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If you or someone you know is struggling with an eating disorder, you are not alone.  

If you are in the United States, please try:

National Eating Disorders Association (support, resources, treatment options)

If you are outside the United States, visit IASP to find help lines related to eating disorders for your country. 

For self-help courses on body image and general peer support, please try Koko. 

If you need some inspiration and comfort on your dashboard, follow Post It Forward on Tumblr.

i really need to trigger my ed but not in a reading random stranger's tumblr meanspo on the internet kind of way but in a being bullied again all through my school years kind of way. to have my mom comment on every single thing i eat again. to have my friends finally admit theyve all been talking to me for laughs and would never actually like someone who looks like me. i just want to be triggered so hard i never want to even look at food again without puking.

When someone asks what my coping mechanisms are..

In other words I'm not coping please excuse my flaming dumpster existence thank you.

hi friends!! i have a made a january 2023 calories tracker!!! feel free to use. this was inspired by kuromisbones <3

sorry if its a bit blurry. idk why it came out that way!!

Remember what you really want. Five minutes of food or a lifetime of being skinny?☕️

Water fast done!

i am going to track my calories again i haven’t been anf ive been eating too much and people are lying to me saying i’m not fat literallt shut up i’m overweight shut up

me having and eating disorder:

my family: you’re killing yourself

me: that’s kinda the point silly

From relapse to relapse I guess

WHY DO THEY MAKE IT SOO FN EASY FOR ME TO STARVE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

About a month ago it was my dads birthday, so we went out to eat. When we were there my sister was not eating anything and was making up excuses not to eat. Saying oh I don’t want to spend the money, eh I’m not that hungry, I’ll eat later, or I’ll have leftovers. All we could get her to have was boba. When we got home she Really wanted to work out, she works out A LOT, idk the last day she didn’t work out.(she plays for THE BEST volleyball club in like in the state!!! Because she plays for suck a good club they obviously work out a lot to, u know get better, which probably Adds a bunch of stress for her to be like SUPER fit or sum) Anyways when we got home my parents were both super concerned, they thought she was starting to get an eating disorder and body dysmorphia. ( as somebody with an Ed I can tell u that’s right we’re my head went when she was like literally refusing to eat like any food) Anyways long story short is that she assured them that she did not have Ed, and that she was perfectly ok, but I’ll tell u one thing, that girl (me) sitting on the bed, she wasn’t ok, she was definitely, 100% worse than ok!!! (Anyways since that day I’ve been watching her a little more closely and I think she does have an Ed, but not a very bad one, maybe ortho or ana...Idrk)

AFTER ONE SKIPPED MEAL THEY WEAR CONCERNEDABOUT HER, THEY WERE WORRIED ABOUT HER, THEY NOTICED HER RIGHT AWAY,

BUT, I HAVE BEEN FN STARVING MYSELF FOR ALMOST 2 YEARS, AND THEY DIDN'T NOTICE, NOT AN FN WORD ABOUT IT, THEY BARELY EVEN FN MENTIONED IT!!!! THEY JUST BLAME MY 40 lbs WEIGHT LOSS (in like 3ish months) ON MY FN MEDS!!!!!! LIKE NO I FN WORKED FOR IT, I EARNED IT, I WOULD FN STARVE MYSELF SKIPPING LUNCH, SKIPPING BREAKFAST, MAYBE EVEN SKIPPING FN DINNER, FOR IT!!! BUT THEY DIDN'T FN NOTICE IT, THEY NOICED HER, THEY SAW HER, THEY WERE WORRIED ABOUT HER!!! THEY NOTICED HER, BUT THEY NEVER NOTICED ME!!!!! THEY SAW HER, THEY NOTICED HER, THEY PAID ATTENTION TO HER, THEY LOVED HER!!! BUT NOT ME, NEVER ME, THEY SAW HER BUT THEY NEVER SAW ME, THEY NOTICED HER BUT THEY NEVER NOTICED ME, THEY PAID ATTENTION TO HER BUT THEY NEVER PAID ATTENTION TO ME...THEY LOVED HER......BUT THEY NEVER, EVER, LOVED ME...NOT LIKE THEY LOVED HER, NEVER LIKE THEY LOVED HER!!! SHE WAS SEEN SHE WAS HEARD, SHE WAS LOVED...BUT I WAS NOT...I WAS FORGOTTEN, NEVER SEEN, NEVER HEARD... BUT ABOVE ALL NEVER LOVED!!! I WAS NEVER LOVED, NEVER SHOWED ATTENTION TO, NEVER REALLY EVEN THEIR... LIKE I WAS A THOUGHT IN THE AIR, I WAS NEVER REALLY THEIR, I WAS JUST IN THE FN AIR!!!

me: binges

also me: 'metabolism day!!!'

prove it to yourself. you can do this.

Can we talk about trying to lose weight with a calorie deficit as someone with autism?

Like all the “healthy low cal” foods are such horrible textures. I end up just not eating anything. Any safe food is like pasta or chicken nuggets or fries or anything insanely high calorie.

The less I eat the less of an appetite I have. It’s a struggle.

You dont need meanspo or any motivation you need self control