kept waiting for her because he told Maddie that he liked who he was when he was with her. He identified himself via the relationship he had with her instead of learning who he was and how he needed to be in a healthy relationship with someone who would return his feelings instead of using him as a distraction like she did.
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Eddie didn’t tell Buck to breakup with her either in 5x18 “Starting Over”, he just told Buck that he shouldn’t keep holding on to all his anger because if he did then he would eventually snap.  Buck didn’t show any signs of growth after he spent a year with her in his loft looking unhappy and unsettled but when Eddie’s comment from 5x18 about Buck’s relationship is compared to the two conversations they had after the lawsuit, Buck’s ability to show growth can easily be identified.
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In 3x6 “Monsters” Buck offered Eddie his first apology for filing the lawsuit after he returned to work and Eddie wouldn’t talk to him.  After he made Eddie start talking to him at the end of their shift, Eddie asked him if he considered how filing the lawsuit would have affected them and Buck replied, “I needed my job back. I missed being here.  Being part of the team. I never meant for anyone to get hurt”.  Eddie called him out on it when he said, “There are a lot of I’s in there, Buck. Your actions, your choices, they impact the rest of us. That’s what it means to be a part of a team”.  They made up but Buck apologized a second time a few weeks later after he realized his mistakes.
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Buck demonstrated growth when he admitted to Eddie during his second apology in 3x9 “Fallout” that he realized what he did was wrong when he abandoned Eddie and Christopher. He proved it when he said, “I’m sorry I wasn’t there Eddie. You and Chris needed me and I had my head so far up my own behind with that stupid lawsuit”.  Eddie said, “We’re way past that Buck” and Buck said, “I’m not! I should have been there”.  Buck not only learned from his mistakes, he admitted to them and apologized for the mistakes he made during his conversations with Eddie but the way he handled the breakup with his girlfriend was completely different.  He didn’t show how he learned from his past except for the fact that he ended the relationship with her instead of him waiting for her to do it.
Buck’s non-admission
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Buck never admitted to himself that he wasn’t happy in his relationship with girlfriend #3 and the only reason he finally broke up with her was based on information he already knew and she reminded him of that when she said, “You knew who I was when you started dating me”.  Buck learned in 2x8 “Buck Actually” that she would put her job above everything else because it was important to her.  She was willing to embarrass him and his entire found family at the 118 after they had been dosed with a hallucinogen in 2x6 “Dosed” and she told him to his face that if the decision had been hers, she would have aired all the footage, including the part that showed Bobby standing on the roof of the firehouse when he was about to commit suicide.   Therefore Buck shouldn’t have been surprised at her actions in 5x17 “Hero Complex” after he spent an entire year with her and she hadn’t changed.  He broke up with her because she broke a promise to him but he didn’t breakup with her because he was unhappy (read blog post: “Evan “Buck” Buckley:  Promises are very important to him” for more about Buck and promises).  If he had broken up with her earlier and it had been based on his unhappiness, it would have demonstrated how he grew and learned from the past instead of him repeating the same mistake by dating her for a year and thinking he could learn to live with it.
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He didn’t even discuss how unhappy he had been with her after he spent months in his loft looking confused, uncomfortable, sad, frustrated and sometimes angry.  After she told him about her childhood in 5x9 “Past is Prologue” and he chased her all the way to Oklahoma, he sat on the couch looking angry and frustrated as he hugged her.  It seemed like it was déjà vu for him because it was similar to the way he sat on the couch with girlfriend #1 before she abandoned him.  Then he asked her if she was angry with him for following her and she told him that she loved him for it.  He did the one thing she had been trying to get him to do which was chase her even though he said he didn’t want to do that again.  He was making the same mistakes all over again and the reason for him ending it only showed growth with regards to him understanding he could be the one to end a relationship.  Him breaking up with her didn’t show how he grew with regards to the things he should want for himself from a relationship.  Relationships take work not just co-habitation and it seems like that’s what Buck assumed after he asked her to move in with him.
Doors
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After their breakups, Eddie’s ex-girlfriend closed the door to his kitchen while Buck’s ex-girlfriend left the door to his loft opened.  Eddie’s door being closed by his ex-girlfriend after he broke up with her, illustrated how his closed door could have represented a finality for him with regards to certain types of relationships. Was it meant to signify something specific with regards to his next relationship? Or could it mean he’s finally ready to admit who he wants to be with in a relationship? Does Buck’s opened door after she left mean he hasn’t admitted what he wants in a relationship?  Buck’s door being left open could mean a lot of things.  Since he never admitted that he was unhappy in that relationship and how he should have ended it way before he actually did, it could mean he might repeat the same mistake again in a future relationship.
Breakdowns
Eddie’s breakdown
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Eddie’s breakdown had been building for years and even though he tried to keep pushing everything down so that he could keep moving forward, he couldn’t.  He desperately tried to go back to the way things had been before he quit his job when he tried to transfer back to the 118 but Bobby ordered him to go to therapy after he saw Eddie’s appearance in 5x11 “Outside Looking In”. He couldn’t continue running from his past and once Frank gave him a therapy assignment to complete, the metaphorical box he had been placing his emotions and feelings into, exploded just like Frank told him it would in 5x13 “Fear-O-Phobia”. Eddie’s breakdown happened after he had to face the fact that he almost died several times over the years including the three times he almost died while he was a firefighter, i.e., The Well, The Shooting and The Hostage Situation. He was faced with his PTSD and the fact that everyone he served with had died even though he pulled them all out alive from the downed helicopter. That’s why he kept saying “They’re all dead” after Buck broke down his bedroom door.  He had to face his own mortality and he couldn’t understand why he was still here.
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In 5x14 “Dumb Luck” he told Bobby “I can’t believe they’re all gone and I’m still here. I’m not sure why." and Bobby replied, “That’s a question you will never be able to answer. You can chalk it up to the grand plan of some higher power or just dumb luck. But either way the result is the same, you are still here”.  Eddie said he didn’t know what to do with that but Bobby said he needed to find a way to heal and that’s what he started doing in therapy when he finally took it seriously.
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Eddie told Bobby in 5x18 “Starting Over” “Look I spent the last few months trying to put away a lot of things from my past and move on. What I’ve learned is you can’t carry someone else’s weight; it’ll take you under”.  Eddie was finally growing and learning that he had to not only deal with his past, but he also had to accept it for what it was, admit to his mistakes and he learned how to start moving on.  His growth after years of pushing things down can easily be identified based on the two conversations, he had with Bobby in 5x14 and 5x18 but only portions of Buck’s growth can be identified since he never admitted that he was unhappy within his relationship.
Buck’s behaviors over the years could be leading to a breakdown
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Buck hasn’t had a breakdown yet but he’s well overdue for one because he hasn’t really dealt with any of the things that happened to him or that disappointed him over his lifetime.  He’s avoided dealing with the abandonment he’s experienced from his parents and his ex-girlfriends, Eddie almost dying multiple times, the fact that he wants a family of his own and the fact that he almost died after the ladder truck bombing.  Even though Buck defined what love means to him in 5x18 “Starting Over”, he didn’t define what a good relationship means to him (read blog post: “Buck & Eddie: “That’s love!” for more on Buck’s definition of love). Therefore he hasn’t demonstrated any growth in that area of his life yet because he keeps trying to find it instead of making a relationship with someone who loves him endlessly and who won’t take advantage of him.
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Buck tells everyone that he’s happy for them after they’ve hurt him or he apologizes to them even though they don’t apologize to him but he never deals with the fact that he’s unhappy. He should have told his first girlfriend after she returned in 3x18 “What’s Next?” that she did him dirty when she abandoned him in 1x10 “A Whole New You” but he didn’t.  He told her “I’m glad to see you happy [insert her name]. You deserve it”.  He was happy for her that she found herself but he was still hurt after he had spent months waiting for her to return but he never dealt with the hurt he experienced when she came back with a fiancé and a family.  He should have told girlfriend #2 that her waiting to breakup with him until right after he was discharged from the hospital in 2x18 “This Life We Choose” was a trifling move but he didn’t.  He was hurt by her actions but he pushed it down and tried to keep moving forward and focused solely on getting better so that he could go back to work.  After spending several months in a relationship that did nothing but make him feel sad, depressed, lonely and frustrated, he never told girlfriend #3 how him being with her wasn’t good for either of them.  All of those interactions proves that he’s holding onto all of the hurt he experienced from those relationships without him ever learning how to truly move on and get past it.  He just keeps letting it pile up and if he’s not careful the metaphorical box that he pushes his feelings into will explode just like Eddie’s did.
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He told Maddie in 5x13 “Fear-O-Phobia” how he realized he was clinging to his girlfriend and how she had been there for him when he felt like everyone had left him behind but he never admitted that he was unhappy.  It seems like Buck still believes he has to take whatever leftovers someone offers him in a relationship and he doesn’t believe he has a say in it.  If all his past relationships with women are any indication of his growth, it’s easy to see there hasn’t been much of that for him.  He constantly gave while they took but he didn’t learn that he doesn’t have to always be the one giving.  Buck can’t think clearly when he’s in a relationship because he gets distracted with the idea of what he believes a relationship should be and then he describes it with words like “functional” which clouds his judgment and prevents him from being able to see the red flags that are always present.  All of the women he dated never truly got to know him and if they had they would have realized they gave up on a good man who loves with his whole heart and who will do anything for anyone. Buck just wants to be loved and when he’s in a relationship he tries to give his all.  He’s the fix it guy so he keeps trying to fix things even though he can’t and Eddie told him that in 5x4 “Home and Away” when he told Buck, “You’re the guy who always likes to fix things”.  Buck tries to fix things for everyone else but he never stops to fix things for himself.  He avoids dealing with his own problems and for whatever reason he keeps doing it.
The buildup to Buck’s breakdown
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In 4x3 “Future Tense”, after Buck told Maddie that he was in therapy while he was at her and Chimney’s apartment, she went to his loft after he left so that she could find out why he started talking to Dr. Copeland.  He told her that she was the reason when she called him sad and lonely in 3x16 “The One That Got Away”. She was taken aback by it and explained how it had been months since she said that but he told her those were the kind of words that stuck with him (read blog post: “Evan “Buck” Buckley:  Words can hurt or heal him” for more on their conversation).  When she asked him why he believed she couldn’t help him or that he couldn’t talk to her, he told her it was because he thought she was sad too.
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During the first dinner with their parents in 4x4 “9-1-1 What’s Your Grievance”, after Buck went into the kitchen with Chimney and Albert, Margaret said, “Evan seems good.  After you called, I was expecting…I don’t know what. But he seems fine”.  But Maddie said, “Yeah, I think he’s better at that than we think. Seeming fine”.  His parents still don’t know who Evan is and they were completely oblivious to the fact that he was hurting.  Buck wasn’t fine and Maddie knew it but his parents didn’t understand because they didn’t raise Buck, Maddie did.  Since Maddie raised him she knows how he acts in different situations and she also knows how he acts fine when he really isn’t.
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Buck almost gave up in 4x5 “Buck Begins” when he questioned who he was after he learned his family’s secret about his dead brother Daniel.  His parents were at the firehouse waiting for him and even though they never apologized to him, he told them that he was sorry that he couldn’t save Daniel.  Buck was still taking the blame for something that wasn’t his fault and Eddie told him that after Buck told the 118 how he had been born for “parts, defective parts”.  Eddie said, “That’s not on you” but Buck said, “I doubt they would agree”.
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When he went to Chimney’s apartment after the conversation with his parents, he told Maddie their parents asked him to forgive them and he told her that he did.  Buck entered with sad eyes, looking down and appearing like the weight of the world was on his shoulders.  He looked so young when he met Maddie’s eyes and it was probably the same way he looked at her when he was a child.  He was hurting and Maddie knew it so she tried her best to be there for him.  He looked sad but when he saw Maddie’s concern for him, he pushed it down and put on a happy face.  Buck did what he does best, he apologized to or told people who hurt him that he was happy for them while he ignored his own feelings of being sad, hurt or depressed.
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In 4x8 “Breaking Point”, Buck started pursuing the woman he KNEW he should have avoided because of his encounters with her from 2x6 “Dosed” and 2x8 “Buck Actually”.  He told her he wanted to be in a meaningful relationship and she told him that his life was already filled with meaningful relationships.  He continued to pursue her even though she kept friend zoning him. She told him to his face that he was “needy” after she had just embarrassed him in front of Albert and Veronica when she told them he was intimidated by strong women. Buck looked mortified when she said that so the only logical explanation for why he kept pursuing her after all of those interactions was he believed that she was all he deserved.  She treated him like his mother used to when he was growing up (read blog post: “Evan “Buck” Buckley: HUSBAND vs. HIMBO” for more about Buck and the way women have treated him).
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Then she friend zoned him again in 4x12 “Treasure Hunt” but she did a 180 degree turn after Eddie was shot and told him in 4x14 “Survivors” that she wanted him.  The only thing that changed for her in the week it took for her to tell him she wanted to be with him was the fact that Eddie was in a coma and she made her move on Buck while he was vulnerable (read blog post: “Buck & Eddie: Buck has always been in LOVE with Eddie; Taylor never had a chance” for more on the topic of how Buck was approached after Eddie had been shot).
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Buck had also become unhappy at work after Maddie and Chimney left because he blamed himself for Chimney being upset.  Instead of placing the blame where it should have been, he thought it was all his fault and he wanted to fix it for everyone.  He was so upset that he wanted to transfer out of the 118 but Bobby wouldn’t let him.  Buck’s answer to everyone else leaving him was to leave too which would have only made him more unhappy but he still hadn’t grasped the idea that when people leave, it didn’t and doesn’t always have something to do with him.  Once again Buck was trying to punish himself instead of placing the blame on those who hurt him. He was willing to sacrifice being with his found family and starting over at a new firehouse so that everyone would be happy but he wouldn’t have been happy so him transferring wasn’t the answer.
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Buck hasn’t dealt with any of his emotions and feelings that he experienced the numerous times when he believed he lost Eddie.  With each trauma he experienced with Eddie, his screams of Eddie’s name became quieter as he tried to mentally prepare for the day when he might see Eddie’s lifeless body.  In 3x15 “Eddie Begins”, after Eddie cut his line, Buck wanted to go down to save him and he told Bobby, “Cap, I should be the one to go down”.  He was willing to sacrifice himself then for Eddie but Hen stopped him when she said, “So we can have two cut lines?”. But when The Well collapsed, Buck screamed Eddie’s name seven times as he tried to dig him up with his bare hands.  When he told the 118, “You all think he’s dead” they knew he was on the brink of another hysterical reaction so they tried to stay calm so that he would remain calm.  He wasn’t ok until he saw Eddie alive and well but he hasn’t talked about it since that time.
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Eddie being shot by a sniper in front of Buck in 4x13 “Suspicion” was traumatic for both of them.  When Eddie hit the ground, Buck went into a catatonic state of shock and couldn’t move.  If it hadn’t been for Captain Mehta, he could have been hit too.  Buck screamed for Eddie and told him to put his hand out as he crawled underneath the firetruck to get to him.  He dragged Eddie’s limp body underneath the firetruck in 4x14 “Survivors”, picked him up, loaded him in the firetruck with help from the 133 and he held gauze to Eddie’s wound to try and stop the bleeding.  When Buck walked through the glass doors to leave the hospital he looked like a ghost.  His face was pale and his eyes were red from crying but he remained cognizant enough to know that he needed to talk to Christopher.  Buck and Eddie were faced with losing each other again and it scared them both but it was different for Buck that time because he was standing right in front of Eddie.  Even though Buck saved Eddie’s life, he was willing to sacrifice himself when he told Eddie it should have been him who got shot while they were in the hospital talking after Eddie woke up from his coma. The Shooting took a mental toll on both Buck and Eddie and they haven’t dealt with any of it or the ramifications that followed.   They emotionally distanced themselves from each other but Buck has tried to talk to Eddie about it twice but Eddie is not ready to discuss it yet (watch and view: “Buck & Eddie: Panic” and “Buck & Eddie: The Glass Doors” to see the two times Buck has tried to talk to Eddie about The Shooting).
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Buck was faced with losing Eddie a third time in 5x6 “Brawl in Cell Block 9-1-1” after they had been held hostage by two escaped convicts.  Buck didn’t want to leave Eddie alone in the ambulance with Mitchell but he reluctantly left after Eddie called his name and said, “Buck!” when Mitchell threatened to go to Eddie’s house and kill Christopher.  Since Buck was inside of the hospital, he thought Eddie had been shot again when he heard a gunshot but instead of running away from the sound, he ran towards it because he thought Eddie was either dead or about to die.  He called Eddie’s name four times but it wasn’t like the way he screamed for Eddie at The Well.  When he saw that Eddie was ok, he listened to Eddie’s instructions and went to get the supplies Eddie requested. They didn’t sit next to each other after it was over and Eddie left to go home to be with Christopher but Buck didn’t follow him.
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Christopher called Buck in a panic about something being wrong with Eddie in 5x13 “Fear-O-Phobia” and Buck rushed to the Diaz house.  When he arrived, he asked Christopher what was wrong and he said, “He won’t come out. I keep calling him but he won’t answer”.  Buck reassured him and he tried talking to Eddie through the door but when Eddie didn’t answer, Buck broke down the door and he was panicked at the destruction he witnessed inside of Eddie’s bedroom. He called for Eddie twice that time but he didn’t scream his name like he did at The Well, after The Shooting or after The Hostage Situation. He called for him with an unsettling albeit quiet panic laced voice and he wasn’t relieved until he heard Eddie crying.  He rushed over to him and asked Eddie what was wrong but concern remained on Buck’s face and he even told Eddie that he was scared out of his mind just like Christopher was.
There have been a lot of other things that have happened to Buck over the last several years but he didn’t start going to therapy on his own until season 4.  TM stated in an interview before season 5 started that Buck had stopped going to therapy and how he wouldn’t be returning to it any time soon. Therefore Buck hasn’t talked to Dr. Copeland or anyone else about all of his trauma, his feelings of abandonment and his unhappiness.  He told Dr. Copeland in 4x3 “Future Tense” that he hides his true feelings from others and he does.  He’s spent a lot of time hiding his hurt and pain so that the people who’ve hurt him won’t know that he’s hurting.  He tried to hide the hurt he felt from girlfriend #1 when he told her she deserved to be happy.  He bit his lip when he told his parents that he was sorry about Daniel and he looked destroyed when girlfriend #2 broke up with him right after he was discharged from the hospital.  Buck can’t catch a break and he’s spent a long time trying to hide the things that bother him by putting on a smile and trying to move forward.  He’s sad and hurting.  Since he hasn’t been in therapy for more than a year and a half, that also means he hasn’t spoken to anyone about the traumas he experienced after Maddie left him again even though it was due to her PPD, Chimney punching him in the eye and the ramifications associated with his job as a firefighter after girlfriend #3 caused all that drama for him in 5x17 “Hero Complex” when she ran that story about Jonah and he was questioned by Chief Alonso.  Buck also hasn’t dealt with the reason why he asked his girlfriend to move in with him in 5x13 even though he knew it wasn’t right and that he wasn’t happy.  He cheated and he got a pass for it because girlfriend #3 didn’t want to know anything about it and she stayed with him because she was clinging to him just like he was clinging to her.  Buck didn’t learn that his actions have consequences too because his girlfriend didn’t breakup with him after he admitted to her that he cheated.  Instead of facing what he did and admitting he was unhappy and it wasn’t working, he just kept trying to keep their relationship together even though it was completely dysfunctional.  Buck deserves to be in a happy and in a fulfilling relationship with someone who will love him the way he should be loved and based on the narrative, there’s only one person who fits that description, EDDIE!
Did he show some growth in season 5?  Yes, he did but it was a limited amount of growth at best because he was the one to initiate the breakup instead of being the one who was broken up with but him doing that doesn’t demonstrate how he learned anything about the way good and well-balanced relationships are supposed to work.  He alluded to the fact that his relationship with girlfriend #3 had been like a comedy or a joke in 5x18 when he said, “That was a comedy” after he reminded Maddie of the Rom Com movie about the lady with amnesia. While Buck defined what love should be for himself in 5x18, it appears he hasn’t connected his definition to the way it should fit into a romantic relationship for him.  It takes Buck a while to connect the dots with regards to lessons and assignments he’s learning throughout the seasons so it appears he still may not have realized the relationship he’s wanted all along is available to him (read blog post: “Evan “Buck” Buckley:  Life Lessons Learned” for more on Buck and lessons).  Eddie’s moving forward and if the narrative continues, he will be the one there to help Buck pick up the pieces of his broken heart. Since several questions remain regarding Buck’s mental state, hopefully they will all be answered in season 6.  
Will he finally go back to therapy? Will he face his issues of abandonment while he’s in sessions with Dr. Copeland?  Will Buck and Eddie finally talk about all of their shared traumas?  Will he have a mental breakdown?  Will it take him almost dying in front of Eddie for them to confess their love for each other?  How will Eddie react if Buck has a breakdown and needs the same kind of attention Buck gave him in 5x13 and 5x14?  Only the showrunners, writers and producers know the answers to those questions.
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scottsumrners · 1 year
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they should invent a 911 fox tag that isn't filled to the brick with dumb ass eddiebuck shit
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moncuries · 2 years
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MR CURIES HOLY SHIT IVE BEEN WAITING SO LONG!!!!
I've sort of fallen out of 911 as of late but. EddieBuck my fucking beloved
Smashed it out of the park again :D
Same about falling out w 911!! Absolutely love those two but my heart isnt in it anymore. ty ty <3
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mattmaesonnatural · 3 years
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There's no me without you;      Tim & The Glory Boys
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mellaithwen · 3 years
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I could have showed you all the scars at the start But that was always the most difficult part See, I’m in love with how your soul’s a mix of chaos and art And how you never try to keep ‘em apart I wrote some words and then I stared at my feet Became a coward when I needed to speak I guess love took on a different kind of meaning for me So when I go just know it kills me to leave
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iamjobroloved · 3 years
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T.K. & Carlos are the consolation price for Buck & Eddie and you can not convince me otherwise!
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idealuk · 2 days
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This is a lesson in having the full context.
I had cautious hope after seeing selective clips from this interview on Elon's hell site, but, after watching it in its entirety late last night, I went to bed maudlin and a little dejected, not to mention firmly back on the 'not happening soon' side of the fence.
Can we, at the fucking very least, get the transphobe out of the picture as soon as possible?
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leandra-winchester · 3 years
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Can someone please explain the ‘Red & Blue’ thing to me? I’m relatively new to the fandom (although I’m on my second rewatch of all eps now ^^). Where did red+blue originate and what exactly does it refer to? 
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shewhowillrise · 2 years
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Every time I see a post about Eddie and Buck from 911, I first think it’s about Eddie Brock and Bucky Barnes.
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For @heartless241, who asked for Werewolf Eddie Diaz x Evan Buckley. 
        ...we were just friends...                      .......until we fell in love...
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Buck & Eddie: Buck & Eddie’s Kitchen Scene vs. Their Kitchen Scenes with Ana and Taylor
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This post includes detailed character studies and scene analyses from seasons 3-5 regarding three different kitchen scenes to illustrate the difference between Buck and Eddie’s relationship when compared against the relationships they had with Ana and Taylor.
Please note: this post only includes the kitchen scenes between Buck and Eddie from season 3, Eddie and Ana and Buck and Taylor from season 5. While there are other kitchen scenes that include Buck and Eddie, they weren’t included in this post because those scenes wouldn’t be useful for this illustration.
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Buck and Eddie’s kitchen scene 3x9 “Fallout”
Eddie and Ana’s kitchen scene 5x3 “Desperate Measures”
Buck and Taylor’s kitchen scene 5x9 “Past is Prologue”
Buck and Eddie have spent a lot of time at Buck’s loft and at Eddie’s house in the past and they’ve shared some very intimate moments in CANON with each other during their visits (Read blog post: “Buck & Eddie: Buck said, “This is Eddie’s house I’m not really a guest” for more information on the time they’ve spent at each other’s residences during seasons 2-5).  Their relationship is built first and foremost on trust but it also includes them co-parenting Christopher, them being a singular family unit outside of their found family with the 118 and the fact that they are in LOVE with each other.  Even though they’ve both had relationships with women, the nature of their relationship has always been shown in a way that overshadows any relationships they’ve had with their ex-girlfriends.  It was evident during The Kitchen Scene from 3x9 “Fallout” that Buck and Eddie’s relationship is nothing like one that’s shared between best friends, platonic friends, brothers, bros or even a bromance.  Let’s compare their kitchen scene from season 3 with the kitchen scenes they’ve had with each of their ex-girlfriends from season 5 to illustrate the differences based on comfortability, intimacy and body language.
Comfortability
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For two people to be comfortable in a relationship, they both must let their guards down and become so familiar with one another that they can anticipate the other person’s actions without them having to say anything.
Buck & Eddie
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Buck and Eddie work seamlessly together when they’re at work as firefighters and when they are at each other’s residences as lovers partners.  They exude a certain comfort level with each other that allows them to anticipate and proactively complete any tasks that need to be done and they don’t have to utter a single word.  When Eddie entered the kitchen, they were already in the middle of a conversation. He walked in carrying both his and Christopher’s plates and after he put them in the sink, he strolled over to the island, picked up Buck’s plate and put it in the sink too.  While he was doing that Buck went to the refrigerator to get two beers.  He opened Eddie’s first and placed it on the island and then he opened his own.  Eddie picked up his beer and leaned against the counter and Buck leaned against a different counter but they continued to face and talk to each other as they completed their tasks.  Their actions showed the audience how comfortable they are around each other and it also showed how they’ve performed those tasks several times before because they were completed with a specific level of familiarity.  There weren’t any awkward moments between them as they worked together to get things done all while still communicating with each other.
Eddie & Ana
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Eddie and Ana were not working together as a couple and it clearly showed while they were in Eddie’s kitchen as he prepared to break up with her.  They were together for several months so it should have been obvious that it wasn’t her first time in his kitchen with him but she was uncomfortable and it showed. She was so busy trying to avoid the conversation Eddie was preparing to have with her, that she spent a wasteful amount of time babbling about the dirty dishes she left in the sink and on the table.  Side note: just because the power was off due to the blackout, her trifling @$$ should have hand washed those dishes so he didn’t have to come back to a dirty kitchen.  She was fumbling with the dishes and trying to avoid looking at him; it was almost like she knew what was about to happen but she wanted to avoid all of it.  There were several awkward moments between the two of them before he said, “Ana, stop. We need to talk”.  He hesitated before walking towards her and as she continued her quest to finally clean up his kitchen she continued to avoid him. The audience should have inferred that Eddie and Ana were never in a place of total comfortability with each other and their relationship was never going to last.
Buck & Taylor
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Buck and Taylor weren’t working together well as a couple either and it also showed while they were in Buck’s kitchen discussing him doing something he said he didn’t want to do again which was chase someone. He followed her to Oklahoma when she asked him not to and then she did a 180 degree turn after they returned to L.A.  Buck asked her, “Are you sure you’re not mad at me for following you to Oklahoma?”  She said, “Well, I kind of love you for it”.  That was awkward because of her actions that she took before and after their first conversation about her trip.  She told him not to follow her but he did it anyway. Basically, she said one thing before she left but then changed her mind after he chased her and told him something idiotic when they got back. Talk about mixed signals.  She told him, “Don’t make it weird” but she was the one who made it weird when she brought love into the conversation. They didn’t know each other outside of the bedroom which meant they couldn’t have been at a point where they were ready to speak those words.  The audience should have determined that Buck and Taylor didn’t work well together and were only comfortable with each other when they were in bed together and that’s where their comfortability remained.  Trust was always an issue between them, even during this stage because she asked him not to follow her but he did it anyway.  
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Intimacy between two people can only happen when they truly know each other and intimacy doesn’t always have to include sex.  Therefore of the three kitchen scenes included in this post, only one of the relationships includes a couple who truly know each other.  The intimacy they share is deep enough for them to have an open and honest conversation about any issues.  Let’s review.
Buck & Eddie
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Buck and Eddie were in the middle of a conversation about Maddie, Buck’s sister, regarding an issue she was having at work when Eddie entered the kitchen.  After they put the dishes away and opened their beers, Buck changed the direction of the conversation when he said, “Especially if you aren’t around to see that they need saving”.  Eddie knew instantly what Buck was referring to and that’s why he looked at him the way he did with a side glance.  Buck then started giving Eddie his second apology when he said, “I’m sorry I wasn’t there Eddie. (Eddie looked like he wanted to cry) You and Chris needed me and I had my head so far up my own behind with that stupid lawsuit.”  Eddie replied, “We’re way past that Buck” and Buck said, “I’m not”.  Buck had already apologized once when they were at the firehouse in 3x6 “Monsters” and that was for their work partnership. This time was different because he was apologizing for their intimate/personal relationship.  He wanted to let Eddie know that he would never abandon them again (foreshadowing for 4x8 “Breaking Point” when Chris needed Buck; 4x13 “Suspicion” when Eddie got shot, 4x14 “Survivors” when Buck had to tell Chris about Eddie; 5x13 “Fear-O-Phobia” when Chris called Buck about Eddie’s breakdown and 5x14 “Dumb Luck” when Buck was there for both Diaz boys whenever Eddie went to therapy) and he also wanted Eddie to know that he would never leave them the way Shannon did.  That’s the reason why Eddie looked like he wanted to cry.  It’s obvious they’ve had conversations about abandonment before because they’ve both experienced it. Buck was passionate and sincere during this apology and he finally understood, after he and Eddie couldn’t talk to each other, after he filed the lawsuit against Bobby and the LAFD, how much he loves him.  They can’t live without each other and they share a level of intimacy that couldn’t be matched by any of the relationships they’ve had with their ex-girlfriends and in Eddie’s case with his deceased wife.  They’ve only argued once since they’ve been in a relationship and their argument was just as passionate as both of Buck’s apologies were when they were inside of the grocery store.  The audience should have taken two points from this portion of their scene: (1) even though Eddie accepted Buck’s first apology and forgave him, the second one was needed for their personal relationship because Eddie needed to know Buck wouldn’t abandon them the way his deceased wife did; and (2) Buck and Eddie share something deeper than a friendship because they are co-parenting Christopher, they have built a family together and they are in love with each other.  
Eddie & Ana
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Eddie and Ana were about to have a conversation about them breaking up and she knew it, that’s why she wanted to avoid it.  Eddie finally told her, “We need to talk” and she said, “Those four words” as if to say, ‘I knew this was coming’. Then Eddie said, “Maybe we should sit down” then she got angry and said, “Why? You’re fine. You’re not going to pass out or anything, right? Your heart rate is not going up.” Side note: that was very catty and petty of Ana to throw Eddie’s panic attacks in his face.  She knew in the hospital something was wrong and it was due to her presence, so she should have talked to him when they left the hospital instead of continuing to live a façade of a life with him (read blog post “Eddie doesn’t panic, OK!”  for more information about his panic attacks.   Also read “Buck & Eddie: Eddie flinches when women touch him but he doesn’t with Buck” for more information about Eddie’s hesitations with regards to women).  She wasn’t the cause of his panic attacks but she was a trigger.  He was panicking because she was in the way of his self-made family.  He told Buck in 5x2 “Desperate Times” that he didn’t want a “ready made family” and that’s because he and Buck had already built their family and she was in Buck’s spot.  The longer she stayed around, the more he was going to panic because he wanted Buck to co-parent Christopher with him and not her.  Eddie said, “What do you mean?” She replied “You know what I mean. I don’t want you to panic when you think about me. Or when you think about a future with me.” Their conversation showed there were no levels of intimacy between them because neither of them were willing to talk about all the red flags that were present in their relationship. They both were more concerned with keeping up appearances than talking about the things that really mattered. He wanted to show his parents that he found someone who looks good on paper and she wanted to show off her hot firefighter boyfriend to her family, when they were both faking it! They really didn’t know each other and that was the most telling part of all.  The audience should have realized that Ana wasn’t the nice, kind vice principal she had been portrayed to be when she threw Eddie’s panic attacks in his face. It’s funny now that she’s gone but the audience thought she didn’t have any character development.  She actually did have some during her last scene because THE REAL ANA presented herself and she appeared as a woman who would get snappy and catty if she had to.  She took a pot shot at Eddie and the truth is she was at fault too but she didn’t want to take any responsibility for staying in the relationship when she knew she should have ended it.
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Buck and Taylor were having a conversation about him following her to Oklahoma when she told him not to.  He asked if she was mad at him and she said, “Well, I kind of love you for it”.  When loosely translated that means, she finally got him to do something he told her that he didn’t want to do anymore which was chase her.  She’d been trying to get him to chase her since 4x14 “Survivors” after she kissed him and ran out of his loft.  She said, “I kind of love you for it”, he said, “What?” then she threw a piece of asparagus at him and then said, “Don’t make it weird”.  Side note: WTH was Taylor thinking?  She was acting like a child who didn’t know how to function in an adult relationship when she threw that piece of food at him.  That was the most ridiculous thing ever and she almost took his eye out with that move.  What a stupid b!+c#.  She obviously didn’t have any experience being in a real relationship and that was evident with the way she reacted after she said, “I kind of love you for it”. Adults don’t throw food like babies do when they are trying to get someone’s attention. What were they, in 5th grade?  The audience should have inferred that Taylor was very immature and acted like a little girl when she finally got what she wanted from him.  They also should have realized Buck didn’t believe her when she said she loved him based on the look he had on his face. (Read blog post: “Evan “Buck” Buckley: Taylor Kelly was the “Random Girl” in a bar” for more information about Taylor and how she treated Buck exactly the same way his mother did.)
Body language
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A person’s body language can speak volumes over the words they are saying and some people can have a full conversation without ever speaking a word.
Buck & Eddie
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Buck and Eddie have a lot of ways in which they communicate with each other and one of them is silently.  They don’t have to talk because they can have a full conversation just by looking longingly into each other’s eyes (read blog post: “Buck and Eddie Look at each other with love, lust and passion” for more information about how they look at each other).  After they finished having their conversation about all the issues they had (i.e., Buck filing the lawsuit, Eddie’s fighting, and Christopher’s nightmares), Eddie glanced into the living room to check on Christopher to alert Buck that he was ready to change the way they were communicating so that Christopher wouldn’t hear them.  When Eddie said, “I wouldn’t do that. You’re on blood thinners” (he looked Buck up and down like ‘I’m ready babe because I’ve missed you’) and Buck said, “I’d still take you”. Then Eddie replied, “You think so?” and Buck said, “I know!” and then he strolled over to Eddie with his hand on his belt buckle to let Eddie know he was ready to go upstairs so they could really make up after being away from each other for so long.  Eddie’s slight head nod let Buck know that he was ready to go upstairs with him after Christopher went to sleep.  Their whole interaction should have alerted the audience to several facts: (1) Buck and Eddie have been in a romantic relationship for a while; (2) this wasn’t their first time going upstairs with each other to make love and (3) they always remain mindful of the fact that they have a son who is impressionable so they know what to say and what not to say whenever he’s in earshot of them.  Eddie’s body language was open and he was ready for whatever Buck was willing to give him.  His body language was an invitation and Buck clearly accepted it.  Buck’s body language was open too but the key thing to notice was he kept moving closer to Eddie as they continued to talk while Eddie remained stationery against the counter he was leaned up against.  Eddie wanted Buck to come and get him and that’s exactly what Buck did.  He went to get his boyfriend because Eddie had been waiting on Buck to come back to him since they couldn’t talk to each other.  It’s obvious they missed each other like crazy and this whole scene was CANON which means no one can deny what happened.  It’s out there for the whole world to see it.
Make no mistake, Buck and Eddie were telling each other how much they loved one another and how they are still in love with each other.  Their eyes told the whole story because Eddie was silently telling Buck, ‘Babe, I missed you but you came back to me. I’m in love with you and I didn’t know how to breathe when I couldn’t talk to you.  I started fighting because I couldn’t touch you and it made me a little bit crazy.  I won’t ever do that again.’ Buck silently replied, ‘I missed you so much and you know you’re the love of my life Eddie. I can’t live without you and Christopher. I will never leave you again because I’m nothing like Shannon.’
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The last part of the scene was slowed down so that their silent conversation could be seen better.
Eddie & Ana
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Eddie and Ana were both pretenders and she finally had to accept the fact that her gut was right all along.  Eddie is a beautiful man but he wasn’t into her and of course that had to hurt.  But she was probably more upset with herself since she didn’t end it after she saw the first red flag.  When he said, “I thought it would work. The idea of us” it confirmed what she already knew.  She knew something was wrong and missing from their relationship but she didn’t want to admit it.  When Eddie said, “Christopher loves you so much” and she replied, “Eventually you thought you would too.” That was it, she knew he didn’t love her and he never would be able to because he’s in love with someone else.  Their body language in this scene was telling and it should have alerted the audience to two things: (1) Eddie was closed off from her and any possibility of them remaining in a relationship together was a NO for him.  His arms were folded over his chest to protect his heart and he remained backed up against the refrigerator to protect his back from her.  He didn’t trust her or their relationship and (2) she leaned against a different counter after walking away from him which signified that she was already mentally gone from their relationship even though her body was still physically present. They were never going to be endgame and that’s what the audience should have inferred based on their interaction.  Side note: the way she touched him and kissed him before she left was creepy AF. WTH was she trying to do?  It was super weird but if he didn’t want her before, he definitely wouldn’t want her after that.  
Buck & Taylor
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Buck and Taylor were a gruesome twosome who remained entombed in his loft even after the world started to reopen following the COVID lockdowns.  His body language showed he didn’t care because he kept his back to her and her body language showed how immature she was because she couldn’t even face him when she said, “I kind of love you for it”.  She waited until his back was turned so that she didn’t have to see his face.  That was very immature of her especially since she’s a reporter and knows that she has to see people’s faces to know if they are telling the truth.  Reminder: She was the one who said, “The truth is everything Buck” in 5x7 “Ghost Stories” so it would have made more sense if she had waited until he turned around so that she could see his reaction.  When someone says I love you for the first time, it’s evident that they want that person’s undivided attention.  She was a coward who said it while his back was turned and that should have alerted the audience to two things: (1) she’s never been in an adult relationship before and (2) Buck really didn’t love her based on his facial expression.  She said, “I love you” and he said, “Good, love you too”.   What kind of I love you exchange was that?  It was super weird and didn’t seem genuine from either of them.  Side note: 9-1-1 was trifling AF for not letting Buck’s first onscreen I love you be told to him by Eddie.  
Of the three kitchen scenes included above, it should be obvious which of the three relationships was meant to last and which ones weren’t (Read blog post: “Buck & Eddie: "Their First Time Being in Love" and “Buck & Eddie: Breakups-Eddie & Ana vs. Buck & Taylor” for more information regarding these topics).  TPTB have been very LOUD and INTENTIONAL when it comes to Buck and Eddie’s relationship which includes the journey of their love story. Eddie and Ana’s relationship was boring and like Eddie described it when he said it was “Easy”.  They weren’t comfortable with each other, they didn’t have intimacy and their body language, especially Eddie’s, always showed how they weren’t meant to last.  Eddie was closed off from Ana but he was completely open with Buck.  He’s always shared a deep level of intimacy with him and they are very comfortable with each other.  Buck and Taylor’s relationship was superficial and based solely on sex.  That’s how they started in 2x8 “Bucktually” when they had sex in that bar bathroom.  They didn’t know each other which means they couldn’t be intimate the way Eddie and Buck always have been. Also they seemed uncomfortable around each other all the time.  Whenever Buck would go the loft and she was there, he looked like he would have preferred it if he was in prison instead of going back to see her. He told several people he loved her but that was a lie.  Buck’s own definition of love in 5x18 “Starting Over” proved that he didn’t really love her.  He may have had love for her but his definition illustrated that he’s in love with Eddie.  Buck and Eddie know they are in love with each other and they also know they want to be together.  Now it’s just a matter of time. Will TPTB allow them to become a CANON couple in season 6?  Only they know the answer to that question.
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